This month turned out to be very interesting. Satan was around and I had to be patient because God was allowing it in order for me to become skilled at not paying attention to what he does and believe that I am under the protection of His mercy and it should be sufficient.
ALBERTO HURTADO CRUCHAGA was born in Viña del Mar, Chile, on January 22, 1901; he was orphaned when he was four years old by the death of his father. His mother had to sell, at a loss, their modest property in order to pay the family’s debts. As a further consequence, Alberto and his brother had to go to live with relatives and were often moved from one family to another. From an early age, therefore, he experienced what it meant to be poor, to be without a home and at the mercy of others.
He was given a scholarship to the Jesuit College in Santiago. Here he became a member of the Sodality of Our Lady and developed a lively interest in the poor, spending time with them every Sunday afternoon in the most miserable neighborhoods. Later in his life, his apostolate was the expression of a personal love for Christ the Lord; and again, it was characterized by a great love for poor and abandoned children, an enlightened zeal for the formation of the laity, and a lively sense of Christian social justice. Pancreatic cancer took his life while still very young and in the midst of terrible pain, he was often heard to say, “I am content, Lord.”
What was predominant in his life was his capacity to love: a gift lavished upon him by God, which he knew how to develop thus establishing, in the light of the Gospel, an intensely growing personal friendship with the Lord. His ever-increasing familiarity with Him which, in the mind of Saint Ignatius, Father Hurtado acquired by contemplating the mysteries of the life of Jesus Christ, was at the root of the attitudes characteristic of him. Precisely because he was truly in love with Christ, he fixed his gaze on the Lord Jesus and His way of life while He was still on earth. He passed long hours contemplating the manner in which Jesus acted in various situations in which He found Himself. With the eyes of his heart, 1) Father Hurtado specially admired the way by which Jesus paid attention to persons, 2) how He made His the sufferings of those who were in pain. He was fascinated by Jesus, and thus Jesus’ way of thinking and living increasingly became in a way part of St. Alberto being. He conformed himself to Christ and thus was authentically His disciple. His relationship with the Lord, therefore, did not have anything to do with a spiritualist intimacy divorced from reality. It was a real and effective sharing in Jesus’ way of living and dealing with people, seen and loved in the social context in which they were, seen and loved truly and effectively in the measure of their need for authentic human warmth, altruistic love, formation and justice.
23 October 2005 by Pope Benedict XVI. (End of notes on his bibliography).
When it was my time to see one of the employees, she first told me (and after 20 minutes standing at her window) that there was a problem with my picture of my present license and that they had to investigate the case. I had to sit down to wait for the problem to be resolved, as she took care of somebody else. I thought that maybe they had used my picture for somebody’s driver’s license. She could not elaborate. While waiting, I started praying the Rosary!
Eventually, I was called and told that they could not do the investigation right away. It would take some time and she did not know how long! I asked that if I could get a special permit if it would go after my birthday… She said, "With this problem, you could not even get a temporary license! After your birthday, you cannot drive…” I almost screamed but again, I had to let the mercy of my God fix the problem, and I am sure that this was a fruit of the Rosary. I proceeded to quietly call the Holy Spirit. Suddenly, I found myself saying, "I need to appeal to someone else about this injustice. You make the mistake and now I have to pay for it. After my birth date, I will not be able to go to daily Mass or go shopping for food. I will not even be able to drive for an appointment I have with my retinologist for a treatment for my eye." She then said that she would check with her manager!!!!!!!
By now I was sure that Satan was into all of this. It did explain my anxiety of the last days about visiting this place since two years ago they also treated me poorly during my driving test. The anxiety was not related to the poor treatment as much as facing the possibility of losing my driver’s license, which God could allow to happen! However, since I have to live the Joy of the Gospel, I said to my Lord within, "Yes, Sir, I am here to do Your will. Have mercy on me a sinner and mercy on all these morons." Immediately I was corrected by God within me… Of course, I cannot call them morons… So, I repented and said, "Have mercy on these Your images who are a little confused by Satan." I had to go and sit down until she would take my case to her manager.
