Archive for March, 2016

The Mercy of God has been flowing like a river in my soul!

March 31, 2016

My dear friends: this month has been absolutely a gem made of graces for living in the Presence of God without much work on my part. It has hit me very deeply to be able to feel even similarly as to when I understood in my mind that Jesus was alive in the Sacred Host and sensed His Real Presence. It was such a powerful feeling that at age 6 ½ I pushed my family which did not have many monetary resources to send me to the elementary school just opened in San Jose, Costa Rica by Salvadorian nuns, the Oblates of Divine Love (Oblatas del Divino Amor) called St. Margaret Mary Primary School, which had perpetual adoration of the Blessed Sacrament.

My desire was to sleep near Him since this school was very small and used a regular home as the convent/school with 5 nuns, and the chapel was next to our dormitory. Every night as I went to sleep with 6 other girls, I would feel reassured by Him Whom I felt so close to me. To this date, I feel the same way. Nothing has changed this feeling in my entire years on this earth. Well, during this Holy Week, I also sensed His presence during the Consecration every time I was spiritually present at any Live Mass via EWTN. This time, His Presence seemed to generate a need for repentance for my sins and to help Him carry His cross, cross that consisted in the lack of love for God everywhere in the world and by a great majority of human beings. I was able to feel His pain, His anguish, His love for everyone and sensed the poor response by many of them as well as my poor reaction to turn around and ask Him for His mercy for all of us!

Before I continue, let me emphasize a “big” point, praying for His mercy for the world. As many of you may know, the NAB team called the Warriors or Golden State from the city of Oakland (where my Diocese is located), has been calling the attention of the entire world by its players, especially Stephen Curry, a 28 year old who scores three points at all distances far away from the basket!!! By the way, this gift resides in our brains and it is not as perfect for all of us. Steph can just look intentlyat the basket, in a second imagine the ball going in and the hands will obey the brain to do the measurements and deliver the ball without major problems with the force necessary to elevate it and drop right inside the basket… Well, this year they so far have won 68 games with 7 lost. They are breaking all records.

My favorite sport is soccer since it is the sport that reigns in Latin America. Second to it is basketball. During this year’s games, I started watching them win game after game, and my Lord started speaking loud and clear: “I do not mind if you waste the time in watching these games as long as you do it with great love for the crowds and all players and coaches, by asking often during the game for My mercy for them. In this way, you will not sin with wasting your time.  Never forget this. Constantly find different groups in TV or shopping stores or in the expressway and ask for My mercy for them.”

Again, this is why I wrote above that I sensed my poor reaction to turn around and ask Him for His mercy for all of us! There is no question that the graces from this Extraordinary Year of Mercy allowed me to feel His pain, His anguish, His love for everyone and for the first time ever, I  experienced it during Lent and Holy Week.

I will share several stories for different days, especially how He made sure that I would feel His Presence through other human beings, and in ways previously unknown to me. It was simply awesome. Of course, my health was not the best but obviously it was necessary for me, in order to remember the suffering He underwent during the days before and during His Passion.

Wednesday, March 2

11 AM -This day was my birthday and after a late breakfast, I was suddenly given a page in the Bible to meditate on. I have to explain that I do not hear the number of each page… No, I see the number(s) like an image inside my mind but always after asking the Holy Spirit for His guidance and using Our Lady as the intercessor!!

Page711 – Wisdom 6, verses 6-11, 17-18

6-11 – “For the lowly may be pardoned out of mercy but the mightily shall be mightily put to the test. For the Lord of all shows no partiality, nor does He fear greatness,  because He Himself made the great as well as the small, and He provides for all alike; but for those in power a rigorous scrutiny impends. To you therefore, O Princes are My words addressed that you may not sin. For those who keep the holy precepts hallowed shall be found holy, and those learned in them will have ready a response. Desire, therefore, My words; long for them and you shall be instructed

“For the first step for discipline is a very earnest desire for her (wisdom); then care for discipline is love of her; love means the keeping of her laws.” (End of Biblical verses).

There is no doubt that I must often ask the Holy Spirit for the gift of wisdom. For how many years I have tried very hard to follow Jesus and His teaching but I hardly asked for Wisdom not to take the wrong turn? Of course, by calling the Holy Spirit, I am calling for wisdom; yet, at moments of doubt or fear, His wisdom is essential and should sought right away. This reading also reminded me of the need to read His Word often to be instructed through Wisdom. I realized that it was a great reminder/gift for this particular day.  

Monday, March 7

EWTN/Spanish had a program that called my attention when I passed by this station without any prior planning. It clearly showed the horrible things going on in Latin America with the trafficking of drugs and the number of innocent victims.  The story was of Bishop Isaias Duarte Cancino, Bishop of the Valle del Cauca in the Diocese of Bucaramanga, Colombia. He preached to never have fear nor worry.  On February 1, 2002, he denounced the negative results coming from the traffic of narcotics.  On Saturday, March 16, 2002 (exactly 14 years ago), he married 100 couples between 6 PM and 7:45 PM. Afterwards at 8:25 PM, he left for the rectory and in route he received a shot from a member of the “narco-traffic.”

The question raised was: Why didn’t God stop it? A common logical answer given was that there will not be peace in Colombia until many will convert and choose to be pro-life and not be opposed to the Gospel of love and justice. My question was: what is the Church doing about it? By “Church” I mean all laity and ministerial Priesthood. Colombia is one of the most important sites for the trafficking of narcotics. I was born and raised near this country when this problem was not present. What did all of us miss in doing? My heart ached and I felt sad, very sad!

In the afternoon I suffered from violent diarrhea and could not figure out why! At the same time, I offered it up for the present horrors going on in Latin America similar to the previous story. It definitely calls all of us worldwide to examine our customs and spiritual routing and ask ourselves, “Why is it that the trafficking of narcotics has become such a disaster for many years and us, Catholics have not used our Baptismal power to change the entire scenario?  In Christ Jesus we can do it… There is no doubt about it… Yet, we, the so called followers, are not in the same page with Jesus and His Gospel. At our personal judgment, are we prepared to answer why not?

I only have to remind myself and all of you, readers, that if a group of us would do God’s will day and night by denying ourselves, embracing our crosses and following His commandments, as we ask for His  mercy for them and us to keep living such life, the traffic of narcotics would not exist… and can be terminated any time we truly become Jesus’ disciples!!! Then, why is it that a bunch of us have not started to apply our Baptismal graces over all these societal disasters?

Tuesday, March 8

I was led to go to a health food store. Remember that I do not go out to follow my plans for the day unless the Holy Spirit grants me an O.K.; or said differently, “I make the plans and the Holy Spirit reigns over them to be executed or not.” Many would ask, “And how do we know what the Spirit wants each time? “No problemo,” as the commercial says (notice that they say problemo instead of problem!). If we stay practicing the FPS (discussed last month), we have guarantee that the Spirit will let us know without fear of making a mistake!!! 

On this morning, it was going to rain heavily and I wondered if I should go altogether! But waiting for His direction is the easiest way to do His will at all times so not to miss some “spiritual customers.” Besides, the rain had suddenly stopped. I needed to pick up a medication at Walgreen’s and asked for guidance as what to do first. I was told to go to the health food store first. There and by the chance created by the Holy Spirit, as I arrived a couple was also arriving and the man ran fast ahead of me to open the door although the woman with him was much behind me. They smiled at me as I called him, “my angel.”

After we entered, I noticed that they looked to be from India or another nearby country. I asked them and she said that she was from Bangladesh but the man (much older) was from India. I mentioned that I only knew where Kerala is in India.  They corrected my pronunciation… Later on, the woman ran into me again within the store and she wanted to know where I was from. Eventually I learned that she is very interested in eating organic foods and of course, she was interested in my knowledge of the subject matter. Her name was Sumaiya, around 35 years old and beautiful. I ended up sharing with her my knowledge to reverse dementia and how to prevent depressions. She was fascinated and asked me to share with her the entire information since she is director of a place for meditation and has several members with frequent depression… She gave me her Internet address for the center that she manages.  Two days later I did send her the information and begging her not to place it in the Internet because I was in the process of publishing a book on this subject. She answered to please keep in contact since she wanted to learn more and promised not to pass my writings to anyone, except help those in need.  There was no question in my mind that God had arranged this meeting since we had to arrive exactly at the same time for the man with her to run to open the door for me to start our conversation and sharing. It started raining as I came back…

Thursday, March 10

Supposedly we were expecting a furious storm on this early and mid morning. I needed to go to the pharmacy to pick up another medication(far away and faster to be reached by the expressway, prohibited for me with much rain by increasing the possibilities for an accident. However, the storm that was announced several times in prior days before and up to the previous evening was missing and was able to take the expressway and come back fast enough and not waste time in transportation.

At 11:50 PM, my Mother came and said this: “Watch out for the use of your time. In recent days, you have not done anything to edit the book as yet! Notice how God stopped the rain in your area so you made it fast using the expressway. Not only that, but the pharmacy line, was very fast like never before (I pick medications as if it were MacDonald’s, on the side window). He made space in case you wanted to use prime time for the editing of the book. Yet, you keep wasting the gift of time!”

I definitely was convinced that I truly must try very hard to finish this book!  These are what appears to be small sins, and yet, how many people are suffering from depressions that could be prevented by not using the thickener carrageenan? A little story on it at a later day will demonstrate the importance of publishing this information. 

Saturday, March 12

12:45 PM – As I was praying the Rosary for Life with EWTN, during the third mystery and as I saw images of a beautiful baby boy, I said to my Mother, “He is so beautiful with fat thighs and fat feet. How I wished I would have been His babysitter!”

Our Lady: “You can still be His babysitter within your soul. He still needs it because many of His children are right now very cold and hungry and live in despicable places! Therefore, what you do for Him by adoring Him and obeying His mandates as you pray for those in need where He also lives within, you are babysitting Him in their lives!” I had never thought about it in such terms! My Mother can be super wise!

Wednesday, March 16

At 9:30 AM, I was given a page in the Bible to check. It was Joel 2. It is a long chapter but it describes the many blessings that God has given to His people, then, and of course, He continues doing it now.

Then my Mother came to tell me this, “You have had much. You shall give much more to others. However, your trust in God’s love must consist in ignoring what is not perfect in your life, and at the same time, expecting without any fear that He will fix everything in your life that needs to be fixed; this in order for you to give to others His love and blessings by witnessing what He has done, is doing and will do for you. NEVER think of what is next. Only think of the mercy of God doing great things for you in the eternal ‘now,’ since God only knows how to love and serve especially to the humble and the one who loves Him back.”

