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1. Practicing penance and praying the Rosary as in a new Lepanto battle in order to follow Our Lady of Fatima recommendations.

June 8, 2018

2. The importance in my life of the Sacrament of Reconciliation


This is the first blog that I start very late (June 1) and I am still unable to figure out what my Lord wants me to write about! My health has become a nightmare because I am growing in my allergies to foods of all kinds, especially garlic and other products that give flavor to them.. The pain in my knees has become a true cross that takes my attention from everything. This happens because I have to take Tramadol to help me survive it and it makes me sleepy.

Through EWTN, I have been reminded that my actual work is to suffer for the good of others. During this month, I have been exposed to horrific things being mentioned in the media in different ways. I have tried to continue detoxifying my body but I react much worse to some of the components of the products that I bought to do so… In the midst of this scenario of health issues, I live in a home that is simply a dream… The inside temperature is perfect day and night… I enjoy the LIVE Masses that I find in EWTN, especially during the Consecration time. Some of the homilies are fantastic and help me a lot.

One thing that has been constant is to remember is that Our Lady of Fatima came to ask the children to pray and do penance…!!! For prayer, she recommended the Rosary. This is exactly what I do all day… I have found out that I simply tend to WASTE MY TIME as I listen to repetitious news or to the fights between Republicans and Democrats, which are so full of lies… If I listen to Fox news, I hear very clear explanations of what is going on… If I listen to CNN, they twist and turn everything and I end up furious and disgusted… Also, ALL COMERCIALS in television are partial lies… There is one on Aleve and it recommends it for pain that is totally covered for 12 hours… However, it does not completely cover pain and IT can DESTROY your kidneys…

One of the two most popular Hispanic channels presents sexual scenes that are SO HORRIBLE AND TAKEN TO A POINT OF DISGUST, that I simply will not check this particular channel ever. The other one is much better with religious themes here and there and related to Our Lady of Guadalupe. All of these horrors send me to pray more Rosaries for their salvation. But what gives me a much deeper pain, is to hear about how our Priests have abused children… Of course, it is happened all over the world and not only involving our Priests; however we must never forget that they have been given the privilege of bringing Jesus to reside ALIVE in bread and wine and from there to come to our souls and bodiesIT IS MORE THAN OBVIOUS that Satan is desperate but in general, we are not doing anything to stop his job within the Church. The Rosary can do it… and especially Rosaries prayed by members who live saying “yes” to His will.

It is so common to hear religious programs where they are telling you what to do to live a better life, to have a happy marriage, to grow spiritually but THEY NEVER MENTION the fact that the YES of Our Lady opens our soul to the work of the Holy Spirit Who is within, and THIS IS SUFFICIENT to KNOW WHAT TO DO AT EVERY MOMENT OF OUR LIVES… It is sooo simple that psychologists are not needed except for real cases of pathology of the mind… In the midst of my health issues, this lack of explaining the way to grow spiritually by our “yes” make me depressed… In our parishes, people seem to lack the conviction that He is truly Present in the consecrated Host! I cannot say much because this knowledge was given to me at no cost and as child. I understand that we need to pray much and offer penances to have the entire Church get to know Jesus to be truly Present in the Eucharist. We do not need to understand it… We only need to PRAY AND DO PENANCE to have the Holy Spirit give us to live the “yes” that Jesus and His Mother said to God.

This “yes” will make us grow in holiness and give us the guidance to obtain the salvation of many… It is that simple. It is in these moments of feeling down because of what I see and hear in a few good programs but spiritually empty programs, that I KNOW SATAN is in the midst of all of us and for me, I only have to say many Rosaries asking my Mother to ask her Son to change our doubts and plans to evangelize with words only, into a full YES to all that God gives us and to KEEP SATAN OUT of our lives. Again, it is so simple… Please notice how I allow what is going on to distract me and waste even more time, time that I should use to pray and to offer my sufferings for the salvation of souls as we heard the children of Fatima relate to us.


I start writing this section on June 7… I could not type any part of this blog since June 1st. because my vision suffered a big blow. For many years I have used eye drops to alleviate dryness in my eyes … I have used the product made by Visine. On June 2nd. I opened a new bottle and the drops made my left (sickly) eye burn as if I had placed a little fire over it and it lasted for almost 24 hours!!! This was very strange. Since then, I have had to use the leftover of the previous bottle which is identical but does not produce such burning sensation..

Thursday, May 10

As always, I ate only one meal per day. I had my breakfast/dinner meal at 3 PM and it was composed of the same foods: egg whites or chicken from the well known “Whole Foods Market” that has a food bar with most products that are organic… To the eggs or chicken, I add avocados or some veggies from Whole Foods. I drink a glass of milk about twice a day to take my medications since I am allergic to some of them and the milk helps with the discomfort.

As I ate my food at the Mercy hour, 3 PM, I was watching some news and suddenly I realized how terrible is to waste my time… I have known for some time that I need to stop this tendency and to pray more Rosaries in those times. Suddenly, again, I felt a strong call to stop writing the blogs. I asked for God’s help to discern this call and it was coming from my flesh… and probably due to my problems with my health and especially with my vision. Through the Bible, I was led to understand that I should not stop them… This was crucial for the times when I felt the burning with my eye drops (June 2)… Had I not being counseled to keep writing them, this would have been the time to stop all writing. Even that I did not understand why my eye sight was so bad, I also knew that I had to wait for God to resolve the problem in order to write this blog.

Tuesday, May 15

For some days, I have had lots of trouble trying to change my address with Medicare and my secondary health insurance… I could not make them change the automatic payment to my Alabama bank account. Confusion and more confusion went on with the people that I talked to… There was no doubt that Satan was right there confusing me and everybody else. For example, when I thought I had changed it, I would receive letters saying that I was behind in my payments…

At 3 PM, I felt a strong call to write what I understood. The title would be, HOW TO BECOME HOLY

“I must trust all day on God’s will by saying “yes” to all that He orders or allows in my life at each present moment! I should unite such trust to much prayer, especially the Rosary, asking for the grace of understanding the moment to moment guidance of the Holy Spirit. I must trust that such guidance it is meant for me to become the best witness to my brothers and sisters, in order for all of us to grow in sanctity, so that each one of us in unity can truly say, “JESUS I TRUST IN YOU.” I should remember often to thank God for His love and mercy through Jesus’ death and suffering for our redemption, and especially for His Real Presence that will stay with us until His Second coming.”

In hindsight, this also would help me as a reminder at the time that the eye drops burned my left eye. I had to accept the burning pain and pray more Rosaries to understand what God was trying to tell me and always living the words, “Jesus I trust in You.”

Friday, May 25

Again and again I kept listening to many religious programs where the question raised was, “How to know what the will of God is for us.” In general, the answers I heard indicated that finding His will for us is not easy. It was said that we must pray much and read the life of the Saints whose lives can direct us as to what to do.

I realized that seeking to know what is the will of God for us should be secondary to our disposition of always saying “yes” to His will at each present moment and regardless of what it is. Our Mother in heaven did it…Once she knew that she would get pregnant with the Messiah King and to which she said, “yes”, she took off to help her cousin Elizabeth… She never stopped to think if she should do that…. She was full of the Holy Spirit and with Jesus already in her womb, she complied with her call to love her cousin as herself…

We tend to waste time trying to figure what is the will of God for us, knowing well that Satan, our flesh and the world can interfere in identifying correctly what such will is. Once we remember what our duty is and say a big “yes” to whatever that will is, the Holy Spirit will give us the understanding of the true will of God for us for that moment and will not allow our flesh, world or Satan to interfere in our execution of such will.

Therefore, we must do God’s will at each present moment without fearing not to know the details of such will, but on the contrary, being totally convinced that our “yes” guarantees that the Holy Spirit is the One in charge to guide us to stay doing His holy will moment to moment, regardless of what it may be. This is how Our Lady spent 3 months far away from her family and Joseph… This also makes us disciples of Jesus, Who said, “deny yourself, pick up your cross and follow Me.”

Jesus denied Himself through the obedience to His Father, accepted the Cross all the way to His death while curing many and pardoning all His enemies. It should be the same for us. If WE DEDICATE OURSELVES TO LOVE GOD through our decision to do His will with a blind obedience and without fearing our crosses, always seeking ways to love our neighbor, with this plan we are guaranteed that the Holy Spirit will guide us to recognize God’s will at each moment. There is no need in wasting time to figure what the will of God will be tomorrow. It is today, in the NOW, that I conquer this issue opening our souls to the Spirit so that tomorrow I will know what to do…

Right and there, I was able to see the need to pray, especially many Rosaries, so that we can have the intercession of Our Mother in order for us to stay focused on today’s “yes” to God’s will. And I have to place myself in the Spirit’s arms in order to remember that my work of loving neighbor is to pray for their salvation.

Sunday, May 27

Another visit to my future parish Prince of Peace showed me the way these parishioners treat me. On this day, “Sherry” insisted that my son would get my walker from the trunk in order for her to give me her hand to pull me out of the car seat and then, she closed the door. They keep insisting that this is southern hospitality… For me, is the first time ever in any State, including Alabama when twice I visited it in the early 2000’s, that I find so much love… Wow. Also, now I do not even have to ask ahead of time to have the Eucharist be brought to my pew, the last one in this huge church. They run to ask me and sure enough, someone comes. I have not registered as a parishioner as yet because I need to do it when it is convenient to my son’s schedule with his work in California with two hours difference… I do have the registration paper and only need to know if I can send it via mail with a canceled check for them to get our monies on a monthly basis directly from the bank account.

Monday, May 28

I found in the Hispanic channel the stories of how children and teen agers are being captured to be sold and used in a prostitution ring; worse, they capture them and kill them to sell their organs… for transplantation. In my country of Costa Rica, a woman sold two Nicaraguan’s 11 year olds for $180… They were suffering malnutrition and had been beaten all over! All these stories clearly indicate to me the need to pray a lot and accept my sufferings as I offer them for the salvation of many souls.

Tuesday, May 29

Ireland joined the nations that allow the killing of babies in the womb… And who is responsible for this? Of course, Satan and all of us who have the POWER to stop him. The Holy Spirit should reign in our souls through our “Yes” to God’s will, our prayer (Rosaries) and penance secondary to all our crosses and being offered for their sins as Our Lady of Fatima came to advice us to do…We are wasting the power of the Rosary and of our crosses… Worse, we are allowing Satan to tempt us to remain indifferent to all the needs of our brothers and sisters.

Sunday, June 3

After receiving Communion, I asked Jesus to help me with my vision to write this blog. He asked me to check page 877 in my Bible and to find a word in the middle of the page that will make me understand what it is that I should write about…

Tuesday, June 5

I must warn you that this section of this blog may not give you consolation or you may not agree with what I understood. However, the word in the Bible given to me in page 877 was “PRESENCE.” I understood that we all must make Jesus Present in every heart… A new Lepanto should be organized and at least in the U.S, we should start doing it! I am not here to tell the Church what to do… I am only writing what He suggested to do! In case you wonder what happened at the battle of Lepanto, at the end of this blog, I will copy a short story of how this battle and others were won through the Rosary.

Next, I will share what we should be doing to conquer souls from the hands of Satan and this world’s paganism or our new Lepanto victory. First of all, all parishioners should be prepared for 3 months (or more) so that the these practicing parishioners (attending at least Sunday Mass) can understand the work to be done, review the Rosary as to what it really is à a review of the life of Jesus, and how it won battles for the Christian world.

The new Lepanto

The time has arrived when we practicing Catholics should be doing something to stop these horrors as mentioned above and to prepare us for His Second Coming, as we rescue ourselves from the lack of love of God and of neighbor. I pray about 3-6 Rosaries a day but could not add too many more even if I do not waste my time. We also need to pray for ourselves as well in order to become true evangelizers.

The time is here to form this army of spiritual soldiers. NOTHING CAN STOP US in our seeking the conversion of all human beings. Jesus said it, “When two or three gather in My Name, there am I with them.” Mt. 18:20. And if He is with us, who can be against us since everything is possible with God!

All parishes should be organized and assign the members that are practicing and attending at least to Sunday Mass, to pray for half hour, one Rosary and one Chaplet of Mercy ONCE PER MONTH… They should be given a specific time and reminded often to keep their promise. If for some reason, they cannot pray it, to do it later on the same day. Doing this, the entire U.S. can PROMISE the Universal Church that second to second, someone is praying a Rosary and a Chaplet of Mercy in atonement for all of our sins worldwide. Those who are older or do not have to get up to attend a family and job, could be given the half hour during the night hours. You do not have to pray as a family since you are already praying as a Church family with many others in the U.S. Catholic Church. Eventually, if other countries start the same program, in the US we could pray only during the waking hours of the day, since the other countries can cover our sleep hours due to the different hour schedules and we as well would cover their sleep hours.

These would be the intentions for the thousands of Rosaries with Chaplets of Mercy.

I. For ourselves

1. For all of us to say “yes” to the will of God 24/7

2. To stop Satan in our lives and all worldly pagan influence

3. For all of us to become disciples of Jesus by accepting our crosses with denial of ourselves, and with an intense vocation to follow Jesus’ teaching and mode of life, loving God and our neighbor.

4. For all of us to receive the grace to know Jesus as truly Present in the Eucharist.

(Let me explain what that means since I have lived it for so many years. This is a feeling of knowing that Jesus is right in the Host and in the Wine previously consecrated to be His Body and Blood. Yes, most Catholics believe it, yet this is not enough. For example, when I enter Church, I say hello to Him like I would say hello to a fellow parishioner who is really present to me. It is as if know that another human being is truly alive when we speak in the phone with him/her, and we know that such person exists at the other end. It is to feel that He is there in the Tabernacle or in the monstrance when exposed. When I enter the Church my eyes are on Him. I cannot see Him as in a phone conversation or when talking to someone in another room of the house, but He is there! I normally say, “Hello, how are You doing? I love You. Thank You for the graces, love and mercy received since we saw each other last Sunday. I come to do Your will.” During the Mass I thank my Mother in heaven for being the instrument for Jesus to be there waiting for me and usually I pray for all the people in that Mass and for Jesus’ mercy to give them graces as I offer my pain in atonement for my and their sins. After I receive Him at Communion time, I tell Him how much I love Him and ask if He has any counsel for me. Sometimes, I do not even have a chance to ask. He immediately makes me understand what He wants me to do… like checking page 877 in my home Bible!

(If one does not find such clear Presence of Jesus when we get close to where He is, we must remember that we are entitled to it just by being sons/daughters of our Father, redeemed by His Son and guided by Their Spirit. This is a grace that can come from our prayer and our penance offered for the salvation of others. It is important to know that this is not just KNOWING THAT JESUS comes to the Altar at the time of the Consecration and that He is there. No and repeating it again, it is a sense of true presence like we have with our friends or family members. Once you get to feel that way (if you are not already there), you can see the difference. I received such grace without any reason except for His will to bless me with this knowledge and probably have me write it in these blogs and many years later…)

5. For all of us to feel that we are an army of Jesus’ followers that can evangelize without knowing much of theology, except for the basics of being kids of the Holy Trinity.

6. Chaplet of Mercy: in atonement for all our sins

II. Praying for the Church

1. To ask for Satan to be annihilated through the power of the Rosary

2. For the sanctity of the Pope and Bishops

3. For the sanctity of all Ministerial Priests and Religious

4. For wisdom for the Pope and his companions to rule over the Church according to God’s will.

5. For all fallen away Roman Catholic members

6. For those who belong to other Christian groups to be guided by the Holy Spirit into the Roman Catholic Church

7. For all Catholic men who have been assigned since their creation to be Priests, to hear the call and to comply.

8. Chaplet of Mercy: in atonement for all serious sins of members of the clergy and for the sins of the laity.

III. For the entire world

1. For all members of other religions that they may understand who Jesus is and to be able to hear His loving call.

2. For all atheists and agnostics

3. For all governments and their leaders


Thursday, June 7

BY THE WAY, I was able to sit down on this June 7 and be able to write most of this blog in about 3-4 hours with just a minor problem in my left eye. However, it did happen ONLY AFTER I understood that the reason behind my problems that had stopped this writing was because I have not been to confession in almost 5 months… When I left California, we already had one car, mine, and my son used it to go to work. Here, I have neither my own car nor a driver’s license to do so. Worse, OUR car is “intelligent” and I could not even drive it! Therefore, trying to survive my bad health has not placed my confession in the first place… Ouch…

I do not have a major sin to confess but I KNOW THAT I AM WASTING MY TIME AND THAT MORE ROSARIES SHOULD BE PRAYED… and this could be a major sin of disobedience to God. I have been placed in this brand new home with all my needs met and yet, I do not use time properly as I have been asked to do… My primary work is to pray many Rosaries for the salvation of souls… I understood that my grave fault is not to have my soul being washed with God’s mercy on a more frequent basis (Reconciliation), and that this had stopped my ability to write this blog.

I did promise my God to run to the confessional as soon as this coming Saturday or the following Tuesday at 2 PM…I was aware of my need to go to confession, but I had to make a plan to be driven to do so and felt that I could wait… But wait for what? Normally, I have a personal confessor since my spiritual life is so complicated and I have run into problems before. I have to hide my relationship with Jesus and His Mother because if I tell the Priest that I talk to God and the Virgin Mary, I could truly look like a crazy old woman or worse, someone who is very proud of such thing. Also, a venial sin of wasting time may never be taken by X Priest as truly important… unless it represents disobedience to God Who wants me to pray many Rosaries…

In general, I wanted to become a parishioner but needed first to have a local bank account and checks to be able to get my membership well established. I also have been praying a lot to know to whom I should ask to be my personal confessor. I even have been tempted to ask a Priest from EWTN to be my confessor… I know them well and would love to deal with someone I know to a certain extent! Yet, I doubt that I will choose the latter option.

Friday, June 8

I celebrate on this day the anniversary of my FIRST HOLY COMMUNION at age 7 when I knew Him as alive in the Eucharist. It was on a Friday June 8, on the Feast of the Sacred Heart of Jesus and exactly as it is in 2018… It is interesting that on this great anniversary, I am asking my readers to consider the plan of using THOUSANDS OF ROSARIES to ask our Mother in heaven to intercede for the salvation of the entire world. Knowing what happened at the Battle of Lepanto, it is the most powerful and easy way to end the loss of so many souls to Satan. These Rosaries will also increase our ongoing conversion to witness holiness to all peoples… In my particular case, I would pray once a month the assigned Rosary/Chaplet of Mercy, and will continue praying several Rosaries for my family and the many intentions I have and that I have shared before… All of this after seeking the mercy of God in the confessional and to be done often enough.

It is also interesting that my Lord did not reveal to me the cause of my inability to write this blog until it coincided with this particular day when the Church designated it as a day for PRAYING A GLOBAL ROSARY RELAY for Priests!


I conclude this blog with 1) a big thank you for all your prayers… It was of great importance for me to get to understand the importance of the Sacrament of Reconciliation, a huge grace of mercy for our relationship with God. I never gave it the importance necessary to keep our souls scrubbed and washed from all kind of sin, even the smallest, in order to see the guidance of the Holy Spirit to know what the will of God is at each present moment!!! Your prayers opened my eyes and prove that prayer is powerful for our spiritual survival until we get home… Thanks again.

2) I am also asking you to keep praying for me… for my spiritual health and for my crosses to be accepted with delight and enthusiasm to be offered for the salvation of all souls. I must remind you that I pray for you as well with a Rosary.

3) Please, also pray for the idea of seeking the victory against sin with our new Lepanto Battle plan or something similar. We know what is wrong and it is time to stop finding plans to bring others home. The time is for the Rosary to end the evil’s work and for us to be converted to say “yes” to His will as a matter of fact… as we wait for the second Coming of Jesus. Thank you.

The Story of the Battle of Lepanto…

Almost from the very beginning of Islam, there were wars upon wars between Christians and Muslims. We remember the Crusade wars, seven major and several minor, which lasted for centuries. This is the story of the Battle of Lepanto, which marked the end of the Crusades and was a turning point in the history of Christianity.

Charles Martel’s victory at Poitiers definitely stopped the Moslem invasion of Western Europe. In the east. Christians held firm against attacks of the Muslims until 1453. In that year, Mohammed II threw huge assaults against Constantinople and by the evening of May 29 the Byzantine capital fell. By 1571 the Muslims were firmly installed in Europe. Their ships ruled the Mediterranean Sea from the Strait of Bosporus to the Strait of Gibraltar and constantly preyed on Christian vessels unless they flew the French flag. 

Pope Pius V, in the last year of his papacy in 1571, tried to rally the nations of Europe to join in a Holy League to stop and roll back the Moslem enemy which threatened the entire continent. Spain, whose King Philip II was also King of Austria, responded favorably.

At dawn on October 7, at the entrance to the Gulf of Patras, the Christian and Moslem fleets finally came face to face for the battle of Lepanto.

The wind and all military factors favored the Muslims, but Don John was confident. He boarded a fast ship for a final review of his fleet. He shouted encouraging words to the men and they shouted back. After Don John returned to his own position, the wind mysteriously changed to the advantage of the Christian fleet. First-hand witnesses wrote about this moment as a most dramatic turn-of-events resulting from an "unknown factor". 

At that very moment, at dawn on October 7, 1571– as Vatican Archives later revealed–Pope Pius V, accompanied by many faithful, was praying the Rosary in the Basilica of Santa Maria Maggiore.  From dawn to dusk the prayers continued in Rome as the Christians and the Muslims battled at Lepanto.  When it was all over the Muslims had been defeated. Of some 270 Moslem ships, at least 200 were destroyed.  The Turks also lost 30,000 men while Christian casualties numbered between 4,000 and 5,000. The Rosary had won a great military victory

The Origin of the Feast of the Most Holy Rosary on October 7th…

Following the great Christian victory at Lepanto, Pope St. Pius V declared that henceforth a commemoration of the Rosary would be a part of the Vatican’s Mass on every October 7.  His successor, Pope Gregory XIII, went further. In 1573 he established the Feast of the Most Holy Rosary–to be celebrated at all Churches which had specific altars dedicated to the Rosary.

In 1671 Pope Clement X extended observance of the feast to all of Spain.

Only 12 years later in 1683 the Muslims again swept into Europe. With 200,000 men, they laid siege to Vienna. After months of valiant resistance by a small garrison, the city was relieved by an army under John Sobieski, King of Poland. The Rosary, to which the King was dedicated, was again instrumental in a military victory. Pope Innocent XI consecrated September 12 of that year to the Holy Name of Mary. The Moslem hordes were hurled back yet again at Peterwardein in Hungary by Prince Eugene on the Feast of Out Lady of the Snows, August 5, 1716. As a result of this victory, Pope Clement XI extended the Feast of the Rosary to the Universal Church.

I. The Eyes of the Body and the Eyes of the Soul.

May 5, 2018

II. Sharing my spiritual life and health problems.

III. The 15 Promises that Our Lady gave to St. Dominic when we pray the Rosary.


It is amazing to realize how our human plans and God’s plans, even for a simple blog on His mercy coming from a simple woman who loves Him, can be so different. I wanted to share first all the teachings received in this month of April, yet, a huge teaching/explanation on the celebration of the Mass, the Latin Tridentine Mass and the Novus Ordo, made me realize that I had to begin with His first idea given to me at the beginning of April, and that is to share with you a document I wrote in 2006 while living in Toledo, OH and just to share with friends.

I had so many things going on between the recent move to Alabama and my health, all while I was diligently trying to say “yes” to this complicated scenario, when suddenly out of one of the boxes came this document and I felt that I had to use it as my blog for this month and nothing else… Its spiritual value seemed worthwhile to do it and that it was truly coming from God’s will. As the month of April progressed, His teaching was profuse and I realized that I also had to share it…! So, I ask you for your patience!



Luke 11:28 – Blessed are those who hear the Word of God and observe it.

Mark 10: 46-53. (Gospel for Sunday, October 29. 2006)

Jesus and His disciples came to Jericho. And as He was leaving Jericho among a sizeable crowd, Bartimeus, a blind man, the son of Timeus, sat by the roadside begging. On hearing that it was Jesus of Nazareth, he began to cry out and say, “Jesus, son of David, have pity on me.”

And many rebuked him telling him to be silent. But he kept calling out all the more, “Son of David, have pity on me.”  Jesus stopped and said, “Call him.” So, they called the blind man, saying to him, “Take courage; get up; He is calling you.” Bartimeus threw aside his cloak, sprang up and came to Jesus.

Jesus said to him in reply, “What do you want me to do for you?” The blind man replied to Him, “Master, I want to see.” Jesus told him, “Go your way; your faith has saved you.” Immediately he received his sight and followed Him on the way.

Luke 11: 33-35

“No one who lights a lamp hides it away or places it under a bushel basket, but on a lamp stand so that those who enter might see the light. The lamp of the body is your eye. When your eye is sound, then your whole body is filled with light, but when it is bad, then your body is in darkness. Take care, then, that the light in you not become darkness.”


On November 1st. on the Feast of All Saints, my Lord emphasized in His teaching to me that the eye of the soul (and not about the eyes of the body, as he says in Luke 11:33-35  with a warning) is the trust we place in His love for each of us, and just as the light penetrates the body through our eyes (Luke 11), so holiness will penetrate the eyes of our soul via our trust in His love, and our work is simply to grow in this trusting as a child does. The Lord used the story of Bartimeus read the prior Sunday to give me a major hint… The blind man believed that Jesus was sent by God by calling Him Son of David; he then prayed because he kept calling Jesus as if trying to establish a relationship with Him. He had no fear because he did not care what others said upon his persistent screams. By this persistence, he trusted that Jesus had the answer. Finally, he used the “weapon” and begged Him by appealing to His mercy, His mercy that would reveal an action, and that action was Jesus’ love for him. He never mentioned he was blind. In fact, “The eyes of Bartimeus’ soul were very healthy.” And my Lord said to me, “And therefore, he received a huge miracle for his sick bodily eyes…”


With the story of Bartimeus, my Lord was calling me to trust every second of every minute that He loves me so much that he will take care of everything else, and this is to show me to proceed in this new profession that will move me very soon into a full time job for the Kingdom.

Note: 2018: and this was a prophetic revelation because at this time, I was in Toledo, OH and I had been without a job since mid 2003 and asked by God to stay calm, despite that I needed some $3,000 per month to pay the mortgage, electricity, water, insurances (car, home), snow plowing and grass cutting, etc.). I had to wait for miracles (they came with two of my sons and right now here in Alabama) by sending me enough money to survive. Let me say that I had RECENTLY prior to this day received the idea that I would be involved with the topic of God’s Mercy. This came because at the time, members of the Divine Mercy Devotion in the United States were planning on building another place to become the Western site for this devotion, as the one in Stockbridge, Mass. They had bought several acres of land nearby San Francisco and I did visited this  empty land when I arrived in California.

However, by 2006 when I wrote this document, I had no permission to sell my house. That came on Thanksgiving of 2007, and the house entered the market on January of 2008. It sold in May 2008, even that for at least the previous year some 10 homes around were for sale … The real estate market for homes was down… I arrived in California on July 7, 2008. My first blog was posted on November 1, 2008, even that I did not know what a blog was… I still believed that I would be part of the effort of building this place for Divine Mercy, and which never came to be.

I still do not remember where the idea of writing a blog came from… However, this present story from 2006 seems to be like in a blog format that was written ahead of November 2008. I would share this writing with a few religious friends. (End of 2018 note)

Copy continues from the November 3, 2006 document

I realized that this time of waiting for my further formation in absolute trust in God’s will was starting right here in Toledo. As I did my Holy Hour with the exposed Blessed Sacrament on Monday, October 30, Jesus asked me to thank Him for everything, for so much that He has favored me with… I was starting to read a list of things that I had written thanking Him for every aspect of my life when He said, “Not so fast! That is precisely lip service. Anyone can do that. You do it in action… Thank Me by the way you submit to My will with “el silencio de Maria!” (With the silence of Mary!).

On this same Monday, I saw a program about Purgatory. It was a re-run from 2004. A very holy priest, Fr. Benedict Groeschel from New York City was talking through the phone because he had just suffered a major traffic accident (he was hit by a car) and was recuperating. He was explaining how for 20 minutes he was without vital signs (no blood pressure or pulse), and he was probably in his late sixties with coronary bypass grafts placed in the recent past. He apparently went through an “after death” experience. He was successfully resuscitated and spent two months with an endo- tracheal tube on a respirator but in a conscious state. He had to live these two months in pure silence with the knowledge of all his sins, which was equivalent to time, lived in Purgatory.

He was a holy kid: an Altar server at age 9. He attended daily Mass at 14; entered the seminary at 17, became a priest and graduated with a PhD in Psychology from Columbia University. He ended up being part of the reformers of this branch of the Franciscan Order, now known as the Friars of the Renewal, pretty much as St. Teresa of Avila did. He had been a formidable preacher, author of many books and well known for his sanctity. Well, when in 2004 he saw his past sins (while conscious with an endo-tracheal tube in place not allowing him to speak), he said in this phone conversation that these sins that lingered throughout his life were important: 1) some came from pride; 2) some from self-adulation but 3) the most exasperating of all: the many times that he did not respond (omission) in his life to the grace of Christ …

I suddenly became fully awake; my spiritual sight was wounded and I decided to tape the program in its re-run at 4 AM. The next morning I listened again to the 15 minutes of Fr. Groeschel’s story while getting ready for Mass. This priest recovered and today he has a Live program on Sundays’ at 7 PM in EWTN. (2018: Fr. Benedict passed away a few years ago but the program still goes on). His memory is intact… and he is still an extraordinary presenter of the Truth… Scientifically, he could have lived but not with a perfect memory or clear speech. No way! His return to this earth was allowed by God in order to tell us more stories that we all needed to hear, and therefore, his message gained even more importance for me! He came back from the grave to warn us!

Well, my Lord asked me to offer the Mass of October 31 in atonement with repentance for exactly those sins of omission. It is not what we do, but what we fail to do!!! As I contemplated my own life, I realized that I have been very complacent in wasting my talents… I asked myself, “For how long can I go on not responding to the graces that have been given to me for the sake of the Kingdom? Ouch, ouch and ouch!!! As I drove to Church I thought of the Ministerial Priesthood and how this Fr. Groeschel is a gem of a priest!

While doing my Holy Hour after Mass, I still had some pain in my right side lingering from my gall bladder inflammation, which has been going on for 3-4 weeks, and my chest was not back to normalcy after my flu just ending. I noticed that I was not coming out of this problem fast enough… I then asked Him to give me a message and answer the following question, “Shall I go to see a doctor? What to do?” He said, “Go to the laboratory (in the same building of my previous job in a surgery center) and order yourself some tests.” I have done it before and I realized that it was a great idea because in California (I had already being invited by son E. to come to live with him) I would not have a license to practice medicine to be able to order them. It was 9:30 AM when I left and visited the lab. I found the same phlebotomist (laboratory technician who draws the blood) and who knew me from the times when I was the director of the surgery center. We talked tons… and she said that a few days before she had asked the operating room nurses about my whereabouts.

Everybody was still questioning my leaving (2003) since I had passed this surgery center after the review by Joint Commission (Federal agency to secure medical safety) regarding our policies and procedures to keep this place in strict adherence to the best practice of medicine for the security of the patients, I had passed it with the highest percentage ever in the U.S.. Yet, the phlebotomist and all other employees of the center did not know that I had been asked to be part of another anesthesia group and to cover through them the surgery center, in order for the owners not to spend my annual $ 225,000 per year salary! I would be paid by the Anesthesia group from another hospital. I did not like the deal at all!

She is a devoted Protestant and of course we talked about the Lord, and she added that she missed me because of my “sermons” on the Crucified during our lunch time periods. Shortly after this meeting, I realized that I had a power within but coming from the Holy Spirit to arouse souls… This was a grace to which I must respond and work as much as my Lord wants me so to remind others about His Kingdom within us and His love for us. What a treasure I had been given. On the same day, I received a fax with the laboratory results and I was not dying. All my organs were functioning well. There was only a slight elevation of the blood count denoting a minor infection going on in my body and probably left over from my gallbladder trouble.

I must add that when I came home, I had forgotten to connect my fax machine. But the Lord is sooo fantastic that He suddenly reminded me to do it and 4 minutes later the results came in!!! I clearly realized that if I repent and want to change my ways, He does the impossible to bless me… He is alive and He is soo good that He sent me to obtain these parameters of my blood chemistry as an answer to do the right thing and at least wait for now to visit a doctor, since I have no health insurance being jobless

In the mean time He used me and I went and preached to Betty, the phlebotomist. I taught her the definition of Mercy. We spoke of Jesus death on a Cross as the greatest act of His mercy for us. We talked about the movie that had come in 2004 and repeated in 2005, “The Passion of Christ.” I said to her that with this movie, He wanted me to have an indelible photograph of His last 12 hours on earth, so that when I feel I am hanging on the cross, I can simply look at Him like the good thief and say to Jesus, “Master, remember me now that You are in Your Kingdom.” He also wanted me to have a clear plan in my spiritual life for this time and do what He asked His apostles to do. He said to them, “Watch and pray.” When I told her that I had been sent to watch this movie 22 times, she laughed but then she cried because she was amazed at the reasons why I had been sent to do so…

I said to her that I had been watching and praying. I had been watching the forces of nature, the hatred among nations, the divisiveness just before a national election with so many lies disguised as truth. I had been praying for His mercy to descend like never before. But His mercy can only be drawn by trusting in His love for me and for the whole world from any nation, creed and race like a child. No other patients were waiting. He simply chose the right time for me to talk about Him with Betty! That is the way He is… He blesses everyone He can and uses us as carriers of the blessing.

During the All Souls evening prayer service of November 2, I saw a baby opposite to my seat across the aisle, and his very young mother was weeping much before the service. However, she never let go for one second of the care with great love for this baby, and I thought of “rahamin.”  This is the Hebrew word that denotes the love of a mother for her baby and which is the mercy of God. If I just automatically believe that I am loved by my Dad in heaven just like that baby was by his mother, I would have won the greatest battle there is. What intrigued me the most was the trust of this 14-16 month old baby in the care and love of his mother. The service lasted almost one hour and he kept rather quiet, awake most of the time, from time to time drinking from his bottle but totally comforted since he was in his mother’s arms. He did not show any desire to move around or to show fear upon seeing so many people around and as WE loudly prayed and sang. What an image!

This question remains, “How to become a child to trust like this one in order to keep the eyes of our souls healthy and truly say, “Jesus I trust in You?

1. We must follow His precepts and obey His Commandments with great determination. We must remember the extra Beatitude, “Blessed are those who hear the Word of God and observe it.”

2. We must keep the silence of our Mother Mary, saying “yes” to all present moments for all the right reasons, as we reject fear, doubts and desires to control our future decisions and plans, all of which represent acts of mistrust in His love.

3. Instead, we must dedicate every moment to: “watch” and identify the graces given to us and respond immediately using them in the ways He leads us but with the very important desire to build His Kingdom, as we beg for His mercy (His love in action), and as we “pray” that we could truly become the best servants possible, so that Our Master may find us prepared for His coming to take us home to the mansion He has prepared for us.

4. We must take heed of the hints given to us by Bartimeus: he prayed with persistence; he trusted that Jesus could heal him; he ignored what anybody else could say or opine. Finally and most importantly, he begged Jesus to show him His mercy, that is, by revealing to him His love through the healing of his eyes. In other words, Bartimeus kept a watch with the eyes of his soul, a form of praying, and he received his bodily eyesight in order to follow Jesus…

5. And as in Fatima, we must constantly make sacrifices for ourselves by following the above divine plan so that we can “see.” We must understand that the building of His Kingdom on earth is all what should interest us… and that we must sacrifice and pray for this to happen.

Building the Kingdom of God means:

1. To officially become fishers of men and direct all we do to save souls. Of course, all we do should always be under the guidance of His Spirit to do God’s will.

2. To pray for the healing of all aspects of the Catholic Church (Ministerial and Common Priesthoods) as she deals within her ranks with the invasion of secularism and indifference.

3. Offering daily atonement and reparation (through Holy Hours, First Friday’s and Saturday’s devotion and the prayer of the Chaplet of Mercy) for the sacrileges, outrages and indifference by which the Sacred Hearts of Jesus and Mary are offended.

4. Acquainting the whole world with the power of His mercy and what it truly means, begging Jesus for it (since He is mercy Himself), for us and the whole world

5. Praying for His Kingdom to reign in our hearts (by offering Masses, Rosaries, Holy Hours and other devotions).

6. Constantly going to Our Mother, the Holy Angels and Saints in heaven to intercede for us for His Kingdom to grow in our hearts.

After receiving this plan, Jesus said to me, “If you want your move to California to be effortless and with all needs met, but most importantly, if you want to build My Kingdom through Opus Misericordiae, be sure that you follow all of the above and as best as you can. The health of the eyes of your soul, like Bartimeus, must be attended to at all times in order “to see” My will in every decision you make, and to have success in submitting to it as a matter of fact out of Love for Me and your brothers and sisters. You have all the knowledge you need. Simply call for My Mercy to implement it and serve me as the best disciple possible.”

Toledo, Ohio, November 3, 2006. (End of document)

2018: Closing note after the document of 2006

As I wrote before, this document appeared out of the blue in X box that was opened. I was not even checking this box opened by my son when I entered this bedroom and felt called to check up what was in it. When I read it, I immediately realized that because of my health plus the power of the planned detoxification to be started, I probably could not write a regular blog and this would serve the task for this month. Looking back, it was not to serve as the blog for April by itself… IN HINDSIGHT, I found this document to clearly bring up the fact that the WILL OF GOD is soo perfect for all of us, that trying to offer novenas, rosaries and Holy Hours to ask God to give us what WE THINK we need and how fast we need it, is the work of Satan in our lives… We cannot improve the will of God for each one of us… Look at these facts:

1. He retained me in Toledo without a job from June 2003 to July 2008.

2. I wanted to move to California much earlier (2005 when my son Ernie invited me to do so) but I was not given permission to sell the house. I had to look like the craziest woman on earth, and as Mother Angelica said, I had to do the ridiculous for God to do the miraculous. I was financially soo tight , before my sons started helping me financially, that I tried to find out if I could get some help from the parish’s societies for the poor… But, I was told by a clergy member to be real and look for a job instead, as if finding jobs in anesthesiology was easy in the this small area I lived. They refused to accept my God’s guidance as a true fact! So, my own local Church failed me… Well, that is that their humanity failed me… Was Satan involved? Perhaps! Yet, my God was as alive as ever…

3. Had I disobeyed the orders from God, I would have placed my home in the market and keep cleaning it often for showings but not been able to sell it because other homes were not selling in my area. (Many of these showings are done for clients to compare prices…)

4. When the will of God was to sell, the right family appeared which needed wide halls within the house because the 41 year old husband had had a recent stroke and needed to use a wheel chair… In fact, they had already placed an offer for another home but at the last minute cancelled it and bought my home!!!

5. When the will of God was to sell, I had spent 4 + years obeying His will without any money or job available. This VERY DIFFICULT  time OF PRUNING  was used to pray much and love much and spiritually grow much. In other words, His will was super perfect… as He said, “I am the true vine, and My Father is the vine grower. He takes away every branch in Me that does not bear fruit, and every one that does, He prunes so that it bears more fruit… I am the vine, you are the branches. Whoever, remains in Me and I in him will bear much fruit, because without Me you can do nothing…” John 15: 1-8

6. The truth is also that this time was needed for the preparation needed for my son in California to move to another home to occupy one of its rooms and for his two friends to move out, so that I would end up near an expressway and a petroleum refinery to increase the toxicity that already was growing in my brain for some years through anesthetic gases… but at a much slower pace.

7. THE MOST FANTASTIC gift and fruit from His will was to move precisely near San Francisco where they have an extraordinary group working for a huge PUBLIC  BROADCASTING STATION ( TV ) that brought many scientists and physicians to speak on health matters… It was through this PBS that I found Dr. Mark Hyman who led me to think on detoxification in general. Then, my Lord gave me the idea that my memory problems prior to my arrival in California had not been detected as related to toxicity.

Dr. Hyman spoke about his year spent in China as a college student in a factory with much mercury around. He became ill and had to come back and that led him to put together toxicity with illnesses. I already had much knowledge in naturopathic medicine, the one that uses foods and natural products to PREVENT DISEASE… versus allopathic medicine (like Dr. Hyman’s and my degree as MD’s).

It was then that I used products to detoxify my body and in 2009 I was able to reverse my dementia. I was not expecting such a miracle…. It is obvious that it was all coming from the guidance of the Holy Spirit. Therefore, without this move to California, I could not have found this information so easily.  My sons would have had to place me in a nursing home (expensive!) since people with dementia cannot take care of themselves. MORE IMPORTANT: without this move to California and precisely near this PBS and being close to a very toxic area where my memory got worse almost immediately, the ENTIRE WORLD WOULD NEVER HAVE KNOWN of this gift from God: to BE ABLE TO reverse dementia…

WHAT ABOUT IF I HAD NOT DONE THE WILL OF GOD? What about if I had tried to sell the home very cheaply to go and reside in Costa Rica? And yes, I had that thought and a friend of mine offered me to receive me in her home. With my Social Security money (a little hi in numbers because I paid much) I could have survived in Costa Rica and eventually be trapped there among friends since my dementia would have grown year after year.

8. My trip to California was one of the greatest gifts from God in many other aspects, and one of them is because the son who took me in, is a data base engineer who created this website and actually does the monthly posting of the blogs… Please, keep looking at what the will of God for all of us is: a huge gift in sooo many aspects.

9. ALSO: the time spent in Toledo, OH doing His will as I looked super crazy, was one of spiritual growth needed for the blogs… since I needed much pruning to be able to receive the guidance of the Holy Spirit… Why am I in Alabama? I am not certain but I am sure that whatever the reason, my God is behind it because many miracles have occurred, like my son working from home even after he wanted to leave his job in California. Now we have our own family nearby (EWTN) and live in a brand new home full of intelligence and an intelligent car to match it! Also, I have the resources and witness to teach the world (with the book to be published) that dementia is reversible… and that depression can be experienced with a food thickener… as well as the miracle of losing pounds in some of us by detoxification. Cancer is also in the category of coming from toxicity!

FINAL WORDS for this section: you, my reader, from this day on, do not waste one moment in trying to do your own will. It is stupid and crazy… The “yes” of Jesus and His Mother are the MOST POWERFUL EXAMPLES of what to do… Let us remember that part of “their yes” was to love the Father and to obey all that the Holy Trinity through the prophets, especially Moses all the way to Jesus, gave to us, especially the call to love God and our neighbor as ourselves.

II. April’s teachings

1. Introduction: this month has been full of events secondary to my rather poor health but always finding God all over my life… Amazing! There is no question that I believe in His love and mercy more this month than last month!!! I prayed much and of course, fully aware that I am accompanied by your prayers for me and realized that I need to detoxify my body as soon as possible. I probably mentioned before that this past March 2018, the edition of the Townsend Letter, a naturopathic magazine came with tons of information regarding the problem with toxicity for all of us and the commercial for a company that sells a combination of 7 bottles to detoxify the body. The price was high and again, through much prayer, I ordered it.

