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What did I learn in the Year of Faith?

November 30, 2013

INTRODUCTION

Once more, I sit to jot down my experiences of these past weeks, and in this particular message I want to share a few reflections and questions that I have encountered in this Year of Faith.

My health status continues to be the same. And this is good because I am writing under the heavy cross of having a hyperactive immune system with the allopathic medical profession that has no answers for it. Yes, there are many drugs to quiet it down, which at the same time can kill with secondary effects. And yes, this is precisely the best place to be at. It calls me to a high level of trust that God is in charge… I must report that the grace to trust in God in these weird circumstances is abundant. Do I say it with pride? Of course not. It is simply the truth that I live right now. I do not know how it happens except to say that God gives it to me. And why do I report it? Because I want to make sure that everybody knows that God is alive… SUPER ALIVE… Otherwise, how could I manufacture such circumstances of a very brutal illness and yet, easily dismissing it as the will of God with great trust that it is so and that He has a plan for this cross and all while swimming in the waters of peace and joy?

Deep in my heart I know that I am alright. All day long I keep saying yes to these circumstances and feel a sense of super joy coming from some place but not able to know from where. Day after day, unable to drive most days except to very near places for a few things needed from the supermarket, carries a smell of the goodness of God, which is very hard to explain. I will share a few experiences lived on certain dates and will be only reporting the most important ones because I do not feel well enough to write too much. I must announce to you that this Year of Faith left me with answers that make my heart yearn to practice them. You will be the judge.

EXPERIENCES OF PAST WEEKS

Sunday, November 3.

I wrote in my journal, “What is happening in the world is beyond understanding. But why? Where is God in all of this? Of course, He is allowing it but what does it mean? Also, I sense that something needs to be changed in the Church which I cannot pin point. This gives me a sense of mistrust but only at times. I get very confused when I see so many programs repeating over and over, like the pagan media all the possible things that need to be changed, plus many giving so many opinions and reasons as to how to do it. What a waste of time! My confusion grows when they all end saying that we must call the Holy Spirit to enlighten us but they run to give more advice as to how to do it. Hardly anyone comes up with the joy of the Spirit in their faces and professing that whatever it is, God will provide if we TRUST THAT HE CAN DO IT. Instead, the advice they give should be about how to grow in this trust in our God… Yes, we can ask Him to do it, but at the same time, we have to clean our inner temples of so many plans, and pray and fast and believe that He is the owner of this universe and that His Spirit will guide us. This is not to say to rest in our laurels waiting for God to work. No, this means to be ready with enough oil in our lamps (enough holiness in our souls) to do what He needs each one of us to do: to witness with our lives that He is not only in charge but super capable of fixing the problem. My call is to ignore what is wrong since I am not a manager. I am a daughter of this Church and my work is to suffer for her by offering my present health issues for her sanctification. But the most important is for me to understand that THESE TIMES NEED GOD’S MERCY and in a hurry. His mercy can only be obtained through trust, LIVED, and NOT JUST LIP SERVICED. Therefore, my life should be one of trust that He is in charge even of every hair of my head and that He has a plan. But, how can I live this attitude of trust until I get the grace of automatically trusting in His love for me and all of us? What do I have to do from present moment to present moment that will guarantee such trust in God’s mercy and regardless of the circumstances around?

My position in this matter should be one of servanthood. I must tell him often, “I am the servant of the Lord. Do with me as You will” and mean it… I cannot say such words and keep worrying about the state of the world and our Church, which still cannot see many baptized members coming back at least on Sundays. I need to live a moment at the time with the certitude that His mercy will do the rest. There is no question that even a yes to His will but full of worries for the problems I see, is a yes that is worse than mediocre. I am sure that this Year of Faith has brought me to realize that I am part of the problem. If I say that I have faith, I have to show it in my daily actions and thoughts, minute to minute. And this decisive yes must be accompanied by constant prayer of adoration, worship and thanksgiving. And what else do I have to do besides saying a yes as a servant, in constant prayer and expecting the Holy Spirit to give me all I need to live a resurrected life? Under this umbrella, I must seek to love my neighbor in whatever big or small ways I am sent by God to do it. Anything else, any worry, any fear, any attachment to myself trying to figure out what is next, will be very easy to combat and to win each battle.

My Mother reminded me of something. She sent me to page 555 in my Bible. These were the last chapters of the Book of Job. Then she said, “When you find yourself worrying or with fear, just think of Job… You will remember that God told Job how He created so many things, the hippopotamus, the alligators, the crocodiles, the moon, the sun, the earth, the entire universe, etc. So, He could do great things in your life as well. This will make you repent in dust and ashes as Job did for spending time thinking on what has to be done. God knows what to do and your work is to believe that it is so.”

Here is where I started to “see” what my job is: to be a servant, and servants do not worry about what is next! They live seeking to comply with the orders given by their employer. We all are employees of the Kingdom! Also, servants do not seek to advice their employer. They only are expected to do a job directed by the employer and following his/her rules.

Monday, Nov. 4

I wrote in my journal: “I went out to the nearby Target to buy some Evian water and a few other items and returned super exhausted as if a train had run over me. However, I was so happy!” It is at these times that I know that I know that God is REAL, within me, around me, in my brother and sisters, in the Tabernacle, etc. This certainty in the midst of this exhaustion but full of peace and joy brings me to pray more and to believe and hope more, and at the end, to love more, my God and my neighbor. His ways are soo easy!

Tuesday, Nov. 5.

The Holy Spirit surprised me by asking me: “What do you want to know?” I had no idea what He was talking about. I immediately said that I truly did not have to know anything… Then, suddenly, He gave me a page in the Old Testament. Much later I understood that this answer of detachment was all He wanted to teach me something, since I was not attempting to get information on how to handle my present crosses.

Deuteronomy 28: 1-6. (THE BLESSINGS OF OBEDIENCE) “Thus, then, shall it be : if you continue to heed the voice of the Lord, your God, and are careful to observe all His commandments which I enjoy on you today, the Lord, your God, will raise you high above all the nations of the earth. When you hearken to the voice of the Lord, your God, all these blessings will come upon you and overwhelm you:

“May you be blessed in the city and in the country! Blessed be the fruit of your womb, the produce of your soil and the offspring of your livestock, the issue of your herds and the young of your flocks! Blessed be your grain bin and your kneading bowl! May you be blessed in your coming in, and blessed in your going out. “(It is followed by the curses of disobedience verses 15-19)

Deuteronomy 29. In this chapter Moses brings up the past favors received (exodus from Egypt), warns them against all idolatry and the punishment for infidelity.

Deuteronomy 30: 1-3; 11-14. (Mercy for the repentant) “When all these things I have set before you, the blessings and the curses, are fulfilled in you, and from among whatever nations the Lord, your God, may have dispersed you, you ponder them in your heart: then, provided that you and your children return to the Lord, your God, and heed His voice with all your heart and all your soul, just as I now command you, the Lord, your God, will change your lot, and taking pity on you, He will again gather you from all the nations wherein He has scattered you. For this command which I enjoin on you today is not too mysterious and remote for you. It is not up in the sky, that you should say, ‘who will go up in the sky to get it, that we may carry it out?’ Nor is it across the sea, that you should say, ‘Who will cross the sea to get it for us and tell us of it, that we may carry it out?’ No, it is something very near to you, already in your mouths and in your hearts; you have only to carry it out.”

I was able to clearly understand that obedience to God cannot be discussed over and over and over; instead we are called to carry it out by obeying His commandments.

Wednesday, November 6.

The world is in chaos, and of course we know that. However these are a few examples of TV programs that are running daily in front of many children and young adults. There is no doubt that we HAVE a super URGENCY TO TRULY TRUST IN GOD… We talk about trusting God and do we do it? I suspect we do not… We think we do because we agree with the concept but rarely do we examine ourselves to see if we do… (As it turned out, the most important item I learned in this Year of Faith was precisely HOW TO TRUST GOD – to have faith in Him without any fears – and for real… and not just in words.) I will speak of three examples of moral chaos because they represent what we are living with, and such examples did call me to seek God’s mercy through my decisive trust that He loves us all and that He will take care of it, once He finds faith on earth. As you remember, Scripture says that in one particular town, Jesus could not make any miracles because He could not find faith…

1. The popular daily T.V. program from this cardiac surgeon Dr. Mehmet Oz showed something that almost gave me a heart attack. A Christine Carter, PhD, discussed this new science, the science of HOW TO BE HAPPY… She says that this science proves what a happy life depends on and it is filled with a number of emotions like instant gratification and the gratitude that comes with it. She finished the topic by saying, “The true road to happiness is the one which spreads love. Your kindness apparently increases your serotonin production.” (Serotonin is a hormone that when lacking makes one depressed.)

I was so surprised to have this new science… when all along we Christians know it and well. I thought of Pope Francis and his request to be kind to the poor and the sick. I thought of Jesus Who came to die for us out of pure love…and how He asked us to love as well to the point of death if necessary. How is it possible that we now have experts on a science of which is written about from Genesis (the love of God for Adam and Eve) to Jesus coming to this earth to instruct us, save us and dying on a cross out of love for us? We know that we were created in love by God and that He calls us to love each other. I will repeat what I have written before, “At times I think I live among mentally challenged people…”

2. A few days later some other program of this same Dr. Oz, showed me not only the confusion of this pagan world but the amount of sins that are even paraded in a morning and afternoon show from this surgeon. There are certain women called “squashers,” women who become morbidly obese on purpose in order to sit down on a man’s chest for pleasure of the latter. On purpose they gain weight to the tune of 300 to 400 pounds. Dr. Oz showed them and their clients how dangerous this squashing is. One of their customers came to this show and said that he gets pain with the squashing but this gives him pleasure. Dr. Oz explained to him that his lungs are suddenly compressed more than they should be, he cannot breathe, and for a short moment the blood flow to his brain is minimal, all of which brings a decline in oxygenation. This apparent loss of oxygen in the brain gives them a feeling that is very pleasurable.