Thursday, March 17

At 8:20 AM, I started thinking on the coming feast of St. Joseph since I was born in the city of San Jose. I have written before how my first prayer to a Saint was to him at age 9. My grandma had bought me a very expensive pen (for us) American made (in those days!). It was a Schaffer pen and within 24 hours I lost it inside our apartment. So, I asked St. Joseph to help me and that I would pray to him one daily Our Father “forever” if he would do find it for me. I was super petrified of telling my grandma about it. Within a few minutes I knew where it had fallen (below my bed, deep inside and closer to the wall). I complied afterwards with the praying of the Our Father for a very short time… I still feel remorse! Well, this time I asked St. Joseph to obtain for me the favor of fixing my health, even if partially or to get me the money to treat my allergies, and that I would continue praying the daily Our Father. Well, I was sent to a page in the Bible, Deuteronomy 24: 6-22… I then understood that actually he would agree to do so but to offer it for the main message of these verses, which were, to pray it for equality, justice and charity in the entire world… I was fascinated with the idea and it will be so, since I have never prayed for these intentions… I then wrote the entire promise in the first page of one of my downstairs’ Bibles … We shall see! After all, I am “josefina” or born in the city of San Jose…!

I went to theTarget Department Store and as I arrived to the area of the six pack one liter bottles of Evian (very heavy and located slightly high for me) and almost immediately, a Filipino woman in her late thirties with a 4-5 year old girl next to her, ran to offer me to place the Evian packs in my cart. I knew that the Holy Spirit stirred her to offer help when I had not even moved to get one of the packs showing my difficulty to do so. She turned to be Catholic (of course) and we became friends for a few minutes but I explained to her how Jesus shows me His love through actions as hers, and that it made her an angel sent by Him! She loved the idea and told the little girl!

 Saturday, March 19 – Feast of St. Joseph

I did not feel well since early morning. I woke up with a severe headache. The pain on my knees was horrible despite medication. I wondered if I was supposed to cancel my plan to attend my parish’s Penance Service and so I asked the Lord about it. He sent me to 1 Maccabees 9 and in there I found the word “went” and I was seeking for the word “go” in the past or present tense. I felt pretty sure that I had to go to this service. I went early in order to pray for my confession to be complete and full of repentance.

Well, after this confession and for the first time in my entire life of going to confession, I had a very powerful feeling of peace… Why? I have no idea… However, during the next hours and at home, I felt a total detachment from television, including EWTN! Instead, I was like in heaven enjoying His presence… and I would say that I have used my time much, much better since and not as I confessed it to be… “With my poor use of time.” I suspect that St. Joseph was interceding for me!


Sunday, March 20  


President Obama was in Cuba and the Hispanic TV station Univision had their own reporters in Cuba talking to the Cuban’s in the streets. I became so surprised to know details like many of the wives of men who are in prison for no reason but politics, now form the “Damas Blancas Group” or the White Ladies Group. They spoke to the reporter before they went out to the streets to protest for the U.S. being so lenient with the Cuban regime, a protest that they do frequently in order to remind people of their husbands. Shortly after they started the protest, they were jailed…


This same Hispanic station showed a story from Argentina which also left me surprised since I did not know anything about it… In 1976, the regime or government people killed hundreds of men and women. If the woman was pregnant, they would isolate the woman and wait for the baby to be born and then kill her. The baby was given to couples who had to accept them by orders from them.  This was the story of the older woman presented in this news, foundress  of the Damas Blancas and whose daughter was pregnant and they gave her grandchild away. Through the “White Ladies” they also sought to find the families of those babies (some 150), now grownups! And this particular grandma found her grandson!  As I was hearing these stories I thought of people like Eva Peron and husband whom I knew when I was young; yet I had no idea of these horrors. In the other hand, I am from Costa Rica, where there is not an army… We only have a police force to keep the civil order but not an army. This is why they call this country, the Switzerland of the Americas!


Monday, March 21


11:50 AM – My Mother said, “This morning you have one story and a teaching.”


Story: I was led to a page in the Bible in the Book of Lamentations.  I will get a verse that that will show the point I had to learn. But first, this is a little story of the setting of the Book of Lamentations.


“The 6th Century B.C. was an age of crisis, a turning point in the history of Israel. (Think of the United States right now and why not, the history of the entire world where killings without justification are daily!). With the destruction of the Temple and the interruption of its rituals plus the exile of the leaders and loss of national sovereignty, an era came to an end. Not long after the fall of Jerusalem (587), an eyewitness of the national humiliations composed these five laments. They combine 1) confession of sin, 2) grief over the suffering and 3) humiliation of Zion, 4) submission to merited chastisement, 5) and the strong faith of the constancy of Yahweh’s love and power to restore. The figure of Israel as the bride of Yahweh, familiar from the prophets, appears here again; but now Zion is a desolate widow… sustained only by the faith that God’s chastisement will eventually give place to His infinite compassion (I would say, His infinite mercy).”


Chapter 1: 1 – “How lonely she is now, the once crowded city! Widowed is she who was mistress over nations; the princess among the provinces has been made a toiling slave. Verse 2b – Her friends have all betrayed and become her enemies.”


This was the story that Our Lady wanted me to learn about… Something that could happen to us, in this country and worldwide if we do not turn to God and repent but NOW…


Then, my Mother sent me to three sections in the Bible for the teaching part.


1) I was given the answer to prevent a possible disaster as Jerusalem saw in the previous story. As I read chapters 17 and 18 of Deuteronomy, I understood that through my Baptism, I had become king, priest and prophet. As such, how am I to conduct myself to help the human race? How shall I practice these gifts? (Without going any further, I want to remind my readers that this is a teaching for me… Please, pray to learn if it will be helpful to you).


Here I have summarized with my own words what the Bible says applied to me. – When I have come into the land which the Lord my God is giving me or becoming a member of the family of God through Baptism, I can become through this gift – king (queen)  As such, I must have a copy of the law of God (Bible), from the Levitical priests (the Catholic Church), keep it  with me and read it all the days of my life that I may learn to fear the Lord, and to heed and fulfill  all the words of this law  (Bible) and these statues (what Jesus taught). I then should not become estranged from my brothers and sisters through pride, nor turn aside to the right or to the left from these commandments.

As a priest and as in the times of the Tribe of Levi (Hebrew priests), wherever I go I must minister in the name of the Lord.

As a prophet, I will not learn to imitate the abominations of the people of the place where the Lord has sent me to. I should never mix with people who immolate his son or daughter in the fire (abortion crowd), nor a fortune-teller or caster of spells, not one who consults ghosts or spirits or seeks oracles from the dead. If I presume to speak in the name of the Lord an oracle that I have not received from Him, I shall die.  

2) Book of Judges – the “purpose of this Book is to show that the fortunes of Israel depended upon the obedience or disobedience of the people to God’s law. Whenever they rebelled against Him, they were oppressed by pagan nations; when they repented, He raised up judges to deliver them.”


3) Matthew 24:14“And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached through the world as a witness to all nations, AND THEN THE END WILL COME. (End of Bible quotes)

I opened my eyes wide with this last verse, SINCE EWTN has done it: it has taken the Gospel of the Kingdom through the entire world!!! So, are we expecting that end that Jesus prophesied? And this teaching was received before the passing of Mother Angelica. Her work for God seems almost impossible to do by any human being, except through the holiness of this saintly woman totally in love with God, in order for Him to warn us of a possible end for all humans!!!


In general, the story was about our case right now where in every part of our lives, we see situations that need to stop… The teaching for me was about how to exercise my graces as king, priest and prophet, what to do in each case, BUT followed by a reminder that it has to be obeyed or else…since the end may be closer than we think!


1:30 PM – I was still astounded by what I had learned hours earlier and became worried of how to share this story in this blog. My Mother said, “Do not worry regarding the blog.  Worrying is a form of fear. Ask for whatever you need, not what you want, and He will take care of it. Remember how yesterday you received the results of the laboratory studies done (as my primary physician had ordered) and turned out that you have perfect numbers for all your organs! As you can see, God’s mercy has done great things with your body. You are walking on water on God’s hand and you will get to where you need to be faster than by swimming. The more faith you show in His mercy, you can help others with your blogs. Do not forget that your entire life should be one of thanksgiving for all the blessings you keep receiving, like the faith you have in His love for you!”


I must add some information that needs to be told in order for you to see the extent of the miracle of having normal laboratory studies. My nutrition is one sided. I eat every day of the year the same menu in order to stay away from allergies to most foods. Breakfast: grilled chicken and one sweet potato plus one cup of coffee. Lunch: nothing except for a glass of milk with one banana in order to take the pain medication that causes some allergy reaction in my stomach! For dinner: grilled chicken with one avocado. Most of the B vitamins I cannot take because I am allergic to them. But worse than that, because of my constant passing of urine, I lose  magnesium and potassium and have to replace them at least twice a day, both of which I cannot miss because low magnesium causes severe cramps; low potassium causes arrhythmias of the heart! It causes a particular one, “bigeminy” that consists of the cardiac contractions to be delayed every two beats. I take these two minerals in amounts I figure out by instinct, since I do not wait for the cramps or bigeminy to start! But since the levels were perfect, this was a true act of mercy from God!


Friday, March 22

On this day after prayer, I suddenly understood that the best worship and adoration of God happens when I ADORE HIS WILL for me 24/7. I can spend time in Holy Hours but without my acceptance of His will for everything, including suffering, I am not truly adoring His Eucharistic Presence. I am just paying homage but without a relationship of love  where I do whatever He wants me to do, because I love Him and He is crazy for me! I then received the following verses of the Bible: Sirach 35: 19, 23-24.

“God indeed will not delay and like a warrior will not be still… until He defends the cause of His people and gladdens them by His mercy.  Welcome is His mercy in time of distress as rain clouds in time of drought.”

My Mother said, “With each painful moment with your knees, remember to say, ‘Yes, so be it. I come to do Your will,’ and proceed with giving thanks as if it will be resolved soon! NO OTHER TOUGHT should enter your mind, so that the decision of your soul, like it was my ‘yes’, produces a constant fiat at every second of your life.”


I then thought: “This year, the mercy of God is flowing like a river in my life.” I had much pain as it was for Jesus at this time 2000 years ago, and so I fell called to live the Passion during this Holy Week. Therefore I say, “Yes to this pain. So be it. I am here to do Your will.”