Finally I was called by another lady, and probably the manager; she told me that they were investigating my case. Apparently, the photo that appears in their computer with my name and all my data, was defective and not exactly the same than the one appearing in my driver’s license card. Immediately I knew that Mr. Satan was truly behind this odd thing. Supposedly, it was new for them. She even had to call other people in the central offices but she gave me a temporary license until March 27, and also made an appointment for the driving test for March 13 at 10 AM... And, God’s mercy won this battle. But, what about if I were confused or with dementia and had not appealed the first decision? Even for these employees with Satan behind or not, they seemed to be very comfortable with telling me that I simply had to wait until they can fix my picture after the INVESTIGATION was done!!!! The first girl kept saying, "I am sorry but there is nothing that we can do for you until the investigation is over and I do not know how long it will take." Well, as she was saying it, her face did not show any remorse at all! And yes, this particular branch will be in my prayers for a long time, even after I get my new license. They truly acted as morons! It was as scary as two years ago. Obviously, I have to grow in praying for them but feeling merciful as I do it… The healing would consist in not feeling that they are morons at all and I am super sure that God will bless me with the necessary grace. What worries me now is that two years ago, when I suffered a horror at the same place, I never did anything about it… I say it because this time as I entered the place, I felt some resentment!!! Ouch!
From the newsletter titled “Blaylock Wellness Report for November 2014, I will quote a few lines on the subject titled “Air Pollution causes Brain Damage."
Risks to the developing brain: the most rapid and extensive development of a baby’s brain occurs during the last trimester of pregnancy and the first two years after birth. But the prefrontal cortex, which controls the most complex and advanced types of mental function, continues to develop until around age 27…. The prefrontal lobes are essential for focusing attention, which is critical for both learning and deeper thinking. Damage to this area of the brain can result in easy distractibility – what we sometimes call a ‘wandering mind.’
"Another part of the prefrontal lobe (the orbito-frontal cortex) is critical for making social decisions, as well as controlling fear and other types of social behavior. Teenagers often make poor decisions such as jumping off rooftops, driving recklessly, climbing high towers and other risky behaviors. The reason is that this part of the brain in teens, and even young adults, is still incompletely developed. Particulate pollution can impair the maturation of these critical brain areas.
The 10 most polluted cities in the US.
1. Los Angeles (metropolitan area including Long Beach and Riverside)
2. Bakersfield, CA
3. Visalia and Porterville, CA
4. Fresno and Madera, CA
5. Sacramento, CA
6. Hanford and Corcoran, CA
7. Houston, TX
8. San Diego, CA
9. San Luis Obispo and Paso Robles, CA
10. Charlotte, NC
THE ABOVE ARE ONLY HIGHLIGHTS OF THIS SPLENDID REPORT of 12 pages. It is interesting that California is a dangerous place to reside regarding toxicity! (Ouch).
Dr. Russell Blaylock is a board certified neurosurgeon, health practitioner, author and lecturer. He recently retired to devote his full attention to nutritional studies and research. His name will appear later in this blog and for something that I believe it will become a gift for me.
I did not feel well at all and had to go to the next city (10 minutes via expressway) to the Whole Food Market (for organic food) and to a CVS pharmacy to buy the probiotic I take and that this pharmacy always has in stock, instead of having to order it in other places. As I drove from the organic market to the pharmacy, I suddenly felt so much love for Jesus and with tears in my eyes and in Spanish I said loud, “Señor , eres mi sol – mi luna – mis estrellas. Eres mi fé, esperanza y amor. Te amo tanto!” and immediately I started praying in tongues. In English, this is what I told God, “Lord, you are my sun – my moon – my stars. You are my faith, hope and love. I love You so much!”
That afternoon, I was led to check page 161 in one of my Bibles.
Monday, February 16
I was praying the Rosary at 12:30 PM with EWTN/español. I am re learning some parts of the Rosary which I had forgotten since I have prayed in English for 40 years… It is so fun for me… Well, as I was praying I received the idea of writing a PRAYER CARD with the essentials for my daily spiritual present moments and to cover it with plastic and carry it with me always, and pray it a few times a day. Of course, with time, I would know it by heart. Little did I understand then about the importance of this card, especially when surrounded by so many confusions as described above. This is the content of the card:
Prayer to open my soul to the Holy Spirit
(To be prayed often each day!)
to do Your will. I am here to embrace my
present crosses. Here I am Lord to follow
You and Your example and to love You
with all my heart, mind and soul and my
neighbor as myself and as You love them.
increase my trust in Your love for me so
that I do not worry in each present
moment, not even for a second. Also,
increase my fidelity to obey Your will as
Our Lady and our Mother did. Amen.