Some of the products in these bottles are herbs and of course, I knew that I would be allergic to some of them. I was supposed to take 2 treatments per day and away from any food in the stomach. 4 of the products are given as sprays in the mouth so that they can be absorbed immediately. They unlock some of the toxins and the liver and kidneys start sending them out via the bile/gut and urine. After 30 minutes, I have to take another product with charcoal and three other products that will collect these toxins so that they cannot be RE-ABSORBED… This treatment takes one month. Right from the moment I started, I decided to take ONLY one treatment per day, since I would be allergic to some of the herbs. Then the treatment would take two months.

Sure enough, I had a huge reaction with much pain in my knees and inflammation all over. At this point, my son opened one of the boxes that came from California and I found my 5 BOOKS on detoxification… In my next blog, I will give you the names and a little content of what I read . However, I became super convinced that I truly needed to continue my detoxification plan no matter how much I would be suffering… Again, my Lord led my son so open this particular box to find these books, all wonderful and written by Naturopaths (ND’s), and they gave me much hope on doing this detoxification. Unfortunately, I ended up with a severe intestinal infection that made me stop the detoxification and I will try to continue in the month of May.

2. Calendar sequence events and teaching

Sunday, April 8 – Devine Mercy Sunday

1) I came back from Mass just before the homily from the LIVE Mass in Vilnius, Lithuania where St. Maria Faustina was from.

2) At 12 noon, I was able to be spiritually present for the LIVE Divine Mercy Solemn Mass in Stockbridge, MA, at the Shrine of Divine Mercy. The celebrant Archbishop’s (did not write his name!) homily was excellent.

3) 3 PM – LIVE Holy Hour in Hanceville, AL at the Shrine of the Most Blessed Sacrament. I thanked God for Mother Angelica who was a saint and sent to share her holiness even after her death with the entire world. I was able to meditate in how God used her to bless us and how He is ready to do the same with anyone else, as long as we obey His will, as she did.

Monday, April 9 – The Feast of the Annunciation

The Feast of the Annunciation of March 25 was changed to this date because it had fallen during Holy Week.  The homily from Fr. Joseph was excellent as well.

I was in my final prayers to order the detoxification product ($525) when I received a call from my local doctor’s office nurse telling me that the laboratory results from the blood drawn the day I visited him for the first time had come normal… Wow! This God of mine is too much! Of course, it was important to know the status of my body in order to take the detox products I was about to order… In the other hand, it showed me the kindness of this doctor instead of waiting for May 3( my second appointment). When the call came in, I was in the middle of praying the Rosary. Huh! I wonder Whom else was involved in moving this doctor to tell his nurse to call me!!!

Wednesday, April 11

There is no question that we need His mercy over our world at large. Examples:

1) An actress said during X TV program that she did well in the movie that is about to be shown in theaters because she knows how to empower herself to be happy, and that is, to think more of herself… She also said how her 9 year old daughter had lost her most important possession: her teddy bear. The mother told how she was able to find it to make her happy…

2) There was a talk about how many cats end up in a public place and they become euthanized. They were asking for money to feed them in order to avoid euthanasia! Yet, we euthanize babies in the womb… with no regret!

3) D. F. (artist) said that the best artists are those who know what they want and who they are…

I felt very sad and realized that I was wasting my time tempted by my own flesh that was watching this weird news.

I proceeded to pray 4 Rosaries between 2:30 and 4 PM. I had severe pain despite the fact that I had taken pain medication two hours before.  Since my blood pressure was hi (161/81), I had to take more pain medication to help with the blood pressure since I had taken medication for blood pressure not long ago… Therefore, it was the pain causing the elevation of such. I started to wonder what was going on?…

This last story united to the above statements was giving me a severe pain in my heart or soul. Then, my Mother started saying,

 “Everything is alright. Remember that you are in God’s hands, but only if you allow Him to do it by trusting in His love for you. Always let it be. Worrying is NEVER a form of loving God because it means that you are doubting His mercy.

“It will be a daily struggle to consider your health needs and trust that God’s will for you is always perfect. Your sanctification depends on your release of all fears regarding any problems in your life. You cannot do it by yourself. You need much prayer to receive the grace necessary to be able to trust and ignore all other things around you. PLUS, you need a constant “yes” to your circumstances as the road to be traveled to truly live as a daughter of the Father and redeemed by my Son with guidance by the Holy Spirit. Work on it! Keep it on your mind and pray and agree with God’s will as the two necessary grace filled roads.”

Friday, April 13

The expensive detoxification products arrived today.

Saturday, April 14

My son and I opened accounts with Wells Fargo Bank. It turned out to be the most extraordinary visit to a bank to open an account. The younger bank employee, J. B. was extraordinary. Even as recent as two days ago, I found out that the Bank changed my social security money automatic deposit to this bank from the one in California… Of course, J. B knew that it was my desire to do so… Yet, we never thought that they could it directly with the government…

I told JB that we had prayed much about choosing Well Fargo due to its poor recent record but it was a bank with more ATM’s than other banks that we have no idea at all of. Not only that, but that the federal supervision that this Wells Fargo is going through, pretty much helped us choose it. JB seemed to be religious as well… He said that he wants always to serve others in order to fulfill his own life… It truly helped me a lot as I compared it with the stories related above…

Sunday, April 15

There was much rain on the day before and early on this day. We decided to attend the 5 PM Mass. As always, a male parishioner came to help me get to the church area. At the time of Communion, he had arranged to have someone give me the Eucharist by walking all the way to the last pew. It turned out to be the priest celebrant! Once before, another priest had come to give me the Eucharist but this time, a different priest came to me ahead of the congregation.  There is no question that God is telling us to register in this parish, which I could not do it until I got my bank account opened in order to give them checks, or better, to have the parish monthly subtract an amount from our bank account.

Monday, April 16

My oldest son sent us all a message that out of the blue, someone he knew in Los Angeles offered him a new job, even that he wants to move to live in Omaha, near my deacon son and family. This is the third son that will be working from home. God has decided to place us all in two cities in the U.S. In the previous plan, my oldest was planning to move to Omaha by June but hoping to find a full time job in this city… As you can see, this was a SUPER MIRACLE. I try very hard not to give private stories of my son’s lives; however, this miracle had to be shared with you, my reader, to be able to see that for 3 days in a row, extraordinary events came to my life, which speaks of the Holy Spirit moving hearts to help us. These stories surely help me in these moments of bad health for me. Of course, I have been praying several Rosaries per day including  a job for my oldest!

The Rosary, the Rosary and the Rosary… She can do great things by our praying this extraordinary sequence of the life of Jesus with Biblical words.

Tuesday, April 17

I started my detoxification on this day but I did react poorly to the products. I felt much pain.

Wednesday, April 18

It was on this day that I found the document from 2006 that I shared with you above.

Saturday, April 21

I found the books on detoxification, which gave me important information to hopefully continue with the product to which I was reacting badly.

Sunday, April 22

I placed my parish to-be in the list of intentions of my Rosaries. I also asked for all parishioners to receive the same grace I received at age 6 ½ of knowing without any question that the Body and Blood of Jesus are present in the consecrated bread and wine.

A well known program, 20-20, had stories about the amazing technologies that started to come in the late 70’s when Siri and Alexia were created…  In another section, they presented the story of 8 years following an older married couple where the wife started losing her memory. It was frightening to see the husband staying with his wife and how she eventually could not recognize him. He also spoke of her difficulties to walk and when she lost the memory of her own name.

It touched me deeply to realize how my Lord had detained me in Toledo for 5 years to prune me and bring me to an area where the idea of using detoxification would reverse my memory loss. By the way, the Spanish in 2009 was almost all gone from my memory. Today, it gets better daily. On the contrary, my English got almost perfect by 2009, but it continues to leave me and as of today, I tend to speak in Spanish with my son. In fact, to write this blog, I have to think in Spanish and even look in a dictionary to get the English translation. The name of the bank mentioned could not come at all… I had to look for some recent emails where I found the name!!! I am sure that my Lord is trying to remind me daily that my reversal in 2009 was real and that with the new detoxification, I will recover my English language again… Please pray for me so that I can finish the detoxification, now stopped.

Friday, April 27

I was very consoled by the EWTN Priest’s homily in the LIVE Mass. I enjoy those Masses much more than before because I am quite close to where the Mass is being celebrated.

Saturday, April 28 – Feast St. Louis Marie de Montfort

The celebrant priest in EWTN gave a wonderful review of the life of this Saint. I had kept this saint very close to me for many years and I did read his books… He wrote that Jesus and Mary were inseparable… From the point of view of science, they had to be physically identical since the genes of Jesus were all from His mother because God the Holy Spirit has no physical body for the Body of God Jesus to inherit them.

On this same date, the Most Reverend Alexander K. Sample, Archbishop of Portland, Oregon, celebrated a Solemn Pontifical Tridentine Mass at the Basilica of the National Shrine of the Immaculate Conception in Washington, D.C. in honor of the 10th anniversary of Summorum Pontificum, the 2007 Apostolic Letter of Pope Benedict XVI, which encouraged the wider celebration of the ancient form of the Mass, proclaiming that it is “to be considered an extraordinary expression of the same lex orandi of the Church and duly honored for its venerable and ancient usage.”

THE FOLLOWING PERSONAL IDEAS MUST BE READ WITH GREAT CARE because I am not a theologian and I asked my Lord for an explanation for something it was bothering me. Please keep this into consideration…

In general, I liked this Mass because I grew up with this form of celebration. My grandmother was a member of the choir and my grandfather was the music director of one of the parishes that at one point they attended. Therefore, Latin was very familiar to me as a child but I truly never understood what it meant in Spanish. After Vatican II (1965), I liked the “novus ordo” or present Mass in the local language. I was able to truly meditate during the Mass in what it was prayed at all parts of the Mass. It made more sense to me!

I then asked my Lord to explain to me which of the forms of celebration of the Mass was His preference… By the way, when I write that God said something, these are not actual words. The content of the teaching comes AS AN UNDERSTANDING of what He wants to tell me and I take notes most especially with my present bad memoryNormally, it comes with great peace, which helps me differentiate from any content coming from Satan!!!  He then said the following.

 “How I get to you in the celebration of one or the other Eucharistic form is not the first item to consider at My arrival to the Eucharistic table. The first one is with how much LOVE you are ready to receive Me, and that goes for all souls present at any Mass. The type of music or type of language used will attract each one of you according to your own humanity! As for you, it does not matter what way the Ministerial Priest does it since I am real to you. For many others, their preference for Latin or local language and especially for the type of music they enjoy becomes an obstacle for My Spirit to unite souls using one or the other form.

“When you were a child, you NEVER understood the prayers before My arrival using the Latin language as you did later using the English language, even more than using Spanish. THERE IS ONLY ONE UNIFYING element to unite My people, and that is, to enter the sanctuary with one attitude coming from your soul, one of total obedience to My will at all times, as a prove of your love for Me.

“Genuflecting more times by the Priest with the old form of the Mass and showing more reverence by doing so, does not mean that your heart has left your fears and doubts in your particular lives. Such obedience to My will also MEANS to have total trust in My love for you while knowing that such trust becomes My mercy, that is, My love expressed in blessings and graces for you and others for whom you are praying. One of the blessings or graces is your desire to obey My commandments, which are based in your “yes” to whatever obstacles you find in your life, obstacles like Satanic, worldly and human temptations, and knowing that My mercy will take over your life.

“You should pray for the Church and suffer for her. Pray that all members that come to Mass will come not because they have to do it on Sundays but because they want to see Me, love Me and reiterate their “yes” to My will. Their spiritual transformation will come with time when they would rather trade their attendance to all kind of sports where a ball is moved by accomplished athletes according to the human rules established for each sport, and instead attend the Mass out of love for Me.

“Saying ‘yes’ to My will with the expressed desire to do so and not as lip service, will CONCEIVE in your souls the knowledge of My Presence as Real in the Eucharist. Then, My Spirit within your Baptized soul will bless you with My mercy, that is the need to come and receive Me, see Me, and even to cherish any opportunity to attend daily Mass. Then, the language used in the Mass  or the type of music played will have less importance as My mercy leads you to fall in love with My Real Presence. It is then that your faces will look radiant with joy and the satisfaction will be more abundant than the one of watching a ball move at any stadium or through television or I-phone. (Here I remembered how some clergy members for this Mass in Latin, did not show any special joy in their faces. It was noticeable for me and it started my intrigue and the questions to my God!)

“Be clear that you cannot get this conversion until you know Me through your ‘yes’ to My will for everything, good or bad. Even more, once your ‘yes’ to do so is part of your spiritual life, while asking for My mercy to help you with the grace to always want to say ‘yes’, you or anybody else will feel the need to go to the confessional to receive My merciful pardon for your sins.

(In one of the readings for this Mass, 2 Chronicles: 20-21, it speaks of an ambush to the enemy by God. I want to write the whole text in order to remember and expect this for ourselves in our daily living.

2 Chronicles 20:20, 21b-23

(The invaders are destroyed)  “Trust in the Lord, your God and you will be found firm. They sang ‘Give thanks to the Lord for His mercy endures forever.’ At the moment that they began this jubilant hymn, the Lord laid down an ambush against the Ammonites, Moabites and those of the Mt. Seir’; so those who were coming against Judah, were vanquished.”

(In summary, the Moabites and Ammonites completely exterminated those from Mt. Seir. When they were done, both groups turned against each other and in this way, the Lord vanquished Israel enemies!)

It was my own feeling that my Lord wanted me to remember what He can do for all of us….

Isaiah 63: 7 – “The favors of the Lord I will recall; the glorious deeds of the Lord because of all He has done for us; .. He has favored us according to His mercy and His great kindness.” (Very wonderful words for His kids!)

Jesus let me understand, “This is the way to ambush the devil, the world and your humanity for your daily existence since My Loving mercy will follow you.

3:34 PM (within the hour of mercy) “Otherwise, whatever Mass in whatever language and with the Priest looking back or towards the people will not glorify Me as MUCH AS “A MASS” in which when I arrive at the Altar of Sacrifice, all souls present KNOW Me as Present, Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity, and most importantly if ALL ATTENDING souls are FREE FROM MORTAL SIN when they come to receive Me.” (End)

Eventually I did look for stories of what other Catholics think of this subject matter. I was amazed at the variety of ideas showing a true division regarding this topic. Here are two of them just as sample of what others think of the two rites.

1. This is nothing but different groups claiming spiritual superiority over each other. Jesus upset the apple cart as well with the Pharisee holding on to ritual (for ritual sake) and never really honoring the Lord from within their hearts.  You can have ritual without righteousness. What’s more important than the practice is *WHO* is being honored and *WHO* is the object of our worship? November 2015

2. A year and half ago a new pastor was assigned to our parish.  He is a Latin Mass proponent.  A small group have enthusiastically joined his crusade in returning our parish to 1958. Don’t get me wrong, this pastor is holy, reverent and a true servant of our parish.  It’s just that his very enthusiasm for “pre-Vatican” practices is beginning to cause a “rift” in our parish. Proponents of the Latin Mass are implying that it is more “spiritual, more superior” than our Masses said in English. 
  Lastly….at the Consecration…when we sing or say reverently….“Holy, holy, holy, Lord God of Hosts….” we are proclaiming in LANGUAGE WE UNDERSTAND that we are worshipping our Savior Who we are about to receive. Saying this in Latin sounds like gibberish to me…it is NOT my language…my prayers are merely syllables put together to make a word in a foreign (dead) language. Nov. 2015 (End of two people’s ideas on the subject matter)

One of my major problems is to realize that we are living moments of great physical distress for many people. Television is a powerful instrument to waste time. It bugs me to see those in every TV station duri8ng certain programs like GMA, laughing for everything they say. It is a forced laugh and that drives me crazy. ALL COMMERCIALS are made of lies… In Birmingham, AL, the most commercials come from lawyers (at least 8-9)… There is one from Alexander Sh…, which truly makes me crazy. I never found this phenomenon in any other U.S. city, and I did travel to many places due to my need to attend medical conferences all over the country to the tune of credit 50 hours, in order to renew my medical license every 2 years. However, only in Birmingham, AL area l have I seen Politian’s announcing their upcoming elections but saying that they are Christians… and pro life! Wow! I enjoy that very much!

In general, I found certain points that I noticed to be very obvious: 1) Awareness of sin is ignored as well as the negative results of such living. 2) There are many cases where the Bible is quoted, mostly within our Protestant brothers and sisters and yet, the “yes” to God’s will from Our Lady and her Son are NEVER MENTIONED as vital for our spiritual growth. 3) There is a general tendency among all Christian religions to try to explain how to resolve our problems within our marriages, for example, but no one truly insists for all of us to undergo a major conversion and spiritual growth in order to have the Holy Spirit guide us to resolve any problems. Only human reasoning is brought up as an answer but based on the science of psychology. A personal ongoing conversion would bring divorce rates to be very low.

Later on this same day, I understood the following:

THE TIME HAS COME to live a constant “yes” to God’s will. In cases of suffering, or when others persecute us for whatever reason, living this “yes” second by second,

1) Will give us spiritual direction through the power of the Holy Spirit.

2) Will give us understanding of those who are sinning against us or those we do not like for whatever reason. We can end up loving them through patience, forgiveness, etc. It happened to me with President Obama.

 3) It will make our prayer very powerful in obtaining the salvation of other souls

4) It will obtain atonement for their sins.

5) In time, our yes to God’s will, will unite us ALL in the womb of the Roman Catholic Church.

6) In other words, a NEW PENTECOST will descend upon the Church and brought about by our communal “yes” to the will of God for everything He places in our path, and AS HIS HOLY SPIRIT will lead all members to live under HIS GUIDANCE. It is clear that we do not bring the Holy Spirit only by calling Him! We bring Him in our lives and lives of our neighbor by “our yes” to His will. We bring the Holy Spirit to our Church by our obedience to His will in order to let our Father make us One Body.

Said in other words: the Holy Trinity will take over and the love between the Father and Son (The Holy Spirit) will CONCEIVE a converted and fully evangelized Body of Christ united for the work of the Church, to bring all souls to eternal salvation (all races, all Faiths, all who got divided after being created as one in the image of ONE God, the Father almightily, creator of heaven and earth, the Son and the Spirit)).


Tuesday, May 1

2:45 PM – After watching Fox News where they reviewed the pros and cons of the investigation by Mr Mueller regarding President Trump’s supposedly collusion with Russia in order to get elected, I could indentify Satan’s tactics, the evil spirit that cannot take a pro-life President living in the White House. Yes, Mr. Trump is not perfect but the other candidate was worse, allowing the killing of unborn babies as a revered right for all women.

This week, a wonderful program has being airing where a surgeon specialized in breast cancer presented the most complete scientific explanation of the relationship of breast cancer and pregnancy. Abortion represents the highest chance of getting cancer. Full pregnancy (after 32 weeks) represents protection against breast cancer. Please, get hold of this information and pass it on to women that you may know or show it in your parish… I was amazed… This surgeon, Dr. Angela Lanfranchi, was a super speaker: spoke slowly and clearly and it was extraordinary to hear her.

I checked her out in the Internet (Google) and found out how much she has been persecuted and MANY saying she is lying. If you feel like checking her out at Google, you will find how she has been treated and also notice how Satan is desperate to divide us, lie to us so not to stop abortion on demand at any cost. If you want to see her many teachings all based in studies done, you may inquire at

At 2:30 PM, I prayed the Rosary with EWTN/Spanish and at 3 PM… I said 3 more Rosaries… All these 4 Rosaries plus one chaplet of Mercy, were offered in atonement for the sins of all  involved in these fights, Democrats, Republicans and the investigating council headed by Mr.  Mueller. I prayed for their conversion and asked Our Lady to stop Satan in these horrible constant fights where many are being tempted by him to get us a pro-choice President. Now, daily, I added it as one of the petitions for my many daily Rosaries, to convert all involved and to detain Satan once and for all,  in dividing us as he is doing through his temptations.

Thursday, May 3

I had my second visit with my new primary physician… Everything went well until the very end when he told me that he had accepted another job and would not be seeing patients at this St. Vincent Center. He told me that he had the name of the best physician to see me in the future, in Sept… It turns out to be a female doctor… I do not like female physicians in general but he told me she is very good and also Catholic!!!

I got out of this place confused but I immediately knew that it is the will of God for me. In fact, I had prayed all month for Dr. K.S. and he made another important decision in his life because his new job has to do with finding a way to make medical care less expensive!!! I do not like the fact that I have to start from point zero getting to know this new physician, but again, I had just listened in EWTN Spanish, the following: “El mejor compañero de viaje es el sufrimiento, el dolor, es la cruz de nuestra vida.” “The best companion in our travel is suffering, it is pain, it is the cross in our life.”

Friday, May 4, 2018

1. I must start by remembering the anniversary when while attending a medical meeting in Houston, TX, I was told to expect a new job offer coming and to take it. I was living in Mishawaka/South Bend, IN and had just finished the basement in a house bought 6 months prior. My husband had returned to live with us after selling our home in Cleveland but he did not have a full time job. I will repeat this story but I will never forget a May 4th for being a time when God re-routed our lives and should report it again.

This May 4th was a Thursday. I returned to Indiana on Sunday, May 7th and that same evening, my husband received a call from Kaiser Permanente in Cleveland (where he had worked) offering jobs for both of us. I signaled to him to say “yes” and later told him about my talk with the Lord. My husband was uncertain when he heard the offer because Kaiser would pay us a low salary, but he said yes after my signal for acceptance.

We were sure that it would not be a reality due to money matters, but I told him about my talk with the Lord at the hotel, when He had sent me to read Joshua chapter 4, where God parted the Jordan River for Israel to pass through. God had added that just like Joshua had experienced His protection, so we would also experience His protection and cross our own “river”. Sure enough, they wanted me as chief of the department since I had more years of the practice of anesthesiology and was board certified and they would pay me $200,000; my husband would receive $150,000. He was a pathologist before re-training to become an anesthesiologist and had no board certification. Just imagine that some years before, my husband had to decide to become a ‘resident’ at an old age to become an anesthesiologist… There was an abundance of pathologists and Kaiser Cleveland would not have invited us to move with them.

This is another example of doing the ridiculous to receive the miraculous. We had to place our home in the market, transfer the two younger children to a Cleveland high school which was great because they ended up at St. Ignatius High School, where their older brothers had attended. However, my second son, Ernie, needed an apartment since he had been accepted at Notre Dame for the following September. All in all, it demanded many changes for us which meant like crossing the river Jordan but definitely under God’s will for us, and He was clear by telling me what to do with the offer, one that we had no idea would be coming or would have accepted at all without His intervention!

2. I have been trying very hard to finish this blog since my health is not good at all… For example, twice before (a couple of weeks apart) I have had blood coming through my nostrils … Why? I have no idea… I did not mention it to my doctor because he would send me to see a specialist and I have so little faith in doctors (MD’s) after 9 major errors done in my care through the years. This afternoon, as I sat to finish the difficult part of sharing what I understood regarding the High Mass of April 28, again I started bleeding profusely from my right nostril. I wondered why? Was it a sign from God to stop all blogs? Was this cross a good thing to be able to share what I had learned regarding the Latin Mass but exactly how He wants it?

3. I also watched today the life of St. Catherine of Siena and she had a miserable sickly life… She has been one of my favorite saints and in the early 90’s, I bought her book and read it. She endure many pains (with no narcotics or Tramadol available…) and could not eat anything… Satan was constantly bugging her! She died young and her suffering always comforted me because of my many crosses. She had to dictate her book because she did not know how to write… On the contrary, I have a good life… I am a physician who understands what is going on in my body; I have pain medications; I can write and type and live in a “smart” home and travel in a smart car!!! My smart home has a perfect air conditioning system and high temperatures outside are converted into normal for us inside!

There is no doubt that I cannot aspire on becoming as holy as she was with so much goodness around me. I loved that she wanted to initiate a major reform in the Church, which speaks of a lot of problems within It, even in those times. For example, her Pope was forced out of Rome and lived in Avignon, France. She convinced him to go back to Rome. He died soon after. Another Pope was elected, but a group inside our Church, elected a second Pope. Catherine was very unhappy about it.

Saturday, May 5

The EWTN Mass homilist reminded us of the credit due to the Holy Spirit for our guidance and how much we can get from Him. It was good to make this fact something to be remembered at all times. There is only one thing that I would add. He said that we all want to be liked and accepted but that we should expect being persecuted and disliked for being followers of Jesus and as the Gospel for this liturgy read and explained by Jesus Himself.

I want to add something else: once years ago when I started to say “yes” to all my crosses through the grace of God’s mercy and many times an imperfect “yes”, I have not felt the need to be liked or welcomed. This gift from Him has proven to me that slowly by surely, God can do in our souls and minds what seems impossible to obtain, and in my case, a simple agreement with His will has brought the grace of total lack of the need to be recognized in any way or form. On the contrary, I want to hide and not be positively alluded to in any way or form. I want to add this little note just to prove to all that agreeing with God’s will is a powerful instrument and especially for own spiritual growth. 


Mr. Devil has been so active and ONLY US, EACH ONE OF US, can get him defeated with our own “yes” as our Mother did… and with the prayer of the Rosary… I only have to add that all of us, who love our Church, should do that… à Say “Yes” to His will with the Rosary in our lips while contemplating what we are praying. And basically with all the mysteries, contemplating the life of Jesus and His sacrifice for us, which means His love for us in ACTION OR HIS MERCY… It is only THEN that many souls will be saved and that we can sit down and wait for the New Pentecost for the entire Church to conceive a NEW BODY in Christ that awaits His Second Coming!

Please continue praying for me… if you do, thank you very much. If you do not do, please start. All readers of this blog are in my intentions for my community Rosary plus chaplet of Mercy.  I have to work for the Kingdom at a moment in my life that suffering is a little tough to endure. Also, I am sorry for writing soo much but although it was hard on my eyes, I know He wants it that way!


Alanus de Rupe (Alain de la Roche) was a 15th-century Dominican preacher, best known for his efforts to promote the Rosary. Alanus claimed to have experienced a vision by which it was revealed to him that the Blessed Virgin Mary had appeared to St. Dominic and gave him the Rosary as a means to combat the Albigensian movement. Alanus de Rupe’s revelation concerning St. Dominic and the Rosary was generally accepted until the 17th century when the Bollandists concluded that the account of Dominic’s supposed apparition of Our Lady of the Rosary is not mentioned in any documents of the Church or Dominican Order prior to the accounts of Alanus over two hundred years later.

A popular prayer card listing the promises bears the imprimatur ("let it be printed") of Patrick J. Hayes DD who was Archbishop of New York from 1919 to 1938. It was issued after a finding of "nihil obstat" (nothing obstructs) by an archdiocesan censor who reviewed the material to determine if it contradicted Catholic teaching. Neither a "nihil obstat" nor an "imprimatur" would necessarily reflect the personal opinion of either the censor or the archbishop regarding the document reviewed. Hayes’ predecessor, John Cardinal Farley, issued an imprimatur for the edition of the Catholic Encyclopedia that holds the Rosary promises as not historical.

The 15 promises fall under the category of "private revelation", and as such are a pious tradition, which a person is free to believe or not believe.

1. Whoever shall faithfully serve me by the recitation of the Rosary, shall receive signal graces.

 [A signal grace may be a simple sign in daily life that answers a question made in prayer or points towards God’s will. For example, seeing a rose after finishing a novena to St. Therese of Lisieux could be considered a signal grace. Signal graces are often subtle or seemingly coincidental.]

2.    I promise my special protection and the greatest graces to all those who shall recite the Rosary.


3.    The Rosary shall be a powerful armor against hell; it will destroy vice, decrease sin, and defeat heresies.

4.    It will cause virtue and good works to flourish; it will obtain for souls the abundant mercy of God; it will withdraw the heart of men from the love of the world and its vanities, and will lift them to the desire of eternal things. Oh, that souls would sanctify themselves by this means.

5.    The soul which recommends itself to me by the recitation of the Rosary shall not perish.

6.    Whoever shall recite the Rosary devoutly, applying himself to the consideration of its sacred mysteries, shall never be conquered and never overwhelmed by misfortune. God will not chastise him in His justice, he shall not perish by an unprovided death (unprepared for heaven). The sinner shall convert. The just shall grow in grace and become worthy of eternal life.

[An unprovided death means dying while not in a state of grace (that is, in dying with unconfessed mortal sin in the soul). The Blessed Mother promises that anyone who regularly prays the Rosary, and earnestly tries to live according to God’s will, will be spiritually prepared when their time of death comes.]

7.    Whoever shall have a true devotion for the Rosary shall not die                   without the sacraments of the Church.

[Our Lady ensures that the soul will receive sanctifying grace through the Sacraments prior to its departure from the body.]

8     Those who are faithful to recite the Rosary shall have, during their life and at their death, the light of God and the plenitude of His graces; at the moment of death they shall participate in the merits of the saints in paradise.

9     I shall deliver from purgatory those who have been devoted to the Rosary.

10  . The faithful children of the Rosary shall merit a high degree of glory in heaven.

11  . You shall obtain all you ask of me by the recitation of the Rosary.

12  . All those who propagate the holy Rosary shall be aided by me in their necessities.

13   I have obtained from my Divine Son that all the advocates of the Rosary shall have for intercessors the entire celestial court during their life and at the hour of death.

14  .All who recite the Rosary are my sons, and brothers of my only son Jesus Christ.

15  . Devotion of my Rosary is a great sign of predestination.

[By this the Blessed Mother means that a devotion to the Rosary is a good indication that the devotee is on the path to Heaven.]





My New Life in Alabama – A particular call to pray and offer my suffering for the Catholic Church and how I should pray the Rosary

April 7, 2018


Life in Alabama has been soo different than in previous States that at times I wonder why my Lord chose this route for me. The area where I live is simply gorgeous. There are long roads surrounded by many trees and from time to time one sees a traffic light. The ground around has many hills and in this aspect, it reminds me of my home country city of San Jose, where I was born. The houses are beautiful at least from the outside. A tornado came to land north east from us but it did not touch my area. EWTN seems to me to be like my next neighbor especially for the Live programs. I suspect that I am about 30 miles south of the Irondale headquarters. For some reason, I feel like my family lives in Irondale.

My life is totally NEW because I do not have a car (first time since I was in medical school) and no driving license… My son has to do all the shopping and sometimes I accompany him. His new used 2015 Honda is also a “smart” vehicle and he can turn on the safety system of the home from the car… Even TV commercials speak of “smart” products like some lady pants… They are smart because they are elastic and can be brought up to the waist and help them look thinner!

A week ago, we had the people that take care of the smart aspects of this home, come and get some features installed. As mentioned last month, we have a little black box right on top of the center isle of the kitchen that wants to talk to you all the time. The female voice is that of Alexa, and one can say to this box, “Alexa, ask ‘Vivid’ to turn on the lights of the living room or whatever part. Vivid is the system that was installed when this box was left in the kitchen. When one walks nearby the black box, Alexa shows a message and they are all different. For example, “Ask Alexa about the latest news in Hoover.” It also shows the outside temperature and the time. However, my son fixed Alexa to pray the Rosary. However, one has to be close to the box because the parts where one has to pray “Amen,” I would have to say it loud; otherwise Alexa stops the Rosary! 

My health is getting worse by the week… but all related to reactions to things that I eat. Yet, I am suspecting that He has a huge plan at the rate He keeps showing me how to live with joy and trusting Him no matter what. The call is obviously to say yes to this scenario and offer it up for all souls causing the present immense amount of violence and hatred going on everywhere AND TO NEVER FORGET THAT I MUST PRAY FOR THEIR SALVATION.

I feel that I must take very seriously my duty to be always caring for souls. You will learn more later. I have been called to pray much as well as to quit a bunch of time wasted with news and other TV programs. Yes, as mentioned before, it is a time for me to be in retreat… I do have some material that I have been led to practice and I will mention it on the calendar section.

Also, Satan shows up quite often and I am trying to show my son how often this spirit interferes with our lives. Example: he ordered a bed for himself via Internet. It finally arrived but it did not bring the mattress…The why regarding this mistake is still a mystery. The truck drivers obviously had no idea. Also, the height of everything in this home drives me nuts… I am sure that it was a major mistake from a man-architect that only thought of 6 feet and taller human beings.

One more thing: again and again, people that I encounter in whatever ways, like supermarkets or church, continue to run to help me in the most loving way… I never received such an attention from brothers and sisters as I am receiving here. I KNOW THAT SOME OF YOU ARE PRAYING FOR ME… Otherwise, I would not be treated so well by all kinds of people, elders and the young and middle age. And yes, I am also praying for you with my Rosaries, now prayed in a different way… to bring out more power from them. I feel you as my family and when I sense this difficult state of my eye sight, I feel that I have to share with you everything despite the vision problem just to show my love for your intercession.


Wednesday, March 7

On this evening, the blog for the month of February was posted. Afterward, I thought of the severe pain in my knees and how I do not rest well at night. I cannot use my comfortable Lazy boy chair because it was placed in one of the four rooms and the TV (especially to pray Rosaries and watch the Mass) could not be connected  because the box from AT&T was not working… The Internet connection was also poor for this computer due to an error of the placement of the main site in the garage, and not centrally in the house to give equal connection to all rooms.

My memory keeps getting to be very poor after my 4.5 hours of airplane trip on February 24. My Spanish continues to flourish but the English part is a mess. I have to look for a primary physician and it has been also very difficult to find someone that I feel is adequate for my needs. I had to choose between the doctors associated with the University of Alabama at Birmingham (UAB) where my son works as a nephrologist and some doctors from a large group called, VINCENTIAN!!! I did not want the university group because they train many residents for several specialties and in the case of surgery, usually the “attending” doctor directs the resident to do the surgery… I do not want that scenario in case I need it.

For someone like me with 9 PAST DIFFERENT ERRORS committed by MD’s and all of great importance, I had to pray much and look much until I felt the Lord had chosen one (here again, I know that your prayers were unique to find X doctor). Even in this area I kept telling God to receive your prayers so that I could not be tempted by Mr. Satan to choose the wrong doctor. It is not only their knowledge but also their disposition, their character… After all, in this era of treating old people as of no use except to waste Medicare monies, and worse, being a Hispanic and a “woman,” only the Lord could choose because He knows hearts. Besides these previous points, I needed a physician who would accept Medicare for payment (it pays less that other insurances) and that would accept new patients.

Saturday, March 10

On this day, my son drove me to Target and it was built some two years ago… BUT IT IS ALSO THE LARGEST TARGET STORE IN THE USA…. I was received at the door by an employee, a young man who ran to bring one of those self driving carts… Yet, the way to move forwards or backwards is confusing and it had a huge box/cart for whatever I would buy but located in the back… I was petrified that I would end up making a turn and kicking tons of wine bottles by not being able to calculate the length of the cart behind. In the other hand, I could not have walked around this store which is so huge! 

When we were done, I realized that the love of this African American young man to run to bring me this chair/cart was from God, Who wanted me to use one and understand that it is time to use them; right now I am doing so in other places but without the cart in back; only placed in front.

Sunday, March 11

In the afternoon, my Alabamian son, wife and two children came to visit from Vestavia Hills, some 20 minutes from this home. Ali, his wife, a PhD in Optometry, did prepare this home for our arrival in ways that I still thank my Lord for her love in these circumstances. She got us new bath towels, hand soaps, some foods, and was the main worker with my son to place blinds all over the house. She was taught by her parents to do it!!!

Monday, March 12

Many boxes are still closed since my son has had two busy weeks with his job. With my pain, I cannot do it. I am missing a few things that are important for me…Only one old Bible (used in the 1980’s and 90’s) is out. It is too heavy and hard for me to move around. I usually keep two Bibles around to use at whatever time my Lord wants to teach me something. On this day I was complaining to the Chief in heaven about these problems: much pain, getting too sleepy with Tramadol, my memory needing a major detoxification and even having only one Bible available.

It was then that God started giving me nice teachings. He said, “Your work is to say YES to what is and to pray nonstop by using your time without so much wasteful moments plus asking your Mother to intercede for you to pray many Rosaries and all for the sanctification of My Priests and the salvation of souls… Complaining does not help at all. Your work is to love Me with obedience to My will and love your brothers and sisters, especially those who daily are in route to hell. From there, all things will be taken care of and as you have seen Me doing it since your conception. YOU NEED TO GROW IN YOUR LOVE FOR ME BY TRUSTING IN MY LOVE FOR YOU, MY MERCY FOR YOU. The latter trust can best be obtained by living in obedience to My will. Never forget that! This is not a repetition of words. This work is one for the salvation of many. This is why  you have a “smart” brand new home, food, a car, a chauffeur (your son) and you only need to do what I did à I suffered and died for all of you! Remember how you ended up watching the movie ‘The Passion of the Christ’ 22 times since 2004? Well, this was an early sign that you are also called to do what I did, to live your own Calvary to save many souls.”

Wednesday, March 14

While praying the Rosary, I UNDERSTOOD that the solution to all my problems will depend on praying MANY DAILY ROSARIES. I also became sure that for this Lent even that it is late, I must fast from foods that I am allergic to, especially sugars and gluten products and from TV programs that do not add any spiritual blessing.

2:30 PM – The Holy Spirit within said: “Any time that you need something for yourself, always ask at the very same time for a way, even it is hard for you, that you can bless your neighbor as well and at all moments of your life. This is living a retreat in your soul! You must feel the need to love God in your neighbor and to end up in the way of someone for his/her spiritual benefit.”

I finally started opening my eyes to a new life, one more dedicated to obey the two most important Commandments as a need like the one of breathing to get oxygen for my entire body.

While praying the Rosary, I had four names of primary physicians from the St. Vincent Health Center written in four pieces of paper, and asked my Mother to intercede for me to her Son to choose one of them. These four doctors were chosen in the previous days with certain characteristics, like age and medical studies and experience and always calling the Holy Spirit to assist me. Each name had a number from 1 to 4.

At 3PM I was sent to 2 different pages in the Bible and both had the number four in them. It turned out to be that of Dr. Z.S. I made an appointment with him for April 4th. I could not make it earlier because he was going on vacation and I was short in Tramado for painl. This is the time when I have to remain calm and any fear has to be fought big time… Otherwise how can I love God with all my heart if I do not trust in His mercy? This is one of the daily works on spiritual growth for all of us Christians!

The local news in Birmingham reported that the number of cases of patients with dementia have increased by 22%. By the year 2025, there will be a huge increase in dementia… I always get nervous when I hear such statistics because I could be one of them, except for the mercy of God that led me to know that it was reversible and due to toxicity.

Friday, March 16

I had much pain during the night because I was economizing the number of Tramadol pills and was worried (!) that I had to ask my son the doctor to help me… It is difficult because Tramadol is considered a narcotic since Oct. 2015, and in general, doctors do not order narcotics to anyone but their own patients.

Confronted with this important need and many other problems, I suddenly understood that from now on, I need to say many Rosaries as suggested on March 14. I received a list of 24 intentions for these Rosaries. I knew without any doubt that the Rosary will work marvelous things for me as we know It has done for centuries in our Catholic Church. Later I learned that my own needs were really not as important as to pray many Rosaries for many other important matters for our Church. I understood that God was allowing my pain to lead me to start praying many Rosaries but saying them for universal needs as well… These were some of the intentions.

1. In reparation for the sins of all alive human beings and for their salvation

2. For Your Mercy, Lord, to heal my body physically and spiritually my mind/soul.

3. To never ignore the time to spiritually bless my neighbor as led by the Holy Spirit.

4. For my relationship with Dr. ZS and for his salvation

5. To find a detoxification treatment that my body can accept in order to reverse my new memory loss and protect all my organs.

6. For mi vision to be recovered as close as 20/20 to be able to finish the book with important medical information.

7. To stop Satan in my life and my in family, and especially within the Catholic Church and the entire world.

8. For me to lose all fear and to trust fully and perfectly in Your mercy.

9. For peace in the world, especially within the U.S.

10. In thanksgiving for all my blessings, past, present and future

11. In atonement of the sins of our U.S. enemies and for their salvation.

12. For all blogs to be written 100% according to the Holy Spirit’s will and to understand when it is time to stop writing them.

13. FOR THE CONVERSION of all Roman Catholic Ministerial Priests into holy men always witnessing the Gifts of the Holy Spirit. .

14. For EWTN to find forever all finances needed and to live a constant Pentecost in regards to programming

15. For the members of the U.S. Government in all its branches to act wisely, fairly, with mutual respect, never obstructing personal freedom and finding the grace of the God of Mercy to bless all its citizens.

16. For all the readers of this blog who are praying for me, to receive many blessings for this important spiritual gift.

(I added a few personal intercessions for family members and friends)

Wednesday, March 21

3:35 PM – I asked the Holy Spirit as to what to do regarding getting more Tramadol.. He answered, “You can get a miracle in many ways but this time you need the miracle through the prayer of Rosaries! This is to show and witness to your brothers and sisters of the power of the Rosary. It is necessary that the entire world understand how to proceed in these times of so much violence and human lives being destroyed.”

Thursday, March 22

I did email my physician son regarding my need for Tramadol. I started a three day preparation for the consecration of Mr. Trump to Our Lady for March 25.

Saturday, March 24

I heard in a religious program that “to love is to serve.” I recognized that this was not totally true. AS FOR ME, TO LOVE IS TO OBEY, which in turn will lead us to serve because obedience will take us to do what God is asking us to do, that is, to love God with all our heart (as Jesus and his Mom did), which brought in Them the love of neighbor. Our Lady’s first reaction after her “yes” to God’s will, was to run to help Elizabeth. Jesus spent his 3 years on earth as part of His “yes” to His Farther’ will all the way to Calvary, healing and teaching and serving them with the truth to know the way and the life.

11 AM: after praying the Rosary with EWTN, my Mother came to talk to me and I received the most extraordinary teaching to enhance the power of any Rosary I may pray until I die!

Our Lady: “Be more careful on how you pray the Rosary, that is, pay attention to the words you are saying and the story behind each decade. Just repeating words automatically, that is by memory, and expect God to release the power of this prayer, will not produce the results you need. ONE ROSARY WELL PRAYED is more powerful that 5 Rosaries with repetition of words known by heart.

“It is not the quantity of the Rosaries but the quality of conversation with God, using the Our Father, Hail Mary and Glory Be as moments to remember what parts have Biblical origin and its meaning at the time that they were said. For example: the Our Father contains words that you can make your own. The Hail Mary announces the coming of Jesus to this earth and how Elizabeth was filled with the Holy Spirit and recognized Jesus in my womb. The second part is a direct petition to me, your mother. With the Gloria Be you give glory to God; that is, you are thanking God the Holy Trinity for their gift to all humanity. All this is happening as you remember a part of the life of Jesus. Those two parts are different and necessary for you to practice for the entire Rosary to become a “bomb full of graces” for your life and that of others. You practice love of God and love of neighbor. Slight moments of distraction are accepted as part of your human condition!

