Short addendum to previous October 2016 blog, one that taught me how to pray with faith!

November 12, 2016

My friends: I am addressing all who visit this site without knowing which presidential candidate you voted for. You know what my decision had been and simply based in the most important right there is: the inalienable right to life, the right to be born. The rest of the rights depend on having the luxury of being allowed to open our eyes in this world. To those who prayed, I HAVE TO THANK YOU SO MUCH…There you have a tremendous proof of the power of prayer.

As you know, I was praying 3 Rosaries per day and Chaplets of Divine Mercy just for these elections and most especially for the salvation of the two candidates. We know now that the cause for life of babies in the womb was the direct beneficiary of the results of the elections. I am sad that more than 40% of Catholics voted for Mrs. Clinton. It was clear for many of us that immigration and walls and poor phrases to describe Hispanics in this country were NOT as important as to stop abortion on demand. Mr. Devil had a huge defeat. However, when the time for the election came, I was given new ideas as TO HOW TO PRAY, besides accepting my suffering for this cause and trying very hard to pray much and do God’s will at all cost… So, the Lord prepared me ahead of time to be able to increase my faith as I prayed for this cause. Here it is:

Thursday, November 3

During the morning hours, I received two pages in the Bible as follows.

(Page 512)- 2 Maccabees 8: 1-6. (Please see how clear this whole chapter is about all the present difficulties in 2016… In retrospect since at the time I had no idea of the preciousness of these words, I will add in parenthesis meaning for our days.)

 “Judas Maccabeus and his companions (prolife voters)  implored the Lord to look kindly upon His people (U.S.), who were being oppressed on all sides, to have pity on the temple (wombs of women), which was profaned by godless men (abortion on demand); to have mercy on the city (in this Jubilee Year of Mercy), which was being destroyed (morally destroyed) and about to be leveled to the ground; to hearken to the blood that cried out to him (blood shed by babies); to remember the criminal slaughter of innocent children (aborted on demand children) and the blasphemies uttered against His name (everywhere by everyone); and to manifest His hatred of evil. Once Maccabeus got his men organized, the Gentiles could not withstand him, for the Lord’s wrath had now changed to mercy (results of the election). Coming unexpectedly upon towns and villages, he would set them on fire. He captured strategic positions (in order to bring merciful Judges to the Supreme Court), and put to flight a large number of the enemy (like Planned Parenthood and laws that approve euthanasia).

2 Maccabees 8: 12 and following

I will not copy the entire chapter 8 because you can read it at your discretion. However, it is clear that Maccabeus and companions trusted in God’s mercy…

(Page 777) – Sirach 51

The entire chapter is dedicated to thank God for all He has done to the person writing it.  It starts with verse 1 – “I give You thanks, O God of my father; I praise You, O God my savior! Verse 3 – You have delivered me in  Your great mercy. Verse 12 – He saved me from evil of every kind and preserved me in time of trouble. For this reason I thank Him and praise Him. I bless the name of the Lord.” (This is another chapter worthy of being read in its entirety).

I then prayed the Rosary with the EWTN viewers and a big teaching came through and this is what I wrote in my journal:

I had a clear picture that God will protect us versus our enemies. I heard this: “The correct way is for every morning to think of the power and grace of God in your own life. Therefore, know that you must thank Him daily for so many gifts and graces; expect triumph against all enemies. Keep your conversion ongoing so not to offend Him and allow the enemy to have any power over you. Thank Him for His mercy in the past, present and future. Only pay attention to what you can do to bring others to enjoy this same type of life.

“AT ALL TIMES KNOW that He is in charge of your life and that for such protection to fall over you, you need to AGREE with His will as being perfect and necessary and thank Him for such will regardless of the suffering involved!!! (I thought of my horrible knee pain). With this state of mind He will hear your prayers and answer them ASAP! In this consists the ‘yes’ of Our Lady. No more wondering on your part. The victory of Mr. Trump depends on your faith! Pray many Rosaries to live such life and for the salvation of all peoples, especially the two candidates and all voters. Secure the victory in this way. Like Judas Maccabeus, just thank Him for knowing that God is present and ready to give you as He did all your life! Realize that your healing will be here any time and the money necessary to move out of this toxic area. Thank Him for it ahead of time. With this kind of faith all is possible, EVEN MOVING A MOUNTAIN.”

All of this happened on November 3rd.  I then was led to pray for the election results but with great thanksgiving ahead of time!

Sunday, November 6

Before the Mass, I started to remind Him of the elections and He kept saying to pray giving Him thanks for the results. After Communion, He was clear and there was a certain force in His voice as He said, “PRAY IN THANKSGIVING. Do not forget this.”

At home on this same day, I was given the insight that thanksgiving can mean two things…!

 

1) I can pray thanking God for what He will do… (This is the wrong way… In fact it may give the impression that we are conniving God into answering us with what we want)

 

2) For the real thanksgiving, I had to remember and clearly that with faith I CAN MOVE MOUNTAINS. So, my thanksgiving needed to come from a heart full of faith and trust that God will decide this election for the babies not yet born. BUT, HOW TO HAVE SUCH FAITH?

 

Ah… It is very easy (in hindsight, of course). A couple of days before, the Holy Spirit had led me to read 2 Maccabees where Judas with a few men, prayed to Yahweh for a victory against their enemies. And yes, the few Israelites were able to defeat the huge numbers in the enemy forces. And of course, we have tons of these examples like in Joshua 24… Victory after victory can be found in the Old Testament. So, when I would pray for these election results, I had to pray in thanksgiving to God with the certitude that He had done it for many of His servants as noted above. Sure enough, I felt great faith that HE COULD NOT LET US DOWN because He did not do that with the other figures in the Old Testament. So, on Monday, Nov. 7, I started praying many Rosaries IN THANKSGIVIG that the Lord would do the same for us and therefore I had to thank Him in anticipation. It was easy to have such faith behind it. I truly felt it since God is full of justice and mercy and would bless us as He did others.

 

On Monday, Nov. 7 during the day I prayed 8 Rosaries. I took some coffee to my second floor bedroom and prayed during the night 9 Rosaries in thanksgiving, helping myself with the coffee since I tend to sleep very easy at night time.

 

On Tuesday, Nov. 8 and after 17 Rosaries, I turned on EWTN/Spanish at 4 AM for the first Rosary for the daylight hours but instead, they had a Chaplet of Mercy in Spanish prayed by people in different Hispanic countries, including Costa Rica. So, I prayed it on behalf of all voters, in expiation for their sins and asking for God’s mercy for them. During the day on Tuesday, as the voters were busy voting, I prayed 8 Rosaries in thanksgiving. I wanted to pray 30 in total, but after 25, the Lord said that it was enough and that the victory was ours and of course WITH THE SENATE AND HOUSE having a REPUBLICAN majority (I was not even thinking about it).

 

I remember how in 2002, I traveled to Tepeyac and for Nov. 4th. I spent all day (9 hours) in the Basilica attending a Mass every hour and praying for the election of a Republican Senate, which was the one in jeopardy, so that Mr. Bush could elect the right members of the Supreme Court to approve those he chose. When I returned home on Nov. 5, as I landed in Texas, I heard that yes, the Senate was Republican.

 

In 2004, I spent 12 hours in front of the exposed Blessed Sacrament at Christ the King parish in Toledo, and prayed 26-27 Rosaries (I forgot the exact number and you know the story). Yet, nothing was mentioned to pray in thanksgiving like this time. In other words, In 2016 I had to pray with much more faith!!!!! Well, the rest is history.

 

HOWEVER THIS IS THE MOST IMPORTANT PART OF THIS ADDENDUM: we must pray now for the days prior to January 20, 2017, so that Mr Trump does not get too close to people that Satan will try to place around him.  He has to name 1,000 people as heads of the different areas of the Presidency. We need those people to help him also, not only not to influence him negatively, but to give him the right advice in due time to choose the right Judges for the Supreme Court and to CHANGE all his ideas about building the famous wall and deporting millions of Hispanics. If the Lord was able to give him the victory, He can also give him the wisdom and certainty to GOVERN in a MERCIFUL way… As King Solomon did, we must pray for WISDOM for this President elect.

 

SO, THIS MESSAGE IS SENT right now to ask you to pray with me for such petitions necessary to STOP, first of all, the division now caused by the democratic members that are furious with his win, and to a certain point with some reason since they are human and according to the polls, they were already sure Mrs. Clinton would win. We must remember that Satan divides… and it is his favorite work in our souls and minds…  but Jesus UNITES… Let’s pray at least ONE ROSARY PER DAY and one chaplet of Mercy for these intentions, so that God’s mercy can drop over Mr. Trump. Besides, those marching in the streets of many big cities are our brothers and sisters and we need to love them and pray that they can see and feel the need of unification, and that those democrats with some religious ideas, that they will pray for such unification.  WE CAN DO IT… We just did it… and nobody in our media can believe why it happened. Hatred (another instigated feeling from Satan) is preponderant and WE CAN STOP ALL OF IT… O yes, WE CAN!

 

It was interesting to hear in the late evening of November 8th, how the media spoke of what had just happened. These are some of their words:

Historically unbelievable; the most momentous event in America; a stunning victory; the greatest political upset of the last 100 years; a massive failure of political data; this is a bomb shell and what did we miss?; all polls were wrong.

 

I have prayed for the last 48 hours in order to know if the Lord wanted me to pass this information to you but right now and not later for the blog of November, and every time there was a clear ‘yes’ on His part. I understood that we need to contain Satan and his plans ASAP. Today and by chance, I heard a program in EWTN/Spanish about the Fatima apparitions, now considered extraordinary lights for us in these one hundred years since the Angel appeared to the three children in 1916. The core of the message was about praying much, offering all suffering and Francisco was the one who practiced it the most, which he offered for peace in the world. She also asked the children to pray many Rosaries. So, let us cover the President-elect with our prayer and suffering with one Rosary per day for these days before January 20, so that he makes all decisions according to God’s will and the good of all who live in this country. After the change of power, we must continue praying for him in some way or another; each one of us discerning what is God asking of us, since we need to save the lives of millions of babies not conceived as yet. The future of America is in our hands and all of us will face our God at the end of our life on earth, and we must give Him an account of our work for the Kingdom, that is, the conversion of all souls, in whatever ways He expects each one of us to do it.

 

Since I have some visitors for the week of Thanksgiving, the blog for November will be delayed somewhat and hopefully be posted early December. Thank you again for all those who prayed with great heart for this presidential election.

 

 

 

Another major step in my ongoing conversion!

November 1, 2016

My friends: you did a wonderful intercessory job in praying for me since I was able to understand that I must continue with these blogs at all cost, at least for the mean time. Our Lord will decide when to stop.

I am writing this blog in a shortened fashion because I learned something sooo important for our prayer prior to November 8, that I must t summarize it and perhaps for the month of November, I will add a few things that happened in this month of October, which are irrelevant to our need to pray with efficacy for the new President. I need to post this message as soon as possible and I beg you to join me in prayer in the new format given to me by Him, the love of my life, under  the intercession of Our Lady, most importantly under her title of Santa Maria de Guadalupe!

On October 10, I was directed to pray 3 Rosaries just for the presidential election, bringing the salvation of the two candidates as petitions for these Rosaries, among other urgent needs that I have, like moving away from this super toxic area, etc. Of course, I also had to pray the family and community Rosaries besides the 3 Rosaries mentioned. So, I started to do so.

On October 22, the wonderful feast day of St. John Paul II, my PK or Papa Karol as I call  him, and he must have prayed much for me because I was told and very clearly how poor my yes to God’s will still is! Ouch! Here is what I wrote in my journal:

On this day, I prayed several Rosaries one after the other at 1:32 PM, 1:50 PM, 2:10 PM and at 2:35 PM.

At 2:50 PM I started wondering what to do for this election. I called the Holy Spirit. I was sent to page 565 of the Bible and found Psalm 13 about prayer in time of illness…! Psalm 14 had as title, “A lament over widespread corruption.” I was fascinated about the topics…because they pertained to the intentions of the 3 special Rosaries mentioned above.

At 2:55 PM, I called the Holy Spirit and said, “What shall I do in these circumstances of my illness and widespread corruption?”

He answered, “You can do much more as follows:

I. With much prayer as you are doing it now.

II. Offer up your suffering in all aspects of your life, but never forget that 1) you have to hear My Truth and share it like you are doing with the blogs even if you suffer with your eye. 2) But also by working with others to spread the Truth of My Real Presence and my love and mercy for all, YET do not do it if deep in your heart you do not want to do it due to your poor health!” I took a deep breath and thanked Him for such permission.

“However,” He continued, “would you say yes to do it for the salvation of souls, especially those in your own household?”

I thought about it and realized my sin since I was ready to use His permission not to work with others speaking on His Real Eucharistic Presence and His love and mercy for all of us; yet when my family members were mentioned I was ready to sacrifice it all! Wow… I was greedy for graces for mine only. What a spiritual horror! So, I said, “Yes I am willing to do it.”

He said, “But it must be a true yes, not just a yes to get something for the family but a yes to sacrifice yourself for all in need. They are as important as your own.”

I said, “I am sorry for my sin of wanting to go and work with others but mostly because I want to benefit my own! Right now, my yes is clean of avarice and I truly want to do it to love all as You love them.” I had received the grace to feel much love for my brothers and sisters as if they were blood related. It was awesome!

3 PM: “Speak Lord, What else do You have to say?”

He sent me to page 888 – Jeremiah 39:18

III. “I will make certain that you escape and do not fall by the sword. (I understood that the sword was to care only for my own) Your life shall be spared (will obtain salvation) as booty because you trusted in Me,” says the Lord.
I realized that when He said, “I will make certain,” it meant that I had to be obedient to His will for this promise to be fulfilled. I also understood that saying yes to His will also meant to trust that His will by itself will protect me from my own sword, my own sin of only thinking of my family
.

RIGHT THERE I HAD A WONDERFUL DIVINE PLAN for this election.

1. I have to pray much (and of course the Rosary was so important. In fact on this day, it was after 4 Rosaries that I had been illumined about my own sin and how to correct it!)

2. Accept suffering at all cost for the good of others, and accepting it with a clean heart to help their salvation, was part of this plan of preparing for this election.

3. Doing His will with total trust (or with FAITH WITHOUT FEAR) that His will is perfect for me and necessary to combat the widespread social corruption existing today.

This plan looked universal, catholic in nature, a form of spreading the Kingdom of God in these moments of so much confusion, division, physical assassinations of babies and spiritual assassination of those who work to kill them, whether their own mothers or health professionals that do the abortions.

3:07 PM. I said to the Lord, “It is a deal.”

HERE IS WHEN I REALIZED THAT we as a nation have allowed the law that gives permission to mothers to kill their babies, plus we are still preaching and talking about praying for this not to happen anymore, but many years later, nothing has worked. Wouldn’t this be a good example of our stupidity of not realizing that our prayer has not worked? But why? That our preaching has not worked? That complaining about our religious liberty is so unimportant compared with the life of a baby killed without any problem if he/she resides in a womb of a woman, but it cannot be done if the baby is out of the womb?  We have the latest most advanced communication technology possible and most of it coming from California, but we only complain about the abortion on demand disaster and not dig the reasons as to why our prayer and preaching on this subject has given very weak results, when we as children of God have all the power on earth to end abortion on demand ! But why have we being so poor in judging these issues?

Let’s face it, “our eyes have not seen; our ears have not heard; our brains have not understood that we are failures in this matter.

ALL WE HAD TO DO was to pray much BUT COMING FROM A HEART totally accepting His will, and trusting 100% that His mercy, His many graces of His love for us, will demand of us love for our crosses and ALL DONE FOR HIS GLORY AND FOR THE SALVATION OF ALL SOULS… Once done, we could see God ending abortion on demand!

This matter is not complicated whatsoever. The yes of Our Lady was clear… And what happened? Ah, she received the grace or power to walk for three days to go and serve her cousin Elizabeth… She had had an encounter with the Holy Spirit (a Pentecost of sorts) which not only left Jesus in her womb, but blessed her with the gift of service for her neighbor. After all, she was only 15 years old… She took her own Son, just a few cells in development… (hmm) and took the Holy Spirit with which she had been covered to visit her family and even the 6 month old fetus in Elizabeth’s womb danced for joy when he met the Holy Spirit and his own second cousin… Huh! In the mean time, she was accepting the suffering of having to return home and explain to Joseph the source of her pregnancy without being married! Besides, just to say that an angel had come to announce this and that she had accepted and therefore that she was pregnant with Jesus, was close to be considered totally crazy…!!! BUT HER FAITH was sooo robust that she took very seriously her yes to God’s will and acted it out…

My question for any of us is this: How many of us are ready to truly say yes to God’s will without ever praying about a change of any kind? Are we praying Rosaries for these elections and truly not happy with our yes to do God’s will or saying yes from our teeth out but not in our hearts, that is waiting for God to change His mind regarding His will for us? Are we praying Rosaries passing the beads and truly not encountering our state of conversion and wanting to change NOW and not after Nov. 8th? Are we truly hurting for the babies that are killed every hour on the hour? Or we just show our disagreement but never truly hurting for the babies? If we are not doing so, have we asked God to give us a love like the one He has for us? Or are we simply doing or talking the right words but truly not wanting to change our ways in order for our Rosaries to reach God TODAY and change the hearts of many, all done by the Holy Ghost? Are we saying yes to God’s will in our lives but with a sad face as we refuse to believe that it is His love and mercy for us that flows through whatever suffering we are going through? Are we insistent like the old widow in front of the judge as Jesus told her story, and insist in converting ourselves starting right now? Do we understand these truths and repent for the little we do to change ourselves and ask for God’s mercy for all of us for these elections?

On October 24, the famous religious quarter back who was successful in college American football but not in the NFL, he said, “LOVE IS TO SEEK THE BEST FOR OTHERS AND ACT ON IT.”          Well, to feel such love we have to pray, embrace our crosses with gusto and do God’s will with a super PURIFIED yes. The power of these three actions will be immense and miracles could happen on November 8th.

On the same day of the feast of St. John Paul II, a program in Spanish was presented in the Univision channel. One of his major reporters and news maker, Mr. Jorge Ramos, showed his visits to several areas where the Klug Klux Klan exists. This was done following an event on August 14, 2015, in one of the firsts meetings with reporters by the Republican candidate, Jorge had some questions for him and the candidate ordered Ramos to be expelled… So, Jorge wanted to find out more about the reason behind it and Ramos is white with white hair although he is young. By now, we know how this candidate feels about Hispanics in general and in particular, against those without proper immigration papers. I want to confess to you that to a certain point. I can see anyone born in this country to feel offended by the number of immigrants that want to come to live here without proper paperwork. When will it stop? So, this night of October 22, I learned more about this point from KKK followers…

The KKK members clearly expressed to Ramos that they do not want to be a minority in this country! They clearly said to him that white people are more intelligent and gifted. They are superior in every form. This person who said it was older, ugly with broken teeth and did not sound particularly intelligent in his words. There it was Satan working overtime. In fact the entire program was titled, “Sembrando Odio,” or “Seeding Hatred.” The KKK expects Mr. Trump to do the necessary to clear their path in governing this country with the right ideas coming from white people.

I realized that in one side, one candidate is totally fine with killing babies in the womb by whatever methods. The other one, wants to establish a reign of the white people and get rid of those who are inferior, especially Mexicans who come from the indigenous settlers of the south of the U.S. all the way to Central America. They were the original habitants of the land… Little did I know that I would learn so much more about the people who received Our Lady of Guadalupe in 1531!!!

Here is my chance to clarify something: in order to ask our Lord to help us in Nov. 8th, and that is that I MUST ASK FOR MY LOVE FOR THE KKK… THEY ARE HIS IMAGE AND LIKENESS IN NEED OF SALVATION… I must work hard to convert my heart at not hating these people; at not feeling anything negative towards them… Then, I will be able to pray my many Rosaries and even suffer the pain of knowing that the KKK exists and seeing it as an opportunity to pray for them by loving them first, and be certain that the Holy Ghost can do that in my soul… Sooo easy! It only demands my desire to convert this part of my soul in order to pray for all souls who will be voting in this election. I suspect that if I truly get to love the KKK members just because they are sons and daughters of God, they will convert because Mr. Satan will run faster than ever… It all depends that a few of us, especially Christian Catholics start working in our own conversion by submitting to suffering of any kind with a great embrace, wanting to do God’s will no matter what and praying the holy Rosary to ask our Mom to do what she did at Tepeyac… More on it later.

Sometime after October 22, I saw the story of the Spanish Queen Elizabeth the Catholic, or Reina Isabel la Catolica. She was the one who sent Columbus to the Americas and she also showed many, many times how she treated her enemies with great compassion and love… Amazing. She should be one of our canonized saints. She was the first evangelizer of the Americas…

Eventually about October 24, I saw in EWTN in Spanish a wonderful program of the apparition of Our Lady of Guadalupe to St. Juan Diego by Msgr. Eduardo Chavez who was in charge of the canonization process of Juan Diego and now resides at the Basilica of Guadalupe as rector, or so I understood in Spanish. The program was presented by Mr. Jonas Soto from EWTN. Msgr. said that after Juan Diego’s canonization and in 2008, the Cardinal Archbishop of Mexico City established an institute to study more in depth the apparitions of Our Lady. The program is called “Donde Dios llora” and in English we know it as “Where God weeps.” By chance I found it and I was super fascinated with its content. It explains in detail how Our Lady convinced the Indians to even beg for their Baptism. Wow! It relates the stories that Juan Diego revealed to a Spaniard who wrote it after 1531. Msgr. Chavez discovered in 2008 that the key of this massive conversion comes from Our Lady taking the good that there is in every human being and placing it in front of her Son… However, I did record this program in a later showing and I am now trying to translate it into English for the blog of November, prior to her Feast Day on December 12… My eyes could not help me to do it fast enough to post this blog on Nov. 1. Yet, you would be fascinated with the entire story that was not known up to 2008… Wow! It is possible that EWTN has presented this program with English subtitles since it took place on a December 12, most likely of 2015. Yet, it will give me much pleasure and feel honored to post the translation in my blog.

The Aztecs had many, many gods… Our Lady came dressed in such a way that they could read many truths just from her picture as it was created by God… They loved her because she spoke to them without specific words of Nahuatl, the local language and just using how she looked. But first, let me give a few ideas of the times in 1531 from the Internet…

Mexican Indians at the time of Our Lady of Guadalupe apparitions

On August 13, 1521, Tenochtitlán – the capital of the extensive Aztec Empire – fell to a large force of Spanish and indigenous soldiers. The magnificent city had been under siege for 79 days, as many of its Mexica warriors fought with great courage against an enemy that numbered between 100,000 and 150,000. However, with their lifeline to food sources and water supplies cut off, women, children, and men were dying from dehydration, starvation and disease (smallpox) at an incredible rate. According to Aztec historians, 240,000 inhabitants of the great city had died by the end of the siege.

The conquest of Tenochtitlán spelled the end of the great Aztec Empire. But even with the death of the political entity that had ruled over so much of central and southern México, the Aztec culture – together with the Náhuatl language that its people spoke – endured through much of central and eastern México. In some communities, the Aztec culture and language actually thrived over the centuries. The Mexican census of 2000 indicated that 1,448,936 persons spoke the Náhuatl language, representing 24.0% of all indigenous speakers in the country. And, among the Náhuatl speakers, 195,934 persons (or 13.5%) were actually monolingual and unable to speak the Spanish language.

After forging important alliances with several Indian leaders, Captain Hernán Cortés had led a large coalition of Spanish soldiers and indigenous warriors against the Mexica of Tenochtitlán. Once they had consolidated their position, the Spaniards laid waste to the city, leveling the majestic temples, pyramids and palaces that had dominated the capital’s landscape. Tenochtitlán itself was rebuilt as a Spanish-style colonial capital and was renamed La Ciudad de México (México City).

Although the Spaniards and their Christian Indian allies sought to remove all vestiges of the Mexica’s culture and heritage, Cortés and his military advisers also recognized that their victory was only made possible by the help of their indigenous allies, most of whom were, like the Mexica, members of the Aztec culture and speakers of the Náhuatl language.

The Mexica had ruled over the vast Aztec Empire from Tenochtitlán, but they were actually only one ethnic group of many that made up the Aztec culture. The Náhuatl language that they spoke was just one component of the widespread Aztec culture that dominated much of central and eastern México.