If my habit is to desire to do His will come what it may,
If my habit is to desire to do His will come what it may,
On this Sunday including at Mass, I thanked God for His mercy since on this date and a little less than 4 decades ago, a nun from my parish in Ann Arbor, MI., Sister Mary Faith, took me to the first Charismatic prayer meeting in this city in a school gym with the Word of God Community, one of 3 or 4 in the same night, and I found 500 people praising God and praying in tongues. Sister had offered to go with me 3 times. I told her at the end of this first meeting, not to worry, that I would continue going by myself. The next week I placed my name to attend to the upcoming Life in the Spirit Seminar, at the end of which, members of this community would pray over me to have the Holy Ghost descend on me as in a brand new Pentecost, or said in other words, to say yes as an adult to my encounters with Him at my Baptism and Confirmation. And on May 19 of that year (the same 5/19 that you find at the top of this blog site), I did receive this new Pentecost or re-affirmation of my Baptismal and Confirmation promises, and the rest is history. I use 519 for my Internet address as well and for this site in order to always have the Holy Ghost in charge of all that I write and read… via Internet communications of any kind.
On this date of this encounter with the Third Person of the Holy Trinity, I already had four boy’s ages, 9, 7, 2 and one year olds. At the end of that year, we moved to Costa Rica to live there forever or so we thought. We had explored my husband’s country of origin, the Dominican Republic, but Costa Rica also known as the Switzerland of the Americas because we do not have an army, only a police force and a democracy never tainted by a dictatorship, was his choice My husband’s dream was to return to Latin America. It was not mine but I accepted it. However, 18 months later we were back in Ann Arbor. Of course, I needed the Holy Ghost to guide us, and God knew it but I did not. So, before our travel, He had moved us to Ann Arbor from a Detroit suburb and it is a long story of why it was done. By moving to Central America, my husband saw the problems of socialized medicine as present then and now in Costa Rica. He needed that picture to be clear in order to return to the United States without the temptation of missing a wonderful life in a Latin America.
It was in Costa Rica when I received my first locution in November of 1979, and this was to know how God would sell all the things we had taken for our home in this country. This is one of the most explicit and clear proofs for me that God is alive, then, right now and will be forever. As you can see, the Lord has perfect plans for us, and our yes to His will is simply the most intelligent move that we can make! Walking the walk with Him is simple. He equips us with everything we need. Of course, the world and Satan have re-wired our brains to substitute His Truths with lies, but with Him, all things are possible… We lost about $100,000 dollars with the move down and back. In retrospect, it was an act of His mercy to get us back to the U. S. in order for the children to have an education here and find wives and the futures that He had in mind. As part of this plan of God, my second son who had studied Psychology at Notre Dame, in South Bend, Indiana, with time he learned computer skills and today he works as an engineer in this field. He was gifted with a very intelligent brain and never has had problems with this evolving technology.
And of course, I needed to be with him so that he could put together this blog site and assist me whenever there is a problem. I made much money in my practice of a specialty that I did not choose. I wanted to be a cardiologist. He sent me to be in the anesthesia business, which would help me enormously in two ways: 1) it is a specialty that produces much money. In fact, a few days back, I received an email asking me if I was available to do a locum tenens (to cover a practice for a certain period of time) with weekends free and working only 8 hours a day, and they would pay me $175.00/ hour, or $1,400.00/day or 7,000.00 a week or about $30,000 a month… 2) It also helped me to understand how fluoride was behind my memory loss…
In a few years and after I publish the book with the details of how I reversed my dementia, many people with this illness will be detoxified and recovered from this malady. And that is simply an example of God’s mercy for this entire generation. When I pass this information to people in super markets for example, as they see me buying many large 6 pack bottles of Evian, often I am asked as to why I buy so many. I, of course, use this opportunity to pass the story about my memory loss reversal, and every time, their faces express a huge surprise and much interest on the subject matter. No one has heard about fluoride being behind this common health problem. And of course, as written many times before, all anesthetic gases are fluorinated, and this fact led me to fluoride as the cause of simple dementia, not Alzheimer’s since I do not have the genes for this latter illness. Of course, I wonder if people with the genetics for Alzheimer’s may never have a full blown case of dementia if they are detoxified as well.
