Note: may this blog honor the Nun who used new methods and a new ardor to evangelize the world, Mother Angelica Rizzo, on the occasion of her birthday today!
I have no idea how to start writing so many extraordinary events of the last weeks coming from God’s Mercy… There are days that I understand so many things plus being surrounded by huge miracles as signs of His Presence, that at times it frightens me; yet, His love washes away the fear and I get settled and UNDERSTAND THAT we are going through one of the most horrible evil times ever, where Satan is roaming the world as if we were approaching the end… Then, we have St. Maria Faustina writing what Jesus told her of how God’s mercy is the gift we will get to prepare us for His Second coming… Hmm… One of the worse things going on, or so I think, is that the attacks of Satan using human beings to execute them (like the attack on religious liberty) are distracting us big time. This evil spirit is conquering both fronts… that is, 1) inducting many into the hall of errors and injustice against the human race and 2) inducting us, religious people, into the hall of anger and resentment, so that we can grow in rejection of our brothers and sisters… More on this subject later…
It is interesting that for the posting of last month’s blog, I had to bring my son to do it because the system would refuse to post it… He had to use strange ways to overcome the resistance of the Word Press set up…I concluded that Satan must not like what I write. Even more: my rather new computer monitor started forming white lines and obstructing almost one third of the screen… This strained my good eye even more. But, for God all things are simple and possible… My son appeared with a brand new monitor just 5 days ago, so that this blog can at least be written with less eye strain! Wow. If you are wondering why I am posting this monthly blog so early, it has to do with the availability of my son to help me out in case the system refuses to do it the easy way!
As I finished the March blog and posted it with the difficulties mentioned, my youngest son and recently married physician from Birmingham, AL, sent me an invitation to go visit them. They have a brand new large home and of course, as one more act of love from God, I now have my own “hotel” residence in the South… In a few weeks I will be going to visit them with a rental car paid for me so that I can go to daily Mass… and visit places around! His mercy is simply out of this world… …. I only have to tell you one thing: I LOVE Jesus MORE THIS MONTH THAN I DID LAST MONTH… You will hear why in later entries. It has been a super wild ride!
CONTENT OF THIS BLOG: I will narrate different events according to the date of the month, and at the end, I will share with you something “new” about carrying on the “new evangelization in my soul,” and something I never thought about until I was instructed in the subject matter.
March 24 – On this day I was led to some verses in Leviticus 14: 33-42. It discussed the actual cleansing of the interior of the home where leprosy was present. Then, the Lord made me reflect on the leprosy in my life, that is resentment of what is going on… not only with unjust Federal Government laws but in stories from past issues in the Church (e.g. Philadelphia trial). I understood that we do not get because we are so distracted with what others do to us… when martyrdom is the WAY and very needed to clean our own spiritual leprosy… Under the Cross, the Holy Spirit will explain to us how to dig inside and truly see our illness, one of self determination, where we create ways to preach the Gospel but in our own way. Once we learn that we truly do not have a relationship with Christ as our Mother had with Him, and that we need a constant cleansing of our ego to be opened to the Spirit to do it His way, 3,000 may convert with one of our sermons… In my case, I was sent to clean up any kind of resentment with forgiveness, but true forgiveness… not just words… You will find out what I mean! I found the “new methods and the new ardor” to evangelize…
On this date I also started having great fun with the visit of the Holy Father to Mexico and Cuba. The Hispanic TV channels broadcasted it all in Spanish, and this warmed up my heart. I also saw for the first time via EWTN a program taped originally in Sterling Hts., MI on March 10, 2012, and a city which I know well. It was Raymond Cardinal Burke explaining the teachings of Servant of God, Fr. John Anthony Hardon, S.J, a man whom I met, since he lived in the area of Detroit where I lived at the time. I have read many books of Fr. Hardon, and have done the 30 day retreat of St. Ignatius of Loyola using his book. I will comment more on it later. Of course, Cardinal Burke is one of my favorite figures in the College of Cardinals, since he was born in La Crosse, WI, and two of my grandkids are also from this town, plus because of him as Bishop of La Crosse at the time, my son Omar and I were able to be chosen for a private audience with now Blessed John Paul II… More on what he said later.
March 26-27: Hispanic Mexican reporters explained how Mexicans were expecting a cold and distant intellectual Pope, reserved because of his German ancestry (clear discrimination…) and yet, they found themselves totally taken by him, and many related how they were overtaken by his love. There were 650,000 people in the Bicentennial Park. They will sing to him, “Benedicto, hermano, ya eres mexicano.” (Benedict, brother, you are now Mexican…) I was sad to hear that in Guanajuato in 1970, 94% declared themselves Catholic, but in 2012, only 84%. In the country of Mexico they have 130 million Catholics. Remember that Mexico was inundated in the late XIX C by Masons, and yet, the presence of Our Mother since 1531, has not allowed this country to become another Russia or Cuba… (Please remember this point for later when I was asked to say three Rosaries per day, precisely to keep Satan tamed). And in 2012, even that they were not expecting a true “father in the faith” to arrive in Guanajuato, they showed up and they loved him to pieces. Even the Holy Father said in Spanish, “I have traveled much but I have never been received with so much affection…” Blessed JP II was quoted as saying that he felt like a Mexican when he visited in the 1970’s… No one on this earth can convince me that my Mother was not behind the scenes praying to her Son for this kind of love and faith for “Peter’s” representative. Of course she prays and the Holy Spirit shows up and like a fire moves the people to love back… Sooo simple…
In Cuba, here we go again with this Mom of ours. They were celebrating the 400th anniversary of the discovery of the statue of Our Lady of the Copper (Nuestra Señora del Cobre.) In this country, due to the effects of atheism, 10% are Catholics and only 5% attend Church regularly. (Ouch). They were shouting, “Se ve, se siente, el Papa está presente.” (You can see it, you can feel it, the Pope is present). As you remember, on March 27 the Mass was in Havana and there were about 200,000 Cubans attending the outdoors Mass, and I felt so much love for them, including President Raul Castro. (Please remember this fact for later…) Most of the Cubans who came were public employees who were “sent” to show up… Yet, they also caught fire… Later, Fidel Castro was also shown and I prayed for both of them with much love. I knew that this was from the Holy Spirit. I must add that I was practicing as rigorously as possible the three practices for Lent of prayer, fasting and almsgiving as detailed in the last blog. I suspect that my love for these atheists was aided as I allowed the Holy Spirit to enter my heart with these Lenten practices.
On Monday March 26, the actual day when we celebrated the feast of the Incarnation, I did the Consecration to my Mother. I thanked her for the birth of my third son (It was his birthday), one that was diagnosed as a possible retarded child, and who today is a great writer in theological matters… I could not help but compare the two Castro brothers and my son, all of whom were educated by Jesuits… Same Gospel, same Truths and two different results. In fact, in a recent blog of my son and days later, he wrote something that made me remember how this baby could have been lost at birth by a medical error… And yet, God loved him so much that He preserved him so that he would write in the Internet about this love… I have no asked for his permission to include a few parts of his blog of April 9 (www.Regnumnovum.com), but I believe that because we are celebrating God’s Divine Mercy, it is important to see what His mercy consists of… in real terms. Here it is:
“Sitting there at Easter Morning Mass – having small children has for the time being made attending the Easter Vigil next to impossible – I was struck deeply by the line in the reading that went:
“’So Peter and the other disciple went out and came to the tomb. They both ran, but the other disciple ran faster than Peter and arrived at the tomb first; he bent down and saw the burial cloths there, but did not go in.’