For the woman there is a payoff, and not only of money for doing it, but they say that they do it for themselves because they are in control!!! A psychologist came to say that they actually do it because this much weight protects them from any relationship. Sure enough, one of the women said that she had been touched by her dad as a child. From then on, this person only wanted to keep other men away and obesity was the answer. As you can see, mental illness seems to be present!

3. Birth control pills. Many of us have known what they can do in women’s bodies. I am posting this topic and science in the “page” side of this blog site under the title of “birth control,” in order for you and me to easily find it and read it and remember that not only we are called as Catholics to pay for the insurance of drugs that kill babies already being conceived, a huge sin, but we are asked to contribute to the death and serious illnesses that can come from the secondary effect of these drugs. A young woman died because of her consumption of birth control pills, those taken not the day after but through the woman’s cycle. If this is not an assault in our faith and morals, I do not know what it can be.

After hearing these moral atrocities, I was called to seriously take the path of discipleship. And…. I CANNOT CALL MYSELF a disciple just because I believe that Jesus is the Son of God… I HAVE TO ACT ON IT… People have to see me and know immediately that I am His disciple. And yes, what I learned in this Year of Faith takes me to practice what I must in order to bring the Holy Spirit’s gifts to my inner temple so that I get equipped to go and preach the Gospel in and out of season, talking or just acting my trust in God. THERE IS ONLY ONE WAY TO SHOW THAT WE TRUST IN GOD… And it is in the Bible to be discussed at the end of this blog…

I must add that several people that have learned about my crazy immune system, have said to me, “You will do O.K. You just have to be patient! Everything will be alright.” In every occasion and without I thinking about it, I answer with a huge smile (one that I am not making up, but a smile full of joy that comes from within), “It is God’s will for me and He has a plan and I cannot wait to see all the miracles He will do for me.” Those hearing it have immediately opened their mouths wide and smiling keep looking at me with great tenderness. It is then that I realize that the Holy Spirit had just punched their souls with the Truth and they are rejoicing with it but without knowing what is going on! I then recognize this evangelizing moment and realize that only God can change my neighbor… I am just an announcer of His mercy over me with words of trust in His love twined with the joy coming from within (all orchestrated by the Holy Spirit), and His mercy jumps and possesses these souls at least for a few moments. It is fun and it teaches me His techniques and tools!

Thursday, Nov. 7

Still feeling very exhausted when I have to shop for food in nearby places, I arrived at Lucky, one of a chain of supermarkets around here. In the parking lot, a young woman employee was putting away some shopping carts and had one in her hands as I parked and she came to give it to me. I thanked her because it is easier for me to use the cart as a helper to walk with less effort on my part, that even using the cane. Her name was Barbara and spoke Spanish as well. After I was done and paying to the cashier and by now feeling more exhausted, sweaty and suddenly, Barbara was passing by and offered to help me out to the car since by now the shopping cart was heavy to travel with and I had my cane to help myself, plus she even knew where I had parked it.

We talked as she placed everything in the trunk. I told her that God had designated her as my human guardian angel and told her that I was very religious, Catholic and in love with Jesus Christ because of having found out when I was a child that His Presence was real in the Host, etc. She seemed very interested. I asked her if she attended any church and she said, “I belong to St. Mary’s in Walnut Creek.” Huh! I realized that we belonged to the same parish, told her about it and she was very happy! God had truly placed her as my guardian angel and I had shared the Good News with her. This simple event was another reminder of how the Holy Spirit can guide us to proclaim the Good News. He arranged the perfect timing for Barbara to be near me as I came out of my car and with a cart in her hands to offer it to me. He also placed her in my path exactly as I was ready to exit. This meeting generated love between strangers although members of a parish family and seeded her with the reality of the true Presence of Jesus in the Eucharist!

Monday, Nov. 11

The U.S. Catholic Conference of Bishops was meeting this week. I went out and did some little shopping and again became very tired. I was asked by my Mother to offer this tiredness and to pray for them and their decisions, but to be careful and be sure that I held no resentment against anybody who may remind me of past scandals not caught on time, and worse, covered up. I may add that one scandal that is always very painful to admit is that of those priests who have Consecrated the Host as the Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity of Jesus while abusing children. My pain always takes me at the state of holiness of their seminary professors… Had these men and women showed the signs of a true personal relationship with Jesus, perhaps these men in formation may have felt inadequate for the ministerial priesthood and would have left. Where was the Holy Spirit in those with the responsibility of forming these seminarians who are obviously very sick? I also end up asking myself, “What is my responsibility in all of this?” Each time, I pretty much surmise that I was not vigilant with my prayers for the sanctification of all the members of our Catholic Church!

I said two Rosaries for myself for any resentment still wondering around and to feel a profound love for all of them; I also offered my Rosaries for all the Bishops. By 11:15 AM I felt much love for all of them. Now I knew that my prayer was complete and powerful and one that God will answer with His mercy as they shepherd this U.S. Catholic Church, and simply because it was said with love for them.

Thursday, Nov. 14.

The landlord of this rented home had announced his visit with an appraiser since his mother had recently died and needed the appraisal for tax purposes, and of course in order to know the value of this home that he had inherited. I had not been able to do any cleaning in months since my hospital visits in August. When I came in 2008, I hired a house cleaner to come every two weeks, but I was not comfortable with their work. I have used them before in the Midwest and many times they stole things. Now I knew that between my son and me, we had to dust and vacuum and pick up bunches of stuff. I said to my Mother, “Mamita (in English Mommy), I have much to do. Help me.” She answered, “And you have a lot to trust. I will teach you how to do it. 1) Constantly, thank God for this new trial. 2) Agree that it is important for your inner conversion and say yes to it with great conviction that it is so. This conviction means that your yes is said as a follower of my Son, loving Him and not just out of duty to obey the commandment to love God. It should mean that you want to follow Him at all cost and follow His example. 3) Then, proceed to do the picking up of books, papers, etc., but always in His Presence, praising and thanking Him for this opportunity to give Him your love as if walking to Calvary. Sure enough, all was done and the house was ready for the following Monday. The landlord left with a big smile in his face. I kept offering the trial for Priests as I do with any crosses.

Sunday, Nov. 17.

I was in the middle of the major cleaning of this home when I attended the 8 AM Sunday Mass and my body felt as if a train had just passed over me. I understood that this weekly meeting with my God had more spiritual blessings if I did it from the cross and saying yes to how I was feeling… We still had the whole day to work and finish up for the following day, but I was totally trusting God’s love for me.

Monday, Nov. 18. After the landlord’s visit, I was led to a page in the Bible à Matthew chapter 7. There, I found the depiction of the last four days: the importance of prayer, love of neighbor, what is discipleship and the narrow gate. Sure enough, the gate had been very narrow but prayer and my desire to give glory to God as I offered this sacrifice for all Priests came with the graces necessary to finish the job. This was one more time that He signaled how close He is to all of us.

Tuesday, Nov. 19

I heard a topic discussed in TV regarding the theme of being intentional disciples and how we should take discipleship as a very serious choice in our lives; it is called intentional or constantly seeking to become disciples. Here, there is a major disagreement on my part regarding this subject. Of course, we must be intentional disciples and seek this state of life. But we have a tendency to try to organize our lives as disciples, to be the best disciples according to the definition: to deny ourselves, pick up our crosses and to follow Jesus. But I know of the best disciple ever: our Mother and she did it differently. At the end of this message, I will touch this subject matter again and will underline the fact that before we are intentional disciples, we have to be intentional…..? Again, it is at the end of this blog. By now I had understood many more things in the last days of this Year of Faith.

Saturday, Nov. 23

10:45 AM

Our Lady: “Promise me something. Do not worry about your left eye sight and the writing of the blogs. You have enough recent proof of His Presence in your life (your recent hospitalizations that did not mark you with despair of any kind; your good son who took an excellent care of you and who managed the situation full of graces for such moment; a nice home where you live with great peace and joy, etc.) THE MORE YOU WORRY, that much more you become deaf and blind to the guidance and instructions from the Holy Spirit. Trust in God requires indifference to the outcome of the things that need your attention, whether for daily personal living or spiritual. You just obey and say “yes” accepting what you are called to do in each moment with a big smile, knowing that He is all around you and within you. You do not need anything else.

“Remember when in 2002, Joint Commission was going to visit your surgery center and there was nothing written or to be followed for this three year review of the safety of the place? The work ahead of you was formidable, almost impossible in human terms. Remember that in one of your 5 AM Holy Hours that you did daily as He was perpetually exposed at Christ the King Parish, while waiting for the 6:30 AM Communion service before you left for work, you brought this topic to my Son and you also had done so before? You wanted to know what to do to pass this surgery center successfully through this review and He always told you, “I am with you. You will know what to do.” Remember? And yes, you passed it with the highest score ever in the history of surgery centers and Joint Commission reviews in the U.S. So, worrying is not only disobedience to God’s instructions not to worry and that you find all over the Scriptures, but a form of rebellion that will only bring spiritual blindness.

(Let me add that I was hired precisely to help with this review because there was not a system of checkups for these services in order to avoid possible errors while caring for patients. Joint Commission had changed the format for these reviews and did it in the late 80’s in 17 hospitals in the entire U.S. I was in the staff of one of these hospitals and learned of it from the very beginning. This is 2002 and our policies were still outdated and incomplete in content. Worse, the nurse administrator and other personnel had zero knowledge of what they were supposed to do! I was by myself and this is why I was worried. I normally would get up at 4 AM to be in the Chapel by 5 AM and later receive Holy Communion. So, this time was precious to bring these matters to Him, my only hope).