Although Spanish has greatly influenced the Náhuatl language over the last five centuries, the influence of Náhuatl on the Spanish and English languages has also been profound, albeit not as recognizable. It is a tribute to the Aztec culture and people that a very large percentage of Náhuatl toponyms (place names) can be seen when looking at a map of México. Countless towns and cities from Sonora to Tabasco carry Náhuatl designations. As a matter of fact, the word México finds its origin in the language of the Mexica.

Náhuatl has provided an extraordinary number of words to the Spanish language, including aguacate, capulín, chile, chocolate, coyote, guacamole, mescal, peyote, and tomate. The English language has also adopted as its own many words that have their origins in Náhuatl, including avocado, chocolate, coyote, ocelot, tomato and tequila.” (End)

By the way, according to the program from EWTN from Msgr. Chavez, the word Mexica has Hebrew and Arab roots!!!!! It is pronounced in Spanish as “meshica.” Also, Our Lady was the one who chose the name of Guadalupe!!! It did not come from a place in Spain where the name of Guadalupe also appears. And one more thing: she makes a point by choosing a lay person to talk to… but sends him to the Bishop. The entire affair is a wonderful event where the laity and the Church come together to pass on this great event to the entire world, even in this XXI century!

I am sorry if I am giving you too much information on the state of Mexico in 1531 but when I post the entire story of this program in English, some of you will love to learn so many other things… For example, the Aztecs had one god that they did not know well at all… They had complained much about not knowing him and felt abandoned… Our Lady used their idea about this God and placed in them the story of her Son. She never said that such Aztec god was Jesus. She simply brought the infant in her womb as the one who would never abandon them… NOTICE HOW SHE IS A FAMOUS MAKER OF MIRACLES, as at the Wedding of Canaan.

She was able to convert millions… in just a few years… What could she do for us and convert many to love babies in the womb? Well, for that we must ask her and show at the same time that we are true disciples who follow Jesus with our crosses; that we DO NOT MIND OUR CROSSES as helpers of the power to attract others to Him. But above all, that we are saying yes to God’s will from a converted heart and trying to emulate how she said it and therefore, that we can be true intermediaries for the conversion of millions, including the KKK and those who do not care for the killing of the babies in the womb. In the other hand, we laity have to stop reading books and telling others what to do UNTIL WE ENTER A TRUE WAY OF CONVERSION AS EXPLAINED BEFORE. We cannot worry about how to raise our kids. The Holy Spirit will raise them by guiding us as to what to do if we work in our own conversion.  We cannot worry about religious liberty until we enter a true path of personal conversion and ask our Lady with many Rosaries to take care of asking the Throne of Mercy to solve the problem.

There is no doubt in my mind that we continue to make plans as to how to work for good marriages and with children, and talk and talk about it… We do not have to do it by ourselves with our own ideas as good as they may sound. We have first to become converted to become true followers of Jesus in every way… He prayed… He suffered immensely… He did the will of His Father all the way to the Cross. Once we do try to live such life, His mercy will cover us with the graces necessary truly do it and to be His ambassadors and evangelize the entire world. 

WE CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN THESE ELECTIONS… Please join me and let us enter a vibrant path of self conversion by doing what God and Our Lady have told us to do. The next 8 days can make a big difference… In my case, every time that my knees get worse by the week, and the Tramadol is not sufficient, I will TRY VERY HARD TO SAY YES TO GOD’S WILL FOR HIS GLORY AND FOR THE SALVATION OF THE MANY VOTERS, BUT TRULY WANTING to be an associate disciple who wants to be the best servant of the Lord. I repeat, please JOIN ME! We can do it! Of course with the sincere desire to change further even after Nov. 8th…. Let’s show the world that Jesus Christ is alive and that He is crazy about us.

The last five words above come from a little story. This Sunday October 30, I was not sure if I could attend 8 AM Mass. We were expecting a storm to start around 5 AM with tough winds and in these circumstances, with so much pain hardly covered by Tramadol, my feet are not secure enough to walk on a very wet cement or asphalt, while using a cane and holding an umbrella… I told Him to take care of the weather if He wanted me to be there. On my part, I told Him that I wanted to be with Him. Sure enough, there was no wind. No water. At 5 AM, the weather channel had the rain coming around 9 to 10 AM…

I went to Mass and sat in the last pew in this huge church building. Walking all the way to the front going downhill and later coming uphill, with much pain is not easy for me. Of course, I love the first pew just to look at Him during the entire Mass… I wished I could live under the Tabernacle forever and ever. We got there and at the time of Communion, they send Eucharistic Ministers to the back of the church. On this day, the lady that came with Him somehow came into my pew as I was already sitting but half way while waiting since other parishioners were slowly moving toward the lateral back corner. She came and gave me Communion as if she knew of my pain…. Then, the other minister came from behind and offered me His Blood… Wow… Did we had a ball while we were talking after Communion. He was clear: “I want your blog posted at the latest on Nov. 1…” I promised even that I have to take many rests to allow my left eye to stop aching…Then my son and I went to the Whole Foods store where my son buys his breakfast and salad for the week and I bought a few things so that later this week I do not have to go there using the expressway. We came out with no rain. We arrived home and 15 minutes later the famous storm arrived and the trees seeing through the kitchen window were furiously moving.  Of course, He wanted to be sure that I understood that His request was truly important and that He had made Himself present in handling nature for my safety… All along, even during the Mass, I was taken by the EVENT OF GUADALUPE, as they call it…She did bring many conversions with the power of God behind it because of her Yes…

It is time for us to wake up. Let’s get converted and never talk about Him, write about Him, preach about Him and His Mom, if we are not trying to enter a process of conversion to be the BEST SERVANT OF THE LORD. And then, we could sit down to see what happens! We will love each other and serve each other like never before. By the way, Mr. Satan has been after me big time. I have to say yes to that too. After all, Jesus and His and my Ma are with me!

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving Day, and please pray for me… I truly need it… Thank so much to those who have prayed for me to find out if I would write more blogs! I always pray for all those who read this blog monthly.  We have to share our God’s goodness, love and mercy and grow in the trust that He is always by our side… Hopefully, next blog will have the entire story of the event of Guadalupe as it is referred to, and may be add a story or two from this month, if God so desires it.

CLOSING WORDS coming from a short quote of Servant of God Archbishop Luis Maria Martinez, and as it appeared in the Magnificat Missal for Tuesday, October 18th.

“St. Thomas teaches that the precept of God’s love has no limit, but that however much we may love Him, we are always under the pleasing obligation of loving him more. Something similar should be said of our love for souls: we ought always to love them more. He who is loved more by God must love souls more, for the measure of our love toward others is the love of Jesus for us. He has loved our souls with the same love with which He loves His Father and as the Father has loved Him.

“Through us Jesus wishes to continue loving souls. Within us He desires to continue His immolation for them, illuminating, wooing, purifying, sanctifying and beatifying them. How sublime our mission! How sublime our mission! How sacred our duties! How unspeakable our happiness!”

 

 

 

 

LOOKING AT MY CROSSES WITH A NEW PERSPECTIVE!

October 6, 2016

INTRODUCTION

On Tuesday, September 6, I posted the blog for August and I wrote this:

 Note: I want to assure you that in the future if I happen to fall sick and unable to write the monthly blog, my son Ernesto will post a note in this site with the announcement. The same, if I were to die, he will post a note in this site.

Well, it turned out to be a prophetic note… You shall see!

EVENTS ACCORDING TO THE CALENDAR SEQUENCE

Thursday, September 8

I did not feel well but was able to shop in the supermarket for a few things. That evening I started to have some discomfort in my belly area. During the night it became worse since there was no pain but severe unbearable nausea.

Friday, September 9

By 3 AM I had to call my son because I truly was desperate with this constant need to vomit. At times I did vomit but basically a watery stuff since my dinner from the day before had passed to the large colon. By 6 AM, I asked him to call an ambulance since I had no medical reason for this nausea. There was no diarrhea or pain involved.

I arrived at a private hospital, the same where I had ended up for my second gastric bleeding in one week’s time in August of 2014. When in the emergency room, some studies were done and a C.T. scan performed over my abdomen and the DIAGNOSIS OF SMALL BOWEL OBSTRUCTION came to be!!! Immediately I KNEW THAT IT WAS NOT! From here on I was exposed to a comedy of errors… for the next 60+ hours (2.5 days).

I was placed in this bed with no medication and waiting for the floor doctor to come and see what to do. She eventually came and said that they would insert an NG (naso-gastric tube or a tube through my nostrils to my stomach) in order to hope to get better (apparently this is the new way of treating such obstruction) instead of having surgery. Of course, surgery for me makes me cringe because I may wake up without memory at all… and also because I do not trust doctors in general. Maybe I could have similar results as in my bladder suspension, when the urologist condemned me to visit the bathroom very often or pass urine all over… He does not know what happened since when I had my first post-operative visit, he had been let go after 30 years of experience. I dealt with other urologists who would look at me as if waiting for a law suit for the entire group… Shortly after, my surgeon urologist had joined another group, his secretary called twice to offer his services and to answer any questions. Obviously, I did not answer because even if this error requires another surgical revision, he would not touch me…!!! I actually need lots of money to pay cash in a major place like the Mayo Clinic to hopefully get it fixed correctly. Besides, this reality places me in a difficult situation: I could never travel in an airplane… If the weather is bad, the pilot may ask to remain in our seats regardless and I would go crazy needing to empty my bladder or else… As you can see, the cross is getting heavier by the week.

 Wednesday, September 14

But now look at a few more mistakes… I underwent during my hospitalization. This is what I wrote to my sonsà

Email:

I went to hell and back by spending 2.5 days in this private Hospital… Error after error had me in total anguish. For example: 1) they ordered pain medication in a form of a pill while I had an N-G tube in my stomach connected to suction!!!!! In other words, the pill would dissolve in the stomach and be extracted by the NG tube into a suction device on the wall…2) On top of it, the medication was Hydrocodone to which I am deadly allergic. 3) I had very high blood pressures but they did not seem too preoccupied… I kept saying that if I got a stroke, I surely would tell the story in the courts. They would treat it with IV medications but in minor amounts and of course I would have BP’s of 190/102 for example that would come down to 170/90, also a very dangerous number. The nurses would themselves tell me that it was too small of a dose. 4) THEY INVENTED THAT I HAD A SMALL BOWEL OBSTRUCTION by CT scan… I knew it was an error since I had zero pain or cramping in my abdomen… I underwent terrible torture until they proved that I DID NOT HAVE IT through a series of x-rays that they took of my abdomen after injecting via the NG tube, a contrast substance to see if it would advance to the colon. Of course, I was nicely irradiated… 5) plus I had to lie down for some 3 hours on a metal bed under the x-rays emitting cone, which gave me severe pain and my blood pressure was high to begin with! Ouch. 6) When I was changed to have clear liquid diet, they kept sending me stuff with fruits to which I am allergic to, even that they had a list of my allergies and the dietary chief had called me to inquire about this list. One of them had carrageenan but they of course did not know my connection of this thickener with depression and obviously I did not touch. So my clear liquid diet was basically nonexistent! 7) Some nurses came to tell me that they read that I had had multiple abdominal interventions…! And no… never had except for the laparoscopy (small instruments placed in the lower abdomen to suspend the bladder from the outside and without opening the abdomen …).

 

I was sent home on Monday, September 10. My nausea had subsided by pure luck but I had gained much irradiation and thanked God for my medical knowledge since I was able to point to some errors… Friends from Panama who recently had visited sent me a note saying that they could not imagine how in a private well known and respected hospital in the U.S., things like that were possible. They said how they felt knowing that they were living in a third world country and with no knowledge of medicine.

 

I came out still unable to understand why my God sent me to suffer this horror. Well, I came out worse exhausted than I went in with the only symptom of SUPER SEVERE NAUSEA, with no answer as to why of the nausea. I had been in bed for 2 1/2 days and going through the hell of errors and this made me feel a little upset with my Lord….!!!! Ouch and ouch!!!

 

But yesterday, (September 13) the mail brought a card from a high school classmate in Los Angeles when I was there as an exchange student. We became very good friends since I was Catholic… She always tells me that I was sooo religious that she became attracted to my demeanor… She now lives in Washington State. Well, the card is very tiny but was full of little and yet extraordinary quotes like:

 

"We always find that those who walked closest to Christ were those who had to bear the greatest trials." St. Teresa of Avila

 

"Let us understand that God is a Physician, and that suffering is a medicine for salvation, not a punishment for damnation." St. Augustine

 

"Suffering is the very best gift He has to give to us. He gives it only to his chosen friends." St. Therese of Lissieux

 

"The soul that is destined to reign with Jesus Christ in eternal glory must be remodeled by the blows of hammer and chisel. The Heavenly Physician is treating you so as one chosen to follow Jesus closely up the Hill of Calvary…"

St. Padre Pio

 

"Can you expect to go to heaven for nothing? Did not our Dear Savior track the whole way with His Blood and tears?" St. Elizabeth Ann Seton

 

Well, I wished I had received this card while in the hospital or just before! Now I can have something in my hands ready to re-read for my troubles. (End of email)

 

I felt sorry for questioning the Lord as to why I had been submitted to this horrific series of errors, and now I am sorry more than ever because he had sent me the medicine to feel better after receiving this card with these quotes… He is always one step ahead of us… I needed this, especially because the hospital gave me an envelope with indications to follow at home, instructing me about what an obstruction of the intestine is all about…!!! Plus, it said that the symptoms for this obstruction are two: nausea and severe pain in the abdomen! There was the 8th error… I had zero pain in the abdomen and they asked me tons of times about it and touched my belly trying to be sure I was answering correctly. So, I was discharged with no explanation about the nausea plus 8 errors… I must add that all nursing personnel were very nice in each shift, except for one young nurse in the night shift. I had no suffering related to their demeanor towards me.

 

Friday, September 16

 

There was a beautiful program in EWTN about the Infant Jesus. It dates from 2005 by the departed couple Bob and Penny Lord called, “Miracles of the Child Jesus.” While in a church, the statue of the Infant of Prague (in Czechoslovakia) had suffered loss of His hands from enemies of the Church and the Child came to speak to Fr. Cyril (promulgator of the devotion). He heard a voice dip in the rubble. He found the statue. The voice said, “Give me hands.” A parishioner gave the money to restore the hands of the statue. In 1902, a new Shrine was built in Milan, Italy and the Infant of Prague came to reside there. Many miracles came to be from the Infant, especially financial help. Pius XI crowned the statue and wrote the document declaring the shrine a Minor Basilica, giving in this way a sign of approval to the devotion of the Infant of Prague.  They said that “the smiling face of the statue asks us to trust in Him.”

 

Deep devotion to the Infant was present in great Saints of the past. 1) St. Teresa of Avila, founded 17 homes of Discalced Carmelites and in each one, she left a statue of the Infant Jesus. She would call him “El Fundador” (The founder); “El Peregrinito,” (The little pilgrim); “El Mensajerito” (The little Messenger). She wrote that one day she found the Infant in the stairway and He asked her, “Who are you?” She responded, “I am Teresa of Jesus.” He responded, “I am Jesus of Teresa.” 2) St. Therese of Lisieux is also known as Therese of the Child Jesus! 3) St. John of the Cross would carry the Infant Jesus in his arms during processions. 4) St. Anthony of Padua is depicted with the Child Jesus sitting on top of the Bible.

 

Of course, all throughout this program, I remembered the story of the Divine Jesus (El Divino Niño) from Colombia and how He spoke to Mother Angelica and asked her to build the present beautiful Shrine of the Blessed Sacrament in Hanceville, AL. All of this I immediately took as a call for me to show an increase in devotion and love for the Divine Child. I realized that it would be the Child Jesus who would be directly responsible for my healing. I did not hear it; I just felt it. In fact, I had found recently a little card with the Infant’s picture as He was depicted appearing in Colombia and with a little prayer in the back. In fact years ago, a good friend of mine bought me via EWTN, a statue of the Divine Jesus identical to the one in the little card but it is still in the storage place as it came from Toledo… However, I also have in my bedroom an identical and large picture of His. The little card says in Spanish, “Divino Niño Jesús en Ti confío” or Divine Infant Jesus, I trust inYou, similar to the one appearing in the Jesus of Mercy picture.

 

In years past, I had explored the entire story of the Divine Infant in Colombia and the many miracles He has obtained, just as He has done for Mother Angelica’s Shrine. I have the favorite prayer written by Father Juan Rizzo, the priest who made of this devotion in Colombia, a worldwide story, noting besides that Mother Angelica’s last name was Rizzo… Wow!

 

On this day, I already had prayed two Rosaries. At 11:45 AM, I got up to go to the bathroom and heard clearly, “If you renew your devotion to My Mercy coming from my Infant devotion, I will convert your entire family (two sons who in the 1980’s were scandalized by the Church and still have problems with any devotion to Jesus, except that they live very holy lives in general and are good to me), and all of them will become very loving to Me as they enter a deep conversion. You will also be able to work for Me in the spread of the Gospel of Love with the blog and in other forms and I as the Divine Child will accompany you.”

 

I went, “Wow. Amazing.” Somehow, I started realizing that my recent hell in the hospital needed to be in order for me to offer it up for what it is going on in the entire world, and mostly in our U.S. political scenario. Then, I heard, “Would you do it despite your poor health?” I answered, “Yes.” I heard, “It has to be such so that you can save many, many souls. Would you do it for those souls?” I instantly responded, “Wow, it will be hell but yes, I have to save souls regardless of my health issues. Those souls must come first. Yes, I will do it.” I then realized that such cross could be worse than I expected!

 

I came back to my seat in the living room, and on a wall I have multiple pictures of Saints and of Jesus. I was fascinated with the recent conversation realizing that it was NOT made up by me because the dialogue was fast and with a sense of peace and joy on my part! At one point, my Mother said, “You have done well. Asking for Baby Jesus mercy and offering His cross and yours for your sins, will help you especially for the previous days when you wanted to disappear from this earth due to the mess in the hospital! It was a sin to feel that way, instead of saying yes to His will. You have to confess this sin but it frees you right now to continue waiting for some physical healing.” “Wow,” I thought! No doubt that this was a super Friday? I realized that now more than ever I should continue with an ongoing novena to the Divine Infant.

 

Saturday, September 17

 

My son had the mishap to lose my debit card. I suspect that Mr. Satan was involved. In fact, there have been several instances this month where things have happened that look like Satan’s work. Another example of his work is how AOL decided not to open for me at all… I keep my main email with them because their system is the easiest for me than Yahoo, for example, and I do have an address for yahoo but do not use it. Of course I have to pay a monthly fee for AOL which is done directly from my account. So, they have no right to bother me and I know why they do it. This account was opened by my husband some 25 years ago. They have refused to take his name off, although I am the one paying for the service. After he died in 2001, they refused to erase his name unless he would call and discontinue the service!!! I had to scream at them and tell them that the man was dead and unable to do so!!! They then changed the account number to deduct the monthly payment!!!!

 

They still keep offering me tons of good things of protection. I do not accept them because if I do, they will soon increase the monthly stipend. Well, I had to call AOL subscriber department and they corrected the error and connected the site to this computer!!!… Hmm… But still, they wanted to sell me a $6 a month service, to make very fast the AOL use … I told them that it was done EVEN when other groups like Yahoo and Google do not even charge a monthly fee? Of course, now, the AOL service is slow… on purpose on their part. That is Mr. Satan so that I can despise their behavior and not love them… So, I have added AOL to my community Rosary… I have to love them all in that group, in order to fight Lucifer!

 

On this Saturday, my son and I went to our bank to get a debit card until I would get the final one, about a week later. I was able to minister to Jennifer (very obese), who took care of us. I told him about how memory loss is reversible and how one can get depressed with carrageenan. I added that I do it because since Jesus gave me these gifts, I had to pass them to her, until I finish the editing of the book and get it published. I also told her that some us gain weight just with toxicity in food (non organic food full of toxic sprays while being produced) and toxicity in the environment… She was very interested and would say, relieved to hear that toxicity can cause obesity in some ofus. I keep finding ways to evangelize, like it happened on this Saturday at the bank. Was the loss of the debit card important? O yes… I took me to Jennifer and she was fascinated with my gifts for her health and perhaps I just seeded her spirit for a future encounter with Jesus.

 

On this same Saturday, I also understood how important is to work in the purification of my intentions in my life. I was given this example in a matter of seconds and here it is:

A purified soul is like an engine together with all its parts in place and all screws keeping the engine ready to spread the Gospel. That is, to always show how much God loves us and through His mercy, He shows how His love in ACTION works in spreading of the Truth, the Life and our future resurrection as He did, but always under the cross! In the process of driving this engine (our soul), many stones will be found and the engine takes a beating. For the above not to become a problem once in the full swing of evangelization, we need to tighten all the screws to a maximum. It means to always, always do God’s will with the most perfect intention of loving our neighbor as Jesus does, and such love means to save their souls and our own! The tightening of the screws is an ongoing job since as humans under the ferocious attacks of a pagan world and of Satan, the screws tend to get loose!

 

Again, the only way of doing this job of tightening them as much as possible, is to live all day in the Presence of the Holy Trinity with a most perfect, solid, pure yes to deny ourselves, embrace the present crosses with great passion and to follow Jesus WHEREVER His Spirit takes us. The sign that we are on this mode of tightening our spiritual screws at all times, shows up as patience, love, joy, a joy that is profound or intense, fascinating at times, and principally to see our neighbor with great mercy and with love that reminds us that they are God’s images, worthy of our attention, of our desire to become their servants as called by the Holy Spirit! OUR PAY in all of this consists in falling in love with them to see them save even ahead of us, if necessary. This feeling is not constant but it is not rare.

 

One feels like a kid of our Daddy, great follower of Jesus in everything that He asks of to do, despite any difficulty of any kind. In other words, when we feel and want to be servants of the Lord and of our beautiful brothers and sisters, one even finds feeling love for those who have ruined our lives. In my case, for the urologist that condemned me to go to the bathroom so many times a day. I know also that out of God’s justice and mercy, He will fix this problem, sooner or later in whatever way (with human intervention or without it). Ah, but it was necessary for me to learn this lesson that I am sharing and remember to always tighten the screws of my soul/engine as I say and mean it, “Your Will be done. I am the servant of the Lord.” I must add that the heavier the cross is, the easier it becomes to tighten the screws of our engine/soul.

 

On this day and by pure chance, I found a program where they were explaining how to raise children and the opinions were varied. We must think that the spiritual life for all of us is one where each one of us gets remodeled by God. Just to pay attention to the many do’s and don’ts when raising a child will never be an efficient way. On the contrary, our Lord will show us the road for ourselves and for our children provided that we truly trust in HIS LOVE AND MERCY, mercy being understood as His love shown to us by actions that He lead us to take. Or said better, mercy is His love in action in our lives. This package is complete and totally according to the gifts He has blessed us with and to our weaknesses and sinful tendencies. Again, we need to practice self denial and our God comes and takes over. I SAY THIS because I have no idea how I raised four sons and they were simply wonderful children and teens. So, I am sure that as I sought the Lord day and night, despite my very busy life as a professional, He took care of them. On this day, it was clear that faith and trust (faith without fear) in His love for me, or gifts themselves given to me as I sought His Holy Spirit’s guidance for everything with the best yes I could come up with, was the source of the correct divine babysitting these four boys. I did not know that it was going on. It is now, years later, that I see the big picture. He is a faithful friend and lover!

 

Well, I thought this was all for this day, Saturday, Sept. 17, when looking for the readings for the next day Sunday Mass, Magnificat had quoted the Servant of God (died in 1956) and archbishop of Mexico City, Luis Maria Martinez. Here are some quotes.

 

“If we only knew how God longs to possess us? Love is possession, and as love is insatiable – because it is infinite or has the stamp of infinity – the lover is never satisfied with possessing the beloved. Even our poor hearts, so limited and miserable, have something of the infinite when love fills them, for they never tire of craving complete possession. If the human heart is never satisfied, how can the Heart of Jesus, both human and divine, be satiated with possessing the souls He loves so much?

 

“But for each act of a new love, a new possession, it demands a new surrender, more generous, more trustful, more tender than ever. And for such surrender a new forgetfulness is necessary, one full and perfect. To rest in the Heart of Christ is to submerge and lose oneself in Him. For these celestial attainments the soul must disappear in the ocean of oblivion, in the ocean of love.”