“Before I knew it, I was overcome with emotion. First of all, both men were running. St. Peter, who was no spring chicken mind you, was running. Having lived only a short while in the Mediterranean world, I find it strange that men would be running in the first place, much less a man of relatively advanced years. I have little children and am younger than St. Peter would have been, but even I rarely run.
“Second, what must have St. John been thinking as he ran? It’s early in the day yet. Mary of Magdala has said that “They have taken the Lord from the tomb.” As the crisp morning air still pregnant with the dew of that Easter morning brushes by his hot cheeks, is there dread in his heart? Where have they taken Him?
“But maybe there is still hope in his heart. Perhaps the young John is running as hard as he is not because he is in dread fear that the Jews or Romans have stolen the body, but that their Master is still alive. Perhaps the Master has risen as He had alluded.
“Either way, St. John is driven on like a champion horse striving for the finish line. But the goading is not in the switch of a rider but in the spurs of love. I must see Him. I must be with Him. Anticipation fills St. John’s heart, so he runs.
“As those who came to my imagination, I could not help but think the same thought. Oh, my Jesus, I do so love you. Give me the grace to pursue you as honestly, as heatedly, as passionately. I imagined the youthful St. John leaning forward as he ran… led not so much by his head but by his heart, chest thrust forward, legs struggling to stay somewhat underneath him so that he didn’t fall flat on his face. I adore you, oh Christ, and I love you.
“I don’t know about you, dear reader, but I am often caught up in Lent… what with the trappings of trying to please my God. Sacrifices are offered, yes, to improve my habits and make myself somewhat more of a better servant to Him. But the truth is that it is all Mercy. He suffered and died despite my inadequate pining for perfection. Dearest Lord, you love me because I am yours to begin with. You’ve chosen me… not the other way around. Once this is grasped, everything else is response. Everything else in the Christian life, particularly in this time of Easter, is to accept that God loves me… and He desires me all the more even now.
“The social doctrine of the Church or the social justice teaching of the Church leaves the average Catholic cold with fear that they shall be asked to give up something one has a right to. We are always so afraid that I will be asked to give up something perfectly good and right and just for ME. But if we are running for Christ and running with the attitude of St. John… well then… we cannot help but to give of ourselves for the sake of the other.
“Because He, the Master, our beloved is in the poor, the downtrodden, the alien, the forgotten ones of our society. He is in the grumpy co-worker, the prickly boss, the sad cell-mate who just wants to find love in the midst of all the various trysts in which they find themselves.
“He is risen. Indeed He is risen. Alleluia. And we need not fear the road to which He calls us. Embrace it dear friends. Take it up. Run to it like St. John… not with dread – though that’s natural. Rather, run to the calling of Christ even now in this very moment with the hope and trust that the Master is there, waiting for you in your neighbor.
“Don’t you see Him? Flee to Him, because He is all that matters.” (End of quote)
Well, maybe you do not agree with me, and that is O.K., but for a mom these writings are like a glass of cold water in a hot summer day, they refresh one’s soul. His life was spared because since his conception, God had a plan for him, and His mercy allowed him to write this discourse of love, just days after his 37th birthday!
Saturday, March 31.
I was able to copy in DVD form, the program by Cardinal Burke mentioned before and that was aired again on this day. Let me add that another great connection with this Cardinal is Our Lady of Guadalupe. He was behind the construction of the Shrine for her in La Crosse! (www.guadalupeshrine.org)
The main topic of the talk was martyrdom. He related how Fr. John Hardon wrote about the “persecution of witness.” “The witness will not be spared of criticism and oppression but they must be ready to live in an atmosphere of coldness toward their deepest beliefs. Here their suffering comes from the steady indifference of people towards the faith they know and love. “ (How true this is in our present times…)
This program was followed by three more, one describing the writing of St. Francis de Sales on the subject matter. I immediately saw my past and the many things that I have suffered… Yes, white martyrdom is all over the world, and some of us have tasted it many times, yet, these present times are calling many of us to say yes to it, to pray for it, and not only holy Fr. Hardon wrote about it. Shortly after I finished watching and taping these 3 hours and as I reviewed some papers, I found a quote from the Diary of St. Faustina and written in my journal on August 12, 2009… It was the answer I needed…
Entry 1184: Jesus to St. Faustina: “Know My daughter that your silent, day-to-day martyrdom in complete submission to My will usher many souls into heaven.”
Holy Tuesday, April 3. What a day!
Little did I know that I had an appointment with Satan! Of course, it was Holy Week and I was working very hard at prayer, fasting and almsgiving as explained before in the previous blog. In the other hand, I had not received any topic for this blog and secretly I was happy that if I did not receive any ideas, well, there would not be a blog… I was going to do some shopping before Mass but was led to understand that I needed to go to Mass first…I also felt that I needed to spend a full Hour with the Lord, and no less than that. I suspected that there would be a major teaching, as it has happened before when I needed a big lesson…
I arrived to my parish at 11 AM. I usually do not want to do or say anything but for a few minutes to relish His Eucharistic Presence sitting in the first pew. Yet, He started to talk, and I started taking notes. He was saying how I had to be more trusting and not secretly feel that may be I am done with blogs… They are to stay and also all other work that has been explained to me for years. He spoke of cleaning up my "yes" to His will, that is, when saying "yes" but truly wishing deep inside not to be so, because of age or health or lack of theology background, or simply fear of persecution…
Within 5 minutes or so, I felt He was furious… He was stern for my doubting of His love for me… Notice that it was a good thing… I could not detect anything directly against what I had heard before. For the next 15 minutes, I heard a "god" who was very tough… I suddenly stopped writing (11:20 AM) and I said, "This is not from God. This is Satan AND I have lost all my joy and peace…" At this point, I wondered if many other who left the Catholic Church did it because they also sensed an angry God and they lost their peace! And all along, Satan was around impersonating Him. Yet, why would God allow it? Perhaps their faith and love for Him wasn’t there and they could not recognize Him even in “the breaking of the bread.”
Nonetheless and to be sure, I addressed Jesus calling first the Holy Ghost and asked for a page in the Bible with the name of Satan to confirm that indeed it was from Satan… It came immediately and it was page 30… in my tiny Protestant Bible. It was the Gospel of Mathew with Jesus being tempted by the Devil!!! Then, His voice came back and so placid, so soft, so loving and told me that any time that I lost my “joy and peace,” he was not there… Of course, He came to give us peace beyond understanding, and through His Spirit, He gives a joy that is also beyond our capability of producing… He recommended not being afraid about my blog writing and of whatever I have to do besides as He has explained to me before, as long as I remain with joy and peace, despite of what may be going on around me because He is there running the show, since the Holy Spirit is writing with His indelible ink (joy) that He is present. I then remembered that joy is almost always present in my heart, no matter if I am suffering for whatever reason… How consoling this “show and tell” moment was for me!
I came to my seat at 11:35 AM and my joy was back and tons of it…I offered the Mass in thanksgiving for this most formidable explanation about how to know when Satan is around… In the homily I heard something very true: we have to always be very careful and pray much because even Peter and Judas who were so close to Jesus… were wrong in what they did since Satan may tempt us and sometimes we are not conscious about his presence!