“Said in other words, the power of the Rosary resides in the remembrance and contemplation of the Work and Word of God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit, for the salvation of all souls as it was meant to be at the beginning of time, before Satan came to oppose God’s plan of enjoying in His Presence a life of joy and love – as His Mercy so wanted to shower all His creatures!” (End)

In the midst of being mesmerized, energized and full of faith and hope, my physician son called saying that he could not order the Tramadol for me as part of his agreement with the University of Alabama, where he works. In previous years, there was a scandal of narcotics being passed by their physicians on to people without being their patients. He suggested going to a Vincentian Urgent Care since I already had an appointment with one of its members to ask for this drug just to cover the time until my appointment on April 4. He took me and yes, this problem was solved. In there, I met an adorable doctor specialized in ears, nose and throat or ENT physician. He was soo nice.

Again, all the worries before we got to this point, were an insult to the love of God for me. I need so much to quit all fear when I have a serious need…My faith has soo many holes! The Holy Spirit gave my son the idea of going to an urgent care to see if they would order more Tramadol… It was done fast and without any major hesitation… on the part of the physician there… There is no question in my mind that God is in charge even when our faith is not the most complete… In the other hand, I thought of the prayers you have said for me!!!

Sunday, March 20

The previous Sunday, the celebrant of the Mass at the parish that I attend was a visiting priest and he was old in age. I could not understand one word of his homily since his microphone would not detect well his words and I sit in the very back of his huge church. On this Palm Sunday we went to 7 AM Mass in order for my son to go to our favorite health food store, Whole Food, in time to find the breakfast bar with enough food. As always, PEOPLE WERE SUPER LOVING… This time, as I came out of the car right in front of the main door, a middle age woman RAN to help me out and then placed my arm around her arm to help me get to the church itself after walking through a long lobby. The previous angel, who two weeks prior had helped me, passed and say hello to me with a big smile.

WELL, I WANTED TO THANK MY LORD FOR THE GREAT MIRACLE OF THE DAY BEFORE and I did. Yet, I did not understand that I had appointments to fulfill… I needed to use the bathroom before taking off for Whole Foods. I do not remember if I had told you that we ended up with this SMART HOME because it was the closest among other homes visited, to this Whole Foods which opened up this past Oct…!!! I am super sure that God used this method to choose our intelligent residence…

As I entered the bathroom a 40ish in age woman was combing her long hair… I liked her hair and told her so but I also needed to ask her if the celebrant priest was the pastor or an associate pastor. She said that she was not from this parish. In fact, she had come to Birmingham for her daughter who was attending a volleyball tournament. I entered my stall and heard this woman talk to another woman who just had come out from another stall. I had listened to the second lady telling the out of town one about her 34 y/o sickly daughter of how she was losing the strength of her legs and she was also losing her memory!!!

 I came out and asked this second lady about the celebrant. She said that it was the pastor… and I was happy because I understood his homily and was reverential at the time of the Consecration. She further spoke of how good he is and also affirmed the same for the associate pastor. I then told her about my dementia that was reversed and that it was due to toxicity. I told her that the weakness in her daughter’s legs could also be related to brain toxicity. She asked what to do? I told her to give her barley grass, a powerful detoxifier and how I used for my dementia reversal, but that by now, I am allergic to it. This lady was super happy.

Then the out of town lady told me that her mother had died with dementia the year before… and that her brother in Houston, TX, was also suffering from memory loss…She was also fascinated about my story…

When I left the bathroom and having taken so much time (my son not knowing what was going on), I KNEW that our God had everything set up… The time of the Mass (7 instead of 8:30), of the end of the Mass, of when the ladies would go to this bathroom and that I needed to go before we left for Whole Foods!

OF COURSE, this is a super example of what God does in all our lives. He is in charge… His Holy Spirit moves our souls to serve each other.

Tuesday, March 27

I had been debating about a green drink sold by Whole Foods that contains many of the products that detoxify. My son drinks it daily with his food and told me how good it was… I kept postponing to try it and I finally did drink half a glass and yes, it was delicious, but I almost died. I had a furious reaction with severe pain in my entire body and of course, worse in my knees. On later days, I understood that this is the will of God for me to keep suffering and not to get detoxified for now. Besides, this was Holy Week, a time of joining Jesus in His Passion.

Holy Thursday to Easter Sunday

Via EWTN, I spiritually “attended” many places like Rome, Washington DC and Irondale, AL, with LIVE services for the Triduum of Holy Week. On Holy Friday at the Basilica of the Immaculate Conception in D.C. for the veneration of the Cross, the homily was preached by the Rector of the Basilica and it was wonderful.

On Holy Saturday, March 31, my Lord reminded me that this horror of health issues getting worse by the day, it is a way to force me or lead me to pray more Rosaries, especially for the Catholic Church and the sanctification of ALL Priests. He needs these Rosaries prayed in a new way, and my own health makes me more prone to do so… I have the time in the middle of this storm to ask for the salvation of many souls through a radical conversion to find a healthy Church at its best to receive them. Also, this Church’s laity must have a closer relationship with the Eucharistic Jesus, and praying for the holiness of the Ministerial Priesthood is essential to pass on their witness to all the souls that are coming, and as many of us, not just me, are led to pray powerful Rosaries for this battle to be won.

Since many could be converted, we would be in need of many shepherds and laity members witnessing how to start this life DEDICATED to say “yes” to the will of God, as Jesus and Our Lady did. Only obedience to the Father’s will can lead all through the right gate of seeking and finding the TRUTH to become ALIVE in Christ and be able to pastor and witness to everyone, believer, atheist or from any religious background. The merciful love of God (Jesus Himself) will transform all words from preaching and teaching into the light of the Holy Spirit that will bring souls to love, to forgive, to understand, etc.

In this process of preparation of our Church for the end times, Our Lady will be the protector against Satan, and the Rosary will continue to chain Satan and all evil spirits who will try very hard to tempt us all to disobey and refuse to say “yes” to His will. In face one of the readings for this Easter Vigil Mass, says:

Genesis 22: 15-18   – “Again, the Lord’s messenger called to Abraham from heaven and said, ‘I swear by Myself, declares the Lord, that because you acted as you did in not withholding from Me your beloved son, I will bless you abundantly and make your descendants as countless as the stars of the sky and the sands of the seashore; your descendants shall take  possession of the gates of their enemies, and in your descendants all the nations of the earth shall find blessing, ALL THIS BECAUSE YOU OBEYED MY COMMAND.’”

I then wrote, “Therefore, I must lay down my life, deny myself of wasting time in order to pray much, especially Rosaries will contemplated on what they proclaim, especially the Passion of Christ (beginning from His birth in a poor stable  to death on a Cross). This is necessary to do in order to embrace my crosses, enduring the suffering with a big “yes” to His will at each moment.” At the time of the Consecration of this Easter Vigil Mass celebrated by our Apostolic Nuncio, Archbishop Christophe Pierre, I was asked by Jesus: “Are you willing to accept your life of suffering for all My children that need conversion and salvation?”

9:05 PM – I answered, “Yes my Lord Jesus, I accept this suffering for them and for as long as You allow it. Just as Abraham was willing to obey to kill his own son, I am willing to suffer as You will it to obey Your command of loving my brother/sister as I love myself and better, as You love them! Only give me the grace to persevere in my “yes” to Your will.”

10:10 PM – ABC was running the movie of Moses… At this time, when I switched to this channel, God had divided the Red Sea and the Hebrew people had passed through the dry land. Moses had his own enemies among his own people and yet, he believed and trusted and since, “for God all things are possible,” the immense sea was parted in two; however it killed when it closed, Pharos’s army that was in pursuit of the Israelites.

After treating my pain 2.5 hours before and still was in great discomfort, I realized that my God was reminding me that I must trust in His love for me through His holy will at each present moment! Here I was in Alabama sent to be on retreat with no car of my own, no driver’s license, yet asked to dedicate my life to carry many Catholics through the Red Sea by the power of God, as I suffer and offer and pray much that His mercy can make us all practicing Catholics in word and deed, fed often with all the Sacraments and truly disciples dedicated to proclaim His love and mercy, living a constant Pentecost where the Holy Spirit will transform all of us into lovers of God and neighbor.

Here, I remembered the words of John 21: 15-17 – Jesus asked, ”Simon, do you love Me?” St. Peter said “yes’ three times. In each case, Jesus asked him, “Feed my lambs, take care of my sheep and feed my sheep.” I also remembered that St. Peter denied Jesus three times. May I not become one with Peter and reject this work, the one that Jesus asked Simon to do and through the first Pope, He is calling all of us to do it as well!

Easter Sunday, April 1

My pain was unbearable, hardly touched by medication and I could not even go to Mass… I was invited to eat dinner with my son and wife and I also had to stay home and have my son at home attend this family dinner.

I kept remembering the words of now Blessed Solanus Casey, someone I revere for the many things he suffered and how he helped so many especially in the area of Detroit, MI. I have shared before how living in Toledo, OH, I drove to the place where today they have a large dining room where they serve meals to the poor and all, through the efforts of Blessed Solanus when he was alive. He wrote: “In the crosses of life that come to us, Jesus offers us opportunities to help Him redeem the world. Let us profit by His generosity.”

I often remember his life when he was not allowed to hear confessions or to preach because as a seminarian he did not do well with his grades due to his poor knowledge of Latin, and he was taught in that language. I imagine how he felt all along and yet, he will become someday another Saint of the Church. In fact, I have asked God to allow me to have Blessed Solanus intercession help me to recuperate some health and better vision to finish my work for the Kingdom. Recently, I was given such permission. We shall see!

Monday, April 2

I wanted to post this blog much earlier and was not getting to finish it. The treatment for pain makes me sleepy and not able to have a clear mind to transcribe the notes I had taken as easy as if I were totally awake. Often I end up consulting the dictionary because the words in English do not come easily.  However, the Spanish version is easy and I have to look up the meaning in English. I asked the Lord what to do? His answer was long and beautiful and using the Bible, He showed examples of how at the end, He is the one directing our moment to moment jobs.

 At one point He said, “Attend to your pain. Treat it as needed. If it delays your blog posting, I am in charge and deciding all that regards to when should be posted. ANY WORRY about the posting time or deciding ahead of time when you want to post it and working much for that goal, are barriers to the work of My Holy Spirit to guide you to the time I want it for reaching your neighbor!”

Of course, part of my problem is that two days later had this appointment with the Internist and I needed to prepare a two page summary of all my problems so that he could read it in 5 minutes. Personally, it would take me more than 5 minutes to describe all my maladies, especially with my memory lapses. So, I would have to stop the blog to prepare this summary in the middle of the pain and sleepiness of the medications taken for it. At the end of His counsel, I realized that my “perfectionism” was erecting a wall to have the Holy Spirit guide me according to His will. All along, this was a good training for me to practice for the future instead of creating new crosses that I made for myself!

Wednesday, April 4

I had the appointment with Dr. ZS and it was very good. The two page story of my health issues and reasons for them did work and he was pleased. Before he left, I said, “I must tell you that I have no fear of death… Whatever happens with me, it is up to God.” He answered smiling and saying that he did not fear death but wanted the best life possible with good health. He ended up leaving the room and looking at the Crucifix on top of the door and reminding me that the Crucifix was there to help out!!! And he is probably a Roman Catholic because our Protestants brothers do not have the Cross with Jesus dead… They only have a cross.


I recently heard of a new book narrating the difficulties of the present Papacy compared with the previous two others. The author who seemed to be very intelligent and wrote well his ideas was a HUGE EXAMPLE for me in realizing why I have to SUFFER AND PRAY MUCH… especially Rosaries. Let me try to be as clear as I can.

1.We members of the Roman Catholic Church MUST be sure that Satan is working overtime in trying to divide us, confuse us by lying to us, and using accusations as much as possible. WE SHOULD EXPECT him all over…

2. We also must understand that unless we live lives trying very hard to do His will hour by hour, the Holy Spirit may not be able to enter our mind and let us see what our behavior should be regarding issues that have to do with the governing of the Church.

3. In the last condition, we may want to complain about what seems to be errors within the Vatican members all as a temptation from Satan.

4. The question is, “Are we called to write articles, books, blogs, etc. regarding what we judge to be wrong?”

Yes and no!

1) Yes, ONLY IF WE ARE SURE THAT THE HOLY SPIRIT IS SENDING US TO DO IT. For that to happen, we need to see the holiness of those writers, their holiness in their “yes” to God’s will for all that they do, so that whatever it is written truly comes from His will for the Church. We also need to see their close relationship with Our Lady and mother, since she and especially with the prayer of ROSARIES will keep Satan from tempting them to bring matters that FURTHER DIVIDE THE CHURCH.

My QUESTION IS: What do we gain by reading such material? Are we called to act with the Church as we act in day to day worldly politics, bringing up our neighbor’s sins, even if those sins exist? Are we truly believers in the Holy Spirit and in a Triune God Who is in charge of His Church? Are we negating that for God all things are possible?

2)  NO, we are not supposed to judge others, even with the Bible in our hands, IF FIRST we do not submit ourselves to great suffering and TRUE DESIRE to always do God’s will, while we pray much and ask for the Intercession of our Mother in heaven to protect us from the evil one.

It is true that the Catholic Church has suffered divisions through the centuries for no reason at all, since I cannot see what benefit there is in having a Roman and a Greek Churches, etc. Within the Roman Catholic Church, we have SEEN divisions especially after Vatican II… Did we gain anything by those divisions? Are we having more people attend Sunday Mass and living holy lives? We have seen Satan work very hard against our Ministerial Priesthood with a few men committing heinous sins against children. Have the rest of us, M. Priests and laity truly fought Satan with the power we have in Jesus Christ and His Mother? I do not think so!

My final words: I was delayed in posting this blog because this ending part would be missing if I had done it 5 days ago. OF COURSE, I HAVE TO SUFFER and now more than ever… NOW I KNOW WHY I HAVE TO PRAY MANY ROSARIES and in the right way, in order to help myself become a true gift for God with my suffering to atone for the present sins of the Church and to call for the Holy Spirit to give us all His gifts 1) to discern properly, 2) to pray much for Satan to be demolished and 3) for Jesus, the Christ and Mercy of God, to become our help and redeemer for the sins of all of us: in atonement for our sins committed and for our lack of seeking holiness of life AS A MUST, in order to witness our love for God and neighbor and the coming of a new Pentecost.

Every time that we hear of the changes made by each Papacy, we only should turn around and with great peace, call the Holy Spirit to guide us to understand the truth in our own lives, that is, that we have to deny ourselves, pick up our crosses with a great embrace and follow Jesus, Who died for all of us to reach eternal life. The rest is up to Him… Once we practice true discipleship, we will understand what is going on because God is crazy about us… Let’s seek holiness of life today and not wait until tomorrow! By this, our prayer will be a powerful weapon against causing more division and fear!

In front of you, my reader, I WANT TO OFFER MY LIFE TO GOD FROM THIS DAY ONWARD TO submit to His will of much suffering; to OBEY His commandments while trying to pray day and night for the salvation of all human beings and for holiness of our Roman Catholic Church. I invite you to become my partner but always with great certitude that He can do it all… We do not do it out of desperation… We do out of love for God and His children, since we were blessed with knowing and receiving the Eucharistic Jesus in order to be always the best warrior for His Kingdom. We got it all. We simply have to do some adjustments to our spiritual life for the good of our brothers and sisters and for God’s glory! We also have to BELIEVE that we have the power through the Passion of the Christ to ask for the changes necessary in the spiritual life of our members, starting with ourselves.

P.S.: Thank you again to those who have prayed for me. Just to have learned how to pray the Rosary in a more contemplative way and why, it is the product of your intercession. We still have many things to do in this home since my son works long hours via Internet with his office near San Francisco, CA. Many boxes, MANY, are still not opened. I cannot help him and he has to do all the shopping as well… He always has a big smile in his face and in my understanding, he is a holy man. God is doing great things for me through this man. I know that your prayers for me also are covering this son of mine. God bless you for your kindness.

If I have offended you with my views regarding how to be careful in further dividing the Church, please be my human guardian angels and pray for me to understand better this subject matter. God bless you!






1. Sharing all that happened during our move to Alabama.

March 7, 2018

2. Important new information for our health

I finally reached the State of Alabama and every place I have been so far, has been full of positive surprises. My Lord and His Mom and mine are truly doing spectacular things. Since I posted the previous blog, it has been very hard to find among so many boxes what I had written in my journal … Worse, the month of February was super short… Of course, I am sure that the Holy Spirit will guide me to mention some things and all to a certain point, beautiful in a spiritual sense even if I do not recall a few things from the journal prior to my arrival here.

The Mayflower Moving Co. truck would arrive on Wednesday February 21. Our flight to Alabama would depart from San Francisco on February 24, at 6 AM. ALL PREVIOUS DAYS after the posting of the last blog were very busy trying to select what we wanted and truly needed in Alabama from those things that were junk. Our desire to donate many items in good condition to Habitat for Humanity and/or St. Vincent de Paul was not followed due to different reasons, which are too long to explain the why not.

Saturday, February 4 to Tuesday, February 7

My sons from Los Angeles and Omaha came to help in getting rid off of things from the two storage places we had and leaving mine cleaned and only with what the Mayflower needed to pick up. They also worked in the garage to choose what to give to “I Got Junk” (IGJ) truck and what to trash and what to add to the Mayflower. My son Ernie needed to sell his Toyota Prius car, and his brothers took him to Carmax to do it. From this time on, we only had my Honda Accord.

Sunday, February 18

A few days before, my son Ernie had taken a taxi to go and rent a car but near the San Francisco airport also known as SFO. In this way, on our departure day we would drive ourselves to SFO and he would take the car back. So, on this Sunday, we also sold my Honda Accord at Carmax. On this occasion, we went through several people who evaluated this 2009 car with only 37,000 miles. The main person who took care of us turned out to be super religious and we shared many things related to the Bible.

The last person to deal with and who would get us the check, was a younger woman who was very obese. She was very nice. At the end of the ordeal, I shared with her how to lose the weight by detoxification. She was mesmerized. I cannot wait until my book is out because many obese people will learn the most important truth about weight gain…The entire world thinks that obesity means over eating… Yet, all the famous diets work but people regain the weight even without eating much.

Monday, February 19

By this date, we had realized that certain things would end up being sent via UPS since we were not able to complete the amount of packing, which Ernie did to avoid excessive expense if we let the Mayflower Co. do it.

We were ready to call IGJ to do their first pick up of a total of 3. It is clear that by now we were trying our best to decide about so many items and what to do with them; of course, the minor stuff, since the Mayflower needed to take some furniture and things that we could not send via UPS.

In the midst of this obvious disaster, I had to treat my pain every 6 to 8 hours and the blood pressure according each time to the numbers.

Tuesday, February 20

This was the birthday of my son Ernie and also the day in 2017 when he had decided to tell his bosses that he wanted to leave the job. Wow! It took us one whole year for our exit for Alabama. It took his bosses 4-5 days to offer him to stay and work from home in any place in the US. Many of their employees have left because his company is the subsidiary of another major company which may (may!) decide to close this smaller company altogether… at which point, Ernie can become jobless.

I always buy a few dollars for the two national lotteries, in order to pay up my only credit card debt. I have asked the Lord many times if not to do it and He always answers that I should leave the door opened to fixing other people’s decisions. In other words, this exactly what is going on right now when my son may lose his job. Well, it also happens that Alabama does not allow playing the lottery! It took me two days to solve that problem and my cousin’s Deacon husband in North Carolina is willing to help me out!!! This is partially due to my heavy work when my cousin wanted to sell the home that her father left her when he died in Costa Rica. She ran into major problems with the real estate agency which wanted to cheat with the monies of the sale. I fought the issue via phone calls and the Internet and translating everything between the Costa Rican real estate agent and her family in the U.S. She was able to recuperate $47,000. I am mentioning this just to make a point: God has all our future well organized and it is up to us to comply with His will and to obey His commandments, like love for our neighbor.

Wednesday, February 21

The Mayflower Co. truck came and packed a few things that previously Ernie had arranged with them to do. The 3 men were very nice. The driver, an older man, had arrived from Houston, TX just the day before. At one point, I told him that I was worried about his blood pressure with all the lifting he was doing and because of his age. I was willing to take his blood pressure just in case. To my surprise and happiness, he said that he had a gadget to take his blood pressure in the truck and that normally, this kind of exercise would not bring it up higher than 145 systolic… This he said was done because of his wife of 37 years who had explained to him what to do!

One of the younger boys, may be in his 30’s, was in charge of the paper work and to the three of them I had offered bottled water when needed, plus zone bars if hungry and they were fascinated that I cared for them. It amazes me that LOVE is the most important gift that one has to offer to any human being. Actually, I was offering GOD to them since He is love… and on my side, I was obeying the second most important commandment. Let me clarify for you that when I offered this care to these men, I TRULY FELT LOVE FOR THEM… The grace has come in my life where when I see the stadiums packed and paying tons of money to be there, I feel a profound love as if they were my own family and offer my suffering for their salvation. Well, later in this journey, the Holy Spirit moved the heart of MANY we encountered to offer me love by serving me in my difficult moving with a cane… More on it later but especially in the parish we visited this past Sunday, March 4. By the way, I did the same to the 3 crews that came with IGOT trucks and they also responded with great surprise and “gusto”. The Mayflower younger 2 members did eat and drank water while they were working.

At this point, it was becoming obvious to me that we should always ask ourselves the famous 5 words, “What would Jesus do?” because it is essential to truly walk with the Holy Spirit in our inner Temple, rejoicing as these “images of God” were loved and care for.

After this truck picked all the things from the house, they went to my storage space and picked up all the things including a handmade French Provincial living room set, which we did not know what to do with and that I bought some 30 years ago for $2,500.00.

Thursday, February 22

Gloria, the Salvadorian housecleaner kept coming and cleaning up as things would disappear taken by the two companies. She received many things that were among the things ready for IGJ. The latter came on this day for the second time.

Friday, February 23

IGJ came a third time. Gloria stayed late to clean everywhere since we would leave for the San Francisco hotel rooms late on this day. During the morning, the owner of the home and wife came to inspect the home, which had many things broken or not working; yet, this landlord was all smiles!!!

I prepared for the airplane first class trip and next to a bathroom by eating my last meal on Friday the 23rd. at 4 PM P.T. Ernie was getting 10 boxes ready to send via UPS on that same Friday. At the end after all possible stuff was gone, we took our luggage at 10 PM and drove to SFO (San Francisco airport) in the rented car that he had gotten some days before.

Saturday, February 24

We arrived at the hotel we had ready near SFO around 12 midnight. We slept 3 hours. We left the hotel at 4:30 AM in the rental car to go to SFO. This was one of the MANY times that Satan bugged us… On my part, I am used to it… He used the GPS to go from the hotel to SFO since it is a very complicated area BUT his I-phone refused to help him in the middle of doing so. He had to stop and set up my I Phone to continue… Of course, it took precious minutes and they were very important… But, we did not know it… as yet. He left me at the entrance of the airport where Delta had arranged for a wheel chair for me… I had orders from Ernie to proceed to the gate and I did so. Ernie went with our entire luggage to leave the car at the rental place and wait for a bus to bring him back to SFO. By then, MY PLANE had ceased to receive any luggage and he had to find another flight to get him to Atlanta where I would be waiting with Orlando, my Alabamian son, who was to be there to drive us to Hoover (2.5 hrs. away).

What is the problem? Well, Ernie had all my pain and blood pressure medications in my carry-on small luggage… Of course, with pain, the blood pressure goes up…. I had had nothing to eat since 4 PM the day before and did not accept any breakfast (flight started at 6 AM). It was Sushi and I am allergic to most fish… I only drank a few sips of water during the 4.5 hours of flying and had to go to the bathroom 4 times… This is a great signal that the amount of toxicity in my body is huge and has affected the kidneys (unable to concentrate the urine) since I had not much occupying my colon near the rectal area, which also sends me to the bathroom because the bladder is caught in a sandwich, all due to the infamous 2015 surgery for my bladder that was uplifted since it had dropped. Another major problem with polyuria (excessive urination) is that magnesium and potassium are lost. Low magnesium produces muscle spasms and low potassium affects the heart and arrhythmia shows up.

When I arrived in Atlanta, another wheel chair was there for me at the exit of the airplane but I had had no pain meds for 9 hours. It was close to 2 PM EST… The Delta man left me near the luggage area since Ernie would have to come there to pick up the luggage that had been sent in SFO. This was the end of the use of the wheel chair… God was there, of course… Orlando was with me but I could not walk because the pain was huge and I knew that the blood pressure would be also hi. Suddenly, Orlando said, “Let me see if I find a wheel chair to rent for the time when we had to walk to the street where he would pick Ernie and me in his car. MIRACLE: without us knowing, this huge Atlanta airport has wheel chairs all over the place for anyone to use without any cost. He found a bunch of them and asked and he was given one…

When Ernie arrived, I open my carryon luggage and took my blood pressure and it was SUPER HIGH… I took medications for pain and blood pressure. Orlando needed about 15 minutes to take a small bus to get to his car and to drive it to pick us up. At this point, I had been without food for 22 HOURS. Yeeees, 22 hours… We still had some 3 hours to drive to Hoover and I was feeling dry and weak… After much decision making, Ernie bought me a sandwich with chicken and some cabbage , and of course, for me not to eat the bread (gluten)…Yet, I am also somewhat allergic to chicken and mayonnaise added to the cabbage even that Ernie asked them NOT to add it… I ate the chicken and IT WAS DELICIOUS… I thought I was in heaven.

I finally got into Orlando’s car and we took off. About one hour later, the PAIN IN MY KNEES WAS VIOLENT, INSUFFERABLE. We stopped in a place for me to sit in the front seat because I had chosen the back seat and by now, the space left for my legs was too little and I could not extend my knees at all due to the severe pain.

We finally arrived at this intelligent home. At the entrance of this rather large number of new homes, there is a sign that reads, “Smart Community.” I am not bragging but I live among smart people!

Sunday, February 25

The Honda Accord 2015 that Ernie bought was brought to our home on this day at 1 PM. It was used as a leased car and only two people used it before and it is in great condition with 36,000 miles. In my old days, I leased a Ford car for 3 years and I took super care of it because one knows that eventually it has to be returned and pay for any major damage. Therefore, it seems to have been a wonderful purchase, yet we will see. NOT ONLY THAT BUT it was shown in TV that the Honda Accord is the best car in the U.S. for 2018… Wow!

Wednesday, February 28

On this day, the Mayflower brought our stuff. My body was left with severe inflammation all over especially after the Popeye’s chicken fiasco. The pain was horrible. YET, THIS INTELLIGENT HOME had us laughing all the time… The refrigerator shows the time, the outside temperature, and if one touches the temperature one, it shows the whole week temps… If it is open for more than 2 minutes, well, it stands playing a soft music. When one closes it, a message appears of how much energy one has wasted by the refrigerator being open for 2 min. We also can talk to Alexa. (Amazon Echo) I hope you are familiar with Alexa, which speaks 7 languages. I tried to get Alexa to tell me what was the Mass schedule for the church we wanted to attend on Sunday, but she said that she did not recognize the question!!!

The stove is a flat surface that looks like glass with four areas for the placement of the pots. It will only work with stainless steel pans… Aluminum or a combination with steel will not turn on the stove!!! The microwave oven is small and over the stove and super high. I cannot reach it plus it has many devices to work with to make it work!

Many lights have wall switches that one can move around to decide how much light one wants. There is big problem for me: everything was been built for giant owners… I am 5” 4’ and had to let go of the master bedroom because the closet has extremely high perches to hang my dresses. I have taken POSSESSION of two adjacent rooms, smaller but in one I will place the French Provincial set with book cases to make it as a library and use its closet for myself. Orlando and wife gave us a used living room of theirs in great condition. In the other room, I have my electric Lazy boy chair to sleep at night. One of the 3 baths is very close. Ernie will have the master bedroom and the fourth room will be used as his office. So far he has been WORKING with weird hours since there is 2 hours difference between AL and CA times.

Thursday, March 1

I do have new numbers for all possible important TV channels including EWTN in the two languages. I also have to deal with a very different program schedule and the Live Mass comes in at 7 AM instead of 5 AM. It is awesome but since my memory is not the best right now, I keep messing up as a try to remember the time for the Rosaries as well.

Well, on this day, the EWTN Mass brought us the preaching of the Gospel by a well known Dominican Priest, Rev. Peter John Cameron, editor of the Magnificat Missal. His presentation was the most extraordinary explanation of the Gospel of Lazarus and the rich man that I ever heard. Also, I never had heard that the word “Dominican” comes from the Latin which means “dogs of the Lord.” It was funny. Here are the notes I took!

He spoke of the importance and even our privilege of being rejected. He mentioned that another person (I believe he referred to Justin Fatica) had said, “When you are rejected you become more broken, and the more broken you become, then people will pay more attention to you.”

He continued to explain that the rich man of the Gospel “was dressed with purple garments and fine linen and dined sumptuously each day.” He did not wear jeans and a flannel shirt because he wanted to show off how rich he was. “ Since he dined sumptuously each day, he did not keep the Sabbath and therefore he did not show any respect for God’s laws. “”And lying at his door was a poor man named Lazarus, covered with sores, who would gladly have eaten his fill of the scraps that fell from the rich man’s table. Dogs even used to come and lick his sores.

(From Kenneth Bailey, prior professor at Princeton University who has similar words as Fr. Cameron) à “The rich man will do nothing for Lazarus, but these wild guard dogs, who attack all strangers, knew Lazarus was their friend and did what they could and licked his sores. Lazarus had a gently soul. He was a man at peace with himself – within his suffering – and managed to live in harmony even with the wild dogs around him. Did he sense that the dogs, like himself, were unjustly despised and ill- treated? Lazarus is quiet. The gently long suffering man had no reservoir of anger to explode, no reflections on retaliation in the waking hours of the night, no score to settle, and no vengeance to exact. )

The rich man even stepped over poor Lazarus when we went out because he knew this beggar’s name, since the Gospel mentions how after his death, he mentioned Lazarus (by name) to Abraham. He also was not apologetic or contrite when he spoke to Abraham as he asked him to send Lazarus to help him by dipping his finger in water and cool his tongue.

In the other hand, what was Lazarus’ reward upon entering heaven? In heaven he was comforted. His main problem had been to be rejected by the rich man, overlooked, discarded and treated like trash. Lazarus had the right to ask why to God. No, he had no anger because he loved his rejection when the wild dogs came to lick his wounds.

Abraham cannot help the rich man in hell. He said to him: “There is a great chasm between you and us! No one from our side can cross to your side, never from heaven to hell.” Therefore, we should not squander our rejection; we should not reject our rejection, but only beg for the grace to cross the big chasm into the side of Jesus, the rejected Man!” (End of Fr. Cameron’s homily)

Not only Fr. Cameron looked at this Gospel with a different meaning for me but he was the perfect public speaker. He spoke slowly, clear and with determination. To me he looked as if he had been rejected as well and knew Lazarus’ suffering quite well. He moved me. I did not move at all while he was delivering this homily except for trying to take some notes and of course, I tuned to another shows of this Mass in order to complete his words a little better. I studied public speaking as a teen in Los Angeles and public speaking for me is an art… The tone of the voice should not be up and down, except on a rare occasion. Fr. Cameron did it all. And of course, the Magnificat Missal is put together in a magnificent way as well! It tore my heart when I had to junk all the Magnificats I had from pevious years. Had I been healthier and younger, I would have at least collected the beautiful comments after each Gospel, plus many of the paints it brings.

Shortly after, as I was thinking of “intelligence” and how as a child, I remember friends of our family telling my grandmother, “Wow, this girl is sooo intelligent,” I smiled since the Lord was playing tricks and allowing my intelligent brain now with aging and memory problems again, to occupy a brand new intelligent home. If I heard someone explaining a house like this, I would say, “This person is crazy… What is he/she talking about? It is impossible.”

Suddenly I started understanding something very interesting and I called it an “intelligent definition” of evangelization!!!! Here it is and please do not follow off your chair as you read it… This was what I understood and I am a nobody (except as a daughter of my Father made into God’s image but not fully clean from my sins) in route to be somebody with His grace only.

I heard this question, “WHAT IS EVANGELIZATION?” The word of God by itself if proclaimed and many reflections presented to others to evangelize them, it is not evangelization! IT IS SIMPLY A PROCLAMATION OF THE WORD OF GOD. In itself, it is wonderful but does not change our neighbor’s heart to believe in Jesus as our King and Lord… And why to write such a weird statement? Well, just proclaiming the Word of God is not changing hearts for the last 30 years through EWTN, for example with myriads of Christians teachers from all parts of the world who have come to teach us the Way, the Truth and the Life via this TV station.. Of course, there are many hearts changed via the proclamation of the Word but not with LASTING results… If the proclamation would truly evangelize all of us, we would not have declining numbers of people attending Sunday Mass!

Therefore, I understood that TRUE EVANGELIZATION consists in the LIVED or PRACTICED proclamation of God’s Word. In the first case, just proclaiming the Word is a human action. The second, when the evangelizer in whatever place proclaims It but he/she is FULLY living it with a big YES to their crosses and to every desire from the will of God, this invites or opens the door for the grace of God, the mercy of God to transform us as His servants (like Our Lady who is still evangelizing us!)… In other words, as servants of God we are His representatives who are witnessing discipleship as defined by Jesus Himself through self denial, carrying and embracing our crosses and as we follow Him, which means practicing the way He witnessed His life to us. Then and ony then, the power of the Holy Spirit finishes the work of the proclamation of the Word in others and bringing many graces to be evangelized without Satan, the world or themselves opposing such grace.

It is our suffering fully accepted and offered that make us look like another Christ in the eyes of our Father and brings the Power of the Holy Spirit to transform the souls of others. By the way, our beloved St. John Paul II did write much on evangelization and called it the new evangelization. I do not have his encyclical or the time to look it up in the Internet, but if I misunderstood what “intelligent” evangelization is, I ask for your forgiveness and please erase from your mind what I just wrote on evangelization. In fact, I have asked the Holy Spirit permission to do away with this subject as I understood it; however, I have not received permission to omit it despite my temptation to let it go.

At 3 PM on this day I heard (in the EWTN/Spanish) the comments of a Bishop from Colombia who comes often to make sense of “two little words” or “dos palabritas.” He spoke about truth and example. He mentioned St. Jean Marie Vianney. Someone who questioned the belief in God went to visit him (also known as the Cure of Ars) and he came back believing in God. He was asked, “Why?” He answered, “I believed because of his example.” This Bishop then added, “We have to learn from other’s example in order to become examples ourselves.”

I immediately realized that his day was full of extraordinary talks and revelations. The two words of the Colombian Bishop would very well serve as an explanations of my “intelligent evangelization” definition.

Friday, March 2

The 10 boxes via UPS arrived today. Of course, after today, I have no driver’s license… These things are of extreme importance for my spiritual growth.

In fact, last night, March 1, I came to this computer which had just being put together by my son and ended up in Facebook and found a commercial that made sense“How to eat with foods that heal your eyes…!!!!” And this is one of the major problems for me to get a new license, that is my poor vision. Scientifically it made lots of sense. The foods that are consumed by Australian aborigines make them famous for having the most perfect eyesight in the world. The man who has the site for the sharing of the protocol to eat the right foods, is a Marine Coronel (57) and ended up in Australia for 2 months to train some aborigine people to protect themselves from enemies. In the mean time, his wife (42) had been told that she would lose her vision in 6 months due to a problem with macular degeneration. This man got interested in the finding of perfect vision that they have in Australia and asked how they did it. When back in the U.S., he was able with the help of an MD, to figure out what foods in America would cover the ones in Australia that its people ate, especially the chemicals in certain of their herbs not found in America.

This man spoke about God and how this was a miracle for him and his wife. He complained about the optometry industry that for money THEY only prescribe eye glasses… He found out that the product that he came with, if drank in the form of a smoothie only take 21 one days to start cleaning the eyes of much toxicity. The MD who helped him, also tells of how many organs we tend to lose due to TOXICITY!!!!! O yeah!!! I looked at the clock and it was 12 midnight of this day, March 2, my birthday!!!!! I ordered the information for $37 and some 10 DVD’s for $59. It was not much in case it does not work. YET, I REMEMBERED THAT I HAD ASKED MY LORD during these past days to find me a way for me to DETOXIFY ASAP because my memory, especially in English is going away again and I am now allergic to the products I took in 2009 to reverse my memory loss. In fact, coming out of the airplane, I had lost at least 30% more memory… Yes, it has been reported that the interior of planes are very dangerous with infection and toxicity. I now can testify to it.

If these foods made into a shake help my vision (to get a driver’s license) and my immune system so not to react so brutally with many foods, well, this is an answer from God for this birthday. (On March 6, I was able to read the information spoken above and I will add more to what I found…)

Sunday, March 4

There are two parishes nearby. Of course, this is the “South” and I would not expect that many Catholic parishes… One is large, St. Peter the Apostle. But according to Ernie, it has many stairs up to the entrance of this church. The other is Prince of Peace and we went to the last one.

It is a huge parish with 7 Masses, including one on Sunday at 2 PM in Spanish. Huh! They do better here than the “sanctuary” State of California… The parish bulletin is written in English and Spanish!!! It is only 15 minutes away and in route and getting out of the first time since my arrival, all this section where I now live is full of beautiful homes… Until two days ago I did not know that our home cost a little over one quarter million dollars. In California, this home would cost about 2 million dollars. God sent me to this world to enjoy expensive homes… The good news is that I never got attached to them!

By now, the amount of intelligence around and found besides of what I mentioned before, is simply mind bugling. The dish washer is complicated to use. The stove is also super intelligent in all its ways to cook. The rather small microwave oven placed very high on top of the stove is super difficult to use. Thanks be to God that we brought the one we had in California. The clothes washer and dryer are also super intelligent! I wanted to thank my Jesus for such a blessing to know before I die of something that as little girl in Costa Rica, would have never, ever imagined to exist!

The road to Prince of Peace does not have regular lights. It is mostly a quiet road that goes down from where we live as if our section lays on a little mountain. 1. The front of this church looks like the entrance to a huge building. And yes, the huge lobby takes one to the actual huge church, to a chapel across the church and many other sections for different activities, all under one roof. The moment I came out of the car, a woman (early 40’s?) ran to me to give me her hand so that I could come out with the help of my cane as well. She was coming out of the 7 AM Mass and we were to attend the 8:30 AM Mass. She went back with me towards the entrance of the church and got in again. The entrance of the main church is far away from the main entrance. I thanked her tons of times. The prior day, Ernie had already checked the place for the bathrooms. They were not too far and were super modern… They had about 7 regular stalls plus at the very end one for women with disabilities like me … I thanked God because in my prior parish, there are only4 regular stalls and the one for disable women which is across of the entrance. Many a time, I had to stand (painfully) for a period of time waiting for a healthy woman to use this not needed stall.

This lady introduced me to a younger woman who was going to sit near the main entrance and could have registered me right and then. I found many people in the bathroom who were super nice… 6-8 year old girls were dressed superbly and were super nice to me!!! As we waited sitting in the very last bench, I wanted to find someone to find out if they distributed the Eucharist at the front and back or just the front? I prayed and a woman was passing by with some books in her hands and I got up and asked her. She answered with a HUGE SMILE and asked, “Are you going to be seated right at the last bench?” I told her that yes I would be there. Then, with a beautiful manner she said, “Do not worry. We will bring the Eucharist to you.” At the time of Communion, one of the men helping direct the people going to the front ,came to me and asked me if I needed the Eucharist to be brought to me… When I said that I did, he responded, “We will bring it to you!” And YEEEES, my Jesus was brought to this sickly woman without any problem.

By the time the Mass was over, I felt totally at home, something that I HAVE NEVER FELT BEFORE in my first visit to a church to attend a weekend Mass. I had talked to my Lord and several times even in California to direct me to the right parish… Well, as always, He answered my prayer… Even right now, I feel that I belong… Also, as we walked out, there were several people who would smile at me with much love… The Holy Spirit had been touching their hearts and THEY SHOWED ME THAT THEY examples of great obedience to the second most important Commandment. Wow! The only problem is that the microphone system is rather poor for an old lady like me.

From there, we went to Whole Food Health Market, chain of organic foods that we used in California. They have a hot meal bar all day. Again, as Ernie left me at the front of this BRAND NEW Whole Food (since Oct. 2017), a young man ran from inside of the building and asked me if I wanted a cart. I said yes and fascinated because shopping carts are easier for me to walk with than the use of only the cane. It turned out that this car is one of those that the client drives!!!! The more I told him that I had never used one, that many times he answered, “Do not worry, it is very easy. You will like it.” I did use it but was scary since passing near bunches of wine bottles, I could see myself knocking a bunch down… When we came out, the same African American man ran to me and said, “Use it all the way to your car. I will pick it up later from the parking lot.” HERE AGAIN, my God was moving people to treat me like a princess.

Tuesday, March 6

On this day, my son was able to get all the information spoken about regarding a protocol to use certain foods to make smoothies to drink 3 per day for 3 weeks and see positive changes, especially in the case of macular degeneration, which I do not have. This was to be my birthday gift and it is a gift… How I wished I could write in a separate document all the information that I have found and post it in the right side of this site giving you some ideas of SO MANY EXTRAORDINARY foods to help your entire body. May be, you may want to order this product which is not expensive and give yourself the knowledge that you will never get at your doctor’s office.

For example, there are two supplements that help your vision in many ways. In two years, it can make your cataract disappear. They are lutein and zeaxantin. You learn where to find them, like lutein in spinach, kale, dark green veggies, broccoli, etc. Zeaxantin is found in yellow orange fruits like oranges, papaya and egg yolks. Yes, you can buy them as supplements in any health food store but if you want to work on your eyes forever, it is better to use natural products. For young people, is a way to avoid toxicity since these two products are huge anti-oxidants that prevent the oxidation of the eye’s tissue.

As mentioned before, the Australian man Bunji gave to this Marine Mr. Campbell a list of the things the aborigines eat daily and it contains lutein, zeaxantin, Omega 3 oils, Vitamin B6, B12, vitamin A, CA and zinc. He explains in detail that eating walnuts, seeds, fish oil, krill oil and flaxseeds will provide all the Omega 3 oils. Vit. B6 is abundant in chili powder!!! Vit. B12 is essential for everything in our bodies especially our brains to pass on the right messages, etc. and it is not found in any plant or animal source. It is found in bacteria, yeasts, mold and algae. Therefore, taking probiotics or good bacteria for our gut is a great source of this vitamin. WITHOUT B12, the optic nerve becomes brittle and vision starts to be distorted! In 2012, a 68 year old had almost no vision left and it returned to 20/20 in a few months.

He gives a list of toxic foods… Margarine, for example, if taken regularly has caused increased heart disease in 53% of women. This is a recent Harvard study. Margarine is described as being one molecule away from being plastic!!! IT SHARES 27 INGREDIENTS WITH PAINT…

He explains how excessive intake of sugar makes cataracts… He explained exactly how it happens. I will not bug you with more information but I want to share with you the importance of learning what foods can kill us and why…This knowledge was a gift to me and will be for you as well. You may Google these words: outback vision protocol and find out more about it. In the information that I bought for $37, I got several recipes of how to make several smoothies with different fruits and veggies, which makes it easier. It is good that Bill Campbell does not try to sell products that contain the same chemicals as the recipes.