“And now you worry about your eyesight. In one hand, about the left eye because at any moment it could be totally gone, as at times you experience a transitory diminution of some of the vision still present. In the other hand, you worry about the right eye because it is your only way to read and write and drive, etc. And yet, you do not sit down and think of the things that can produce spiritual blindness. The latter is more important than the first one. Just imagine if you would have your two eyes in perfect health while you are sad and lonely, and without any of the joy you have had in recent months? In the first instance, the physical vision will cease when you die but the state of your spiritual vision will decide your “eternal happiness.” That is what WORRIES and fears could do in your life. Since fear is the antithesis of faith and TRUST IS FAITH WITHOUT FEAR, without trust, His mercy is impeded to allow you to secure your salvation and that of many others.

“Remember that all the time Satan is after you. Please pay attention and look at the federal law for health services. Who would imagine that in these times of great technology and many other sites being also huge and well run, this particular one would fail? Is this not a hint that God can win any war despite human sapience? And Satan made many in the Church very anxious about this subject and with human reason but these worries could have stopped God’s mercy to work its way through. However, in recent months the entire Church prayed for this upcoming law which contains unjust religious liberty points and the prayer was heard in heaven, and the site could not work. It is a clear hint from God that the process can be at least delayed because He can do all things; so, your work is to pray and TRUST that He can intervene with justice for all. The amount of success for this battle with this health law is in the hands of Christians because if faith is practiced like never before, that is, faith that God can win all your battles, He will!

“In the mean time, anytime that you worry, you are also sinning against God. Be proactive and attack your worries. When you worry as part of your human frailty, turn around and say yes to the cross without trying to change it or modify it and pray. Call me and call the Holy Spirit to give you the courage and wisdom to stop worrying! When Job was very worried about his life in chapter 16 asking God to understand what was wrong, He allowed his so called friends to come and make his life even more miserable… Have you ever wondered that God could have come much earlier to explain to Job that He was in charge of everything happening to him because He was the owner of the universe? Satan was around and giving his friends extraordinary words to convict Job. However, God never left Job. He only allowed him to pay for his worrying by being mistreated by his friends.”

I suddenly found myself writing in my journal, “Worrying is the most stupid thing I can do.”

Our Lady continued: “Jesus was clear about it and He said so in the Scriptures. Worrying does not solve anything. And when you pray while worried, you are not really praying, but actually telling God to bring a solution to your problems and at the same time insulting Him, since He is in charge, knows about it and only expects a yes to what is going because it is perfect and necessary for you and others. Instead, when you pray while worried, just do it to assert the truth that He is in charge and ask for the grace to trust in His mercy. With conviction, tell God that you need to SEE… It is then that the Holy Spirit will change your heart and you will understand that EVEN all that causes your worries gives you the opportunity to show Him how much you trust in Him. Also, repent in dust and ashes as you recognize your fault.” I immediately was able to connect this teaching to Romans 8: 28, which declares that the Lord takes all bad things and turns them into good for those who follow Him.

Sunday, November 24

After Communion and as I was offering the Mass for all the persons present in the church, I heard the Lord say, “In three days, counting today, you will have a surprise.”

Tuesday, November 26 (The third day!)

My Mother said that she had to tell me something. I was about to pray the Rosary at 8:30 AM with EWTN, and she asked me to call the Holy Spirit to give me three Bible readings. However, to first pray the first decade. During the second decade, to ask the Holy Spirit to take me to the first Bible reading, by opening the Bible to X page. Then, to do the same in the third decade for the second quote and in the fourth decade to get the third quote, and then in the fifth decade, to thank God for the teaching to be received. I suddenly remembered that this was the third day to receive the surprise. Would this be the one?

1. I prayed the first mystery of the Rosary and during the second one, I opened the Bible and found these stories at the end of Luke 2 and beginning of chapter 3, which obviously I did not read or contemplate until the Rosary was completed.

In Luke 2, we have Anna who had been married for 7 years. After becoming a widow up to her present age of 84, she NEVER LEFT THE TEMPLE and worshiped day and night with fasting and prayer. And Anna was able to encounter Jesus as a babe Just think what it took for her to find Jesus. She never left the Temple, prayed and fasted.

After the story of Anna, this page related the story of the young Jesus after getting lost and found teaching in the Temple out of obedience to His Father, and that He did it despite of knowing the pain He would be causing His mother and step father for three whole days…

In these two stories one can see the fidelity of a widow to the only God she knew, and how she was blessed by meeting the Messiah King and being able to recognize Him…With her constant worship and fasting she was faithful to the commandments, to love God with all her heart and mind. The fruit of this type of life was the ENCOUNTERING OF THE MESSIAH. This is a big hint for us. Fidelity to God’s commands takes us to encounter Jesus. In the other story, Jesus chooses to do the will of His Father by going and preaching the Good News at the Temple, and in this way to show us how He loved God, His Father with all His heart and mind and soul, despite the great love He must have felt for His parents.

In Luke 3, John the Baptist tells the crowds that they had to produce good fruits as evidence of their repentance. Otherwise, like any other tree without fruits, they could be cut and thrown into the fire. He was very clear as to what that meant; that is that they had to share their clothes and food with those needing it. To tax collectors: they had to stop collecting more than prescribed by the Law. To soldiers: no to produce extortion; not to emit false accusations and be satisfied with their wages. He clearly explained to them that his baptism with water was one signifying repentance, but the one coming after him will baptize them with the Holy Spirit and fire. NOTICE that John the Baptist who had been filled with the Spirit in the womb of his mother and also, one who fasted and prayed for many years before he was sent to share his wisdom (similar to Anna and to Jesus who fasted for 40 days prior to his public life), makes a clear point: it is the Holy Spirit Who will take over their lives… Shortly after, Jesus is baptized by John to make a point of what John had said or to give us an example of what it was needed: to be filled with His Spirit and become children of God the Father. Three points are evident: need of repentance, fidelity to God in prayer, and the coming of the Holy Ghost in our lives to give us the fire (the power) to announce the Good News.

I also saw much more in these Biblical stories. How many of us truly believe in the Holy Spirit beyond accepting what the Church teaches and explains? How many of us walk through life totally sure that our work is to keep our temples clean, as John the Baptist was explaining to the crowds and that he had done with years of preparation? He also referred to the importance of the Holy Spirit. How many of us realize that much prayer, fasting and repentance go hand in hand for us to hear the Holy Spirit and become powerful evangelizers under the intercession of Our Lady? Our inner temples must be prepared and cleaned up and kept cleaned in order to walk with the Spirit and produce good fruits…

At times I wonder if the prayer and fasting of Simeon and Anna at the Temple were bringing the graces necessary for one of us (Our Lady) to be conceived without sin in order to become a living tabernacle of God the Son? Otherwise, how was it possible that they were the only chosen to recognize Him? Therefore, intercessory prayer, fasting, repentance, seeking to produce good fruits, that is to change our sinful lives for lives of service and love of God and neighbor, they all are clear items with great importance in our spiritual lives for the evangelization of the thousands… But still, I was left with the question: but how could we help ourselves to do all of that without Satan, the world and our flesh getting in the way?

2. During the third decade of the Rosary, I was led to open the Bible in the Book of Revelation chapter 2. After I finished the Rosary I went to explore what the Holy Spirit was trying to tell me.

Rev. 2: 8-10

To the angel of the church of Smyrna write this: The first and the last, who once died but came to life, says this, “I know your tribulation and poverty, but you are rich. I know the slander of those who claim to be Jews and are not, but rather are members of the assembly of Satan. Do not be afraid of anything that you are going to suffer. Indeed, the devil will throw some of you into prison that you may be tested, and you will face an ordeal for ten days. Remain faithful until death, and I will give you the crown of life.”

The commentary on this reading says that “the letter to Smyrna encourages the Christians in this important commercial center by telling them that although they are impoverished, they are nevertheless rich, and calls those Jews who are slandering them, members of the assembly of Satan. There is no admonition; rather the Christians are told they will suffer much, even death, but the time of tribulation will be short compared to their eternal reward, and they will thus escape damnation.”

This message was one of consolation for the times we are living. It was interesting for me to be reminded that Satan is not only around but has worked in so many people around me and since childhood in order for me to resent them and even hate them for what they have done to me, but to my amazement, it was great to realize that God had been there with me and Satan could not lead me to brake the second most important commandment. I cannot complain. There is no doubt that I suffered and immensely and yet, I survived. The Lord God won all my battles and even kept me praying through my entire life and no matter where I was working for short periods of times (locum tenens after the major professional persecutions). If that is so, He is alive and with me wherever I am. Therefore, shall I lack any trust in His love and mercy for me? Impossible! And He is with each one of us regardless of our sinful state, but if we let the Holy Spirit guide us, we will be poorly treated but with zero negative value for our spiritual life. Therefore, whenever we doubt or are worried, we have to look for Satan who uses people, and at times very good people, but nonetheless if those persons are not guided by the Holy Spirit from breath to breath, Satan will come in and make them misguide us or mistreat us.

It was with this reading that I understood how careful we must be to have a PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP with the Holy Spirit every minute of our lives because we need to constantly discern the presence of the devil and we need wisdom to fight him back. The question is, “But how can we relate to the Spirit of God in a way that He can give those gifts as needed?” Ah, that is what I found out and believe is the only answer, but you must wait until I share the third Biblical theme that I was given on this day.

3. Romans 4:1-3; 18-25.

For what does the scripture say? “Abraham believed God, and it was credited to him as righteousness.” A worker’s wage is credited not as a gift, but as something due. But when one does not work, yet believes in the one who justifies the ungodly, his faith is credited as righteousness. He believed hoping against hope, that he would become “the father of many nations” according to what was said, “Thus shall your descendants be.” Did not weaken in faith when he considered his own body already dead (for he was almost a hundred years old) and the dead womb of Sarah. Did not doubt God’s promise in unbelief; rather he was empowered by faith and gave glory to God and was fully convinced that what He had promised He also was able to do. That is why “it was credited to him as righteousness.” But it was not for him alone that it was written that it was “credited to him”; it was also for us to whom it will be credited, who believe in the one who raised Jesus our Lord from the dead, who was handed over for our transgressions and was raised for our justification. (End of Scripture passage).