In that instant, I then understood why I had been summoned to Church early and why He had allowed Satan to impersonate Him, so that I could be a good "doctor" and diagnose the presence of Satan… Had I not had this teaching, I would have immediately doubted that all what has been told to me about blogs and future work for the Kingdom was probably false or a temptation despite my togetherness with Him, as it happened to St. Peter and Judas… It would have been a mortal hit to my trust in God… Then, He reminded me that Peter and Judas had not had their "Pentecost"…. at the time they had sold Him and denied Him. I suddenly realized that the Holy Spirit’s gifts are extraordinary blessings in order for us to know when Satan and the world’s pernicious influence are around… Here again, please remember this story for later because in my new evangelization process , one thing that I will do differently will be to work against any Satanic forces with the Rosary… What a beautiful Holy Tuesday. He had planned it all, in order for me to get a closer look at Satan’s work…
Holy Thursday, April 5.
I was very depressed. It was horrible. I heard, “You are drowning in a glass of water. It is Satan. Just think of all that God has done for you. Do not despair. God is in charge.” Suddenly, the oppression lifted! Of course, Satan was at it again… And you may ask yourself: why does she talk so much about Satan? Well, because he is real, working all the time, and for some of us, he has orchestrated major persecutions and in my case, my Lord is still teaching me how to deal with Satan. St. John Vianney used to say that Satan was a dummy because he always uses the same ways to attack, and so this Saint was able to recognize him quite well.
I planned to attend the Mass that evening, even that I had to drive in the darkness and my vision becomes worse. I checked with the Lord many times to be sure it was His will. My son was working and not coming home until early evening so he could not take me to church. It was a beautiful service and I only thought of this moment in His life 2,000 years ago. He knew what was coming and kept saying yes. I suddenly questioned if my troubles with my left eye sight were a sign that I have come to an end for writing these blogs?… I had joy and peace, but I felt compelled to check it up one more time. I OFFICIALLY ASKED FOR MORE SIGNS during the Triduum to be sure that yes, I must plan for some work of evangelization beyond writing this blog. After Communion, He asked me to check page 313 in the Bible when I got home.
So, late that evening I did check it up and it was Colossians 4: 17 – “See that you fulfill the ministry that you received in the Lord.” Hmm…
Good Friday, April 6.
At the afternoon Liturgy of the Passion, when I adored the Crucifix, I felt so much love for Jesus Crucified… (A sign?) After Communion, I consecrated myself to whatever martyrdom He so desires for me. That same evening, there was a presentation in EWTN of the Seven Last Words by Fr. Barron. He apparently had preached earlier that day at St. Patrick’s Cathedral in New York for the Good Friday Services. Amazing how communication technology is so advanced… I thought it would be a recent program but not from a Live event from that same day. Fr. Barron started with the first Last Word as Jesus forgave His enemies. He said that there are three ways for us to forgive:
1) Fighting back or with violence. 2) Running away from the scene… (Hmm) 3) Turning the other cheek which means to pay back with the power of forgiving love, swallowing up all dysfunctional evil and becoming a witness of divine forgiveness, that is, of Divine Mercy!!! (Wow) (Please notice how God kept addressing my need to forgive in order to deal with resentment…)
April 7, Holy Saturday Easter Vigil
I prayed the Rosary with Mother Angelica and Nuns via EWTN (8:30 AM PT), and out of the blue (notice what the Rosary can do), I realized that Satan had been around quite a bit in recent days and that he was trying very hard to make me doubt what I have heard regarding my work in evangelization but in a more active way. By 10:10 AM, I knew that the fastest way to deal with Satan was using the Lepanto model… I started to pray several rosaries intertwined with the Chaplet of Divine Mercy (total of 6).
At 1:50 PM PT – I received these words: prayer is an aggressive seeking of God to converse with Him, to adore Him, to praise Him and to receive His light in order to “see” what is good and emulate it; to know what is true and live by it.
I attended the Easter Vigil servcice and had time to say another Rosary/Chaplet of Mercy (No. 7). I offered the Mass for my youngest son, for his birthday, and for myself to do whatever He tells me. I was still opened to receive signs…
At this point, I had said many Rosaries to sit Satan down in a corner and God came to honor my request. One sign that came and was out of this world was to find myself in this three hour service going crazy with love for the Crucified. And He was not there yet for the first two hours… present in His Body and Blood; at times I did not know what to do. I wanted to run all over the Church screaming: He is alive. Come and see!… After Communion He said, “Would this be the only sign you need? Could you have this love if my Spirit were not in you? The only signyou need every day of your life to assure you that I am in charge of your soul, is to feel My Presence as you have in the last couple of hours!”
There is no question that it was a very valuable move from God to inspire me to ask for signs for this Triduum and that signs came. Whatever comes next, good or bad, hard or impossible, persecution or not, I have checked with my Master one more time, and allowed Him to write in my heart what He wants… I have also understood that I should pray more Rosaries a day, may be not 7 but at least 3.
Monday, April 9.
On this day and by God’s mercy, I found and announcement of a four day trip to Tepeyac with a Jesuit friend of mine from Manresa Retreat Center in Bloomfield Hills, MI. I went with Fr. Bernie to France in 2003, and we visited mighty places: Paray-le-Monial and all about the Sacred Heart of Jesus and St. Margaret Mary Alacoque. We visited Lissieux and Lourdes… This Jesuit priest has a doctorate in St. John of the Cross and was born, baptized and confirmed in a parish north of Detroit, of St. Therese of Lissieux… So, for all purposes, he is Jesuit/Carmelite priest…
The trip will be at the end of October, and of course, just before the November presidential elections… As I have shared with you before, in 1992 I went to visit her for the first time. In 2002 I went for 3 days just to spend the presidential elections day at her Basilica asking for God’s will and hopefully giving us a Republican Senate, so that President Bush could be able to nominate pro life Supreme Court Chief Justices… It did happen… I am now wondering if I have a call to visit her just to pray for this country… I am discerning this call and please, if you could pray for me, I would appreciate it. After having such delightful Triduum with great liturgies and homilies, and with this love for Him that was so forceful and spectacular, I may have received a call to go to Mexico to see her.
I must confess in this public forum that this Lady is something else. I sense her as a real Mom… I am certain that we need her intercession for next November.
Thursday April 12.
On this day I was sent to ponder on Acts 21 and 22. Here I had another example of how God has everything prepared for all of us. St. Paul was almost killed by the crowds and God rescued him by sending Roman soldiers to apprehend him. This allowed St. Paul to expose his Greek ancestry that would lead him to Rome. Not only that, but they apprehended him because they thought he was an Egyptian provoking a riot against the Romans, which was not true. Even that martyrdom as suffered by St. Paul from the crowds must have been a hard reality, it was also a way out to prolong his life and end up in Rome… In fact, in this case, God had a plan and there was no way that it would be changed… I realized that every instant of my life, if I offer it up to proclaim His kingdom and truly dedicate myself to be opened to all martyrdom, it is always a perfect way. No one may understand it… I may be looked as crazy, and yet, I am on secure ground… since the route of Calvary is always the right way.