Well, here I am in Alabama with severe pain and my vision getting worse in order to write these blogs and finish the book with important information about what toxicity does to our bodies. My reaction to foods with pain seems to grow by the day. On March 6 my questions to God were:

1. Lord, do You want me to stop the blog. He answered not with a “yes” in the Bible or a “no” but with 1Chronicles, chapters 1-5, which mention the descendants from Adam to Abraham and from Abraham to David, etc. I understood that we are one as the Body of Christ and that I should consider my younger brothers and sisters as my spiritual family, which means that I have to become a spiritual mother to those who God calls to read the blogs. So, somehow I will try my best to keep posting monthly blogs. IF I CANNOT FOR ANY CIRCUMSTANCE, a short note will be posted explaining that no blog would be written on the particular month. If you do not find such note, understand that a blog is coming from the previous month but at the beginning of the following month.

2. I prayed, “Come Holy Spirit, come and give me the knowledge I need to understand this moment (much pain, unable to stand for long, using tons of Tramadol and I do not have a new doctor in sight – by this date I had made a list of doctors that accept Medicare patients but still have to figure out if they are accepting new patients! To be unable to drive and forcing in this way to have my son take me to shop for foods or having him get them by himself). What do You want from me Lord?”

Immediately I understood that 1) I have to plan a new way of using my free time which is abundant. Any soap opera (make belief programs that are not religious at all even that the Virgin of Guadalupe is mentioned often as well as adding actors dressed as priests and giving good advice, all from Mexico) should be eliminated by understanding that they are a waste of my time even that if they are funny and give me some entertainment.

I also understood that 2) I should say more Rosaries per day and offer them for my health, but also for the mercy of God to ILLUMINE, TRANSFORM AND SANCTIFY all Roman Catholic ministerial Priests.3) I also must say more Rosaries and more often than not, say “yes” to this uncertainty.

Finally, 4) I questioned if He is calling me to live in a “retreat” style to prepare for my final departure; to finish the book ASAP; to get a driver’s license if it is His will and my eyes get better with the knowledge recently obtained with the “vision protocol,” so that I can do some shopping and in this way help my son. 5) I could also use this retreat time to CONSTANTLY remember to offer all my sufferings for the sins of all Roman Catholic ministerial Priests.

I am not totally certain that this the last word from His will for me. I would appreciate your prayers so that I can always be obedient 100% to His holy will. Thank you.

Among the things I found as I searched for the things to throw away or bring to Alabama, I found a tiny book copyrighted 1988 and reprinted in 2006. The title is: Golden Counsels of Saint Francis de Sales, a saint that I used in the 1990’s as my spiritual director through his writings, especially “The Devout Life”… Toledo, OH had a major group of Salesians.

I want to leave you with his words on GOD’S WILL

“Be of good heart, I beg you; little by little train your will to follow God’s will, wherever it may lead you; see that your will is strongly roused when your conscience says: God wants this.

“Live entirely for God, and since you have to take part in conversations and social gatherings, try to be of some use to others. Do not think that God is further away from you when you are in the midst of the busyness to which your vocation calls you than He would be if you were enjoying a tranquil life.

No, it is not tranquility which brings Him close to our hearts; it is rather the fidelity of our love; it is not the feeling we have of His sweetness, but the consent we give to His holy will. It is more desirable that His will be carried out in us than that we carry out our will in Him.

“Once we have reached a decision in a holy manner, we must never doubt about the holiness of carrying it out; since it does not depend on us, this holiness cannot be lacking. To act otherwise would be a sign of great self-love, or of immaturity, or of a weak or foolish mind.

“A hundred times a day let us look upon this loving will of God, and, dissolving our will into it, let us devoutly exclaim:

‘O goodness of infinite gentleness, how lovable is Your will. How desirable Your favors! You have created us for eternal life, and your maternal breast, overflowing with incomparable love, abounds with the milk of mercy, either to pardon penitents or to perfect the righteous.’”

P.S.: thank you so much for your prayers… You have no idea how much I depend on them! I now need them for the most important items that I need to solve soon.

1) Finding the right doctor, one with a nice character and patience since my clinical history is huge. One that may trust me when I say that my knee pain is true and not for getting more Tramadol, which they say it may cause addiction. I have none…

2) For my many needs to open a bank account here and cancel the one in California but done well so the Social Security money can be properly re-routed.

3) For the proper use of time to comply with the will of God.

4) For a better vision to finish this large book mentioned many times before (it is 3/4 written) and find a publisher.

5) To find the right detoxification, and may be through the products that help the eyesight.

6) For Satan to stop bugging me, like making this new and advanced computer act weirdly, that even my son, a data base engineer at times cannot figure out. When a start writing a blog, I store it little by little as it is written in a flash drive device. Yet, I still do not know where they are. So, I am sending it to one of my sons email addresses, in case it disappears as a few months ago happened. I found the beautiful picture with Our Lady of Lourdes and the Divine Child from Colombia shown alternating as one moves around it

7) For the money necessary to pay my credit card debt.

8) For several items that this house needs installed and it has been impossible to get it done, and one of which is the security system. Satan may be behind it!

9) To fully understand if I am called to live in a retreat style but praying and suffering what God wants for me.

10) For my son Ernie, to be blessed with his job and not to lose it due to decisions of the larger company that owns his. If the will of God is for him to seek another job if the present one is terminated, that it gets done without Satan’s involvement with anything related to his job.

As said before, I do pray for you with the Rosary; you, who pray for me. God bless you. I am sorry if I made many mistakes while writing this long blog… I am an immigrant after all,,,!!!!

1. How to find the will of God in our lives as it has happened to me! – 2. A better understanding of important health issues

February 7, 2018


Here I am again trying to report what I have learned in the month of January regarding the Presence of God in my life and all His teachings. It will be a late message because our move to Alabama (departure date will most likely be on February 24) is consuming much of my time cleaning this home’s multiple areas, choosing what goes, what can be given away, actual trash and what needs to be shredded…

I must share that I finally got together all the mail that Catholic groups and from charity sources send me asking for money to help their ministries… They turned out to be about 30 different groups and several times from each source… and it takes time to open the envelopes and destroy them…since  I cannot send money over and over to so many, even if it is a few dollars. Of course, if I had enough money to give away, I would do it. As you remember, I have written that I gave my monies away to the poor when I earned one quarter million dollars per year. Of course, I spent money paying for the private Catholic education of my four sons including college. However, I could not keep so much money for myself when Jesus suggested otherwise.

Well, back to this month of January, I received a couple of great miracles and my pain in knees due to allergy to almost all foods was present as always. Now, let me mention that with this story behind my daily life, I have been totally DEDICATED to do His will minute by minute… It only means that I have been able to be totally convinced that my life has no meaning unless I offer my Father this suffering for the SALVATION OF SOULS, and His grace has come for me to agree with these difficult circumstances… So, I have said a big YES to the pain in my knees and have not asked for the favor of taking it away or even making it less acute… I am finally convinced deep in my mind and heart that He knows the way and His will for me is the most perfect one!

Right now and before I continue according to the calendar sequence, let me tell you how I went about saying yes to His will and before the grace was received. I continue hearing many religious people and mostly Catholic ones, carry on conversations regarding of what do we have to do to grow in the spiritual life. Of course, when you are young, let say up to age 25, YES, we have to understand a few things like the need to obey the will of God and how Jesus and His Mother did it as their primordial day to day form of living. However, later in life, the work is to do what Jesus told us we should do in order to obey His call to follow Him… PERIOD!

Important point: we should never worry about what the will of God is bringing us at every moment or how to identify it to be able to do it! NEVER… Let me pause here and tell you that I am writing the above assertion simply because I FINALLY discovered it in my own life. My first step is to TRUST (please remember that for me trust is faith without fear or “F without f”) OR ask for this trust if I do not have it. My trust is built over my YES to whatever His will is for me… Again, with zero fear and if I have it, I must pause and ask for His mercy to heal me. Then, when I trust, His mercy covers me and the Holy Spirit will show me what the will of God for that moment is for me… and sometimes for a near future!!! I may never discover His will ahead of time but only in hindsight when I am already in route doing it and guided by the Holy Spirit. BUT for this process to get started, once I receive the wisdom to be totally convinced that my life has no meaning unless I offer my Father with a big YES all my sufferings for the SALVATION OF SOULS, then I ONLY HAVE TO CONTINUE BY DOING THE FOLLOWING:

Often during the day and especially when I have to make decisions of any kind, big ones (coming in the future) or minor ones in my day to day living, I have been trained 1) to pray to the Holy Spirit the prayer below. I have mentioned it many times in this site but I will re-write it and I know it by-heart and even with my past memory loss that was reversed in 2009, and with the partial memory loss of the present due to continuous exposure to environmental toxicity, I have never forgotten it… Then, 2) I will follow it with another prayer that I composed in the 1990’s and that has to do with the promise of Jesus that He will give me anything I need if I ask it to the Father in His Name.

1). “Come Holy Spirit, enlighten my heart to see the things that are of God. Come Holy Spirit into my mind that I may know the things that are of God. Come Holy Spirit into my soul that I may belong only to God. Sanctify all that I think, say and do that all will be for the glory of God. Amen.”

2). Father, in the Name of Your Son Jesus united to my sufferings, give me the grace to do Your will now and forever, with the certitude of being the greatest spiritual practice. Please Holy Spirit, help me to manage my time so that I stop all things that waste it. Instead, give me the grace to use the extra free time to pray more, especially the Rosary.  Amen.

I must add that this is the way that I have been led to proceed, “despacito” as the famous song says… or “slowly.” In time, this practice becomes a way of life and one never worries to know what the actual will of God is. Instead, one grows in the certitude that the Spirit is taking one to obey His will. Of course, at times one is alerted to what one is expected to do, especially when one does not expect to be involved in certain activities. Many times, when one is not super sure about what to do, I use the Bible and ask for a confirming phrase or at times for the word “yes”… and there are many yeses in Sacred Scripture!!! There have been times that I have not gotten a confirming answer and it is then that He tells me to ask for the Spirit’s gift of wisdom and understanding and then proceed!

All in all, the entire program is a delightful way to never to worry about what the will of God is before we proceed, and again, in hindsight is all there… In fact, later in this blog I will go through the list of blessings I did receive since age 5, and you will see how our Lord have shown me that He was guiding me throughout. When I was terribly twice persecuted in my my jobs, I sensed that Satan had tempted my persecutors to do so, but that God had allowed it! I even received a lack of resentment for what these doctors did and up to this date!

My 2015 surgical repair of my prolapsed bladder has been such a horrific poor surgery that will mark my last days on earth! Yet, I cannot feel any resentment for the urologist who did it. He was thrown out of his practice with other 3 urologists precisely as I went for the first postoperative visit. So, I never saw him again, although he joined a different group. Some 3 months later, a secretary called twice and left messages, inviting me to make an appointment to see him… I thought of going once to tell him what he had done by forcing my bladder to need to be emptied every 90 minutes or so, but decided not to proceed. Several times per day I offer this mishap and its consequences for his salvation like suffering every time that I need to look for bathrooms in all public places, but to this date I have no resentment. Also this makes me think of him daily. Another negative consequence is forcing us to buy an expensive first class ticket to fly to Alabama and  to sit next to the bathroom and explain to the stewardess why I have to go so often. We plan to fly to Atlanta and my Alabamian son will be there to pick us up for the 2.5 hours of driving to get home.


Saturday, January 6 to Tuesday January 9.

During these days, my son #1 and #3 (the Deacon) came from Los Angeles and Omaha, NE to help us to clean up and choose what to throw out, give away or take with us from our two storage places. I could not make it because the pain in my knees impeded it. They also helped us to do the same in this house in one room and the downstairs areas. It was a true act of mercy for us.  At the times of eating, whether breakfast outside or dinner in our house, these three brothers had a great time together. God is good.

When I remember that I never suffered of teenage tantrums of any kind, and how much they love each other, well, I know for a fact that my Lord did it… When they were young, I was out many hours a day for my practice in anesthesia and never instructed them to get along!!! In the mean time, the fourth son and his wife from Birmingham, AL, have worked a lot in the new house and placing window blinds by themselves, and offering Ernie a place to stay when he had to fly to finish the necessary paperwork for the purchase of the home. They also are keeping an eye on the house for security reasons.

Sunday, January 7

After Communion, Jesus said to me, “From now on, offer every Mass and my Eucharistic Presence united to your suffering for all Roman Catholic Ministerial Priests. Expect changes in your health as the fruit of your merciful care of My Priests.”

Thursday, January 11

On this day, I understood that I must pray a Rosary/Chaplet of Mercy for myself in order to atone for my sins and ask for His mercy to be able to follow the guidance of the Holy Spirit at every moment. Again, all this done with tons of faith and zero fear which came in the same package with my yes… If I have fear, I must repent and ask for His mercy over and over. This is especially important for this move… and by someone who is so sickly when my pain could make me doubt. Also, I must remember that my faith is a gift from God but I cannot grab it on my own… It is also important for me to understand that fear comes often from my flesh but ALSO as a temptation from Mr. Satan… He is around  trying very hard to make us fearful of things we must plan and execute…Yet, asking for God’s mercy and my repentance from any fear, will open wide the doors of my TRUST in His mercy and voila… I will see the way and have the fortitude to proceed as the Holy Spirit will send me signs of what I must do or not do and in my case, regarding this move…

And sure enough, more miracles were manufactured in heaven and thrown in my path to help me LIVE HIS WILL DURING THIS TIME!!!! In retrospect, it is sooo easy… If God the Son was created in the womb of a teenager after her YES… and precisely by the Holy Spirit, I must just relax every time that I start worrying about how I will cross this Jordan River between California and Alabama… Here, our Biblical knowledge must be applied… Otherwise, we are wasting the knowledge that our father Abraham, Moses and all successors left us for the plan of God to take us back to Him.

On this day, when I normally eat only two meals per day, I could not eat dinner because I had too much pain and no appetite

Friday, January 12

I did not feel like eating breakfast until 1 PM… Therefore, I spent 26 hours without any ingestion of food!

A. After my breakfast I became concerned about all the papers to be processed. My Mother said, “Do not think about it… If you dedicate yourself to do His will BUT OUT OF LOVE FOR HIM, the Holy Spirit will provide all understanding and wisdom to process all that is needed to be done but in the time of God. I want you to consecrate Mr. Trump and wife Melania to me with 30 days of preparation and ending in one of my coming feasts. At the same time consecrate them to the Holy Spirit. Satan is working overtime tempting many to divide this country and opposing him far beyond is needed.”

I thought that this was a great idea. I looked at her upcoming feasts. I considered February 11th, yet, I am so full of things to do and so sickly that I prefer to do it when I arrive in Alabama and do it with great faith and calmness. I asked the Holy Spirit to give me light in this issue.

Holy Spirit à “Many things need to be done prior to your departure for Alabama. It also depends on your constant prayer and offering of your suffering for the ministerial Priesthood. The world is coming apart and you all are in need of evangelizers who are ready to grow daily into further spiritual conversion so that they (Priests) can lead all to seek Me and love all people around. This is all that you need and I expect of you in order to receive all the graces needed for your departure from this area without too much turmoil like fear and therefore, poor trust in My love for you. Remember that this particular time in your life has the richness of much suffering. Use it! Do not waste this treasure for the good of your brothers and sisters and for My glory.”

I was amazed to hear what the plan for my move to the South is all about. I looked at the clock and it was 3:30 PM, the Hour of Mercy!!!

B. Now, you my reader, will have to be patient with the following section. I will write extensively about medical issues that could affect your lives as it has happened to me. Please pass this information to anyone who you consider needs it. It is part of our obedience to the second most important Commandment.


On this day, I talked to my first cousin in North Carolina and she is older than I. The facts of her story made me cry. She suffers from high blood pressure. Our medical profession (the alopath’s or MD’s – not naturopaths or homeopaths or others) has been trained to leave patients with false information… The day before at the doctor’s office, her blood pressure had a systolic of 144. On this day, she told me that she had not taken medication because the day before her blood pressure was so good. I asked her if she had a blood pressure machine at home. She said, “Yes.” I then gave her a lecture of how wrong she was in taking this information as true… I reminded her that our blood pressures change constantly and from minute to minute as our heart beats around 70 times a minute. So, let me leave you with some info that you should understand in order to preserve your health.

What is the blood pressure? The blood pressure is created by the amount of force (systolic – higher number) that the heart must produce by the contraction of the cardiac muscle of the left ventricle  and as it encounters in the peripheral arteries to be able to send blood everyplace. This blood is the carrier of oxygen… Moments before, the same blood was passed by contraction of the right ventricle into the lung arteries to be charged with oxygen that comes from our respiration. The life of our cells depend on the amount of oxygen in the blood. The lower number (diastolic) is the pressure in the arterial system left when the heart relaxes. This is repeated again on an average of 70 times per minute. Imagine the chances of this number to change by the second or less than one second at the time… If too high, it could procure the explosion of a cerebral artery with a stroke as a result! If it is too low due to more medication than needed or secondary to a major bleeding, the brain and the heart will also suffer for lack of oxygen since the blood reaching all organs gets diminished.

The medication that one takes to keep the blood pressure within safe numbers works by keeping the arteries somewhat relaxed so that the muscle of the heart when it contracts, does not have to generate much force or pressure in pushing the blood forward. This pretty much proves that after age 50 when our arteries are hardened due to arteriosclerosis and simply old age, we should check our blood pressures often enough to know if the medication dosage is adequate to avoid the heart muscle to work too hard, and yet avoid excessive relaxation that may keep the systolic pressure too low… and our organs not receiving enough blood, which translates into lack of oxygen and possible tissue death…

In the case of my cousin, I ORDERED HER IN THE NAME OF JESUS (she is very religious and her husband is a Deacon in our Church) to take her blood pressure at least twice a day, early morning and in the evening. If the blood pressures were fairly good, then to keep doing it and take her medication as ordered by her physician. If they were hi, she should take medication right away, especially if too high. Also, to record all blood pressures with date and time plus the time of her blood pressure medication; then and if the results were abnormal, to take the findings to her doctor to receive instructions and possibly have a change of daily dosage. I told her that I use the little papers of “POST IT” size and use one per day. I went deep in explaining what she could end up with, like suffering a stroke and never walk again or never talk again, etc.

I remember how in the early 2000 in Toledo, OH, once a month after the Saturday evening Mass in our parish, we would take the blood pressure of our parishioners who wanted it done. When somewhat high, I would recommend running to the doctor the following Monday. I would teach them how to do acupressure in their bodies to diminish the BP at least for a few minutes at the time. I also recommended going to Target (usually open at the time) and buying a blood pressure machine with cuff. If the blood pressure came to be over 170 systolic for several hours, then to visit the emergency room… And on and on and on… I had parishioners with systolic blood pressures of 200 plus… Each time, I wanted to cry… At one point I stopped taking blood pressures because at the time, I did not have any malpractice insurance since I was not working PLUS I could not really help them.

Many of them would answer that the blood pressure was O.K. at their last visit to the doctor’s office!!! Again, a non sense answer!  Right now we continue to have this crisis… As a society, we are fabricating strokes and daily… There is no effort from the government or our so called medical societies to create some form of education for all Americans… regarding this problem. IN FACT, IF I AM GOING TOO FAR IN EXPLAINING THIS PROBLEM in a religious blog, BUT with permission from the Lord, is because I feel I have to do it and help any of you who do not understand well how a blood pressure is generated, and how quickly changes even when we are asleep and perhaps we have forgotten our blood pressure medication!

The other day when the present flu epidemic started, in the ABC early show (GMA), a doctor came to say that some people take antiviral natural products like Oil of Oregano and Olive Leaf Extract, both of which have great anti-viral power. I have known that for many years since I became aware of the importance of many herbs for our health. Well, this MD lady does not know that the Olive Leaf Extract also drops the blood pressure by at least 20 points for 4-5 hours. I use it for that reason and used it also with oil of oregano to antagonize the flu virus if it comes to my body. I meant to send a message to this program to tell them so, but never did… I should do it even if this late. Imagine if a patient is medicated for hi blood pressure and adds another substance to decrease it further?

2. TOXIC. FOOD additives

In fact, how I would give my life to be able to talk to Mr. Trump and tell him that diet Coke (I understand that is his favorite) if it has aspartame as a sweetener, to consider stopping it…And this is why!

My first experience with food additives came in 1984 when I bought diet pop containing Aspartame (Nutrasweet) for one of my sons since saccharine had been discontinued. 3 days later he was in a deep depression! We all tried it, and it did affect me and another son as well. I can become depressed and experience headaches if regularly I consume Aspartame. It comes in light blue packets.

Aspartame   (Nutrasweet, Equal) it is extracted from decayed plant matter that has been underground for millions of years.  The book “Excitoxins – The Taste that Kills”- 1997 by Russell Blaylock, MD is worth reading in regards to Aspartame. He says in his book: “Nutrasweet is made of 40% of aspartate, and like glutamate (MSG) is a powerful brain toxin which can produce similar neuron damage.” In another section under conclusions he writes: “It is becoming increasingly evident that many if not all of the neurodegenerative diseases (Parkinson’s, Alzheimer’s, etc) of the central nervous system begin with an impaired energy production system. This leaves the neurons vulnerable to excitotoxin injury.” He also gives some advice on which vita-nutrients help mitochondrial (intra-cellular – nuclear corpuscles) energy production in brain cells.

 From a 1992 article in the Flying Safety Magazine (because some pilots had reported grand mal seizures in the cockpits of commercial airline flights!): “Aspartame is a molecule composed of 3 components: aspartic acid, phenylalanine and methanol. Once ingested the methanol, wood alcohol that has killed or blinded thousands of skid row drunks, converts into formaldehyde and formic acid (Ant Sting Poison). Formaldehyde, a deadly neurotoxin, is a  common embalming fluid, a Class A Carcinogen. Phenylalanine is also neurotoxic when un-accompanied by the other amino acids in proteins. Aspartic acid causes brain lesions in neuro-endocrine disorders in experimental animals.”

For Aspartame, there are 92 documented symptoms including: headaches, dizziness, seizures, depression, blindness, numbness, muscle spasms, hearing loss, fatigue, weight gain, tachycardia (fast pulse), slurred speech, blurred vision, irritability, tinnitus (ringing of the ears), loss of taste, heart palpitations, anxiety attacks, joint pain, insomnia, memory loss, vertigo and nausea.

I understand that as of late, they are making diet coke with a different sweetener but I doubt that aspartame has been completely dropped. Prior to the 1980’s, as mentioned above, saccharine (pink packets) was used but there were reports that it caused bladder cancer in rats… Nope… It turned out that it does not and I take it with my coffee…

Wednesday January 17

As I continued watching the Holy Father’s visit to Chile, on this day, he was in the southern part of this country. The several speakers including the Pope, came to reveal to me injustices still going on in 2018… like much hunger, lack of jobs and even history of clergy abuse. It was until then that I realized how poor of a Christian I am… I cried and I repented… Here I was born in a tiny country, supposedly the Switzerland of the Americas because we do not have an army and education is our sought after gift for all of us… Let me remind you if you do not know, that my country was one of the most racist’s places in the world… Up to 1948, black citizens living in the port of the city of Limon, looking towards the African Continent from where they migrated many years ago, they could not visit the capital city of San Jose where I was born, located in the middle of the country up in the mountains. They needed to get a permission to do so!!!! For me, as child, this was normal and I WAS A RACIST… (Ouch)…

Well, to continue my story, I received every possible gift from God’s PURE mercy and as follows:

1) At age 5 I knew that when I grew up that I wanted to be a secretary and a doctor of medicine …This knowledge was very important because a) many years later, by being a medical doctor I was able to deal with my dementia with the necessary scientific knowledge to find the cause. b) As a medical student in those days, I typed all my homework papers without difficulty whereas my classmates usually had to seek help from others! Our type writers were big and heavy and the Internet and the computer technology were not even dreamed of!  I graduated from a “commercial night school,” which I attended 3 nights per week for two years, as I finished my primary school fourth and fifth grades. I graduated at age 11. I also learned short hand and this helped me much in medical school when taking notes!

2) At age 6.5, I met Jesus in the Eucharist as really present.

3) I got straight A’s in my primary and secondary schooling.

4) I attended a bilingual hi school, Lincoln Hi, but only for one year (too expensive), and it gave me a good basic formation in English…

5) I ended up with a scholarship as an exchange student to come to the U.S. for one year to do my senior year at Mira Costa High School in Manhattan Beach, near Los Angeles, CA. I did not win this gift but another friend from my public high school did, and by the way, this was the very first time that this association, the American Field Service, would grant Costa Rica this scholarship and they are still doing it!!! It is interesting that the Holy Spirit inspired the director of this association, Mr. Steven Galati, to add Costa Rica to the few Latin American countries they already served. I was chosen for racist reasons: the only family left to receive any of us was Bostonian and Catholic but they wanted a German boy… Well, they accepted me since I am white and look American. Of course, they asked me and right away, never to become friends with Jews, Afro-Americans and Hispanics!!!

6) I went to medical school in Panama and PAID NOTHING for such education as long as I kept a very high GPA of 3.75. I only paid $38 per semester for my first year of premedical school… Ever since, I have loved my Panama and its citizens so much and wish them the BEST for the Youth meeting of 2019. It happened that my professors were all trained in the U.S and mostly at John Hopkins Hospital and the Sorbonne in France.  Therefore, I was given a very good education and had no problem in passing the test to come to the U.S. for further training.

7) I wanted to be a cardiologist forever and ever but my Lord overnight said “No.” Here is an example of how the Holy Spirit directs us… I did not hear any words from God. I only woke one day KNOWING that I had to give up my choice and of course, it was not the will of God but I had no actual idea of such thing. Instead, I was led to become an anesthesiologist and again, out of the blue… and I hated the operating room atmosphere.. This was a huge and important move for later in my life to end up understanding how fluoride was the first to cause my memory loss… besides other toxics later. I could not write this blog if I were suffering from a full case of dementia…

By the way, I already had my residence position in Internal Medicine in the same hospital I had done my internship. However, this late June I was led to do the most horrible thing and turn it down much after I had accepted it!!! It was too late to find a residence in anesthesiology for July 1st, but the chief of the anesthesia department at the Jewish Sinai Hospital of Detroit, next to the Catholic hospital named Mount Carmel… created a new residency position for me!!! Again, the Holy Spirit opened the door for me to do God’s will… This is an amazing example of what previously I wrote about how God does it all!

8) I grew up as a teen with racist ideas  as stated above and that I learned as a child and accepted them as most Costa Ricans felt it was the correct way regarding colored brothers and sisters… The Lord fixed it by leading me to marry a man with mixed ancestry…I had had three prior marriage proposals and turned them down… I met my husband where I went to do my internship and he was a pathology resident. I ended up in this hospital between Detroit and Ann Arbor, MI because from Costa Rica, I applied to 5 hospitals  in three different States and all accepted me but this particular one did it first!!! And yes, the Holy Spirit had led me to tell God that I would choose whichever accepted me first….. Again, this was the chosen hospital in order to be close to Sinai Hospital of Detroit in Michigan and to be able to have a residency in anesthesiology be created. WHAT AN AMAZING LORD WE HAVE!

Returning to the ancestry of my husband to be, I remember vividly how as we met, I looked at him with some disdain because of his color… Yet, out of the blue the Lord made me fall in love with him and despite having problems with my parents… due to his color. Imagine if I had continued being a racist? I would have stopped all spiritual growth!  God had it all pretty well organized to drop such a horrible sin…

9) From this marriage I had 4 extraordinary sons and super intelligent ones. Because of son number 2 and soon to reside in Alabama, I started this blog that he set up exactly 4 MONTHS after I arrived in California, and even that I did not know what a blog was all about… Ouch! Of course, my son who studied psychology at Notre Dame, ended up getting trained as a data base engineer… and now he posts these blogs every month, just because my new computer is a mad machine and I cannot do it anymore as I did with my old computer… Please pray for him if you like somewhat reading this monthly blog…Ernie is his first name!!!

10) I made tons of money and I lived in mansions and drove Mercedes Benz times 3. Yet, at no time, I became attached to any luxury… and gave my monies away to those in need. In 1977 we left for Costa Rica to live there because it was my husband’s dream. However, it was impossible to stay for more than one year. Socialized medicine was and is a perfect disaster. So, here we had to spend thousands of dollars to come back bringing many of our household items.

11) My sons came back to have primary and high school Jesuit education and wonderful college formation. We parents were U.S. citizens by then.

12) It was in Costa Rica, as we had to sell many things like refrigerator, washer and dryer of clothes, when Jesus spoke with me for the first time and told me how to sell them quickly… since we needed to secure jobs in the U.S. and bring 2 of the sons to continue their primary education. The other two were too young at the time to worry about it. I did what He said and yes, in one weekend all was sold and cash!!!

13) 10 years later, it was my heavenly Mother who came to become my true mother in every sense. The Lord had chosen to give me a Marian grandmother who took care of me, and she was the one who every day about 4 AM would sit up in her bed to pray the Rosary. Not only that, but she came from a very religious family which had a special devotion to St. Teresa of Avila and St. John of the Cross. I became a Carmelite without knowing it. As a baby of 2 years, it was a picture of St. Therese of Lissieux who gave a sign to my grandmother of her presence near my crib where I was asleep!

14) Later in my life, I not only found a reversal for my dementia but was able to understand that aspartame and carrageenan caused depression in my life… Imagine if I had not received this gift for my occasional depressions (of course after eating products with these items).

I am sure that I have written before all the things above but I am repeating them because it proves that WE ALL ARE CHOSEN by our God FOR A SPECIAL work for His Kingdom. I would have become terribly afraid if I had learned ahead of time of all the things I would live through and try to figure out His will at every corner… He willed it. He gave me the preparation to execute His will in my life, including living in areas where the Catholic Charismatic Movement was heavily active like Ann Arbor, MI and in doing so, I started a personal relationship with the Holy Spirit Who in turn gave me the necessary guidance to go through wonderful and tough times and never lose the way …

My “Yeses” were not as clear as I say them now but I never asked for a change for my difficult times. It means that He was giving me at all times His grace to follow Him, not perfectly but nonetheless keeping my eyes on Him, Jesus,  and most of my life seeking the Holy Spirit as real within my inner temple. His Presence is real and very much the same that knowing that Jesus is present in the Consecrated Host.

I WILL STOP HERE but I cried so much on this day watching my beautiful Chilean brothers and sisters who were not given as many gifts as I got… There is no question that I have a major duty since whoever gets the most, more shall be asked of him/her… And it made me think that this horrible pain I have is important because I need to suffer since I did suffer a lot with professional persecutions and other related topics, but still, just to know my Jesus as truly alive on this earth, would have been sufficient and also as it is knowing His Mother as I did my own earthly mother, but with the difference that my heavenly Mother is full of great spiritual direction. She is awesome…

By the way, let me remind you that when I relate all these gifts from God, I do it just to be sure that you know that I never did anything special in my life for which I deserved any of the graces mentioned. On the contrary, I was a racist!!! Worse, I never, ever before realized that I had been a racist for 2.5 decades of my life, not until the word racist has been mentioned so much in recent months! Not only was I a racist (of course without I even noticing it since it was rather a national theme for Costa Ricans), but I never realized that I had to marry a man with a mixed ancestry as the cure for this sentiment. What a God!

Friday, January 19

At this time and every year, the March for Life in the East and West coasts reminds me of the 45 years of giving permission to all Americans to kill babies in the womb. But I believe that the worse sin is ours for not running to seek holiness of life from a point of daily conversion and praying Rosaries for the souls of all baby killers. How is it possible that we have allowed this to happen to us? We have the power to change all of these crimes in a short time… Now, we have to “walk” daily for our own spiritual lives to become true Disciples of Christ. Becoming such disciple is not TALKING ABOUT IT… IT IS NOT ARRANGING MARCHES TO PROCLAIM THE BAD THAT OTHERS DO! The KEY of our conversion is 1) to abandon ourselves to DIVINE PROVIDENCE, and no matter what! 2) It is to wake up every morning ready to do the will of God, which starts by saying yes to all things in our lives… from illness to happiness; from lack of a job to much work; from hunger without means to buy food to having much to eat and giving to others part of what we have and obeying this way the second most important commandment, while saying yes to God’s will.

I clearly understood that every single day of what it is left of my life, I must “walk for life.” Therefore, I MUST MARCH EACH DAY with my suffering embraced and in total denial of my likes or dislikes. I cannot wait any longer and I must start marching in the midst of this move to Alabama, which is a great opportunity to practice it due to my sickly status and much to do in order to close this home. I must march for life when in exactly 3 weeks, I will not have a driver’s license anymore… I would have needed another consultation with an ophthalmologist to evaluate my vision in order to take it to the Department of Motor Vehicles and have a long written test and probably another driving test, all in the midst of leaving California.

In Alabama, I will have to do the same to obtain a driver’s license, and perhaps, never to get another one. Well, I have much peace and a total dedication to let my Lord decide what to do or not to do. My son already sold his car and now uses mine. We will sell it before our departure. All in all, I will be marching for the lives of so many babies, but ALSO, for the salvation of their killers, parents and those who practice each abortion on demand or encourage it like Planned Parenthood! There is no doubt in my mind that this idea of the “right of women” to be confused with the killing of babies, is from Satan. Our best shot at this evil spirit(s), is to seek with our suffering the salvation of all women who believe that it is her right to kill her child. Besides our suffering, ONE ROSARY A DAY for the salvation of these pro-choice citizens will bring a new law in this land, making illegal all abortion on demand PLUS changing the ideas of all women so not to seek an abortion behind closed doors even when breaking the law…

 LET ME REPEAT: yes, we can do it and make the womb of mothers to be, a safe place for all babies… We have to undergo a major conversion of our souls staring with repentance for allowing this massacre for 45 years when God is with us, and for Him nothing is impossible! I suspect that Jesus from each Tabernacle is crying and saying, “There is no faith around!”

Saturday, January 20

Miracle # 1 for this month: I could not find a cleaner to come to clean this house. I contacted people that had left cards in the front door, Hispanics all. None would answer. YET, as always my Lord gave me the idea to ask any Hispanic employee at the organic food store we frequently go to and find out if they knew any cleaning lady.

On this day after buying what we needed there were two cashier lines with only one client ahead. I chose one of them and then I heard the 30ish man who was bagging the things we bought say, “Hola, que tal? (Hello). I recognized that it was Manny, someone that I had met about 3 months before and I asked if Manny stood for Manuel. He had said “yes” and I told him that my father’s name was Manuel as well. At this point and months later, I had forgotten to ask any employee about a cleaning lady. As I said good-bye to Manny, suddenly I remembered that I could ask him about it! He said that HIS MOTHER WAS A CLEANING LADY… I gave him my phone number and she already came twice; her name is Gloria, 59 year old from El Salvador… We, Central American countries feel very connected… It turned out that she is the BEST CLEANER I HAVE EVER MET… and I have had several through the years. She is now a U.S. citizen…

Well, this is the way that the Lord solves all our problems. He guides us to find what we need. Even the fact that I chose the cashier line where Manny was bagging was important. I may have not found him on that day and again, I even remembered to ask about a cleaning lady. Gloria will be coming to help us not only clean the house but getting many things to be thrown out. A big example is that our new “Intelligent” home has an I-stove and uses special pots and pans!!!! The house came with a set of these intelligent pots!!!! So, I have to discard all my pots and pans and she will help me!

Sunday, January 21

Second miracle: on this day as I was opening some mail, I found the most recent 2018 SECOND OPINION LETTER from Dr. Shallenberger. This is a four page document to which I am subscribed. He described in detail the healing of ozone, that is oxygen (O2) to which another electron has been added to become O3 or ozone. It described that ozone has the power for decreasing inflammation in tissues where it is injected (in my case for my knees) and how it helps to produce glutathione as well, the natural detoxifier (of which I make not enough in my liver due to the lack of 5 genes). I have read about ozone in his letters since 2010, but in those days my pain was minimal. As I lived more years in this toxic environment, the inflammation all over grew and the pain as well.

Dr. Shallenberger discovered all of these facts just described and has trained more than 700 doctors to give this therapy. So, my son looked for them in this area to start the treatment right away. Indeed, we found a lady doctor and on January 31, I had my first treatment.

The local injection of ozone has a maximum of two weeks for the highest response in decreasing the inflammation. Of course, this happened on January 31, 7 days ago, THIS IS THE MAIN REASON WHY I AM SO DELAYED WITH THIS BLOG. On February 7 I will have another ozone therapy.

On this same day, again reviewing the Second Opinion Letter of Dr. Shallenberger, I found out what avocados do!!! And I have to eat them daily since I am not allergic to them, one of the few foods that is accepted by my immune system!… Here is the report:

“In 1995, researchers of the Department of Biochemistry of Oxford in Great Britain discovered the cancer fighting abilities of the avocado. An extract from the avocado plant added to tumor cells, inhibited tumor cells’ ability to grow by as much as 75%. They daily gave this extract to laboratory animals with cancer. After 5 days, the growth rate of the tumors was reduced by at least 65% and as much as 79%.

The purified extract contained a substance found in high levels in the avocado cells or d-mannoheptulose. At the University of California at Los Angeles, they used this substance on a line of prostate cancer cells. These cancer cells are the most “androgen-independent.” That means that they grow independently of whether or not they are exposed to the hormone testosterone. They are the most difficult kind of prostate cancers to treat. The researchers found that the avocado extract caused the cancer cells to stop growing!

If you want to learn more details of how ozone works, you may find a summary written by Dr. Shallenberger in the right section of this blog under the heading of PAGES.

Monday, January 22

On this day there was a Women’s March, three times larger than the Walk for Life. They proclaimed that they have the right to their bodies and also to stop all abusive behavior from men. The last sentence looks O.K, but the first one, again, they fight for the right to kill their own unborn babies! I became somewhat distraught and the Lord answered.

I was sent to read Deuteronomy 31: 8 – These words came from Moses to Joshua and for me, they meant a lot because I cannot eat much and must eat  avocados daily… So, He was helping my health without I knowing about it. “It is the Lord Who marches before you; He will be with you and will never fail you or forsake you. SO, DO NOT FEAR OR BE DISMAYED.”

Tuesday, January 23

I was not feeling well. My blood pressure was 171/73!!!! I had a late breakfast and while eating, turned on the TV. Dr. Oz, the cardiologist who has enlightened many with medical issues was conversing with someone about the “sex (lady) robots.” Each one cost $10,000. For men who need therapy due to the tendency to harass women with non consensual sexual activities, these robots are good but only if used with therapy. The clients and owners of the robot lady are good men with rape fantasies. Robots offer an artificial consent. People using robots need love and support and the robot provides it. It trains men to relate to a partner. They come with different personalities. The soft ware shuts down with abuses of any kind! I could not believe what I was hearing and seeing…  

As of recent, there are 200 BILLION cases of pornography! 40 million people are dating on line. My blood pressure seemed to go higher!!!

It is almost unimaginable that a religious blog has to show such disgrace for people made in the image of God…This points to the gravity of our spirituality in the U.S., where we kill babies in the womb with permission from the legal system. Satan is using all kind of temptations to bring us to the times of Sodom and Gomorrah and much worse due to the use of the Internet and other technologies.

Another story: they announced by television that this coming weekend, they will have a “no pants” day in San Francisco… Men would march with only underpants! They were saying that this creates chaos but a joyful one!!!

The State of the Union address presented by President Trump on this date, I found it to be very good in general terms. Most Americans were satisfied in a poll by CBN of 67%; however, Democrats were finding all kinds of problems with it. The Democratic citizens are made in the image of God and unfortunately, the temptation by Satan to be upset with EVERYTHING that the President says is creating a disgusting division… Like in the case of abortion on demand, we all must start praying and converting ourselves in order to pray for the salvation of everyone in this wonderful country.

This situation of political unrest, with racism and anti Hispanic words added to the presence of sexual female robots, etc., is telling us that we, practicing Roman Catholics, MUST DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT… If 45 years of Marches for Life have not done anything, why is it that we expect them to change the present scenario? We are acting like fools.

Sunday, February 4

Just like in the Old Testament when many Hebrews started to believe in the gods of their enemies, we in 2018 do have several gods.  One is the most obvious: sports and the SUPER BOWL played today is probably the clearest adoration of the god of football. The average price for a ticket to see this game in person was $6,169… The cheapest was $5,000. The tickets close to where the game took place in the stadium were about $20,000? I truly forgot the number…


I suspect that I will not be able to write a blog for the month of February since we will be arriving in Alabama and full of things to do like emptying boxes as we start our new life. However, God will have the last word in this matter. It may be a late blog but so far, I have no final say in this matter.

Please, keep us in your prayers. So far and as I finish this blog on February 7, the pain in my knees had gone up quite a bit… The ozone needs a full two weeks to see results and it has been only one week from this local injection. I did have today another ozone therapy in my knees and since I had it, some 4 hours ago, the pain in both knees has diminished quite a bit!

I must close by saying that my faith has grown much after I was shown in my own life how the will of God has been done throughout and I have been re-routed to keep my fidelity to do what He wants of me. This treatment with ozone and finding a house cleaner in the way I did, are testimonies of His love and mercy…

I must recognize that the more I understand the will of God in my life and how the Holy Spirit manages it, I owe this grace to all of you who pray for me… Wow… Your prayers are powerful and awesome and may the Lord bless you much for this great and merciful act of charity for me. Thanks over and over

P.S.: just to add more help to your bodies, please note that if any of you see many brown spots on your hands, the treatment is zinc… Take daily with food one capsule (30 mg) of a commercial zinc product from any store which sells health nutrients and vitamins, and your spots will disappear. Have you seen some elders with their hands totally covered of these brown spots?

The importance of having normal amounts of zinc has to do for the protection against viruses. In fact, the famous product in the form of zinc lozenges called Cold-Eeze was devised to stop a cold at its beginning. If the spots are many, you may take two capsules a day with food. Later, when the spots are mostly gone, continue to take one capsule per day. If you suffer from an renal ailment, do not take it unless you check with your personal physician.








Resolutions for the New Year 2018 and the Fiat of the Virgin Mary

January 3, 2018

It is December 30th when I start writing this message and unfortunately my left eye is having much discomfort. (Please forgive my mistakes in the writing of this message). In the other hand, the Lord has been teaching me tons of things for my daily spiritual life, which probably coincides with the suffering of the eye and my inability to hurry up and type all that I have learned… No doubt that sorrow ALWAYS BRINGS good things.

As always, I will start sharing according to the calendar sequence of the many times that I have sensed His Presence in my ordinary daily life.

Friday, December 8

On this important feast of my Mother, I could not even attend Mass because I had a tremendous negative reaction in my body after I ate something different and hoping I would not react that bad to it. I developed severe diarrhea and it made it impossible to attend Mass. However, with EWTN services I was able to be present to Live Masses and pray much for everybody and everything. Of course, I checked my decision of no attendance with my Mother and she sent me as always to seek the guidance of the Holy Spirit, Who in turn sent me to page 999 of my Bible and turned out to be Joel 4:1 where I found the word “yes,” that is, that my idea of not attending Mass was correct on my part. It is always sooo wonderful to realize that God is with all of us at all times…

At 6 PM I started to worry about the amount of papers (postal mail)  and medical magazines that I have to check and select  to be sure that they have to be trashed (a times need to be shredded due to the content like bank accounts), or to be placed in an envelope to keep and take to Alabama. I have referred to this worry before of how to take care of this MOUNTAIN OF PAPERS! My Mother interrupted my worries saying, “No, it is a mountain of papers only in your brain. At all times ignore what is going on and EXPECT to have God lead you to dispose of all of them. TRUST by constantly dropping all worries and thank Him for what He would do and as He has done since you were a baby.”