 

Monday, Sept. 19

 

A. Here is a little story of the mentioned Archbishop of Mexico City, Luis María Martinez. During my first visit to Mexico in the early 1990’s, we learned about this Archbishop and left Mexico knowing a lot about his holiness. What called my attention the most was his extraordinary teachings about the Holy Spirit. In fact, I bought a book he wrote on this subject. He also was the spiritual director of another future saint, Venerable Maria Concepcion Cabrera de Armida, also known as Conchita (this is the name we give to all the women named Concepcion). She came to become a light in the Catholic Church in the 1920-1930’s, exactly at the moment when the Catholic Church was being persecuted the most. She had many locutions that came to give hope to the Catholics in Mexico, especially to Priests. I have a book on all the teaching given by the Lord to Conchita for the Priests of Mexico, a time when they were been martyred by the Mexican Government, which was heavily manipulated by the Masons. In her writings, Jesus seems to speak directly to priests! I am trying to find the book of Archbishop Martinez among my many books and perhaps I will share some of his writings on the Holy Spirit in future blogs if the Lord allows me.  

 

As I was relishing the meditation of this Archbishop for this day, I felt that it is possible that he would be the intercessor who will bring the healing of my body with so many allergies, and what it is worse is that these allergies are growing by the week. In other words, the pain in my knees is worse than ever as I become allergic to foods I was not before! And I also noticed that during the 2.5 days I spent in the hospital, I had no pain in my knees… Of course, I was not eating and only receiving intravenous fluids!!! Our immune system mostly resides in our small intestine, and if I would stop eating all together, I could rest from this pain. It would be a great honor for me to be the conduit for Archbishop Martinez to become “Blessed.” I decided to start asking him to pray for me before the throne of God’s mercy.

 

B. In EWTN/ Spanish, I heard a beautiful presentation of a group of young people who got together to form the “Soldiers of Mercy.” It is a Catholic ministry dedicated to help saving the youth of the errors and confusions that this world presents today, providing a system of support so that they can learn about the Faith and discover their vocation and the purpose that God has for their lives. It is comprised of young people for young people. Three of them are co-founders and the fourth one is one of their directors. It was founded on January 25, 2009 in Miami, FL.They belonged to different countries: Colombia, Puerto Rico, Cuba and U.S. from Latino parents.

 

Tuesday, Sept. 20

 

Much has been shown about St. Pio since his feast day is on Sept. 23. I woke up at 3 AM on this day and I had fallen asleep with EWTN/Spanish on. They were saying that Costa Rica is the second country after Mexico that has most visited San Giovanni Rotondo where this Saint lived and died. He built a huge hospital there and his love for the sick was obvious. I felt like at home with the story of this hospital and the sick since I lived for 43 years inside hospitals giving anesthetics! I felt I had much in common with him, and now my own birth country has also shown great predilection to visit him there. Somehow, I wondered if these two holy men, Archbishop Martinez and Padre Pio could be involved in obtaining my healing in order to work for the Kingdom like never before.

 

Also in this day, EWTN showed an ecumenical gathering to pray for peace. It was very interesting. The Jewish Rabbi said that the spirit of Assisi is the best example of humility and peace based on holiness of life as we recognize that we all are images of God. The representative from Islam said that our responsibility is to solve the problem we have of lack of peace, with the spirit of Assisi guiding us to solve the problems of the world.

 

It was also said that this work of Assisi came from God. St. Francis did not do it. God did it THROUGH him. I found myself thinking that God can do the same with us. But why do I say that God can produce peace through us? Well, the BEST EXAMPLE and the latest of us to recognize this truth, is St. Teresa of Calcutta. She did it and brought peace as a Christian to ALL PEOPLE FROM ALL FAITH’S!!! She brought more than peace. She became an example because she did what our Mother in heaven did… Our Lady ran to visit another human being to serve her. But above all, BOTH OF THEM RAN TO SERVE WITH THEIR LOVE…

 

In the same way, we need peacemakers as Francis of Assisi and Mother Teresa. SO, LET’S CHANGE the world. One of our prayers should be that we become peacemakers! We should pray that we become infected with the HOLY VIRUS OF LOVE! At the same time, become disposed for this job trying to be holy through denial of self, embracing our crosses as a GIFT TO GROW IN THE LOVE NEEDED FOR OTHERS, just as Jesus and His Mother did, or St. Francis or Mother Teresa. Men should ask St. Francis for his intercession to become lovers of all around them. We women should ask for the intercession of Mother Teresa to become lovers as well, and these two groups should also ask to become the best true disciples of Jesus transformed into peacemakers with their help.

 

We could start a spiritual revolution starting immediately and STOP RIGHT NOW emitting all the pros and cons of what is wrong and what should be done by others to proceed to bring peace in the world. God will bring peace one person at the time, as Mother Teresa used to say. Bringing peace is a universal responsibility for all of us. Also, it is not a topic to be developed in parishes with talks and reflections. Each one of us, one at the time, should enter this concept and ask for help to God and to our great models and work daily in our seeking of discipleship. GOD WILL DO THE REST! He will bring peace and I have no doubt about it.

 

Once love for others start running through our hearts, Jesus’ LIGHT will be shown to all, a light that is made of His love that in action, is also called His mercy.  The worse violence in the world is when we allow in ourselves, in our hearts, hatred, resentment or simply becoming bystanders and only repeat what is wrong in the world, when the source of what is wrong is within us, our own violent attitude of doing nothing about it. We should constantly call the Holy Spirit to truly reign in our hearts and do the job for us. May His mercy become our other “I” – If I am merciful, I would offer myself day and night to be used to show the light of Jesus Christ, and this light is simply LOVE for all.

 

Somehow, despite great pain, I made it to a health food store and saw two tall blonde women, totally identical. I passed by them and stopped and looked at them again. They turned to me and we started a conversation. I realized that his was an evangelization meeting. God is always giving us clients without us thinking about it. I went to this store pretty late in the morning. I usually want to make it mid morning because the lunch time adds many cars to the roads. These girls were from Lincoln, Nebraska and were visiting the daughter of one of them. They were 42 year old twins and very religious… I gave them the gifts (which I usually do as I have written in other blogs) of knowing that dementia is reversible and that the thickener carrageenan gives depression to some of us. They were fascinated and one of them suffered from depression and a relative had dementia.

 

They asked me why it was that I found these so important facts. I opened up with my Roman Catholic background and how I had found that Jesus was totally present in the Host that the Pries consecrated at Mass. We finished the conversation with a big praise to Jesus Christ. I realized that this was a seed that I had planted for a future encounter they will have to join the Catholic Church. Otherwise, how could it be that we met when I was late for my shopping and they had come all the way from Nebraska and chose this precise time to visit this health food store in order to praise Jesus together!

 

For this Sept. 20, Fr. Miguel for EWTN spoke about our need to vote in the upcoming elections and mentioned 5 non-negotiable points:

 

1) Abortion on demand

2) Euthanasia. (I am adding that in Belgium they just passed a law allowing euthanasia practiced in small infants…)

3) The use of embryonic cells for research

4) Cloning in humans

5) Same sex marriage

 

It was excellent to tell it like it is and be very clear about those points that are not allowed in the candidate that we vote for or at least for the candidate that shows the best picture regarding these five points.

 

Wednesday, September 21

 

A. EWTN homily for the EWTN Mass of this day was preached by a visiting Polish priest, Fr. Pawel Rytel-Andrianik. He said (paraphrasing) that “Protestants go to church for their preaching. We go to church despite the preaching! (Laughs were heard). This is because we go to meet Jesus Christ in the Eucharist. It is not a symbol of God’s presence. Corpus Christi is the FLESH OF CHRIST. We do not adore bread. We adore Jesus. You can eat 4 pounds of bread (Hosts) and never meet Jesus Christ. Have you met Jesus Christ?” It was a very effective homily.

B. On one side I heard a great homily. In the other hand I learned that since 2011, the Well Fargo Bank started creating bogus accounts under customer names without their permission. It came to light just a few days ago. All of this with the Bank’s CEO knowledge! Ouch! What a contrast of topics, A and B.

Friday, September 23

 

On the feast of St. Pio, Fr. Miguel preached again a great homily. Using Padre Pio as an example, he explained how to embrace our crosses and how to offer them up. The topic is the same as Blessed Luis Maria Martinez wrote: self denial at all cost.

 

Monday, September 26

 

We had the first debate between the two candidates for the Presidency of the U.S. elections of next November. I just could not listen to it. I knew I had to pray and did pray for the ENTIRE time they argued. I said three Rosaries and Chaplets of Divine Mercy, asking God to elect in November, whomever He wants; of course, personally there is only one choice because the right to life on this earth is primordial for my decision.

 

Friday, September 30

 

I was very impressed with a report in EWTN News program by Robert Jones from the Religious Public Research Institute.

 

In 1991, 6% of the population had no religious affiliation. In1998, 14% had no religious affiliation. In 2016, 25 % reported no religious affiliation!!!

 

Tuesday, October 4

 

I have been sort of agonizing because I could not finish this blog… My eyes kept bugging me enough that I only can write for one hour at the time and stop… The eyes hurt me quite a bit. I was questioning the Lord if this was the end of the blogs plus in the closing comments (already written) you will also find out my mental anguish for other things happening. Besides this, having pain in my knees that is getting worse by the week, is deteriorating my physical and emotional status. My memory in English that I am losing due to toxicity of the environment, makes the writing of the blogs a huge task. By the end of the blog, I cannot remember what I wrote at the beginning!!!  My problem has been to figure out what is God trying to tell me? AND, BELOW IS THE ANSWER

 

By pure chance again, at 11:30 AM I ended up watching a very interesting program through EWTN in Spanish. The name: Consuelen a mi Pueblo or “Console my People.”  Fr. Ruben Francisco Bellante from the Orange County, CA EWTN site and in 2016, spoke about how Jesus asked us to take up our cross, and in Luke, it added, “Each day,” and to walk with Him. These are some notes I took, although I already taped the program on October 5 at 2 AM… In the future, I will probably translate the entire program. The notes are the following:

 

“The one, who does not embrace the cross, has not learned how to deny himself!  We have to live our crosses, crosses of all kinds, like when we are attacked for no reason, persecuted, having illnesses. It is not a matter of yes or no to the embrace. It is actually yes or not to follow Him…

 

“Our Crosses are daily and it is not a case of ignoring them but how I can use them! It is not the case of living our crosses in the darkness since now we can receive the fruitfulness of the daily crosses associating them to the passion of Jesus. I can live them with His passion so that the Church can receive many blessings. We are a mystical body united to the head Who is Jesus Christ. Baptism is what unites us with Christ, dying to ourselves so that we can be new men and women. Our cross continues to be the center.

 

“In 2Cor 12:10, St. Paul said, ‘Therefore, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions and constraints for the sake of Christ, for when I am weak, then I am strong.’ St, Francis of Assisi was converted in front of Jesus Crucified. He found a new light. With a kiss to a leper he started his life of holiness. This is similar to St. Teresa of Calcutta. We must love with Christ crucified Who is a channel of mercy. Accepting our crosses that maybe others give us, is a way to feel the internal peace of the disciple who follows Jesus and walks with Him. In the pain of every day from other people, I find the cross that will give light to others.”

 

Ha ha… There was my answer! This is why I taped the program a few hours later. Yet, in my final comments I am extending the description of my crosses… including crosses at Mass… NOW, whenever I get a new cross, I will remember this wonderful program, which I believe should be translated into English and run it in EWTN in English

 

CLOSING COMMENTS

 

Time flies and our pagan world is winning big time over us, as we see in the previous news of Sept. 30. This is the point that truly makes me very sad. Knowing our Lord, at least to a certain extent, He is allowing this situation grow and we believers, we who never have doubted God’s existence and His Real Eucharistic Presence, we are trying very hard to do something, but so far whatever that is, is not working. I only see so many associations within parishes and no answers. I suspect that we have too many Martha’s and a few Mary’s. On the October 1, Sunday Mass, a lady in the front row and directly in front of me, distracted me twice. During the reading of this Sunday Mass Scriptures, she read the bulletin. During part of the homily, she also read the bulletin. And being in the first row, there was no doubt that the homilist was able to see it.

 

As a Roman Catholic of many decades, what shall I do about it? Was it my duty to nicely talk to her at the end of Mass and explain to her how much I was scandalized by her behavior?  Or is it my only duty to pray for her? Frankly, at this time in my life I am lost as to what to do! This type of scene normally takes me to want to stop this blog. I lose faith in my own love for Christ. Year after year we have so many retreats and thousands of people giving an opinion as to how to become a true disciple, but I do not see it and the percentage of people without a religious affiliation is going up! My main problem is that I should not judge anyone… But how not to do it when this was poor behavior from someone of faith since she was taking the time to attend Sunday Mass. It does not speak about her behavior only but about the state of spirituality of the entire parish and in the Church in general. I have seen many people reading the bulletin in church through the years in other parishes. In fact, in the Jesuit parish of Gesu in Toledo, OH, the bulletins were not distributed before Mass, precisely to avoid this problem.

 

My health as you have read through these blogs and in recent times is a disaster! God is allowing me to suffer immensely and to a certain point, this suffering is necessary to be offered for the Church, my Lord’s Church. I do pray several Rosaries per day and in the Chaplets of Mercy that I recite, I say, “Eternal Father, I offer you the Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity of Your Beloved Son Jesus Christ and ALL MY SUFFERINGS (I add this part to the original words) in atonement for the sins…” of different groups of people, some by name and including myself. But what else can I do? Where should I go for help? Among my own parish parishioners, most of the time I feel like a stranger!  From time to time I cry loud in my house when I am by myself. I think that I mentioned before that at one time I audio cassette taped my own screaming for the pain of seeing my Lord alone, sort of speak, and my physical pain exhausting me. It is not that I am depressed or oppressed at all. My friends, some Saints, have asked me to stop viewing television that shows a pagan world. EWTN is the answer but not all the times either. I am being asked to pray more and to suffer with a big yes in my heart. Yet, the suffering is getting out of hand. While writing blogs, my eyes require many resting moments. Of course, I do not want to damage my good right eye nor I want to get my left eye in more trouble. I had to stop my visits to my retinologist because when I am going through the dilatation of my pupils for the study of my retina (via a special scan and prior to seeing the retinologist), I cannot go to the bathroom… and in this office, the rest rooms are very far away from it.

 

My memory in English is sleeping away, although I know how to reverse it; yet, I cannot take any of the veggies that give the liver what it needs to produce more glutathione, the natural detoxifier of our body. Writing blogs are posing a tough exercise since I have to depend on the notes I have taken because right now, I easily forget the detail of what they say. Any other experience or Bible teaching is forgotten right away. Many words in English are simply gone and it is impossible to remember. At times, only the Spanish alternative comes to me and I have to check it in the English/Spanish dictionary next to my computer.

 

Even getting my medications can become a problem. The director pharmacist of this particular pharmacy that I chose because it has a side window (like MacDonald’s) to pick up the medicines, she is extraordinary. Yet, from time to time, the other employees either write the wrong things in my computer history that they keep, or simply are confused. My secondary insurance will NOT PAY FOR MORE THAN 2 PILLS a day OF MY BLOOD PRESSURE MEDICATION. But I need 3 pills per day most of the time because my blood pressures vary a lot, and so I asked the pharmacy to let me pay for my third pill out of pocket instead of the regular secondary insurance (after Medicare). It worked for a while but the last time I was there, the confusion was exhausting. The story is too long and difficult to narrate but the girl that took care of me was totally confused about this agreement. So, for the next filling of this prescription, I will have to get out of the car and walk for a long distance within this huge pharmacy building in order to see what will happen. Obviously, the director pharmacist if in the building will have to get involved somehow but again, she is blessing for me. In this case, I wonder if Satan is involved in this confusion…

 

Well, as you can see I am going through a tough time in my life. I will try to write the next blog for October but maybe not. Of course, I keep telling Him that it is up to Him to decide what He wants to do in this aspect. I know He is around and also know that He loves me… My faith is the same but the present circumstances are eating me little by little. I have chosen to explain so much about this health problem with respect to the posting of more blogs so that you can help me with your prayers. Perhaps, the time has arrived for me to retire from worldly and Internet presence and become a recluse like many great Saints gives us as an example to do. I do not mind it. I do know that I have to finish the book with very important medical information and dedicate my days to pray many Rosaries and Chaplets of Mercy for the Church and the world at large and all united to this extreme physical suffering, My joy and peace still are my faithful companions and thanks to the graces I receive from God, graces that I am sure are due in part to your prayers for me. Thank you so much.

 

The last possibility is that my time to leave this world may be near. I have already discussed this possibility with my sons… To the one with whom I live, he has been directed to use any funeral home in the parish bulletin. To the other three, they know that I do not want a funeral. I want my body to be cremated in order to go and live inside a cup and in a niche that I own in the Temple of the Sacred Heart of Jesus in San Jose, Costa Rica, some 10 yards from the Tabernacle!!!!! I have asked for many Masses to be offered in this Temple instead of the funeral Mass. I will be so much fun…for my body to finally rest near His Eucharistic Presence, just as I wanted to be at 6.5 years old. What a delight! And hopefully, with the Masses offered for my soul, I would be doing some short time in purgatory in order to go and rest in His SUPER REAL PRESENCE in heaven…

 

We shall see what will happen to this blog for next month. I will certainly tell you if I would have finished these writings! I know that there are a few mighty Saint’s feasts during October such as St. Therese of Lissieux, St. Francis of Assisi, St. Faustina, St. John XXIII, St. Teresa of Avila, St. Paul of the Cross, St. John Paul II PLUS SEVERAL FEAST DAYS OF OUR MOTHER:

 

Oct. 7 – Our Lady of the Rosary; Oct. 8 – Our Lady of Good Remedy; Oct. 11 – The Motherhood of Mary; Oct. 12 – Our Lady of the Aparecida. There are others like Our Lady of Toledo, Spain on October 25; Our Lady of the Pillar (Nuestra Señora del Pilar)  also on October 12 and Feast of Mary, Wonderful Mother on October 20.

 

And with the help of all of them, I may have a major miracle one way or the other (I did on Oct. 4). Until then, may you have a wonderful month of October. In my side of things, I am offering this suffering for the good of this world. I pray for the presidential elections and all the lies and cover ups of both candidates, and pray as well as for EWTN, to continue growing to keep our eyes opened and in prayer together for the salvation of all souls through the sanctification of the entire Church, while we grow in trust that the Infant Jesus will cover us with His mercy.

 

P.S.: I LEFT MY “LAST WORDS” INTACT although they are repetitious and written at the end of September, in order for you to SEE how my Lord Divine wanted me to focus my messy cross from a different point of view as it happened on October 4. St. Francis was busy praying for me! Now I understand why I am so late with this blog… He wanted me to share with you what He can do to help us… He is too much! In the other hand, I may or not write a blog at the end of this month. If God does not help me to do it without so much difficulty, I will surmise that He wants me to stop them. We shall see. He has the last word. I always think that there are so many talks, opinions, books, TV programs all related to His mercy, that perhaps my words are not that important! Just help me praying to do God’s will and for me to know such will.

 

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SEEKING TO GIVE GLORY OF GOD IN ALL WE DO!

September 6, 2016

I.INTRODUCTION (A long, long one…)

I started this blog on September first…! So far, I have not been able to write it because day by day my exposure to this contaminated environment around me is destroying my body functions … and I am not capable to even put together the notes I have received from my Lord and Mother for the month of August of 2016. It was this morning when I found myself present to the LIVE celebration of the Second World Day of Prayer for the care of Creation… Every day I am more convinced that the chemicals coming from petroleum keep my brain functioning in a weird way, whether toxics coming from the busy expressway next to my home or from the refinery nearby (one that keeps breaking the rules of being properly kept to avoid the escape of their chemicals to the environment, even after being fined two years ago for some 200 infractions).

Yet, this horror especially for someone who knows about medicine and feels oppressed by the knowledge of the damage happening to my physical being, I know that God is permitting it in order for me to find out that memory loss and obesity are related to it. In fact, my memory is again being affected especially in the English language which is the one I use the most in my daily existence. Since my Spanish got a tremendous recovery with the detoxification of 2009 and the not planned one that happened in 2013 when I lost 7 units of blood!!! I was able to lose 40 pounds in 3 months without any exercise or diet, since I was just recuperating from the major blood loss. This, in scientific terms, is essential to prove how weight gain is related to environmental toxicity. The Lord promoted all of this in order for me to learn those two health issues in my own body… It was a huge gift…

Not only that, but right now San Francisco, CA through PBS TV stations, are showing another extraordinary teaching from Dr. Mark Hyman, the man who hinted to me at my arrival to the West coast in 2008, how toxicity can cause memory loss. He simply explained how some of us are missing 3-4 genes which do not allow our liver to produce enough glutathione, the chemical that detoxifies our body in a natural way. Such hint led me to undergo a natural detoxification and sure enough, my memory came back.  In 2009, I even went to San Francisco (about one hour from here) to attend one of his lectures and to meet him. This doctor is a wonderful man who speaks, believes and even coined the name of “functional medicine,” to everything that has to do with nutrition and its effects on our bodies. He is now director of the Functional Medicine Department of the Cleveland Clinic, the greatest center in the world for heart surgery! Dr. Hyman clearly establishes that our present medical teaching is wrong and totally confused with the truth that food acts as a drug.

His rather recent teaching is titled, “EAT FAT and GET Thin.” Yes, this concept is true and the non sense of cholesterol levels is not important at all… So, had I not being exposed to this toxic environment in 2008, I would have never detoxified myself by 2009 to recover my memory and the Spanish language, but also I would have never studied how WE all LIVE IN A TOXIC ENVIRONMENT of some sort, one that has produced inflammation and heart disease and cancer and dementia, weight gain, etc…Not all geographical areas are toxic to a degree like mine, but any large city with many cars in their streets is also full of toxicity.  He published a book with the same name, EAT FAT and GET THIN, and there he has 388 scientific references… to everything he says in the TV program and in the book. He clearly establishes that sugar and carbohydrates cause obesity. Flour increases our blood sugar more than the table sugar!!! And the “bad” cholesterol is produced by sugar! Our bodies are intolerant to carbohydrates. Just imagine the help he is giving diabetic patients in order to control their sugar levels. He rather wants his patients to eat certain fats (not all) and these fats on their own totally decrease the desire for sugar!!!!!!!!! He has been treating patients on his own clinic for at least 30 years and has seen his ideas work in the lives of many.

He establishes that in the 1980’s, allopathic  (MD’s) medicine preached that cholesterol was the cause of atherosclerosis and therefore, fat, especially saturated, should be avoided. The truth is that cholesterol does not come from fat; it is made in our livers and if we eat correctly and not inflammatory foods, cholesterol cannot adhere to the wall of a normal (not inflamed) arterial wall. His DVD is the perfect companion to the prior DVD by Dr. Joel Fuhrman mentioned before and I will buy a copy for each of my sons; so, when I die, they should have in their hands a way to keep a normal weight and not a major problem with atherosclerosis and we can say bye, bye to cardiac infarcts due to coronary artery obstruction and lack of oxygenation of part of the heart muscle with death of such. I will also buy a DVD for my Priests in Alabama, the ones that preach to the world about the mercy of God… Actually, it is more expensive to have surgery to correct the errors of eating the wrong foods plus eating well is more predictable regarding success for our health when we eat the correct way and also knowing well why we do it. The person can eat more as the title suggests (not tons but never a minimal amount of food) and lose weight and have a healthy heart… So, my coming to this toxic ridden area is simply a gift from God’s mercy… And this heavy cross has been a SUPER BLESSING AND FOR OTHERS WHO CAN LEARN WHAT I HAVE IN THIS AREA.

Again, please be aware that most of the physicians called MD’s DO NOT KNOW A THING ABOUT THIS TRUTH that Dr. Hyman and Dr. Fuhrman are teaching us… In medical school we were never taught to understand that food is a drug… and can damage or prevent disease. Our so called allopathic medicine (MD’s) only uses drugs and most of the so called studies on this subject, are funded by the gigantic money making Pharmaceutical companies! So, if you were to ask your own MD, he will declare that all of what is preached by Drs. Hyman and Fuhrman is an error… But, the Cleveland Clinic, a place that I know well because I worked there in the early 1980’s, had the gift of humility to understand and be opened to the TRUTH… Food can kill or heal… It is time that we all learn from these experts, who are MD’s as well and who were given the grace to study this subject and treat their patients with absolute great results of illness cures and prevention.