I attended the noon Mass and the weather was wild. The expressway as I traveled through it was receiving rain to the point that one could hardly see much ahead. Just think of my bad eye and using just one eye to keep myself in this one lane of the 5, and trying my best to “see” everything right in front of me and besides me… at 60 or so miles per hour… But, by the time I arrived at my parish, the sun was out…
In the Holy Hour prior to Mass I received a beautiful teaching on martyrdom as follows: Sometimes, just words heard from others may bring questions to our spiritual life… The actual martyrdom consists in having to discern each of those voices to find out if they are from God, since some come from credible sources. Of course, this martyrdom of discernment can easily become a distraction. But I was taken to Acts 4 and later to the same reading of the early morning regarding St. Paul but from a different page in a different Bible. So, I realized that the Lord was after something…and He is a great teacher, repeating and repeating ideas so that I become wired properly as to how to think, pray, worship, etc. Joy arrived in tons and tons… Days like this one are simply a bath in His merciful Love.
Fr. Pacwa via EWTN Mass for this day made an excellent point: the disciples and the women did not expect the Resurrection… The ladies were wondering where His body had been taken. The boys simply could not believe… But the Risen Lord knew all about it and showed them that it was a real Resurrection… by eating with them like with the Emmaus disciples. He also prepared breakfast for the Apostles. He finally told the disciples that they were His witnesses, and this completed their conversion, or believing that truly He was Risen from the dead. He had to wait… until such moment when they would truly accept His Resurrection as a fact. This explanation coincided with my Lord’s teaching me with the story of St. Paul, how He is in charge of every detail…
Friday, April 13.
It was on this day that I realized that my “motto” to serve God should be, “pray and obey”… Prayer must be vigorous in content… Also, at Holy Hour I was asked to offer three Rosaries per day for the national elections of November in order to stop evil from doing its work of division, confusion, lies and fear among the voters. Also, these three Rosaries will be said to keep Satan at bay from my work of proclaiming His mercy.
Saturday, April 14.
At the 8:30 AM Mass, I thanked God for His love for me and suddenly I felt much love for someone who was there and towards whom I had developed some resentment. The resentment was gone and I realized that the Spirit of God had visited me to produce such feeling, and as we were honoring Our Lady on this Saturday Mass… These two are always a team…
After Mass and while driving to do some shopping, the radio (Hispanic) played again the famous song, “La Barca”, the one song I have mentioned many times, where Jesus looks into my eyes and calls me by name, and I leave my boat in the beach to go with Him to journey to other seas… This time, and similar to what I narrated some months ago, the song produced a severe dose of deep love for Him… Yet, on this occasion, it was longer and more powerful than before. I cried and screamed in my car because His love had simply broken my spirit into pieces… O yeah, He was alive… No one on this earth could change my mind. I did not bring it into myself. It just came out of nowhere and while driving, I knew that I knew that I knew that He is alive, resurrected, and that He loves me because my love for Him was humongous… (Love to use poor English here and there…) As I felt His love, I loved Him more and more… Good ten minutes passed and I found myself almost at home. I had encountered Him, I had encountered His mercy for me and just hours before we were to celebrate worldwide His Divine Mercy.
But notice that His mercy actually had kicked in earlier as I was able to pray and love my neighbor. It was only when I had forgiven this person from my heart but not only in words but in deed… that He showed up and used the song of the Boat as a entering device to let my soul know that He loves me… Yet, the actual act of mercy was to guide me in the understanding that we do not feel His love when our temples are dirtied by resentments and fears and doubts… Notice also that I had started saying 3 Rosaries per day with the Chaplet of Divine Mercy intertwined… Take home message for me: when I pull out the weed of resentment and lack of forgiveness, I make space for more of His love… Hmm.
This God of mercy was not standing still and watching me struggle with this computer monitor with this wide white lines covering one third of the screen. O no… My son came this day with a new monitor… and of course, I was about the start jotting down some ideas for this blog.
Divine Mercy Sunday, April 15.
For the rest of my life, every April 15 will be a very horrifying date for me…. When you make lots of money (one quarter million a year), you have to sit down with an expert to file your tax with the most possible deductions allowed by law… I was always reminded of the need for me to do better in investing strategies… So, my tax lawyers belonged to a firm in Cleveland who were very Christian and I would travel to them in the days where we had to do so (not as later via Internet) because they would understand that I had zero attachment to money whatsoever, and would give away money to the poor without any way to deduct it… This past Christmas they sent me a beautiful E- Christmas card even that I have not been their client in years… There are people who appear in your life that you cannot simply forget. They become a visitation to us… as in the times of Our Lady and her cousin. Being this Divine Mercy Sunday, I was reminded that even in the little things like finding these holy lawyers was all about His Mercy…
At Mass on this day I consecrated myself to do whatever He wants of me to proclaim His mercy. I understood how we talk about God’s mercy and our personal relationship with Jesus but something is the matter… Why is it the only 23% of Catholics in the U.S.A. attend Mass each week… The whole day I felt very oppressed… The reasons for the 77% not attending Mass have been studied and reported in 2011, yet, I understood that this GIANT… or Iron Curtain needs to be approached with spiritual resources… I only have one question: we have tried to catechize the many after Vatican II. I have belonged to very, very busy parishes in the past… and the 23% seem to remain the same number… So, what are those spiritual resources…
Here we go back to the New Evangelization concept that our Blessed JP II called us to. In 1983, he addressed the Catholic bishops of Latin America in Haiti and called for a New Evangelization: “The commemoration of the half millennium of evangelization will gain its full energy if it is a commitment, not to re-evangelize but to a New Evangelization, new in its ardor, methods and expression.” I love those last words. He asked for new methods… Hmm…
Our present Holy Father called for the riproporre (“re-proposing”) of the Gospel to those regions “still awaiting a first evangelization” and to those regions where the roots of Christianity are deep but that have experienced “a serious crisis” of faith due to secularization. He clarified that the New Evangelization is new, not in its content but rather in its inner thrust; new in its methods that must correspond to the times; and new because it is necessary to proclaim the Gospel to those who have already heard it. Pope Benedict XVI calls the Church to evangelize by entering into dialogue with modern culture and confronting the cultural crisis.
By 10 PM I was still full of questions as to how to proceed in my own life… What do I have to do in order to truly evangelize with a new ardor, a new method, a new expression? He sent me to a page in the Bible, Luke 12: 22-34
Among these verses, the following ones caught my attention:
25. Can any of you by worrying add a moment to your life-span? If even the smallest things are beyond your control, why are you anxious about the rest? (Ouch)…
27. Notice how the flowers grow. They do not toil or spin. But I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of them (How true…)
28. If God so clothes the grass in the field that grows today and its thrown into the oven tomorrow, will He not much more provide for you, O you of little faith?
29. As for you, do not seek what you are to eat and what you are to drink, and do not worry anymore.
31. Instead, seek His Kingdom, and these other tings will be given you besides.
There it was:
New in its ardor: total faith that God, my Dad, is totally in charge of the New Evangelization. Yet, I must believe it is so… If I run to different programs and retreats and methods that are old… well, I may not go too far… I need new methods… I sensed that the first new method is to start a new well planned prayer life with much fasting of my will, living a “yes” to His will that is always fresh and embraced with ardor, and full of almsgiving… and that is, loving those who submit me to white martyrdom, whether from the past or present.
The new expression must be aimed at seeking His Kingdom day and night… or l living in His Presence. Seeking Him everywhere: in the Eucharist and in my brothers and sisters. Adoring Him, thanking Him, finding Him in every place and event that He guides me to… It is a life where the Holy Spirit reigns in my heart from sunrise to sunset.