Later on the month I recognized that my expected attitude as a daughter of my heavenly Father is to say “yes” to the mountain of papers as a much cherished opportunity to comply with His will. I keep forgetting about the “yes” of Our Lady or “EL SI DE MARIA,” which is the Spanish form. The Spanish version is awesome and a book was written some 30 years ago by a priest in Colombia and using these words for the title of the book. Much will be discussed later about “el si de Maria.”

Saturday, December 9

We attended the Saturday 5 PM Mass and on this same day my parish had a previous Reconciliation service for this time of Advent. I usually plan my confession with my pastor. The celebrant of this Mass was a retired older priest who said that in the case of these general reconciliation services, one has to confess ONLY ONE SIN as it has been done for many years… I became alarmed and somewhat concerned. I know that he suffers of mild symptoms of dementia but I wondered about the people that were listening to this idea. I have never heard this ever. My pastor was not around. I wondered then if we had chosen this particular Mass (normally we attend the 8 AM Sunday Mass), in order for me to pray for the priest and for all souls that may have been confused. Worse, I wonder if I was the one who was wrong and not know that only one sin could be confessed, of course to hurry up the process for the entire group that attends this twice a year service.

Tuesday, December 12

I had so much fun as I always do because on this date I celebrate the coming of Our Lady of Guadalupe to the Americas with Live Masses everywhere via EWTN and one via a Hispanic TV site. I “spiritually” attended a Mass in Los Angeles at 12 midnight; another in Mexico at 1 AM; one in EWTN at 5 AM and one more from the Vatican at 9 AM local time! The one in Mexico is always amazing because of the thousands of people in attendance (close to half a million)… No other Christian gathering shows that many people participating in the many celebrations of Our Lady’s feast since the XV Century!!! In those days, she was clear to Saint Juan Diego that she was there for the conversion of many as a mother (9 million Indians). She keeps at it! I always wondered what would be of Mexico today without her protection with all the drug cartels so busy sending drugs to the U.S.

Thursday, December 14

As I was redacting the Christmas letter, I ended up thinking of the importance of the heart and brain of the Body of Christ (the topic for the November blog). I started wondering if these ideas were correct, that is that the Ministerial Priesthood and Religious members are the heart of the Body of Christ. The laity forms the brain of the Body and both need to help each other to keep the Body healthy in spiritual terms. Immediately, a page in the Bible came to me, 1330, and it was Ephesians 1:15: 22-23, where St. Paul writes, “And He (the Father) put all things beneath His (Jesus’) feet and gave Him as head over all things to the church, WHICH IS HIS BODY, the fullness of the one Who feels all things in every way.”  I felt very consoled and this explanation of the parts of the Body of Christ most likely are truly ideas that came to me from the Holy Spirit..

Friday, December 15

As always in past months, many people stops to open doors for me, or help me to get items in the supermarket that are very high in the shelf for me to reach them. Well, on this date, I went to a very close by supermarket and bought a few things. I did not need help from employees to bring the cart to my car. As I was crossing the street between the supermarket main door and the parking area, a car was coming from the area where I had parked my car. I moved to the side for the car to pass me by. It did not happen as planned because the driver, a 40th year old Asian woman, stopped and with a big smile asked me if I needed help to reach my car. Had I said yes, she would have had to find parking for her car in order to come and take my cart…

I could not believe it! The Holy Spirit loves to surprise me with these acts of kindness that He can inspire in others for my benefit. Of course, I declined with another big smile and she continued. Normally, if they see my cane and some difficulty in my walking, they run to help me. This time, I was using the cart as my walker-helper and the cane was not being used at all and basically not clearly seen by others (hanging on from the cart). I recalled that my Mother had told me not to worry about the “mountain of papers” because the Lord would take care of me. No doubt, that He was proving to me what she had tried to explain to me. YES, GOD IS WITH US in our Temple and in charge of our circumstances.

Saturday, December 16

Again, we had to change the time of the weekend Mass and attend th5 PM one, simply because my son would be flying to Birmingham, AL to sign all the closing papers needed for the purchase of our future home. I did not recall that it was the Sunday of Joy… (Laetare Sunday) and I was not aware of it as yet. I found myself sooo happy and smiling from ear to ear as I said “hello” to Him in the Tabernacle before the Mass started and I could not stop smiling.

After Communion, my Lord said, “I see that sometimes you resent my Priests (probably He referred to the leftovers of the time when the older priest had said that on a general Reconciliation service we need to only confess one sin).” He continued, “You will have all you need for the move if you promise Me that from now on you will never feel anything against any Priest. They are the heart of My Body. You have to take care of them with prayer, tolerance, patience and always remembering what they represent! Any division in your mind represents a division of my Body in two! Do you accept this proposal?” I, of course, said “YES” and repented for the many times in all my life that I have resented whatever a priest may have done that was not totally right!

Later on at home, I felt that may be I was being called to rejoice because in a few weeks I will be living very close to Baby Jesus in His Shrine in Hanceville, AL, although it is known as the Shrine of the Blessed Sacrament. As we know, all this majestic area started when the Divine Child Jesus in Colombia asked Mother Angelica to build it, and not yet clearly as to where in the State but in the South. His statue is at the center of the buildings in Hanceville. I asked the Divine Child to secure my health when I get there to live nearby Him, in order to finish the book that needs to be published ASAP due the medical matters that can help many people.

Monday, December 18

2:45 PM – The Holy Spirit gave me a page to read in the Bible No. 775. It was the Book of Wisdom, chapter 10a reminder that God passed the Israelites across the Red Sea. I have been watching in one of the Hispanic TV sites, the story of Joshua after Moses died and how he passed the Israelites across the Jordan River. By the way, this Hispanic TV company, Televisa is also now showing the story of King David… and on January 15 they will start the story of the Rich Man and Lazarus. I am amazed how much they are doing for all Spanish speaking immigrants to keep up their faith through the stories from these very important moments when Yahweh took them to fulfill His will for Israel.

I was reminded that what God did with the Israelites is also what He does nowadays via our relationship with Jesus and His Church. I was also reminded that all that I HAVE TO DO during this impending move is much easier than crossing the Red Sea or the Jordan River. Therefore, He will help us to “cross” this busy time without any fear… None. Zero!

After this realization, I prayed to the Holy Spirit to receive His gift of wisdom necessary to TRUST IN MY LORD, Baby Jesus.

At 3:05 PM, my Mother said, “Trust in His mercy and love for you. Pray the Rosary often when you feel that you are fearful as to how to overcome this present moment.”

This was followed with a page in the Bible, 99 -> Leviticus 10:6 and following. It was about the “Conduct of the Priests.” It is a long story but has to do with the behavior of the Priesthood on those days, Aaron and his sons. Little did I know that days later, Jesus would return to this topic…

Then my Mother asked me to call the Holy Spirit for a further instruction. I did and was given page 1272 – Romans 8: 18-39, (It was very consoling to me and gave me hope so never to worry about anything because St. Paul’s words) “In the same way, the Spirit too comes to the aid of our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we ought, but the Spirit itself intercedes with inexpressible groaning. And the one who searches hearts knows what is the intention of the Spirit, because it intercedes for the holy ones according to God’s will.”  (Romans 8: 26-27)  – Wow! My call to pass this small Jordan River is a piece of cake. I let the Spirit of God take over and only thank Him because all will be done according to His will…

3:25 PM – My Mother came to pound in my head the instruction one more time… She said, “You are wondering what to do during the 4 days that your son will be in Birmingham finishing the purchase of the home (December 17-22). You want to go on retreat to truly abandon yourself to the Spirit. In the other hand, you also want to keep picking up papers and throwing some out and some not… Well, be prepared to do both according the Spirit promptings. Just call often the Holy Spirit and EXPECT to do God’s will as the words of Roman’s 8 say. Then, you will be led according to your spiritual needs of each present moment! The waters of the Red Sea will open as needed and you will cross it as God wills it.” — Hah… The instruction was simply AMAZING…

Thursday, December 21

My son was able to finish with the paperwork and at the end of this day, he owned a home in a suburb of Birmingham, AL. My other son and wife who live there offered to take care of placing the blinds for the entire house. The change of names for the water account for the house was done when my son felt he had to do it at a particular moment. And yes, the following day would be impossible because only the owners can do it and he was returning home very early in the morning. All was directed by the Holy Spirit…

On this day, the TV story of King David showed how King Saul was totally sure that David had to be killed, since the Prophet Samuel had told everyone and since David was a young shepherd that he would be the next King of Israel. It reminded me of the present days in our planet. Everybody wants to kill the others. Nothing has changed… Jesus came to give His own life for us to become our Father’s children and hopefully become one Body in Christ, and yet, we are doing worse than in those days of Saul and David. At one point, Saul killed all priests because they had helped David… This was a Hebrew killing others of his same race and willing to stop God’s designs for David to become the king… In our days, Russia, North Korea, ISIS, etc. are trying to do the same but we, so called Christians, keep complaining instead of calling the Holy Spirit to guide us to do the will of God for each encounter that we have with the evil one! Nothing has changed… Our God must be super tired of seeing His children playing games as the others did centuries ago!!!

Monday, December 25

On this special feast when we rejoice remembering that a little BABY BOY named Jesus was born in Bethlehem, much was preached in several Masses LIVE from all over the world, and mostly about the need for having holy families, as Joseph, Mary and Jesus were. I suddenly realized that this Holy Family came from the work of the Holy Spirit and the “yes” of a young girl to do God’s will. Joseph also was obedient to the dreams that asked him to accept the situation. This same fiat led Our Lady to run to her cousin Elizabeth to help her, and in this way, practicing the second most important commandment despite her own young age (a teen ager) and the worry that she had to reveal this to her fiancée. It all depended on a “YES”… It would take her 3 days and it is estimated that it was a trip of 85 miles!!!

At the present time, we hear an enormous amount of ideas as to how to raise a holy family… BUT IT ALL DEPENDS ON OUR YES TO GOD’s WILL… And of course, we have to call the Holy Spirit to do what He did with Our Lady AFTER HER YES, to impregnate us with Jesus and take Him to others in the midst of our duty to take care of our families and all that it implies… There are many stories aired in all venues of communication that try to give instructions as to how to protect the family from evil influence and how to instruct the children in the Word of God, etc… Yet, we forget to call the Holy Spirit very often to take us to say “yes” to God’s will, and HE DOES THE WORK… He leads us to help our families to grow in holiness… I do not hear these ideas. On he contrary, psychologists keep pounding us with ideas as to how we could do it!!!

IT WAS AT THIS MOMENT, on this very special Feast of Christmas, that I was given the topic for this blog It will be about ”El si de Maria.” It came in Spanish and of course it means, the “Yes of Mary.” Reasons for it:

1. El Si de Maria opens the door to the Holy Spirit who takes over to lead us to what it means for us the Yes to God’s will for each present moment.

2. The yes of Our Lady practiced in our lives leads to know and accept the will of God with joy, courage and fully understanding the holiness of what God is asking us to do without fear of what it is.

3. The Yes of Our Lady takes us through holy roads that are important in order to witness the Mercy of God for all of us.

4. The yes of Our Lady takes us to become successful evangelizers of those around us because we are able to love others (as she did with her cousin) and through love, we can defeat Satan’s temptations in their lives to begin with, plus our love will bring the Holy Spirit (the Love between the Father and the Son) to take over and lead them to a new life in Jesus, the Lord.

5. Our Yes to God’s will as Our Lady did, is the best way to praise God within our Temples; the best way to be instruments of grace for others; it is the best way to become a true disciple of Jesus, with total self-denial, embracing all our crosses without hesitation and becoming followers of the Master, that is to do what He did when on earth, especially to give our lives for our neighbor as He did.

Reading books and also the Bible daily is very important and good but not sufficient. Yet, they can give fruit in our spiritual lives if we are constantly saying “yes” to His will. Without this “yes,” all we read can give fruits that in time seem to disappear!

The best books are those where we share how we conquered ourselves and said “yes” to God’s will at every present moment. Books on what to do or not, do not teach us about the need always to call the Holy Spirit! However, it is only with our yes, that the Spirit can form Jesus in our wombs (inner temples) to go visit others as Our Lady did with Elizabeth.

6. I am convinced that Satan has conquered us with the temptation of looking for methods of prayer; or with the temptation of praying every novena that arrives in the mail with the purpose of asking God to do our will! Yet, never shall we consider the temptation of seeking God to do our will. Never. His will is sooo perfect that we should always embrace such will and thank Him for it instead of changing it. Our job is always to say YES to His Word, to His Commandments with total trust in the work of the Holy Spirit, so that we can show our relationship with Jesus in the way we live; in how we love; in our merciful actions; in other words, we truly have to become pregnant as just said, with the ways that Jesus loves and cares for us. Then, the Holy Ghost does it, or Jesus would not have announced that He would leave us in His care and do it on Pentecost day shortly after His Resurrection. The Holy Spirit is sooo persuasive that made John the Baptist fetus dance for joy in His Presence… BUT IT ALL STARTED to begin with, WITH OUR LADY SAYING YES …

Friday, December 29

I found myself thinking about my resolutions for 2018. I ended up going over my life with many persecutions of all kinds while taking care of 4 children. Here I must mention that as they grew up, they delighted with baseball (their father who was from the Dominican Republic loved it as it happens in that country) but also, I was concerned with their interest in football. There was no hesitation on my part of making a decision to protect the brain of my sons since I realized that one or more of them might wanted to play. In a short time, I looked for piano lessons for my oldest, 10 years old at the time. He turned out to be very interested and good at learning it. Shortly after, he chose an instrument that he would end up playing in a band of whatever high school he would go to… The same happened with the other 3 and bingo, they were NOT negated the fun of attending their high school games and it turned out to be St. Ignatius in Cleveland, OH, a high school which was excellent in this sport..

Notice that even in the early 70’s I was able to discern the horror of playing this game… Why is it that we still allow young boys to keep exposing their brains to possible damage and even continue to do it in the NFL? This is due to money matters… How sad for all of us, US citizens, to allow this to happen all the way to all the Bowls being played right now! I am super sure that it was not my medical degree that made me take action in the matter just explained… I am sure that it was the Holy Spirit Who led me to plan the way to protect them and yet, not to forbid the fun for their teens years. It is interesting that I was “Baptized in the Holy Spirit” on May 19, 1977 in the Charismatic Movement, that is that I re-affirmed my original Baptism and Confirmation, precisely when my oldest son was 9 years old!!! THIS IS AN EXAMPLE OF THE WILL OF GOD in my life that was aided by the Holy Spirit’s guidance leading me to it…

I continued thinking of my previous years as a wife, mother, full time anesthesiologist being called at times at 2 AM to do an emergency case!!!  I had to secure live-in maids to cook, clean and help me with the children. I had to plan the decisions for college for each one of them. I had to be with each one of them for the PREPARATION of the celebration of the different Sacraments! Money was super abundant (one quarter million dollars per year); I drove expensive cars (3 Mercedes Benz).

Not once do I remember feeling proud… Of course, in time all the money was given away to those in need.  I attended many religious conferences. I never missed Sunday Mass with the children since my husband was an atheist at the time. When practicing anesthesia weeks at a timeand away from my home and even State and in different hospitals due to leaving my primary place of employment because of persecutions (persecutors would lie about me…), I would always look for a nearby chapel and at times in the same hospital, and spend time with my Lord in the Tabernacle. I never left Him.

I remembered that I never felt angry with my persecutors! Slowly but surely, I lost any sense of loneliness or of missing my family when I was away. The Lord took care of everything. At this point, I realized that the most important resolution I must have for 2018 is: TO ALWAYS TRUST GOD’S MERCY AND LOVE FOR ME and no matter what, and to do it, I had to say yes to His will, clearly knowing that all suffering present or to come was, is and will be a gift for me to accept it as Jesus did His cross… To repeat: the only way that I can keep the resolution of trusting in God’s mercy and love for me,  is to live present moment to present moment with the most perfect “yes” to His will, and delight in its execution of all that is and that it is coming. Besides it, I must often thank Him for such will for me.

In the afternoon of this day, Walgreens Pharmacy let me know that it had the pain medicine ready for me, since that morning my physician had called it in. I did not know if to go (far away Pharmacy; it will be 5 minutes away in Alabama!!), or wait until the next morning. I asked the Holy Spirit and was sent to a page of the Bible with the word “go”, twice! I did and when done, as I came out of the pharmacy parking lot, a woman was coming in with a very broad turn that made me pull back quite a distance… I was furious.

Around 2:30 PM, with very crowded streets and driving back home, the Lord said clearly, “Never feel so upset with your neighbor who gave you a difficult time at Walgreen’s. Always act as a mother would treat a child of hers. Always live in My Presence as a temple that you are for Me to reside! And always, treat other car drivers as your kids. The second most important Commandment as the First one, are to be practiced each present moment as My SERVANT and as a spiritual mother. My Mother and yours did so… It was because of her Yes to My will that she had the wisdom and mercy to understand the needs of Elizabeth and the courage to take action, two very different things.”

Later on this date and as I thought more on my resolutions for 2018, I wrote in my journal, “I have to get my brain engaged in becoming a witness to feed the HEART of the Body of Christ and allow in this way the Heart of the Body of Christ to feed me with His Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity and bless me with its prayer. There is no question that our fiat and love for others becomes the greatest act of evangelization, which Satan has no power to destroy because he did leave heaven precisely due to his disobedience to the will of God. He is always seeking to create confusion, division, fear, accusations and a dislike for a yes to God’s will.

Sunday, December 31

I was amazed as never before with all the exaggerated celebrations in New York City, Vegas, Los Angeles y all because a New Year would arrive within hours from where these shows started appearing in TV. The amount of money spent is huge by those celebrating in all these cities where they have arranged for a hotel stay plus food needs. How many people could be fed and given a room to sleep with this waste of dollars! I was very sad.

After Holy Communion, I was conversing with Him about the many things that needed to be done, and asked Him to give me better health only for a month or two, so that I can help out with the move. He in turn said, “I want you to trust in My mercy. There is one thing that I want to ask of you: in Alabama, dedicate your life to pray for my Priests. They are the heart of My Body. Anything you do in this regard will bring you better physical health.” At this point I remembered what He said on December 18!  “You will have all you need for the move if you promise Me that from now on you will never feel anything against any Priest. They are the heart of My Body. You have to take care of them with prayer, tolerance, patience and always remembering what they represent!

On this same date, I was commenting to my son about my problems securing a woman to come to clean this house when we empty it. I have called two of them with no response. I had asked the secretary of my personal physician if she knew of any house cleaner. She said that her aunt is one and I gave her my name and phone… The woman never called.

I had told my son that when we visited Whole Food (after Mass) where we can find tons of Hispanic employees that I would ask any of them about it. So, after 8 AM Mass, we went there but I forgot all about it. As we finished, there were two different cashier lines with only one client ahead of us. I decided for one of them for no particular reason. The person bagging the many things we bought said hello to me in Spanish. I then remembered meeting him some months ago and discussing his name Manny, which means Manuel, and I had told him that my father’s first name was also Manuel.

On this date, when I saw his name on his shirt I remembered the conversation. As we were almost ready to leave, suddenly I remembered about the house cleaner and asked Manny if he knew of anyone who would clean a home. He said that his mother is a house cleaner… I could hardly believe what the Holy Spirit had just done…He got my name and phone and I expect that she will say yes. I love to hear of somebody that I can trust if this is the will of God for me… I suspect that He had done this job and surprised me one more time as to how He does things: He led us to Manny and also, I remembered to ask him about it. Amazing grace!

Monday, January 1, 2018

The Parade of Roses had floats of all sizes, shapes and origin. Precious pieces of art but just because of the passage to a new year. Again, how many hungry people are not thought of! Millions of dollars were wasted. The football games were in general fun to watch; what it is a disgrace is to see how the game of American football is all about violence and how many children are watching and possibly feeling that it is O.K. to hit someone else just for a ball… Worse is that at times, some of the players show anger and hatred towards the opposite team… It is so sad to see this kind of lack of love and just for a ball that has to be carried to the other end!

As I have said before, I can only watch if I dedicate time to pray for all and to ask for a win for the team that may get the least proud… On this date, Notre Dame was playing against LSU. I asked my Lord for a win (of course, my son graduated from this university and because it has the name of my Mother). He would not want to hear about it… I reminded Him that today was her feast day, a big reason to honor her. The two men that were narrating the plays themselves seemed to be happier when LSU was ahead… At one point, they were tied up at 14 points and LSU was able to add 3 points… Little time was left for Notre Dame to change the score for a tie or a win.

The two men kept bugging me by saying that most likely, Notre Dame would lose. Towards the last seconds left, my Lord said, “It is obvious that they do not keep Me in mind!” I agreed but not expecting to truly see a huge miracle when a ball that was super high was caught by a Notre Dame one handed player’s jump… He continued and bypassed two other LSU players and scored 7 points for a win. The Lord has done something similar other times with other sports and teams when I ask for a miracle. He is always with me and acting only with justice for all.

With regards to the bowl where Alabama participated and through a strange way how they became one of the four to play for the upcoming championship, I found myself totally Alabamian…as I wanted them to win. This time I did not pray but only wished the best for them. After all, we already own a home in a suburb of Birmingham and expect to be there sometime at the end of this month or shortly after. And yes, they did play superbly and won and who knows if they will win next week against Georgia.

Tuesday, January 2

I received a call from the mother of Manny accepting to come to help us cleaning the house. Even better: she said that she does not work all the time and that they are in need of money…I am sure that the Lord was turning other women away in order to help this particular lady.


I was called to make a list of all the main points learned in December of 2017. I copied them at the very end of this blog, and I did it for myself to easily remember what I learned and when.

Here are the resolutions based on the main points that will appear at the very end.

1. I understood that my resolutions for 2018 are all mentioned in these points. The “Yes” to the will of God that Jesus and Our Lady came to witness for us must be practiced over and over as needed. I must also repent when I find myself asking God to help me to do my own will!!!

To do God’s will in my life have to do with my calling of the Spirit of God to lead me to do so with all the graces and gifts I need. He will intercede for me to find and do God’s will and this according to St. Paul in Roman’s 8.

2. God is always, ALWAYS, with us and we should keep in mind that the best way to acknowledge His Presence and love for us is by doing His will at all cost. Since Adam and Eve, disobeying the will of God leads to spiritual death. When following His will, we know that God parted the Red Sea and the Jordan River!!! Therefore, any suffering involved as we say yes to His will is welcomed because nothing is impossible to Him…Our Red Sea’s and Jordan River’s are actually not existent when living in the U.S.A., except when Nature attacks or human enemies persecute us. Even then, a strong yes to these calamities will find His mercy and love changing all for the good.

3. I must show love, patience and forgiveness to all ministerial Priests and pray for them several times per day. At least in one of my Rosaries/Chaplet of Mercy, I must atone for their sins calling God’s mercy to be with them and asking my Mother to intercede for their holiness.

4. To raise holy families depends in how much we follow His will, which will lead us to do what is necessary through receiving the graces and His mercy needed to do so.

5. I must always keep in mind that all my brothers and sisters and no matter how they like us or not, are to be prayed for and protected from our own dislike, by acting as a parent to them.

List of what I learned day by day and directly from God:

1. No doubt that sorrow ALWAYS BRINGS good things.

2. It is always sooo wonderful to realize that God is with all of us at all times…

3. Our Lady, “No, it is a mountain only in your brain. At all times ignore what is going on and EXPECT to have God lead you to dispose of all of them. TRUST by constantly dropping all worries and thank Him for what He would do and as He has done since you were a baby.”

4. Jesus, “You will have all you need for the move if you promise Me that from now on you will never feel anything against any Priest. They are the heart of My Body. You have to take care of them with prayer, tolerance, patience and always remembering what they represent! Any division in your mind represents a division of my Body in two!  

5. “The Spirit too comes to the aid of our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we ought, but the Spirit itself intercedes with inexpressible groaning. And the one who searches hearts knows what is the intention of the Spirit, because it intercedes for the holy ones according to God’s will.”  (Romans 8: 26-27) 

6. At the present time, we hear an enormous amount of ideas as to how to raise a holy family… BUT IT ALL DEPENDS ON OUR YES TO GOD’s WILL…

7. Yet, we forget to call the Holy Spirit very often to take us to say “yes” to God’s will, and HE DOES THE WORK… He leads us to help our families to grow in holiness…

8. Book of Wisdom, chapter 10a reminder that God passed the Israelites across the Red Sea.

9. El Si de Maria opens the door to the Holy Spirit who takes over to lead us to what it means for us the Yes to God’s will for each present moment.

10. The yes of Our Lady practiced in our lives leads to know and accept the will of God with joy, courage and fully understanding the holiness of what God is asking us to do without fear of what it is.

11. I am convinced that Satan has conquered us with the temptation of looking for methods of prayer; or with the temptation of praying every novena that arrives in the mail with the purpose of asking God to do our will! Yet, never shall we consider the temptation of seeking God to do our will. Never.

12. The most important resolution I must have for 2018 is: TO ALWAYS TRUST GOD’S MERCY AND LOVE FOR ME and no matter what, and to do that I have to say yes to His will,

13. And always, treat other car drivers as your kids. The second most important Commandment as the First one, are to be practiced each present moment as My SERVANT and as a spiritual mother.


1. Almsgiving – 2. A new way of practicing spiritual almsgiving while praying the Sorrowful Mysteries of the Rosary 3. The brain and heart of the Body of Christ!

December 7, 2017

I write this blog to honor my Mother, under the titles of 1) Our Lady of Guadalupe -December 12 and 2) Our Lady Untier of Knots – December 8th, for her to be with me as the Holy Spirit directs me to share these stories, but also to give her thanks for being the best Mother in every sense… “I love you Mom.”

It seems to me that these last 4 weeks have been simply extraordinary in my understanding of practicing spiritual almsgiving as a disciple. I am amazed… Perhaps this is a great introduction for me to celebrate the 2017 Advent in a brand new way… You shall be the judge but perhaps, your prayers for me are truly spiritual bomb shells… Thank you. I will have to type bunches and you will need time to go over the long dissertation of how I must live the act of almsgiving. Sorry! I am posting this blog rather late but my eyes are getting worse and worse regarding their use in typing several pages!

Besides the three topics announced above, there will be some teaching for me during this difficult time of transition for us as we move to Alabama. I will relate all according the calendar sequence. But first, let me start with a review of what almsgiving is all about and types of it. You may know the subject matter very well but the Lord has insisted in reviewing it for those who do not know all the details of this merciful act, just like me!

I. Almsgiving


ALMS noun (used with a singular or plural verb) means:

1. Money, food, or other donations given to the poor or needy

2. Anything given as charity.



Not found in the Old Testament, but repeated in the New. The Mosaic legislation (Leviticus 25:35; Deuteronomy 15:7) tended to promote a spirit of charity, and to prevent the occurrence of destitution among the people. Such passages as these, Psalms 41:1; 112:9; Proverbs 14:31; Isaiah 10:2; Amos 2:7; Jeremiah 5:28; Ezekiel 22:29 would also naturally foster the same benevolent spirit.

In the time of our Lord begging was common (Mark 10:46; Acts: 3:2). The Pharisees were very ostentatious in their almsgiving (Matthew 6:2). The spirit by which the Christian ought to be actuated in this duty is set forth in 1 John 3:17. A regard to the state of the poor and needy is enjoined as a Christian duty (Luke 3:11; 6:30; Matthew 6:1; Acts 9:36; 10:2; 10:4), a duty which was not neglected by the early Christians (Luke 14:13; Acts 20:35; Galatians 2:10; Romans 15:25-27; 1 Corinthians 16:1-4). They cared not only for the poor among themselves, but contributed also to the necessities of those at a distance (Acts 11:29; 24:17; 2 Corinthians 9:12). Our Lord and his attendants showed an example also in John 13:29.

In modern times the "poor-laws" have introduced an element which modifies considerably the form in which we may discharge this Christian duty.

Alms and Almsgiving

Any material favor done to assist the needy and prompted by charity is almsgiving. It is evident, then, that almsgiving implies much more than the transmission of some temporal commodity to the indigent. According to the creed of political economy, every material deed wrought by man to benefit his needy brother is almsgiving. According to the creed of Christianity, almsgiving implies a material service rendered to the poor for Christ’s sake. Materially, there is scarcely any difference between these two views; formally, they are essentially different. This is why the inspired writer says: "Blessed is he that considers the lowly and the poor" (Psalm 40:2) — not he that gives to the needy and the poor.

The obligation of almsgiving is complementary to the right of property “which is not only lawful, but absolutely necessary" (Encycl., Rerum Novarum, tr. Baltimore, 1891, 14). Ownership admitted, rich and poor  must be found in society. Property enables its possessors to meet their needs. Though labor enables the poor to win their daily bread, accidents, illness, old age, labor difficulties, plagues, war, etc. frequently interrupt their labors and impoverish them. The responsibility of succoring, those thus rendered needy belongs to those who have plenty(St. Thomas  Summa Theol., II-II, Q. xxxii, art. 5, ad 2am), For "it is one thing to have a right to possess money, and another to have a right to use money as one pleases." How must one’s possessions be used?

The Church: “Man should not consider his external possessions as his own but as common to all, so as to share them without difficulty when others are in need.”

 Whence the Apostle says: “Command the rich of this world to give with ease. This is a duty not of justice (except in extreme cases), but of Christian charity — a duty not enforced by human law. But the laws and judgments of men must yield to the laws and judgments of Christ the true God, who in many ways urges on His followers the practice of almsgiving.” (Encyclical, Rerum Novarum, 14, 15; cf. De Lugo, De Jure et Justitiâ, Disp. Xvi, sect. 154).

The Fathers of the Church frequently and unequivocally inculcated the necessity of almsgiving.

  • To this matter St. Cyprian devoted a complete treatise (De Opere et Eleemosynâ, P.L., IV, 601 sqq.).
  • St. Basil recounts how St. Lawrence distributed the treasures of the Church to the poor. Questioned by a pagan governor regarding the treasures which he had promised to transmit, Lawrence pointed to the poor, saying: “They are treasures in who is Christ, in who is faith.”
  • Contrary to the envy of the Arians, St. Ambrose lauds the breaking and selling of sacred vessels for the redemption of captives (De Officis  Ministrorum, xxviii, xxx, P.L., XVI, 141 sqq.).
  • The more effectively to urge the precept of almsgiving, the Fathers teach that the wealthy are God’s stewards and dispensers, so much so that where they refuse to aid the needy they are guilty of theft (St. Basil, Homil. in illud Lucæ, No. 7, P.G., XXXI, 278;St. Gregory of Nyssa, De Pauperibus Amandis, P.G., XLVI, 466; St. Chrysostom, in Ep. I ad Cor., Homil. 10, c. 3, P.G., LXI, 86; St. Ambrose, De Nab. lib. unus, P.L., XIV, 747; St. Augustine, in Ps. cxvii, P.L., XXXVII, 1922).
  • Discretion in almsgiving is counseled in the ApostolicConstitutions: "Alms must not be given to the malicious, the intemperate, or the lazy; lest a premium should be set on vice" (Const. Apost., ii, 1-63; iii, 4-6).
  • St. Cyprian asserts that adherents of other religions must not be excluded from a share in Catholic charity (De Opere et Eleemosynâ, c. xxv, P.L., IV, 620).

After the Patristic epoch the teaching of the Church regarding almsgiving did not vary throughout the ages. Aquinas has admirably summarized this teaching during the medieval period (St.Thomas, Summa Theol., II-II, QQ. xxx-xxxiii, De Misericordiâ; De Beneficentiâ; De Eleemosynâ). No writer of modern times has so admirably epitomized the position of the Church as Leo XIII (Encyclicals, Rerum Novarum, 15 May, 1891; Graves de Communi, 18 Jan, 1901). In so much as the obligation of almsgiving is coextensive with the obligation of charity, everyone falls under the law. The donor, however, must be entitled to dispose of what he contributes, because almsgiving usually implies that the beneficiary acquires a title to whatever his benefactor gives. Ecclesiastics are bound in a special way to observe the precept of almsgiving, because they are constituted fathers of the poor, and are besides obliged by their example to lead the laity to entertain correct views concerning the importance of this duty.

As a general rule, the indigent of every class, saint or sinner, countrymen or foreigners, friend or foe, have their claims upon the charity of those competent to give alms (Proverbs 25:21; Romans 1220; Sylvius, Summa, II-II, Q. 32: art. 9; De Conninck, Disp. 27:Dub. 6, No. 70). The conjunction of genuine indigence in the poor and ability to minister relief in the rich, is necessary to concrete the obligation of alms-giving (St. Thomas, op. cit., II-II, QQ. xxxii, art. 5, ad 3am).

Qualities of spiritually fruitful almsgiving

In addition to its innate characteristics, almsgiving should be vested with qualities tending to garner fruitfulness for giver and receiver. Hence, almsgiving should be discreet, so as to reach deserving individuals or families (2 Thessalonians 3:10; Sirach 12); prompt, so as to warrant opportuneness (Proverbs 3:28); secret and humble (Matthew 6:2); cheerful (2 Corinthians 9:7); abundant (Tobit 4:9; St. Thomas, Summa Theol., II-II, Q. xxxii, art. 10).

The harvest of blessings to be reaped by almsgiving amply suffices to inspire noble-minded Christians "to make unto themselves friends of the Mammon of iniquity". First of all, almsgiving renders the donor like unto God Himself (Luke 6:30, 36); even more, it renders God Himself debtor to those giving alms (Matthew 25:40 sqq). Moreover, almsgiving adds special efficacy to prayer (Tobit 4:7); tends to appease divine wrath (Hebrews 13:16); liberates from sin and its punishment (Sirach 29), and thus paves the way to the gift of faith (Acts 10:31). Daily experience proves that those lending a helping hand to stay the miseries of the poor frequently prepare the way for the moral reformation of many whose temporal misery pales before their spiritual wretchedness. Finally, almsgiving tends to guard society against turbulent passions whose fury is often checked by almsgiving. (End)


Monday, November 6

After praying the Rosary, my Mother indicated that I had to learn something in Scripture and to call the Holy Spirit for His teaching. I did and I was sent to open the Bible in its third section. As I did, I ended up with my fingers in two different pages.

Isaiah 58:4 – Here the prophet speaks of what God wanted, to give alms like feeding the poor, etc. The other reading was, Matthew 6 also about almsgiving… Wow! I was told that this would be the topic for this blog… I was mesmerized since I usually get the topic until much later in the month and this was the day after posting the October blog. 

On this day, I also learned about the upcoming Mass in Detroit, MI on Sunday November 18 to declare Venerable Francis Solanus Casey a Blessed… I know this now Blessed very well. I arrived in Detroit many years ago to start my training in a medical specialty after my graduation from medical school. I heard several times of the then Father Solanus. Between 2003 and 2008 while I was waiting to leave Toledo, OH (about 75 miles south of Detroit) in route to California, I ended up going to visit the convent where he lived part of his life and where he died. At the time I took a couple of friends from Toledo and we had a great time visiting his tomb.

Nowadays, I have his large picture in one of my 2 altars in my bedroom and also receive a twice a year publication: THE FATHER SOLANUS CASEY NEWSLETTER and that comes from his center in Detroit. http://www.solanuscenter.org

It is interesting because this place now is a place of almsgiving. They feed the poor on a daily basis… In hindsight, I can see God sticking to this theme of giving alms. Amazing!

Wednesday, November 8

I keep gaining weight and several times a month, I have only one meal a day because I am not hungry. The rest of the time, I only have two meals a day…I have not had three meals daily in at least 2-3 years. Of course, my internal toxicity is growing and this proves to me that in some of us the source of obesity comes from toxics… Amazing discovery! I realized that even that I would love to die since I have no attachment to this earth whatsoever, I am called to live as long as He wants me to, in order 1) to finish the book telling of my discoveries shown to me by the Lord and that are super important to reverse dementia, prevent some types of depression, etc., and 2) to write these blogs, a way to proclaim His mercy on a monthly basis, and this is an act of almsgiving, to stay here just to serve others. I did not see it that way prior to this month of November!  I then started to put together my present call to give alms in this way for His glory and for the good of others. It made sense that I had been led to find two different parts in the Bible speaking of giving alms.

I learned that another form of almsgiving is to patiently wait for a solution to my health issues, because this is not the time as yet for some neighbors to process the deep belief on the mercy of Jesus for all of us. This truth cannot be imposed on his/her free will. There is extra time needed and my sacrifice/suffering can increase the graces necessary for a change of hearts needed in my neighbor. I can participate in my neighbor’s evangelization even if I do not know exactly the person (s) who is in need of God’s message. This is all part of spiritual almsgiving!!!

At all times we all have been sent to make disciples of all nations and do what  Jesus did, to offer His life for our salvation. Evangelization is one of the most important forms of spiritual almsgiving that we can render….!!!! We have to make disciples. (This was repeated in the future Mass of November 30… I also received precisely this message at the site where St. Margaret Mary had the apparitions with messages of the Sacred Heart of Jesus at Paray-le-Monial, France. As I passed by in 2003, a nun was giving the visitors a piece of paper with a verse from the Bible. Mine said that I would be fishing souls….!)

Friday, November 10

2:45 PM – I was not sure if I should do something in my house and asked the Holy Spirit to tell me yes or not to it…I prayed in tongues. He sent me to open the Bible and right in the upper verses I found the word “yes”. It was Ezekiel 28:3. Every time that He shows me a “yes” in Scripture, it truly amazes me… It shows me how diligently His Spirit guides me!

5 PM: There was a program in EWTN/Spanish showing an area in the Andes, Peru where a community of Sisters, some seminarians formed in Spain and lay people from other countries who have arrived to aid impoverished and abandoned children with incapacities. The nuns visited homes and told them that sanctity was also for them. The Order is called Missionary Sisters Servants of the Poor. Their call is to serve Christ in the children. It has members from the entire world!

The lay couples are called “missionary couples” and one family with 3 children moved to Peru from France. They left everything to come to help the poor and seeking holiness/sanctity for themselves. The parents serve as teachers and also give professional formation besides school teaching. This latter service facilitates for the older children to find jobs to pursuit normal lives without extreme poverty. One of the couples said this, “We give them at a human level. We receive at a divine level that provides for us in every way.”

Sunday, November 12

2 PM – LIVE opening Mass of the USCCB for the fall meeting in Baltimore. I prayed for all of them.

On this day a major earthquake 6.7 hit Costa Rica near the Pacific Ocean… I remember some temblors while being in grade school. My country is accustomed to them!

Monday, November 13

7 AM: the first day of meetings of the USCCB. A video was shown where the Archbishop of the Archdiocese of Panama, in Panama, Jose Domingo Ulloa Mendieta spoke of their preparation for the World Youth Day’s  celebration of January 22-27, 2019. It was a very nice moment for me since I lived in that country for 7 years and the Panamanians paid for my studies in their University, a medical school and extraordinary teacher for us future physicians, as I found out when I came to the United States. Most of my teachers had been trained in the U.S. and Europe. I only kept a high score average and they gave me scholarships year after year… Without this medical preparation, I could not have solved my problem of dementia and since one of my most beloved organs was the brain (I became a neuro-anesthesiology)! Please pay attention to how God prepare our lives to serve others. If we do not, well, we are truly failures at alms giving!!!

While cooking my hard boiled eggs (my only source of protein), I thought of the pain they give since I am allergic to the white and yellow. Allergy to the yellow part is worse and that is why I only eat the white. I heard a voice within me saying, “Trust that all will be well. All your suffering is for the love of your brothers and sisters. Seeking their salvation it is an act of almsgiving.”

3:45 PM (Hour of Mercy). I understood that Our Lady after her “yes” to God, which was a way to love Him, 1) she ran to help her cousin Elizabeth, in this way obeying the two most important commandments… This was almsgiving at its best since it did involve sacrifice because she did not know how St. Joseph would react to her story that the Holy Spirit had impregnated her with the Messiah King. It would have looked like this 15 year old girl was crazy. Yet, she did it… She trusted in Yahweh and He fixed the problem with Joseph through a dream. It taught me that an act of almsgiving have a great priority.

Besides this story, 2) she also showed another act of almsgiving by asking her Son to provide for more wine at the wedding of Cana.  3) She also stayed for some 20 years after the violent death of her Son to become a holy companion to His disciples, who started evangelizing as they were persecuted as well.

Also on this date, and after a series of recent unbelievable acts of destruction of life, there was another shooting in a grade school in Tehama, CA, 150 miles north of Sacramento. 10 people were killed including children.

Thursday, November 16

I prayed my second Rosary at 12:30 PM. Shortly after I heard the following message:

“To live a perfect present moment is to say a perfect “yes”; to live a perfect present moment, you must anticipate and refuse any worry of what is going on! Even if you have much to clean and choose to do for the upcoming move when pain in your knees is unbearable, you should never worry regarding how you will do it. God will give you the graces necessary to do as much or as little according to His will for each present moment. You must practice this complete confidence in divine providence as a must to achieve holiness.  Always remember that this is another opportunity to intercede for others with your suffering.

“At all times, suffering and evangelization are the rock to save souls, and only God knows the plan for you and them. Also remember that you are a servant of the Lord offering to do His will as a worker for the Kingdom. Day and night keep remembering these words and act accordingly. This is the program of self denial because you are picking up your crosses (by your yes to the suffering without worrying or fear of what it intends to do). It is a gift by doing it to the major glory of God in order to let the Holy Spirit show you what to do in the next present moment. It is a way of following Jesus. It is the training you need to become a true disciple, which means to be blessed with the gifts of the Holy Spirit to bring others to love God at every present moment.

3 PM: the program above seems difficult. It is not! Your acceptance of each present moment events avoiding all possible worries will bring all the power you need. If you, on the contrary, keep worrying as to how to do it and trying to remember what steps to take versus just accepting each moment as perfect as it can be, you will become confused, doubting and finally afraid. Satan will work in tempting you with the fear of not being able to do it. Repeating, it all starts with total trust that yes, each present moment whether ordained or allowed by God, is full of the Holy Spirit resources to defeat all temptations from the evil one.

“Many will spend time in remembering what to do, but there is ONLY ONE THING TO DO: to trust (faith without fear) in God’s love, and this trust is practiced by loving God back, that is to say “yes” to His will at each present moment no matter what. With this determined and solid  “yes” not only you love God but His Holy Spirit will lead you through His graces to GIVE ALMS, whether physical (like money) or spiritual because you are letting the Holy Spirit lead you to bring your  brothers and sisters to eternal salvation. This form of living is the best form of thanksgiving for His love and mercy for you and to be passed on to your neighbor.”