2:20 PM – My Mother said, “You are doing very well. I am proud of you. Your yes is good as you are practicing it (she referred to my constant practice of FPS discussed in the last blog (faith doing the will of God in everything; much prayer and suffering). Yet, there is something you should do. For example, how often you make yourself aware of your opening to His will. Yes, you are saying “yes” but be sure that it comes from a heart that seeks to love God 24/7 via your true acceptance to His will. Otherwise, it could become just words but interiorly you may not be quite desirous to do it due to the difficulty of the moment, like much pain! Be always aware of this possibility!!!”

“Yes, Ma,” I answered. “Help me in remembering to do it.”

I fell asleep sitting in my lazy-boy chair between 10 and 11:30 PM for the local news. Then I fell asleep again with the T.V. on until I woke up at 12:10 AM (see below)


Wednesday, March 23


At 12:10 AM, I opened my eyes to find on ABC, Jimmy Kimmel Live speaking to the Democratic contender, Mr. Bernie Sanders. Once more, I fell disenchanted by the rhetoric of all the candidates, one of the worse times in U.S. history during a presidential election year. At 12:35 AM, I purposely turn off the light and TV and went to sleep, which I can do easily. Going to sleep for me is simply no problem!  I had much pain in my knees despite recent medication.


I had the alarm clock set for 5 AM to watch Live the EWTN Mass with Fr. Miguel for this day.  At 8:30 AM I prayed the Rosary in Spanish with EWTN. At 10:30 AM I left for the adjacent city of Walnut Creek to shop at Whole Foods organic store and miracles started. I still had much pain.


I prayed for perfect parking since this store is always full despite ample parking lots. I did find a space for me right by the main door. My plans were to stop at a7Eleven ATM to get some money but since it was close to lunch hour, I was re-routed to Whole Foods (WF) first since during this mid day the parking becomes even more congested. When I arrived, one of the employees, an older man cashier was also arriving and he ran at least 20 yards to bring me a cart so that I would not have to do it!!!!! This is how my Jesus makes Himself present by the love of another of His kids, and this so that I REMEMBER that He is around looking for my interests.

I needed many bananas (one of the few fruits that I am not allergic to) and they are very high to bring down. I asked one of the W.F. employees and he came to help me. The name in his shirt was Luis and asked him if they call him, “Luisito” which is a diminutive form of his name. He said yes and then we realized that we both spoke Spanish and that he was from Nicaragua. As you know, Nicaragua is the country on the north side of Costa Rica. We call the people from this country, Nicas… as we are called Ticos and Ticas… The longer names will be Nicaragüenses and Costarricenses… Too long!


As I left this store I asked the Holy Spirit for permission to stop at the ATM place in my way home. I needed to buy small writing tablets(9×5 in)  to write the many teachings I receive here and there during each day, and not use lose pieces of paper that tend to get lost. My last tablet was full and knew that they were bought at a Home Depot store. I asked the Lord if I had permission to go there before the ATM visit. He agreed. I found perfect parking and what I wanted and was in line to pay (this was lunchtime). Two other customers’ ahead of me were taken care of by two cashiers; however as I was going to go to the open cashier, the young man left… So, I had to wait for the other until it opened.


When it was my turn, I found a young man who looked Indian. I asked him what part of India or adjacent countries was he from. He said he was from NICARAGUA!!!! There were no more customers waiting and something led me to mention about how to reverse dementia and prevent depressions in some of us. He then said that his mother suffers from depressions and that no doctor has been able to get rid of them with medication!!!! Bingo!!! Of course, he wanted to learn all about it and I promised to send him the entire story via email… Two days later I did so… Just think of the timing for me to get to each place exactly when I was supposed to be there. At Whole Foods, I needed to see His intervention by having the employee run to get me the cart. Then, I found a man from Nicaragua (like if He were announcing the upcoming meeting with another “Nica”, which is very difficult to happen within a two hour window since there are many Mexican’s but not from Central America on the same day and in different places!!! The first cashier had to leave the post for me to find the second Nica, Jairo… A very Biblical name…And Jairo needed the information I had with me since 1992… All of these stories are a perfect proof of God’s mercy for Jairo and his mother!!!


To close the miracle making events, in route (driving) to the ATM, the Lord came and gave me 5 numbers to buy 2 chances of the California lotto… This is the very first time it happened in my life!!! I needed the “mega” number after the first 5. He said, not to talk about it since Satan would interfere for me to think of the last number… This is how I learn how Satan is always around trying to intervene. I memorized the numbers the best I could and filled out a card with them upon arrival to the ATM place, where I learned about the last number. It turned out that the first 5 numbers were correct  and I got 4 of them right and made $103 among 262 other Californian’s who also got them!!!!! My Lord wanted me to understand that I could win more than that at any time that His will desires it…He ALSO wanted me to understand that “chances” mean nothing for Him. After all, He created the idea of lottery in the mind of the first lotto inventor… Obviously and to make it very clear, if I were to win millions, I am supposed to give half of it or more (depends on the amount) after taxes to ETWN!!!!! I could not enrich my sons not to tempt them to live with monies not earned. They were born in luxury and had great all-paid education when I made the one quarter million/year. Yet, for the good of their salvation, this is not to happen again, unless God allows it. On arrival to the ATM, a man came from behind to open the door for me and upon leaving, two people also ran to open the door!


During this day, I heard as part of the TV news, THREE concepts that are simply crazy:

1) Seven things necessary to be happy were discussed in AOL and you can imagine that they had nothing to do with happiness… since God was not mentioned…


2) Another person said in TV that we have to have “mindfulness” and reduce back pain with stress reduction… No doubt that it is pure nonsense.


3) I had bought the local newspaper and found very tragic news. The tittle was: DOES RIGHT TO DIE FALL SHORT?  ByTracy Seipel, co-author of new policy that hears of desires of Alzheimer’s patients.

“They know California’s landmark right-to-die law, set to kick in June 9, is for the terminally ill. And they support the effort. But what most of the dozen people at a town hall meeting on Monday in Morgan Hill wanted to know is why their friends and relatives suffering from Alzheimer’s or dementia cannot take advantage of the law.


“ ‘One of  my fears is not having my mental capacity and lying there and not being able to do anything about it,’ said 72 year old  Kathy S, who attended the 90 minute-long meeting at the Morgan Hill Community and Cultural Center with her husband Brian, 74.

“Our society has to recognize that there is psychological pain, and there is mental pain. The mental pain of not being in control of your thoughts and mind is sometimes more than physical pain.”


This last point moved me a lot since dementia is reversible, and my book is not finished as yet… I feel so guilty! Please pray for me for this particular need I have to finish the editing of this large book which has many other important points not described elsewhere… For example, by the grace of God I figured out how some people (minority) vomit after a general anesthetic and it is hard to stop it, at times for more than 24 hours… It is easy to figure out who are those patients before any general anesthetic and it is a matter of finding out if they get easily nauseous while in a moving car and sitting in the back seat. It has to do with the inner ear and it is apparently aggravated by the gas in the anesthetic which happens to be a product of fluoride!!!! If the inner ear is given a long lasting anti-emetic drug before the anesthetic, they wake up without any problem. I had patients return to the surgery center looking to thank me… So, please keep me in your prayers so that in this year of Mercy, I can be merciful to my brothers and sisters and get this book published! Thank you!

Holy Thursday, March 24

I was able to follow the Live Holy Thursday Mass in Rome through EWTN. I could not attend my own parish because it was done in the evening and I cannot drive with ease at night! Besides, this service with the washing of feet is long and the use of the bathroom every hour on the hour demands too much of my attention and that of others to be getting up often to go to the bathroom.

Good Friday, March 25


Early I watched a program via EWTN on the Seven Last Words of Jesus before His death, preached a couple of years ago in New York City at St. Patrick’s Cathedral by now Bishop Robert Barron… What an excellent speaker is this holy man! He mentioned how Jesus came to become a new Temple and the sacrifice as well, and that this happens at every Mass. What a profound point to have in mind at each Consecration.

They sang the wonderful hymn, “Were you there when they crucified my Lord? Were you there when they nailed Him to the tree? Where you there when they pierced Him in the side? Where you there when they laid Him in the tomb?” I ended up singing, “I was not there but I am now!” This came from within because I felt His Presence and His pain…

10:50 AM – all done with the previous program, I went up to my room to rest a little since the pain in my knees was horrible and I was waiting for the pain medication to work. I then told Jesus this, “My Love, my Life and my Truth, “I love You. I adore You. Here I am to help You carrying Your PRESENT cross made of so much incredulity, blindness and deafness among Your sons and daughters.” I felt like Simon the Cyrene. I then remembered that around 2002 in Toledo, Ohio, I visited an antique store recommended to me by a nurse from the surgery I worked at. She knew I was very religious and told me that it was a nice place to check out. I found several Stations of the Way of the Cross, large paintings belonging to an English church that had been closed; I immediately chose the fifth Station where the Cyrene is forced to help Jesus carrying His cross. It cost me $1,000 but the attraction was powerful. This happened before the movie the Passion of the Christ, the one that I was led to watch 22 times in cinemas between its release in 2004 and 2005. In hindsight, I now understand that watching this movie so many times were ways to mark my soul with the pain of the Crucified, as a form of prophesy for these later years when I would be invited to suffer much.


On this Good Friday, I also told Jesus, “I am your Simon and want to help you carrying the cross with my love and my desire to become totally obedient to Your Commandments and all that You taught us while on this earth. I love You!  Remember that I am here to do Your Holy Will. Thank You for Your graces and Your closeness which I can feel and not only believe in it!” And yes, I felt His Presence as if I were in church receiving Communion.

Holy Saturday, March 26

12:30 PM – I was present to the Live Vigil Palm Mass in Rome. So far, I had had a much recollected Holy Week even that I was home all this time.

Easter Sunday, March 27

My son and I attended the 7 AM Mass in our parish in order to stay away from the crowds, normal for this day. We normally go to the 8 AM Mass. I had already being spiritually present to the Live English Mass from EWTN at 5 AM. After coming back from the 7 AM Mass, I checked EWTN and was able to “spiritually attend” the Live 9 AM Mass at the National Shrine of the Immaculate Conception in Washington, D.C. with Cardinal Donald Wurl, who has become one of my favorite Apostles for these times. Shortly after around 11 AM, I went back to the EWTN/Spanish channel and another Live Mass at the same Shrine was celebrated via EWTN/ Spanish by Archbishop Broglio of the U.S. Military Services. His Spanish was excellent. I must say that it is unfortunate that the programs in EWTN/Spanish cannot be found via the TV itself as normally one is able to review all the programs coming hour by hour. The topic that is announced is 80% of time the wrong one. This EWTN/Spanish channel was fine until about 3 months ago when it got distorted and apparently nobody knows about it because it has not been corrected. So, in order to find the daily programming, one has to check the site via Internet!