Yes, this introduction is very long but will explain how I ended up writing so late ; I needed to communicate how God’s mercy is operating right now in my life despite my super heavy cross…It also coincided with the importance of our environment on this occasion of remembering our need to clean the creation from all that is making us so sickly.

At one point and as I could not put together this blog any earlier, I asked my Lord if He wanted me to quit writing them… He answered right away. First with page 888 in one of my Bibles (they have different page numbers and I have to ask Him what Bible to check!). It is Jeremiah 39 where this prophet relays a message from God to Ebedmelach, one that was comforting to him, and in verse 18b, God tells Ebedmelach that his life will be spared because he trusted in Him… I was led to believe that when we share God’s merciful acts for us, we also console others who may be living similar moments.

Then I was sent to St. Faustina’s Diary (entry 164) and Jesus tells her, “As often as you want to make Me happy speak to the world about my great and unfathomable mercy.” Wow… Of course, I need to continue writing but how and when?… There, He also came to tell me that any fear… regarding how and when, was lack of trust that He can do all things in my life… So, I consoled myself by thinking that is better late than not doing it…

I then remembered the words of Pope Francis.  “Jesus directs us to a one-way street: that of going forth from ourselves.  It is a one-way trip, with no return ticket.  It involves making an exodus from ourselves, losing our lives for His sake and setting out on the path of self-gift.” (July 30, 2016). He spoke about our conversion and in a way, this lack of ability to write earlier this blog, is another conversion for me since I have to realize that it is His blog. He knows what to do with me and how He wants me to serve Him and my brothers and sisters. I should simply TRUST and His mercy will do the rest.

II. SOME STORIES BY THE CALENDAR DATE.

Tuesday, August 2

This is the Feast of Our Lady Queen of Angels… the patroness of my home country where she appeared in the late XVI C. The night before of each year, thousands will walk from several parts of this country to her Shrine (Minor Basilica) in the city of Cartago (about 45 minutes from San Jose, the capital city of Costa Rica) to arrive in the morning to pay homage to her. At 11:30 AM, I asked her what would be regarding my health problems. She said that all answers will arrive within days of each other but to keep my eyes fixed in the work of the Kingdom and the fact that many souls are being lost on a daily basis unless we collaborate with God in bringing them back.

I was sent to page 581 in the Bible and it was 1Maccabeus 16. John Maccabeus – Pontiff and high Priest was able to win against enemies that had killed Simon, his father and his brother.

God then said to me, “With Me nothing is impossible. My blessings will take care of you in whatever you are called to do. (I understood that it meant working for all Catholics, Christians and all beings created by God in His image). Do not worry for the things that are bothering you! Every second of your life will be covered.”

12:40 PM. I received another reading in the Bible

Isaiah 7: 4a; 9b. “Take care you remain tranquil and do not fear; let not your courage fail before the stumps of smoldering brands (poor health, all needs, etc.) Unless your faith is firm you shall not be firm.”

Psalm 27: 5a; 7 “For God will hide me in His shelter in time of trouble. Hear my voice, Lord, when I call; HAVE MERCY ON ME and ANSWER ME.”

Wednesday, August 3

In a religious TV program, a married couple spoke of the psychology for couples. I instantly realized that not all couples have the background to understand psychological terms and ways to deal with problems. It is like buying a car (information) but not knowing how to drive it! Or, not having gasoline to turn it on! Therefore, we need to truly rely on God’s mercy and belong to Him by doing His will at all times, in order to receive the proper psychological guidance from the Holy Spirit to guide us in getting along with others, especially one’s spouse. It seems to me that most of the time, there is an effort to make things work in our lives through human knowledge… Or we are led to work and then ask God (if we do) for His help. There must be a revolution in our spiritual beings to truly accept that God has a way IF we simply follow His will.

5:30 PM. I started asking myself, “What is a personal relationship with Jesus Christ?” Most religious people speak about it and seem sure that they have it! However, I do not see proof of such in the witness of their lives! For me, a personal relationship with Jesus Christ is “TO LIVE WITH HIM EACH DAY, ALL DAY. It is just exactly like living with our families with whom we interrelate often and care for each other. It is liaison of love.”  But this form of living comes to us after we say yes to His will (which in itself opens the door to the Holy Spirit’s guidance) and truly LIVE THE YES to God’s will and not simply repeat that we do… Words do not work. Action does confirm our “YES.”

Our Pope was visiting Poland for the World Youth meeting (July 29 to August 2) and he said to them that they should build bridges, not walls.” His message also brought me the same question? Am I building bridges or walls in my relationship with others? As an only child I always enjoyed being by myself. I never felt or feel lonely… Right now I receive about 2-3 phone calls a month… There is no question that I may be building a wall. However, all my life I was active not only in my professional life but in my parishes… I suspect that I left the world because many times I was persecuted for the most trivial things, including from religious people…  These are the little things that Satan does for us… by tempting people to persecute us, and in my case may be one of division that he has caused. I was trained to speak in public since I was a child. In primary school, my teachers would tell me that I should become a lawyer… I am mentioning this now in order to bring up the surreptitious ways that Satan can work in our lives to destroy our gifts.

Friday, August 5

The Gospel for this day had the famous words of Jesus in order to truly be His disciple: “Deny yourself, pick up your cross and follow Me.”

At the 3 PM hour, my Mother asked me to make a list of the things I believe that I need the most right now like money to move away from this highly toxic environment, healing of all allergies and pain of knees, etc. Then she asked me to deny myself of the desire for answers for all these truly needed things, and simply because it was God’s will for me. I have to live my YES at all times and this constant bugging of Him to change them when I know that He is totally in charge and are allowing them, well, it represents a very poor “yes”. It is amazing how easy we get confused and want to change things happening. She said that the sooner that I accept them, that is, accepting these hard crosses, the fastest I become a TRUE DISCIPLE of her Son. Once I keep doing it 24/7, I can become a great intercessor for others and at the same time, truly show my love for Him. Once THE LOVE OF GOD AND NEIGHBOR becomes a reality as in her case, saying yes to the Angel regarding becoming the Mother of the Messiah King and loving her cousin Elizabeth with service, then, we are truly Kingdom workers. She also asked to add to this menu, a constant thanksgiving for my crosses since it has great spiritual power for my ongoing conversion to truly become holy. She reminded me that I should live thinking that we all disciples live always as in route to Calvary, and such behavior TOGETHER, BECOMES A WAY TO GIVE GLORY TO GOD…!!! She insisted that my ulterior spiritual job is to glorify Him for the ways He creates to take me back home to live with Him forever.

Monday, August 8

The Olympiads started in Brazil and I was mesmerized by the training that these athletes from all over the world have to submit themselves to. These extraordinary human beings have to train many hours per day and most people believe this is simply great. I could not think that way for the two weeks that it lasted. The evil one has infiltrated every place and group in this world and I only could see the waste of time if these athletes are not spending much time with God as well. An American young man who received 3 gold medals was involved in a scandal due to drunkenness. I would say that he was not happy enough, satisfied enough with having these medals since God is our only fulfillment.

Tuesday, August 9

A 1983 program from Fr. Robert Barron at the time, now Bishop Barron, beautifully explained what the Olympiads are all about. He never mentioned them by name nor it was a topic at all in this talk; yet, he referred to the “prophets of Baal” who worship the gods of wealth, power, pleasure and honor (Olympic medals).  He advised that we should stop making altars to those 4 Baal gods, and rather surrender to God adding that our spiritual well being increases in the measure that we give it away. He concluded that the prophetic message comes to its richest expression in Jesus Christ. What a beautiful consoling message for me. It truly touched me to know that I should never go after wealth, power, pleasure or honor, but at the same time day by day, become a better disciple of Jesus .So far, none of the four have had any power over me… In fact, at times I have asked myself why is it that I do not care about money or power (even that I have had it as director of a surgery center) nor have I tried to find pleasure per se or honor… I have been given many honors as a student since elementary school and as a professional, but never truly sought it nor cared for it. But why not? There is no doubt in my mind that one of His great gifts has been receiving the grace not to be enticed by these four “gods” and I suspect that His Eucharistic Presence revealed to me as a child, has fulfilled me so completely that I have not sought  these four “Baal’s”. It suggests and very clearly that a personal relationship with Jesus protect us more than we expect!

Tuesday, August 16

The Gospel for the daily Mass contemplated how with our strong faith we can move mountains. Of course, Jesus has said that TRUST IN HIM will inundate us with His mercy… The question keeps resonating about what to do about our religious liberty. The general idea is to fight for it I hear it over and over and we simply are missing the point. We feel that way because we are fearful about it… Well, it only means that we are not TRUSTING IN JESUS to win this battle and we could lose it… In fact, this cross that has come to touch many, starting with the Little Sisters of the Poor, and that has revealed the mischievous behavior of the judicial system, should be the greatest opportunity to prove to Jesus that we trust in Him. We can move mountains if we only realize that He will take care of it and we should only keep saying yes accepting this cross and actually thanking Him ahead of time for His mercy in this topic. If we cannot feel such faith, then we should ask for the grace to feel that way…

 We should never talk about how we are going to defend ourselves and only do it in consultation with the Holy Spirit. It is a simple matter. We ask for the graces not to fear (so that we can truly TRUST) and to say yes to this cross and in this way, ask the Holy Ghost to guide us… It is only at this stage of self denial that we can gather together to plan what to do. Yet, resentment towards those who are persecuting us comes to bug us and we do not even SEE how our non Christian behavior is helping our enemies be further tempted by Satan to persecute us even more. The wisdom necessary to deal with these problems is available but only comes when we behave as true disciples. Said in other words: our tendency is to fight the battle before we gather the faith to MOVE this mountain. And such faith is a gift from His mercy that comes only when we Trust that yes, we can move mountains with Him alone at our side! The moment we worry about what will happen in the future with are religious liberty, at that same moment we lose our faith and His mercy cannot do much for us.

There is another point that I was able to understand. Every time that Satan divides us in this way, we should exercise the gift of evangelization for our persecutors and it has been taught to me before. We should ask Jesus with the intercession of His Mother, to see in our persecutors, souls that need to be spiritually changed. We should see ourselves as Olympic workers that need to save souls and the entire problem becomes a great opportunity to ask for our own love for our enemies and to stop all resentment. I assure you that we can win the battle because LOVE HEALS AND PARDONS AND SAVES, just as Jesus did with us. Any felt fear and resentment are ALWAYS Satan’s temptations and capable of paralyzing the grace of true discipleship.

Thursday, Aug. 18

In our religious world, we are constantly advertising books and more books, all probably excellent and spiritually very helpful, yet, if we do not do God’s will with a big Yes, we will never get much from reading and reading so many books. The books are written to promote a deep relationship with Christ but even if it helps, will not last.  Just imagine if one gets married and turns to books about how to relate with the husband or wife… No, we seek the person himself or herself and build a relationship that brings LOVE and TRUST to this union. We can preach forever and yet, we need the Holy Spirit to do the interior work and truly LOVE the other one. And to LOVE we need to show our love to the other. In the case of Jesus, we need to say yes to His will at all times for all things and never feel fear about whatever He brings to us. Then, we need time to spend with Him (prayer) to receive the graces necessary to grow in knowing Him, in relating to Him. Again, most books touch people… No doubt about it. Yet, it is for a short time. I say it because if we truly were evangelized with just books and DVD’s and preaching, we would show much holiness and truly attract others with our witness and our parishes would be full for Sunday Masses. We need to pray and believe and love, all of which come through our yes to God’s will for every second of our lives…

I rather follow the person who wrote the book or who preached if I see such person to be full of the Holy Spirit, like Bishop Barron and there are many other Priests like him, than to compare the book contents with the author and realize that they are not similar in power to bring me to change spiritually. And most of us are truly desirous to be great disciples but we still keep trying to plan our own conversion… It is a big error. We can go to tons of retreats, and I did that in past years, and never truly become infected with holy behavior. We need to allow the Spirit to change us, to make us models of sanctity if this is the will of God, and if not, we simply keep loving Jesus and our Father and letting their mutual Love (Holy Spirit) infect us with humility and patience and all His gifts. Our yes to His will gives us the power necessary to know what to do and to power to do what it is necessary for our conversion to advance and to take us to a point where we can attract others through God’s Spirit.  

Saturday, August 20

I watched via EWTN, a talk from the USCCB National Evangelization Conference in Alabama 2016. The speaker Director of Hispanic Youth for the USCCB, talked about the formation of people for missionary work. He said that there are five ways necessary to have in order to become a missionary in the world. They are:

1. He/she must have had a personal encounter with Jesus Christ

2. They should have had a conversion. Example: working for the poor.

3. They should be disciples who have started walking with the Lord and show how they have learned from Him.

4. They should show communion: they should walk together in solidarity as a family.

5. They should become missionaries, that is, feeling like disciples moved to go out and share this life with Jesus Christ’s Body.

He made many other points and they seemed good and doable and probably leading to success. In the other hand, all through our Catholic history since the coming of Jesus to this world, His Mother did exactly what was needed to keep Christianity alive in 2016. She first loves God with all her heart by saying Yes to His will for her in a rather difficult situation at such young age, just 15 (personal encounter)… Immediately, she ran to serve her cousin Elizabeth and giving us the example of how we should love our neighbor (conversion for service as a disciple, as a family member). But in doing so, she was evangelizing everyone, from the baby John at 6 months of gestation to Elizabeth (missionary). John was born and continued evangelizing and giving his life for the Gospel. Many people followed him. Notice how powerful his work was because of his encounter with the Holy Spirit passed on from Our Lady and Baby Jesus in her womb…

WE MUST RECOGNIZE that our yes to God’s will is key for our conversion and our transformation into disciples of Jesus Christ. This Yes had the graces necessary coming from the Holy Spirit Himself and Whose power brought the formation of baby Jesus in the womb of this teenager. By loving her neighbor as she did, she sort of infected Elizabeth and her child with the Holy Spirit. Well, this evangelization was so powerful that John became the announcer of the Messiah King, his cousin, and died for the Truth of the Gospel. So, Our Lady and Elizabeth and John the Baptist all showed their personal encounter with Jesus. The three of them became extraordinary disciples and missionaries!

It amazes me how this story that we repeat every Christmas cannot be emulated by all of us and when re-lived, the entire world would be evangelized by now… Our Lady and John were super missionaries. Wow! Why is it that all of us, all of us, fail to try to do the same, knowing that the Holy Ghost would empower us to do the same. This is the reason why we were baptized and confirmed. On top of it, the other Sacraments were created by Jesus, and He Himself giving the example of His Baptism by no less and no more than His cousin John… He chose to stay on earth to accompany us and created the Sacraments of matrimony for a man and a woman and for Holy Orders, those who administer the Sacraments. Wow…What a plan!

On this day, I cried… Why couldn’t I GIVE GLORY TO GOD by acting like the people He gave us to demonstrate the Truth of saving souls. I had all the brakes necessary… I knew that He was truly present in the Sacred Host and felt His Presence with me over and over in difficult moments. I was exposed as a child to the Chaplet of Divine Mercy in Spanish … I also encountered the topic of His mercy in 1985 and read for the first time the diary of St. Faustina. In 2002, I met personally the other Saint of Mercy, John Paul II…I was a great follower of my Mother because of my maternal grandma… I was led to a elementary school (St. Margaret Mary’s) and was exposed to all the beauty of the blessings of the devotion to the Sacred Heart of Jesus… I was given an education to become a physician without investing any money. I was given the English language at age 17, even that originally I had not been chosen to be the exchange student selected by a program that started in Costa Rica precisely when I was in the high school year required to participate. Yet, right now, I still waste time and not pray more and love more and try to submit my soul to be changed by the Holy Ghost! Ouch and ouch and ouch…How many souls could I have saved if I had been properly catechized? But the catechesis was available through the power of the Holy Spirit and I also went to tons of retreats and read the lives of many Saints, and prayed many Rosaries and even was given the great gift of talking to Jesus starting in 1978 and with my Mother in 1988…Yet, I am still asking if I should quit writing these blogs…or if possibly to be taken from this earth without a any sign of depression or due to it… because my pain is so tough! LORD, HAVE MERCY ON ME A SINNER…This is why I cried!

On this Saturday was the Feast of Our Lady of Mercy, and I was baptized (July 17) in the Church of Our Lady of Mercy…I was Confirmed (August 1) in the Cathedral of the Immaculate Conception! She has been near me in many important circumstances!

Monday, August 22

This was the feast of Our Lady Queen of the Universe also known as Queen of the World. Several times I have mentioned how I encountered her and the miracles she made for me but in the lives of others. I found her through a lady who came to Cleveland to talk about this particular title of Our Lady and told us that if we were interested, she had personnel that could come to our homes and consecrate our families to Our Lady under this title. I immediately said yes. It was 1985 and I was home because for the first time I had been persecuted in my job. Here are two miracles that she helped me with and which I have shared before!

1. There was an operating room nurse in a hospital that I worked in who was ready to separate from her husband. They had 3 children, the smallest still very young. The husband lost interest in his family and moved to live with his mother. He would cover the night shifts of my friend the nurse and sleep in their home to take care of their children. They were Protestant but she was a great believer in Jesus. By counsel from my Mother Queen of the Universe and because this nurse knew I was very religious, I offered her a picture of Our Lady under this title and told her to just hide her in her home. I also told her that she did not have to do it since it could be a sore point for her in regards to devotion to Our Lady. She gladly took the picture and actually placed it in her bedroom. Within one week her husband would come to sleep in an adjacent room in their house regardless of her not being on call. In three months, he had moved back home and slept in the guest room. Shortly after, he asked her to forgive him and told her the reason as to why he had tried to separate from her. He said that when she would come home, she would talk about all the things she was involved in the hospital and her dealings with surgeons. He felt very inferior and not important because of his own job description. They made peace and by the end of that year, they were madly in love again and trying to have another baby… My Mother kept being displayed in their bedroom…Notice how Satan works in our lives and how our Mother comes to deal with him.

2. Short years later, I met a recovery room nurse in a hospital in Steubenville, OH where I worked at. She was Protestant, divorced and living with a man. We share the month and day of our birthdays. I had left Steubenville but we continued writing to each other (up to the present time) because of our common birth date. As a recovery room nurse, she was outstanding. She admired me because my patients would arrive in recovery room almost wide awake. She had lost her mom and asked me if I could serve as her adoptive mother. I agreed!  On a Christmas of the 1990’s, I sent her the usual Christmas card and told her that I was uncomfortable as any mother would be to have her daughter living with a man and giving scandal.  I sent her a picture of Our Lady Queen of the Universe and asked her to place it anywhere in her home and that I would be asking my Mother for help in this matter. The card arrived around Dec. 18. The man’s Christmas gift for her was a ring and asked her to marry him!!! And to this date, they are married and happy and she also became a nurse anesthetist… Like mother, like daughter!!!

Needless to say, every August 22, I pay special attention to her for her feast and I thank her for the miracles. They were miracles for them but also for me since they proved how close she is to me… Therefore, the screen for all my computers ever since, displays her picture. Even my recently bought I-phone has it because my son without even asking me, placed her there… And let me repeat that it was to this title that in 1985 in Cleveland I had consecrated our family to her and also I visited her NATIONAL SHRINE OF MARY IMMACULATE QUEEN, at St. Pius X Catholic Church in Lombard, IL.

ACT OF CONSECRATION TO MARY IMMACULATE QUEEN.

(Published by the Mary Immaculate Queen Center in Lombard, IL).

O Mary Immaculate Queen, glorious Queen of the Universe, most powerful Virgin, merciful Mother of a merciful God and refuge of sinners, we consecrate ourselves to your Royal and Immaculate Heart.

It is through you that Jesus Christ, our King, has come into the world to save it. It is also through you that He is to reign over the world.

In order to obtain this great benefit for ourselves and all mankind, we come to your feet to consecrate to your our persons, our lives, all that we are, all that we have, all that we love. Keep us, enlighten us, dispose of us, and reign over us.

May all hearts and all homes willingly proclaim you as their Immaculate Queen.

FAMILY PRAYER FOR PEACE with imprimatur by Bishop of Joliet, IL, Romeo Blanchette on July 22, 1977

“O Mary Immaculate Queen, look down upon this distressed and suffering world. You know our misery and our weakness. O you who are our Mother, saving us in the hour of peril, have compassion on us in these days of great and heavy trial.

“Jesus has confided to you the treasure of His Grace, and through you He wills to grant us pardon and mercy. In these hours of anguish, therefore, your children come to you as their hope.

“We recognize your Queen ship and ardently desire your triumph. In your clemency obtain for us the courage and the confidence of which we have such need.

“Most Holy and Adorable Trinity, You Who have crowned with glory in Heaven the Blessed Virgin Mary, Mother of our Saviour, grant that all her children on earth may acknowledge her as their sovereign Queen; that all hearts, homes and nations may recognize her rights as Mother and as Queen. Amen.”

Thursday, August 25

This was aired in the media and I could not believe to what point we have arrived with stupid ideas…

It said that more children brought to this world will produce more CO2 or carbon dioxide which leads to more global warming. We must then stop bringing more children into existence through abortion, contraception, etc. In some places, they are trying to approve “the carbon law” applied to all children who are born and who then need to pay a fine…

Friday, August 26

In Facebook I saw the announcement of the presentation of Puccini’s 50 minutes opera called “Suor Angelica.” It will be directed by my third son’s wife in Omaha, NE. where they live. If you are interested in the details, the site is http://www.omahaoperaproject.org; it is a community based initiative and it seeks to offer exciting performance opportunities to high school and college students. This will be their first project to be presented September 9-11.

It was a surprise for me since I did not know that my daughter-in-law had such a vast preparation in theater performance… I have known her for more than 11-12 years and never was I informed about her curriculum vitae… She holds a Master of Fine Arts in Theatre Performance from the University of Cincinnati College-Conservatory of Music. She has acted professionally at Cincinnati Shakespeare Festival, Actors Theatre of Louisville, Vancouver’s Pacific Theatre and Ontario’s Theater and Company. And there are more stories about her capabilities to direct opera. I would call it a show of humility on her part… She is a very religious Roman Catholic and married to my son who holds a Master in Theology. She home schools their four children, cooks, shops for family needs and will direct this Giacomo Puccini’s opera… Recently at the end of August, they had their wedding anniversary which took place in Vancouver and my son wrote this in Facebook,  Happy Anniversary to my beautiful, wonderful, talented, intelligent, loving, incredible, patient, caring wife Miriam. The best years of my life have all been with you. Thanks be to God.”

I bring this to be shared in this blog because I prayed forever, NOT TO HAVE ANY OF MY BOYS BECOME A PRIEST IF HE WOULD NOT BE A HOLY PRIEST… My son thought he had received a call to the priesthood while visiting St. Padre Pio’s place in Italy, while he was a student in Rome. BUT MY PRAYER WAS HEARD and it all started when we moved from Indiana back to Cleveland as told many times before in these blogs, directed by the Holy Spirit during a medical conference in Houston, TX on Assumption Thursday, May 4th.    I was reading the Bible in my hotel and the Lord sent me to Joshua 4 and explained how we would be offered jobs and to accept them. I returned home on Sunday, May 7th and in the same evening we received the offer from Kaiser Permanente in Cleveland offering jobs in anesthesiology to both of u,!!! I had a good job in Indiana and it did not make sense but we obeyed despite that we had just bought a home … Now in Cleveland, my son attended his senior year at St. Ignatius High School despite that there was no space for him, but because his two older brothers had graduated there, they admitted him. This led him to visit the Dominican Republic with the high school senior class, and somehow he got interested in studying Theology. Franciscan U. of Steubenville in Ohio was fairly close to Cleveland and he chose to go there where he met his future brother-in-law. This led him to meet his wife.

I have told this story several times; yet, notice how doing the will of God and praying for good things was heard, like having in my family holy priests. God can do all things but we must follow His will and He will take care of all the moves we do to execute His will. It is soo simple… The present way of doing things even among Catholics is to worry about the kids and trying to plan how to lead them through the best way to be holy. In general we want to be in charge of our families and bring God along to help out, rather than denying ourselves, picking up the crosses of daily living with a big yes and following (doing) what Jesus did. He was clear and taught us exactly what to do:

Matthew 6: 25; 33.  Therefore, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink, or about your body, what you will wear. But seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you besides.”

Matthew 12:50. “For whoever does the will of My heavenly Father, is my brother, and sister and mother.”

Sunday, August 28.