At 10:30 PM on this precious Divine Mercy Sunday, I said, “but I have not a perfect health; I am old; I have no money; I only have Your Love!” I heard this: “That is all you need. Pray with a new ardor that you truly become a true servant. What you end up doing as a servant is not the point. The point is to be opened to do whatever He tells you. Satan wants to make you believe that you are not important for the New Evangelization. And it does not matter if you are or not. What matters is that you always say “yes” to all He wants of you. Go to page 399 of your Bible.”
It was Revelation 12 and beginning of 13. All about the Woman who was attacked by Satan and to no avail… Then I heard, “Satan is waging a war in the Church and in your life. But the dragon will not prevail. All that has been told to you to do will be done, as long as you stand firm in your yes.”
Monday, April 16
Divine Mercy Feast had passed and I was still dogging out the meaning of the teaching received. After 6: 30 AM Mass, I was given a dissertation in how to understand what was told to me on Sunday.
I was reminded about resenting and a new method to tackle it…
“Our resentment starts when I judge someone else’s behavior as wrong because I am right… Jesus has said never to judge and probably for this reason… because we jump into conclusions which can be totally the product of the flesh (pride, envy, anger, fear, attachment to someone else, etc.) and of Satan, working overtime to tempt us to decide what is the will of God for us.
“The moment we spend time complaining about what others do wrong, especially aimed at us, at that moment Satan wins the war. So, to torpedo this natural inclination I must ask day and night to love who oppress me in whatever way. Here is a new method of attacking my natural inclination, and this to prepare me to truly be newly evangelized and clean up for the Holy Spirit to use me to evangelize others. In my vigorous new prayer life, I must pray for my enemies but if I do without love, it is lip service. To pray for my enemies but without any faith that God is in charge of my life, is lip service. If I pray for my enemies and at the same time beg God for His mercy so that I can love them from my heart, that prayer is heard… and love for my enemy(s) will come.
I suddenly realized that for some weeks I have loved President Barack Obama… I like him. I am after his soul. He was made in the image of God. I detest his ideas and would never vote for him, but as a person, I love him almost as a family member… Huh! God was doing this work in my soul without I realizing it, and now I have one less person to resent… My Dad knew what I needed and gave it to me: His own merciful Heart so that I could love this man where he is at… This change of heart has demonstrated to me what truly His mercy is all about!
Now, I suspect that in our Church we fight those who are jeopardizing our Freedom of Conscience, but we also resent them… Yes, we have to fight them, but THE TRICK IS TO FIGHT THEM AS WE LOVE THEM… And God can do that in our souls. The new method is to fight with LOVE… in our hearts, with a new ardor… Huh! What about it?
It is very simple. If we try to evangelize others with old methods… we will have the same results… 23% at Sunday Mass. Satan will bound the 77% to dislike the Church. BUT IF THE ENTIRE 23% use new methods… of LOVE for the 77%, I wonder what would happen… And yes, being jovial and welcoming is a nice trick, but actually to undo this Iron Curtain, what God wants is love in our hearts… and He means true love and not the one similar to how we are treated in every commercial site when we enter and the employees are trained to run to us and say hi and offer their help… Then, trust me, “sí se puede” or it can be done… We will convert ourselves first…. And then others…
But God was not done this day with me. I went to buy a few things and coming out of a health food store which was empty since it was early providing the time to talk, the cashier asked me, “How is the day going for you?” I said, “I hate to tell you…” She answered, “Tell me. I am ready to hear bad news.” “O no,” I said, “on the contrary, I have so much joy and peace that I know that I know that God is alive, but I hate to tell you because I may offend you.” She became curious and seemed that I had struck her with the truth in love… She did not seem to be religious. Otherwise, as it happens to me many a time, the other person explodes in “yes, Jesus is Lord” or something similar…
But she was smiling and said, “Do not ever worry about what others like or not… Who cares!” At this point I evangelized her without trying… It was for sure the Holy Ghost and God’s mercy. I said, “O no, I want to love others, no matter what and where they are in matters of God and respect them first and foremost… I rather shy away on parading this great joy and peace and love I have for Him, but love them first… since they are His images.” She was doubly struck… and I was as well… I had found myself loving this woman who appeared not to believe at all… and because of my love for her, I did not want to disclose much about my happiness after coming out of a recent Mass… And yet, the Holy Spirit was present to my obedience to the Gospel and made it possible to touch this soul… with His mercy… I found myself using a new method of evangelization… based in the ardor of love for neighbor… Wow! Only the Holy Spirit knew the soul of this cashier. Only He could guide the conversation in order to plant a seed of God’s mercy.
It is possible that I will be in training for my personal new evangelization or my training as to how to love first, and I will pass on more info in the future. At least, I have received a big insight into what the New Evangelization is all about… It is about Love being at the forefront…
This a list of the teachings received during the last part of Lent, Holy Week and the Feast of Divine Mercy of 2012. I want to run like St. John with this manifesto in hand, and truly live these ideas because I know they are the guiding signs to proclaim that He is risen.
1. From now on I will proceed to work for the Kingdom using the only signs I need: those of the Holy Spirit of constant joy and peace beyond understanding, and from time to time, this great feeling of love for Jesus, the Christ, one that makes me cry with great passion.
2. There will not be, there cannot be any questions regarding what is next in my life. That could be almost “insanity” on my part. I will not know from moment to moment, and yet, I will be waiting to be guided at all times, while surrounded by the Spirit’s gifts, which will guarantee me that I am in the right path. The latter is the only thing I need assurance of.
3. I will be guaranteed to be ambushed by Satan at every corner of my life. He will tempt many, as he has done for most of my life to get in my way of my work for the Kingdom, whether it be a great or a minor work. But, I will always remember that God is in charge of every second of my life, and with the deep faith of a daughter for her Father, using the assistance of the Woman of Revelations 12, and under the umbrella of the mercy of God for me and others, I will know that the battles, all battles, are won before they even start.
4. The present crisis of violence in the World and of the Church (with many Catholics staying away from the Truth, the Way and the Life’s commandments) is not worse than the slavery of Israel in Egypt and of the XX C slavery of Communism in the name of distributing the wealth for the good of everyone. Both major slaveries ended abruptly and God showed Who was in charge. The only thing I must do is to review from time to time and in awe (with the gift of Fear of the Lord) how He dismantled these slaveries.
I must remember that for the previous gigantic battles in Egypt and in Russia, He called a few to produce the faith that moved mountains… If the Iron Curtain fell… what is the matter with us not to understand that we can chop off the Iron Curtain of relativism, of pornography, of religious dissipation, of all sorts of scandals, minor and huge, in the world and in the Church? There was a man from Poland who proved to us how it can be done… He did not use fire arms…He did not use force of any kind… He simply prayed and obeyed God’s commandments and hired the Woman of Revelations 12 (Totus Tuo), the Woman that defeated Satan because she was very serious to say “yes” to the Father’s will …; hiring her was essential to take care of evil spiritual forces, adding his own white martyrdom through the suffering of Parkinson. He also brought with him the Mercy of God as a major topic of his Pontificate. With this great Pope’s example I must remember that God chooses and enables, equips, guides and blesses.. and voila, Karol Josef Wojtyla did it without any violence…
Could we do the same? I do not know about you, but I am running as hard as I can to become serious on this matter and try very hard to Pray and Obey… as I run to my Mother and ask her through the Rosary, to pray for me so that the Holy Spirit can change me and I can use new methods with a new ardor to bring God into this world. I have to know very little as to the plans or the major or minor work (if any) that I will be assigned for this time of the preparation in what appears to be the end times, as told to St. Faustina.