A few minutes after this fourth Mass for the day, I started realizing that the Holy Spirit wanted me to attend all of them, inspiring me to check the Spanish EWTN. The same happened a little later because by chance again, I tuned EWTN/Spanish at 1 PM and another Live Mass was starting at the Cathedral of Los Angeles, CA, also in Spanish celebrated by Archbishop Gomez…

There was no question by then that I was celebrating this Easter Sunday like never before, with FIVE LIVE MASSES, complete with no change of channels!!! And two of them in Spanish! During the Consecration at one of the Masses that I spiritually attended, I cried because His Presence was very powerful, even miles away. I ended up saying to Him, “Please help me with the pain I suffer because it is excessive and I become super stressed out, which is not good for me either.” He answered, “Remember that your suffering is needed for the writing of the monthly blogs; however, there is also something that happens even more important. One thing is for someone to read your blog and like it; another very different is recognizing the need to undergo a powerful conversion and to open their soul to the Holy Spirit’s guidance to secure an inner conversion!” (Wow)

Shortly after the end of the last Mass, the announcement came of the death of our beloved Mother Mary Angelica of the Annunciation. It occurred to me that while she was ready to depart on this glorious day of the Ascension, I was praying a storm! Obviously, her death was an extraordinary event for many of us. I have always felt very close to her because we share some names. Example: her Baptismal name was Rita Antoinette. Her religious name was Mary Angelica. My Baptismal name is Maria Antonieta of the Angels!!! She had a great story regarding St. Therese of Lissieux for one of her healings. I also was visited by St. Therese at age 2, according to my maternal grandmother. I also believe that physically, our faces as young kids have some similarity!!! It is weird for me to even write it here!


Besides these coincidences, this particular March 27 was the birth date of St. Teresa of Avila, and this saint was like my idol when I was a little girl because she was loved by my maternal grandma’s family to the point of building a church with her name, in a rural area in Cartago, Costa Rica. Cartago is one of the provinces in Costa Rica. Mother Angelica and St. Teresa were extraordinary people within the Catholic Church. St. Teresa walked up and down her country, Spain, in order to found convents as she revamped the Carmelite Order. Mother Angelica has given our Church the most sophisticated means of evangelization of the entire world while defending the Church laws as well!!! Plus, St. Teresa suffered many illnesses, one of them being paralyzed and by a miracle she was able to walk again (similar to a Mother Angelica’s health problems as a young nun). She was also persecuted within the Church!!!

Within two hours of the announcement of Mother’s death, I suddenly felt that it will be Mother Angelica, my intercessor to restore my health and one day, maybe this miracle will be used to start her canonization process. I then remembered her severe trial of not being able to talk since 2002, had produced extraordinary fruits for the growth of this gift of God, EWTN in several languages!!!!! She, singlehandedly and with her faith, is the foundress of the world’s largest religious media network with about 264 million households worldwide. Only God could have done it through a servant that said, “yes” like Our Lady did!

Tuesday, March 29

I had to shop at the nearby city where Whole Foods organic store is located. The Lord arranged my time for morning departure to avoid major traffic and did the shopping. In the mean time, EWTN in English and Spanish were running many programs regarding Mother Angelica. On this day, still I had not checked the computer site for EWTN/Spanish to check on the schedule. I came back from the shopping done at 12:15 PM. By the time I placed the items bought in their places, I sat down at 12:30 PM and checked on EWTN in English and it was running one of her old programs from the 1990’s. I went ahead and changed it to EWTN/Spanish and found a LIVE program where they were receiving calls from different people while waiting for the LIVE Reception of the body just released from the funeral home into the grounds of the Shrine of the Blessed Sacrament in Hanceville, AL.

Mr. Jose Maria Corominas who has done programs for EWTN, called Live from Madrid, Spain and told a story about Mother Angelica. In 1997, his small daughter (2 y/o?) was diagnosed in Miami, FL with a rare virus which usually leaves negative challenges for the patient like being unable to do any sports. In the mean time, his mother was visiting Alabama and EWTN headquarters and where Mother Angelica was residing at the time, and she spoke to Mother regarding the state of health of the little girl, and showed her a photo. Mother closed her eyes, touched the photo and prayed for the child. Later on, Mr. Corominas’ mother called him to ask for the status of the baby. Well, the child’s health had changed radically. His mother told him about the prayer and they compared the times when the prayer was said and the child’s betterment and they were the same. Now the young woman is 18 and is her school’s swimming champion!

I immediately knew that my shopping time for Whole Foods had to be arranged and that my turning into EWTN/Spanish had to be precise for me to hear the story, some 48 hours after I had felt that she would also intercede for my health issues. Had I found EWTN/English already showing the events LIVE of the reception of her body into the convent to spend time with her beloved Sisters and Companions, I would have left it there and never check the other channel. As always, I felt how the Lord handles my schedules to live His will according to the needs of my soul, and how He can be so exact, so loving as a shepherd loves his sheep, that only His mercy could explain my tuning in to know this story and increase my faith for her powerful intercession! These events left me for an entire hour with a sense of gratitude to God for being so faithful. I also realized the importance of constantly checking His holy will for me in order to keep schedules so tight as the one just described… and not miss important moments to help me grow in my conversion to TRUST HIM REGARDLESS OF ANYTHING ELSE and to take care of some of His souls.

Thursday, March 31


It was a beautiful day for my spiritual growth. EWTN in Irondale and EWTN in Hanceville kept showing pieces of the life and talks of Mother Angelica and they did a superb job… God bless them. They prayed Rosaries for her, a Holy Hour in Irondale, a Vigil prayer in Hanceville with her body present, and all showed the faces of many priests already present to be tomorrow in her funeral. I do not think that any President of this U.S.A. after death has produced so much commotion in the souls of people; of course, in her case she is touching the souls of people in the entire world in the millions…!!! The early Mass at Irondale was offered for her and Fr. Dominic’s homily was excellent. In his prior years before his present studies in Rome, he would easily use the homily to complain about those who were against the Church in whatever ways and I usually had trouble extracting any use for me with his homilies. Now, he sounded terrific…


The programs of this day reminded all of us of the serious problems that Mother Angelica had with some Bishops and how at one point the USCCB wanted to start this Catholic media network but Mother Angelica aided by God, was able to do the impossible in humans terms. So, today during one of the Rosaries prayed for her soul, I clearly understood why the Lord chose her versus the USCCB. Of course, Satan is simply very good at mediating chaos in anything that has to do with Jesus’ Gospel and its preaching worldwide. And the Lord did it using Mother Angelica and not the Bishops, not because they were not capable but because Mother Angelica had been prepared 1) by carrying so many crosses and 2) with some 40 nuns or so behind her (do not know the number of nuns) who were adoring Jesus day and night exactly at EWTN headquarters!!! Prayer of this kind, constant and representing great love for Him PLUS Mother Angelica’s crucifixion with so many sufferings, left Satan without a chance… We do not know of any heavy fights for power over the network by any of her priests or nuns!!! With the USCCB, I am sure that there would have been subtle fights for power in the decision making sphere for the network due to Satan’s intervention with many temptations without the help of a body PRAYING for the network!!! And they would be lacking one member suffering like Mother Angelica, since their duties as Bishops would basically negate this opportunity. It was so clear for me as I prayed the Rosary with thousands of people all over the world!!!!


Today, I was also reminded of the problems that Mother Angelica had with a Bishop regarding a few things about the Eucharist. I must report than in my last parish in Ohio, a good parish, during a 40 Hour Retreat, an older local priest and chaplain of a local university, came to talk to us and said, “You do not have to go to confession to receive the Eucharist.” This happened and I heard him around 2005-2006!!!!!!


I am glad that this woman who died in Alabama (with only 2% of Catholics) was the perfect servant of God as it was the Bishop who accepted her offer to come and move her still very small group of nuns to adore the Blessed Sacrament and atone for the sins of the mistreatment suffered by the African-American community. Eventually, she was able to kill two birds: atone for those sins and install this huge media network that we know as EWTN. I am also happy that her funeral was planned for tomorrow, April 1, the day that this country knows as “fool’s day.” And YES, SHE WAS A FOOL FOR CHRIST!

During today’s Vespers and Rosary for the soul of Mother Angelica with her body present and open for visitation by the public, I also realized something very interesting… I thought that the presider Bishop of Birmingham would preach the homily but it was Fr. Miguel from the Order of Priests she founded. He did an extraordinary work at it. He placed her with all her faults, virtues and “love” to Jesus as an example of becoming a bastion to be imitated by all present at the Shrine of the Blessed Sacrament and via the Network present in the entire world, so that we all choose to start our journey of recognition of how to follow Him, how to be the perfect servant and allow Jesus to work through us. We have to choose to go to heaven or to hell!!! There is no doubt that Mother Angelica is already praying for her own “babies”.


Ever since I have started following the frequent introspection regarding my degree of faith, prayer and acceptance of suffering (FPS) as discussed in the last blog, I found myself having trouble to sin against my neighbor!


Examples: 1) When I see in TV Masses, laity who have received Holy Communion going back to their seats to watch around for other people passing by instead of  showing profound adoration for the moment, I find myself saying, “Lord, forgive them for they do not know what they are doing.” In my heart there is no resentment or spiritual discomfort of any kind as I felt even recently.


2) When they show sad or disinterested faces during any prayer in Church, I find myself saying, “Lord, forgive them for they are trying their best but they have not been properly catechized!”

3) When a driver passes me forcibly in the expressway close of producing an accident, I find myself saying, “Lord, have mercy on this driver and protect him/her from an accident.”


Notice that I wrote, “I find myself” and not, “I try to feel this or the other way…” There is no question that in this Extraordinary Year of Mercy, His mercy is abundant and totally takes care of our not merciful attitudes and old behaviors. But again, notice again that at all times, I find myself checking as to how I am doing His will to the last detail in order not to obstruct His mercy for me or others; I also pray often besides the time dedicated to the Rosary and to TV daily Masses, now that I cannot personally attend them. I also pay much attention to accept all suffering as a treasure for my purification, sanctification and my work as the Cyrene helping Jesus during His daily cross in this world that has lost the taste of His mercy!

I must thank any of you who did pray for me for this blog to see the light. May you have a very blessed Feast of Divine Mercy!