We could re-write this passage and say, “Mary believed God and it was credited to her as righteousness. She believed hoping against hope that she would become the mother of the Son of God. She did not weaken in faith when she considered her youth and her single status. She did not doubt God’s promise in unbelief, rather she was empowered by faith and gave glory to God and was fully convinced that what the Angel had promised on behalf of God, God also was able to do. But it was not for her alone that it was written that it was “credited to her”; it was also for us to whom it will be credited, who believe in the one who raised Jesus our Lord from the dead, who was handed over for our transgressions and was raised for our justification.”

There it was clear as water… We as a Church go over and over of the things to do or not to do; we emphasize the importance of the reading of the Scriptures, prayer and love of God and neighbor. Yet, at the end, 1) the outside pagan world grows in the wisdom of Satan to distract us. 2) Our Church gets shaken by scandals also organized by Satan and 3) we add to this menu our lack of attention to the history of salvation since Adam and Eve to Revelations that warns of what we could experience 4) plus we lack guts to do exactly what the Bible tells us to do.

There is a common plan for our evangelization:

1. Faithfulness to God (Simeon and Anna)

2. Abundant prayer and fasting (Anna and John the Baptist and Jesus for 40 days before His public life)

3. A call to repent from our sins with a serious effort to amend those sins (St. John the Baptist),

4. The need a) to produce good fruits and b) avoid sin, c) never forgetting the presence of Satan all around us lying, confusing us, dividing us, accusing us and using other human beings to make it possible, d) but counting with His Holy Spirit to find the right road and never deviate to the right or left; e) with total trust that Satan cannot do anything to us if we remain faithful to God (Smyrna).

5. Finally, the story of Abraham in the Old Testament and his nemesis, Our Lady in the New Testament who show us and very clearly what does it take to encounter God as a personal friend (of Abraham) and savior (Jesus through His Mother). They both believed God without any doubts…

WHAT DO WE NEED TO COMPLY WITH FOR THE PLAN OF EVANGELIZATION?

Many Saints have proclaimed the need to go to Jesus through Mary. But what does that mean? It means to do exactly what she did and at every moment of our lives. She became a partner of the Holy Spirit of God in order to bring Jesus to us… But the Spirit of God could not do anything without her yes to God’s will. When I was talking about intentional disciples, it only means to become intentional servants as she was. Or that we only have to say “yes” day in and day out to everything that is in front of us as part of the will of God for each one of us.

At one point in this passing month, I saw our Church as the Titanic… or a monstrous size ship whose chairs became disorganized as it sank. We will not sink because God promised us it would never happen. In the other hand, we are losing souls right and left and we serious religious people must do something about it. What about preaching about the Good News? Well, yes but Satan has created a social media frenzy that sinks our efforts. As we say in Spanish, “nos entra por un oido y nos sale por el otro, which means that we hear it in one ear and it leaves us through the other ear, and simply because we are bombarded with so much information coming from everywhere! Have you noticed how everybody in the news in television speaks very, very fast? Nowadays, silence is next to impossible. Reading books, saying many Rosaries without perfectly trusting that God is in charge will not take us too far. I always think of this POSSIBLE scenario that DID NOT OCCUR, and yet it is important to consider it: Our Lady hears the Angel Gabriel tell her that she is to conceive the Messiah through the power of the Holy Spirit. And then she said, “So be it” and inside her, she is waiting to see if this could really happen. Her yes would have been very conditional. Ah, but instead she answered, “This is the servant of the Lord. Do unto me as You will.”

And what about if we always think that the will of God for us WAS to become a priest or a nun or a married person and go and tell others about Jesus… Of course, it most probably was the will of God. However, the yes to God’s will covers a multitude of topics and events throughout our entire lives, and because God has no past or future, He simply is in the now, our yes must always be in front of Him and also in the NOW for whatever circumstances, suffering, etc., in order for our obedience in each present moment to be considered righteousness, and it is then that we can show everyone the Presence of the Messiah in our lives, in our words, in our churches, because the Holy Ghost will come and fill us with much wisdom, love for God and others and courage to do what it is asked of us as God’s will for each part of our lives on earth; and besides, we do it with joy and peace. WE CANNOT SAY A CONDITIONAL YES to God’s will. We must accept the fact that it is not Biblical… The Word of God does not say so. But if we do not feel up to say the yes of Abraham and Our Lady, we just ask for the grace to do so. Didn’t Jesus say that His Father would give the Holy Spirit to anyone who asked for Him?

So, if God wants us sickly, we answer yes and blessed be His holy will.

If God wants us to die tomorrow, we answer yes and blessed be His holy will.

If God wants us in a wheel chair half paralyzed, we answer yes and blessed be His holy will.

If God wants us poor and hungry, we answer yes and blessed be His holy will.

If God wants us to do huge things (and I think of our Popes who have had to be in office with advanced age) and we do not feel that we can, due to old age or need to rest at the end of our days on earth, we answer yes and blessed be His holy will.

If God wants us persecuted and carrying any kind of unjust crosses, we answer yes and blessed be His holy will.

Many will say that it is not easy to do what God wants of us… I say that the best way is to test this plan because it does work…

This is my argument and personal experience: when we are constantly determined to say yes to everything God wants of us (as Abraham, Our Lady, all the saints did) we get the grace to say yes without conditionsIt is very simple: this determination means that we love God with all our heart, mind and soul, which also means that we TRUST IN HIS LOVE FOR US. If we trust in Him, He simply rains His mercy over us… and suddenly we become “full of the graces” necessary to say yes as our Mother did. And when she did it, the Holy Ghost came into her and a BABE was formed, and this baby is still alive in every Tabernacle on this earth…This means that she chose to walk with God’s Spirit and gave Him permission to proceed and treat her as His servant. This FAITH IN ACTION cannot be produced by us; it is a gift that comes from our intentional servanthood and the action of the Spirit of God Who will give us the gift of faith and all His other gifts to win this battle against Satan, the world and our flesh. The end result is that we encounter the Baby Jesus, as our Mother did. She encountered Him in her womb. We encounter Him in our souls. We are not true disciples until we act as the most perfect disciple did: Our Lady. Sometimes, we can call ourselves disciples of Jesus but actually, a disciple must have no will of its own, pick all the crosses and follow the Master, or do what He did…and He loved His Father and us. But in order to get to that point of true discipleship we have to become servants and act as servants by telling the Holy Ghost “Yes” to everything He wants of us.

And all of the above if preached in pulpits will empty the parishes, but this could be avoided with time… Read more!!!

Then is when we have to become righteous, when we have to believe against any hope as Abraham did and let God take care of things. But usually we are organizing even our own ongoing conversion. The most difficult thing after being brain washed by the pagan media is to remain quiet and let the Spirit work on us. We think that we have to be proactive in converting ourselves since the world constantly ask us to become what we want if we try hard enough. It is hard to wait and pray and fast if called to do so, and do what Daniel and his friends did, and let God makes us walk on fire or be respected even like lions, as Daniel was, but praying and believing that God has a plan.

When God sees us with this kind of faithfulness, He will send His Holy Spirit and we all can experience a true new Pentecost, which means not that we call the Holy Spirit and then ignore His guidance in each present moment. A Pentecost is when we allow the Holy Spirit to reign in our wills and desires and needs, as we say yes to whatever we are called to do by Him. The new evangelization starts with the “yes” of Our Lady. We do not move a finger until we wait to be sent to do or say or write, etc. And when we produce fruits, then we know that we are in the right tract. But if we do not produce fruits, well, there is no problem. We repent and we pray that God will take over our will, and we ask for the righteousness of Abraham and our Lady. And fruits are evident when people look at us and see in us the joy and peace of a God that can manufacture it despite of us being poor servants of His.

How I wished that some of us would become a centralized center of power for this Church of ours and for this pagan world that does not have any idea of the beauty of God’s love and mercy. And until some of us trust in God by our constant yes to His will, His mercy cannot come to the rest of the world like oceans of love from Him to everyone. This centralized spiritually powered group must focus on the words of 1Cor 9:46, that is, to run this race as to win. And we run the race and win by our all day “yes” to everything, expecting the Holy Ghost to tells us what to do or say. If this group of Catholics keeps saying yes, this message could be preached from the pulpit and the power of the Holy Spirit will open hearts and fortify souls with His love and truth. Talking about it over and over has no value. Acting on it brings God to take over the evangelization of the entire world as He sees our righteousness, our hope against any hope that God can convert the entire world because our trust in Him will bring His mercy to do the job and like never before.

As I was heavily tested during this Year of Faith with my bleeding ulcers while I only encountered joy and peace with the grace to say yes to those very difficult moments of dealing with doctors who I do not trust too much, and knowing that I was very close to a possible demise, I CAN ASSURE YOU that this all came as I trusted (by grace) that God was right next to me at each moment, and this encounter brought so much faith and hope and love for Him. Nowadays, I can hardly stand for long periods and pain in both knees is still bugging me much and the question is on the medical side: How can I solve this problem and stop all these narcotics? How can I quiet my immune system? And always I end up saying, “I do not know and yet, I KNOW WITHOUT FEAR that God has a plan and that I want that plan for my life more than anything else…because He has helped me, His servant, ‘remembering His mercy according to the promise to our fathers, to Abraham and to His descendants forever’.” My Jewish roots seem to claim this promise.

May you have a very blessed Christmas celebration and I wish you the best for 2014.

Another related topic: the U.S. Supreme Court announced on Tuesday that it will take up the question of whether a for-profit company can refuse to cover contraception for its employees because of religious objections. The cases will be heard together, likely in March 2014, with a decision expected in June.”