5. I must understand that martyrdom (whether the red one or severe persecution versus the everyday quiet thoughts of those whom I challenge in their faith, and therefore dislike me, or my own martyrdom of seeing dissipation under the appearance of devotions) is the only correct route to be a true witness of His Love. It purifies me of my own sins and resentments with His love, which means to follow Him to Calvary and make a difference.
6. A personal relationship with the Mother of God is essential for this work for the Kingdom. Satan needs boundaries, and she knows how to do it. Calling on her is crucial for this purpose of helping me navigate these waters of absolute self-denial in order to do God’s will for the Kingdom, and keeping Satan at bay.
7. A very close relationship with the Holy Spirit is of the essence as well. A call to Him must be placed daily…
NOW I WILL SHARE WITH YOU my plan as set up by the Holy Spirit. It will consist of the same three major practices of Prayer, Fasting and Almsgiving. I will share with you my “vigorous” plan for prayer and I have reported parts of it in previous years.
MANUAL FOR PERSONAL INNER ONGOING CONVERSION to become an instrument for the New Evangelization
1. Daily Mass
2. A Holy Hour per day
3. Continuous novena to the Holy Spirit
Novena to the Holy Spirit
ACT OF CONSECRATION TO THE HOLY SPIRIT (St. Pius X)
O Holy Spirit, divine Spirit of light and love, I consecrate to You my understand-ing , my heart and my will, my whole being for time and for eternity. May my understanding be always submissive to Your heavenly inspirations and to the teachings of the Holy Catholic Church, of which you are the infallible Guide. May my heart be ever inflamed with love for God and of my neighbor; may my will be ever conformed to the divine Will, and may my whole life be a faithful imitation of the life and virtues of Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, to whom with the Father and You, Holy Spirit, be honor and glory forever. Amen.
CALLING THE HOLY SPIRIT
I seek awareness of your presence, Holy Spirit at this moment. I seek You to possess me. I want to let go of fears and anxiety.
Holy Spirit, surface out of the depth of my being and pour Yourself over me. Overwhelm me with Your Presence and Your Gifts and Fruits.
Show me the barriers of my not accepting You in my life. Reign over my impatience, my flare ups, my anger, over my running away from reality, my rebellion, dislikes and grudges that harden my heart, and my resentment of people, events, situations, circumstances and conditions as You will them.
Reign over my arguments, my criticism, my condemnatory judgments; reign over my violence in thought, word and deed, and the compulsions of my thoughts and plans.
HOLY SPIRIT, I LAY DOWN MY WILL IN YOUR PRESENCE
I am spiritually handicapped and disabled because of all the above mentioned weaknesses. I repent from everything that separates me from You. Forgive me. Heal me. Lord Jesus, have mercy of me, a sinner.
I turn entirely into Your presence. May my prayer be a loving awareness of You. I repent from everything that separates me from You. May my longing, beat upon the cloud of unknowing that lies between You and me. Receive me, Holy Spirit, invade me and fill me with Your presence.
Come Holy Spirit, Spirit of love, Spirit of discipline in the silence. Come to me and bring me your peace. Rest in me that I may be tranquil and still. Speak to me as my heart needs to hear. Reveal to me things hidden and things longed for. Rejoice in me that I may praise and be glad. Pray in me that I may be one with You and with others. Refresh and renew me from your springs of water. Dwell in me now and always. Erase my emotional programs for happiness and heal the wounds of my unconscious mind; free me from my false self and self love.
“Serene light, shining in the ground of my being, draw me to yourself; draw me pass the snares of the senses, out of the maces of my mind; free me from symbols, words and images, that I may discover the word unspoken, in the darkness that veils the ground of my being.” Byzantine prayer.
PRAYER FOR THE SEVEN GIFTS OF THE HOLY SPIRIT
O Lord Jesus Christ Who, before ascending into heaven did promise to send the Holy Spirit to finish Your work in the souls of your Apostles and Disciples, grant me the same Holy Spirit that He may perfect in my soul the work of Your grace and Your love. Grant me the SPIRIT OF WISDOM that I may despise the perishable things of this world and aspire only after the things that are eternal. The SPIRIT OF UNDERSTANDING to enlighten my mind with the light of Your divine Truth. THE SPIRIT OF COUNSEL that I may forever choose the surest way of pleasing God and gaining heaven. The SPIRIT OF FORTITUDE that I may bear my cross with You and that I may overcome with courage all the obstacles that oppose my salvation. The SPIRIT OF KNOWLEDGE that I may know God and know myself and grow perfect in the science of the saints. The SPIRIT OF PIETY that I may find the service of God sweet and amiable. The SPIRIT OF FEAR that I may be filled with a loving reverence towards God and may dread in any way to displease Him. Mark me, dear Lord, with the sign of Your true disciples and animate me in all things with your Spirit. Amen.
“O Holy Spirit, when You give testimony to our spirit that we are children of God, this testimony gives consolation to our hearts. But You are also given to increase our fervor when by breathing with greater strength on our hearts, You light the mighty flame of charity that we may glory not only in our hope as children of God but also in tribulations, steaming insult to glory, disgrace to joy and scorn to honor. O Holy Spirit, fulfill the days of Pentecost in us, days of forgiveness and of rejoicing. O Spirit of Love, arouse in us the yearning to walk with our God. Only You can do this, You Who look into the hidden depths of our hearts, Who know our thoughts and intentions, Who will not countenance the least imperfection on the heart that You posses, but quickly destroy it with the fire of Your tender attention. O sweet and gentle Spirit Who bend our wills, direct them more and more to Your own so we may know it clearly, love it dearly and follow it effectively.” St. Bernard of Clairvaux
Holy and Divine Spirit, through the intercession of the Blessed Virgin Mary, Your spouse, bring the fullness of Your Gifts into my heart. Strengthened and comfort-ed by You, may I live according to Your will and may I die praising Your infinite Mercy, through Christ Our Lord, Amen. 7 Glory Be’s
4. Spiritual Warfare Prayer (once per month)
We (_________) place ourselves now under the cross of Jesus Christ and cover ourselves with His Precious Blood. We surround ourselves with the light of Christ and say in the of Name of Jesus that nothing shall interfere with the Lord’s work being accomplished in our lives.
We put on God’s armor to resist the devil’s tactics. We stand our ground with truth buckled around our waist and integrity for a breastplate. We carry the shield of faith to put out the burning arrows of the evil one. We accept salvation from God to be our helmet and receive the Word of God from the Spirit to use as a sword. (Ephesians 6: 10,11,14,16,17)
Father, show us any way that Satan has hold of our lives. We let go of all those ways now. Any territory we have handed over to Satan we now reclaim and place under the Lordship of Jesus Christ.
In the Name of Jesus we bind all spirits of the air, fire, water, ground, under-ground and nether world. We bind all forces of evil and claim the Blood of Jesus to be over them. In the Name of Jesus Christ we seal our homes and sources of supply with His Blood. In the Name of Jesus we forbid every spirit from any source from harming us in any way.
In the Name of Jesus we reject the seductive lure of the evil in all its forms and refuse to let sin have dominion over us. We reject Satan and all his works and all his empty promises. Heavenly Father, we ask forgiveness for ourselves and relatives and ancestors for calling upon powers that set themselves up in op-position to Jesus Christ. We renounce every power apart from God and every form of worship that does not offer true honor to Jesus Christ. In His Name we break any curses that may have come or are coming against us, and stop the transmission of those curses through our ancestry.