I want to close sharing with you the list of topics discussed in the book, so that your prayer over it may become a merciful shower of graces for me to finish its editing. Notice that I placed the Lord at the end as the Commander who taught me all these medical issues not known very well by the medical profession, like reversing dementia and preventing depression. I did it this way in order not to scandalize the non religious, especially the atheists and agnostics or any other from other denomination. I love them enough (thanks to Him) not to mix God with these findings so not to indispose them in any form. I certainly mention this fact in the prologue of the book, so those who are religious do not have to wait to read the entire book before reading about His love for me and them with the findings of these important health problems.


Again, thank you for your prayers and  I am asking the Lord in a public way that any merits/graces coming from the help to many, to be shared with all of you for your important work of interceding that I can finish it, despite my bad health and my sickly left eye, which every so often forces me to rest from writing,  because it affects this eye…



Chapter I – PROLOGUE

CHAPTER II – Dementia in the world today

CHAPTER III – Reversal of personal memory loss


 1. Prologue discussing toxicity and its different sources

Our present Toxic Environment and its sources. How toxicity affects our health

 2. Mercury

3. Fluoride

1) Fluoride toxicity and osteoporosis 

2) With regard to soft tissue involvement, studies were presented that dealt with neurological lesions (nerve damage).

3) The Chinese scientists also reported higher infant death rates

4) Fluoride Research and Dental Caries (cavities)
5) Fifty Years of Fluoridation (1945-1995) by Richard G. Foulkes, M.D.

6) FLUORIDE’S EFFECTS ON THE BRAIN and other organs:   (1998)

7) Statement from Dr. Phyllis Mullenix on the Neurotoxicity of Fluoride

8) Information linking fluoride and CNS dysfunction continues in 1998.

9) Fluoride Poisoning


11) Fluoride: lowering IQ’s?

12) Fluoride and cavities

13) Brush with Fluoride to Prevent Cavities! (2014)




VI. Detoxification process in our bodiesGlutathione and toxic overload

VII. Detoxification for other specific conditions

1) Parkinson’s and possibly autism –

2) Weight gain and difficulty to lose pounds secondary to poor natural detoxification (yo-yo dieting)

VIII. Summary of Internet articles on depression

IX. Depression caused by a food additive – Personal history

X. Findings that helped me through the years

1)   Back pain and anger. Mind Body connection

2)   How I was cured of chronic migraines headaches

3)   Calcium and how to avoid the formation of plaque or renal and biliary stones

4)   How to avoid severe nausea and vomiting after general anesthesia

5)   Herpes virus and its relationship with vitamins

6)   Quick pain relief with a hand held special electric device.

7)   How to stop an upcoming sneeze with acupressure

8)   Imagery  and the plasticity of our brains

XI. The grace and love of God behind my discoveries











How to fill up the empty half of the cup of my soul with a frequent short inventory of my spiritual life!

March 1, 2016

In this blog, I will share the way that my Lord has indicated I should live my spirituality, and spiritually being understood as the road to follow in seeking Him at all times to establish a LOVE relationship and not just to look very Catholic in the eyes of the world. In fact, in practicing this way of life, the graces themselves that come from it will protect me from many sins without I even trying… I want to remind you that this is my personal guidance and you are free to adopt it or dislike it. Also, remember that I am not a theologian! However, as I have followed it in the last 2-3 weeks, I have felt a huge difference in how I love more, situations and human beings!!!

As time passes by and our lives change in so many ways, and as our cups (souls) are partially filled with knowledge, experiences, fears, happiness plus great blessings, I wonder if we ever think of how to fill the half or 1/4 of the cup that remains empty? Do we? I suspect that we keep doing the same things, like accumulating possessions of any kind including knowledge of the Bible and preaching the greatness of Jesus in our lives but we never often inspect our interior spiritual status or ongoing conversion!  In general and in recent times, the social media and our controversial political scenario in the U.S., have robed us of the time to meditate in our previous years and where we are now and where God intends us to go as we say “yes” to His will to allow the Holy Ghost to take over the vacuuming of our souls. Distractions come by the millions and with the distractions also comes our tendency to judge and fear, approve or disapprove, like or dislike, to the point that we forget that our passing through this life in the world is rather short and it needs attention in order to become every day a better witness of His mercy!

As I was thinking on the above terms, I realized that there is much said, discussed, opinionated upon and written about our next steps. People bring ideas and plans of how to grow in spiritual terms, but always with words and without a clear witness of living such life. However, we never touch the subject of how to die in peace. Death is not something that we are willing to accept as the most certain event in our earthly journey. Our efforts are usually aimed at retarding death by procuring a better health and hopefully never face leaving this earth. Sometimes, I see God being brought to the forefront but with the idea of saving us from departing. In general, I do not see much progress in spiritually preparing our years left on earth.

The Lord ( and I will Him, “Doctor Holy Trinity”) whose other name is Mercy, has prescribed for me a spiritual treatment, which assesses several times a day, my walk towards Him but always seeking as well the salvation of other souls. So, it is a matter of following His lead as I try to correct my routing and recognizing the stones in my path, like those that Satan, the world and my flesh throw at my passing.

Personally, the treatment of any distractions, fears, major health problems and all that keeps my cup half emptied consists of 3 principal practices. Sure enough, as I agreed to do it, I invited my DOCTOR to TAKE OVER and this opened the door of my soul to receive the guidance of the Holy Ghost within, and hearing Him, understanding Him and having the courage to proceed in each instance LIKE NEVER BEFORE. It has been a wonderful 2 weeks of learning how to fight the exterior and interior forces that try to derail my journey and keeps the half cup (soul) empty/dirty. In the process I was sent to read a page in my first floor Bible. It had to do with 2 Maccabees, chapters 6 and 7, where Israel was being persecuted (as we are today as Catholics) and God’s mercy changed everything and exactly what we should expect happening in this special “Year”…It gave me much hope!

After this Bible teaching received on February 26, I will give you following the calendar sequence, a few stories of the events that I encountered and that made me recognize His Presence around me and within my brothers and sisters. The experience of His Presence in so many ways helped me to remain faithful to the frequent daily inspection of my soul/engine. Doing so, I have noticed a sense of love for others deeper than before, whether they are my enemies, or if I do not like their behavior or if they are my friends. This is the grace of God protecting me from reacting to distractions caused by my own dislike of people or by my desire to change them, or my reaction with resentment or fear. The love I feel for them cures the possibility of negative feelings on my part. It happens that through His Plan of treatment to help me grow, I have become merciful as my Father in heaven is! You will see that later ashown in how I treated two people who came to my door to sell me their beliefs as Jehovah Witnesses! I was surprised at my own behavior. I realized that Jesus and I had opened the door to offer them love. Again, His Presence was awesome!

As mentioned above, I will start with MANY Biblical quotes because the Holy Spirit wants it that way in this Year of Mercy…!!! You shall see how important God’s Mercy in the Old Testament was.

From the two BOOKS OF MACCABEES – I will summarize the general story of Maccabeus which means hammer, for those like me not instructed well in this section of the Old Testament, and finally conclude with the exact section that I was sent to on February 26 and that started it allà about the power of His Mercy!!!!!! We have to discover the power of His love by the way He is merciful to us!

General historical data copied from two different Catholic Bibles and identical summaries:

“1 Maccabees was written about 100 B.C. in Hebrew. We only have the pre-Christian Greek translation. The author probably a Palestinian Jew is unknown. His purpose in writing is to record the salvation of Israel (like the salvation we need in 2016), which God worked through Mattathias, especially through his three sons, Judas, Jonathan and Simon and his grandson, John Hyrcanus. The doctrine expressed in the book is the customary belief of Israel, without the new developments which appear in 2Maccabees and Daniel. The people of Israel had been especially chosen by the one true God as His covenant-partner.  HE IS THEIR ETERNAL BENEFACTOR AND THEIR UNFAILING SOURCE OF HELP. The people, in turn, MUST BE LOYAL to HIS EXCLUSIVE WORSHIP and must observe exactly the precepts of the law He has given them. (There is no doubt that these chapters show us how WE ALL ARE CREATED AND CHOSEN FOR A PARTICULAR JOURNEY TO CONVERT SOULS AND LEAD THEM TO SALVATION IN JESUS CHRIST. The question then is how much attention we pay to our particular duty as willed by God, without us trying to do our own work even if it is not exactly what we were created for?).

“2 Maccabees like the preceding one, receives its title from its protagonist Judas Maccabee (or Maccabeus), and it is not a sequel to 1 Maccabees. The two differ in many respects. Whereas the first covers the period from the beginning of the reign of Antiochus IV (175 B.C) to the accession of John Hyrcanus I (134 B.C.), 2 Maccabees treats of the events in Jewish history from 180 B.C. to 161 B.C.  Of theological importance are the teachings on 2 Maccabees of the resurrection of the just on the last day, the intercession of the saints in heaven for people living on earth, and the power of the living to offer prayers and sacrifices for the dead. “(Wow… Love this last part. It offers so much history of our own practice in our Catholic Church).

As I reviewed later these readings of 1 and 2 Maccabees in a different  older Bible, I found out that I started reading it on January 20, 1996 (20 years ago). And I had discovered in 1996 how much it talks about the mercy of God and so I wrote in the areas that it does so. I will try to quote several short verses that bring the mentioning of God’s mercy like no other section  in the Old and New Testaments…

CHAPTER ONE OF 1 MACCABEES:  “The Maccabean revolt: After Alexander died, his officers took over his kingdom, each in his own territory. “There sprang from this sinful offshoot, Antiochus Epiphanes, son of King Antiochus in the year 137 B.C. In those days there appeared in Israel men who were breakers of the law and they seduced many people saying, ‘Let’s go up and make an alliance with the Gentiles around us…’; some among the people promptly went to the king and he authorized them to introduce the way of living of the Gentiles… They covered over the mark of their circumcision (similar in semblance to our Baptism); they altered and abandoned the holy covenant (Exactly what we have seen happen in our land in the XX C up to today!)

“Antiochus proposed to be king of Egypt. He invaded Egypt with a strong force and Ptolemy was frightened at his presence and fled. After Antiochus had defeated Egypt in the year 143, he returned and went up to Israel and to Jerusalem with a strong force. He insolently invaded the sanctuary and took away the golden altar, the lamp stand for the light with all its fixtures, the offering table, the cups and the bowls (etc.) (Verse 25) And there was great mourning for Israel in every place where they dwelt and the rulers and the elders groaned.  (29) Two years later, the king sent the Mysian commander to the cities of Judah and he came to Jerusalem with a strong force. He spoke to them deceitfully in peaceful terms, and won their trust. Then he attacked the city suddenly, in a great onslaught, and destroyed many of the people in Israel….