Well, it is our time to PRAY, suffer and offer it up for the Supreme Court judges, for their salvation and OUR TIME TO SAY YES TO THIS TRIAL as perfect and necessary… because God has a plan and it is soo perfect that we cannot miss such perfection for our Church and our US. Our trust will bring miracles!

I close with the words from the Apostolic Exhortation Evangelii Gaudium of our Holy Father Francis:

“ 3. I invite all Christians, everywhere, at this very moment, to a renewed personal encounter with Jesus Christ, or at least an openness to letting him encounter them; I ask all of you to do this unfailingly each day.

The Lord does not disappoint those who take this risk; whenever we take a step towards Jesus, we come to realize that he is already there, waiting for us with open arms. Now is the time to say to Jesus: “Lord, I have let myself be deceived; in a thousand ways I have shunned your love, yet here I am once more, to renew my covenant with you. I need you. Save me once again, Lord, take me once more into your redeeming embrace”.

“Let me say this once more: God never tires of forgiving us; we are the ones who tire of seeking his mercy.”

“5. The Gospel, radiant with the glory of Christ’s cross, constantly invites us to rejoice. A few examples will suffice. “Rejoice!” is the angel’s greeting to Mary (Lk 1:28). Mary’s visit to Elizabeth makes John leap for joy in his mother’s womb (cf. Lk 1:41). In her song of praise, Mary proclaims: “My spirit rejoices in God my Savior” (Lk 1:47). When Jesus begins his ministry, John cries out: “For this reason, my joy has been fulfilled” (Jn 3:29). Jesus himself “rejoiced in the Holy Spirit” (Lk 10:21). His message brings us joy: “I have said these things to you, so that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be complete” (Jn 15:11). Our Christian joy drinks of his brimming heart. He promises his disciples: “You will be sorrowful, but your sorrow will turn into joy” (Jn 16:20). He then goes on to say: “But I will see you again and your hearts will rejoice, and no one will take your joy from you” (Jn 16:22). The disciples “rejoiced” (Jn 20:20) at the sight of the risen Christ. In the Acts of the Apostles we read that the first Christians “ate their food with glad and generous hearts” (2:46). Wherever the disciples went, “there was great joy” (8:8); even amid persecution they continued to be “filled with joy” (13:52). The newly baptized eunuch “went on his way rejoicing” (8:39), while Paul’s jailer “and his entire household rejoiced that he had become a believer in God” (16:34). Why should we not also enter into this great stream of joy?”

P.S.: The writing of these blogs continues to be difficult for my eyes and I will keep checking on a monthly basis if it is time to stop them. Thank you for your prayers to discern the writing of this particular one. I will discern from month to month and precede my discernment with a big “yes” to God’s will in the matter.

Some stories about my personal relationship with Christ and a call to a deeper conversion

November 2, 2013

I. INTRODUCTION

One more time I sit to write the monthly blog although my poor health is in the way. You know the entire story from the previous two blogs. And if you do did not read them, well here it is in short words: I have 4 gastric ulcers. They bled this past August in two separate occasions and was hospitalized. At the end of August I was sent home after being transfused with seven units of blood. Apparently,    my already super active immune system was surprised with not only the DNA of 7 people but with their toxins and other chemicals as well present at the time of collecting the blood. So, I became allergic to everything on earth that I put in my mouth including medications and beyond the previous 54 foods and most artificial colorants. So, every time I eat, I have to suffer another attack from the immune system and my knees hurt much. This sends me to take narcotics around the clock, which make me feel like a zombie. I wanted to stop writing more blogs until this situation is somewhat better, but my Lord said to proceed and that He would be with me. In the other hand, by chance I had left in the section where I file all my documents the blogs from October 2010 and 2010. I read them. I went to the site and read the one for October 2011All of them say basically the same thing. So, there is so little that I have to add. Therefore, the only thing I can write about has to do with my experiences with the love of God for this particular past month, and there will be repetition of some basic topics. My first blog was posted on November second of 2008. Time flies!

There is no question that this moment in my life where I have been so ill, has become a superb show of graces for me. I have been sent to stay home without daily Mass (since driving with drugs is not the right thing to do unless there is an emergency) and with ample time to SEE, to HEAR, and to UNDERSTAND so many things as if I were in a convent. The most important one is that I have received a clear call for a radical conversion… I would say that we only think of the conversions we have experienced and normally, at least in my case, we never think of the ones scheduled by God for our spiritual growth, nor do we think that every day is a preparatory day for our next conversion, which usually involves some sort of purification. Not only that, but we neglect to always know that all our conversions have a communitarian value since their respective graces are to be used for others as well. Again, let me repeat it: we hardly think of every present moment as part of the next conversion, although we may run to tell others about our previous experiences with God and get distracted with past stories, instead of always doing what it is necessary to be prepared in mind and spirit to open ourselves to the Holy Spirit for the next phase.

We become so distracted writing books and taping DVD’s, and all for the good of others, yet, just imagine if some of us had to read most of those books and watch most of those DVD’s! What do you think would happen? We would simply get bored or confused since it is the same subject matter seen from different angles. And yes, thank God for the “Story of a Soul,” and the writings of St. Teresa of Avila and St. John of the Cross and the hundreds of saints who left so many teachings in writing, but we forget that it is more important to just go to the main menu of their conversion and click on what were their main practices that made them saints and start doing what they did! Reading and reading would only postpone our own journey of conversion… BUT I MUST EMPHASIZE SOMETHING ELSE: it is alright to read books and watch DVD’s but only if God send us to do it. He uses those modes of communication to open our eyes. Yet, each present moment must be used in doing a couple of things that maintains us constantly alerted to do what He tells us for that moment in order to become an instrument of God. He does the rest. More on it later.

Eventually I was led to understand the following:  books including those who teach how to study the Scriptures are written in good faith but what is needed is a plan to work on our own conversion following what the saints and the Catechism say, aided with the Truth in Scripture and clear as to what is indispensable to do in each moment of our lives. However, we cannot simply take over this routing on our own…  We have to let God direct our transformation. These tactics of auto transformation may have Satan around with temptations to seek God in our own terms. They take our time and send us to opine about what we have read and since time flies, we end up going year after year through Advent and Lent and our change for the better is not obvious. We do not have a personal plan according to our daily duties to just sit still, “pray and obey” (most especially the commandments of Love), being indifferent to everything else, and under this tent we will experience many resurrections because our relationship with God is growing and the fruits will be obvious and many. The idea of a personal relationship with Jesus started to become a center piece for this blog.

II. STEWARSHIP AND RELATIONSHIP

These two words are deeply connected. If I am a good steward of all blessings and graces received, it will help me growing in my personal relationship with Christ.

Let me start with the definitions of these words.

What is stewardship? The dictionary calls it: the act of managing or the way someone organizes and takes care of something. In spiritual terms: what is it that we have to manage, organize or take care of? Many things but faith, hope and charity are at the top, in order to grow in our relationship with Christ.

What is a relationship?

1. Connection: a significant connection or similarity between two or more things, or the state of being related to something else

2. Behavior or feelings toward somebody else: the connection between two or more people or groups and their involvement with one another, especially as regards the way they behave toward and feel about one another.

3. Friendship: an emotionally close friendship with Jesus.

4. Connection by family: the way in which two or more people are related by birth, adoption, or marriage, or the fact of being related by birth, adoption, or marriage (we are adopted kids of our Father in heaven) (End of definitions)

In general, it seems that in the Church, we do not emphasize enough the fact that God has a master plan for our conversion through the power of the Holy Ghost and that it is related to our growth in our personal relationship with Jesus after our Baptism and Confirmation, which simply means that an ongoing conversion is necessary, plus a definite plan of what to do in order to take care and protect all graces received in order to execute such plan.

After these 3 months of severe crosses related to my health, I MUST SHARE THAT God is truly alive… and that my relationship with Him has produced many fruits.  I say it because to this date I have not felt even one second of loneliness or fear. On the contrary, I have felt much joy day after day in the midst of the pain caused by the allergic reactions to all what I eat or drink. It is also obvious that some are praying for me and big time… Thank you. My periods of oppression from Satan, so common in past months, are also gone.

So, the greatest spiritual stewardship (managing) on my part is to protect my relationship with God, the Holy Trinity. We do not have to run and read and watch and understand why the world or the Church is where they are. Yes, we must be informed and know what is going on but without generating anxiety because God is in charge. Since only God has the answers, I should be trying to become a malleable piece of potter in His hands in order for Him to use me if He desires to do so, for these chaotic moments in the history of the world. Therefore, all of us must be always reminded of our need to grow in this relationship. So, my work of managing my spiritual life is to do many other things conducive to be always in His Presence and deepen such relationship. Then He shows me His love in the little and the big things, some of which I will expand when I develop this topic further.

III. BIBLICAL EXAMPLES OF A PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD and each other:

1. There are many examples: Moses, Abraham, and even Adam and Eve had a relationship with God. But I was sent to read about the prophet Elisha and the Shunammite woman in 2Kings: 4

The story tells us that (verses 8-10) “One day Elisha came to Shunem, where there was a woman of influence, who urged him to dine with her. Afterward, whenever he passed by, he used to stop there to dine. So, she said to her husband, “I know that he is a holy man of God. Since he visits us often, let us arrange a little room on the roof and furnish it for him with a bed, table, chair and lamp, so that when he comes to us he can stay there.” (This is a tremendous witness of love of neighbor, the pure one, disinterested.) The story continues and Elisha ended up asking the Shunammite woman what he could do for her. She declined by saying, “I am living among my people.” (Her answer emphasizes the importance of relationships and friends, which were enough for her). Eventually, Elisha’s servant, Gehazi, told him that this woman did not have children and her husband was getting old. So, Elishah called her and told her that the next year she would be the mother of a child. Indeed, it happened.