I could not attend Mass because the pain in my knees was horrible and I did not have enough Tramadol to take in order to last me until the time prescribed to get a new batch for 30 days. Besides, July and August have 31 days and those days are not accounted for! Over and over, I understood that this is the will of God for me and that I have to say yes no matter what. Not going to Mass is hell for me. The least I need is not to embrace Him within me and be with Him ALIVE for some 15 minutes. My parish cannot help me because I am far away and it is too far for their Eucharistic ministers to drive back and forth. ALL IN ALL, the point I am making is that this is the most perfect will for me… and that my Daddy knows all about it. I bless EWTN’s Priests and the whole enterprise, all members that are involved in bringing the Mass LIVE to me…

On this day, A VERY FAMOUS 66 year old Mexican composer and singer from Juarez, MX, “Juan Gabriel,” died suddenly with a heart attack in his apartment near Los Angeles. He had had given a major concert the previous Friday and had planned 47 more in many cities in order to stop and have open heart surgery. He had convinced his heart doctor to let him wait until these concerts would be concluded. Juan Gabriel composed close to 200 songs and it is famous for all of us in Latin America. He left a mansion in Florida and another in Juarez, MX plus a beach home in MX. He was a genius as well.

Since his death, crowds in the 100 thousand’s have gathered around the different places that he owned. His body was cremated, taken to Juarez, MX but was taken to Mexico City to be shown before his burial in Juarez, in the Palace of Beautiful Arts. (On September 5, 200,000 fans were in line to enter and touch the box with his ashes!). This entire event has given me the most profound sadness. Many are shown crying for him and saying that they had traveled many miles just to be able to touch his ashes…These occasions mark for me a clear description of the end times and the many Baal’s gods we have and no one around them seem to SEE this fact

Tuesday, August 30

I was able to get a new batch of Tramadol and made plans to start the blog, although I inquired if I should continue doing it and I mentioned in the introduction what I found from Sister Faustina’s diary, entry 164, where announcing God’s mercy makes Jesus happy!

Wednesday, August 31

I wondered why my Lord is letting so many problems with my health continue? I found this nice explanation about suffering from a revered and loved author who has always come to bring light to my soul.

“What is Lucifer? He is a brilliant intelligence, the most enlightened of all but an intelligence discontented with God and His order. .. The more lights, knowledge and general capacity a person has, the more he is to be feared, if he has not the foundation of piety which consists in contentment with God and His will. It is the regulation of the heart that places us in union with the divine will; without that union, everything is but pure nature and, usually, pure opposition to the divine order; God has not, properly speaking, any instruments but humble souls.

Father Jean Pierre de Caussade, S.J. (Died in 1751)

CLOSING WORDS –

 Monday, September 5th

I was led to complete this blog with the following points and of course, they have been mentioned in one way or the other in previous blogs.

The main way to do what God expects of us for each particular stage of our lives is to ask ourselves OFTEN DURING THE DAY: “Am I giving glory to God with this thought, with this action, with this plan?” At the same time, we offer Him our desire to truly do so and end with the short prayer to the Holy Spirit that I have written several times in these blogs.

“Come Holy Spirit enlighten my heart to see the things which are of God.

Come Holy Spirit into my mind that I may know the things which are of God.

Come Holy Spirit into my soul and that I may belong only to God.

Sanctify all that I think, say and do that all will be for the glory of God.

Amen.”

Immediately after, remember that temptations from the flesh, the world and Satan will start working in our minds and hearts. We should be ready to recognize them with the aid of the Holy Spirit. A short review of such temptations as listed below may help us deal with them.

1. THE HORRORS WE CAN SEE going on in the world at all levels will come to hunt us. Fear could ensue. We should refuse to pay attention to them and repent if they take over our attention.

2. We may start creating plans and projects to bring others to become true disciples of Jesus. It is a good deed but we have to truly ask the Holy Spirit to take over and trust that He will. Only the Holy Spirit can produce the wisdom for us to evangelize souls according to their spiritual needs.

3. We need to embrace all our crosses, the horrors we see outside the Church and the few within the Church. But embracing those crosses does not mean to mulch about them and pass judgment and opinions of pros and cons… To embrace the crosses that the world and even Christians impose on us is to beg our Lord for His mercy for us so that we can SEE those scandalizing us AS HIS KIDS CREATED IN HIS IMAGE; for love for them on our part and then ask Him for their salvation. We embrace the cross by kissing it… If they scandalize us, then we respond with prayer, especially to our Mom with the Rosary, for us to love like Christ does and for their power to overcome sin (flesh), the world and Satan. So, this is an act of self denial to examine other’s sins and craziness and only focus in following Jesus’ way of loving them. Period. In this act of mercy, we will have a lot of graces to get it done, especially against Mr. Satan, through the power of our Mother and the Rosary.

4. We need to read His Word daily, as much or as long as He guides us to. We must trust in His Word by asking for that grace if it is not ours yet. We must memorize what is what He asked us to do and beg for His mercy to be able to LIVE HIS WORD at each moment as necessary. We may be tempted to ignore the power for our lives of His Word.

5. Daily, WE MUST pay attention to what we do and think and say and ASK FOR HELP TO DO IT TO GIVE HIM GLORY… If I am doing something and ask for the grace to hear if this is giving Him glory, then proceed. If something does not give Him glory, let it go immediately, whether is watching a TV program or reading or writing something. The Holy Spirit will give us the feeling of giving God glory or not. The prayer to the Holy Spirit that I have mentioned is key to be converted into a glory giving child of God.

6. When we find ways to help our brothers with a smile or money or counsel or whatever the Spirit is leading us to, we should place the needs of our neighbor before ours, and that is always. If we find ourselves not doing it, we ask for help and repent for our non merciful behavior.

7. We need to often receive the Sacrament of Reconciliation with a true desire for repentance and change and also frequent the Eucharist asking always for the favor of understanding more and more His Real Presence.

8. ONCE WE FOLLOW THESE GUIDELINES, a simple list and a combination of prayer and action and stopping any temptation not to do so, WE THEN CAN SIT DOWN AND PLAN OTHER’S CONVERSIONS, simply because the Holy Spirit will be there to assist us. Of course, there should be plans and projects to bring others to Christ, but we have to be SUPER SURE that we are in the journey as well and NOT PRESUME THAT WE KNOW JESUS…Whether we do or not, it is up to God to decide and help us recover the innocence of a child for ourselves in order to be able to save others as we becoming extraordinary witnesses in this enterprise of evangelization. Meetings among the members of a parish who are setting up guidelines to bring others to Christ, should include a review of our personal faults regarding our lack of giving glory to God in all we do, think and say.

9. Preaching by our Pastors and our lay people working with them should always make of “doing the will of God at all times”, the main feature. However, it is probably very hard to sell this counsel to others. I understand that the only way to do it is to have the Holy Spirit do it for us… This is obtained when Pastors and Associates enter the path of self denial and a serious attempt to practice of the points above. It will be amazing how the Holy Spirit will direct the evangelizer to say, to look, to love as only Jesus would and as the teaching to do God’s will is promulgated. Since for God all things are possible and with faith (shown by doing what is explained above) we can move mountains and evangelization will take place despite our own defects of character or lack of theological studies. A good example is St. Teresa of Calcutta.

Since the 1970’s after the closing of Vatican II, in some parishes, Masses became ways to entertain with music of all kinds in order to attract the people to attend Sunday Mass. Even in a parish in Adrian, MI, they would have clowns play in front of the altar during certain parts of the Mass… We misunderstood the teaching of this Council and forgot that the first ones to give glory to God were reserved for the pastors and lay close associates.

May you have a wonderful rest of September, remembering that we have some feasts of Our Lady to help us grow spiritually as we prepare for Advent.

September 8: 1) The Nativity of the Virgin Mary. 2) Feast of Our Lady of Vailankanni (India), also known as Our Lady of Good Health.

September 12: The Most Holy Name of Mary

September 15: Our Lady of Sorrows

September 24: Our Lady of Mercy (Dominican Republic and Peru)

September 28: Our Lady Untier of Knots

Note: I want to assure you that in the future if I happen to fall sick and unable to write the monthly blog, my son Ernesto will post a note in this site with the announcement.

The same, if I were to die, he will post a note in this site.

In all instances, please pray for me.

 

A Call to a Deeper Conversion with the Help of Our Lady

July 31, 2016

Important Note: I want to start by reminding you that as I had promised, mid month I did post in the section of PAGES in this blog site, a document that I had put together in 2006 related to what are the conditions that leads to our heart suffering from arteriosclerotic coronary disease. It was the first document posted in this site where I was using the newest version of Windows, or Windows 10. The problem is that the final product that came after I hit the “publish” button has letters that are huge and some super small. This may affect this blog as well and I need time in order to borrow from my son’s time so that he can find out from Word Press how to fix it. Sorry. However, it is perfectly readable and I hope that it will help you understand many blood test numbers that you get when they order to  measure cholesterol, triglycerides and the like. You will learn a lot…

However, what is the most valuable concept is how you can minimize inflammation in all your arteries and stop cholesterol from sticking to the arterial walls. This is hardly mentioned at the doctor’s office. I also have made a long…. list of foods which are either inflammatory or anti-inflammatory.  It comes from a 2006 “The Inflammation Free Diet Plan”  book from Monica Reinagel. I have given you an example in the document under the topic of heart disease recently posted in the section of Pages … This topic should be something that you can memorize forever and ever. I will post it in a few days  the list of foods that I made for myself from this book of  Monica Reinagel; at least you can find a large number of foods with the number that addresses how inflammatory or anti-inflammatory they are. It will be posted under the heading of  “IF Rating.” I want to be sure that you recognize that it is from her book that I got this list and it may serve as a commercial for the book.

INTRODUCTION

This month of July 2016 was a very interesting month… The world exploded with horrors of violence mixed with local politics and practically owned our attention… I became super sure that us, those who believe in God the Holy Trinity, MUST OPEN OUR EYES AND DO WHAT WE NEED TO DO à PRAY and pray and pray and share and share and share how God is guiding us in these dark hour. The pain in my knees has been SUPER WORSE … In due time, my Lord said that it was to remind me how much He suffers with these matters… At one point I was crying because I was not sure why this pain has become almost impossible to bear… Yet, not only He came to console me by saying that He wants me to remind myself of His pain for us, His beloved kids, but to accept it with the understanding that I am with Him, suffering and OFFERING IT UP! It was a clear invitation to walk to Calvary with Him CONSOLING HIM, LETTING HIM KNOW THAT SOME OF US ARE WITH HIM…!!!

Of course, my Ma also made an appearance in this month of July… and a formidable one… And so, I will start my calendar sharing with her coming to me under a special name.

CALENDAR SEQUENCE STORIES

Monday, July 4

As I woke up in the early morning, I suddenly had a severe muscle spasm type of pain in the right side of my waist and down. I went early to Whole Foods Organic food market without eating breakfast just not to produce more pain in  my knees. While there, several employees came to me to say hello. The cashier said, “I have not seen you lately and I missed you.”  A woman in line before me acted as a great friend and I had never seen her. She helped me put my items in the belt to be ready for the cashier. I started realizing that God was moving many hearts just to be sure that I knew He was around and knew of the pain of the early morning.

I came home very tired and had breakfast. At 11:40 AM, I reached for the calendar next to me to check a date. It was a calendar published by the National Shrine of the Immaculate Conception in Washington, D.C.  It brings a picture of Our Lady on top of each month.  I found it opened and on September of 2016!!! On top was Our Lady Undoer of Knots. She spoke to me and said “Hello.” As I have mentioned in previous blogs, I met her under this title in 1998 in Toledo, OH. I was watching a Hispanic channel and they were giving a story from Venezuela where someone was talking about the miracles she had made. Originally she had come from Argentina, and had arrived in Argentina from Germany brought by an Argentinean  priest. That priest is now our Pope Francis!!!

I loved the meaning of how she had been brought from Europe to South America and found her novena in Spanish in the Internet. I ordered her picture from a bookstore in New York. In these blogs in the section of “pages,”  for some time I have posted, the novena in Spanish which I translated into English. The novena was put together by an Argentinean priest. Since then, she has been my friend.  I have passed around her picture in two different parishes, in Christ the King in Toledo, OH and in St. Mary’s parish in Walnut Creek, CA.

Tuesday, July 5

At 12:05 PM, I turned on the television and had been left on the Hispanic channel of Univision. At that moment, this channel was airing a soap opera and the moment I turned the T.V. on, an actor was telling a woman these words in Spanish: “Los nudos desaparecieron, los ángeles nos cubrieron y milagros ocurrieron.”

(English: the knots disappeared, the angels covered us and miracles happened!!!)

I almost jumped off the couch where I was sitting… Wow… I continued watching the dialogue in this soap opera and there was no reason why these words were inserted…

4:40 P.M. Still intrigued by finding my Mother’s picture in two different ways in a period of 24 hours, I knew that my Lord wanted to do something under this title for my life and I said, “Mom, Undoer of Knots, please undo the knots of illness especially of the immune system and allow me to proclaim your great love for me and all of us for many years to come. May you be under this title the one that obtains this healing miracle from the Holy Trinity.”

Next to her image in the calendar, there is prayer to her which I modified slightly with prayers that I had found in 1998. I started praying this prayer and I want to share it with you now:

PRAYER TO OUR LADY UNDOER OF KNOTS

O Virgin Mary, faithful Mother who never refuses to come to the aid of your children, Mother whose hands never cease to help because they are moved by the loving kindness that exists in your Immaculate Heart; cast your eyes of compassion upon me, and see the snarl of knots that exist in my life.

You know all the pains and sorrows caused by these tangled knots; Mary my Mother, I entrust to your loving hands the entire ribbon of my life. Take into your hands today my knots and those of the entire human race full of violence, hatred and destruction of human life, AND UNDO SUCH KNOTS.

In your hands there is no knot which cannot be undone! Therefore, undo all the knots that divide the American political parties and in November intercede for the Presidential candidate that God wills

Most holy Mother, pray for Divine assistance to come to our aid and take these knots, mine and those of the electorate into your maternal hands. I beg you to undo them for the glory of God. Thank you for answering my request.

I ask you all of this the Name of your Divine Son, Jesus Christ.

Amen.

Note: in the section of “pages” you will find the picture of Our Lady Undoer of Knots, history of how it arrived in Argentina from Gemany and Novena, all in English and Spanish in two different entries:

1)    Our Lady Undoer of Knots

2)    Desatadora de Nudos

However, if you use Google for her name, you will find several novenas and different prayers to her. In general, here is a short revision of her story:

The image of Our Lady Untier of Knots is a picture painted by Johan Schmittdner in the year 1700. The painter was requested by the priest, Hyeronimus Von Langenmantel  in charge of a church in St Peter am Perlach in Ausburg, Germany, to paint the Virgin Mary with certain characterisitics. He wanted to give it as a gift to a family member of the Nobility who was in crisis with his wife. The painting then was born out of the imagination and illumination of this priest who understood that we all have knots in our lives and that we have to place them in the hands of the Virgin for her to untie them.

Our Lady is accompanied by small Angels, protected under the light of the Holy Spirit with the symbol of a dove over her head. She is standing over the head of a serpent. One angel at her left side passes to her the ribbon of our lives with knots. Another Angel at her right receives the ribbon without the knots. At the bottom of the picture one can see a man walking in the darkness guided by the company of an angel, which reminds us of St. Raphael guiding Tobias in his journey to get payment for a debt owed. 

The image of the Virgin arrived in 1984 to Argentina through a priest, Fr. Jorge Bergoglio, today Pope Francis. In Argentina, she was venerated on December 8th, since she looks like an image of he Immaculate Conception. In the Internet, her Feast Day appears to be on September 28. I do not know why…

Wednesday, July 6

After breakfast I found myself receiving more advice, 5 WORDS AT THE TIME, as I had received the previous month on 6/16/16.  I want to share here the previous ones and the ones added today so that it may make more sense. The second part was given today to me on this 7/6/16…

6/6/16

1. Say “yes” to God’s will

2. as praise of His glory.

3. Thank Him for His mercy,

4. despite harshness of present moment.

5. Accept all that Jesus wants.

6. Yet, not there and tomorrow

7. but rather here and now.

8. Grow in trust without fear

9. for what God’s will do

10. for the salvation of souls,

11. by using the Rosary’s power,

12. added to forgiveness and repentance

13. plus graces you will receive

14. from obedience to God’s will.

15. Keep alive this truth within

16. Turning off all pride around.

7/6/16

17. Everything that you need now

18. has been taken care of.

19. Always remember who you are,

20. daughter of God the Father.

21. So, never despair about it

22. since you are heaven bound,

23. protected by His loving mercy

24. as disciple of Jesus Christ

25. Nothing will happen to you,

26. not allowed by God’s will.

27. Give thanks for His love

28. full of goodness and mercy! (END)

I normally receive in the mail 5×8 inches photos of Our Lady and of Jesus of Mercy, etc. I placed two of them on a hard card board and wrote on the back the previous advice, placed it on my altar downstairs near where I sit so that they remind me of reading them often until I memorize them.

On this day, the U.S. FBI director addressed the faults committed by Mrs. Hillary Clinton with the poor management of national “secrets” written in her private email site.  Yet, she was exonerated from any fault! This hurt me profoundly since I never suspected something like this could happen in this country, that is the preferential treatment of wrong and right…

Thursday, July 7

Violent acts occurred against the police force in Dallas, TX, with the death of 5 policemen by people who were upset for the killing of an African American man in St. Paul, Minnesota after a traffic stop. It opened my eyes to see how Satan is having a feast trying to divide us in whatever ways he can. The major problem is that all of us, Catholics or not, see the problem, talk about it and demand action from others, when we are the ones who have to pray and ask for our own conversion to love both political groups at all cost. Only God Himself can appease the “enemy” forces… We cannot do it but must collaborate with our Lord in praying for others, and the Rosary is an essential tool to do so! I am suspecting that in general, most people does not believe in the power of the Rosary!

In the mean time, the FBI director spoke in Congress for four hours regarding the previous talk on Mrs. Clinton poor handling of secret data, and the exoneration of this lady continues not to match with how many die under the police force for insignificant poor behavior actions.

Friday, July 8

At 11:30 AM after my breakfast, I was still mulching in the national problems of the previous days. My Mother came and said, “Do not  worry.” When I asked her what to do for this country after the Dallas and Minnesota incidents, she said, “Keep reading you ‘commands in 5 words’ and practicing them. God will do what needs to be done but your total obedience to His plan will suffice to bring the GRACES necessary to the entire world and convert thousands at a time. You do your thing. He will do His part. Try it and find out how much you can do for your brothers and sisters…

At the time, I had no idea why He was training through my Mother on how to help this country and just ahead of the conventions of the two main political parties. More on it later!

Saturday, July 9

I cleaned my son’s bath and every time, I show a severe allergy to the cleaning liquids I use, even that I wear a mask and try to hurry up as much as possible in order to shorten my exposure to these fumes. I normally finish with severe pain in my knees that makes me cry. Allergies to many things are the main culprit for my knees suffering with severe pain.

In the afternoon, I had everything ready for my son to cook 7 pounds of ground organic turkey and make a super delicious chili. Many years ago in Toledo, OH, I was by myself and often would stop at Wendy’s for a serving of chili. One day, as I sat in their small dining, an employee came to bring me my favorite chili from Wendy’s and on this day, I commented to him how delicious it was. He went ahead and dictated to me the recipe for 2 pounds of ground beef. Through the years, I kept passing this recipe to many people and eventually, I started using ground turkey.

 Well, since I cannot be standing for more than 10 minutes at the time, in order to cook the ground turkey with Campbell’s French onion soup  (7 pounds of turkey and 3 soups),  on this Saturday my son cooked his beloved chili with my guidance until he gets to remember every detail of the process. We ended up with about 10 servings of chili that I freeze in separate containers and defrost as needed on Tuesdays, the day he wants this chili. On this particular Saturday, I found out that I only had bought 2 cans of Campbell’s French onion soup. Yet, suddenly, a third can appeared from no where. There is no doubt in my mind that the Lord does this to me in order to remind me that he is next to me for everything. It is a process of growth in trust in his mercy for me in moments where my knees are so painful. Obviously, at all times, I should be living my 28 “5 words” commands the best that I can. This is the gasoline that makes my soul walk under His mercy. There is little else to do. I do not have to fear or not trust in His love for me. I do what I am supposed to do and He does what is necessary for my salvation and that of others.

Sunday, July 10

During the 8 AM Mass, the pain in my knees was brutal.  By chance I turned EWTN on at 10 PM, and there it was a program from two great people who have parted from this earth: Mother Angelica and Fr. Thomas Dubay. The topic was “holiness.” It was excellent. I may add that it took much Tramadol to make it to Mass on this Sunday…. (Now, at the end of the month, I am running low in Tramadol…)

Monday, July 11

By chance again, I turned on the television and was left on EWTN. There is a program at 8 AM just before the Rosary at 8:30 AM and going on since the 1980’s titled “Women of Grace.” They were DISCUSSING A BOOK WITH THE NOVENA OF OUR LADY UNDOER OF KNOTS…..!!!!! I never see this program but since the Rosary comes after, at times I end up watching the end of the program for that day.  This marked the third occasion that Our Lady Undoer of Knots came to visit me in this month of July! Wow!

Monday, July 18

My Mother explained of my need to pray many Rosaries during these very trying times in the world and for different reasons (ISIS worldwide and politics in the U.S.); however, she explained that these Rosaries are not meant to make God more attentive to our needs since He knows all about them. THE NEED FOR MANY ROSARIES IS SIMPLY TO KEEP SATAN AT BAY.  The Rosary has proven to work against evil forces all through the centuries, and right now, it is Satan the main attacker. It is not Isis or  the politics of a presidential election in about 100 days. No… Satan is the force behind the division, hatred, lies, accusations and presence of much fear every where. This spirit is tempting many, especially when there is a general lack of love of God and trust in His mercy.

Wednesday, July 20

My knees keep hurting more and more. Just to go shopping to supermarkets, I have to go to one per day. Otherwise, my knees ache much if I go out and walk much at one time. After lots of prayer and obviously after praying the Rosary, my weapon, I decided to go to this other organic store for which I have monthly coupons with great discounts that I can get in the Internet on the first Tuesday of the month. As I arrived, the main door was opened and this door is right in front of the first cashier station. The woman there had not clients and when she saw me, she ran to hug me and kiss me… There I knew that God was saluting me through one of His children just to remind me that He was around… He loves to do it. As I paid $268 for my monthly food and supplement purchases, she gave me my receipt and bent over the counter to give me a good bye hug and kiss!

Saturday, July 23

On this day I was somewhat disillusioned with what filled the television channels after one week with the Republican Convention in Cleveland, OH and waiting to start the Democratic Convention in Philadelphia.  At 10:45 AM, the Holy Spirit moved me to look for an specific page in the Bible and found this verse:

Isaiah 54:10

“’Though the mountains leave their place and the hills be shaken, my love shall never leave you nor my Covenant of peace be shaken,’ says the Lord, who has mercy on you.”

I understood how important it is to THINK OF GOD’S MERCY EVERY TIME that we bear a heavy cross on our shoulders. We should remind ourselves to immediately treat any feeling of defeat and fear for what we see and hear in the U.S. and abroad with Isaiah 54:10, and that we are loved to pieces by this God Who died for us precisely to protect us.

When we start doubting what is the Will of God for us in any present moment, we should treat it with Isaiah 54:10 in order TO KNOW WITHOUT ANY QUESTIONS that He loves us and He will lead us to do His will if we so desire because His mercy is inexhaustible.

If we are confused as to what to say or when to say it, we should take refuge in His words of Isaiah 54:10 and fully trust that He will lead us to do what His will is for us for those circumstances.

When we have to hear in this election time what it is to build bridges and all about family values and religious beliefs, and see how each side has a different understanding of such important issues, we should just quit any fear or unhappiness and turn to Isaiah 54:10 and know that He is with us because He is totally crazy about us and will see to it that we do not get harmed by these clashes of ideas.

Whenever we wonder how to open our hearts to God’s mercy, we simply do His will for that moment totally engulfed in the Truth of His Words of Isaiah 54:10.

HERE ARE A FEW OTHER VERSES IN THIS SAME CHAPTER that clearly establishes that we are His kids and that He is in charge of our course on this earth!