“Then they built the City of David with a high massive wall and strong towers, and it became their citadel. There they installed a sinful race, perverse men… storing up weapons and depositing their plunder they had collected in Jerusalem. The citadel became an ambush against the sanctuary, and a wicked adversary to Israel at all times, (27) and they shed innocent blood around the sanctuary; they defiled the sanctuary. Because of them the inhabitants of Jerusalem fled away, and she became the abode of strangers. She became a stranger to her own offspring and her children forsook her. (39) Her sanctuary was as desolate as a wilderness; her feasts were turned into mourning, her Sabbath to shame, her honor to contempt, her dishonor was as great as her glory had been, and her exaltation was turned onto mourning. (I sense that this could be compared to what we have seen happened to our Catholic Church in the XX C).

(Prohibitions against Religion) (41) “Then the king wrote to his whole kingdom that all should be one people, each abandoning his particular customs. All the Gentiles conformed to the command of the king, and many Israelites were in favor of his religion; they sacrificed to idols and profaned the Sabbath (Ouch!). (In verses 44-50 there is a list with all the prohibitions against religious practices). (Verse57) “Whoever was found with a scroll of the covenant, and whoever observed the law, was condemned to death by royal decree. Women who had their children circumcised where put to death, in keeping with the decree, with the BABIES HUNG FROM THEIR NECKS; their families also and those who had circumcised them were killed. (62) But many in Israel were determined and resolved in their hearts, not to eat anything unclean; they preferred to die rather than to be defiled with unclean food or to profane the holy covenant; and they did die. Terrible affliction was upon Israel.

1 Maccabees 4:24 – ”As they (Judas and army) returned (after winning the war against Antiochus), they were singing hymns and glorifying Heaven, ‘for He is good, for His mercy endures forever.’

(Below are the readings, which I was led to on February 26, 2016, in page 512 of my Bible in the first floor)

2 Maccabees Chapter 6 – (Verse 6) – A man could not keep the Sabbath or celebrate the traditional feasts, nor even admit that he was a Jew.

(Purpose of Divine Judgment) (Verse 12) – “NOW I BEG THOSE WHO READ THIS BOOK NOT TO BE DISHEARTENED BY THESE MISFORTUNES, but consider that these chastisements were meant not for the ruin but for the CORRECTION of our nation. (I love these words; they can be applied to our times and not to become disheartened.)  It is, in fact, a sign of great kindness to punish sinners promptly instead of letting them go for long. (Verse 14) Thus, in dealing with other nations, the Lord patiently waits until they reach the full measure of their sins before He punishes them; but with us He has decided to deal differently, in order that He may not have to punish us more severely later, when our sins have reached their fullness. (Wow… His mercy has no limits!) HE NEVER WITHDRAWS HIS MERCY FROM US. Although He disciplines us with misfortunes, He does not abandon His own people. LET THESE WORDS SUFFICE FOR RECALLING THIS TRUTH. Without further ado we must go on with our story.

(Verse 18)  “Eleazar, one of the foremost scribes, a man of advanced age and noble appearance, WAS BEING FORCED to open his mouth to eat pork (Basically as EWTN is being forced to pay for the insurance for its employees to cover birth control pills and abortions on demand). But preferring a glorious death to a life of defilement, he spat out the meat, and went forward to his own accord to the instrument of torture, as men ought to do who have the courage to reject the food which is unlawful to taste even for the love of life. (In the next verses, those in charge of that unlawful ritual in private suggested to him to give them the right kind of meat he could eat to bring it for him to eat it without sinning; yet, Eleazar preferred death than to leave the impression that he had eaten pork…)

2  Maccabees Chapter 7.

A mother and 7 sons were tortured and martyred for refusing to eat pork.

(Verse 20) – “Most admirable and worthy of everlasting remembrance was the mother who saw her seven sons perish in a single day, yet bore it courageously because of their hope in the Lord. Filled with a noble spirit that stirred her womanly heart with manly courage, she exhorted each of them in the language of their forefathers with these words, ‘I do not know how you came into existence in my womb; it was not I who gave you the breath of life, nor was it I who set in order the elements of which each of you is composed. Therefore, since it is the Creator of the universe Who shapes each man’s beginning, HE IN HIS MERCY, will give you back both breath and life, because you now disregard your selves for the sake of His law.’

(Verse 24) “Antiochus suspecting insult in her words, thought he was ridiculed. As the youngest  brother was still alive, the king appealed to him, not with mere words, but with promises on oath, to make him rich and happy if he would abandon his ancestral customs: he would make him his Friend and entrust him with high office. When the youth paid no attention to him at all, the king appealed to the mother, urging her to advise her boy to save his life. (She went through the motions and when closer to him said in their native language,) ‘Son have pity on me who carried you in my womb for 9 months, nursed you for 3 years, brought you up and supported you to your present age. I beg you child, to look at the heavens and the earth and see all that is in them; then you will know that God did not make them out of existing things; and in the same way the human race came into existence. DONOT BE AFRAID of this executioner, but be worthy of your brothers and accept death, so that in the time of MERCY, I may receive you again with them.

(Verse 30) (The youth refused to obey the Kings command and spoke long to the executioner.  (Verse 37) – “ ‘Like my brothers, I offer up my body and my life for our ancestral laws, imploring God TO SHOW MERCY SOON TO OUR NATION, and by afflictions and blows to make you confess that HE ALONE IS GOD.’ (Verse 40)Thus he too died undefiled, putting all his trust in the Lord. The mother was last to die after her sons.

2 Maccabees Chapter 8 – (Verse 1) “Judas Maccabeus and his companions entered the villages, secretly and summoned their kinsmen and by also enlisting others, who remained faithful to Judaism, assembled about 6,000 men. They implored the Lord to look kindly upon His people, who were being oppressed on all sides; to have pity on the temple, which was profaned by godless men; to HAVE MERCY ON THE CITY, which was being destroyed and about to be leveled to the ground; to hearken to the blood (In 2016, the blood of aborted babies) that cried out to Him; to remember the criminal slaughter of innocent children (aborted babies) and the blasphemies uttered against His Name, and to manifest His hatred of evil.

(Verse 5)ONCE MACCABEUS GOT HIS MEN ORGANIZED, THE GENTILES COULD NO WITHSTAND HIM, FOR THE LORD’S WRATH HAD NOW CHANGED TO MERCY. (Wow) He captured strategic positions and put to flight a large number of the enemy.” (End of Biblical quotes)

I was amazed to see how similar this story is to our present days. It only suggests that some humans fall into the same ways of denying God and the consequences that come with it… You could place instead of the word temple, the Roman Catholic Church, and next to word Israelites who never denied the law of God, all of us who want to keep the Commandments. YET, AT THE END, GOD’S MERCY TOOK CARE OF THEM… Therefore, our present work is to keep worshiping our God in every way stipulated by His law and the temple rules (The Catholic Church) as we expect His mercy to bless us.


Wednesday, February 3

I needed to purchase some food and it meant to drive to another city’s organic health food store and to the nearby Target store. I usually ask the Holy Spirit to lead the way and do only what He wants me to do. I do it for two reasons: because my flesh wishes may take me to be tempted with people that may make me upset, like cars that try to move in front of me at 65 miles per hour and with no enough space to do it… I also do ask God for guidance because He may have customers for me or He wants to show me how much He loves me by the way some help me… BUT THE MAIN REASON THAT I ASK THE HOLY SPIRIT FOR GUIDANCE, is because I want to exercise my yes to His will… which is the key to my building my love relationship with Him. That early morning I heard a Hispanic priest say that for God to act immediately in our affairs, I only need the faith that God will solve all problems in the most perfect time. (Read the story below and you shall find an example!)

I prayed the Holy Rosary with EWTN/espanol and by 9:50 AM I felt certain to leave for the health food store. On this date, the fruits of always following the guidance of the Holy Spirit were clear: I found an organic hot tomato sauce with garlic that my son loves to put over the fish pieces I also get at this store. I had been looking for this item everywhere, including this store without any luck. On this day, without me knowing about it, I walked through an aisle and placed my eyes on the very bottom shelf and voila, they were there, tons of jars. These moments are always full of awe, love for God and happiness to see how He solves all my problems and while I still had a couple of unopened  jars at home… I also bought 3 cupcakes for my son which he likes very much, to eat one after dinner. As I finished my shopping and came to the car, I asked Him for guidance if I could stop at Target (needed some Evian water which has the least amount of fluoride and sells with the better price at this store…).

In route to my city I remembered that I needed a special sugar called Ribose. It is this sugar taken with Co-enzyme Q10 that produces a chemical called ATP, the source of energy for every cell in our bodies… Anyone who is tired all the time should take these two products twice per day, in order to feel full of energy by the third dose or so. I asked for permission to stop at this other health food store in between the previous one and my home. I was led to proceed. I had shopped there just the day before and forgot to get ribose. I went in and another customer passed me in order to open the door for me…and I got the product and the manager of this store saw me line to pay and she opened another register just to take care of me and with tons of smiles. This was another hint that my Lord was shopping with me and wanted me exactly there at that moment in time. It was by then close to 11 AM, and in that area the traffic is brutal at lunch time. If I had thought about it while at home, I would have avoided going there on this particular day.

Then I went back to the expressway and again asked the Lord about stopping at Target or not. Lunch time in this shopping center is also crazy and finding a place to park is impossible. As I approached the Target area, I exited the expressway and felt that if He would find me a good parking, I would stop. If not, I could not walk a long distance to enter the store. As you may have read before, I do that in cases where I am passing during the lunch time. I did not find a space as I went through several rows of parked cars and with many other cars doing the same in front of me. Some 5 minutes later I decided to leave and bingo, the space of the first row right in front of Target was empty!!!! He did it again!!!  This is the type of merciful action that He uses to make feel loved!

Thursday, February 4

It was early in the afternoon and I needed to go just to put some gasoline in my car. I could not do it the day before because I had done much and my knees were complaining. I went to this Chevron nearby gas station. A woman about 35 y/o, was about to fill out her own car. She left it going and ran to me to help me with my own car!!! She left me to disconnect her own car and pay. She ran back to me again and asked how much I wanted in… I said $30.00. She disconnected my car when it got to that amount and I thanked her a lot. There were no more cars waiting for us to leave. So, I told her that I had a gift to give her for her and mentioned about how to reverse memory loss. She was super interested and told me that she is a registered nurse in route to the hospital to work. I then also mentioned how the thickener of food, carrageenan, can give depression to some of us, especially because in her job she can find many patients that could be helped with this information. She was even more interested and knows of someone with depressions that have been hard to treat!!! Tana and I became friends. God had done it again!!!!