A few years past and the child became ill and died. The mother took the child and laid him on the bed that Elisha used when visiting and left to personally look for him. She was in deep anguish. When she arrived, Elisha said to Gehazi as she clasped the feet of the prophet and Gehazi tried to push her away, “Let her alone , she is in bitter anguish; the Lord hid it from me and did not let me know,” and sent Gehazi with his staff to lay it upon the dead child. But the mother did not free Elisha’s feet and he went back with her. Gehazi arrived first but the laying of the staff did not resurrect the child. Elisha eventually got there and prayed for him several times and the child became alive and healthy.

Here we have an example of a deep relationship in all its angles based on love of neighbor. Notice how God had hid from Elisha what was happening with the child of the Shunammite woman so that she would go and personally ask him for help. In the other hand, she was not content with just sending a servant with the story and requesting him to come. It was so obvious to me that our spiritual life should reflect this kind of love. Elisha represents God in our lives. We prepare a room in our home for Him to be with us. God blesses us to remind us to call on Him when we have problems of any kind.  Then, when we are in trouble, we should ask the Lord to help us but with a radical personal call and certitude that he would help us in whatever way is necessary and He will come and let’s free from what is wrong in our lives. It is clear that this whole story was based in a very personal relationship or a give and take affair between two people: a prophet and a married woman, later a mother as well. The main sustenance of this relationship was disinterested love among the parties. The same should be for us. When we go through life, we should serve the Lord with all our heart and might just for His glory; then our trust will grow and His mercy will show up when we need Him. Running around saying prayers and being distracted with the world affairs, does not constitute a relationship of love.

2. The story of Jonah is superb. Jonah 4 – “Jonah was greatly displeased and became angry that God did not carry out the evil He threatened against Nineveh,”

1) Notice how Jonah had no love for neighbor. He had tried fleeing from the Lord’s command to go and preach in Nineveh precisely because he wanted them not converted so God would punish them.

2) So, he went and preached and the Ninevites changed their hearts in just one day, when it was expected to take 3 days.

3) How many of us have lived many years with total indifference to the sin of our brothers and sisters. Yes, we are quick to point them out, but have no sincere desire to rescue them because we do not love them as we should or consider ourselves inadequate or poorly prepared to do it.

4) This story points out the love affair of God with men, His creation, and that at times, despite His representatives, He insists in preaching the good news of His love and patiently He waits for their repentance.

5) It also shows us that God never gave up on Jonah as His evangelist for Nineveh… and the city repented in just one day. This makes clear that God is the only one that can change hearts. Jonah per se could not do it since he was adamantly against their conversion and worse, wanted God to chastise them.

6) God is able to remind Jonah of Who is in charge of the entire Creation!

This story points to Jonah’s relationship with God that is mediocre… to say the least. Yes, Jonah knew God as merciful… and so he said, but he was not merciful towards Nineveh… Despite of all of this, God used Jonah to save them because THEY REPENTED… This story is one of super mercy… on the part of God. The entire passage is screaming at us with many truths. Evangelization is a topic where we should understand that our present Nineveh is easy to convert… We simply have to pray for all of them and first of all for ourselves to love them where they are in order to serve as a witnesses, but short of that, we should pray that they  can repent and in just one day, I could imagine the entire world becoming Christian, Catholic and holy. And by the way, conversion will arrive as well for all of our family members or friends who are lost. If we submit to the Holy Spirit, He will instruct us and we will be sent to do exactly what God plans, and this merciful God of ours, Who in the person of Christ has already paid for the sins of the entire world, can shower us with His mercy. If Jonah served as an instrument, what are we waiting for?

It is also very important to realize that our particular state of holiness or sin will not determine our success in evangelizing others. We all should try our best to evangelize without waiting to be better or holier to do so. This also proves that we are just agents, servants, representatives of God and He is the one Who sanctifies hearts and heals them. Yet, He needs us to announce His Good News. Of course, He does not need us but wants us to act as family and this way He allows us to practice love for each other.

IV. THE SACRED HEART OF JESUS AND THE ORIGIN OF MY RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM.

As I was handed on the knowledge that Jesus was present in the Eucharist at age 6.5 years, little did I know what this would mean through the years. First of all, He directed me to this brand new convent where Perpetual Adoration had begun with a few nuns from the Order of Oblates of Divine Love coming from El Salvador. The main focus was the story of St. Margaret Mary Alacoque and the apparitions of the Sacred Heart of Jesus to her. The school’s name was “St. Margaret Mary.” So, at age 7 when I started my first grade, this particular devotion to the Sacred Heart became natural in my spiritual life. I remember how my Grandma placed a picture of the Sacred Heart in our living room, and I knew this was very important. Most likely, I was hearing at the time in school about the apparitions to St. Margaret. I still have such picture. I was faithful to celebrate the First Friday’s and receive Communion for many years after. I remember vividly when I was a teen that each first Thursday before a first Friday, I would stop at the Cathedral of the capital city of Costa Rica where I lived, San Jose, and stay in line for confession in order to go to Communion on the First Friday…Also, His Promises have been true for me.

The Promises of the Sacred Heart of Jesus (Copied from the writings of Fr. Joseph McDonnell, S.J.)  

(The original promises were eight and as Fr. McDonnell explains them.)

1. In behalf of those who labor for the salvation of souls. "My Divine Savior gave me to understand that those who labor for the salvation of souls shall have the art of touching the most hardened hearts, and shall labor with marvelous success, if they are themselves penetrated with a tender devotion to His Sacred Heart."

2. In behalf of Communities. "He has promised me . . . that He will pour forth the sweet unction of His ardent charity on those communities who honor Him and place themselves under His special protection; moreover, that He will turn away from them all the shafts of Divine justice in order to restore them to the state of grace, whenever they have fallen from it."

3. In behalf of people of the world. "As for people of the world, they will, through the means of this admirable devotion, secure for themselves all the help necessary for their state, that is to say, peace in the family, alleviation of their toils, the blessing of Heaven on all their undertakings, consolation in their sorrows. And it is especially in this Sacred Heart that they will find a place of refuge during their entire life and particularly at the hour of their death."

4. In behalf of dwellings in which the image of the Sacred Heart shall be exposed and honored. " . . . Assuring me that he took a singular pleasure in being honored under the figure of this heart of flesh, whose image He wished to have exposed in public, in order, as He added, by means of this object to touch the unfeeling hearts of men; promising me that He would pour in abundance into the hearts of all who honored It all the gifts of which It is full; and that wherever this image should be exposed and specially honored, it would draw down all sorts of blessings on the place."

5. Promise of grace to those who consecrate themselves to Him. "I find myself, as it were, completely lost in this Divine Heart, if I mistake not, as in a fathomless abyss, wherein He discovers to me treasures of love and grace reserved for those who consecrate and devote themselves to the task of rendering and procuring Him all the honor, love and glory in their power."

6. Promise of salvation to all those who are specially consecrated and dedicated to Him. "He then assured me that the pleasure He takes in being loved, known and honored by His creatures is so great, that, if I mistake not, (1) 1. This expression, "if I mistake not—- se je ne me trompe," is very frequently used by Blessed Margaret Mary, not as indicating any doubt on her part, but as having been enjoined on her by her superior, Mother Greyfié, and as the natural outcome of her own profound humility. See also Commentary on Promise, further on, answer to 6th objection. He promised me that no one who has specially dedicated and consecrated Himself to Him will ever perish."

7. Promise of a happy death to such as go to Communion on the nine first Fridays of consecutive months. "One Friday, during Holy Communion, if she is not mistaken, He addressed these words to His unworthy slave: ‘I promise thee, in the excess of the mercy of My heart, that Its all-powerful love will grant to all those who receive Communion on the nine first Fridays of consecutive months the final grace of repentance; they shall not die under My displeasure nor without receiving their sacraments, (2) 2. "Its ne mourront point . . . rerçevoir leurs sacrements." Obviously, this does not necessarily imply the reception of what are called "the Last Sacraments," in cases where they are not needed. For such persons their Confession and Communion were "Last Sacraments." See also Commentary on 12th Promise, answer to 2nd objection. My Divine Heart becoming their assured refuge at that moment.’ "

8. Promise of the reign of the Sacred Heart. "Fear nothing, I will reign in spite of My enemies and of those who endeavor to oppose me. This Sacred Heart will reign in spite of Satan and of all those whom he raises up to oppose it."

Later, the promises were expanded to 12:

1. I will give them all the graces necessary for their state of life. (He did in my case)

2. I will give peace in their families. (Notice how our families have been divided and the Church is working to reestablish the importance of the family. True Devotion to the Sacred Heart could answer our present chaos of the family unity!)

3. I will console them in all their troubles (It was evident when I was bleeding much lying on the floor of my room and felt joy and peace…)

4. They shall find in My Heart an assured refuge during life and especially at the hour of death.

5. I will pour abundant blessings on all their undertakings.

6. Sinners shall find in My Heart the source and Infinite Ocean of mercy.

7. Tepid souls shall become fervent.

8. Fervent souls shall speedily rise to great perfection.

9. I will bless the homes in which the image of My Sacred Heart shall be exposed and honored. (In the mid 1990’s I enthroned the Sacred Heart of Jesus in my home following the world-wide known format written by Fr. Mateo Crawley-Boevey, a priest born in Peru, son of an English Protestant father and a Peruvian mother).

10. I will give to priests the power to touch the most hardened hearts.

11. Those who propagate this devotion shall have their name written in My Heart, and it shall never be effaced.

12. I promise thee in the excess of the mercy of My Heart, that its all-powerful Love will grant to all those who shall receive Communion on the First Friday of Nine consecutive months the grace of final repentance; they shall not die under My displeasure, nor without receiving the Sacraments; My Heart shall be their assured refuge at that last hour.