His mercy helped me in several angles besides money and memory loss, because not once was I attached to money or possessions. After driving 3 Mercedes Benz’, one Cadillac and many other cars and living in mansions with very expensive furniture, I gave my monies away and never missed them even once. But my son the computer engineer, makes money enough to help me cover my needs, since $2,700/month from the Social Security check is not enough to cover all insurances, my car upkeep and very expensive organic foods. I give you all these very personal details in order to underline the fact that God’s mercy is real, is magnanimous and it represents His love for each one of us. I always tell Him over and over that He is too much and therefore, that I do not know what to do with Him!!!
On this same day, the annual program selecting the best movies, actors, actresses, writers and producers of the cinema industry came to be (the Oscar’s). I prayed much for all of them, and of course, for all the people in this theater in Los Angeles. I felt a profound love for all of them. It was a magical moment for me because I truly loved them and asked for God’s mercy for their souls to be saved. This love was not mine… It was His merciful love for them and He was showing me how I could love them very much as well.
Tuesday, February 24
The Gospel for this day was about the Our Father. In this prayer, the most perfect one since it came from God the Son for us to address God the Father, we pray that His will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Here was the topic for all of us to consider, or how to know what that will of God is for each of us and I have written much already on this subject. Here is one more explanation from one of our priests. He asked, how do we find out what His will is for us? He said that we need to pray for this knowledge, and it seemed logical to do so. Then is when I was given EVEN MORE ideas on this subject.
A couple of days ago, when I was seeking how to title this blog, I was sent to the Gospel of John, chapter 4. It is about the Samaritan woman at the well and from whom Jesus requested some water; she was the first woman and convert evangelist on behalf of the Messiah King. His 12 apostles had already been chosen and they were working on the proclamation of the Gospel, but the Bible clearly places her as the messenger of the good news in this small Samaritan town of Sycar. She made disciples of other Samaritans after the story she told them of her experience regarding her meeting with Jesus; because of her, they invited Jesus to remain with them and He spent two days at Sycar. This encounter made more Samaritan disciples as they heard His Word directly coming from Him! It is clear that God’s Word is powerful. What an amazing chain of events especially because Jesus had been denied at one point, to pass through another Samaritan town!
Here we have a wonderful example of someone belonging to a group who detested the Jews and a woman, who would have never imagined that the will of God for her was to make disciples for Jesus. This was unimaginable or simply impossible. For us, it reminds us that we can do so many things for the Kingdom, even if we cannot fathom them as the will of God for us. It reinforces the fact that we all have a special job to do on His behalf. Of course, it leaves many with the same question: “But what is the will of God for me in particular?”
It is also interesting that in this same John chapter 4, the disciples came to Jesus with food and He said in verse 34, “My food is to do the will of the One Who sent Me, and to finish His work!” Huh! So, there is a general will of God for all of us, like obedience to the commandments, but also a very particular personal will of His for each one of us. Hmm! It is so clear in Deuteronomy 31. The Lord had told Moses that he would not cross the Jordan River. In verses 7-8; 23, Joshua is commissioned as Moses summoned him and in the presence of all Israel said to Joshua, “Be brave and steadfast, for you must bring this people into the land which the Lord swore to their fathers He would give them; you must put them in possession of their heritage. IT IS THE LORD WHO MARCHES BEFORE YOU; He will be with you and will never fail you or forsake you. So do not fear or be dismayed”…. Then the Lord commissioned Joshua, son of Nun, and said to him, “Be brave and steadfast, for it is you who must bring the Israelites into the land which I promised them on oath. I, Myself, will be with you.”