Friday, November 17

The life of Venerable Solanus Casey was aired in EWTN, one day before his becoming Blessed in the Archdioceses of Detroit, MI. It was celebrated by Archbishop Vigneron of this city and he was the one that was serving my present Diocese of Oakland in 2008 when I arrived here. What a small world!

The now Blessed Solanus was born in Wisconsin and his name was Bernard Casey. He entered the seminary for the Capuchin Order in 1896 and was given the name of Francis Solanus Casey. He was ordained on July 25, 1904 without permission of hearing confessions or preaching because the formation received in seminary was in Latin or German and he did not know them. In time he was sent to Yonkers, NY, to the Sacred Heart parish. In 1907 his job was that of a porter. He was moved again in 1918 and 1921. Many people started seeking him.

In 1923 he was moved to Detroit and he started keeping a journal. Many miracles were granted when he was sought to pray for different people. He died on July 31,1957. Years later, his body was found incorrupt.

Tuesday, November 21

During the 6:30 PM Rosary via EWTN, I found myself crying during the first mystery because Jesus looked so alone in Gethsemane. How much I wished to be there with Him. Then, I heard the following:

“Every time that you help any of My children, you are accompanying Me as if it were in Gethsemane. So, you can still console Me. Offer this mystery for yourself that you often serve your brothers and sisters (almsgiving) in order to console Me for those who do not do so.”

Second Sorrowful Mystery:

“When you see Me being scourged, think of all who are doing so now by mistreating my creatures. With this decade pray for their salvation.”

Third Sorrowful Mystery

“Every time that you see Me crowned with thorns, remember all those of my children who at that precise moment are doing the same to Me with their thoughts full of fears, lack of trust in My love and mercy for them; with their eyes watching or reading pornographic material; with their ears paying attention to those who hate Me; with their mouth while speaking messages of hatred against Me or mine! Pray for their salvation as an act on your part of spiritual almsgiving.

Fourth Sorrowful Mystery

“Every time that you see Me carrying the cross and needing the help from Simon the Cyrene, think of all the ministerial Priests and members of religious Orders who are supposed to be my helpers by accepting all the sacrifices needed for evangelization, especially witnessing holy lives but they do not do it! With this mystery pray for them. You be my Cyrene by forgiving them and becoming an example for them to ease their hard lives of ministry.”

Fifth Sorrowful Mystery

“Every time that you see pictures of my crucifixion which I accepted for all of you to become children of My Father in heaven, accept your own suffering as a form of crucifixion for those who ignore Me or still persecute Me in the many whom they kill for being my followers. Offer this mystery for them to understand how much I love them.”

As I finished this particular Rosary, I was mesmerized as to how much I can do for the Kingdom with just the Sorrowful Mysteries. The worse part for me was to realize how poor my power of prayer has been through the years…with just offering the Rosary mysteries for my brothers and sisters without paying attention to His suffering right now in His images, and my lack of consolation for Jesus. His crucifixion is still going on daily! It was clear that to pray the Rosary in this way is a form of spiritual almsgiving in both ways: it consoles Him and it seeks the salvation of His enemies.

Thursday, November 23

On this Thanksgiving feast, I started to daily say a prayer that St. Padre Pio used to pray when he was asked to intercede for someone in particular. It has 3 mysteries composed of 5 beads and calling the Sacred Heart of Jesus to answer the needs of those who had requested his prayers. Out of the blue, I hardly had any discomfort in my knees despite eating egg whites. I considered it a sign from heaven and to call this great Saint to pray for me.

This special chaplet had arrived in the mail at the same time that I had found in EWTN/Spanish the first part of the life of St. Pio. He endured horrible persecution from his own confreres who even said that this Saint had a lover! She was only a follower of him, like many others. The wounds in his hands were considered self inflicted in order to call the attention of many. I then recalled my many forms of persecution and wondered how I survived them. I thanked my God for being with me through those sufferings and for having survived them without any leftover resentment against my persecutors.

Friday, November 24

The readings for the Mass had to do with Jesus entering the Temple and throwing out all those merchants that were doing business inside it. He reminds them that this place was a house of prayer.

Shortly after the homily from EWTN Mass, I understood something that I had not thought about it before. We know that ALL OF US ARE TEMPLES OF THE HOLY SPIRIT the moment we are baptized. Therefore, we must take the Words of Jesus seriously and keep praying in our inner temple instead of having sins of any kind occupy it. We should use our temple for prayer. We cannot spend time in our temple wasting it and not witnessing how we are constantly seeking holiness and how to become true disciples. Daily we should stop and inspect how we live within our Temple of the Holy Spirit! We should repent as many times as necessary and worship the Lord in the power of His Spirit to deny ourselves as we embrace our crosses and love our neighbor as best as we can. The Lord will do the rest to make us warriors for the Kingdom.

I must confess that I always have acknowledged being a temple of the Holy Ghost but that is it… I did not act on this truth at all and live in His presence within me and inspect the ways that I may be using it, that is not giving glory to God. This is the kind of disciple that I am, one very dumb! I realized how important has been to have been persecuted in order to purify and clean my inner temple. I thanked Him for the gifts of persecution.

On this same date of November 24, I understood why we are acting like dummies ignoring our temples, especially among us Roman Catholic worshipers… The negative consequences that follow are many. Here are some examples:

1. In our modern world, we use plastic materials for everything. Water and drink of all kinds come in plastic bottles and these plastic is supposed to be safe for us and are labeled as  # 1 and 2. #3 is not so safe. #4 and 5 are not to be used for food. You can see it at the bottom of the container and the number is within a small triangle. It happens that all plastic materials including those that we recycle break up in small pieces and end up in the ocean. All plastic material attracts toxics and fish swallow them. They end up in our plates when we eat the fish and we are getting worse polluted even that we started with safe plastic bottles. Even some clothing has micro plastics and upon washing the clothes they also end up in the ocean for the fish and eventually our tummies.

2. Thanksgiving to God feast was mixed with great sales followed by “black” Friday… and in 2017, 2.8 billion dollars were spent in the U.S. On “black” Saturday, $3 million more were spent in preparation for Christmas.

3. In an Egyptian mosque, 235 worshipers were killed. The aggressors had closed all possible escape routes and even ambulances that came to treat the wounded, were attacked. These worshipers were members of a Sufi religious group, those that spend time in contemplation.

4. A London subway was also attacked.

5. I must add that thousands of fetuses were being killed with abortion on demand.

If you add all these calamities, we ALL MUST START PRAYING IN OUR INNER TEMPLES DAY AND NIGHT, just as Jesus did 2000 years ago. Wouldn’t this be a very special call for the year 2018? AND this would be a huge form of almsgiving…

Sunday, November 26 – Feast of Christ the King

MAJOR TOPIC – I prayed two Rosaries with EWTN/Spanish (4 AM) and English (4:30). During these Rosaries I understood one of the most extraordinary topics I ever heard… It was all brand new to me. Here it is:

I understood that in general we believe the soul is in our heart, an organ always considered the source of love. We hear say, “I love you with all my heart!” In our human bodies, the heart is necessary and indispensable to keep us alive… However, there is another organ which is very important: our brain. This organ is the source of feeding our heart. It is in the brain where we feel hungry and receive orders to move our arms/hands to bring food to our mouth. In the mouth we have nerve endings to appreciate the flavor of the food. We also depend on the brain to order the mouth to masticate the food. We need the brain for the food 1) to be processed and taken apart into nutrients (essential amino acids) and vitamins, 2) to be absorbed by the blood vessels in the gut and 3) and for the gut to have nerve endings to eventually get rid of parts of the food not necessary for our nutrition,

Well, the important point here about the heart is that THE BRAIN for its survival IS TOTALLY DEPENDENT ON THE HEART to pump the blood with the nutrients that the brain had ordered to be processed and absorbed in the gut,. So, just as the heart needs the nutrients processed by the brain for its contractions, thereabout 60-100 times a minute (extraordinary work from the muscles forming the heart), the brain is totally dependent on also receiving the nutrients via the blood sent by the heart through many arteries. The brain is also able to supervise the electricity that gives life to the liver, pancreas, to our muscles to walk, to run, to sit, to lay down, etc…

Here is the most fascinating part of this understanding: there is a very close relationship from the moment we became formed in the womb of our mothers between heart and brain. The brain actually represents the LAITY. The heart represents the Magisterium. Together they form the BODY OF CHRIST! They are ONE! There is no survival of our relationship with the Holy Trinity if both are not considered dependent on one another for the salvation of every creature in the universe.

The HEART of the Body of Christ, made up by Priests and religious is needed in two ways. The religious members provide love with prayer, catechesis and almsgiving in all its forms. The Ministerial Priests provide the BODY AND BLOOD OF JESUS to sustain the spiritual brain of the laity plus the other Sacraments for the brain/laity to become Temples of the Holy Spirit. The brain/laity keeps the Body of Christ working with the spiritual nutrients necessary to make it one, united Body. They help the heart with love, respect, witness of holy lives, holy lives that could not be obtained without the heart’s bringing Jesus to them. Of course, the HEART OF THE BODY OF CHRIST must be healthy just as is needed in every human being. The route (arteries) that connects the heart and the brain must also be healthy. The spiritual arteries are represented by the Vatican, parish life, EWTN, different ministries, etc. that seek the formation of holy lives of both organs.

Both heart and brain must live accepting this inter dependence because either spiritual organ cannot do it on its own. Both need the graces of the other. Both must seek to live holy lives in order to keep the Body of Christ functioning at its maximum. If one organ becomes sickly, the other organ will end up also sickly. Otherwise the heart will not be able to bring spiritual food to the brain and the latter may eventually become paralyzed (similar to a stroke) and will poorly process the food that the heart needs for its holy functioning.

PRAYER is a powerful medication that helps both organs to work as ONE and be able to conquer the lost sheep to fill up entirely the Body of Christ. Therefore, besides prayer SUFFERING of any kind and magnitude is necessary to purify both organs to grow and accept the inter dependence of both, destroying in this way the potential to give Satan any power so that he cannot attack our self denial, the carrying of our crosses and the perfect following of Jesus.

To see it in another way, without saying “yes” to all suffering, the inter dependence of heart/brain is lost because the heart cannot extract the most important food for its sustenance, that is the witness of a healthy brain and vice versa.

So, prayer, suffering and a sense of duty to live lives dependent on perfect love between the brain and the heart are the holy darts that penetrate the Body of Christ the King to take us by the hand into the home of His Father, while each one of us bring others behind that come to be companions for this journey of LOVE, where we all are ONE in Jesus.

On the following Thursday, December 7, I received more ideas on the subject matter above. I am adding them right here because it makes sense to keep the topic together. Now it seems to me that the Lord was insisting that I should truly learned these ideas and repeated some of them. So, here it is:

The new  knowledge about the brain and the heart of the Body of Chris, taught me that members of the brain (laity) must look after the heart in order to contribute to the health of the Body and vice versa. When a human heart has an infarct (a heart attack), the pumping of blood (which carries the graces coming from the Sacraments provided by the Ministerial Priesthood) is inadequate and the brain WILL SUFFER FROM LACK OF SPIRITUAL OXGEN. It is then that the brain (laity) will become distracted, dizzy, confused up to the possibility of suffering a stroke, etc.

To avoid this disaster, we members of the brain must take good care of the heart, sickly or not, and become patient without resenting the heart since without its proper function we could not grow in our relationship with Jesus. We can do it by realizing that we can pray many hours for the Body of Christ at large and for the heart itself to grow in holiness. We also can offer all our sufferings for this to happen.

It is in these times that Our Lady offers her maternal spiritual womb to carry us during the struggles of both the heart and brain of the Body of her Son. As we work in a unified way for the good of the other organ, we start to shine and attract those who are lost. Of course, at all times, both organs must say “yes” to whatever we must do and suffer! It is then that the Holy Spirit will get involved in this process and many souls can also be saved!

IN ALL, THE BEST ACT OF ALMSGIVING is for the brain and heart to take care of one another, and in doing so, to sanctify the Body of Christ. Not doing it invites the evil one to divide us even further and many members of both organs will leave. There is no time to keep looking at what is going on and write books about it with possible solutions. THE BASIC PROBLEM is clear. THE CALL IS TO LOVE AS WE PRAY FOR EACH OTHER and to call the Holy Spirit to take over with our “yes” to God’s will. This is the best and merciful spiritual almsgiving and the BEST GIFT FOR BABY JESUS.

It is also the best way to celebrate Christmas. The Baby is hungry for our love. Let’s feed this hungry Child. He wants His bottle full of our “yes” to His will, that is our love for Him and for each other. He will smile to us after being fed with His own essence, LOVE. Then we can pick Him up and take Him everywhere we go in order to feed other members of His Body.

Monday, November 27

For all my life I have been confused when I and others pray: “Come Holy Spirit, enlighten my heart to see the things that are of God. Come Holy Spirit into my mind to know the things that are of God. Come Holy Spirit into my soul that I may belong only to God.” Why should I call the Holy Spirit when He is already in my Temple? Also, since my Father knows what I need, why should I ask for it?

On this day I received the following explanation and please remember that I am not a theologian: “The Father knows what you need but at all times you must say, ‘yes’ to My will precisely by inviting Me to do so. When you pray, come Holy Spirit, this ‘come’ does not refer to My actual arrival to your soul since I have been there since your Baptism and repeated at your Confirmation. ‘Come’ means that you are saying yes to My will. Even that I reside in your temple, you have a free will to invite Me to proceed with your guidance or not.”

 Again, this explanation helped me much and sorry for those who may think this theology is not so… For me, it has been great to pray “come Holy Spirit” and I sense that I am saying to Him, “yes”, I am asking for Your  will to be done.

On his same day I saw part number 2 of the life of Padre Pio in EWTN-Spanish. Because he used to celebrate Mass in 3 hours, he was ordered not to celebrate Mass with laity around. He could not hear confession not could he get out of the monastery. His best companion Capuchin was sent to another State. All of this provoked that many of the laity did not have a Mass around the monastery where Padre Pio was living, and had to walk a long distsance to attend Mass. At one point in his life, he was able to get money to build a hospital to help those who could not pay for medical service. Other group of Capuchins needed money for some project where they lived and they came and asked Padre Pio for the money he had to build the hospital. When he refused, a new war was started against him. Padre Pio said that it was the work of Satan, one that he encountered as a ferocious dog since he was a child.

Tuesday, November 28

I woke up with a huge headache that was not getting better with any pain medicine. I started reminiscing on the life of St. Pio and wondered if it would be this Saint that could provide the intercession to the Throne of Mercy to help me with my health. I need to publish the book with the several things I have found out and that I have mentioned before, and with my eyesight getting so bad (as the toxicity augments living here), I can see that I need a miracle to finish the book. I suddenly prayed to this Saint: “Would you send me a sign if it is the will of God that I should regularly seek your intercession. May the sign be, to stop my headache even for a few minutes?”

 Sure enough, for full 15minutes it disappeared… Well, my question was amply answered. Of course, Saint Pio was extraordinary against the evil one and I know Satan has been after me several times for my many persecutions. So, as of now, I am praying the daily chaplet that he prayed for others and that I mentioned at the beginning of this blog.

Saturday, December 2

The TV showed a 2014 movie in a Hispanic channel titled, “For greater glory.” In the 1920’s when the Catholic Church was attacked by the Mexican government, many were killed for following Christ the King. The program was hard to watch… The victims were called Cristeros and among themselves they would ask in Spanish, “Quien Vive?” They would answer. “Viva Cristo Rey,” which means, “Who is alive?” The answer was, “Long live Christ the King.”  The recent feast of Christ the King should have an extra meaning for us in the Americas! Many died, including many Priests because they wanted to follow Him!

Monday, December 4

The proper work of the Body of Christ is distorted to some extent with the  excessive use of the Internet. It was reported on this day that 781 billion texts are sent each month. It is incredible that this constant communication will distract us from any form of prayer in our inner temple… Jesus is finding our lives totally dependent on what the other is thinking. And then we complain of what is going on in the world!  No, the truth is: what is going on with ourselves?

Tuesday, December 5

I found in EWTN/Spanish a full two hours on the life of St. Juan Diego. I had watched it last year and wrote about it in a blog. To repeat, a Priest and a Bishop came to review the encounter of this Saint with our Lady of Guadalupe. From 1492 to 2017, this lay man still makes a super interesting person to know well. Our Lady came to Mexico and thank God she did… The religious persecution against the Catholic Church in the first half of the 1900’s was unbelievable like the 2014 movie mentioned above showed. Satan was furious and without her, Mexico could be another Russia. Still, the narco-trafficants live there and send drugs to this country. Yet, every December 12th millions come to visit Our Lady at Tepeyac. She is still a source of spiritual almsgiving for the Americas.

St. Juan Diego was chosen to be the spokesman for Our Lady. He was canonized by Saint John Paul II on July 3, 2002, three years before his demise and his feast day is December 9. In the program of two hours on his life, they showed the canonization ceremony and Mass at the Basilica and it was simply unbelievable to see the crowds gathering there.

On this day I received a piece of mail from Planned Parenthood. They wanted me to belong to them and sent me a card with my name as a member. They reminded me of my need of its existence to defend my rights for my health. I answered that I was only interested in defending the rights of the babies in the womb that are killed. I blessed them and told them that I pray for them daily and I do! Years ago, I had placed their name in the community Rosary. I truly love them now. In the past, I did resent them big time. Not any more… This is the work of the Holy Spirit in my temple within. This proves how God can work in our souls…


We are concluding another year on this earth! It is time to pay attention to what we need to do different in the care of our inner Temples. I have discussed this topic in one way or the other and yet, these are only words. The time is calling us to truly turn around our lives and pray without ceasing. We have to be opened to God’s will like never before without any fear or complaint. HOWEVER, IT IS IMPORTANT TO ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT GOD CAN DO IT FOR US; we do not have to find ways to do it… I see a tendency to constantly come up with plans of action for whatever spiritual changes we are called to do… It will never work… We only have to diagnose our spiritual status and call the Holy Spirit to take over, and as said before, it means to say “yes” to what the Spirit leads us to change and do it.

I have experienced this change through the years. In the past, I would attend all kind of conferences and retreats to hear about how to do the changes… At least for me, it never worked. I would come out of each event full of enthusiasm with great plans to do what I had heard; unfortunately, a few weeks later, I would have forgotten to work at it on a daily basis. THE ONLY THING I HAD TO DO was to pray enough, and to be determined to call the Holy Spirit to do the changes necessary in my soul, mind and heart… by saying “yes” to His will, regardless of the suffering involved. He then would give me the endurance, knowledge, wisdom and the rest of His gifts for me to follow His direction. From time to time, I would find out how changed I was. For example, the fact that I never missed the close relatives who died, proves to me of the Spirit’s graces being given. I was Baptized in Him via the Charismatic Movement on May 19, 1977 in Ann Arbor, MI. This Baptism only meant the re-affirmation of His coming in my Baptism and Confirmation and saying “yes” to Him but as an adult, and not through my godparents. Even my regular email address has 519, which refers to May 19…

Somehow, we have to be careful in creating all kind of ministries, prayer groups and the like without monitoring our spiritual growth. We only need to get together to reaffirm our desire to say “yes” to His will… His Spirit takes over and we follow. In our following, we practice almsgiving as the Lord call us to do. ALMSGIVING IS ONLY THE PRACTICE OFMERCY… towards our brothers and sisters. The good thing is that our suffering in different ways continues but many people come to our help at all times in all places. It amazes me how people run to open doors for me with a huge smile. Just last week, I opened the garage door to move the empty trash containers (one of recyclable goods and the other for real trash) and a neighbor across the street, a 40ish short woman ran fast to at least help me with the second container. I never knew her after 9 years of living here. This constant care from many human beings that I encounter keeps me reminded of the presence of God in my life. He moves them to help me in times when my knees hurt a lot. I am sure that He does it just to let me know that He is with me!

Finally, I want to ask for more prayers for me in order for my health not to get in the way of the many things I need to do. The closing of the house in Birmingham, AL will be on December 21. My sons from Los Angeles and Omaha, NE will come at the beginning of January to help out in the decision making of what to take with us and what to throw or give away. We expect to get there by mid January. I have contacted two different women to help clean this home after all is completed, but they did not answer!!! Of course, my Mother keeps reminding me that it is up to God to provide the right person to do it. And that is so consoling. Sure enough, my entire life is made of moments where He provided in marvelous ways. He only wants me to GROW IN EXPECTING HIM TO DO THE SAME! Once I get to Alabama, I have to look for a primary physician, an ophthalmologist and someone to detoxify my body. I know what to do: to let the Holy Spirit do the job while I trust in His Mercy with a big “yes” to what He wants. It is here where I need much intercession in order for me to follow Him in the way of a true disciple!

There is no doubt that God is good and His mercy endures forever! I count with your support. May you have a wonderful, blessed Christmas and New Year 2018. If you find that some of the ideas written in this blog are contrary to the Truth, the Life and the Way, please pray for me even more!

Tobit 4:7-11

“Give alms from your possessions. Do not turn your face away from any of the poor, and God’s face will not be turned away from you. Son, give alms in proportion to what you own. If you have great wealth, give alms out of your abundance; if you have but little, distribute even some of that. BUT DO NOT HESITATE TO GIVE ALMS; you will be storing up a goodly treasure for yourself against the day of adversity. Almsgiving frees one from death, and keeps one from going into the dark abode. Alms are a worthy offering in the sight of the Most High of all who give them.”








1. A review of Satan’s work in our times

November 5, 2017

2. A plan to defeat the power of evil


I am so amazed to have lived this experience of understanding what I have to do to bring peace to the world and glory to God… I was also amazed to find out that exactly this week of October 29 to Nov.3, a new book regarding the Rosary and evil spirits has been discussed at EWTN, which I have to buy and read. However, I already had received the content for this blog and precisely on the Rosary and the power of evil… What I have learned is somewhat different to the content discussed by the author of the new book, BUT IT IS FOR ME TO START PUTTING IT INTO PRACTICE ASAP.  Yet, IT BLEW MY MIND… to find out 3 weeks later, that the World Over program in EWTN of Thursday, November 2, had a section of an interview with a priest who was trained at the Vatican as an exorcist… I normally do not get to listen to this program until the following Sunday or Monday. However, I have EWTN in my Face book page and as I was passing by, I realized that one of the interviews was precisely on Satan!!!! The Lord had struck my mind three times in a short time and in different ways in order to emphasize in every form that I had to share in this particular blog what I would learn…

Before I forget, let me mention that as I prepared to write the blog on the devil, I decided to read a document that I posted in the right side “page” section in this site titled, “Satan, the Cross and our power to bind him.” I read it again because with my memory problems, I did not recall its content. There is no doubt that it was a fantastic job from the Holy Spirit as He guided me to write of Satan in the history of Christianity starting with Adam and Eve… up to the latest years. This time, it seems that I have learned what else to do to stop all evil around us, now busier than ever before!

Before I start sharing my new understanding to combat the evil one, I will share a few items according to the calendar sequence.


Wednesday, October 11

I received an email offering me a job in anesthesiology paying $225/ hour or $1,800 per day… This is still the product of our precious ex- candidate Mrs. Hillary Clinton. It was in the times of the early 90’s when her husband came to the U.S. Presidency that she promised to work and make three medical specialties (radiology, pathology and anesthesiology) hospital based and to be paid a basic salary by the hospital… Subsequently, most medical students upon graduation did not choose to look for residencies in these three specialties where the government would dictate the basic salary for these services… When this happened, we ended up with a huge drop of number of anesthesiologists available in the entire country. For the other two specialties, this was not a major problem because they do not take care of patients directly. For anesthesia services, we need a good number of members to daily cover the many operating rooms…and this is the practice of medicine that at times is very demanding and tough. A basic salary would not be fair. This is what politics does even affecting our health issues.

It was also mentioned in the national news that there are about 360 millions of depressed patients… My question is: besides carrageenan that does make some of us depressed, could it be that the toxicity that is present worldwide is affecting our brains not to produce enough 5 hydroxi-triptamine, which regulates the feeling of being content rather than depressed? There is so much left to find out! Just recently, I found a program where a Protestant brother Pastor was telling his congregation not to let depression burden them and to ask God to heal it… I felt sorry and sad at the same time… If he knew what he was saying!

Thursday, October 12

The famous and up to this date 22 fires covering 260 square miles (they started on October 8) in northern California, mostly in Sonoma and Napa counties, was a major concern since many (up to 900 people) were missing. Some were found safe and alive and others were found as a bunch of bones. At times, the responders would look for signs like a total hip replacement for identification of a group of bones. Of the 900 people missing and by October 15, 437 were found alive and well but 463 were still missing! These scenes of so much suffering that just occurred very close to me, was giving me a profound feeling of horror… We expect a huge earthquake right where I live due a fault that is moving…In 2008 when I arrived, they said that within30 years it would come about. Now, is about 2 decades maximum for the time for this similar disaster as it just happened in Mexico City.

Also, this area of north of California is famous for producing wine. Some wineries were intact but the smoke from the fires were not good for the grapes since it contained toxic products coming not just from the burning of trees and vegetables of all kinds, but from the burning of building materials like metals, plastic and wood!!!  So, many of the grapes were made toxic! This smoke came down south to us and it produced definite burning in our eyes…YET, THERE IS ANOTHER TRAGEDY… With these fires and due to the cultivation of grapes for wine, MANY undocumented immigrants have no job and are unable to get one without the proper legal status… Another major hurt for my heart!!!

Friday, October 13

A beautiful remembrance of the last apparition in Fatima was celebrated with LIVE Masses and Rosaries in Fatima and the Shrine of the Immaculate Conception in Washington, D.C. Among all the tragedies produced by hurricanes (Harvey, Maria and others) and the fires in California, added to the dangerous smoke, hope was revived by remembering what our Mother had come to tell us 100 years before…and that is that she is always taking care of us with her intercession.

Monday, October 16

Fires also appeared much further south from where I live and near the coast (Monterrey) but still in the northern part of the State…

Tuesday, October 17 – Feast of St. Margaret Mary Alacoque

This is a very special feast for me because when as a child I encountered Jesus in the Eucharist, I asked to go to first grade to a school where I could be near Him. (At the end of this blog you will find the actual reason of why I was given the grace to know of His Presence in the Host and of my need to be close to Him… He did all for a good reason!). I ended up in a little expensive (too much for us but He provided the money), brand new religious grade school named St. Margaret Mary Alacoque, with Nuns who had come from El Salvador to found this little school with Perpetual Adoration of the Eucharistic Sacred Heart of Jesus… I always remember how He brought me to Him to sleep nearby and as a child of 7, I felt so protected at night because He was about 50 yards from where my bed was… This situation led me many years later to secure a niche for my ashes in order to be near Him (about 10 feet from the Tabernacle) at the Shrine of the Sacred Heart of Jesus in San Jose, Costa Rica… So, all and all, I had a great day as I reviewed the previous story.

The Live Mass with a priest from EWTN (I hate to mention names because all of them have good homilies and some from time to time  preach outstanding ones like this day), beautifully explained how our self denial as asked by Jesus to be His disciple, is a way of suffering. Here there are a few ideas preached:  “Self denial requires an interior disposition to die to ourselves and holiness begins from inside out. Our performance shows in giving alms or all acts of merciful love like giving food to the hungry, clothing to the naked, money when is necessary, BUT ALL ALMS SHOULD NOT COME FROM our surplus and our giving should hurt a little bit.  This outer performance also covers visiting the sick, comforting the sorrowful, healing the sick and forgiving those who have hurt us. Forgiveness is a way of giving alms to God present in the other.

Friday, October 20 – Feast of St. Paul of the Cross

I have mentioned before that I found the devotion to St. Paul of the Cross around the mid 1990’s. My third son and now Deacon went with me to a place where they sold antiques and found a huge church size painting of St. Paul of the Cross painted in the late 1880’s in northern England, and came to the U.S. precisely to Toledo, OH where I was living. My son said that it was not good to have this painting in a place like this and I bought it for $1,000.00 and had to store it in the garage of my then rented home. When I bought my own home, I placed him in the family room… and felt super accompanied since I knew him well for years before (had read many of his letters and teachings). He made emphasis of the importance of the Cross, a topic that I would need to remember for many years after this encounter due to my heavy suffering! I also bought a beautiful painting of one of the scenes of the Way of the Cross, when Simon the Cyrene was called to help Jesus…

For 9 years, both pieces have been in storage here in California … I tried to destroy the paining of St. Paul of the Cross but I was not allowed to do it, even that it would cost money to send him from OH to this area. In hindsight, I can see how he is probably being very present praying for me to accept my heavy crosses… The other painting is a reminder for me that with my self-denial I am like another Cyrene trying to comfort Jesus as He lives the horrors of our present times, especially of division and violence among us. My question now is if I should destroy this painting of St. Paul? Please pray for me to find the answer from the Holy Spirit. I did try while in Toledo to give it away to churches serviced by his Passionate Order, but all of them did not want it.

Well, on this day, I had to pick up at Walgreens pharmacy my refilled prescription for blood pressure and as I came out, I was totally lost as to where I was… Since my memory is going away again without any detoxification, it is characteristic of this state to forget all geographic points just as I suffered when I arrived here in July 2008. I decided not to stop the car and check the map since the lettering is very small, and told my Jesus to cover me with His mercy and take me home somehow. I have done that several times. I ended up in Walnut Creek, nearby city where Whole Foods organic store is located. I bought a couple of things that I needed and left to come home and as I left the parking area, an old homeless lady had a request written on a carton asking for money. I made a sign to her to meet me a few feet further in other to move away from the traffic and she did. I gave her the little I had in cash, $17! She was fascinated and I told her, “You are Jesus to me.” She smiled and blessed me. As I continue my driving, I realized that I had gotten lost because I had to feed lunch to this woman. There is no question in my mind that Jesus is a super lover of us.

Sunday, October 22 – Feast Day of St. John Paul II – the Pope that I had a personal encounter with on May 9th of 2002. (It is fun to know that one has met a future Saint and shaken hands with him!)

In EWTN, there was a great homily regarding how we know if we are doing His will. The preaching and content was great; however, I have a different approach to this question if I am doing God’s will. I simply tell Him and often during the day, a big Yes to all He calls me to do or suffer, and then I know and clearly that the Holy Spirit will do it for me; therefore, I do  not have to inspect what happens to see if I was truly doing His will.

Monday, October 23

2:30 PM – As I was thinking of the upcoming feast of Thanksgiving, I started writing: “I will celebrate Thanksgiving but every day, not just once a year. I will do it as I contemplate the will of God for each moment lived and do it from the bottom of my heart for what it is, whether good or full of suffering. I feel ready to be thankful for the beauty of His will for me since there is nothing as perfect than such will! “

I followed this with some concerns about how much I have to do like emptying this home. Immediately, my Mother said, “Do not think in those terms. On the contrary, feel happy that all that is necessary to empty this house will be done according to God’s plan, and those plans are always perfect and doable with His mercy. Instead, you should start saying, ‘Thank You so much Holy Trinity for the miracle of emptying this home in the perfect time frame with the perfect distribution of all items to be given away, sold or taken with us.’ Rejoice because His mercy will provide a perfect plan with wisdom, patience and energy for you to follow it. The more you enter into this truth, the more you will receive the faith necessary to allow Him to perform miracles, so that you do not have to worry or miss doing what He wants done for this move! The moment that you worry, even with the slightest concern about the process of giving away items (like finding the people that can benefit from them), or selling them (finding the people with the money to buy the items like the handmade French Provincial living room set handmade in Colombia -it cost me $2,500 -), or about selecting what you should keep, at that moment of worrying you will become confused and lost in the process that should all be done by God Himself!”

It was a great message for me… It is like taking some Tylenol for a headache…

Wednesday, October 25

Satan, I am sure has been around and bugging me. I had ordered a refill for my thyroid medication and for this time, I followed the idea in the Walgreens site to refill it for three months. I thought that it was great because it would be the last one until I get to Alabama… Well, I was supposed to pay $177 as co-pay… Normally each month I pay $4! So, I would have only owed just $12… So, why the error?

In moments that I am combating extreme food allergies (growing by the day) and learning how to handle this present moment through much prayer time, this was a major problem. This prescription was supposed to be picked up since the previous weekend but did not in order to call the pharmacy on a week day and spend much time waiting for a pharmacist to answer… They needed to tell me why of the inflated co- pay price… I finally spoke to one of them and she said that the money needed was just $12… When I brought the question of the excessive amount previously charged as co-pay, she said that it was a computer glitch somewhere from the insurance company or from their site!!!!! Mr. Devil truly confuses our lives at times that we are trying to solve many other problems.  I immediately realized that I had entered the battle field of resentment… So, I called my Mother for help and immediately all these feelings left me!!! Mr. Satan had been defeated!

Friday, October 27

Please, read this account for this day with much attention. It could be interpreted in the wrong way with regards to the Catholic Church.

I talked to my son the Deacon for something that had nothing to do with the Church. However, eventually, he was concerned as I was with the things going on right now within her. I already mentioned the matter in the previous blog and I am not going to repeat it. The point is that whatever is going on seems to be an effort to divide the Church and of course, Mr. Satan is again the most important worker on this matter.

3 PM: It is here that if you read the document mentioned at the beginning of this blog on “Satan, the Cross and our power to bind him,” one can truly affirm that Satan is all over since the story in Genesis…  In 2017, WE AS CATHOLICS SHOULD NEVER DOUBT THAT HE IS WORKING 24/7 IN MATTERS WITHIN THE CHURCH. I immediately felt called to wake up and do something about it.

What am I trying to say? Well, I felt in this precise hour of Mercy that I should be doing something about this situation and as God lead me to. I have always thought of Satan as somebody that confuses, divides, accuses, lies and gives fear. Yet, this is not the whole picture regarding this evil angel. This time I felt that the Holy Spirit wanted me to write a more comprehensive description of his work in our souls:

SATAN 1) leads us to pride, unnecessary attachments, fear, impatience, resentment or hatred, need for power over others, and acquisition of possessions beyond actual personal needs.  2) He considers self-denial in order to do God’s will as a weakness, insecurity and as form of self-hatred. 3) He confuses souls to believe that all suffering is a form of failure and that should be avoided at all cost. 4) He discourages any form of repentance because it represents an unnecessary humiliation.

On this same day, there was a nice game of basketball at 7: PM local time. As I have written before, I am not allowed to pray for a particular team to win… I am only allowed to watch the game in order to offer all my sufferings for the SALVATION OF all the players, coaches, referees, people attending, etc. and only to pray for the team to win with the least amount of potential to be affected by the win with pride or violence that may diminish their chances of conversion.

Well, I did so. At one point, my local team, a great one, was losing by 16 points and very late in the fourth quarter with just a few minutes to end the game. I kept my work at praying as just written above. Suddenly, I felt the Holy Spirit talking to me and telling me that I needed to use this blog to write about Satan especially for dividing the Church, and he is doing it by tempting the Ministerial Priesthood and the Laity not to agree in many aspects but in many cases doing it with resentment and even anger. Satan is also keeping the laity totally distracted by the social media in all its forms. This takes much time and prayer time is minimal. In general, Satan is producing fear as well as accusation among many members of either side. This is affecting the level of FAITH, HOPE and LOVE among all members. The evil one is tempting many not to live according to Church teaching, and so on and so forth! We know the story.

Here I will tell you about what I learned that is new for me (may be not for you) and how I wished I did not have to share it. I told so to my son the Deacon and asked him to pray for me not to produce any scandal in your souls. I also know that some of you are praying for me because I asked you and this consoles me, in order not to be TEMPTED by Satan to produce any spiritual discomfort in your souls. Here it is:

The Holy Spirit then revealed to me how in SOME CASES only, some teams lose games because of the hatred or simply resentment with envy that the crowd or players may feel for the great ability of the other team they are playing. It is an act of division, pride and fear to see their team lose. This feeling is a powerful negative force that totally acts on the disliked team and distractions and poor decisions make them give the ball away. Satan is present dividing and making some sin against the commandment, “love of neighbor.” In other words, it is totally alright to want to win but it is not good to wish the opposing team the worse in mistakes so that they lose…

In this particular case, I know that the local team is known for their humility from coaches to players. I was startled because it sounded so weird to truly believe in such a powerful power. I never knew that existed and therefore, I doubted that this was coming from God. It was here that the Holy Spirit or so I thought, “asked me to ask the Father in the Name of Jesus to stop this negative force against each other that only comes to the hearts of many as a temptation from Satan himself.” This gave me hope and I started to believe that it was truly the Holy Ghost because Satan would never ask for prayer to the Father in the Name of Jesus. I also heard to ask as well for the salvation of those who where resenting, and if I did so, that my team will win. In hindsight, it is clear that the Lord was trying to convince me that Satan is into everything, including moments where one could not feel he would be busy dividing us!

I further understood that it would happen because Satan cannot endure having prayers said for the salvation of the people he is using and so he takes off. This prayer if done, will not be as a trick for me to use in the future in favor of the team I like but ONLY as a proof of the power of Satan in many circumstances, and how we have to pray in a different way to stop him in the day to day spiritual warfare we should be fighting against this evil angel. The Holy Spirit promised me that my team would win just to prove to me of what had been explained. Also, this also contained my agreement to use this blog to speak about how to stop Satan even beyond the use of my crosses against him, as I wrote and coming from the Bible in the mentioned document that appears in the “page” section. So, to offer crosses to stop Satan is very important but we can do more and very powerful actions to make him run away and therefore to have peace in the world. Always, always, we must pray for the salvation of those under the evil temptation!!!!! This is essential.

I accepted the idea, prayed as asked to do and changed the channel since there was a good program going on in EWTN! And yes, my team scored 19 points in short minutes… The men narrating the game could not believe what had happened… Right and there, I understood that the time had arrived for me to submit to the Holy Spirit not only to further understand what I can do but to post it in this October blog! It sounds confusing and please re-read it if you have to, but 1) our prayer is essential like with the Rosary; 2) our suffering/cross is essential to be offered but 3) our prayer for the salvation of those acting on behalf of the evil one is also very important! Only through love of neighbor can we help the most in the matters of Satan… Obedience to God’s will through the Commandments leaves him unable to continue having much influence in our spiritual lives…

Saturday, October 28

I was still fascinated by what I had recently experienced. To a certain point, it led me to believe that discerning the guidance of God may be difficult unless we allow the Holy Spirit with our yes to God’s will to give us signs that He is the one guiding us.

My Mother came around and asked me if I wanted further proof in this point of view. I said “yes.” She sent me to call the Holy Spirit to guide me. Immediately, in my imagination I saw the number of the page in the Bible. This is the normal way that more often than not, I receive the particular page number instead of hearing about it. It was page 788.

After I read this chapter of Isaiah 7, I was led to understand the history behind in the notes posted below the chapter.

For example: Ahaz was the King of Judah (735-715 BC)

Rezin, was King of Aram (in Damascus, capital of Syria)

Pekah, was King of Israel

Rezin and Pekah were ready to attack Jerusalem because of Ahaz’ refusal to enter with them into an anti Assyrian alliance. It is here when the Lord sent Isaiah to tell Ahaz, “TAKE CARE THAT YOU REMAIN TRANQUIL AND DO NOT FEAR; let not your courage fail before these two stumps of smoldering branches because of the mischief that Aram plots against you, saying, ‘Let’s go up and tear Judah asunder, make it our own by force, and appoint the son of Tabee king there’

“Thus says the Lord, ‘This shall not stand. IT SHALL NOT BE. But within 60 years and five, Ephraim shall be crushed, no longer a nation.”

Isaiah 7:9b – “Unless your faith is firm, YOU SHOULD NOT BE FIRM.”

The chapter continues saying that the Lord wanted Ahaz to ask for a sign but he refused because he did not want to tempt the Lord.

Isiah 7:14“The Lord Himself will give you a sign: the virgin shall be with child, and bear a son, and shall name him Emmanuel.”

I was fascinated about the content of this lesson on the importance of truly having faith, and of course, very important for me in these moments of poor health and having to empty a home to move elsewhere! It ALSO seemed that God wanted me to believe that I have to grow on how to deal with Satan personally and the family included and for the Church and the world at large!!! I also understood something I never thought about it when I read this passage. In one of my Bibles, I was taken to it on July 7, 2012. In another Bible, I was led to the same chapter and verse in 2016. This new understanding was how the God of the Old Testament was not only advising Ahaz about the importance of faith, but how he should not be fearful because Baby Jesus would come to win all wars!

I also understood that the topic of the evil one was given to me to deal with any action of Satan that would destroy my faith even with Jesus around… Generally speaking, we tend to forget that dealing with Satan has to be a super important topic for our salvation and of the entire world because even Jesus was tempted by him… And yes, it is time that we PAY ATTENTION TO THE ACTION OF SATAN in our Church and in the world. We have an immensity of examples of how we humans are constantly attacked by evil forces tempting our brothers and sisters and ourselves! Again and again, Satan does a marvelous work in many forms including where we do not even suspect it like in a basketball game. As you may be figuring it out, with the birth of the Baby announced in Isaiah we have all the power to crush Satan in our times. At the end of this blog I will share how I was taught how to pray for this to happen!

As always, my extraordinary Lord wanted to be sure that I had to learn all about the history of Israel. They were divided in the times of Isaiah. The northern Kingdom, Israel had other Gods. The southern Kingdom  of Judah was faithful to one God, Yahweh!!! They were divided like right now in the U.S politics where most TV programs exude hatred, division, accusations, resentment, etc.

In the evening I learned another way of how the evil work especially in the U.S. A Hispanic channel showed the story of the flower called Amapola. The flour comes out of a small brown bulb, about one inch in size, Yet, inside this bulb there is a thick gum from where opium and from it heroin and morphine can be manufactured. For example, 90% of opium comes from Mexico, province of Guerrero. This country is third in the production of narcotics following Myanmar and Afghanistan. The flowers of Amapola bloom every four months. Of the 14 narco-cartels in Mexico, 10 are dedicated to the cultivation of Amapolas.  

Monday, October 30

On this day I received the entire program to destroy Satan’s influence. It was awesome but I will share it at the very end to close this blog.

Tuesday, October 31

A truck driven by a 29 year old immigrant crazily drove in lower Manhattan, NY and killed some and sent to the hospital many others. There is a constant attempt from Satan to destroy lives and for no apparent reason other than pure hatred. 

I also detected this demonic characteristic of division, accusations, lies leading to fear in a well known 10 AM (P.T.) ABC program with Whoopi Goldberg and 5 other women called “The View.” The problem is that the content of their program is mostly about politics and against Mr. Trump. Well, in the U.S it is permitted to speak your own mind; however, to do it over and over five days a week for months is becoming for me a major source of resentment and still a higher source of my need to turn on the program for a few minutes per day and to pray for them with the best love that I can manufacture at the time. Also, they are in the list of my community Rosary. I wonder what will happen now that I have started my new work against Satan?

Tuesday, November 1

2:30 PM: I was concerned about my rather high blood pressures and medication seems to work poorly to get it down. My Mother came and said, “Again, do not wonder why your blood pressures are not being controlled or about what else to do. NO PART OF YOUR LIFE IS LEFT UNATTENDED BY GOD!  Keep your faith under control so that your health can be controlled by Him. In other words, this is a way from God to keep you alerted as to how much you must trust in His love!”