This explains how my life was touched as explained in the promises and directed in many different ways from the beginning of meeting Jesus as alive in the Eucharist; also, how I came to the U.S. and have continued to grow in this friendship/personal relationship. Every time that I visit this topic, I end up realizing that it is so fascinating to know that He is real in the Sacred Host and remember my love for Him as a first grader. I have never wanted to visit the Holy Land where He lived and died, because it never made any sense to me. I rather stay home and be with Him in the Tabernacle in the now.  

V. EXAMPLES OF HOW THIS RELATIONSHIP MANIFESTS ITSELF IN MY DAY TO DAY LIFE!

He is always showing up with special gifts besides His Eucharistic Presence. Examples:   

1. Here I was very sickly and needed to go out and nearby to purchase the only few items that give me the least allergic reaction when I eat them: sweet potatoes and avocados. I had planned this trip for mid morning when the traffic is the least crazy and busy. I had taken adequate amounts of a narcotic and waited long enough to be fairly comfortable to drive, get out of the car, walk into the store, buy what I needed, pay and promptly come back. It was 9:30 AM. I went to start my 2009 car from a Japanese maker and it did not start. I could not leave this problem to my very busy son, a data base engineer who works 12 hours a day. After praying for a few seconds and saying yes to such mess, I decided to call the dealership’s service department in Walnut Creek (where my parish is and some 10 minutes away via expressway). They asked me to describe what I saw when I turned the key on. I did and they said that it was probably the battery. They promised to send someone to test the car. I was thinking of calling AAA for a free transport of the car to this dealership garage but they would come to first diagnose the problem.

To my surprise, in just 15 minutes I had an old man (mechanic in his youth as I learned later) and tested everything, including any light that might have been left on or turned on its own. He jump started the car without any problem.  He consulted with the garage in Walnut Creek and they said to take the car for further check of the status of the battery. I could see the bill growing by the minute. He followed me in case the battery would die on me… We took the expressway and shortly after we were there. He thanked me for being so nice and gave me a big hug. Strange then, but later it was part of God’s plan. A mechanic immediately came to work on it … Yes, the battery was dying after 4 years of use. They would replace it in 45 minutes… Indeed, it was done and all the mechanics I dealt with were ANGELS OF GOD… Love was all over. By 11:30 AM I was paying the bill. I was expecting to be some $300 to $400 minimum.  Well, no, I only paid for the cost of the battery and this one with a discount. The total was $119 plus tax, or $129…!!!!! NO LABOR CHARGES! No charges either for starting the car at my home… and the service was quick…  I am still wondering what happened! These men would look at me as if I were another angel. Yes, I had mentioned that I had driven Cadillac’s and three Mercedes Benz but in the early 90’s I had switched to this particular brand because the servicing of the cars were famous for being excellent.

I left the place half surprised and half smiling… Here I had driven to the dealership via the expressway half drunk and was coming back trying to wake up from this strange episode. God knew my health status and moved these men to love me for no particular reason. I suspect that my Lord knew that I was writing this blog about a relationship with Him, and wanted to let me know that He was there in our midst, making things work very well and to my advantage, something unheard of in these our times where everybody is shooting everybody.  In fact, just a few days before, my Mother had said to me: “The moment you deal with your brothers and sisters, you are dealing with my Son, Jesus Himself. If you do not love them, you are denying love to Him.” There it was… My brothers at this garage served me as Christ would have done it. What a truth so well proved to me. It was at this moment when my Mother had told me these things that I understood that my conversion must focus on giving my full attention to my neighbor as I give full attention to Jesus in the Eucharist.  What a lesson that was underlined by this event! Wow.

My “neighbor” has always being honored but kind of on the side of my life. My day did not revolve on loving them in whatever way… It revolved on my needs, pains, what to do, when to go to Mass, etc, etc. Yes, my brothers and sisters, Catholic or not, where there in my prayer life and I offered my crosses for them but never with the attention and care that these mechanics gave me… Throughout my life, I even have had the audacity to resent many people who have persecuted me or simply those who have scandalized me, especially in the Church. These mechanics evangelized me and made me think twice as to how I treat others on a daily basis. But they could not do such thing without the Holy Spirit being behind their extraordinary behavior towards me. In other words, they proved to me that God exists alive and in the now, and further than that, they gave me shot on the arm to try to love my neighbor with a special care as they did love me! Therefore, I should never resent anybody. Those men will be in my memory for years to come, reminding me never to resent anyone! Worse, knowing Jesus in the Eucharist since my childhood, how have I had the guts to resent anybody? Jonah did not care at all… And with this strange event in the middle of so much pain in my knees, Jesus did not want me to be another Jonah…

It also means that these blogs must be written with my neighbor in mind. I must pray for the Holy Spirit’s guidance (and I do) but with a special emphasis in meeting the needs of those reading this blog. Ah, but there is more to it. This has become a call for me to excel more and more to say “yes” to God’s will but having in mind that my obedience to Him is part of my love for my brother and sister, since I can share the fruits of such “yes” under the cross for their edification and ultimately, salvation. Around this time, I received a special call to offer my present heavy cross and all crosses to come for the ministerial priesthood, especially for all Priests to see in the laity, the face of Jesus, as I saw these mechanics looking like Jesus would have done when coming to serve me.

So far, I had in front of me a major topic to be meditated upon. In a recent program it was said that Jesus is calling us to a living relationship with Him and that prayer was a living relationship with Him. Well, I would go much further. Dealing with our brothers and sisters on a day to day basis and in whatever place and circumstances, we are called to grow in this living relationship with Christ as we consider others my family, my “little Christ’s”  and act accordingly. It could be with my thoughts or personally. This call to a living relationship is not just saying it or pretending we have a great or mediocre one. I can know the Bible backwards and forwards; I can know all the theology of the world but if I do not see in my brother and sister Jesus Himself, I am a joke and the sad part is that nobody even realizes it.

These particular experiences led me to remember that publishing the book explaining the way I cured my dementia, and how to prevent some depressions that carrageenan can start in some of us, is to act on this relationship of love between myself and those around me whom Jesus loves them as God did the people of Nineveh… Until I enter and accept this mystery of love among my Christian family members and even those who are agnostics or atheists, I can pray all I want and call it a living relationship, but the latter one is very feeble.

2. GOD IS INTO EVERYTHING… I needed a special tape to secure some magnets around my knees as I sleep (since they are old and do not stick well on their own),  in order to decrease the inflammatory response to my immune system chemical attacks. I went to Rite Aid Pharmacy where I normally buy it and they did not have it. Of course, there are many other kinds but they do not stick well enough to last me a few days of use. I visited a CVS pharmacy and it is a huge building. I asked for help and a pharmacy employee sent me to the place where all tapes were displayed. In the mean time, I was under a narcotic and using a cane just to avert a fall. Of course, I still have some discomfort since the narcotic just dulls the pain. I found something very similar (from the 3M brand) but not the 3M product that I like. It took good 5 minutes to inspect the area and other similar products. When I was at the pharmacy counter buying more SVL #3, the probiotic, a lady came at the same time and said to the employee, “I found it.” She had in her hands the kind of tape I wanted. I asked her and she told me where to find it, in a totally different area… Immediately I knew who was behind this answer needed… I had to be at the counter in the same instant that she came to spend 5 seconds and to move on. It meant that I we had made the same decision of stopping in this particular place. I had just come out of a healing Mass and went to this pharmacy which is very close. And yes, God used a sister of mine to show me where the tape would be found!!!

This is the type of relationship that is alive and available… Ah, but in between these clear signs of love I have to constantly say yes to this cross, not wanting to end it unless it happens in His time and offering it up for others but out of true love. There is no doubt that all these weeks of major health problems were planned to make me enter into my further conversion of spending each moment with the sole purpose of giving glory to God and service to my brothers and sisters. I had to further be trained to see Christ in each of them. This is why I am taking your time to give you this example. The mystery of His love is too much for us; however, this love is always around us and within us. It is up to us to “watch and pray”, the famous command that Jesus gave his three chosen disciples as He went to live agonizing moments waiting for His apprehension. Every time that He came back, he found them asleep. Nothing has changed since!!! I have been asleep as well!

VI. A FEW OTHER STORIES BY DATE

Saturday, September 28.

As I watched some college football games, I saw huge crowds, in some cases, more than 100,000, all cheering and using handkerchiefs as the games went on, I did see the faithfulness of these people to watch a very violent sport. I thought of all the babies and young children who every weekend through television are exposed to this violence as the crowds cheered. This is a huge communal sin… It invites these little ones to consider violence a very good thing to do… because you are liked by others and cheers are abundant. The following day it was the NFL that would present the same games but this time for money making. On this particular Saturday, I felt sad that I engaged my four boys in learning music and playing instruments in their respective hi school bands, so that they would not destroy their brains and bodies with this violence and have fun going to the games. Yet, I never truly thought much about other younger teen’s exposure or the people (fans, colleges and owners of NFL teams). It is obvious that their souls and physical bodies were not that important to me… As a steward I had failed big time. As a member of the family of God who created all of us, I was a joke, and most especially because I have had this relationship with Him forever.

On October 3, It became clear that I must answer my call to be a missionary and always ready to run and proclaim the Gospel, with love and more love first and foremost as the mechanics did for me, and that I must write the book explaining important health issues that have remedy in order to help many with these common and serious illnesses.

Friday, October 4.

At 5 PM on this day, my Mother said, “Remember to finish writing the book. Do you want a proof in the Bible that it is urgent that you act on your love for others by explaining these things to help many?”  I said, “Yes.” She answered, “Call the Holy Spirit and follow His instructions.” I did and was led to open the Bible and not in any  particular page. And there it was, Daniel 12:4. “As for you, Daniel, keep secret the message and seal the book until the end of time; many shall fall away and evil shall increase.” Wow! And it was interesting that in this verse it spoke of our times!  I also thought of San Francis of Assisi and how he probably would have found a way to write the book just to help others. Of course, the book will not only have very important science but out of respect for none believers I will use the last chapter and dedicate it to God Himself, and how our relationship ended up teaching me these truths of science for my own body. It will be a means of evangelization as well.