After filling the car and full of joy and thanksgiving, I was given permission to go to a nearby place to buy a special tape needed in our home. As I was walking to the front door of an ACE hardware, a man ran to me with a cart!!!! It is easier to get a cart even if I am not going to buy much because it helps my knees much more than just walking with a cane.

As I arrived home, the mail carrier was arriving and I know him. He is Filipino and Roberto came all the way to my garage to give me the mail. He mentioned how he is losing his memory!!!!!! I gave him the short teaching in how to reverse it… He was fascinated!!!! I promised to leave for him the entire story of how to do it and asked if he had an email that I could send it to. He said that his kids have a computer but that he is not good at using it. Three days later, I left for him 20 pages about how toxicity produces memory loss and could produce Parkinson’s as well, in case he ends up with the problem. About 2 weeks later, I ended up diagnosing a priest  and guest in one of EWTN’s nightly programs who presented himself as having short memory loss and some Parkinson’s symptoms. It is clear that toxicity is making many very sick. Of course, how I wished I could find this man and let him know about it, because general doctors will never make the diagnosis. And this is one of the reasons that I need to publish the book with so many important points for many people, like my mail carrier and this priest.

Friday, February 5

Close to 12 noon, I had much pain in my knees and some swelling in my feet and a very painful callus has developed under my left foot. By the way, I found out that Co-enzyme Q10 in a higher dose plus Ribose sugar can produce extraordinary diuresis (much loss of urine). So I took it and then asked my Mother what to do about my health problems. Yes, the toxicity in this area where I live with my poor natural detoxification is part of the problem. My son has decided to look for another job far from here and in order to get a less stressful present one, since many of his co-workers call him day and night with questions about the upkeep of their site, even that he has nothing to do with that part of their jobs… Yet, he will answer to them and has no desire to negate his help.

This man was born with a “genius” of a brain as told to me by many of his teachers, including at Notre Dame University. As a Data Base engineer, he is strangely knowledgeable and then consulted by co-workers at any time, any day of the week, etc. The stress is extreme and he wants to find another job. He told me of his plans and he wanted first to pray to know when to start. We are in this phase, waiting for the Holy Spirit to guide him. Your prayers would be appreciated. It will offer me an answer to move out of so much environmental petro-toxicity. 

At 12:40 PM, my Ma came and said, “When you ask about any of your needs, have always in mind that you are more interested in saving souls than in solving your health problems. You seem to forget it! And you proceed to forget the finishing the book. Do it for me! (“For you?” I asked)

O.L.: “Well, maybe you will care more and really finish it. Then I will pray that you can do it soon. You are home wasting time. Your health is getting worse by the day! Once I pray to God to help you with the book, AND IF YOU DO IT for the good of others who need the information, then your maladies will get better. Yet, you must get serious and work to finish it. Heaven is waiting for this book with ideas and solutions for the human race. Remember that your findings were given to you by God Himself. It is His material that you should publish. It is not yours!!! It will be an act of Mercy from God to His people through you and especially in this Year dedicated to His Mercy. Otherwise, just praying for your health will not work because you are not obeying the second most important Commandment, which is your first duty. Each month, work 3 weeks for the book and one week for the blog. Again, finishing the book is the key for your physical well being. Be sure that you examine the use of your free time and avoid wasting it.” 

I asked for some Biblical confirmation of what I had heard and I received this: John 13: 34-35 – 14: 7, 10 – I give you a new commandment: love one another. As I have loved you, so you also should love one another.  This is how all will know that you are my disciple, if you have love for one another.”  If you remain in Me and My words remain in you, ask for whatever you want and it will be done for you. If you keep My commandments, you will remain in My love, just as I have kept My Father’s commandments and remain in His love.”

John 14:21 – “Whoever has My commandments and observes them is the one who loves Me. And whoever loves Me will be loved by My Father, and I will love him and reveal Myself to him.”     

There was no doubt that I had lost the way and did not love my brothers and sisters more than my own interests and well being! I was remorseful and asked for His pardon.

Saturday, February 6

My son suddenly became very sickly. I knew that it was a bug (bacteria) but from what food? At one point, I thought of the meal he had on this day for lunch in a restaurant. However, one does not get that sickly in just 2-3 hours, since by 4 PM he was deadly ill. Eventually we suspected of the plain cupcakes that I had bought at the organic health food store. We made it to Mass on that Sunday but he was only able to eat some soup all day.  He was so nauseous that I wondered if he had had the symptoms of a small stroke… One cupcake was still there. On Monday Feb. 8 he stayed home. Wednesday he was feeling fairly O.K


Thursday, February, 11


With great difficulty I went to Mass to offer it for a dear friend, on his birthday and to honor my Mother as she appeared in Lourdes. After Mass, I threw away the cup cake that was left but thought: "Hmm, what about if it was really the cupcake or something else going on in his brain?" I decided to eat the cupcake and I almost died…!!!!!!! Since I am allergic to gluten, I expected a mild diarrhea, but instead, I had the very same symptoms that he had shown a few days before. Yes, the cupcakes were the culprits… By Sunday, February 14, there was no way for me to attend Mass. Yet, at least I knew that it was a bug… And at least I was feasting with the Holy Father’s many talks in Mexico and Live Masses…

 February 12 to 17 – Pope Francis visited two countries: Cuba for a few hours and Mexico for 6 days. The trip to Mexico was a dream for me because I was able to hear him speak Spanish at all times and translations are never the same. The Hispanic TV station Univision had their own people in Mexico and they reviewed many stories about each city.

He spoke with great wisdom and the Holy Spirit was truly speaking through him. The Seat of Peter has a great representative. I have copied all his words that appear in the Vatican site and I will study them, in order to remind myself of what the Holy Spirit said through Pope Francis.

I have being led to ask for Mercy for everyone who has contributed to create this empire in the Internet of sites that allows reviewing anything and everything that we like and need to study for our own spiritual benefit.

The Univision Mexican crew gave us much insight of the different cities and Bishops and Dioceses involved in his trip. For example, they said that some workers will earn $7 per day! What an atrocity! The stories of why Mexico does not have an official religion came to be reviewed, all tied up with the work of the Masons which came to this country at the end of the 1800’s. In fact, A few years ago, I wrote a lot in a blog on this problem of Masons and the persecution of Catholics in no less and no more than in the country of Our Lady of Guadalupe, the most famous and first apparition of sorts of Our Lady in the entire world.

Monday, February 15

It was while I saw the Holy Father’s travels through Mexico that I understood so much more. On this day, the Mass was in Tzotzil, in the State of Chiapas with a huge crowd of Indigenous communities, followed by his visit to a children’s hospital in the Diocese of San Cristobal de las Casas. The children were the same that I have anesthetized in my professional practice. They were mostly in treatment for cancer. They accepted the visit of the Pope with great happiness, ignoring completely their own health issues (A great lesson for me).

It was at 9 AM and during the Mass that suddenly I was moved profoundly and said to my Father, “¡Papa tea mo! Ayúdame a ser tu verdadera hija y enséñame a seguir Tu voluntad como nunca antes, esto es, con gozo y certeza que me amas y quieres sólo lo mejor para mí. Te amo, Papito! (Translation: “I love You, Dad. Help me to be your true daughter and teach me to follow Your will like never before, that is, with joy and certitude that You love me and want only the best for me. I love You, Daddy.”)

At 9:15 AM and just before the Consecration, my Mother came and said, “You need to know three things: FOS or FPS in English… 1) FE – Faith, which means TRUST in His love and blessings for you and certainty without any fear that His will is the most perfect gift you will receive. 2) ORACION – Prayer with the celebration of the Mass, and abundance of the prayer of the Rosary and the Chaplet of Mercy asking for His mercy. 3) SACRIFICIO – Sacrifice composed of suffering with present health problems and any other problems.

Towards the end of the Mass at 9:30 AM, I received a page to check in the Bible, 788, Isaiah 7:9b. “Unless your faith is firm, you shall not be firm.”

At 11:15 AM, I was in the kitchen cleaning dishes when I heard that  FOS (or FPS), must be lived surrounded by a feeling of gratitude, of thanksgiving, and this practice will fill what it is still empty of the cup (soul) in my life.

At I PM (my time and 3 PM Mexico time), Pope Francis went to the Cathedral to visit with the elders and sick people.

Later he visited a stadium in Tuxtla-Gutierrez in the State of Chiapas and he received different family groups. A 14 year old boy, Manuel, had lost his muscle power since age 5. He suffers from muscular dystrophy. The young man could not hold the paper with the words to be said to the Pope and his parents knelt next to his wheel chair to hold it for him! The young man spoke very well and said that his incapacity was aimed at teaching other young people that God exists!!! He looked radiant, full of grace as he said such words. Even the most humble people who spoke, did it with profound truths.

Thursday, February 18

I was still mesmerized by the words of Pope Francis and how I have to keep doing what will fill the half empty cup of my soul. His visit to Mexico was a show of the Holy Spirit for these end times. I learned that the government of the country of Mexico has no religious affiliation!!!  Yet, knowing that it was due to the Masons that the Church received a horrible persecution since the early XX C, I could see the thousands of people coming to be with the Holy Father and just as Our Lady of Guadalupe did when she appeared four centuries before and millions converted in short years. I am more than certain (my own opinion) that she was behind the people that helped the Holy Father plan this trip choosing the different groups that he addressed in only 6 days, plus giving him stamina to make it… It was a true miracle…

This truth made me think that yes, our Mother is also behind my call to CONVERT, TO CHANGE by doing something so simple. On this day the section on Faith was explained to me considering all what it means: 1) Doing the will of God; obeying His commandments no matter what, especially those of loving God and neighbor. 2) Prayer is essential not only for others but for my need to “see” and “hear” and have the courage to work on my soul to become malleable to God and His designs for me for the good of the Church and to give Him glory. This has to be a clear mandate on a daily basis as I ask for His mercy. 3) Suffering is essential for my own purification and to expiate for my sins and those of the whole world united to the suffering of Jesus, with the offering also done to save their souls.