Here are again the same tactics of our God: He has a plan for each of us, and this plan when allowed to be developed, will commission each one of us to do something for His Kingdom. We have only one job: to trust that He loves us and that He will see to it that we, one day, find out what our commission is and be equipped to do it. I am sure that Joshua never thought of taking all of Israel to the Promised Land. In fact, they were just there ready to cross the Jordan River and suddenly, he became the successor of the great Moses…Do we think on these terms ever, that is, that God will reveal to us His will in due time and that our work is to convert ourselves to say yes to each present moment events as the sure way to get to wherever He has already decided for us to be? And that this form of faith requires that we live a life totally abandoned to His Divine Providence, which means that I do not have to know the hows, and where and when it would happen? And that such attitude is like an extractor of His mercy because we truly trust in Him?
Regarding the Samaritan woman, there is another point: she came to believe in Him because SHE SPENT SOME TIME WITH JESUS… Notice how important is to just be one on one with Him. In the U.S, He is present in all Tabernacles without any of us being afraid of being persecuted for our faith (at least for now except for some unjust laws), which means that we should spend time with Him and not to pressure Him to tell us what is His will for us… Nooh! It is simply an encounter of love from Him to us and from us to Him. What He decides to do with this time of togetherness is up to Him but at least, we give Him the opportunity to “see” face to face, our love for Him; the fruit of the encounter could be how His Spirit within us guide us in the knowledge of His PARTICULAR will for us for that day. We know that Jesus’ overall will is to follow the Commandments, most especially those which involve love for Him and for neighbor. These two loves are like the yeast that makes us grow, as it does for a loaf of bread.
I was led to expand the understanding of what I have mentioned so far and it is to a certain point repetitious. I am sure that personally, I needed such repetition, so I will submit you to it as well! à Of course, we need and should know what His particular will is because as the Samaritan woman, we may not even fathom what we are to do. Yet, we cannot focus on just seeking on what His will is for that moment. We have to focus in our spiritual ongoing preparation full of small and major conversions, but needed to help us to hear His orders at a personal level. Here we have to add some yeast of our own: our total trust that He will find the ways to inform us of what He wants of us. AND YES, THIS IS WHEN THE LITTLE CARD I made with His instructions for praying it often during the day, is key to have His Spirit guide me to know His will at every corner of my life, BUT in His time and with many graces to carry it out.
Jesus also spoke to the Samaritan woman about another very interesting topic. In verses 23-25 He said to her, “But the hour is coming, and is now here, when true worshipers will worship the Father in Spirit and truth; and indeed, the Father seeks such people to worship Him. God is spirit and those who worship Him, must worship in Spirit and in truth.” My Bible has a note saying that “Worshipping in Spirit and truth is not a reference to an interior worship within one’s own spirit. The word spirit refers to God the Holy Spirit that reveals truth and enables one to worship God appropriately.”
Another similar explanation appears in John 14: 15-17. “If you love Me, you will keep My commandments. And I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Advocate to be with you always, the Spirit of truth, which the world cannot accept, because it neither sees nor knows it. But you know it, because it remains with you and will be with you.” (This reflects the splendor of the Sacraments of Baptism and Confirmation).
These verses are super clear. If we love Him (for example, if we truly want to do His will at all cost and accept everything He allows in our life with reverence because He has decided it to be so) and keep the commandments, the Spirit will lead us to know God’s personal will for us, and also, we would be worshiping the Father as we should. Wow! In the other hand, if we pray asking to know His will but show little interest in truly following whatever He tells us to do as an act of love on our part for Him, then the prayer is equivalent to lip service and we will have a lot of trouble trying to keep His commandments. But since we are marred with the potential of not loving Him in the ways He explains above, there we have the Sacrament of Reconciliation to confess our sins, and the Sacrament of Communion to consolidate our love for Him, in order to start all over again, and the Spirit will guide us to know His Truth and His will in all its forms.