Friday, October 11

My Mother said, “Use these moments of extreme suffering for your own conversion. The more the suffering received with trust that that it is perfect and necessary, that much more you and others will receive His mercy. For these present times, there is nothing else more powerful than laying down your life for others. Whenever pain becomes unbearable after you eat or take your medicines, stop and offer it up with a clear sense in your heart that you are laying down you life for your brothers and sisters! Write the book a little each day as another proof of merciful love for them. Great miracles will follow.”

Tuesday, October 15.

I asked my Mother what to do regarding the things I need to do and being unable to drive far away and walk to supermarkets, etc. She answered, “Pray, pray, but only to stay in each moment totally indifferent to what is needed to solve your problem! What it is needed is total trust that all is well in His perfect plan of salvation for you and others. Ignore everything else. It is very simple: your trust united to my intercession will do great things for you, for them and for the Church at large. ALWAYS THINK BEYOND YOUR NEEDS. Your health problems are much easier to remedy than the dissipation you see around regarding a personal relationship with my Son.

“Everything that has to do with your crosses if embraced will be solved and with miracles besides. But things within the Church and outside, where Satan is ignored as a busy worker behind the scenes and souls are cold, divided, confused and spiritually blind regarding Satan, there is where your crosses are needed but not dragged or even with you worrying what to do about them.

“The work of evangelization has nothing to do with preaching alone, since preaching has been done in the last decades and worldwide to the ends of the earth through television. So, yes, preaching is necessary but you know that the results have been mediocre. The time has come when the mercy of God is needed to shower the earth, For that, we need evangelists whose power and success depend on the Holy Spirit and therefore, evangelists must start living attentive to the Holy Spirit within, doing what He leads them to do. Also, evangelists must not be worrying but trusting that God is in charge (as in the case of Nineveh) because His love is constant and full of mercy. So, when crosses arrive, evangelists must be glad to receive them as an opportunity to LIVE SUCH TRUST and open faster the doors to God’s Spirit to in turn open the hearts of many others. Any desperation or fear closes the door and the evangelist’s words cease to be powerful.

“Yes, prayer asking for holiness is also essential in the life of the evangelist, but such prayer must be accompanied with a perfect yes to God’s will for their life and especially yes to all suffering. This is essential to open the hearts of those in need of evangelization. This trust in God by the evangelist can move mountains, part the Red Sea and the Jordan River. This trust must be sincere, constant and exuberant. Faith is at the root of trust, yet love is the key to all this mystery of evangelization of souls. The more you practice this form of life, that much more you can call yourself an evangelist.” I then remembered how the love and service of the mechanics who changed the car’s battery truly touched me and deeply.

Saturday, October 19

My third son sent word that his first book had been published, The Urging of Christ’s Love, about the social teaching of the Catholic Church. If you are interested in the topic discussed in the book and as practiced by several Saints, I am passing on the information that appeared in the Internet, so that you can know him a little more.

“Omar F. A. Gutierrez works for the Archdiocese of Omaha as the Manager of the Office of Missions & Justice and as the Special Assistant to Archbishop George J. Lucas. He has worked for the Church since 2001 and has written on the social teaching of the Catholic Church for several years. His articles have appeared in the National Catholic Register, the Catholic World Report, The Catholic Answer, CatholicVote.com and he has a regular column in The Catholic Voice, the paper for the Archdiocese of Omaha. His series on the social teaching with Kris McGregor of DiscerningHearts.com has received international attention for its clarity, accessibility and orthodoxy. Most importantly, Omar has been happily married to his wife, Miriam, with whom he has several beautiful children.”

I ordered the book and by Friday October 25  I had a copy in my hands, which will have to wait until I finish this blog…. Here I want to emphasize the importance of reminding everyone that if we parents truly (at least try) LIVING THE YES OF OUR LADY and PRAYING FOR OURSELVES TO BE LOVERS OF ALL and act on it, this is what feeds our personal relationship with Christ and God takes care of everything else, including the fate of our families.

Friday, November 1

Anniversary of my consecration to Our Lady of Guadalupe in Tepeyac in 1992.

CLOSING MESSAGE

We cannot claim that we have a personal relationship with Christ, or better said, a personal exchange of love with Him if we study the Bible and do not act on what it says; or if we preach the Gospel without our obedience to what we are preaching. Or attend Mass weekly and even daily and forgetting Who is in charge the rest of the day. Here is where stewardship becomes an important issue for us to comply with.

We come up with great terms in our Christian lingo and “living under the Lordship of Christ” is even very common among our Protestant brothers and sisters. But we cannot be under His Lordship unless it is through the Holy Spirit, according to St. Paul. And this Lordship assumes that we are living under His authority. Our stewardship is the act of keeping our souls surrendered to His will as we manage our prayer time, our talents and treasure, our time for everything we do, our human relationships but always under the Yes to God’s will regardless, which starts with love of God (obedience to Him) and love of neighbor in all its facets, plus time daily to reflect in His love for us. His Lordship over us depends on our yes to have Him as the center of all we do and not just as a concept or nice phrase.

It has been obvious for me for many years that at the base of this concept of having a personal relationship with Jesus, we may think that we have to have methods to do it. But on the contrary, we only have to say yes to His will, especially to our crosses and use them for our good and that of others, pray that we can do so, often repenting for our sins and trying to amend our behavior with Our Lady in charge of the evil one that will hound us trying to confuse us, divide us, lie to us, — and the rest will be done by God as it happened in Nineveh. Then, the Spirit of God will guide us to do things that will help us in our ongoing conversion, like reading a particular book or looking for ways to love our neighbor, and I had a great example when my car’s battery ceased to work!  If we are part of a team of spiritual formation of the young, the Holy Spirit will direct our efforts and styles of teaching, but again, as long as we keep a big YES to what God wants in our lives, from suffering of all kinds to going to preach the Gospel in His terms, without money or food. Our efforts should be similar to those of the Shunammite woman: we ask for help to God and trust that He is in charge, and therefore, He will do what is best for us and others. It is His mercy summoned from His Sacred Heart by our deep trust in His love for us that can change the world.

As mentioned before, I have been summoned to offer all my sufferings of any kind and magnitude for the ministerial Priesthood until the day I die, in order for each of them to grow in such personal ALIVE relationship with Jesus and as never before. Our laity needs to see our Priests totally on fire for the Crucified … They will follow the trend, and many of us can be ready to save many souls through our way of experiencing such personal relationship. Retreats will not be sufficient for these times. We must say Yes as our Mother did and pray for our determined determination to do God’s will against all odds. We must love our neighbor in a vigorous and constant way, even if it is just praying for others but full of love for them.

As far as my expectations to heal my immune system: I have none, except for God’s cure. Our medical world does not have anything else to offer. The probiotic SVL #3 is fabulous in the sense that I have lost 19 pounds since August 22, and added to the 11 pounds wt. loss by the Omni Diet during the month of June and July, well, it is great. I hardly take any blood pressure medication anymore! My gastroenterologist Dr. D.V, saw me this past October 4, and said that he still believes that the probiotic SVL #3 will take care of all these allergies. Of course, my case is unique because of the reaction to the 7 units of blood. But what is great is to exercise my “yes” to whatever happens with my health… And yes, I must repot that the grace has arrived and I live a day at a time without worries and very indifferent to what is next. I am sure that what I have lived in the last 5 weeks have kept me 100% confident that God is in charge and therefore, to worry is a huge waste of time. But I am very grateful for Him showing up to give me signs as in the case of my car’s battery!

Let me close with a teaching I received from my Mother on All Saints Feast and a repetition of other teachings, and probably signaling its importance!

Our Lady: “Faith is to say “yes” to whatever is happening in your life but convinced that it is perfect and necessary to glorify God and for your salvation and of your neighbor. The most important prayer is to ask for the above to be so!  Anything that interferes with your faith and prayer life should be identified, rectified and repented from, since faith lived as explained, expresses continuous trust in God’s love. And this attitude of your mind and soul will be needed for His mercy to make of you a diamond that sparkles and reveals to everyone that God truly exists.

“Evangelization with just words in these times of so much confusion, excessive communication and lack of love cannot win souls and keep them in your ranks. They state of unbelief is too far gone. They need you to witness radical faith, radical hope and radical love that will call their attention like a diamond does and become a proof to them that God not only exists but loves them. For you to become such diamond, you must partner with the Holy Spirit as I did with my “yes”, and my Son will be impregnated in their souls as a real presence. Give yourself to this type of partnership. Become small as His Words become part of your being. Use your crosses as powerful tools for your “yes” to transform you into an evangelist that shines and sparkles as a diamond. And always remember, God will transform the present Nineveh. You just say “yes” to whatever He calls you to do or say but without any particular plans of your own. He will provide the plans and the wisdom to do what is needed. Jonah did not have any plans at all when he preached at Nineveh. He was only used with God’s grace over him. You can do the same.

“As far as offering your suffering for Priests, do not do it as a general intention. On the contrary, every time that you suffer much pain as you move in between your narcotic treatments, loudly say: ‘I offer this cross for the sanctification of Priests.’ And at the same time, always remember that your vigilance to be a good steward of your graces, depends on this partnership of love where Jesus and you work together: He, empowering you to become a diamond, as you constantly say yes to Him by ignoring your own needs and pain, focusing your heart and mind on the need to save souls and as He did when He lived on earth. No other plan is necessary.” (End of message)

May you have a very blessed Thanksgiving.

P.S. This blog is shorter and I am happy for you as well,  but it was still hard to put together since the narcotic keeps me somewhat sleepy. Excuse me if I have made many mistakes in my English or developed the topic poorly. I will try to find out if I should stop writing altogether, at least for the mean time. However, your intercessory prayer for this intention will be greatly appreciated.