Wednesday, November 2

It seems that lately I am being illuminated when I worry about any subject. Today, I was concerned when I could not remember what I was going to do (as I have mentioned my memory is getting worse by the week due to the toxic environment that I live at and without any detoxification because I am allergic to those products that  I used in 2009 to recuperate my memory).

Immediately after I worried about my ongoing memory loss, I said to myself, “Hey, not a single complain regarding the will of God for me right now…”  Then, I also added but now more conscious about it, “Yes, Lord, it is alright to lose my memory and wait until I get money to use an injection of glutathione to detoxify ASAP.”  After this short event, I wondered if now that I am praying to get Satan under control, he cannot get me with fears… We shall see.

Sunday, November 5

Before Mass on this day, I suddenly was called by Jesus to offer the Mass for a special person or event. I thought that this blog with this not easy topic was the perfect choice. I still had much editing to do and felt that I needed more grace to be sure that everything was how the Holy Spirit wants it. He corrected me and said, “No, offer this Mass for President Trump, his wife Melania and all the heads of governments that they are going to encounter during their important trip to Asia!” Wow…”  Jesus is soo good… Therefore, during the Offertory I placed all of these people on the paten and chalice to encounter Jesus moments later during the Consecration. Of course, I also offered with His Sacrifice at this Mass, my crosses so that Satan could not work overtime, especially tempting the President to use words that might create discord, division, etc.


Here I will share how I am praying to stop the evil in my life and of that of many others.

Prior background: I pray 3 Rosaries a day for sure. A fourth is sometimes prayed. The first Rosary is the “FAMILY” Rosary with Chaplet of Mercy intertwined.

Every decade is dedicated to one of my 4 sons with his family if they are married and this uses 4 decades. On each decade I pray as follows:

“Eternal Father, I offer you the Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity of Your Son Jesus Christ and ALL MY SUFFERING in atonement of the sins of my first son (second, third and fourth and all by name), myself and my Pastor.  Then I pray the Our Father. After each Hail Mary, I pray: “For the sake of His sorrowful Passion, have mercy on us and the whole world.”

Previously, I used to offer the fifth mystery for Mr. Trump, and other groups of people that on that day needed prayer like victims of fires in California and destruction done by earthquakes or hurricanes (Harvey, Maria, etc.). However, I also prayed for Mr. Trump with another Rosary as you will read.

It was in recent days that I REALIZED THAT I NEVER INCLUDED IN MY FAMILY ROSARY, MEMBERS OF MY WORLDWIDE FAMILY, those who are created by God in His image no matter of what religion or nationality, enemies or friends. I realized that I have been a joke regarding the conversion of souls. I did take care of my sons but not of my brothers and sisters everywhere. AS OF 4 DAYS AGO, I am offering the fifth mystery of the Rosary and of the Chaplet of Mercy with all my suffering for everyone else AND using a long list of special intentions as given to me by the Holy Spirit. I do not read them for each Rosary, but they are written and I offer the entire package!

My second Rosary is the community Rosary/Chaplet of Mercy with a list of intentions for each Hail Mary and I have partially posted my intentions in the section of “pages” in this site. Of course, the intention for each Hail Mary also includes a prayer for atonement of their sins and asking for God’s mercy for them.

My third Rosary of the day with Chaplet of Mercy have been offered for Mr. Trump, myself (health issues and spiritual ongoing conversion), peace in the U.S and the world.

My fourth Rosary without the Chaplet is offered in thanksgiving to God for His blessings for my family and me.

Now, here is what I have written for the fifth mystery of the “family” Rosary and includes all possible ways to stop the evil one in our lives; that is, in my family of all created in God’s image:


1. For the mercy of God and the power of Our Lady TO BIND all evil within the Roman Catholic Church at all levels à the Vatican, Archdiocese, Dioceses, Religious Orders of men and women, and the Laity.

2. For the United States, all governments worldwide and all formal religions

3. For the understanding in what ways Satan has a hold in our lives.

4. In order to receive the Gifts of the Holy Spirit to understand what parts of our lives we have handed to Satan and for the courage to place them back under the Lordship of Jesus Christ.

5. Asking the Father in the Name of Jesus for His mercy to BIND ALL THE FORCES AND SOURCES OF EVIL and re-claim the Blood of Jesus to destroy them.

6. With this mystery of the Rosary and Chaplet of Mercy and in the Name of Jesus Christ  I seal with His Blood our homes, places of work, parishes, the Vatican and the Pope,  and all Bishops, ministerial and religious Priesthood, Religious Orders, U.S. Government and world governments and peoples.

7. With this decade of the Rosary and Chaplet of Mercy I surround all of us with the Light of Christ and on their behalf I put on God’s armor to resist the devil’s tactics. I stand my ground with the Truth buckled around, clothed with righteousness as a breastplate. I carry the shield of Faith to put out the burning arrows of the evil one. I accept salvation from our God Jesus as our helmet and receive the Word of God from the Spirit to use as a sword. (Ephesians 6)

8. In the Name of Jesus with this decade and Chaplet of Mercy, I reject the seductive lure of the evil in all its forms and refuse to let sin have dominion over all of us.

9. Heavenly Father, I ask for Your forgiveness for ourselves, relatives, ancestors, the Roman Catholic Church and the United States enemies for having called upon the powers that set us up in opposition to Jesus Christ. In His Name, I break any curses that may have come or are coming against us and stop the transmission of those curses. Loving Father, let the cleaning waters of Baptism flow back through the past generations to purify our lives of all evil contamination.

10. With this decade of the Rosary and of the Chaplet of Mercy I surrender to You Holy Trinity our health, resources, skills, occupation(s), relationships, time management, successes and failures. I surrender to You our emotions, fears, insecurities, sexuality and our entire lives, past, present and future. Come Holy Spirit and cover us with the fire of Your love. Surface out of our inner beings and fill us anew with Your Gifts.

11. To our heavenly Mother I say: “Majestic Queen of Heaven and Mistress of the Angels, you received from God the power and command to crush the head of Satan. Therefore, I humbly beg of you, dear Mother, to send forth the Legions of Heaven that UNDER YOUR COMMAND they may seek out all evil spirits around us, in our hearts and minds, inside our Roman Catholic Church, in the media and everywhere else. ENGAGE THEM IN BATTLE, CURB THEIR PRIDE AND HURL THEM INTO THE PIT OF HELL.

12. To our Angels I say, “Holy Angels and Archangels, most especially St. Michael, defend us in battle; be our protection against the wickedness and snares of the devil; may God rebuke him, we humbly pray, and do thou, O Princes of the heavenly host, by the power of God, cast into hell Satan and all evil spirits who wander through the world seeking the ruin of souls.”

13. With this decade of the Rosary and Chaplet of Mercy I beg You Lord to stop all evil forces and spare the lives of all unborn babies who are in danger of being aborted today, and to stop tempting their mothers to terminate their lives!

14. On behalf of all mentioned above with this decade of the Rosary and Chaplet of Mercy I renounce Satan and his pomp. In the Name of Jesus I command all evil spirits to leave all of us and encounter Jesus in the Eucharist with a new fervor and in our neighbor with a new awareness, in order to fulfill Jesus’ command to take Him to the ends of the earth. Spirit of Jesus fall afresh on us. Melt us, fill us, mold us, heal us, use us and seal us from all evil. Spirit of the living God, fall afresh on us for the work of proclaiming God’s mercy, our beacon for the end times.

15. With this decade of the Rosary and Chaplet of Mercy, I ask You, Holy Trinity for Satan to be ousted from the 2018 elections of the Senate and House of Representatives in order to elect men and women committed to save the life of the unborn and to defend Religious Liberty.

16. With St. Ignatius of Loyola I pray: “Take Lord and receive all our liberty, our memory, our understanding and our entire will, all that we have and possess. You have given all to us. To You, O Lord, we return it. All is Yours. Dispose of it wholly according to Your will. Give us Your love and Your grace, for this is sufficient to us.”

So far, if I pray for my God given family and my family composed of all created by God in His image, it seems is the only thing we needNot so, not so! This new Family Rosary with its fifth mystery needs to come from a heart full of love for God and neighbor.  I know for a fact that if I pray beautiful Rosaries but continue ignoring the will of God in my life of living an ongoing conversion, well, the results of my prayer cannot bring the same blessings needed against Satan. I do not have to be perfect but certainly dedicated to give glory to God by doing His will as a sign of my love for Him and loving my neighbor in its best  way, praying out of love for their salvation and as I offer my crosses for them.

We know of St. Therese of Lisieux, my sister since I was a baby as my grandmother used to tell me, that she wrote of the “little way.” Last month I wrote the number of things that can help us convert on a daily basis. This time I will share the “little way” that was given to me in 2006 and which I did share with you some years ago. To this list, I will add some of the ideas of St. John of the Cross. If I follow these ideas, the fifth mystery of the Family Rosary and Chaplet of Mercy will certainly STOP SATANSo, the work will complete a major conversion in my life, but this time also aiming at the action of the evil one, who will be around me day and night, as he was around Jesus. I need to be constantly aware that he will try his best to tempt me… Therefore, I need to be under the guidance of the Holy Spirit to help me with His Gifts to discern his presence and temptations and to pray on a daily basis for all evil demise…

THE LITTLE WAY as received in 2006 (Toledo, OH)

1. FAITH: never to doubt in His merciful love for me. This means not to be terrified with circumstances and potential difficult and painful events.

2. HOPE: To know beyond any doubt that with God all is possible.

3. LOVE: To love God (His will) and my neighbor as Jesus did!

4. TOTAL ACCEPTANCE and ABANDONMENT at each present moment to all suffering and crosses, joy and delights out of love of God, in order to best conform to His will.

5. REPENTANCE with a firm purpose of amendment for any time that I break these previous commandments and as I confess it to a priest for Jesus’ pardon.

6. KNOWLEDGE of what my life will consist of:

1) I shall go by the way I enjoy not.

2) I shall go by the way I know not

3) I shall go by the way I possess not

4) I shall go by the way I will pray much

5) I shall go by the way that I suffer much

6) I shall go by the way that I love much

7) I shall go by the way that I forgive much

8) I shall go by the way that I ignore and forget much (received wrongdoings)

9) I shall go by the way of the Cross.

As noted above, it was on October 30 that I received this list of needs to pray for with the fifth decades of the Family Rosary and Chaplet of Mercy. It was 3 days later that the exorcist priest came to answer some questions in EWTN on the subject of Satan.

Father Vincent Lampert (? spelling) from the Archdiocese of Indianapolis was asked why demonic activity is in the rise nowadays. He said that because more people are willing to play the devil’s game. It is not because there is more awareness of his work among us… Wow… This is the reason why the Lord insisted in many ways to lead me to bring this topic to the Internet. When asked what an exorcism consisted of, he said among other things that it has to be conducted in a sacred place but prayer is the basis of this rite to bring the possessed person to a relationship with God.. The exorcist also needs to find out which was the entry point of Satan in the life of the person. It could be by invitation by placing the eyes in the occult or by a parent dedication of the child to Satan! It has been found that those who are possessed but never knew Christ are easier to be freed. Yet, in those that are apostates, the devil has more power over them! Right now, 70% of the millennia’s have no religious affiliation.

Moments later after I left Face book, I suddenly put together parts of my life that I had never paid attention to… When I was 2 years old, and again at the time that St. Therese’s picture descended upon me from the wall and my maternal grandmother who WAS PRAYING THE ROSARY as always at 4:30 AM, while sitting against the headboard of her bed, she got out of the bed and ran to console me since she thought I would be awaken by the picture falling on me and probably would start to cry. When she got next to me, the picture moved back to the wall!!! She would repeat this story to me from time to time… Of course, my  grandma belonged to the spiritual family of St. Teresa of Avila and other Carmelites like St. Therese.

About this time in my life, my household met a new neighbor by the name of Isabel. She turned out to be a medium and had sessions in her house where she would allow spirits to talk to others about their lives through her. As I grew up and we moved from the neighborhood, my family continued a close relationship with Isabel. I remember visiting her when I had come to Costa Rica from Panama to do my first year of internship as I waited to process my paperwork at the American Embassy to obtain my green card to come to do my residency in cardiology in the U.S. JUST IMAGINE HOW CLOSE I WAS FROM SATANIC FORCES through our dear Isabel. I had a friendship through my family with the occult in the time that at 61/2 years of age I would encounter Jesus in the Eucharist, even before my First Holy Communion. Our Lady and the Rosary through my grandmother plus the protection of St. Therese were the saving elements that kept Satan away from me during my infancy!

And of course, as I chose to live in a convent for my first grade, I basically had been sent there to be under the saving power of Jesus so that nothing would harm me, since my grandma and mother believed in the good…  things that Isabel (whom we called Chabelita-nickname for those named Isabel) was bringing to us!!! Well, this was good news for me… Yes, Jesus in the Eucharist, the Rosary with my Mother’s intercession and that of a saintly Carmelite at the Throne of Mercy were like a continuous exorcism to stop Satan to do me any harm. The program with the exorcist’s interview was so important to me… And yes, I will be on the alert like never before regarding the evil powerful ominous attacks. I had never been aware that I had been protected by Jesus and Mom and a Saint from Satan to enter my life!

There is something else that also came to me: since I pray a daily Rosary for my four sons, I HAVE KEPT THE DEVIL AWAY without truly knowing it… For example, these four men and wives all love each other. Among them there are no divisions, lies, accusations, envy and the like. On the contrary, now at the end of my earthly life, my second and fourth sons are going to live close in Birmingham, AL. My first son is doing his best to move around next June from Los Angeles to Omaha, NE where my third son and family live. This proves to anyone that the power of the Rosary to produce peace, unity and love among families is true.

I want to close with this message from our previous Pope Benedict XVI in his homily of the Mass of Epiphany – January 6, 2006

“The Disciples of Christ must realize this: taught by Him to live in the style of the Beatitudes, they must attract through their witness of love all men to God. So, let your life shine before all men so they may see your good and give glory to your Father in Heaven… But how can this come to pass? By the absolute and total availability to the will of God. Mary teaches us to be epiphanies of the Lord in the openness of our hearts to the strength of grace and in the faithful adhesion to the Word of her Son.”

Thank you so much for your prayers to put together this very difficult subject and for the new understanding received on all evil forces. In thanksgiving to my Lord, the Holy Trinity and for His glory, I publicly PROMISE to keep praying to the end of my life, the Family Rosary and the Chaplet of Mercy with the fifth decade offered with the previous intentions, as I also offer all my sufferings to inactivate Satan’s actions over the human race. I solemnly invite you to check with the Holy Spirit to see if you too are called to do the same.

May you have a very blessed Thanksgiving celebration.



Several topics in the midst of these violent last weeks!

October 9, 2017


On this day of Friday, October 6, I am starting to write this blog. I am also super late in posting it and there are several reasons for it; I tried to have His permission to write a short note telling you that I would post it on October 15, a great day for me since it is the feast of St. Teresa of Avila, the one whom I knew very well since I was a very small child. However, the Lord did not agree and wants me to proceed and post it a few days earlier.

Of course, the amount of material that I have is huge and right now I have no idea in what way to share all that knowledge. Of course, I keep calling the Holy Spirit to take over.

The amount of horrible events that have touched our hearts, whether in the U.S. or in Latin America, are clearly a call for us to wake up…!!! Something is the matter and it is not the end because Jesus was clear in saying that when earthquakes and other major destructive violent events would come, it would just be the beginning of the end!!! IN MY CASE, I AM SUPER SURE THAT I HAVE TO WORK IN GETTING TO UNDERSTAND WHAT IS JESUS TRYING TO TELL ME, and what to do in the mean time. So, this blog will contain ideas about what I should be doing like seeking a further daily conversion. It is also key for me to pray for all those who are suffering these horrible events, and thus fulfilling much better my love for neighbor!

However, towards the end of September, I finally received very good ideas as to what should be my work and prayer in the middle of this chaos. I then understood the importance of writing this particular blog!  I ended up thanking God for His great help to understand my work to do, especially when in recent times our Catholic Church is showing signs of division.

My move to Alabama is still in the process of being arranged and all depends upon when our future home gets finished in Hoover. By any means, it is not an expensive home at all. However, it will be a “smart home,” which means an energy efficient building that will show up even in all appliances! You may know what it means but just in case, I will explain it.

This article on “smart homes” for this area in Alabama was updated on Aug. 23, 2017

Sales are going strong and construction has started in the new Reynolds Landing “smart neighborhood” in Ross Bridge. The neighborhood is part of a collaborative research and demonstration project with Alabama Power and its parent, Southern Company. The Reynolds Landing neighborhood will feature its own power system that includes a 5-acre solar panel field in addition to a connection to the traditional electric grid.

Alabama Power, Southern Company and Oak Ridge National Laboratory will conduct research on the neighborhood’s energy usage over two years and collect performance data on an array of emerging energy-efficient appliances and “smart home” features being put in all of the Reynolds Landing houses.

One of the biggest selling points has been a group of energy-efficient construction features, including thicker walls with more insulation, triple-pane windows and a radiant barrier roof that reflects radiant heat instead of absorbing it, reducing cooling costs. All of the houses in Reynolds Landing will feature Carrier Infinity heat pumps that operate longer at steadier, lower capacities to increase energy efficiency, quiet operation and humidity control. They’ll also have a Rheem hybrid electric water heater that claims to deliver hot water faster than most standard electric water heaters.

The houses will be equipped with “smart home” technology that allows homeowners to control multiple features while away from home, including locks on the house, garage doors, a security system with cameras, lights, refrigerator interior cameras, the air conditioning and heating system and the stove. The HD camera security system includes infrared night vision and wide-angle lenses, and each house will have voice-controlled Amazon Echo Dot technology that allows users to control locks, lights and more with voice commands, according to marketing literature. A Google mesh Wi-Fi system will allow for a strong internet connection in every room.

Houses in Reynolds Landing will also be equipped with the latest Samsung appliances, such as a refrigerator that allows people to control the temperature in specific compartments with the push of a button; a microwave with a grilling element that allows food to be toasted, crisped and browned; a clothes washer that washes a full load within 36 minutes; and a dryer that steams wrinkles, detects problems and reminds the user about vent cleanings. They have a doorbell camera that lets seeing who is at the door, whether at home or away. (END OF ARTICLE)

It is interesting that the October 31-Nov.1 date will be the 9th anniversary of writing blogs… This time will also mark a big anniversary of 9.5 years of living in this so toxic area and how my health has been negatively destroyed. Yet, without being here I would have never been able to find out how my memory loss is a consequence of toxicity in general, this because I noticed the loss getting worse in a short time. This will of God for me to come precisely to this area provided in 2009 the knowledge to end up with the miracle of reversing the memory loss in two languages. In fact, right now I am losing my memory especially in English, but I have not been able to detoxify myself because by now I am allergic to the products I used in then. It will be one more proof for the scientific world that yes, probably ALL dementia is due to toxicity including Alzheimer’s, which is just about 15% of the dementia cases. In the case of Alzheimer’s cases, patients have the genetics that help this memory loss to appear. I do not have those genes.

I want to add how God led me to find out about toxicity and memory loss. I have shared this information in years past, but I want to emphasize how He programs our lives if we follow Him…  When I sought my residency and got it in Internal Medicine in Michigan after my year of internship, I did because I wanted to become a cardiologist since medical school… Yet, one day I woke up with the firm idea that I had to become an anesthesiologist… I did not like the change because in general I hated operating rooms… and yet, I obeyed this heavy load of looking for a residency in anesthesia, and having to turn down the one in internal medicine, which was very hard for me… I looked like a crazy irresponsible person…

Worse is that it was so late and close to July 1 (it was in the month of May), the starting date for all residencies that when I decided to look for a residency in anesthesiology I was certain that I could not find an opened spot. Yet, Sinai Hospital of Detroit, CREATED a residency for me if I accepted to do 3 years of anesthesia residency, the brand new idea that the American Society of Anesthesiology was bringing to this specialty, instead of the 2 years as before. OF COURSE, the Lord wanted me to deal with fluoride (in all anesthetic gases) in order to get to California in 2008 and finally understand what general anesthetics (gases) can do in our memories… I have been told and several times that I was created as an instrument to bring hope to all people with dementia…

There was an event that corroborates what God does in our lives. Very recently, just days ago, there was a program from the University of Steubenville discussing the extraordinary relationship between Pope JPII and President Ronald Reagan, which gave us the end of communism as we knew it and as Our Lady of Fatima had warned us about, now 100 years ago. I will mention the details later on this blog.  If we want examples of how our God has specific jobs for all of us, this is one…

THIS SCREAMS THE NEED FOR ALL OF US TO DO HIS WILL AT ALL COST… In my case, yes, I was guided without knowing it to find out that toxicity is the mother of many health issues. In fact, one week ago, it was published that a major university is now asserting that obesity and memory loss go together. Well, not so… Obesity (some cases) and memory loss are the kids of “mother” toxicity.

Of course, I have many others things that I have discovered, especially suffering depression with a certain food, and all together required me to become a doctor and how He provided such education when I had not the money to do it!!!! HIS MERCY was tremendous and I repeat this story just to make sure that everyone who reads it will be sure that WE ALL ARE CREATED WITH SOME WORK TO BE DONE FOR THE KINGDOM… and that our Lord directs our lives to make it possible… Just imagine the number of elders that could come out of nursing homes… when they recuperate their memory and how much money would not be wasted… Or the number of people that may overcome some form of depressions when they cease to eat the wrong food… GOD IS SOO GOOD… and His mercy and love for us is out of this world… It amazes me that without this huge cross lived in California I would NEVER HAD FIGURED OUT THAT MEMORY LOSS IS RELATED TO TOXICITY, since I lost my memory much faster after I arrived on July 8, 2008…

I must confess that I have felt sad and concerned about so many recent disasters… It is not the end of the world because Jesus told His apostles that these particular events were the beginning of the end! But if this is the beginning of the end, am I ready to go home feeling that I have accomplished all that I was created for? It hurts me to see that I am most likely not ready and that I could do more…

My health continues to be a disaster regarding pain in my legs when I eat whatever food since I seem to be allergic to everything, some foods worse than others. Suffering seems to be a grace from God for me to offer for the salvation of all souls… Our Lady of Fatima urged the children to accept suffering for such purpose. As you can see, I have many concerns in these last years of my life, although the Lord is sooo merciful and funny, that He has decided to take me to Alabama before I go home and live in a “smart” home… Wow!

Sharing’s according to the calendar sequence

Tuesday, September 5

By chance, I found a program in EWTN/Spanish on Our Lady of the Valley in Catamarca, in North West Argentina. This is a mountainous region with several valleys including the Valley of Catamarca. In 1620 an Indian shepherd found within a tiny niche in a rocky section, a small (42 cm) rock like figure of a dark woman. He took it to the administrator of the Valley and this one took her home. She disappeared and she was found in the niche. This happened several times. Eventually they discerned that she was the Mother of Jesus trying to denote that she was the mother of all, Spaniards and aborigines by being dark. In time they made a chapel and the local women made a blue dress with a white tunic to dress her with!

They narrated several huge miracles that she was instrumental as intercessor. She healed a wound in the back of a person that was infected as deep as the spinal column. A very sickly baby was healed within 6 hours that his father took him to visit her. They gave many other stories of healings. Later you will find what she has done for me.

Wednesday, September 6

On this day we knew that the hurricane Irma, category 5, was scheduled to pass over Puerto Rico. I went out to a supermarket here in Martinez and north of my home, although I was supposed to visit Target, south of my home. I had prayed for the Holy Spirit to direct me. Because of my health and not having eaten since the previous morning, I bought some things in the regular supermarket that normally I buy at Target, even that they were slightly more expensive. After spending $219, I asked for help to carry the items to my car and the girl who came to do it, was looking kind of sad. I gave her my gifts of what I know on memory and depression, and sure enough, she suffers from depressions… I told her that this was a schedule appointment guided by Jesus and by the end of the conversation, she was so happy… I asked her to take Ensure which contains carrageenan and see if it would give her depression and if so, she had similar genetics to mine. Vanessa was simply fascinated.

When I left, I asked the Lord if it had been from my prayers of Our Lady of the Valley since I was still asking Him to tell me why I had ended up watching this program, in case it would be for me and my health problems and guiding me to ask for her intercession…

That same afternoon, I turned on EWTN left in the Spanish side and the priest Father Pedro Núñez was reading some emails regarding his program  just received and one of them gave me much pain by the way of talking about Pope Francis, never calling him by this name but only as Bergoglio… The email was also against Fr. Pedro for discussing Amoris Laetitia and siding with the Pope. Fr. Pedro never became angry and on the contrary, only told this man that if he was soo upset, he should have gone to his Bishop or to the Vatican to treat this subject matter, instead to going to the Internet to refer to the Pope as the anti Pope.

Immediately I thought of Our Lady of the Valley (Nuestra Señora del Valle) and said, “Mother of the Valley, I want to dedicate my present time to pray for the Church, for Pope Francis and for all who are attacking him with reason or not and for the Church not to be divided. My suffering I offer it for all who attack the Pope via Internet, television and the like.” I offered a Rosary to Our Lady of the Valley for this situation.

Thursday, September 7

Hurricane Irma was passing over the Caribbean islands as a category 5.

An 8.2 earthquake happened in the South of Mexico.

Friday, September 8th.

Irma arrived in Florida. 5 million people were evacuated.

This was the feast of Our Lady of Vailankanni in India.

I found out that the following Wednesday, my youngest granddaughter who lives in Alabama was to have surgery to repair a small hole in her heart. It could just be fixed by the placement of a catheter or be more invasive with surgery.

Saturday, September 9

I heard the LIVE Mass on this day of the Feast of St. Peter Claver, S.J., Spanish priest who came to Colombia to receive thousands of slaves from Africa and serve them with evangelization. He baptized over 300,000. I kept switching to the weather channel to see Irma’s status. Suddenly when I went back to EWTN, it was at the moment of the Consecration and I started crying and told Him how much I loved Him and asked for His help for my pain even that I had had nothing to eat for the last 21 hours.

Tuesday, September 12

I spent most of the day praying for my granddaughter and asked for the intercession of Our Lady of the Valley…!

Wednesday, September 13 – Day of the fifth apparition of Our Lady in Fatima!

My granddaughter only needed the catheter and all went well. She was discharged the following day! I suddenly remembered of my prayers from the day before… to Our Lady of the Valley! This Mother of God and mine is simply a dream!

Thursday, September 14

At 1:45 PM and after the 12:30 PM Rosary, I felt that my Mother wanted to talk. When I feel this way, she always advices to call the Holy Spirit and so I did. I was given page 510 in the Bible. It was Psalm 4 and verse 6 called my attention. It said, “OFFER FITTING SACRIFICE AND TRUST IN THE LORD.”  I liked it and told my Mom that I would try to do so…

Friday, September 15 – Feast of Our Lady of Sorrows

Fr. John Paul from EWTN preached an awesome homily about Our Lady!

Saturday, September 16

As always, Satan bugs many of us and frequently… On this day, around 10 AM and out of the blue, the water was gone for the entire house. I called my son at his job. He called the owner of this house. The reason: a nearby neighbor saw some water coming out of our house (although I live in a court… and it was no water from our side) and decided to turn off the water without knocking at our door to ask if we wanted this to be done. This was found out by late afternoon. The water flow came back around 1 PM and done by the landlord. We wanted to know the why and turned out to be the stupid decision of someone around us. I could not wash my hands or any dishes or flush the toilet. I now wonder if the Lord allowed this to be done just to show me how important plain water is for all of us and from now on, to remember to thank Him for this precious gift! I felt so sorry for never paying attention to all the gifts I am surrounded with in this beautiful country!

At 3 PM I sat to pray but felt bad. My Ma asked, “Why do you feel down?”

I said, “You are right. There is no reason.” She responded, “Always remember that when you try your best to do the will of the Father, nothing else is needed!” She referred to the fact that during the time of not having water, I did say, “Thy will be done.”  She was happy about it!

Sunday, September 17

I saw a program in EWTN/Spanish about the assassination on March 24, 1980 of Bishop Oscar Romero from El Salvador. The stories prior to his death were horrible. Violence has been a terrible factor in Central America, minus in Costa Rica… because we do not even have an army. We only have a police force to secure the general peace in the country and give traffic tickets. Politian’s tried to create one in the late 1930’s to the late 1940’s, but a Costa Rican born from Spaniard parents, Jose Figueres Ferrer, became the President and abolished whatever they had formed as an army… Why? Only God would have planned it and we all knew about it, even us kids at the time. To this date, there is no army in the government and Costa Rica is known as the Switzerland of the Americas!

Monday, September 18

During the 12:30 PM Rosary, my Mother came and explained that I must ignore all problems of any kind. She added that what God wants is perfect and therefore I must faithfully accept all problems and needs that I have to be met like getting rid of many papers and junk accumulated through the years as well as my problems with my bladder that needs to be emptied quite often, due to the mistake done by the urologist in the surgery of my bladder in 2015. She added that if I take such attitude, all things will be solved as if by magic. Yet, she said, “Do not seek perfection in order to obtain a solution to all needs. Do it out of love for God and to give Him glory. That is true love for Him when you do things just to please Him and never to obtain any benefits but only those willed by Him.”

Tuesday, September 19 – Wednesday, September 20

32 years after a major earthquake in Mexico, another came to destroy many areas, including part of the City of Mexico, and this one after a few days of the first one (8.2 Richter scale) in the south of this country. In Mexico City, many children from a private school were killed! Because I have 4 Hispanic channels, I had a much extensive stories than through the English press. Mexico City has 35 million of inhabitants and 2,200 schools and on this occasion 6+ million were affected as many buildings simply collapsed. Of course, one more disaster touched my heart even deeper  because the destruction of human life could mean the loss of the salvation of some souls!

A hurricane named MARIA (unfortunately) was in route and eventually destroyed the entire island of Puerto Rico.  Wow! There is no doubt that God is trying to say something or to remind us of something! Ouch! I would have never, ever, thought that this entire well known island could be gone in 24 hours!

Saturday, September 23

I spent some time watching the life of St. Pio of Pietrelcina, better known as Padre Pio. I saw Satan bugging him since he was a young child appearing as a dog which wanted to attack him. He was persecuted by many, including by his own Bishop. I became sad since my entire life I have suffered so many persecutions and in hindsight they scare me more that they did when they happened. Again, what has been the reason for my Lord to allow it?

Monday, September 25

I kept watching here and there, stories of people in Mexico City who had lost family members. A mother had lost 2 grade schools children. At the same time, the US and North Korea continue to bring many questions? Why people like the president of the Korean country hates us so much? I was sure about Satan being involved in all of this.

At 2:30 PM, my Mother came and asked, “Why do you think about this international event of hatred?” I had no idea what to say. She then continued giving me some wise words.

Our Lady: “As you see the many disasters with hurricanes and earthquakes, always remember that your present sufferings are nothing compared to what many of your brothers and sisters are going through! Therefore, often give thanks to God for these blessings and present crosses, because they are much smaller compared to the ones that your brothers and sisters are going through! Often accelerate your disposition to say ‘yes’ to all that God permits or allows in your life. Think that the yes to all crosses, will give you the purification necessary for the evangelization of many. AT NO TIME be afraid of your difficulties. Daily pray many Rosaries so that you can bring your ‘yes’ to God’s will to a new pinnacle of perfection, showing Him in this way that you love and trust Him

“Thanksgiving for what it is with a decisive yes to what is happening in your life, will placate any fear. Acceptance of your crosses is the piece that will mark you as a true disciple of my Son. Daily work in this area of your spiritual life is extremely important. At all times, call the Holy Spirit within to take over your actions and feelings and to provide guide in this valley of tears. I’ll be with you always, my dear daughter. Am I not here who are your mother? Remember to offer all difficulties for the salvation of souls and with a intense desire to see them saved but always out love for them. If you cannot passionately love them, ask my Son for this grace and He will give it to you. Remember that you belong to the Body of Christ and act as such.

“Here is a small prayer that you should repeat often, ‘Here I am Lord. I come to do Your will. Give me the grace Father, in the Name of Jesus to love my brothers and sisters as You love them and as I love myself. Here is Your servant and child wanting to become whatever You want for the building of the Body of Your Son on this earth.’ “

Only in hindsight, I can understand that my Mother was very repetitious as to how to handle my crosses since some would come to me and heavy ones, so that I would not despair and at the same make a good use of them with a big yes plus offering them for everybody involved in the disasters of this world.

Tuesday, September 26

My son who lives with me flew to Atlanta for a 2-3 day conference regarding his company’s matters. At the end, he got a car and drove to Birmingham in order to check the new home in progress. By the way, the new address is short and easy for me to remember. Of course, by now you know all about this “smart home.” Since we use here the Whole Food Market which specializes in selling foods that are organic, now the same chain will open one on October 18 in Hoover, some 15 minutes from this new home… God cannot be outsmarted…

On this Tuesday, I received an email from my fourth son in Alabama after being prodded by his wife to do so (this doctor is very humble) and told us that he is now the holder of the Hilda B. Anderson Endowed Chair in Nephrology which will help him with some salary support and other resources for research. Unfortunately, since I am an immigrant, I have no idea what holding a “chair” means… I still have to ask any of my sons to instruct me in the matter. I know it is something good and prestigious but why they call it a chair? I have no idea!

I heard these two short messages and believe they come from Padre Pio. I want to share them in case you have not heard about them because they are very good for our souls!

“Lack of charity wounds the pupil of the eye of God!”

“Sin is the violation of love.”

Sunday, October 1

On this day, a 64 year old man, gambler and well of millionaire, Stephen Paddock, from the 32nd floor of a famous hotel in Las Vegas, Nevada, killed 50+ people and injured some 500 more, who were meeting for an outdoors Country Music Concert (about 25,000 people). He used 19 different weapons to accomplish in 10 minutes this stunning level of carnage. Wow! One more disaster!

Monday, October 2

This tragic event added to the several ones of recent weeks, made me stop and think and pray and ask myself: “As a physician, when there is an illness, I was trained to make a diagnosis. I had to determine what is causing these symptoms that bring a patient to us? I then without even thinking much about it, I wrote the following questions as possible sources for so much violence:

1. As a Christian society (for many of us in the United States), are we TRULY KEEPING THE COMMANDMENTS? Do WE LOVE ABOVE ALL THINGS? I moved this question to myself and wrote à If I keep the commandments, I cannot resent, judge others, except call my brothers and sisters to face their sins and pray for them but OUT OF LOVE. These last words demonstrate that I am seriously in a process of conversion and if I do not love, I must ask the Lord for the help necessary to love my brothers and sisters as He loves them AL and where they are at, not changed!

2. Am I saying ‘yes’ to the will of God second by second? This includes 1) not worrying about any problems around me! 2) It demands for me to pray for my own lack of self denial! 3) It demands a total trust that God’s mercy will lead me to a huge ‘yes’ to His will. 4) It demands to quench all fears and letting go through constant prayer and dedication to be a servant. 5) Also, my ONGOING conversion will let me recognize what destroys faith, hope and love.

3. What is to be in an ongoing conversion?

1) It means to pray at least ONE FULL HOUR/day, standing or sitting down (not driving or cooking, etc), and saying a Rosary and the Chaplet of Mercy atoning for my sins and those of the whole world.

2) It means to read the Holy Scripturse DAILY as allowed by my occupation(s) and as the Holy Spirit lead me to do, so to be opened to Him at all times.

3) It means to have a relationship with my Mother, Our Lady, through the Rosary and perhaps more than that, so that she can keep interceding at the Throne of Mercy for my holiness.

4). An ongoing conversion means to quit excessive periods of waste of time with television, internet, books, etc.

5). It means to always run to serve others BEFORE we serve ourselves like Our Lady did with her cousin Elizabeth and at the wedding at Cana when she requested Jesus to make wine.

6). It means to automatically and at every second of my life to embrace my crosses and its suffering and to NEVER RUN from them!

7). It means to NEVER WORRY regarding the guidance of the Church with her teachings, since our prayer in a state of conversion, whether perfect or not, will bring the POWER OF GOD to work on us to be faithful to them, since He divided the Red Sea and the Jordan River. God’s power also united a President and a Pope from different backgrounds, religions and countries in order to end the horror of communism.

For those who have not read the book, A POPE AND A PRESIDENT, written by Dr. Paul Kengor. President Ronald Reagan and St. John Paul II were shot 6 weeks apart: March 30, 1981 and May 13, 1981 respectively. The Pope received 4 pints of blood; the President 6 pints! Mr. Reagan’s father was not a believer.  His mother belonged to the “Disciples of Christ” and was on fire for the Lord. At the President’s funeral, the Ave Maria was sung even that the he and his brother were members of the Disciples of Christ and were baptized. His brother became Roman Catholic before Ronald’s death. Ronald Reagan was always considered an honorary Catholic!

The power of God united these two men and the question is: What would have happened if one of them had died? Well, we would be left without the miracle of their work on Communism… Not only that, St. John Paul II considered that it was Our Lady of Fatima who protected him from the bullet due to the date when it happened. Reagan knew about it because when invited to Portugal as a U.S. President, he spoke about the Fatima apparitions as a wonderful miracle… All in all, God’s Power created this two and protected them after becoming very famous as Pope and President. In fact, when Reagan lost the election of 1976 to President Jimmy Carter, this was also part of the plan and he said so years later. It happens that the Pope was not a Pope yet in 1976. He became one in 1978… Although Reagan ran again in 1980 and some of his relatives were against it due to his old age, he insisted in doing it. The rest is history…

Again, a person faithful to an ongoing conversion, will always show perfect TRUST IN THE POWER OF GOD, whether in the times of the Old Testament and before Jesus was born or in the XXI Century. JUST TO TRUST THIS TRUTH will make us grow with the gifts of the Holy Spirit.

8) An ongoing conversion on my part will never deny that “for God all things are possible” and that asking the Father in the Name of Jesus for whatever is the will of God will be given to me. In general, I must confront my lack of trust in Jesus and His Word.

9) The state of ongoing conversion in my soul will give back to God any troubling  infantile actions and transform me into a “holy child” in order to change me into a lamp that lights the lives of others. 

10) An ongoing conversion can transform me into a child of God that is trusting, loving and innocent so that the Holy Spirit can do something good for the Body of Christ.

11) An ongoing conversion will not allow me to be rebellious, fearful, proud and resentful, trying to deal with spiritual matters as the world does and not as God does, plus never recognizing the evil one working around me.


The rest is up to God since He can do all things.

On this day of Monday, October 2, at the end of the day I started having a powerful headache.

Tuesday, October 3

I woke up with blood pressures that were extremely high and the head ache was probably the cause of these high blood pressures… No treatment for the blood pressure worked at all. Again, I kept asking why I was having this continuous horrible headache. By the afternoon, I even suspected that I probably had to go to a hospital. My personal physician could not do much from her office… I needed studies to see if I was bleeding in my brain. I called my son and told him that this was the scenario. He came back rather early to see what to do next.

It was 6:30 PM when while saying the Holy Rosary with EWTN and asking for help to decide if I should go to the emergency room, I got an answer from my Mother who reminded me of the origin of these headaches in times past… Of course, since my memory is starting to get lost again due the constant inhalation of petroleum toxics (found even in the floor of my bathroom when I clean it and get a black product in the cleaning wipe), I had forgotten that in 1992, my God and my ALL had done a miracle. We were in Solon, Ohio (Cleveland suburb) as we came out of South Bend and sent by God through a message received in Houston, TX (you know the story repeated in a recent blog). I had two days with a headache that even moved my husband to go to our hospital and get some Demerol (powerful narcotic) to help me. It did not. Then, the Lord said that this pain was due to a virus in my meninges and to treat it with Zovirax, which quiets the virus, although it never disappears and only reactivates from time to time. Of course, I knew that I was carrying the herpes simplex or zoster virus. I never would have imagined that it had migrated to my head and caused a headache. In fact, it has been only in recent years that I figured out that vitamin B12 causes the virus to reactivate!

My husband went to a pharmacy and wrote a prescription for Zovirax and yes, in 24 hours I had no headache. Ever since, yes, I have had headaches every few months and treat it with Zovirax and they go away. Nothing else helps it. In 2017, because I suffered a moment with dementia regarding this fact, I took late the Zovirax since I always keep it around for this same reason. This time it took almost 3 days for the headache to go away… The blog was put aside since my brain was so sickly. In the midst of this suffering and TERRIBLY AFRAID OF DAMAGING MY BRAIN WITH THESE SO HIGH BLOOD PRESSURES THAT COULD BREAK AN ARTERY AND END UP WITH A STROKE, I told my Lord that I wished I did not get paralyzed in whatever side of my body, but if this was His holy will, that I would accept. I could not say yes without fear. I had fear that His will was such… in the midst of a move and I knowing all along what was wrong with me.

A day or so later, I realized that this extreme suffering, emotional and physical, had a meaning. And of course, this knowledge will be part of the book since NO ONE HAS EVER WRITTEN ABOUT IT… I suspect that the Lord wanted to underline this fact so that I do not forget to add the extra information. It is already part of the book but this event becomes a scientific proof that it is true… Yet, this extreme suffering was ALSO needed for me to understand what follows through an act of purification of my mind. Soon after, I understood something important in spiritual terms.

Friday, October 6

I had no headache and was certain that my understanding of what a conversion is all about came to help me comprehend an important issue, since I had been very conflicted with recent programs I had seen regarding the feud in our Catholic Church and related to Amoris Laetitia, the Papal document that even provoked Fr. Pedro Núñez to be insulted and our Pope to be convicted of wrongdoing. During the days of the headache and after, I RECEIVED A CLEAR IDEA OF WHAT COULD BE GOING ON… Again, I am not a theologian; I am not a saint either, but please note again how God had sent me to review what it is to live in an ongoing conversion so that I could better understand what I learned!!!

Monday, October 9

A. On this day and starting late October 8th, we have had many fires (affecting 70,000 acres) in the North of California but close to me. Napa (Santa Rosa), Lake, Sonoma and other nearby counties and cities have seen many homes destroyed. Thousands have been moved to shelters where they can stay at least for now. The fires have come mainly because the environment, the land is super dry and the winds are a power as well. Some small hospitals have been emptied. 

B. It has been three days where I have been praying and asking others to pray for me… I hope that some of you, readers of this blog, have also prayed for me…I need to speak in clear terms and yet, NEVER TO OFFEND ANY OF YOU… I do not want to offend you and actually love you for your courage to bring this subject of Amoris Laetitia to the airways. If you had not done so, I would have never received an explanation that has made me grow spiritually.

I must confess that when I heard the discussion among very intelligent religious people about the Pope being wrong for what he wrote and for not answering the four Cardinals that asked for an explanation, and worse now having the laity get involved on questioning the Holy Father, I FELT ANGER… Again, not for what was said but by the way it was said. For example:

1. I noted anger in their explanation of the error of Pope Francis, not only of the writing but of not answering why he did so…

2. I noted impatience for not having stat answers

3. I noted intolerance

4. I noted resentment

5. I noted some sort of pride because the New Testament is clear about divorce and re-marriage according to Jesus’ Words that when questioned why He thought so when Moses had allowed it, He answered that Moses proceeded on those terms simply because of the “hardness of their hearts.” In other words, it basically assured us that they were right and the Pope is wrong and it is up to us to correct him in matters as important as this one that can send the faithful to commit a mortal sin and be permitted to receive Holy Communion.