The Church under the guidance of the Holy Ghost, has the perfect recipe for all of us to become the BEST EVANGELIZERS possible bringing to Jesus all peoples from all religions and no religion, Who in turn will take us to His Father and we can become the stars that bring peace on earth, solidarity leading to unity and witnesses of what the “Joy of the Gospel” is all about… When everything is done and said, we should always be thanking Him for His mercy to create such a wonderful plan to do powerful spiritual deeds in a world that seems to be coming apart with Satan, the world and our flesh leading us to the killing of each other at different stages of our lives. At times, homilies are wonderful but incomplete and tend to leave us with a bunch of do’s and don’ts while we try to journey with hearts that are not 100% catechized and want to work very hard for our own personal salvation. Yet, God has it all super arranged and His Son came precisely to show us in detail the Way, the Truth and the Life as we have read in John’s Gospel.
On this very day, after this feast of the understanding of this matter, I suddenly remembered that after Communion at my daily Mass, He said, “I love each one of you so much that I would go through a complete passion and crucifixion but for each one of you in particular. I would suffer such cruel death over and over if I can rescue you from your own destruction.” I felt a deep inner sense of gratitude and at the same time, of pain and shame for me not understanding the width, length and depth of His love for me and everybody else. We simply have no idea! Yet, His Mercy is standing next to us and within us waiting for our yes to His plan and then His mercy, would do the rest… Also after Communion, He had asked me to offer each Mass and as often as possible in thanksgiving for His merciful plan of salvation.
Wednesday, February 25
I received a health newsletter for February, 2015 from the same Dr. Russell Blaylock, the retired neurosurgeon and an expert in toxicity in our bodies. He gave an ample explanation about an herb called Vinpocetine. I recognized the name but did not recall what it was for. Here there is a little information about it for two reasons:
1. It can inform you of what seem an excellent product for aging brains and everybody on earth has this potential. It is also a potent anti-inflammatory agent.
2. Because it is working quite well for me and may be, it could be an answer from God since toxicity is the primary source of my hyperactive immune system, and such toxicity is intimately related with the production of inflammation; so, this supplement would help me quiet my crazy immunity.
And this test is related to another act of love from God. When I opened the newsletter so soon (normally I review them days after), I remembered having read about this supplement but a long time ago. Somehow, I was led to check where I keep my supplements and lo and behold, I found a bottle. I immediately thought that it was probably very old and being opened for who knows how many months or years back, it required that I would buy another one. However, the bottle had never being opened and the expiration dates was for later in 2015!!! Then it was when I realized that this newsletter had been written precisely at this time and that I had checked it right away, because God wanted it to be so. So, I started it in small doses as Dr. Blaylock recommends. And sure enough, I AM NOT REACTING TO MY PAIN MEDICATION with pain first from the TRAMADOL itself and as violently as before. I still have pain but now I can wait from dosage to dosage for longer and after I take it, I do not have as much pain as before. Amazing. At times, I had to take a small amount of the other drug, Vicodin in between doses of Tramadol since I only can consume 4 Tramadol tablets per day. The Vicodin, a much powerful narcotic has Tylenol and I get severe diarrhea… The most interesting part is that it works very fast since in short 4 days, I have had a pleasant diminution of my immune system hyper activity. So, I felt that I should share this little miracle with you… Would it work for the long term? I cannot even spend one minute on this subject. Who cares! I should only be interested in the fact that His love for me is so brutal that whatever He wants, that is alright with me. And thank you for your prayers… They work!!! Here is a little more about this supplement:
Vinpocetine (pronounced vin-poe-ce-teen), is a nutritional supplement derived from the periwinkle plant. It has just recently become available in the U.S. through food, drug and mass market retailers as a nutritional supplement.
The supplement is already very much in use in Europe, where physicians believe it is far more effective than other supplements — such as ginkgo biloba — used for memory and brain function. Vinpocetine actually contains many of the same cerebral-enhancing effects as ginkgo biloba, but has been shown to be more effective in much shorter time. Here are some of its beneficial health effects:
1. It is a natural compound that slows aging!
2. Increases blood flow in the brain with enhancement of cognitive ability (thinking), memory and attention, as demonstrated in studies in both animals and humans. It does it by increasing the levels of several neurotransmitters which are especially vulnerable in the aging brain, as well as for people with specific neurological disorders such as Parkinson’s disease and Alzheimer’s dementia, and also it reduces seizures.