Isaiah 54: 11, 14-15b, 17

“O afflicted one, storm-battered and un-consoled, I lay your pavements in carnelians, and your foundations in sapphires. In justice shall you be established, far from the fear of oppression, where destruction cannot come near you. Whoever attacks you shall fall before you. No weapon fashioned against you shall prevail; every tongue you shall prove false that launches an accusation against you. This is the lot of the servants of the Lord, their vindication from Me” says the Lord.

There is no doubt that this reading and teaching has helped me immensely for dealing with the pros and cons of the candidates for the Presidency.

 Sunday, July 24

This was going to be a very interesting day since a classmate of mine from my 3 years of pre-Medicine studies in Panama and husband, were stopping in San Francisco after finishing their cruise in the waters of Alaska. They had announced their coming for almost 2 months before. I had to tell them my status of health and how I could not receive them in my home because my health and mainly severe pain in my knees, will impede me from showing them all my love and cook for them, etc. She studied biology and our classes were similar for my first 3 years. After that, she continued one more year to graduate. In my case, I moved to the faculty of Medicine for four more years.

This wonderful Panamanian couple has been for many years like a true sister and brother and they went to Ann Arbor, MI to be the Baptismal godparents of my third child, the theologian, at St.Thomas the Apostle parish. Indeed, on this day, we picked them up at their hotel and went for dinner in Emeryville, a nearby city where my son with whom I live, works. They informed me of my 16 physician classmates and where they are. Four of them are dead. Many memories surfaced about those times  in Panama. They were telling the young man Daniel who came to serve us how we knew each other. Daniel was bilingual from Mexico and very nice. They introduced me as the most intelligent student that graduated from Pre-Medicine and Medicine. This gave me an indication of the humility of these two, since both were also excellent students but had not reached the highest position. It is nice to see older persons who shine with many blessings from God. It is also a very good example.

Wednesday, July 27

I prayed much during the night to have my knees feeling semi O.K. so that I could go to Whole Food Market, since the previous days I was in agony all day. Sure enough, He gave me pain but not too bad and I left around 10 AM for this market. I had prayed for a good parking place and I got it. As I came out of the car with temperatures around 80 + degrees F., a lady came to me with a cart. She is one of the employees of this market and I had been praying for her teenage son for some months, and he has turned around in a very positive way. The moment she saw me come out of the car in front of a flower corner that she was tending to, she came with the cart. Again, this is how our God works in our lives. First, He hears my prayer and this lady loves me very much and always hugs and kisses me with great enthusiasm. Then, when I needed help because with the cart I can walk much faster than with just the cane, she had been assigned to this flower area outside the building and I had found a parking place just in front of it.

Our God takes care of us like the Scriptures say, day and night but ONLY IF WE TRUST IN HIS LOVE PLUS IF WE LET HIM DO IT, with our YES to His will at every second of our existence. I have to promulgate in this section how important is to have 100% self-denial of all our plans and worries and fears, expecting Him to do the rest for us… I am sure that my Ma was praying for me and undoing any knots that could disrupt this sequence of events.

Friday, July 29

8:45 AM – My Mother asked me to summon the Holy Spirit since there was a message for me. I did and called Him from within since He lives in the temple of my soul. He answered and sent me to open the Bible without the use of a page number. I did and it was page 777 and the book of Sirach chapter 51 was in front of me. In it, Sirach reminds the Israelites of the many blessings that God had showered over them for hundreds of years and even when Moses got them out of Egypt.  My Mother then asked me to do the same with my life: to thank God for what it was as enumerated by Sirach, and with the understanding that this present moment is all about preparing for what it will be!!! In other words, to realize that what I am going through now, like with so much pain in my knees, is preparing me for the future when I will be working full time for the Kingdom.

I wrote in 2007, a list of thanksgiving phrases for what I had received in my life so far. Here are some examples…I will be a little long list but demonstrates how as Sirach had done, my Lord had made me look back and thank Him for all it was.

Written on August 29, 2007 (As I seated in Toledo, OH, waiting for His permission to place my house on the market even that my son E. in California had invited me since February 2007, to come to live with him).

1. Thank You Lord for Your love and mercy.

2. Thank you for calling me by name since my conception.

3. Thank You my Jesus for having come into this world to suffer and die because You love us so much!

4. Thank You my Jesus for leaving us your Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity in each Tabernacle and for all the other Sacraments and for the Church which gives them to us.

5. Thank You Lord for earning for me the right of becoming an adopted child of the Father and heiress of heaven.

6. Thank You for sending the Holy Spirit to reside in my soul

7. Thank You for the Fruits and Gifts of Your Holy Spirit which have taught me and guided me in my spiritual life.

8. Thank You for your gifts of faith, hope and love

9. Thank You for the human family that you gave me, parents, spouse, sons and other members, and for the country where I was born.

10. Thank You for the spouse you elected for me

11. Thank You for all my friends, teachers, education, honors, jobs and material gifts and money you gave me

12. Thank You for my good health and for the illnesses that You have allowed to come to me

13. Thank You for teaching me to pray and for the time on this earth that You have given me to grow in my personal relationship with You.

14. Thank You for all the tribulations, suffering and crosses that You have allowed for my sanctification

15. Thank You for giving me the understanding that my crosses and sufferings are ALSO redemptive gifts for my brothers and sisters everywhere

16. Thank You for the grace of accepting my crosses and sufferings

17. Thank You for the gift of a constant conversion and repentance and for the grace to understand that I must accept Your will for everything.

18. Thank You for not abandoning me in the difficult moments of my life and for the fortitude You have given me to endure them.

19. Thank You for picking me up in those difficult moments and for carrying me in Your arms the rest of the way, when the pain of the tragedy at hand covered me with sadness and discouragement.

20. Thank You for transforming all bad and cloudy weather, all tempests of my life into something good as You have promised it in Your Word, Romans 8:28.

21. Thank You for protecting me from Satan and for assigning Angels to guard me.

22. Thank You for ending my fears with Your love and mercy.

23. Thank You for the moments when I was able to walk on water grasping Your hand, Your Word and without fear.

24. Thank You also for the patience that You had for me when I lost your protective look and I almost drowned in the turbulent water.

25. Thank you for covering all my needs in accordance to the riches of Your Glory.

26. Thank You for giving me the spirit of wisdom and revelation to be able to know the great Hope to which I have been called to live, that is, residing for eternity in Your Presence in my celestial  homeland.

27. Thank You for the grace of my having been able to pardon my enemies,  loving them and of wishing them the best.

28. Thank You for Your Commandments, Beatitudes; for your Saints and for sending all the prophets, including Your Mother the Virgin Mary, to advice us of our need to seek You, love You and do Your will.

29. Thank You for giving me the grace of keeping in my lips and heart, the phrase that says, “Here I am Lord; I come to do Your will.”

30. Thank You for having revealed to me Your Eucharistic true Presence.

31. Thank You Lord for loving me so much and calling me to be close to You when I was just a small child.

32. Thank You for Your continuous call to be close to Your Eucharistic Presence.

33. Thank You for reversing my memory loss. (Nov.10, 2009)

Sunday, July 31  Feast of St. Ignatius Loyola (my fourth grand child was name Francisco Ignacio Maria because his father was educated by the Jesuits and the child was born on a Dec. 3, feast of St. Francis Xavier, S.J.)

I was able to be awake at 12:30 AM to be present Live to the last Mass of Pope Francis in Poland for the World Youth meeting. I was also very happy to see how my adorable country Panama, was selected to be the next site for the 2019 42th World Youth meeting… This country, as written several times in these blogs, gave me my MD degree free of cost. This past Sunday July 24, I was commenting with my friends and my third son’s godparents how God had taken me to their country and how they gave me a free education, simply because their internal laws said so for anyone with a very high GPA. Yet, this was done even that I was not Panamanian…

In fact, all the things that I have shared regarding medical issues, is a gift that Panama is giving to the readers of this blog. Besides, the preparation I received was extraordinary because I entered the United States and never had any problems with my medical knowledge.  I am so happy that this, my loved country which prepared me to become a doctor of medicine, will be blessed with the presence of the Holy Father. May be we could pray for the next three years that this 2019 World Youth meeting be celebrated without any foreign attacks since the Panama Canal Zone is one of the most extraordinary man made creations, where the Atlantic and Pacific shores are only a few hours apart!!! I am sure that the kids will have a great time!

There is no doubt that GOD IS GOOD AND HIS MERCY ENDURES FOREVER…

 

FINAL WORDS

We are living a horrendous moment in the United States of America.  On July 27, during the Democratic Party Convention, many human beings, men and women sang a beautiful song: ” What the world needs now is love, sweet love.” I started crying because such love excludes the babies in the womb…!!! Is this fair? Is this crazy? On this same day, as different people came to speak about how wonderful their candidate for the U.S. Presidency is, I SUDDENLY FELT A PROFOUND LOVE FOR THE ENTIRE CROWD. I loved them because they are my brothers and sisters and they are images of God. I loved them because grace from God had descended on my heart and mind and soul to feel this way. I then asked for mercy for all of them especially during this especial Extraordinary Year of Mercy… I offered my horrible pain and low amount of Tramadol at hand in atonement for their sins. NOTICE that the elections will happen exactly at the end of this year of Mercy… Hmm… This is a great favor that God has given us by moving our Pope to declare this year to immerse ourselves in the love of God, love that is seen in the mercy with which He cover us.

Well, I could go on and on about the pros and cons of both candidates and I WILL NOT… Yet, because my Mom under the title of Undoer of Knots has decided to come to visit me in a special way… as I have shared during this blog, I feel totally SURE THAT I NEED TO WRITE THE FOLLOWING…

We cannot claim that we are celebrating this year of mercy unless we show mercy for every human being on earth… and most especially for our enemies and the enemies of the babies in the womb and the elders that are not wanted any more for the expense they cause for healthcare reasons!

I am summoning ALL OF YOU, WHO ARE READING THESE LINES, to show Jesus what it is to be merciful… Therefore, please pay attention to the following message:

“ASK FOR UNITY in each of your hearts and PRAY FOR EACH OTHER to LOVE OUR ENEMIES… as Jesus told us to do. When we receive such gift and grace, we then can triumphally say that yes, we showed mercy especially in this special year. Watch out for the following because Satan is working overtime to DIVIDE US, TO LIE TO EACH OTHER, like the lie that we are followers of Christ but only in words… and not in action and be merciful as our Dad in heaven is. Satan will incite all of us to accuse the adversary who seem to be killing babies in the name of Love!!!  Let’s follow Jesus like never before from now until November. Let’s FIGHT SATAN WITH THE BEST TOOL there is: doing God’s will in our private personal lives and regardless what is… Let us call our Lady Undoer of Knots to UNDO ALL KNOTS THAT LEAD US TO DIVISION, LIES, ACCUSATIONS, AND TO HAVE FEAR… and to help us to love everyone no matter what!

I have noticed that every time that I go to the channels which air the DNC stories for each day on a continuous basis, one channel speaks of some stories as true and details the lies told by the other party. The other channel does the opposite. In the mean time, Satan is having a ball because we leave this moment already full of disgust and actual madness for what we are seeing and hearing! We END UP RESENTING THOSE WHO ARE LYING… and we know that they are doing so! We become one of the many who have lost LOVE FOR OUR NEIGHBOR as we love ourselves.

PLEEEASE, if you are reading this message, DECIDE RIGHT NOW TO STOP THEM FROM DOING THIS DAMAGE TO YOUR SOULS.

But how to do it? DO GOD’S WILL ALL DAY Examples:

1) If you have pain in your body: embrace it, accept it and offer it up for the souls of those who are lying of whatever party… You are not Republican or Democrat. You are a child of God the Father, follower of His Son Jesus and under the guidance of their mutual LOVE, that is the Holy Spirit… REFUSE TO complain about your pain…

2) If you do not have enough money to eat: do the same thing by accepting it as the ordained or allowed will of God for you.…

3) If you are mistreated or maligned by others, please say yes to God’s will.

4) If you hear of scandals in the Church: accept them, pray for those involved, and offer your pain and any other suffering for the Church. In other words, turn what is sour and difficult, in your offering to God so that His mercy can save the souls of those who offend you or persecute you or give you scandal and for those who are spreading the killing of babies in the womb in the name of unity and love.

WE CAN STOP SATAN FROM FINISHING THE JOB OF dividing us and ISIS from destroying us in two ways: physically and spiritually by making us harbor hatred and disdain for them.

This summons is very serious… If you feel that watching these scenarios of the crowds of either party or of the two candidates speeches moving you to dislike them, THEN DO NOT WATCH… Always, always call for the mercy of God to change their souls and yours… And in your case, do God’s will at all cost with a big YES, and offer up any pain associated with the moment that you are living.

UNLESS WE already REALIZE THAT WE HAVE ALL THE POWER IN THE WORLD against the destruction that Satan is producing, ask for His mercy to give it to you and expect the answer as a blessing to change these circumstances… NEVER EVER MORE, SPEAK ILL OF YOUR ENEMIES… Ever more… Why? Because they do not know what they are doing!!! Imagine them as your little babies for which you have to pray because they are seeking in the wrong places; speaking the wrong messages; fabricating lies and prejudices. Then, offer your sufferings in atonement for their sins… DETERMINE TO BE MERCIFUL TODAY… REFUSE TO SIN AGAINST EVEN YOUR ENEMIES.  And what else to do?

Ah… this is the greatest question with the greatest answer: SIT DOWN TO SEE GOD DOING HIS THING AND SAVING MANY SOULSNever forget that you were created to love and serve others and that the greatest service is to do what is necessary to save their souls. And every brother and sister is His image… As you say yes to your difficulties of each present moment, He comes with many graces for you and others, including your enemies. Every time that you see yourself disgusted by what you see and hear in these political climate of lies and fabrications, you stop yourself from resenting and if you do, REPENT, REPENT AND REPENT and keep doing God’s will to receive the grace to love them as Jesus loves them.

When you find yourself unable to love others, pray a Rosary and always, always think that Jesus died for you for your salvation and as contemplated in the Rosary. Call your Mother in heaven for help and she will run to undo the knots of your impatience and fears and resentment.  DIE TO YOURSELF over and over and over and part of it, is to accept the will of God as it is, difficult or not, but your obedience will be the seed that will germinate peace and love and destroy satanic weeds once and for all.

IF YOU EVER COMPLAIN ABOUT OTHERS, then complain about your self also because you have not loved them to pieces in order to save them from satanic influence.

Now, I am sorry for being so direct and preachy but the Holy Spirit dictated this last part on July 28… 9 AM – and I have to share it. Let’s celebrate this year of mercy by doing the right thing. No more talks about His mercy unless we live such mercy for others…

For those who have and are praying for me, THANK YOU, THANK YOU AND THANK YOU… And I offer publicly my prayer, pain and sufferings for your complete transformation to love your enemies as Jesus loves them, this of course, in the case that you are still in need of this type of conversion. Always remember that when we sin because we are seeing how somebody else destroys the truth and call us to follow them, we are giving such people too much power in our lives! Let’s go and conquer the world in the Name of Jesus our Lord. The Lord is our Shepherd and there is nothing we shall want… I love you all (and especially U.S. readers) for traveling with me in this most difficult time in the world and in particular in the U.S.A., and let us keep our eyes fixed on Him… our Savior. BUT AGAIN, AT ALL COST, LET US NOT BE DERAILED BY WHAT IS GOING ON IN THE POLITICAL SCENARIO.

The month of August is here… The feasts of Our Lady Queen of Angels (Costa Rica’s patroness) , of the Assumption and of the Queen of the Universe , are important feasts to ask her to dissolve everywhere all the knots of discord and misunderstanding. ABOVE ALL THINGS, PLEASE REMEMBER THAT GOD CAN DO ALL THINGS, INCLUDING GIVING US THE UNDERSTANDING OF OUR SIN AND THE POWER TO CHANGE OUR BEHAVIORSO THAT WE CAN LOVE OTHERS AS HE LOVES THEM. I can assure you that acting this way and with the help of our Mother, you will have joy and peace and love for all.

 

 

The Sacred Heart of Jesus Devotion and the Power of the Rosary for these difficult times on earth

July 3, 2016

A. INTRODUCTION

     Every month I have this challenge of sharing with you my life in the previous 4 weeks with God the Holy Trinity. But also, every month I end up realizing the beauty of being a child of God Who loves me sooo much. This month, the pain in my knees has gotten worse and I wonder at times what does it mean? I am totally sure that it has to do with my need to suffer for what is going on in the world and the variety of horrors that I have to see coming via the television/Internet, and every month I sense that this is the end of times if I use the description that Jesus left us. Towns are destroyed with horrible rain like in West Virginia. In Egypt, many people were harmed in a busy airport. In general, wars, hatred, injustices and the destruction of human life are getting worse than ever. 

The killings in Orlando, FL gave me much pain. Worse is the fact that the assassin, Omar M., had the audacity of doing it without any regret as he showed when he called during the shooting to be sure that he was identified as the author. When I write his name and the place where he attacked, it bothers me since the names of my sons No. 3 and No. 4 are precisely those two “O’s”, and it reminds me of the blessings I have received with both of these men. It is a constant reminder of the different life styles present among these 3 Americans born of immigrant parents! God has truly blessed me!

Mid month, by pure chance I looked into a box that I had in my closet and found something that I did not even remember happened (of course after my memory loss and reversal) and it could explain the reason behind not  having unruly sons. I am referring to a document with a rather large picture of Jesus attached and as it came to us from Poland after St. Faustina’s painting of the Jesus of Mercy. It says that the entire family G….., (our last name) had acquired membership in the Sacred Heart Auxiliary from the Monastery of the Sacred Heart in Hale Corners, Wisconsin. The Priests of the Sacred Heart would share as long as the grace of God is needed, in Special Daily Masses and prayers offered solely for the Auxiliary Members in Novenas of Masses and prayers offered monthly and on major feast days; and special remembrance in all other Masses offered weekly in their seminary chapels and mission fields. My name appeared at the end as the person who enrolled my family on May 30, 1989. It is signed by Father Linus, SCJ.

They included an extra exact picture of Jesus and in the back of the picture there is a prayer novena to Jesus and the Promises of Our Lord given to St. Margaret Mary for souls devoted to His Sacred Heart … Of course, I met Jesus as being Present in the Eucharistic Host at age 61/2 and soon after entered the elementary school of St. Margaret Mary. I also did my FIRST HOLY COMMUNION on a Friday June 8, Feast of the Sacred Heart for that year.

I also did take each son with just 3-4 days after birth and presented each one to His Real Presence in the Tabernacle saying: “You gave him to me. I now give him back to You to take care of.” Of course, His plan had started that ultimately led me to this consecration of my family… including my husband who 12 years later converted before his death of cancer. “Amazing grace, how sweet the sound…”

Therefore, there was no question that part of this blog had to do with the devotion to the Sacred Heart. Then, out of the blue again…, I found under a small table the book titled, The Secret of the Rosary by St. Louis de Montfort. So, this topic had to be explored in this blog as well.

The devotion to the Sacred Heart and how it came to be will be extensively covered on the actual last feast of the Sacred Heart on this past Friday, June 3. And with respect to the Secret of the Rosary, I will tell you what happened on the date of this month when I prayed 17 Rosaries and I received an extraordinary teaching for my spiritual formation… So that I would not forget the date, the Lord chose an easy group of numbers…. 6/16/16…!

But there is one more thing: in the early 1990’s while living in the outskirts of Cleveland, OH, I enthroned the Sacred Heart of Jesus in our home following the format written by Fr. Mateo Crawley Boevey of the Society of the Hearts of Jesus and Mary. He was Peruvian with an English father. His entire story you will read on the date of June 3. I ALSO have prepared a document with many historical facts regarding this devotion to His Sacred Heart and will place it in the “PAGE” SECTION OF THIS BLOG IN CASE YOU DESIRE TO READ MORE ABOUT IT, although all Catholics know it. It WILL COVER EVERY ASPECT OF THIS DEVOTION AND THIS IS THE LIST OF STORIES that will appear in the document.

I. History of the Devotion to the Sacred Heart of Jesus

II. Margaret Mary Alacoque

III. ENCYCLICALS

IV. The teaching of St. John Paul II on the Sacred Heart of Jesus and the theology of reparation by Monsignor Arthur Burton Calkins.

V. Quotes from Saint Margaret Mary Alacoque

VI. The Sacred Heart and the Society of Jesus (Jesuits)

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B. Stories according to the calendar sequence

Friday, June 3Feast of the Sacred Heart of Jesus

THE PROMISES OF OUR LORD TO SAINT MARGARET MARY for Souls devoted to His Sacred Heart.

1. I will give them all the graces necessary in their state of life.

2. I will establish peace in their houses

3. I will comfort them in all their afflictions

4. I will be their secure refuge during life, and above all in death.

5. I will bestow a large blessing upon all their undertakings.

6. Sinners will find in My Heart the source and the infinite ocean of Mercy!

7. Tepid souls shall grow fervent

8. Fervent souls shall quickly mount to high perfection.

9. I will bless every place where a picture of My Heart shall be set up and honored.

10. I will give to priests the gift of touching the most hardened hearts.

11. Those who shall promote this devotion shall have their names written in My Heart, never to be blotted out.

12. I promise thee in the excessive mercy of My Heart that My all-powerful love will grant to all those who communicate on the First Friday in nine consecutive months the grace of final penitence; they shall not die in My disgrace not without receiving their Sacraments; My Divine Heart shall be their safe refuge in this last moment.

The prayer/novena to the Sacred Heart of Jesus that came with the above promises as written on the back of the picture of Jesus in the membership of the Sacred Heart Auxiliary from Wisconsin.

“O most holy Heart of Jesus, fountain of every blessing, I adore You, I love You and with a lively sorrow for my sins, I offer You this poor heart of mine. Make me humble, patient, pure, and wholly obedient to Your will. Grant, good Jesus, that I may live in You and for You. Protect me in the midst of danger; comfort me in my afflictions; give me health of body, assistance in my temporal needs, Your blessing in all that I do, and the grace of a holy death.”

I did go many times to Communion for nine consecutive First Friday’s, and probably 25 times or more as a high school student and young teenager and even in medical school. I also went to confession for each occasion.

Notice how His Promises have shown to be true in my life. The Consecration was done on May 30, 1989. Just 26 days earlier I had received the revelation in Houston, TX of how we residing in Indiana, would be offered jobs and to take them. It turned out to be in Cleveland, OH and by the time of this consecration we were in talks with Kaiser Permanente, and they gave us enough money to accept the move. So, what else can I say about devotion to His Sacred Heart? Nothing else…

Other Stories about the Sacred Heart Devotion:

It was as always another great  confirmation that I had to touch this subject matter when while putting together this blog on Tuesday, June 28 (much after the actual feast) and out of the blue at 9 AM after praying the Rosary with EWTN/Espanol, a beautiful program in Spanish explained  all about the devotion to the Sacred Heart and His apparitions at Paray-le-Monial in France…!!!! This was a hint that my Lord wanted me to give my readers other interesting stories of this devotion and place it on the actual Feast of His Sacred Heart!

I was fascinated with this program of June 28th at 9 AM local time. I did visit Paray-le-Monial in 2002 with a guide and spiritual director friend of mine and a Jesuit priest! It was there that a Nun of the Visitation showed us the tree under which St. Margaret Mary had had encounters with the Sacred Heart of Jesus!!! I also was followed by a nun trying to give me a piece of paper for me to take as a reminder of this visit. It had a Bible quotation where Jesus tells Peter that he will go and catch many fish… I forgot the exact quote but I have it somewhere in my library.

As you know, I was born among the Carmelite Saints’ devotion and readings of their works. Later, the Lord had ordered my connection with St. Ignatius of Loyola at our arrival in Cleveland for the first time in 1980; this was LED BY THE Catholic REAL ESTATE AGENT (chosen after much prayer from the city in Michigan where I was living at the time). She sold us the house with the plan that my older two sons attended St. Ignatius High School. I had no idea about this high school but she, being Catholic, gave me all the details since this high school was one of the best in northwestern Ohio.  In fact, the house was located in a nice neighborhood called Shaker Hts., east of the city of Cleveland but was bought precisely near the train track that leads to the west side where this high school still is.  The parish that she led me to and closer to the home was Gesu… ministered by Jesuits!!! The older son did a year of mid school at Gesu School and then he attended St. Ignatius High School. The second son had 3 years at Gesu before attending St. Ignatius. Five years later we left (because of my first professional persecution and my new job found in Indiana). It was then when on May 4th, 1989, the Lord in Houston, TX asked me to return since Kaiser Permanent had called offering us jobs. The older of the  two younger sons was to start high school and although it was too late to get admission (generally they had 900 students applying and only 300 getting in). He was admitted because his older 2 brothers had been alumni!!! (God has all plans well planned). This association with the Jesuits for all their high school studies gave the entire family a sense of belonging to the Jesuit spirituality and family. I also started practicing at home a work from a beloved priest, Fr. John Hardon (1914- 2000) who wrote “Retreat with the Lord: A Popular Guide to the Spiritual Exercises of Ignatius of Loyola.”  As you can surmise, Ignatian roots were all over our family.