HERE COMES MY UNDERSTANDING of this topic that came at the end of severe suffering (headaches and possibility of a stroke). During the prayer of a Rosary, I UNDERSTOOD that Moses was in the Old Testament an equivalent of what the Papacy is all about since Jesus established it through our first Pope Peter. Could it be that Our Lord wants us to change the rules just because of the HARDNESS OF OUR HEARTS…Jesus did not condemn Moses per se. He condemned the Israelites at large. Are we suffering hardness in our hearts? You bet! The huge amount of violent events whether from nature or human made CAN SPEAK a lot about what God is allowing in 2017… We are at the peak of a violent and despicable immorality and persecution of Christians plus the DESTRUCTION OF MILLIONS OF BABIES IN THE WOMB…

On top of this, we so called faithful Christians, we allow the Eucharist to be received without any particular respect and KNOWLEDGE of the true presence of Our Lord Jesus in the consecrated Host. I say it because I was given this gift as a child and know for a fact, that upon placing Him in my mouth, I tremble, I smile, I love and I tell Him so…I could not live without Him. In fact, because in the month of September I was absent from Mass for three Sunday’s in a row and of course, unable to attend daily Masses, I have felt sooo sad… I need Him like I need water and the air in my lungs. I often cry in watched LIVE Masses at the time of the Consecration and I tell Him how much I am in love in Him. I always send Him a kiss! At times, I repent for my not being the best servant and always beg Him to give me the grace to say Yes to His will.

I doubt very much that this obvious indifference is going on in the soul of many faithful lay Catholics out of their fault. Our own Pastors, some and not ALL, seem to go through the Consecration as a well rehearsed event. Is it a judgment? Of course it is but I can tell by their faces!!! Other Priests are extraordinary witnesses of the moment when He comes to the altar to love us more and more. Yet, the Eucharist is given to everyone if they want it, without a simple reminder before the Communion, that receiving Him without the state of grace is a major sin… They are doing what they accuse the Pope to be doing!  In this matter, WE ALL NEED A CONVERSION AND NOW…

Well, but there is something else…Anyone that with reason or not, with the Truth or not, judges someone else while their lives are not in a state of ongoing conversion, he/she MAY BE causing division!!! Yes, the Truth can produce division but not for long… God will come and fix it

But there is still one more thing… People that accuse someone else about what seems to be an error in faith matters should never do it before they pray to love their so called enemy and un-doer of the Truth of Christ. This is the reason: we cannot use worldly or human methods to fix what seems to be wrong in spiritual matters… We need to use MERCIFULMETHODS and that is to do it from a sincere love felt for our fellow sinner.

Nowadays, I see so many reading spiritual books and watching multiple great religious programs, yet turning around to try to do it by themselves… IT DOES NOT WORK! There are tons of books on how to KNOW THE WILL OF GOD. Yet, to know the will of God only needs for us to submit to His will second by second. He will take over and guide us since we open the door to the Holy Ghost by our self denial and picking up our crosses and the rest is history. We have to be true disciples and FULL OF THE HOLY SPIRIT to be guided as to what to do according to the will of God for each one of us… If I need to read a book, I will be called to do so and it requires my state of ongoing conversion, when the Holy Spirit is truly running my life. This is the most perfect method to LEARN (not from books and trying to do it ourselves) as to how to CHANGE THE ENTIRE WORLD, and I mean the entire world….

We can bring PEACE TO THE WORLD, as long as we let Our Lord guide us in all He wants from each one of us… O yeah… Reagan and the Pope were used splendidly. The Red Sea and the Jordan River were parted like nothing… Why is it that we cannot bring peace to this world? Because we act and use THE METHODS OF THE WORLD THAT COME FROM OUR BRAINS… If we as Catholics do His will second by second and pray for the Papacy to be only what the Holy Spirit wants, we do not need to speak and divide with accusations… And how to be so faithful to His will? It is a piece of cake… We simply say ‘YES’  to God’s will like Jesus and Our Lady did from the bottom of our hearts; when not able to do so, we ask the Father in the Name of Jesus to give us His mercy with the grace to say that kind of yes… and second by second. IT IS NOT COSTLY and it is the TRUTH… Mother and Son came to our world to teach us the Way, the Truth and the Life…

I must confess that I have had to some extent some fear of not being able to write what it is above…I have prayed tons and I know some of you have done so for me… and now I feel a total peace to have shared what  I have finally understood, that we are the kids of our Dad in heaven and that we are full of power when we live according to His designs and use His son and our Mother to witness to us how to do it. The rest is up to the Holy Trinity. I also must confess that I have zero resentment for those who have come to question the wisdom of the Papacy with faces that do not show me love for our Pope as the grace of God in their lives. Yes, I went through a period of resentment and realized that Satan was tempting me so that my prayer for this situation and even to write this blog, would not be heard by my Dad. I now can say that I love them despite the resentment felt in them and thank my Lord for He has given me a list of the things I need to have in mind for my ongoing conversion, of course, not to try them on my own, but always under a big yes to His will for me.

Please forgive me if I have offended you with this blog. I am not taking sides with our Holy Father… I only felt that the accusations seemed to come from individuals that were not showing love of neighbor, and worse, resenting what is going on. I could not trust such attitude as coming from Jesus. What would have Jesus done in this case? It is simple: He could have questioned the Truth in the Papal document if it felt it was needed but done with immense charity…It would have called many of us to pray for this situation and for both sides. It would have called us to offer sacrifice for the souls of all involved and leave it in the hands of God… since for God all things are possible. Why should we fear so much what it is so easy for God to fix if we ask Him to with hearts who are in a state of constant conversion out of love for Him and for neighbor! Obviously, if I sound like a heretic, please pray for me!

“The Lord is my Shepherd and there is nothing I shall want!”

P.S.: Please overlook my many mistakes in the English language since my eyes are not happy with the writing of this long message.


I discovered the meaning of embracing my crosses and how to find spiritual healing for peace in the world!

September 3, 2017


“Will you offer yourselves to God to accept all the sufferings which He may send to you in reparation for the countless sins by which He is offended and in supplication for the conversion of sinners?” asked our Mother in Fatima to the three young shepherds…One hundred years later and on this month of August, I have been instructed on how to personally best fulfill this request. My crosses have increased and I have been instructed as to how most perfectly accept them. Yet, with great surprise and towards the end of the month, I was surprised to understand what truly means to embrace my crosses… This would be the main topic for this blog. I am definitely super fascinated with this new teaching for me…

I will add some other topics of issues I did not know in detail… It all came via television. In the Hispanic TV outlet Univision, Joseph of Egypt mentioned last month, ended and left me so touched… It has been followed by “The Promised Land” with a central figure being displayed with great detail, that is, Joshua. How beautiful it is to have one hour of Bible stories amongst soap operas in prime time… This combination produces a certain feast in the soul, since the Biblical story is real and soap operas are make-believe situations

I have mention that for many years Univision has presented similar religious stories. They are called, “La Rosa de Guadalupe or The Rose of Guadalupe.” In every story, Our Lady of Tepeyac forms part of the prayer of one of the actors and a white rose appears on top of a piece of furniture under the picture of Our Lady. The actor notices it but has no idea why and this according to the story. The end always brings a good blessing to one of the main characters and reaffirms the intercessory power of Our Lady in their lives. So, I cannot complain about my Hispanic culture in TV land. Of course, the stories sometimes have horrible scenes of immorality, but the end of any story is conducive to reaffirm the importance of prayer and of the Mother of God, acting as our true mother.

Just one week ago, this same TV outlet brought a recent interview of a KKK couple by one of Univision hosts, a younger Hispanic woman with black African ancestry. I never knew that in the Bible, Jesus was described by Pilate as a good looking man with golden hair and blue eyes and this according to this KKK couple. Of course, it does not say so! They claimed that it is not their invention and that actually it appears in the Congress Library Bible in Washington, D.C. in two letters from Pontius Pilate to two specific friends (Tiberius and Claudius?)…

Of course, when Univision checked these letters in the so called Bible in the Congress Library, it does not exist…!!! So, according to their views, they should not give any food or help to any outside of their group (white supremacists, KKK, etc.) because He did not do it as He refused to give it to the Canaanite woman who asked Him to heal her daughter who was possessed by an evil spirit. The woman answered that even the dogs ate of the leftover that fell from the table… As it turns out, they claim that Jesus is a member of the KKK and He will protect them…!!!

The Univision host said that at the time she felt she was in danger. She asked them what they would like to do to her. The man answered that she deserved to be burned because she was ugly and lacked importance on this earth…(As I wrote these notes in my diary, little did I know the important connection that this interview had for my spiritual growth as you will see later).

Back to Our Lady of Fatima asking the children to sacrifice in atonement for the sins by which He is offended, of course, I also should do that for the KKK members and do it with love for them since they were created in His image. Forever and ever, I must CONFESS that I have not placed their name in the list of petitions of my community Rosary for any of the white supremacist members of our society… Ouch! In fact, I always had felt some rejection and resentment for all of them up to today… There you can see how much I need to grow in this part of my soul’s conversion… And this conversion is sooo easy… if I do what I am supposed to do, especially with prayer and sacrifice in atonement for their sins and for their salvation; however, this is done AFTER I PRAY DAILY FOR GOD’S MERCY for me TO LOVE THEM AS JESUS DOES! If I pray for them resenting their behavior, well, I have missed the call…

As you can see, I must confess how poorly I follow Jesus at times. I will proceed to narrate some teachings and encounters with the Holy Spirit and my Mother according to the calendar dates.

Wednesday, August 9

I have a rather big piece of carton that I wrote in 1979 and have kept on the wall of my bedroom where I have a prayer corner next to images of our Lady’s different titles and of Jesus and some Saints, like St. Paul of the Cross, St. Therese of Lissieux, St. Anthony of Padua, St. Teresa of the Andes, St. John Paul II, St. Pio of Pietrelcina and St. Alberto Hurtado Cruchaga (Chile). It is a prayer from St. Benedicta Teresa of the Cross, OCD, or Edith Stein, the Hebrew atheist who converted to Catholicism. After reading the life of St. Teresa of Avila she became a Carmelite nun and died in Auschwitz during the Second World War. This is what she wrote:

“My God, I do not want to know Your paths since I am your daughter. You are a Father of Wisdom and also my Father and if You take me through the darkness of night, I know You are taking me to Yourself.”

This has always being a formidable reminder that my Dad takes care of me regardless of my sins, and that all suffering that He allows is for my own good for one day to be received in His arms. Well, little did I know on this date that surely I had much suffering to endure for this month and that it all would gain for me a new understanding of how to embrace my crosses… I always thought that it was a sort of acceptance of my crosses, and yet, I was very short in truly understanding what it truly means!

Thursday, August 10

Our international fights with North Korea keep getting more and more aggressive and dangerous, especially from their side. I have been praying for Mr. Kim Yong Un, but I have not been blessed as yet with love for him. I need to work on this conversion of my soul by offering my sufferings for myself to see in Mr. Un, an image of God who is confused and whom I want saved. In the other hand, it was on this day that I started feeling the call to get to Alabama and try my best to attend daily Mass again and do at least one Holy Hour. This was my routine for many, many years. As of now, I need some health to go back to the same practice and offer my prayer in His Presence, and to spend my last years on earth truly working full time for the Kingdom. By then, I will be away from so much toxicity around here and after doing a good detoxification of my body, my health issues could get better in order to start spending more time with Him. Obviously, I suspect that my Lord will help me and my health will get much better.

At 6 PM on this day, I asked my Father to heal my body to the point of being able to spent time with His Son’s real Presence and intercede for  world’s peace regardless of race, color, religion, etc. In retrospect, I am happy to report that I did not ask to eliminate all my health problems and only enough to be able to go and visit Him on daily basis. You will learn why I say it at the end of the blog.

Friday, August 11

On the feast for today of St. Claire, I took a large picture of Our Lady of Fatima that I received in her honor for the centenary of her apparitions and wrote in the back of the picture, the call for my last years on earth as described above and asking her for help.



1. Daily Mass offered for the salvation of souls (through an ongoing conversion), and souls representing all Catholics, Christians, agnostics,  atheists and from all other religions.

2. Four daily Rosaries (that some days before the Lord and my Mother had asked me to pray for peace in the world)

3. Daily Holy Hour (s)

4. Lectio Divina when called to do so.



1. Offering all pain and allergy symptoms and any health issues

2. Offering my self-denial of personal desires with a constant YES to God’s will (later on I had more to add to this section)

3. Writing of blogs on a monthly basis if led to and physically able do it.

4. Working for this project with other Catholics when I would prefer to do it alone!

Below these two columns I wrote:

I promise to DAILY ASK MY FATHER IN THE NAME OF JESUS FOR THE GRACE TO FOLLOW THESE TWO PLANS OF PRAYER AND SUFFERING and bringing as my intercessors to succeed, my Mother Mary, St. Clare, St. Pio and my Guardian Angels Angelo, Pio and Joachim. In case you did not know, when I consecrated myself to the Holy Angels in the 1980’s, I received the name of my original guardian angel while I was in Medjugorje in the late 1970’s and after a priest visiting this apparition site, taught some of us about all the choirs of Angels. . This priest was from Cleveland and our traveling group was from South Bend, IN. So, a couple of months later, he came to Indiana to further instruct us and consecrate us to them.

I was told to call my original guardian angel,  Angelo. I was surprised that it was in Spanish or English but in Italian. Shortly after and upon returning home I realized that now St. John XXXIII’s name was Angelo Roncalli!!! In the next two years or so, two more guardian Angels were added to help me: Pio was given to me to help me as a wife and mother. Joachim was given to me to help me in my medical practice…

On this day, after writing on the back of the picture of Our Lady of Fatima, I signed this covenant at 3:35 PM (during the Hour of Mercy)

Friday, August 12

I took Miralax (a stool softener) needed because of the poor surgery they did in my bladder which is wrongly attached and also because of Tramadol that causes some difficulty in the proper elimination of my stool; therefore Miralax helps much. I had been taking it since the surgery in 2015. I am allergic to it reacting with some pain but it was not a super allergic. I took it at evening time after my dinner.

Saturday, August 13

At midnight I woke up with severe pain in my already  bad left eye. On a normal basis, I have about 50% vision deficit. At this time, my deficit was around 75%!!! It continued all day. I did not take Miralax for the breakfast meal. By the afternoon, the vision loss was slightly better. I thought that maybe I was blaming this product for my sight problem. I took Miralax at supper time and bingo, the same symptoms with severe pain and loss of vision were back to 75%…. I had pain the rest of the night. This was a severe allergic reaction to this medicine with generalized inflammation which it showed in this eye by reduced vision.

I was unable to go to Mass because my eye was aching much and the vision was very poor. My legs, besides my knees, had started to ache so much that Tramadol was barely covering the discomfort. I reflected on the plan of April 11 and realized that suffering had arrived in a manner not suspected.

Tuesday, August 15

On this great feast of Our Lady and for Costa Rican’s is Mother’s Day, I could not go to Mass. My body was a mess… Also, my son was working and I could not drive to Mass by myself. My eyesight has made of my driving a very difficult and dangerous task…

Thursday, August 17

From this date on I will bring some facts on Hurricane Harvey found in the Internet. It will serve to realize how this disaster started and to make some comments at the end.

“Tropical Storm Harvey is named, six hours after the National Hurricane Center in Miami issues a potential tropical cyclone for several small Caribbean islands.”

Saturday, August 19

“Moving westward between the northern coast of South America and the larger Caribbean islands, Harvey is downgraded to a tropical depression, with maximum sustained winds of 35 mph (56 kph). Six hours later, it is further downgraded to a tropical wave.”


Pain in my body continued to worsen. Of course, as of the last 2 months, I am allergic to ALL FOODS, some more, some less. I only have two meals per day: The white of 4 hard boiled eggs plus one avocado and ground turkey cooked with carrots plus a sweet potato or more avocado… No use of garlic or onions and only salt is added to the turkey. So, I am also allergic to both proteins, the egg white and turkey…


In the evening, I was sent to read a particular page of the Bible, Psalm 37.  Some of the words gave me peace and hope…Here are a few verses:

“Find your delight in the Lord Who will give you your heart’s desire. Commit your way to the Lord; trust that God will act. Be still before the Lord: wait for the Lord.

Sunday, August 20

I was up at 4 AM praying the Rosary with EWTN/Spanish, this to have time to evaluate my health to go to 8 AM Mass. The pain was unbelievable despite taking Tramadol 2 hours prior, and I could not proceed to attend Mass!!! At 9 AM, and considering how much trouble I had to even go and visit Him and have Him within me, I started taking a wonderful product that in 2009 I used for my detoxification to reverse my memory loss. I still had a little bottle of Zeolite (a volcanic product) and one takes 13 drops, three times a day with a glass of water. Of course, I reacted somewhat to it and had some pain. I took it the three times on this day with much prayer since  I was afraid to have my left eye vision get worse… By Monday, I had to stop it because the pain got worse, which means that it was causing inflammation and could affect my left eye. Yet, I did see changes in my body…. The pain got worse but my memory got much clear and my vision got better at least with 5 doses!!! I did not want to experiment any further because of my left eye…Yet, I thanked the Lord for showing me that detoxification is what I need and what will work once I get to Alabama!

Monday, August 21

The entire country was involved in watching the eclipse of the sun by the moon. I had just heard a little summary of what the Universe is composed of and I decided to look it up further in the Internet. This is what I found of interest to me:

The Universe is composed of all existing matter and space considered as a whole; the cosmos. The universe is believed to be at least 10 billion light years in diameter and contains a vast number of galaxies; it has been expanding since its creation in the Big Bang about 13 billion years ago (Well, most likely since our God made it!!!!)


A galaxy is a system of millions or billions of stars, together with gas and dust, held together by gravitational attraction. The galaxy of which the solar system is a part, is the the Milky Way. Our solar system, made up of the Sun and the planets that encircle it, is a tiny part of that galaxy. The solar system is the collection of eight planets and their moons in orbit around the sun, together with smaller bodies in the form of asteroids, meteoroids, and comets.


A planet is large celestial body, smaller than a star but larger than an asteroid, that does not produce its own light but is illuminated by light from the star around in which it revolves. In our solar system there are nine known planets: Mercury, Venus, Earth, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto.” (END OF INTERNET INFORMATION)


The entire day I kept thinking of the immensity of our universe all created by our God Who takes care of each of us as if we were a precious star or a planet, but of the size of a sand particle… Wow! And to think that our Mother is the Queen of the Universe, and this the title that has done many miracles for me… The patroness of this Diocese of Oakland is Our Lady Queen of the World. Forever and ever I thought it was the same title… No way! Under the title of Queen of the Universe, she is right here on my screen covering the entirety of it and also in my I-phone screen… and from now on, whenever I am at this computer or every time that I look at my phone, I will rejoice to KNOW THAT SHE IS THE QUEEN OF THE UNIVERSE…… And yes, it defines her powerful intercession… So, this special day when we had this eclipse of the sun by the moon, brought me to a new excitement in my soul as I consider that my troubles are all under the protection of my Mom, as I call her.


And whenever I pray the Rosary, I will think of her love for us appearing in Fatima, located in this tiny planet… that God chose for Adam and Eve and for His Son to come and die for us… I am sure that by now, our Mom does not need the GPS system to find us… Even more, from now on, when I pray the Rosary I will feel so loved because when I was a child of 3 or 4 and on, I saw my maternal grandmother talking to this Queen… in a tiny country in the America’s where she had appeared some 200 years before to an Indian girl in the province of Cartago, the province where my father and mother and relatives were born…


On this day I heard via television that the most important fact to grow in holiness is prayer… Just imagine if we pray all day but without any practiced self denial (choosing God’s will and not ours) while we keep our resentments alive… Jesus never said so… Yes, we should pray but for ourselves to be converted to live in self-denial and to love our enemies. He went to pray despite being God, and yet, his prayer time was there but his love time for those who needed to be loved was a preponderant story of His life. As far as I am concerned, growth in holiness is a combination of actions, all directed to do the will of God at all times. One rejection of our suffering can truly devastate our growth… How hard is to hear these things and maintain our love and appreciation for others.  I immediately offered my suffering for the people involved and asked my Father in the Name of His Son, for the same grace of love granted to me and that the Triune God has for them.


Tuesday, August 22



The homilist for the EWTN Mass was fantastic, a Passionist priest, Fr. Cedric Pisegna.


At 3 PM I made another consecration to Our Lady under this title. I have done them since the 1980’s and I lost the count. I used to do them every month with preparation from the first to the thirtieth of the month. It was in 1988 that she started conversing with me and obviously, I kept this as a secret… Any parishioner, who would hear me say it could become very upset… It was not the time for me to go public on this issue and I am sure that God was behind this practice. At least now in my old age, I can do it!


Wednesday, August 23


“10 a.m., Harvey regenerates into a tropical depression about 535 miles (860 kilometers) southeast of Port O’Connor, Texas, with maximum sustained winds of 35 mph (56 kph).” (On Sept. 2, I saw the remnants of Port  O’Connor and the lack of purified water and food for those who lost it all…)


I asked my Mother for help for the pain I get consuming all foods… I have hardly any hunger but I should not stop eating for the good of my body… At times, I have wondered if I should just drink milk on a daily basis until all inflammatory symptoms get better because at times the pain is intolerable. She explained that my plan for my last years on earth written on August 11 was from God and good. She added, “However, if you are seeking as the main reason to follow the plan of prayer and suffering, to have a better health and vision, then, you would not get much out of the daily Masses and Holy Hours and four Rosaries…”


She added, “The main plan is to do it for PEACE IN THE WORLD, through a massive conversion of the entire planet regardless of race, religion, lack of God in their lives, violence, etc. You have the opportunity to offer yourself to die to yourself for them. Loving your brothers and sisters is crucial. Otherwise, your prayer and sacrifices may not make you grow in holiness to TRULY HAVE THE GRACE TO OBTAIN PEACE IN THE WORLD.


“Also remember that finishing the book with so many good points for your neighbor to live better lives without dementia or depressions, is essential in your love for them. If death finds you totally consecrated to obtain peace for them after your are gone and if death comes when you are totally dedicated to pray for them and to give glory to God with your close to perfect fiat, then, your blogs and even the book will count at the throne of Mercy for their salvation. Remember what I told you in July: ‘Now you know much about what to do for the Kingdom; however, be certain that you practice it day and night in order to be counted as a great servant of His and as a witness to your brothers and sisters of His love for you and them.’”


Thursday, August 24


“1 p.m., after quickly strengthening over the course of a day, Harvey becomes a hurricane, with maximum sustained winds of 85 mph (140 kph). It is about 325 miles (525 kilometers) southeast of Port O’Connor, and Texas coastal communities in its path are urged to complete their preparations. By midnight, it is upgraded to a Category 2 hurricane and is 220 miles from Port O’Connor, with sustained maximum winds of 100 mph (160 kph).”


Friday, August 25


“2 p.m., Harvey is upgraded to a Category 3 hurricane, with sustained maximum winds of 120 mph (195 kph). It is centered about 75 miles (120 kilometers) southeast of Corpus Christi. By 6 p.m., Harvey is a Category 4 storm just 45 miles from the city, with maximum sustained winds of 130 mph (215 kph).


“Harvey made landfall around 11:00 PM EDT on Friday, August 25 between Port Aransas and Port O’Connor, Texas as a category 4 hurricane. Harvey was the strongest hurricane to impact Texas since 1961 and the first category 4 storm to make landfall in the United States since Hurricane Charley impacted Florida in 2004.”

Saturday, August 26 – Feast of Our Lady Czestochowa


“2 a.m., Harvey is centered about 15 miles inland and is weakening as it slowly passes over land. It has been downgraded to a Category 3, with maximum sustained winds of 115 mph (185 kph). Two hours later, it is downgraded further to a Category 2.


“5 a.m., With maximum sustained winds of 90 mph (150 kph), Harvey is downgraded to a Category 1 storm. Forecasters warn of potentially catastrophic flooding in the coming days.”


As I inclined to wonder what was God trying to tell us with this hurricane, in EWTN/Spanish, I found these words from St. John Bosco. – “Put up willingly with the faults of others if you want them to put up with yours.” I kept thinking of the end times and reviewed what Jesus had said regarding those times, and how we should learn to love all our brothers and sisters regardless as St. Bosco said.


The temperature outside was high (106 F). I had too much pain… I decided to ask the Lord through the intercession of Our Lady from Poland, to help me because the suffering was close to untenable. I ended up praying 9 Rosaries for the chaotic state of Texas and for me.


Sunday, August 27


From St. Philip Neri: “People are sometimes the carpenters of their own crosses.”


I had these words in my mind… Was I making my own crosses? I was up at 4 AM P.T. praying the Holy Rosary with EWTN/Spanish. Yet the pain was beyond my capacity to go to Mass. (Unbeknown to me, this suffering was exacerbated for one reason only and I had not yet even figured this out, that is, why the suffering was getting worse by the day and even eating little of the offensive foods More on this subject later).


This suffering not only consisted of pain in my knees and legs (the latter as of the last two months) but also it has to do with my medical knowledge and knowing that this intensity of pain tends to raise my blood pressure. This pushes me to take hi amounts of the medication lisinopril. The toxicity itself, keeps my immune system working overtime against all foods and also affecting all my internal organs. It can also star a cancerous growth at any area of my body. So, this cross is made of many parts and by paying too much attention to my medical knowledge, I could be the carpenter of my own crosses…


On this particular Sunday, I ended up realizing about the suffering of Our Lady when her little Baby was supposed to be beheaded and they had to travel on donkeys to Egypt… Wow… And before that, the suffering of having to give birth to a child and no one giving them a room to stay? What about St. Joseph’s carpentry shop, the source of money for their living and that had to be abandoned when they left for Egypt, where they did not know for how long they would live there and for St. Joseph to find a job and provide for the family? What about Our Lady’s nutrition needed to make enough breast milk for her Son?  What about the meaning of going back to Egypt after Moses and Joshua had brought Israel to the Promised Land? Eventually, they had to come back to their city and start all over again!


Well, I am sure that the Holy Family, specially the mother and father, were totally sure of being servants of God and survived this cross due to their faith, hope and love for the Father… I ended up understanding that in my case of severe pain, at least I am living in a large home with all possible needs taken care of, under the protection of my son and soon to leave this so toxic area… The example of the Holy Family started to give me hope and accept what is going on because God is in charge. Here came a point of poor self-denial, where my will is to feel better but His will is to allow me to suffer for the salvation of souls, as Our Lady of Fatima told the children.  Any fear or doubt that God is the best physician to end my symptoms of toxicity, are simply a waste of time on my part.


What bothers me even more is to forget stories like the one that follows, when God had a plan for our lives as a family and we just followed His orders and miracles occurred. This event should serve me to trust that all the problems with my health have a reason to be, and that He will solve them in His time. I am purposely writing the story for me to keep it more at hand in my memory files in order to trust more in His mercy!


Monday, August 28


Harvey: “As of 7:30 AM EDT Monday August 28, there were 291,181 customer power outages across Texas and no significant power outages in Louisiana. Impacted utilities have issued statements that they are expecting power outages to last several days. Restoration efforts cannot begin until weather conditions are safe. High rainfall total and flooding could extend restoration times in many affected areas. Before equipment in flooded areas can be reenergized, waters will need to recede and equipment at substations will need to dry out and be inspected for damage. Additionally, before customers can have electricity restored to homes or business impacted by flooding, customers need to have electrical equipment inspected. As of Sunday 22% of the oil production 25.7% of the natural gas production in Gulf of Mexico are shut-in as a precaution and most refineries were shutdown. Retail gas station outages have been reported in the impacted region; however, overall stocks of gasoline and distillate in the region are at or above the top end of the 5-year range. DOE is working closely with the Energy Information Administration to further assess potential impacts at both a regional and national level.”


This whole scenario as described above is simply unbelievable… Harvey was getting less ominous but resurged again and destroyed the peace of so many people in different ways.


On this date, my Deacon son and wife celebrated their 13th anniversary of their wedding. Their marriage has been a total corporal and spiritual success. I have shared parts of this story before but I have been led to repeat it 1) just to PROVE the importance to adhere to God’s will. 2) Also, it can demonstrate another way of discerning such will because He can be very clear when He wants us to suddenly do something with our lives that seems to be absurd. 3) It helps our discernment when we are the ones moved to change the course of our life since it can demonstrate how we can use our trust in Him and simply ask to show us the way based on His Word that for God all things are possible, and believe it…His mercy can do it all if we simply trust in His love for us. And how to get to such trust?


THERE IS NO DOUBT IN MY MIND that the fastest way to trust in God’s love is to DO HIS WILL at every moment of the day; when we do not know what His will is, we simply tell Him to lead us to understand it and that is enough for Him to guide us. It works because we are loving Him with super self denial when we simply ask Him to guide us to do His will. It is soo simple… This our self-denial to which we add the embrace of such cross… opens the door for the Holy Spirit to take us to follow His guidance. (More to come on the embrace of our crosses!)


Below is what I wrote to my son and wife as part of my congratulation for their anniversary. This is also the son who almost died at birth due to medical errors and he was also discharged with the possibility that he would be a retarded child. Today, he holds a Master degree in Theology and has become a Deacon! God had a plan and saw to it that it would be fulfilled.


“I have thought of your anniversary for days since it has been extremely present because it happened in HOUSTON….!!!! Texas (now very present in the news due to Harvey) on Thursday, May 4th, 1979 on the Feast of the Ascension of Jesus and I had been to Mass as required by the Church on those days. I was attending a medical meeting and on that evening, I used some time to read the Bible (the Gideon’s Protestant version), which I always I do in hotels. I was led to go to a particular page and it was Joshua 4. I was told that just as Joshua had crossed the Jordan River with the Israelites in route to the Promised Land, that our family would cross a new  river in our family life and WOULD NOT GET WET. I then was told to move out of Mishawaka, IN, (from a home we had just purchased some 6 months before and one where I had finished the basement and had added three more bedrooms and another family room). I heard also that jobs for both of us would be offered and to accept them!!!


I returned home on Sunday afternoon and that evening, Kaiser Permanente from Cleveland called offering us jobs. I would be the chief of the department of anesthesia (because I was Board certified in Anesthesiology and with more years of experience) and your father would be one of the anesthesiologists as well. As he was telling them that we were not interested, I quietly told him to accept and to at least go and talk to them. Your father accepted but he was totally lost as to why I was telling him that. He had worked at Kaiser before we all moved to So. Bend/Mishawaka, IN area and we knew that they paid very poorly. After he hanged up, I took him to my prayer room (by the way, because I had added three bedrooms in the basement, I could have one bedroom in the first floor just for prayer). I explained to him what I had heard the previous Thursday. Miraculously, he did not object to this kind of “crazy” plan (he was a fallen away Catholic) and went to Cleveland and we were offered very good salaries and combined we would make $350,000. (Notice that when God directs us, He smoothes the course).


It was this move that placed you, my son, closer to Steubenville. In the other hand, attending St. Ignatius High School who had these sophomore trips to different places, you traveled with your class to some country (believe it was the Dominican Republic) where you apparently felt attracted to become a theologian. In Steubenville you found your now brother in law and later your wife and the rest is history. Because of the horrible destruction of the city of Houston, I have thought about this story of God sending us to Cleveland that would never had happened if I had not received such clear call to proceed regardless that we had to sell our home in Indiana and look for another in Cleveland and worse, for me to join a hospital that was not my favorite and turned out to be a nightmare. Yet, the Holy Spirit was guiding us… At times I have wondered what would had happened if we had not obeyed these orders!”


As you can see, my reader, God directed Abraham, Moses, Joshua and Our Lady to accept jobs that seemed impossible and all turned out to be the product of a yes to God’s will while carrying heavy crosses to follow Him. It also helps me to remember this story because our move to Alabama has come as a miracle when my son was retained as an employee in his company and given permission to work from home… I needed to get out of this very toxic area and had asked the Lord for help. He delivered… So, the cross of my bad health must be embraced!


Wednesday, August 30


This was the day when I received an explanation for much of what I had experienced on this month.


About Hurricane Harvey: I have understood that God ALLOWED such disaster to clearly show us that it is impossible to be divided according to the color of our skin or race…because we all have seen in Texas how blacks, whites and Hispanics have loved each other and served each other during this brutal explosion of Nature’s forces. Strangers helped strangers and they all became one. And I suspect that God used this means to make sure that we understand that using His Word to lie and divide as the KKK’s  interview revealed, it must have been directed by demonic forces… The color of the skin and the different features of our external look are different but our internal organs are of one color and physical appearance… and are all the same worldwide. As an anesthesiologist, I saw thousands of internal organs and all were the same! I could not distinguish any difference… The liver of a black person was identical to the liver of a white person!


My sons have a mixed background. I am Hispanic but possessing the genetics for a white skin, blue or green eyes and all my grandchildren (5 of them) from two different sons, are  also white looking. My ancestors for the most came from the Canary Islands with a heavy mixture of white and Hebrew genes. My intelligence was always recognized as very high. My husband was a mixture of African American and white (Dominican Republic) and he was very intelligent. One of my sons was declared a genius by two of his high school teachers and his expertise is in computer science. Another is also a well known researcher in kidney problems. My oldest is very good at computer graphics and my Deacon son has also been a success in regards to his Theology studies. The Nazis and followers were extremely confused. I am super sure that Satan worked very hard on this German founder (Hitler) who was Catholic and who killed millions of people.


I am also super sure that this confusion on the supremacy of a minority represents one of the worse sins ever committed and with no scientific background; of course, the worse sin has been killing the Son of Man…In the other hand, what happened with Harvey can also represent a call for all of us to undergo a daily conversion where prayer and suffering go together to remind us that God is Mercy Himself. No matter what goes on in this tiny planet of this huge universe, our Father loves us sooo much. His Son gave His life for us in the cruelest way possible and His Holy Spirit was sent to live within us and keep our Church as the mother that provides us with Sacraments to receive God’s Spirit. To top the story, just to have the Son of God’s real Presence everywhere in the world, is enough for all of us to drop our differences and to seek God’s mercy to love Him profoundly by always doing His will, and to love everyone with all our heart. He will take care of the rest.


Regarding the words of Jesus, “Whoever wishes to come after me must deny himself, take up his cross and follow Me” and in some other translation it says, “must embrace his cross,” I understood the following, which is a repetition but worth it to be written again:


Denial of self is the same than saying that we deny ourselves of our own will and do His will to show God how much we love Him. In the other hand, carrying or embracing our crosses speaks of holding on to our crosses. It does not mean to get rid of them since taking up our crosses or embracing them are actions opposite to dropping them and running away from them… IT ALSO MEANS that these are  not just words but that we  have to practice this holding or embracing them and it can only be done by clearly saying “yes” to the crosses,  and at no moment asking God to make them disappear or even change them.


In my entire spiritual life I have never truly cherished my crosses second to second, even that I understood their importance and once in a while thanked God for them. Yet, many times I asked God for them to go away altogether or at least to be less painful. I never saw in this act of embrace of my crosses a SUPER powerful way to bring salvation to my neighbor. Yes, I would offer the suffering for them but never truly WANTING TO KEEP THOSE CROSSES around forever. I have asked many times to get health and only a few times I have accepted my suffering wit h great joy. I always have joy but it comes from my God and I usually did not connect it with my crosses… and I never truly thought that I was joyful about the terrible pain I had. Only once, Jesus said to the Father to change His will during His Passion but immediately added, “But not my will but Yours be done.”  I have finally understood that my pain getting so bad was allowed by my Father for me to be purified and lead me to clarify the Holy Spirit’s guidance in this matter…


In another side of this teaching, yes, prayer is very important to keep me afloat; yet, I needed to understand that He truly needs me to suffer and embrace the associated cross, so that I can become the best disciple to save many souls. The practice of the LOVE OF GOD is best practiced with 100% self-denial. The practice of the LOVE OF NEIGHBOR is best practiced by praying for their salvation and by embracing all suffering and never thinking of opposing or diminishing the pain of each cross. If toxicity around is destroying my body, well, I must totally agree with this destruction for the sake of saving souls. Our Lady in Fatima was clear inviting the children to suffer and atoning for the countless sins (like abortion on demand), and begging God for these sinners’ conversion. I WILL REPEAT her message to emphasize our need to become eager to suffer BUT out of love for our neighbor.


OUR LADY OF FATIMA: “Will you offer yourselves to God to accept all the sufferings which He may send to you in reparation for the countless sins by which He is offended and in supplication for the conversion of sinners?”


With these two first parts well practiced of His teaching on discipleship, following Him is sooo easy… and holiness becomes doable. Jesus happened to pick up His cross and embrace it. Yet, if we drag our crosses and pray to get rid of them, we are not following Jesus’ teaching. Of course, Satan will work overtime trying to divide us, confuse us, continue with past misunderstandings and resentments, etc, and all to keep us distracted on the meaning of how to become a true disciple. 


The medicines against Satan and for our minds and hearts is to ask our Mother to pray for us (the Rosary) and receiving the Eucharist in the state of grace, at least once per week. All of this under the strict practice of discipleship. ONCE WALKING INTHIS WAY, evangelization of the entire world will be fairly easy and successful because we would have opened our hearts to the Holy Spirit for us to go and truly become light for others. We then can become witnesses of Christ and move others to action for a conversion that fixes its eyes on becoming a TRUE DISCIPLE…who loves God, loves neighbor and follows Jesus by practicing His teaching.


Twice in this month I have felt the same desire to live near Him, just as I received at age 61/2. Never before had I felt that need since then. In fact, this trip to Alabama seems to be a call to dedicate my last years on earth living near Him and spending time with Him, suffering whatever and truly embracing my crosses according to His will in this matter, all offered in atonement for all sins and the salvation of the entire world . I want to die as a disciple who practices her trade to be considered a TRUE follower of my Master.


Saturday, September 2


The pain in my inferior limbs gets worse by the day…This is due to the toxicity over my immune system which reacts more and more to all foods. Eating has become a major problem for me. The medication only diminishes somewhat this feeling. Moving to another far away state will be a real tough action since I have to get rid of many books and some furniture and the like. The home is in construction and my daughter-in-law that lives in Birmingham, keeps sending pictures to my son hat she takes on week-ends about the building that will be our home. I am praying for the company owners and workers that are doing this job so that they do not cheat with the quality of the material… Satan of course will be busy… and the Lord has come at the right time to alert me that the extra suffering brought up by the move, can truly be used in a powerful way for peace in the world and for all the victims of Harvey, etc. I feel that I am attending the school to graduate one day as a better disciple.


Sunday, September 3


I was very surprised that the Gospel for this Sunday is exactly about Jesus’ definition of discipleship … Yet, I had not recently read about how St. Peter tried to stop Jesus from His upcoming ordeal and death. The first Pope would become the devil if he had tried to dissuade Jesus from the will of His Father. Wow! Do I become a demon if I disobey the will of the Father for me? Well, this explains how so much hatred and division we have in the world, especially on this particular Sunday when North Korea announced how it successfully tested an advanced hydrogen bomb!!!


Of course, the origin of lack of peace in the world comes from our disobedience to the will of God for each one of us…OUR PRAYER SHOULD BE a daily request to the Father  in the Name of the Heart of Jesus for all of us, personally and for the rest of us, to do God’s will. All logic is present since Satan was thrown out of heaven precisely due to disobedience. Also, original sin came to contaminate all of us through Satan asking Adam and Eve to disobey God and eat of the fruit of the tree that they were forbidden to do!!!! IT IS ALL IN THE FIRST CHAPTERS OF SCRIPTURE…


What about it if some of us could start praying at least one daily ROSARY for the intention of keeping our obedience to do God’s will at all cost and saying a chaplet of Mercy, asking God’s Mercy upon us to be able to do so? As for me, I will embrace my crosses like never before and offer them to bring the entire world to comprehend this truth and to become obedient to all that God is calling them to do…!!! I now understand how Our Lady and Jesus became POWERFUL witnesses of the importance to say “YES” to the Father’s will… Even Jesus was tempted three times by Satan to precisely do His own will and change the course of His work on this earth, of course, disobeying the Father’s will… IT IS ALL THERE and I never was instructed by anyone to think in these terms!!!


I thank God at this moment for all this suffering that purified me when this month of August 2017, I accepted it in a different and more profound way. My purification allowed my eyes to see this truth and yes, now I am ready to intercede for peace in the world as I suffer and offer it for all of us to show a blind obedience to the will of God.


PLEASE KEEP ME IN YOUR PRAYERS… I truly need them to use these upcoming rough times during this move to Alabama for the glory of God, to love Him like never before with complete obedience to His will, and to love my brothers and sisters also like never before. I will place as an intention in my daily prayers, the offering of my suffering for any of you who are helping me so much with your own prayers, especially to have the Holy Spirit bless you with a personal understanding of what you should do in your private lives to perfectly obey God’s will. And when I say obedience to God’s will, it does not just cover our present vocation. It covers obedience to Him at every hour of the day for everything He wants us to do or suffer.


Of course, our own Mother was instructing the little shepherds to show their obedience when she asked them, “Will you offer yourselves to God to accept all the sufferings which He may send to you (perfect obedience to God’s will) in reparation for the countless sins by which He is offended and in supplication for the conversion of sinners (through perfect obedience to the will of God)?” There is no doubt in my mind that today’s Gospel Matthew 16: 21-27, had the greatest clue for us to be faithful to… And I will suffer much through the move and work to be done for it; yet, I will be totally open to such suffering to show obedience to God’s will for my son and I. It will be offered for many to find and accept this truth and become faithful obedient children of the



There is one more interesting point. I have suffered a lot with unjust persecutions in the professional field. I never could understand why God allowed it… Well, the reasons for the suffering or the kind of suffering are not important at all… What it is important is to say yes to whatever suffering as proof of self denial, that is to put our will to the side and accept God’s will even in cases of injustice. The Lord tried me with so many tough moments, but my acceptance (I never recall to be upset with Him because of them) was the important point to build my character as a true obedient disciple. Once I was obedient to whatever happened, I was able to forgive my persecutors and heal any resentment. The quality of my spiritual life depended on my suffering that was not rejected, a form of obedience to God’s will. Of course, I never truly embraced these crosses as I understand to do now, but I lived them a day at the time. I never thanked God for them but I never resented God for allowing them. My persecutors did not become a stone in my spiritual life. I suppose that my obedience to the suffering although imperfect, kept me from wishing them any harm.


I also must add here that submitting to God’s will during these crosses rendered me with great blessings. For example: my fallen away Catholic husband upon learning in November of the year 2000 that he had 6 months to live, he went to confession and received Communion and died very peacefully in front of two of us  I kept losing attachments to anything or anybody. I made a lot of money and had huge homes and expensive cars (3 Mercedes Benz) but I gave all away, including the money because I had no attachment to them. I never missed my mother, father, maternal grandmother (like a second mother to me) or husband when they died… I never knew why but now I finally understand the powerful blessings of doing the will of God always.


P.S. : Please forgive my possible mistakes upon writing this document. My eyes are not happy with their use for long periods of time. And thank you again for your prayers.