It increases the brain blood flow by opening the smaller brain arteries and by making red blood cells flexible. The blood vessels that actually bring oxygen and nutrients to brain cells are the capillaries, which have such a small diameter that blood cells must pass through them in single file, and even then can pass through only if they are squeezed down to a smaller size. So, this flexibility of red blood cells is critical to brain health because with many diseases as well as with aging, red blood cells can become stiff and unable to pass through the capillaries. This can lead to microscopic strokes throughout the brain.
3. It inhibits excito-toxicity, which plays a major role in Parkinson’s, Alzheimer’s, Huntington’s disease, ALS, multiple sclerosis, strokes, brain trauma, depression, autism and anxiety.
4. It reduces inflammation and with this property it strikes at the central cause of many neurological diseases. By cooling inflammation, it can ease epileptic seizures.
5. It reverses hearing loss
6. It significantly increases the protective antioxidant glutathione (the natural body detoxifier made by our liver)
I have shared many things and the same theme was repeated over and over and seen from different angles, that is, to conform to God’s will without any fear that we would get lost if we are not in control of the process of knowing His will and obeying it. Our entire life is one of spiritual changes as we walk with Jesus day and night. In this month and with 2 weeks of Lent already gone, He wanted me to get rid of thinking too much about this journey. My major conversion is and will be to understand that He is the Good Shepherd and that He loves me in ways that I could not even imagine. My entire life has been made of many experiences where He blessed me with many temporal and spiritual gifts. Therefore, I must 1) daily recognize these gifts, 2) thank Him for them and 3) keep bugging Him with my prayer card, one that He composed for me to invite Him into my life to direct it and form it for the good of others, and as a form for me to praise Him and give Him glory. Of course, I must mean what I pray; if I cannot, I will ask Him for the grace and He will give it to me. Just repeating words will have little effect in my spiritual formation and ongoing conversion.
So far, He has given me much material to understand that all my health problems which He could heal instantaneously are necessary as a form of purification to keep walking in this valley of tears, in order to be His disciple in all its meaning. I have also understood ONE MORE TIME that love is the ingredient that changes the water into wine… I have an example: we have a new neighbor who is renting a home next to ours. There are a few things that I find in the back of our home and in front (once) that seem to mean she is not happy and this due to a short conversation we had about 3 months ago and that apparently she did not like it. It took me several days to recognize that Satan is using this image of God to seed division and controversy and I decided to place her in my community Rosary. However, shortly after and after Communion, He told me that I still did not understand that praying for others is lip service unless I do it with love for the other. He asked me to ask Him at a Mass to be able to love my neighbor. I did and sure enough, some 2 days later, I felt great love for her and ever since I have lost all my resentment.
Yes, any lack of love is contrary to God. I have a list of many people I have resented and still resent. Yet, I keep forgetting how cheap it is to ask and to get… That is to ask God for the grace to love them and to see how fast it happens and then to know that my prayer for them is powerful; yet, I must be careful and pray with love BUT NOT for my convenience, that is to get along with the other for my own good; I must pray with love for the brother or sister for them to receive the desire to convert and the ways, people or readings they must encounter to do so… Satan is very good at seeking ways to make us resent others. So, asking God to love them will totally ruin his plan…
Therefore, the main conversion I need right now is to always remember that I need to love everyone, and when I humanly cannot, to ask and He will give me such love ASAP. I must report that using this card for prayer, I found myself yearning to pray more and more… It is like a thirst I have now to talk to Him often but not expecting anything from Him, like a locution. It is a simple desire to tell Him how much I care for Him…I am also sure that the prayer from many of you for me is giving much fruit. Thank you!
May you have a wonderful spiritual experience for the rest of this Lent.
P.S.: as always I need some prayer.
1) On March 13 I will have my driving test….!!!!! At 11 AM, Pacific time. Please pray for me before that hour! Satan will try everything… since if I cannot drive by myself, I will not be able to attend daily Mass!!!!!!! And my eyesight with the new glasses is pretty O.K. I do not feel like I am placing other drivers in jeopardy.
2) On March 18: I will have another intraocular injection.
Thank you again!