HERE IS A WONDERFUL PRAYER as well: An Act of Consecration to the Sacred Heart of Jesus by St. Margaret Mary Alacoque

I give myself 
and consecrate to the Sacred Heart of our Lord Jesus Christ, 
my person and my life, 
my actions, 
pains and sufferings, 
so that I may be unwilling to make use 
of any part of my being other than to honor, 
love and glorify the Sacred Heart. 
This is my unchanging purpose, namely, 
to be all His, 
and to do all things for the love of Him, 
at the same time renouncing with all my heart 
whatever is displeasing to Him. 
I therefore take You, 
O Sacred Heart, 
to be the only object of my love, 
the guardian of my life,
my assurance of salvation
, 
the remedy of my weakness and inconstancy, 
the atonement for all the faults of my life 
and my sure refuge at the hour of death. 

Be then, O Heart of goodness, 
my justification before God the Father, 
and turn away from me the strokes of his righteous anger.
O Heart of love, 
I put all my confidence in You, 
for I fear everything from my own wickedness and frailty, 
but I hope for all things from Your goodness and bounty.

Remove from me all that can displease You 
or resist Your holy will;
let your pure love imprint Your image 
so deeply upon my heart, 
that I shall never be able to forget You 
or to be separated from You.

May I obtain from all Your loving kindness 
the grace of having my name written in Your Heart, 
for in You I desire to place all my happiness and glory, 
living and dying in bondage to You. 
Amen.

Father Mateo Crawley Boevey and the Sacred Heart in the Home and the World

By ROGER | Published: 

“For something happened in that year, once again in Paray-le-Monial, which is relevant to everything which concerns us here. And we have already mentioned it earlier in these pages, when we related how the Peruvian Father Mateo Crawley Boevey (of  the Congregation of the Sacred Hearts of Jesus and Mary) had become gravely ill. Yet one night in Paray-le-Monial he found himself instantly healed.

“For on the 24th August 1907, he was in the Chapel of the Apparitions at Paray-le-Monial and this is what he tells us:

‘I prayed, and suddenly I felt within myself a strange shock. I was struck by a blow of grace, at the same time very strong, yet infinitely gentle. When I arose, I was completely cured. Then, kneeling in the sanctuary, absorbed in an act of thanksgiving, I understood what Our Lord wished of me.That very evening I conceived the plan to re-conquer the world, home by home, family by family, for the love of the Heart of Jesus.’ (I say: Wow. This is what we need to do now… in 2016) Thus it was that Father Mateo Crawley Boevey came to the inspiration of consecrating the home to the Sacred Heart of Jesus.

“Now, this consecration usually involves one’s parish priest blessing the home and the image of the heart of Jesus being placed centrally therein- following, of course, the Revelation to Saint Margaret Mary that the image of His Heart should be placed in the home.

“Here is the Enthronement to the Sacred Heart of Jesus which enflamed the now-healed heart of Father Mateo Crawley Boevey. And so it happened that throughout the world, the heart of Jesus began to be enthroned in home after home after home. Perhaps this occurred nowhere more than in Ireland, where the tradition became deeply implanted within Irish culture.

“How I recall living in Ireland and being deeply moved by this Irish tradition of the image of the Sacred Heart centrally placed in the home with the votive lamp beside it, ever burning.

“Indeed, I recall an elderly Irish lady explaining to me that when she had a new home built in the 1970s or 80s perhaps, it had then been standard practice of the builders to ask the client: where do you want the fitting for your votive lamp to the Sacred Heart?

“O Ireland, how you were – until even recently – so receptive to, so penetrated by, so blessed by the Heart of the Saviour. But Ireland, how you are now in grave danger of losing your sacred traditions …But in the present chapter, we are not concerned with the serious menace threatening the Irish soul.

“Here it is a matter of simply reporting that a tradition has been established over the last centuries – a tradition beginning with Saint Margaret Mary in Paray-le-Monial and continued by Father Mateo Crawley Bovey following his healing in Paray-le-Monial – and that tradition involves ensuring that the Image of the Sacred Heart of Jesus is as widely dispersed and is as widely known as possible (End of article)

Sunday, June 12

Main headline: Orlando shooting: 49 killed, shooter pledged ISIS allegiance

Orlando, Florida (CNN) An American-born man, Omar Mateen, 29 who’d pledged allegiance to ISIS, gunned down 49 people early Sunday at a gay nightclub in Orlando, the deadliest mass shooting in the United States and the nation’s worst terror attack since 9/11, authorities said. Mateen’s parents are from Afghanistan. (End of report)

A few days later a Hispanic man in the Hispanic TV channel Univision said that Omar Mateen was gay as well and had relations with him. He also said that it happened despite his two marriages that he used to cover up his homosexuality. He told the story of how he had relationships with two Puerto Rican men, one of which was HIV positive and did not tell him until much later. This man concluded that Mateen committed the crime not out of hatred for gays but out of vengeance for the many Puerto Ricans that frequented this particular bar.

I want to add that this event and many others are calling us to do something with our lives to atone for such sins and do it right away. The call received by Fr. Mateo was as relevant then as it is today! It is calling us to a major inner conversion where we must pray and sacrifice day and night and do it out of love for neighbor.

Thursday, June 16 or 6/16/16 – about the power of the Rosary

I woke up with severe pain in my knees plus severe gastritis. I had a late breakfast (10:30 AM) and talked to my Mother. I was worried about my pain. She said, “You are worried about how to curtail your pain in order to go to the supermarket and do some house cleaning. You have to do only one thing. Tell me in 10 words or less what it is and do it!!! Then swim with the grace of His mercy that will fall over you.”

I then found myself saying, “Say yes to God’s will despite present or future needs.” I counted the number of words and they were TEN…

A couple of hours later, again I found myself saying important truths that I have to live by and each line had 5 words!!! I ended up with 16 lines made of 5 words, or 8 lines with TEN words… Here is the entire text.

My 16 personal “5’s” Commands of 6/16/16

(Each sentence has 5 words)

1. Say “yes” to God’s will

2. As praise of His glory

3. Thank Him for His Mercy,

4. despite harshness of present moment.

5. Accept all that Jesus wants.

6. Yet, not there and tomorrow

7. but rather here and now.

8. Grow in trust without fear

9. For what God will do

10. for the salvation of souls

11 using the holy Rosary power,

12. added to forgiveness and repentance,

13. with graces you will receive

14. from obedience to God’s will.

15. Keep alive this truth within,

16. Turning off all pride around.

Throughout this day I prayed 17 Rosaries. There is no question that this special date of 6/16/16 will be something I will remember for many reasons. Also, whenever I pray many Rosaries, God truly answers my prayers, like the 2627 Rosaries prayed during 12 continuous Holy Hours that gave Republican George Bush Jr. (a pro life President), his second four years in office, when everybody was sure that Democrat Senator Kerry (Catholic and pro-choice) would win right from the EARLY morning (9 AM) through exit polls of this day in November 2004… I did not pray for either candidate to win but for God to bless us with His will for the U.S. The Rosary is so powerful that it is interesting how we ignore this truth… However… we never pray many of them to entice God to give us spiritual blessings to help ourselves and others… NEVER! We only have to  pray that His will be done for the good of all and that Satan does not obstruct what is best for the salvation of all of us and the preservation of Life from conception to death. Yet, we go around vacillating in doing His will with joy plus wasting time and not as children of God should be doing!

Let me share with you some parts coming from Fr. De Montfort’s book, THE SECRET OF THE ROSARY. (As written above, I found this book by chance on June 28!!!!! It was much after my experience of the Rosary for this month on 6/16/16)

FROM THE BOOK:

Origin of the Rosary: since the Holy Rosary is composed, principally and in substance, of the Prayer of Christ and the Angelic Salutation, that is, the Our Father and the Hail Mary, it was without doubt the first prayer and the first devotion of the faithful and has been in use through the centuries, from the time of the apostles and disciples down to the present.

But it was only in the year 1214, however, that Holy Mother Church received the Rosary in its present form and according to the method we use today. It was given to the Church by St. Dominic who had received it from the Blessed Virgin as a powerful means of converting the Albigensians and other sinners.

 I will tell you the story of how he received it, which is found in the very well-known book “The Dignitate Psalterii” by Blessed Alan de la Roche. St. Dominic, seeing that the gravity of people’s sins was hindering the conversion of the Albigensians, withdrew into a forest near Toulouse where he prayed unceasingly for three days and three nights. During this time he did nothing but weep and do harsh penances in order to appease the anger of Almighty God. He used his discipline so much that his body was lacerated, and finally he fell into a coma.

At this point, Our Lady appeared to him, accompanied by three angels and she said,

“Dear Dominic, do you know which weapon the Blessed Trinity wants to use to reform the world?”

“Oh, my Lady,” answered St. Dominic, “you know you have always been the chief instrument of our salvation.”

Then Our Lady replied:

“I want you to know that, in this kind of warfare, the battering ram has always been the Angelic Psalter which is the foundation stone of the New Testament. Therefore if you want to reach these hardened souls and win them over for God, preach my Psalter.”

So, he arose, comforted and burning with zeal for the conversion of the people in the district, he made straight for the Cathedral. At once, unseen angels rang the bells to gather the people together and Saint Dominic began to preach.

At the very beginning of his sermon and appalling storm broke out, the earth shook, the sun was darkened and there was so much thunder and lightning that all were very much afraid. Even greater was their fear when looking at a picture of Our Lady exposed in a predominant place they saw her raise her arms to heaven three times to call down God’s vengeance upon them if they failed to be converted, to amend their lives, and seek the protection of the Holy Mother of God. (Wow)

God wished, by means of these supernatural phenomena, to spread the new devotion of the Holy Rosary and to make it more widely known.

At last, with the prayer of St. Dominic, the storm came to an end, and he went on preaching. So fervently and compelling did he explain the importance and value of the Holy Rosary that almost all people of Toulouse embraced it and renounced their false beliefs. In a very short time a great improvement was seen in the town; people began leading Christian lives and gave up their former bad habits.

This miraculous way in which the devotion to the Holy Rosary was established it is something of a parallel to the way in which Almighty God gave His law to the world on Mount Sinai and obviously proves its value and importance.

Inspired by the Holy Ghost, instructed by the Blessed Virgin as well as by his own experience, St. Dominic preached the Holy Rosary for the rest of his life. He preached it by his example as well as by his sermons, in cities and in country places, to people of high station and low, before scholars and the uneducated, to Catholics and to heretics.

One day he had to preach at Notre Dame in Paris, and it happened to be the feast of St. John the Apostle. He was in a little chapel behind the high altar prayerfully preparing his sermon by saying the Rosary, as he always did, when Our Lady appeared to him and said,

“Dominic, even though what you have planned to say may be very good, I am bringing you a much better sermon.”

St. Dominic took in his hands the book Our Lady offered, read the sermon carefully and when he had understood it and meditated on it, he gave thanks to the Blessed Mother.

When the time came, he went up into the pulpit and, in spite of the feast day, made no mention of St. John other than to say that he had been found worthy to be the guardian of the Queen of Heaven. The congregation was made up of theologians and other eminent people who were used to hearing unusual and polish discourses; but St. Dominic told them that it was not his wish to give them a learned discourse wise in the eyes of the world, but that he would speak in the simplicity of the Holy Spirit and with His forcefulness.

So he began preaching the Holy Rosary and explained the Hail Mary word by word as he would to a group of children and used the very simple illustration which was in the book Our Lady had given him.

Carthagena, the great scholar, quoting Blessed Alan de la Roche in “De Dignitate Psalterii,” describes how this took place:

“Blessed Alan writes that one day Fr. Dominic said to him in a vision, “My son, it is good to preach; but there is always a danger of looking for praise rather than the salvation of souls. Listen carefully to what happened to me in Paris so that you may be on guard against this kind of mistake; I was to preach in the great church dedicated to the Blessed Virgin and I was particularly anxious to give a brilliant sermon, not out of pride, but because of the high intellectual stature of the congregation.

“An hour before time I had to preach, I was re-collectedly saying my Rosary – as always did before giving a sermon – when I fell into ecstasy. I saw my beloved friend the Mother of God coming towards me with a book in her hand, “Dominic,’ she said, ‘your sermon for today may be very good indeed, but no matter how good it is, I have brought you one that is very much better.’

“Of course, I was overjoyed, took the book and read every word of it. Just as Our Lady had said, I found exactly the right things to say in my sermon, so I thanked her with all my heart…..

Blessed Alan, according to Carthagena, mentioned several other times when Our Lord and Our Lady appeared to St. Dominic to urge and inspire him to preach the Rosary more and more in order to wipe out sin and to convert sinners and heretics.

In another passage, Carthagena says, “Blessed Alan said Our Lady revealed to him that after she had appeared to St. Dominic, her Blessed Son appeared to him and said,
‘Dominic, I rejoice to see that you are not relying upon your own wisdom and that, rather than seek the empty praise of men, you are working with great humility for the salvation of souls. But many priests want to preach thunderously against the worst kinds of sin at the very outset, failing to realize that before a sick person is given bitter medicine, he needs to be prepared by being put in the right frame of mind to really benefit by it. This is why, before doing anything else, priests should try to kindle a love of prayer in people’s hearts and especially a love for my Angelic Psalter. If only they would all start saying it and would really persevere, God, in His mercy, could hardly refuse to give them His grace. So I want you to preach my Rosary.’”

In another place Blessed Alan says:

“All priests say a Hail Mary with the faithful before preaching to ask for God’s grace. They do this because of a revelation that St. Dominic had from Our Lady. ‘My son,’ she said one day, ‘do not be surprised that your sermons fail to bear the results you had hoped for. You are trying to cultivate a piece of ground which has not had any rain. Now when Almighty God planned to renew the face of the earth He started by sending down rain from heaven – and this was the Angelic Salutation.  So, when you give a sermon, urge people to say my Rosary and in this way your words will bear much fruit for souls.’

“St. Dominic lost no time in obeying, and from then on he exerted great influence by his sermons.”

(My note: I wish I could continue copying this book because it is simply full of miracles and stories that proof that the Rosary can change the entire world… Suffice to say that at the end of this blog I will have something else to say regarding the use of praying the Rosary!)

Saturday, June 18

In one of our 3 PBS stations, I found a wonderful new program (2016) from Dr. Joel Fuhrman titled “Eat to Live.” He discussed how this way of eating will reverse diabetes, lose cravings, lose weight and reduce blood pressure!

That day I was able to pray 7 Rosaries. I have much time to do it but I fall asleep all the time regardless of tiredness or time and due to toxicity. NOTICE how on these two days when I prayed many Rosaries, things happened…like  receiving these reminders as to how to live day by day; I also was able to land in this PBS program what is of great importance for preventing heart disease… I tried to make a DVD copy of the program but my rather new player/recorder informed me that this program could not be recorded… So, I intend to order it to send it to my dear Franciscan Priests at EWTN, including the Jesuit member… so that they can start preventing heart disease and ACTUALLY REVERSE  the problem by dissolving the plaque already formed in their arteries…

I choose this group because they preach to the entire world and their health whether spiritual or physical, should be something we should pray for on a regular basis. In this case, knowing that regular M.D.’s only order drugs to maintain what is already wrong with our bodies plus exercise, I feel called to give them an idea of how they can eat to dissolve plaque in their arteries and PREVENT illnesses in general. I am sure that my Mother asked her Son to guide me to find this program at PBS… This information will also help the Nuns in Hanceville and in other centers of this Order of nuns who pray for this worldwide ministry. An entire major document is in the works to post it mid July, since the information I had put together in the early 2000’s on heart disease is too long and I want to make it shorter and yet, cover all on how to do it.

Let me repeat that the 2016 program “Eat to Live” by Dr. Joel Fuhrman covers the topics of how to end heart disease, reverse diabetes, weight loss, decrease of high blood pressure and lose cravings for certain foods are covered by this doctor, an M.D. respected and well recognized in the PBS system of San Francisco, CA. If anyone wanted to order the one DVD presentation is worth only $72. The entire set of CD’s with the book he wrote (value of $157), you can do it via www.kqed.org/donate or call 1-800-568-9999. The donation refers to the fact that buying this product will give the PBS station a donation from the money paid for the product. The reputation of this PBS system in this area is good and safe. Thanks to them, I found Dr. Mark Hyman’s talk and book that revealed to me in 2009 that I could reverse my dementia with detoxification, and I sure did…

Monday, June 20

At 8:30 AM, Our Lady said, “Keep praying the Rosary and practicing your list of commands of 6/16/16. Both practices will help you accomplish many things.”

There was some news where they mentioned the availability of contraceptive drugs in order to stop the many abortions on demand…! At 12:30 PM and after praying four Rosaries, I wrote, “I have excessive pain despite Tramadol. I have problems cooking or going shopping for food. Toxicity is destroying my body slowly but surely. Yet, God is in charge as shown in the Gospel of Mathew 6 read in this morning’s Mass. He takes care even of the birds of the sky…  I proceeded to pray and ask the Lord for His mercy in this matter.

Thursday, June 23

On EWTN, I saw an encore showing of a 2007program of “The Journey Home.” A priest, an ex Mormon and now Father Erik from Ogden, Utah explained all the facets of Mormonism in a fascinating way. It was a great teaching tool. I realized how blessed I was when my Lord placed me in a very religious Roman Catholic family, with a grandmother who got me started with devotion to Our Lady and the Rosary. In my case, as a child I became divinely instructed in Jesus’ Real Presence in the Eucharist and was led to a Catholic small school (just starting that year in Costa Rica and coming from El Salvador with Nuns of the Divine Love). It was a perfect case of Divine Mercy for me… Everything was ready for me to enter into this love for the Eucharist and love for His Sacred Heart. It is obvious that all my suffering with pain that had just led me to ask for a miracle was answered… I was able to see how blessed I am with this background and not to be confused by ideas like that of Mormonism! I never watch the daily repeat of old programs from Journey Home because it would mean to spend all day watching ETWN when I have many other duties, especially prayer. However, this program is excellent and necessary for many with such needs of facing the real truth in the Catholic Church. So, there it was miracle No. 2 à when I found this particular 2007 program!

Friday, June 24 – Feast of St. John the Baptist

I woke up very early on this day and found myself at 3 AM with EWTN on… I do that very often because from some time and as written before, I suffer with excessive sleepiness and I attribute it to toxicity in the environment. Fr. Thomas Dubay who already left us, was talking about virtue… This time, he talked about heroic virtue!!! He explained that it was a Gospel quality, a power to be and to do, like other powers as temperance (or being able to eat and drink temperately). Another power would be obedience and magnanimity (the power to do all for God. It is an ordinary goodness that grows beyond human capacity or we go beyond others). He illustrated the virtues of fortitude and patience as found in Scripture with an example in Colossians 1. Fr. Dubay explained that the Saints are the ones who can give a complete yes to God. St. Paul says that “you will have the strength based on God’s power and able to give and to bear anything joyfully! Even verbal abuse can be bore joyfully.” In Heb. 10:34, Paul spoke to early Christians…”You even joined in the sufferings of those in prison and joyfully accepted the confiscation of your property, knowing that you had a better and lasting possession.” This is a form of an extraordinary form of detachment!

In Hebrews 11, it says that we are pilgrims and do not make a nest of this world. A pilgrim is one in view of a Sacred Shrine. This scenario goes with a deep prayer life, and transforming union (the deeper form of prayer) is received.

The following day, this program was repeated and I found it by chance, or better said, as the Holy Spirit sent me to watch EWTN at that moment! So, it worked for me as a reminder that we all are called to grow and be blessed with heroic virtue and with strength and to be the happiest people on earth. It will certainly help me when the pain in my knees becomes unbearable… These acts of God of leading me to watch a program twice, describes for me what His mercy is all about! He is around us 24/7 and gives us all the help we need to get to the Promised Land to live with Him.

Wednesday, June 29

I found in the Hispanic channel Univision a very interesting program…It so happen that only Mexico City has approved abortion on demand. The rest of Mexico and all others in Central America do not…!!! The program is all about how Costa Rica will look in the year 2030… The streets are so full of people that cars cannot drive through them. So people have to walk as the only option!!! In this my own country, there are laws against IVF (In vitro fertilization). In this case, many fetuses are produced in the Petri dish and some are stored and some are destroyed…

In the case of Costa Rica, the U.N. found Costa Rica culpable of violating human rights by opposing IVF.. (A big OUCH) and this way they are going to lose foreign aid… Interactive forces under the Bill Gates group bring dollars to Costa Rica to pay for ads like the one of how Costa Rica will look in 2030, with an excess population and people not able to drive cars, forcing them to walk everywhere… Yet, the faith in these countries with a deep devotion to Our Lady has protected Mexico (except for Mexico City) and Central America from accepting abortion as a legal option. The international pressure continues and will continue! They also reported that they know in Mexico that with the Rosary in one hand and Our Lady of Guadalupe at their side, legal abortion will disappear in Mexico City!

I was so upset upon watching this horror… Satan is reigning all over and we all Disciples of Christ MUST DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT AND NOW!

C. CLOSING MESSAGE

I must tell you that finishing this blog was close to be impossible. I suspect that Satan is against it and 100%… I even wonder if this will be the last blog because it has been very hard on my eyes to write it. Also and just 48 hours ago, I developed a severe pain in the right side of my body, just below the waist like a muscle spasm and it is horrific. It comes and goes and I have no idea of what to do to avoid it. Yet, I knew that the following message! had to be written at all cost… What I will tell you here could be too strong for you but I have to do it because our times are getting worse than we could ever imagine, and these ideas were given to me in a surprising way with the request to post them. It so happens that I am finishing this blog precisely on a First Friday of the Sacred Heart….!!!! However, I have not been able to post this blog until this Sunday July 3.

Thank you again for your prayers… My last pain of the last hours has been so furious that I even requested the Lord to call me home if it is His will. After all, I have already written a lot sharing His love for me and perhaps, that is all that I could do at this time.

 After what I have been asked to read and contemplate in the last 4 weeks, I feel very strongly that we, as a family, the Roman Catholic Church, should do three things. We know that we all are called to save souls at all cost. We should understand once and for all that we must do whatever we have to do for the salvation of those who are destroying lives for no apparent reason. If we take those souls and pray for them as if they were our own children or brother or sister or mother, etc. we could end this horror. IT IS EQUIVALENT TO TAKING SATAN BY THE HORNS as we say in Latin America.Therefore, here is the plan:

1. Our Holy Father, a Jesuit himself, could fulfill their association with the Devotion to the Sacred Heart and once more CONSECRATE THE WORLD to His Sacred Heart in this special Extraordinary Year of Mercy. We have reviewed at length what could happen if we do so.

2. The entire Catholic Church families or single members or priests and religious, could start saying a Rosary per day asking Our Lady to pray for us before the Throne of Mercy for our conversion to do God’s will in everything for His greater glory… and see the same results that St. Dominic and Blessed Alan de la Roche spoke about. This Rosary should be also offered in ATONEMENT for the sins of all those who are destroying lives, with abortion on demand and in public places and FOR THEIR SALVATION… (If unable to pray a daily Rosary, at least to do it once a week!)

3. The entire Catholic Church could start saying a Chaplet of Divine Mercy united to any personal suffering in ATONEMENT FOR THE SINS of all those of any religion,  creed or atheists who need salvation … plus asking for God’s mercy to save them!!!

As long as we atone for the sins of our brothers and sisters with our own suffering and pray for their salvation with the power of the Rosary, Satan will run, and our Mother will also obtain their salvation as she asked her Son to make wine from water… Amen! (Please, pray for this intention)

Theology, Psychology and Sanctity (TPS)

June 2, 2016

I. INTRODUCTION

In these almost 8 years of writing blogs, I have never felt so insecure about transcribing what I hear my God teaching me! There are many reasons to feel in such way. For example, toxicity around in my environment makes me very sleepy all day… My attention span gets a little fractured with this sleepiness and to top it off, the state of the world is coming apart faster and faster… With these disastrous news all over, and I will mention a few of them, some not well known by all, I ask myself what is my responsibility in front of my Jesus Who died for us precisely to give us His love and mercy? I hope that you will not get offended when I am done with this message and also, hopefully, I will be shorter than other blogs and precise in case you do not agree… I will skip many details of my day to day life, and again, in order to focus on the important message that I must share with you.