In the name of Jesus we bind the spirit of fear with Your love; of weakness with Your strength; the spirit of illness with health; the spirit of un-forgiveness with reconciliation. Loving Father, let the cleansing healing waters of Baptism flow back through the past generations to purify our family lines of evil contamination. Thank You Lord for setting us free because “in al these things we are more than conquerors through Him Who loved us.” Romans 8:37.
Prayer of Surrender
Father we surrender to You today with all our hearts and souls. Come into our hearts in a deeper way. We open all our secret inner places to You and say, “Come on in.” Jesus, You are Lord of our lives. We believe in You and receive You as our Lord and Savior. We surrender all to You: health, resources, skills, occupation, relationships, time management, successes and failures. We surrender our understanding of how things ought to be, our choices, and our self will. We surrender to You our emotions, fears, insecurities, sexuality, and our entire lives, past, present and future.
“Take, Lord, and receive all our liberty, our memory, our understanding, and our entire will, all that we have and possess. You have given all to us. To You, O Lord, we return it. All is Yours. Dispose of it wholly according to Your will. Give us Your love and Your grace, for this is sufficient for us.” St. Ignatius of Loyola.
Release of the Holy Spirit
“…you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you, and you will be my witnesses… to the ends of the earth.” Acts 1:8
Come Holy Spirit and baptize us with the fire of Your love. We have surrendered to the best of our ability, and now we want to be filled with Your Spirit. We need Your power in our lives. Surface out of our inner beings and fills us anew with your gifts.
Lord, You are the vine and we are the branches. All that You are is within us. Our life flows from You. We believe that as we yield and ask, You will release Your strength, wisdom, healing, to meet the needs of the hour.
We yield now to receive your sanctifying gifts of Isaiah 11:2: wisdom, understanding, counsel and might, knowledge and the fear of the Lord.
We yield and ask You to release Your manifestation gifts of service, as listed in 1Corinthians 12: wisdom, knowledge, faith, healing, miracles, prophecy, discernment, tongues and interpretation of tongues.
Holy Spirit, melt us, mold us, fill us, use us. Give us opportunities to use your gifts to reveal Your love, Your mercy. Stretch us, Lord. Holy Spirit, expand our capacity and let every purpose God has for our lives to be fulfilled.
Holy Spirit, flood the deep places of our lives with Your love, washing and cleansing any wounds and scars from the past that still have the power to dominate our thoughts and suppress our physical and emotional health. May your Light cover the shadows of our dark inner rooms of our soul and dry our uncried tears, unfinished grieving, the pain of loss, the traumas, the fear, the emotional hurts so painful that they remain buried inside.
Come Holy Spirit, come!
5. Three Rosaries intertwined with the Divine Mercy Chaplet said during the day (besides the family and community Rosary)
6. Petitions for personal spiritual renewal asking our Lady to intercede for me to the Throne of Mercy as preparation for Consecration in all her feasts.
For the preparation: after each set of the ten petitions, say:
1) The Lord’s Prayer –
2) The Glory Be –
3) Prayer to the Holy Spirit
Come Holy Spirit enlighten my heart, to see the things which are of God. Come Holy Spirit into my mind, that I may know the things that are of God. Come Holy Spirit, into my soul, that I may belong only to God. Sanctify all that I think, say and do, that all will be for the glory of God. Amen.
1. For the fulfillment of the personal vocation for which I was created, but most especially for my vocation and command to become holy through love, prayer, trust and running to meet and love my crosses as I follow Him to Calvary, which includes remembering that I must love God and His images (my brothers and sisters) or I reject them both! To give honor and glory to the Holy Name of Jesus. For the grace to understand how much the Sacred Heart of Jesus loves me and to trust in His love. For the grace to fall in love with my neighbor for the purpose of asking for mercy for them to love God, and this way, to give glory to God.
2. To obtain inner healing through the grace of the Holy Spirit in order to understand that I was created by God to love and to be loved; to be opened to every circumstance, while understanding that God is only an eternal present, and that for Him, there is no other than the sacrament of this present moment , and therefore it is holy, perfect and necessary, which is where God reveals His grace and His love to me (His mercy).
3. For fidelity to live a God centered life with DEATH TO SELF LOVE, becoming an absolute, unconditional self-donation to the Holy Trinity to give Them glory. For detachment from all possessions of mind, soul and body, that is, my self-will and self-satisfaction in total abandonment to His Divine Providence.
4. For the grace to accept to be crucified by my afflictions and to say no to the temptation to flee my crosses, all offered as sacrifice to atone for my sins and those of the whole world.
5. For a grateful heart, surrendered, merciful, pure, just, temperate and self controlled. For silence of spirit, mind and heart to all that separates me from God and the grace to watch and pray without ceasing.
6. For the grace to live as a disciple in an ongoing spiritual reform of self denial, embracing my crosses with great gusto, following Jesus with a daily fresh Pentecost to obtain all Gifts necessary for perseverance or a determined determination in seeking the Kingdom of God and its righteousness (being conformed to the will of God with the Yes of my Mother with purity of intention – that is a yes without doubts, fears, explanations, for His glory, out of love for Him and for the salvation of souls, and done with a sense of urgency and as a sacrifice for others). For obtaining peace of mind (knowing the Truth) and peace of heart (revealing God’s love to others) as I live in the fear of God – in holy awe for what God has done for all of us all the way to the Calvary, and for all He has done for me in particular. TO BE ABLE TO ALWAYS LOOK UP AND WHEN LOOKING DOWN, TO LEAVE THIS ATTITUDE AND LOOK UP and see all the great things the Lord has done for me.
7. To become an evangelist and peacemaker and thirst for the salvation of souls (missionary) a) by helping others to know the Truth, to conform their wills to God’s will and to forgive and reconcile. b) By preaching the Gospel of God’s love with my life. c) By becoming the best spiritual servant or one who trusts in God’s love and mercy and all for His glory. d) By becoming “light to the world” as I reveal God’s love to others and sacrifice for them…!
8. For the grace to be a witness to priests and laity 1) that Jesus is truly alive in the Eucharist. 2) To raise awareness that the Eucharist is desecrated when received in mortal sin, and that giving Jesus to the multitudes without frequent proper instruction, is like exchanging Him for money to upkeep the building and ministries, while their inner spiritual life is demolished. 3) To understand my need to go to Jesus through Our Lady as signaled to us at the wedding of Cana.
9. For the work of Opus Misericordiae (the preaching of the immensity of God’s Mercy).
10. For my health of body, mind and spirit in order to do all of the above.
FINAL PRAYER: Majestic Queen of Heaven and Mistress of the Angels, you received from God the power and command to crush the head of Satan. Therefore, I humbly beg of you, send forth the legions of Heaven that under your command they may seek out all evil spirits around us, engage them everywhere in battle, curb their pride, and hurl them back into the pit of hell. Holy Angels and Archangels defend us and keep us. I promise I shall try to inspire devotion to you so as to hasten, through the Queenship of your Immaculate Heart, the coming of the Kingdom of the Sacred Heart into our own hearts. Spirit of Jesus fall afresh on me! Melt me, move me, fill me, mold me, heal me, use me and seal me. Spirit of the living God, fall afresh on me for the work of Mercy. I renounce Satan and his pomp. In the Name of Jesus I command all evil spirits to leave me and other workers, thus preserving our relationships for Opus Misericordiae. Amen.