Saturday, February 20


The sudden death of Supreme Court Judge Antonin Scalia was another major beautiful strike of God. Pope Francis has talked much about the importance of the family. In Mexico he met with 200 couples. And of course, the death of this very Catholic man showed with great “NEON” lights what a family is all about. His funeral Mass was celebrated by his son, Fr. Paul Scalia, at the Shrine of the Immaculate Conception in Washington, D.C. His 8 other children were there and thousands filled this precious church. The Mass was carried by EWTN, CNN and Fox.


His son gave us the most extraordinary homily that moved me and many others. From the very beginning it was Christ-centered and his father’s extraordinary work as a Supreme Court Judge for 30 years, was never put first or to make much talk about it. His homily was TOTALLY FILLED WITH THE HOLY GHOST…Some members of CNN and Fox became hysterical with the homily (one of them is Hebrew); they commented the wisdom and beauty of Fr. Scalia’s words. I also could not believe what I had heard… I know that all the Judges from the Supreme Court present must have been touched… It will help them make fair decisions… now that the Court is divided after his death with 6 conservative and 6 liberal Judges.


Saturday, February 27


The front door bell rang and then someone knocked and usually I do not open because of many cases where vandals come and kill the person answering. I looked through the little hole in the door and saw a man with a big hat. He looked older and then I decided to open. It was a couple in their 60’s and trying to give me a card inviting me to attend a meeting where the death of Christ would be discussed. I listened to them with GREAT PEACE… I then asked what denomination they belonged to and they said that they were Jehovah’s Witnesses.


I felt a PROFOUND LOVE FOR THEM AND SPOKE LIKEWISE, saying, “I am a Roman Catholic all the way to Rome. It is obvious that your beliefs and mine differ much, but thank you so much for coming!” The lady was smiling from ear to ear and super happy. The man seemed also touched and they said good-bye. I was left totally taken by my own behavior. It is obvious that I had nothing to do with this love. It was Jesus” love for them and using me to deliver it. In other similar occasions in my 40+ years in this country when I opened the door to Jehovah witnesses, I was left with some resentment and never felt love for them. But I remember that they would attack me with words trying to make me fight about Bible truths. As they left, I would be furious. This time it was different! Love was present on my side and produced love in them to respect my wishes.


Sunday, February 28


The Oscar’s took place on this evening and it was very interesting!!! The best movie, Spotlight, was about the story of the abuse of children by priests that went on in Boston, Mass and covered up by the Cardinal in charge of this Archdiocese. Interesting that the Passion of the Christ was never even mentioned at the Oscar’s of 2004. Yet, this movie was chosen as the best!!! This was a big triumph of Satan since in years to come the movie will keep this major sin of our Church refreshed in the mind of many, more so with winning the Oscar. BUT, the BEST ACTOR Leonardo DiCaprio said at the very end of his acceptance speech, short words about Pope Francis and how the Holy Father asks us to have faith and love for others!!! Recently, this actor visited the Holy Father and of course, both want to protect the environment. However, he did not have to mention the Pope in his accepting speech for his Oscar. Pope Francis is right now so well received by most people in the entire world, that DiCaprio’s kind words will help those who see Spotlight, with the hope generated by this Pope’s worldwide acceptance. It is interesting that today, many have talked about this actor and re-play his speech but they cut his words about Pope Francis!!!




You may ask why did I quote the 2 books of Maccabees so much? I understand that the Holy Spirit insisted in me doing so to underline the deep emphasis that God’s mercy had for the Israelites. Even more important is to see how they so often prayed to God for His mercy after having so many problems with their enemies, and how Judas Maccabeus was able to conquer all the enemies and bring peace to the Israelites. The author’s words are so full of meaning… Again, let me repeat what was read before:


(Purpose of Divine Judgment) (2 Maccabees 6: Verse 12) – “NOW I BEG THOSE WHO READ THIS BOOK NOT TO BE DISHEARTENED BY THESE MISFORTUNES, but consider that these chastisements were meant not for the ruin but for the CORRECTION of our nation.” What a beauty for us to read them in our present times…


It is also necessary to insist in remembering these two books of Maccabees in order to expect that as this year goes on, that we believe in how God’s love for us shows up as acts of mercy over us, and that when we pray the Chaplet of Divine Mercy, we are recalling the power of His love with great faith. 


Regarding the way I was asked to practice FPS many times during each day, I will explain how I do it… And remember that I received it on February 15 and by February 27, I already received the Jehovah Witness couple with great love… a first in my life.


Right as I wake up, I review what faith means for that moment. Normally, much pain is already felt if I had not taken Tramadol within the 6 hours before to ease the pain. I immediately refuse to question what am I going to do with this enormous pain and instead, I say yes to it because His will is everything for me. I usually thank Him for understanding such truth. Often I used to wonder when this problem is going to end and how little my doctors can help out, especially because all is due to toxicity and most doctors have no idea of what toxicity can do. In fact, in the last two days, they are repeating over and over in the news that they found out that obesity produces some memory loss…  I smile when I hear this so call new “study” since some obesity is due to toxicity, as I have experienced in my life. Let me review it for you and no to forget if you need some day this knowledge.


As you may remember, after I bled from a gastric ulcer in August of 2013 and 7 units of blood were given to me, I lost 40 pounds in 3 months without diet and with zero exercise since I was recuperating from these two hospitalizations. Let me explain it better: I had lost 7 units of blood or all my blood volume and replaced it with blood from other human beings, most likely from people who have a normal detoxification activity in their bodies. Those 7 units most likely were pretty free of toxics. My brain received such blood and immediately ordered my fat cells to die… It is clear to me that toxic’s create the necessity in the brain to store fat. Toxicity also produces memory loss and with detoxification, the memory comes back… and in my case, in two languages, since Spanish was gone and it is back 100%.


In fact, because of my allergy to foods, I cannot consume what I need for my liver to make enough glutathione, the chemical that detoxifies our bodies. Therefore, within this home located some blocks away from a petroleum refinery and next to a very busy 8 lane expressway (four in each side), I have started to lose my memory in English… I also smile about it because I know that if we move away from so much environmental toxicity and if I get injections of glutathione, I can lose the weight and reverse all my memory problems, and most likely reduce my food allergies or shall I say, “reverse my food allergies”? Once the allergy to the foods that the liver needs to make glutathione is reversed, I could start eating them and also help out by taking Barley Grass, a powder made with the green plant of barley and known as a great detoxifier according to the Japanese Dr. Hagiwara who found this out in the 1970’s; in this way, I would detoxify normally and my memory loss and extra weight could be just history. Of course, it seems that obese people lose their memory more often than normal weight people; yet, both are really caused by toxicity and this is the kind of NEW information that I have for my book to be published…


All of these blessings support my faith and I want to do His will just because I KNOW THAT HE LOVES ME SO MUCH! Just to reverse my memory loss is simply the pure mercy from God. So, when I reflect for just seconds on my faith, I know that God exists and loves me so much!


Then I can pray for a few seconds and usually consists in telling my Lord how much I love Him; but more than that, I must find the time to pray several Rosaries per day with intertwined Chaplets of Mercy, where I ask my Father to cover me with His mercy.  At times, I end up praying what the Angel of Fatima prostrated himself, prayed to the Blessed Sacrament suspended in the air, in 1916, 100 years ago, and that I know by heart:


“O most Holy Trinity, Father, Son and Holy Spirit, I adore You profoundly. I offer You the most precious Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity of Jesus Christ, present in all the tabernacles of the world, in reparation for the  outrages, sacrileges and indifference by which He is offended, By the infinite merits of the Sacred Heart of Jesus and the Immaculate Heart of Mary, I beg the conversion of  poor sinners.”


At other times, I simply pray the Our Father or a Hail Mary or both.


Suffering the pain in my knees that to do not allow me to go to Mass at the early hour of 8 AM, because I have to arrive one hour earlier to compete for parking space with the members of the school, in order not to park in the huge parking lot that is very far from the church’s main entrance, is immediately offered for my sins and of the many in the world. I also make sure that I say “yes” to my suffering as a great way to offer praise to the Holy Trinity. I have been doing it as stated before, for 14 days and I can see the difference…


These three exercises done often during the day, create in me a desire to thank God without even thinking about it and also, I do not wonder too much as to what is going to happen next in my life regarding so much pain. I find myself serving others without even planning on it. When I am in line for a supermarket’s cashier to pay for what I bought, if I see someone with just a few items, I immediately offer to let them go first. It is interesting because by the time I do the shopping here and there, and trying to buy all needed so not to come back… because walking so much makes me ache much more regardless of the pain medication taken close to this event, I still let others go. Last Tuesday, I did it and gave a 60+ year old the chance to go first, and she accepted but as she was waiting for another client ahead to pay her bill, she got out of my basket all my items… It was a huge gift for me… and my knees… Love generates love.


On the Hispanic radio, I heard someone say these words, “Si no vives para servir, no sirves para vivir.” Or, “If you do not live to serve, you are not good to live.”


There is no question that these three easy ways (FPS) to be practiced all day are full of graces and remind me of my Mother’s actions. She had faith and said yes to the plans of God… She left immediately to serve Elizabeth, her cousin and to bring the Holy Spirit to her and the child in her womb. She spoke the Magnificat and mentioned God’s mercy twice. After Elizabeth gave birth to St. John the Baptist, people around her spoke of the Mercy of God over Elizabeth to allow her to conceive at such an old age…It is clear that the Mercy of God was something of great importance for Israel.  


However, the practice of FPS is also of great value in evaluating our faith, our prayer life and how we handle our suffering. As I go through them during each day or if I find myself wondering as to what will be next with these ailments, I immediately confess any transgressions and ask for God’s pardon. All of these steps are filling the empty half of the cup (my soul). It truly works!  And I have to thank God over and over and write about it, because this is the treatment I should follow and it came to be during this Year of Mercy!  


P. S.: 1) Thank you to those who pray for me each month. I know that such prayer opens the door of my soul to the Holy Spirit and I feel so liberated, so joyful and peaceful. Please keep praying for me so that I can clean my soul and fill it with the prescription I received this month.


2) Our political situation in the U.S. for electing this November our next President is beyond my understanding. Perhaps some of you reading this blog could start filling your soul with the same prescription I received and this way, our prayer could be heard so much faster, so that it is only Jesus Who could do the choosing by moving the people to elect the best candidate. For those who do not live in the United States, please keep us in your prayers. Thank you for doing so.


3) I need to finish the editing of the mentioned book full of important information for all human beings. I  need fair health for my bad left eye so that I can finish it as my Lord and His Mother are asking me to do. PLEASE KEEP ME IN YOUR PRAYERS… Thank you so much.