Final Consecration on a Feast of Our Lady
I, _______pray, dear Mother, to be carried within your maternal arms to be presented to God the Father in heaven, to be placed in the service of your Son. I pledge to live only in the present moment, in total attention to love God with a perfect Yes to His will, as servant and under my crosses, and to love my neighbor by using every opportunity to ask the Father, in the Name of Jesus, for their salvation, as I forgive and forget their faults, atone for their sins and lay down my life on my own accord for their redemption when I exchange my love for their offenses, never allowing myself to think anymore of any scandal or hurt they have left in my heart. Give me faith to quench my fears – hope to quench my doubts – love to guard myself of indifference, and all to be done for the salvation of souls for the glory of God.
In this solemn act, I, your child, offer to you my yes in unison with your own to be obedient to the will of God, in order to be fortified and stand strong in this final battle for the fulfillment of the promises you gave in Fatima: the conversion of Russia, the land of your greatest victory, and through this the conversion of the entire world and the reign of global peace.
Queen of Apostles and of the Universe, Our Lady Help of Christians, patroness of evangelization and Co-Redemptrix, Our Lady Who Unties Knots, Our Lady of Guadalupe, under all your titles guide me in the midst of the darkness of these times. With the refuge of your Immaculate Heart as my beacon, lead me into the field of this battle as I proclaim the infinite mercy and love of God the Father, the love that He has for all as that of a mother for the baby in her womb (Rahamin!).
I promise you, my Mother, fidelity to Our Holy Father Benedict XVI, and may this consecration give him the unity of my heart, mind and soul to bring the reality of the Triumph of your Immaculate Heart. I promise to forgive and forget the sinful patterns present today within the Church and our money-changing of the Eucharist.
As an apostle of your Triumph, I, the mother of this family, pledge to you Mother, to give witness to the divine presence of your Son within the Holy Eucharist, the unifying force of your mighty army. May we find conviction, confidence and a single-minded focus before the Blessed Sacrament. May He create in us souls of perfection that can reflect and shine His love forth to all in the world, Christians, Moslems, Buddhists, Hindu’s, Jews, fallen away Catholics, Masons and atheists.
In the presence of all the Angels and Saints in heaven and in union with the Holy Mother Church, I renew the vows of my Baptism. I offer to you dear Mother, my past, present and future joys and sorrows, prayers and sacrifices, all that I am and all that the Father shall mold me to become, for the salvation of souls and in atonement and reparation for my sins and those of the whole world. As I have mentioned in my daily preparation, I renounce Satan and all his pomp and lies. I ask you to obtain for me that all my prayers be always accompanied by a deep desire to do God’s will like you did; that my love be exercised under the perfect obedience to the will of God, that is in obedience to all the Commandments and with a repentant heart; that my trust in God should always mean that I trust in His love perfectly with faith and dispelling all fears, regardless of my crosses and difficulties.
Thank you Mother for being there for me. I love you. AMEN.
7. Lectio Divina as guided by the Holy Spirit
8. Daily Novena to the Child Jesus (El Divino Niño)
Recommended by Father Juan del Rizzo:
Oh my Jesus, my love, my beautiful Child, I love you so, but I want to love You even more. Let me love You until death.
Come to me my Child, come into my arms. Come to my bosom and rest in my heart even for an instant; enrapture me with Your love. If do not deserve such joy, at least let me adore You. Let me bow down and rest my forehead in Your footsteps.
Little Shepherd of my soul, look at this sheep, how I anxiously seek You, how I long for You. I would like to be with You always and follow You wherever You go to be enlightened at all times by the light of Your eyes; amused by the unparalleled beauty of Your face, and indulged by the sweet honey that falls from Your lips.
I would like to be ministered to by Your own hands and to sleep in the shadow of Your cloak and never again be removed from You.
My Sweet Jesus! Divine Child of my soul! Tell me once more that You do love me; give me a token of Your love, Your everlasting love and Your holy blessing.
In the Name of the Father, of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen
(Think of your petitions) Say three Our Father’s, three Hail Mary’s and try to go to confession and Communion while saying the novena. Pray the Lord’s Prayer for the intentions of the Pope.
II. FASTING: this fasting is of my will… at all cost and with premeditation. How to do it?
1. With a resolute yes to His will for each present moment and most especially for my crosses. This is an active engagement of my will. I immediately do two things: 1) I accept it with a big yes… and usually say, “This moment is as perfect as it can be because God allowed it and has a purpose for it.” 2) Then, I dispel it with prayer, which means that I quit thinking of these crosses, the pros and cons, the why’s of them, etc.
2. By refusing (or fasting my will) to wonder for too long about all present moments. If I catch myself in this very human action, I do not recriminate myself or spend time examining why I was doing it, but turn to prayer immediately, and let the Holy Spirit take it from there, and He does! And this refusal is accomplished best again by saying, “Each moment is as perfect as it can be, and so it will be the next one,” but truly contemplating the immensity of the love of God arranging such moment, since it is so perfect because He is perfect in all He does, and so I must actually thank Him for it and the next moments to come. It does work and one day automatically when wondering what is going on now or later, I stop to realize that since all present moments are mandated or allowed by God, they are perfect and therefore, there is no need for me to find anything else about it. This is a form of trusting in God’s infinite mercy!
3. I must often remember to be ready to lose everything: comforts of life, secure situations (emotional or financial), reputation, a good name, and be ready to receive persecution.
4. Fasting my will requires other practices that help my soul receive graces to do it, like repenting often for all sins, even minor sins on a daily basis with purpose of amendment; plus receiving the Sacrament of Reconciliation on a regular basis and as needed.
My greatest gift to others is to seek their salvation but with great desire and “gusto” and dedication. I must lay down my life for them… and I now practice specific ways to do it.
Spiritual works of mercy (almsgiving):
1. I must forgive everyone who may have scandalized me or persecuted me. The opposite of love is not hatred but resentment.
2. I must offer my suffering in atonement for the sins of others and for their salvation especially those in public life like Politian’s, but must accept the suffering before I offer it up. You cannot offer something that it is not yours…and you accept it when you declare it perfect and necessary, or allowed by God and therefore sacred.
3. I must pray for others as a routine act. It is not if I remember or pray for those whom I like, but pray for everybody especially as I encounter them in each present moment…
4. I must abstain from judging others… at all cost. If I see someone acting in a way that gives me scandal, I must EXCHANGE my judgment for a prayer for the person involved and do it quickly.
5. I must be patient and kind with those who make me impatient, and always remembering that they are images of God.
6. I must serve others in different ways: with a smile, a thank you for anything good done to me.
7. I must preach the Gospel to others, in words and living It, as led by the Holy Spirit.
Corporal works of mercy (almsgiving):
1. I must feed the poor (e.g.: a $20 bill given to those who seem to be homeless). I must clothe the naked even if I do it with an act of love… which sometimes mean more to them than money. I have experience this with some homeless people and as I have narrated before, and they become transformed when they are clothed with love in whatever way is expressed.
2. Passing on information of things to help my neighbor’s health is a form of almsgiving.
IV. OTHER IMPORTANT PRACTICES
1. It is necessary to daily, preferably in the morning, to read my history of salvation, that is, to remember all the victories that the Lord has provided for me. Said differently, I must” look up” and fix up my eyes on Him by reviewing so many things that He already has given me
2. Daily reading of the Scriptures
3. Daily acceptance of martyrdom in whatever form.