I want to emphasize that the reason of daring to write on sanctity associated with theology and psychology, is because the time is short before something drastic worldwide may happen and destroy many more lives than even today. My closing statement will be the clearest explanation of what I found to be my (our?) responsibility for the present times.

If you add to the above difficulties, my need to finish the book that will bring so much good to many patients with dementia and depression, well, I tremble even more. However, I did work on it for a few hours, better than previous months… Of course, my Mother has been asking me to manage my time almost to perfection; that is, staying away from much TV viewing even if it is EWTN… The truth is that this July I would I have spent 8 years in retirement and without too much work at home, time that I should have used better and gotten this book done and published. There have been a couple of times that I cried for being so “stupid” and not realize that I had not chosen my brothers and sisters ahead of my rather easy life, of course, with much pain and health problems. I suspect that my health issues have been a way for me to start paying for my sin of not writing this book some years ago!

II. FEW DATES THAT BROUGHT ME IMPORTANT INFORMATION

Wednesday, May 4 – I remembered this great date when on a Thursday in 1989 I received in Houston, TX where I as attending a medical meeting, the order from my Lord to accept jobs that will be offered to us when I returned home to South Bend, IN. And you know this story since I have recanted it several times before. I came back to South Bend, IN on Sunday May 7, and the same evening, we received a call from Cleveland that they wanted me to be Chief of the Anesthesia Department at Kaiser Permanente Hospital and my husband to work as an anesthesiologist. He was a pathologist for several years before he trained in anesthesiology, so I had more experience for the chief position. Our coming to Cleveland re-directed my son’s education. The two youngest were able to attend St. Ignatius High School, where their older two brothers graduated from.

The Jesuit formation that the entire family received through them attending this secondary school, like getting to know St. Ignatius and his famous 40 day retreat became a great gift for us as a family… I started using the book written by a holy Jesuit priest, Fr. Horgan (I have forgotten the name of this deceased priest from Detroit, MI), and he takes the reader though the 40 day retreat. Here was the beginning of something that it is only now that I understand as a must for each Christian family: to work on the restoration of the “family temple” starting with the parent own journey of letting Jesus run his/her life and where God is worshiped forming us parents to guide our children to become saints, even when we hardly notice that we are doing it. Therefore, this restoration of each “family temple” has to do with our need for an ongoing conversion and participation  in the Life of the Catholic Church as members of one Body, one Body in Christ.

So, our formation with the Jesuit spirituality was a gift, and this move that God procured for us ended in a greater gift to be invoked in a future restoration as a family even when the children have left the home and gotten married. Let me add that I was called to take this restoration seriously through Ezekiel chapters 40-44. He was told by the Lord that Israel had to restore (actually reconstruct) the Temple which had been destroyed. Our coming back to Cleveland also helped my third son to choose Theology and pursuit a degree and he chose the Franciscan University of Steubenville (much closer to Cleveland than to South Bend), something I mentioned in my last blog. This led him to find his holy wife who also attended this university. There is no doubt that God’s plan is super perfect and that if we had not followed His will, we would have missed many graces! Doing God’s will is simply a must! Daring not to obey Him can result in a tremendous spiritual loss.

Thursday, May 6

By chance I turned on EWTN/Spanish and was astounded to hear all about the life of Sor Maria Romero, now Blessed and in need of a miracle for canonization… (“Sor” in Spanish means Sister)

She was born in Granada, Nicaragua on the 13 January 1902 as one of eight children from a middle-class family. Her father was a government minister. As she was found to have a talent for art and music, her parents saw to it that she was trained on the piano and the violin. Later, she went on to become a student at a Salesian Sisters’ school although in 1914, when she was 12, she was stricken by a year long bout of paralyzing rheumatic fever. Her recovery was deemed to be miraculous and led to a total confidence in Our Lady Help of Christians and to the vision of her Salesian vocation.

In 1931 she went to San Jose, Costa Rica, which became her second country and by 1933 she was teacher of music, art, and typing in a school for the daughters of the wealthy. Many of her students were won over to her way of life, and worked with her to help the poor and abandoned.

Her ministry became focused on social development, helping the rich to see how they could help the poor. She set up recreational centers in 1945, food distribution centers in 1953, a school for poor girls in 1961, and a clinic in 1966. In 1973, she organized the construction of seven homes, which became the foundation of the village of Centro San Jose, a community where poor families could have decent homes.

She died of a heart attack on 7 July 1977, at age 75, in the Salesian house in Leon, Nicaragua where she had been sent for a rest. Her mortal remains were sent back to San José, Costa Rica, to be buried in the Salesian Chapel. She was beatified on April 14, 2002 by St. John Paul II.

As a result of what she felt a Marian miracle, Maria joined the Marian Association, "Daughters of Mary" on the 8 December 1915. In 1920, at age 18, María joined the Institute of the Daughters of Mary, Help of Christians. Her spiritual director Fr Emilio Bottari gave her a prophetic recommendation: "Even though difficult moments will come and you will feel torn to pieces, be faithful and strong in your vocation". For María, these words sustained her for the rest of her religious life. On 6 January 1929 in Nicaragua, María made her final profession. Her writings indicate that she attempted to live the religious life, the interior life after the example of Don Bosco. She is considered the first Saint for Central America to become when canonized and she is well known as the Mother Teresa of this area.

I grew up knowing of her since she lived for most of her life in my city of origin, San Jose. This EWTN program truly left me full of joy and I thanked God for our present state of media communications!

Monday May 9

I know of a family which has children not yet baptized. I felt like getting involved in this as I did in Toledo, OH many years ago when I found a woman in a supermarket with a beautiful 18 month baby girl who had been denied baptism in her parish because the mother was not married and living with the father of the child. I tried to plead with the parish pastor of this woman to no avail. So, I went to the Bishop, a great friend of mine at the time and he fixed the entire problem… So, this type of story sounded similar to the present one.

On this day as I was cleaning some dishes (my kitchen sink is by a window and the sun shines in the mornings), I noticed that it was very cloudy and I was actually happy not to deal with the hot sunrays. Suddenly, the sun came out and I heard the following,“Say the words of the Chaplet of Mercy as you do your chores and offer it up for the parents in atonement for not having baptized their children and asking for mercy for them! Watch what will happen when you ask for My mercy in something as important as this.”  Then the sun left and never came back and cloudiness reigned thereafter. My Lord and I use this as a sign when He wants to call my attention. I realized that in this special Year of Mercy, of course, He is all ears to help us… (More on this subject later on).

Saturday, May 14

I had been worried about what to do with the toxicity that surrounds me and its effect on all my organs. During my 8:30 AM Rosary, I was sent to review after I finished de Rosary, page 769. I did check on it and it was Daniel Chapter 3. The three friends of Daniel were in the middle of the fire and did not get burned. My Mother said, “It is the same for you. You will not be permanently touched by the fire of environmental toxicity! Just be calm and let your life become a light for others to see!!! The more you embrace this cross of pain due to toxicity that ruined your immune system and cause allergy to so many foods with severe pain in your knees, that much faster you will witness how He can protect you like in the case of Daniel’s friends WHO SHOWED TRUST IN GOD’S MERCY as they sang and worshiped God in the middle of the fire.”

What an amazing teaching from my Mom. Complete TRUST IN GOD’S MERCY is the key to receive it and enjoy His love IN ACTION for us…

Sunday, May 15 – Pentecost Feast

I remembered the gift of knowing the Holy Spirit since I was a small kid. My maternal grandma, my main caregiver and very young, early 40’s, she would speak often of the Holy Spirit. He was such a reality for me that for many years as a practitioner of anesthesiology, when I had a difficult spinal anesthetic to give, like for older patients who are difficult to bend at their waist and with much calcium in the bones of the  spine in my way to find the cerebrospinal fluid to deposit the local anesthetic, quietly I would pray to the Holy Ghost to guide the needle. And yes, I would always have no trouble…But it would be in another date in May when I would honor the Holy Spirit much more…(Read next story).

Thursday, May 19!!!!!!!

This is an amazing anniversary. 39 years earlier I had been baptized in the Holy Spirit in the Catholic Charismatic Movement. For us is a way of re-affirming our Baptism (age 4 months in my case) and Confirmation (age 4 years), but with this Baptism consisting of other members of the Church praying for us and calling the Holy Spirit… this re-affirmation of these Sacraments is done as ADULTS and new blessings pour over us.  

As you know because many times I have mentioned it in previous blogs, my email address and the name on top of this blog is MAGON 519. Magon has to do with my name but 519 is to honor and worship the Holy Spirit for this date in May 19 of my charismatic baptism; this was done to have Him always be in charge of my emails and these blogs, covering me from writing something against God’s will. It was precisely on this date that He came to give me ideas to approach the parents for the Baptism of the children mentioned above. He was celebrating our anniversary and did it in a formidable way!!!

Friday, May 20

From very early on this day I was asked to constantly thank God for everything but especially for my health issues expecting them to be solved, as Franciscan priest Solanus Casey (today in the process of canonization) used to say,  and whose body was found incorrupt and lies in a Franciscan convent in Detroit, MI. He wrote that thanking God for an important reason, it reaffirms that we trust in His mercy to solve the matter. Therefore, I should thank God and often for the finishing of the book and for a publisher!!! But there is something else I should mention and that is avoiding to give thanks trying to believe it will happen; it is NOT the way to do it. In the act of thanksgiving, one has to ask for the grace (if not present yet), to truly believe it will happen as a matter of fact and precisely because of His mercy. God will give this assurance because it has happened to me!

Monday, May 23

On this day I started ruminating on how our merciful God has shown us HOW TO BECOME SAINTS… It is the core of this message and for this reason, I will place it together with more information gathered in other days to make a BIG POINT at the end of the blog… A big point that contradicts what I hear in programs full of psychological do’s and don’ts, and which does not fit the theology that our Lord came to reveal to us, ties with the first statement of this paragraph, and that is, how our Lord had a plan to show us the WAY, the TRUTH and the LIFE… or His way of doing things to become saints. 

III. REASONS FOR THE URGENCY TO SEEK HOLINESS OF LIFE, AS A HEALING WITNESS TO THE DETERIORATION OF OUR SOCIETY

Here I will enumerate A FEW horrors that exist in our world and that most of us ignore after we hear of them. It is true that we cannot be every place preaching the Gospel but it is also true that we can become great disciples according to Jesus’ definition of discipleship, and in the process ask for His mercy to end these atrocities against Life and the Truth… Of course, there are hundreds of other ways how our world is losing its mind and destroying lives, physically and emotionally. These are only a few and some that we hardly hear about!

1. In a program from ABC news, anchor David Muir showed his visit to Mexico and found people with disabilities kept in CAGES…or tied up to chains.

2. While this is happening right now and not treatment is available for these disable human beings, a Rembrandt painting was auctioned and sold for one million dollars…

3. I am subscribed to a journal which deals with naturopathic medicine also called functional medicine, or that part of medicine that considers nutrition as a way to prevent diseases. In this April 2016 issue, they published an extraordinary article regarding the toxicity of fluoride!!! Here are a few lines from this long article. I am sharing this scientific knowledge for you to keep this mineral in mind for your own health.

Title: Prenatal Fluoride and Autism

Increasing evidence reveals that exposures to some widely used chemicals are implicated in the growing pandemic of developmental neurotoxicity. Fluoride is the most controversial of these chemicals, because it is the only one intentionally added to the drinking water of more than 200 million men, women, and children in the US.
Topical fluoride in toothpaste has been used since the 1950s to reduce tooth decay. A primary mechanism of fluoride’s ability to prevent dental caries is its strong antimicrobial effects. It is well established that fluoride can inhibit the growth of bacteria, says Robert Breaker, PhD, a National Academy of Sciences award-winning molecular biologist. He admits, however, "There has been little understanding of its precise effects on cells.”

Fluoridated Amniotic Fluid

Amniotic fluid is arguably our most precious bodily fluid. Early in the second trimester, a fetus begins swallowing amniotic fluid, which passes through its digestive system and kidneys, is excreted as urine, but then swallowed again – recycling the full volume of amniotic fluid every few hours. By the time the child is born, they will consume up to 15 ounces of amniotic fluid per day.

Gut Bacteria and Autism

Antimicrobials, including low dose antimicrobials in food and water supplies,  indiscriminately affect all members of the gut microbial ecosystem, especially decreasing the levels of beneficial bifidobacteria and increasing the levels of potentially harmful clostridia, as seen in the microbiota of autistic children.

In 1997, the Institute of Medicine (IOM) established 0.7 mg of fluoride per day as a tolerable upper intake level (UL) for infants 0 to 6 months old. Fetal blood levels of fluoride can vary widely, but they average about two thirds of maternal levels. Therefore, when a pregnant woman consumes 3 mg of fluoride, her fetus is exposed to the equivalent of consuming about 2 mg of fluoride – an amount nearly three times the tolerable upper intake level of a 6-month-old infant.

Lack of Fluoride-Pregnancy Research

"Overall, the available studies of fluoride effects on human development are few and have some significant shortcomings," concluded the National Research Council in 2006.

Pregnancy and Fluoride Do Not Mix

Fluoride’s role in the growing pandemic of developmental neurotoxicity requires urgent and thorough investigation. We cannot afford further delay, because it may turn out that, as with lead and alcohol, no amount of fluoride should be considered safe during pregnancy.

The good news is that on November 19, 2015, the US National Toxicology Program announced plans to conduct new laboratory studies to evaluate the effects of fluoridated water on "developmental neurobehavioral toxicity. The bad news is that this could take many years.” (End of quotes)

NOTICE how little we are doing to stop such neurotoxicity upon a baby who is not killed in the womb but that is not protected from years of suffering after birth!!! Have any doctor of yours know well the action of fluoride in the water upon our health? The sophistication of the I-phones impresses me daily… As you know, recently I bought one on sale ($100) and have not yet understood most of the things one can do with it. However, when it comes to our health, how much do we know in the handling of all possible disasters that are around and that try to give us cancer, heart attacks, and the like? Why is it that in this time of exuberant media communications, no one seems knowing much about this deadly mineral fluoride?

4. A few days back, since our local NBA team, Golden State Warriors continues to do so well, the pertinent local NBA representatives organized a showing of the two MVP trophies given to a Warrior’s player, this person being Stephen Curry who shoots 3 points from all distances… Huge amounts of people came to TOUCH THESE TROPHIES. A 12 year old boy told the ABC reoirter that he had called in sick so not to attend school and be able to come and BE WITH THE TROPHIES… Ouch!

5. $52,000 was collected from all over the world to buy more serpent venom antidote to save a dog which had been bitten in the process of protecting a child from a serpent.

6. A major controversy is going on as to why an almost extinct monkey was killed to protect the life of a 3 year old that was able to get into the animal cage area in the Cincinnati Zoo. Many have said that the animal should have being tranquilized instead, despite the video of the 10 minutes that the child was pushed around by this huge monkey, suffering from a concussion and a broken bone… The tranquilizer needs time to work and the child’s life would have been in danger, but fans of the monkey believe that we cannot kill a member of an almost extinct animal group!!!Since the child does not belong to an extinct human group, it seems obvious for many not to spare the life of the child as the first choice!

7. In this general area where I live and maybe some 20 miles away, there have been in this month of May, 26 shootings of cars that travel in the expressway that passes by this area!!! Also, the killing of people in universities and colleges around the country is now becoming a normal event.

8. The news is full of stories about the government ordering all schools to open the bathrooms to any transgender member… It is also happening in many other areas. I wonder how is it that no one is paying attention to the fact that many NON-TRANSGENDER men for example can simulate they are in order to enter women bathrooms and assault them! This is besides the fact that who is going to chaperone the entrance to every bathroom? We are acting like fools… and endangering the lives of many young lives.

9. On May 26, there were 4,000 migrants coming out of the Middle East in one day!!!

10. On May 31, the ABC program Nightline with David Muir reporting showed the CAPITAL OF HOMICIDES… The country’s name is El Salvador in Central America! (Notice the name of the country… It was named after Jesus, the Savior…). They reported that one human being is killed every hour! These are very well organized gangs which operate beyond El Salvador. Their motto is: “kill, rape, control…”

In this same country, Muir found 169 men jailed in only FOUR CELLS… Some were incarcerated waiting for a hearing on the following day but since it never happened and one year later, they are living as sardines in a can. Muir was able to talk to one of the gang leaders named “the nail” or “el clavo” in Spanish. He said that from jails, the leaders give orders to young people to kill. If they do not do it, shortly after they are killed for disobeying. The victims of these crimes have been found in common graves and their bodies are dismembered. Some young men and women escape this horror and pass through other countries to enter the U.S. Some are deported and they are killed for doing it after they get home

 11. Again regarding the NBA (National Basketball Association for those in far away countries that read this blog), on Saturday, May 28, the local team, the Warriors won their second game and Oklahoma Thunder and the Warriors became tied 3 to 3. They needed a seventh game to find out which western team will play the Cleveland team, champions of the eastern part of the U.S. The seventh game would be played here in Oakland and the prices to get in were the following: each seat would cost $960. However, each seat right in the floor at the level of the players would cost $29,600!!!! But of course, homeless people would be spending another night in the open without a roof or food… (By the way, the Warriors won it and will appear May 2 playing the Cleveland team for the championship). I imagine that the ticket prices will be much higher!!!

12. Man destroys tabernacle and desecrates Eucharist at Colombian chapel

These events took place a few years ago but I am sure that hardly any one of us even remembers or knows about this atrocity in a Catholic country…

1) Bogotá, Colombia, Aug 26, 2009.- Bishop Fabio Duque Jaramillo of Armenia, Colombia has condemned the recent act of profanation against the Eucharist which took place at the parish of Our Lady of the Assumption, saying, “When the rights of God are trampled with impunity, the rights of man are in danger.”

The desecration occurred when an unknown man entered the church, broke open the tabernacle, removed the Hosts and threw them to the ground. The bishop said in a statement after the sacrilegious act that, “this was not a robbery motivated by the economic value of the sacred vessels, as the assailant did not take any object of value of the parish.”

2) Armenia, Colombia, Jul 23, 2011  – Bishop Fabio Duque Jaramillo of Armenia, Colombia has denounced the actions of a man who destroyed the chapel at the San Marcelino Parish Center for Evangelization, stole several chalices, and trampled on consecrated hosts.

13. There is a horror going on in our U.S.A. political life and at times I wonder why is it happening? The candidates attack each other in the most non fraternal way, and the crowds seem to follow with the wrong reasons as to why they will vote for them. “Lord, have mercy on us all.”

I am sure that some of you never heard the details of some of these horrors and I am using them led by the Holy Spirit, in order for some of us to TURN AROUND and do all necessary to ask for God’s mercy for these incredible times. WE ARE SOO POWERFUL AND ABLE TO CHANGE EVERYTHING AROUND… The problem is that we do not believe in the power behind our lives: Jesus the Lord… O yea, we say that we do but act contrary to the statement. When we pray, we beg… for our will to be done. When we learn about the horrors going on in other parts of the world or even nearby with the killing of drivers in the expressway, we tend to complain and even talk about it but without any energy to use OUR POWER to bring God into these problems and thank Him AHEAD OF TIME for what He can do. Of course, our power relies much upon the embracing of our crosses, denial of our wills and following Jesus and doing what He did… He loved to the end. But how can we love? It is super simple: you ask His mercy to shine this grace upon your heart and it happens and you thank Him for doing so before it happens!

IV. THE PROS AND CONS ON HOW TO BECOME HOLY

This is the section that will be the most difficult for sharing the subject of TRYING to become a saint for the good of others!!!

All that we need to do is TO OPEN OUR EYES AND NOT BE CONFUSED. Here are several points that I want to bring about and that I learned via television and Internet.

1. I keep hearing how a great number of good Catholics plan the evangelization of our human race. In general, they state that we have to become disciples and that we need great leaders to teach it. Yet, a leader has to become a disciple but first he/she needs to be evangelized… So, they start by training leaders to do so via parish missions that reinforce the need to pray, read the Bible and preach the Word of God to others as a form of service. They also are encouraged to participate in feeding those who need assistance and raising resources to do so. It sounds very good but is lacking something and I will discuss it later.

2. Other groups speak of the psychology behind our becoming great leaders or spouses or parents, etc. They give great insights of how to understand the other and how to examine ourselves and our needs and so on and so forth.

3. Some will speak of our need to find our particular graces, of using them and this process will lead us to be holy. This is true; even our Holy Father is calling us to make memory of our blessings; however, how do we find our particular graces?

I have a total different view of the road to holiness based on Our Lady’s teaching. Some will say that she did not speak much while on earth… Yet, they fail TO SEE that she spoke volumes with her actions. These actions are the ones that I need to emulate and of course, as guided and empowered by the Holy Spirit just as she was, I will thank God for the job He will do in my life…

On May 23 and while praying the Rosary at 8:30 AM, I understood many things with the Bible’s depiction of Our Lady’s life from the Annunciation to her ending years living under the roof of the apostle John. It happens to be the Gospel for May 31! This is what she did:

1. She is 15 years old, a teenager, when an Angel appears and announces that she would be the mother of the Messiah to come by the action of the Holy Spirit. Her reaction is multiple.

1) She wonders ONCE as to how it could happen since she did not know a man (perhaps thinking of her engagement to Joseph)

2) She says yes to the proposition!

3) THIS “YES” MAKES HER merciful and runs in haste to visit AND HELP her cousin Elizabeth who is 6 months pregnant in her old age.

4) THIS YES MAKES HER an evangelizer as she takes her Son in her womb to Elizabeth and with Him, she also gives her cousin the arrival of the Holy Spirit to her soul and to the 6 month fetus, John who dances for joy for his Pentecost in the womb.

5) THIS YES MAKES HER embrace any upcoming possible suffering when the family and friends and Joseph find out that she is pregnant out of wedlock.

6) THIS YES MAKES HER a servant to her neighbor by helping her cousin in her old age.

7) THIS YES MAKER HER a great prayerful woman in front of her cousin as she recites the Magnificat, a summary of who she is for God and what God has done for her.

8) THIS YES MAKES HER the best servant for the Lord by collaborating with Him and bringing to the world the Savior and King to save us.

9) THIS YES MAKES HER a true warrior and co-worker with her Son and becomes a great mediator between God and the human race.

10) THIS YES MAKES HER bypass all psychological facets like thoughts, fears, worries, anxieties, need to be in charge of her own life and therefore,  experiencing total denial of self with total obedience to the Holy Trinity. In one word, she became the best lover after God Himself, of the human race.

11) THIS YES MAKES HER the perfect wife and mother, who kept saying “yes” to God’s will as her Son grew up to die on a Cross.

12) THIS YES MAKES HER the most holy example we have after her Son, full of grace and dedicated to save her children on earth, as her Son indicated from the Cross. She never finished this job because to the present time, she collaborates with all of us to bring us the answer to become holy without dos and don’ts… We simply have to say “yes” to the will of God, pray much asking for God’s mercy to keep our lives spiritually clean with many graces and embracing suffering as her Son did, to become co-partners to save many souls.

As for all of us and following her example, we do not have to find our particular blessings and use them… No… If we say yes to God’s will day and night, and this is her example, our obedience WILL PROVIDE when and how we learn about our graces and in what matter we have to use them, all through the power of the Holy Spirit. Of course, we should be aware and conscious about unique blessings we are ready to receive as children of our God and desire them. Yet, He has ways to let us know which they are and how/when to use them if we simply keep faithful to His will. This rather easy way of living (easy because the graces that God gives us are sufficient for making things easy) will bring us help when sin is calling us to do what it is not His will. Remember, I AM NOT A THEOLOGIAN but IT HAS HAPPENED IN MY LIFE…

I heard in television a beautiful priest (beautiful because of his humility) mention in his homily how afraid we all are of the homeless… Yes, I experienced it when in Toledo, Ohio, I became for two years the taxicab driver for a homeless man, Mike, 50 + years old. I have written about this man several times in these blogs but need to share how God can change us 100% towards any animosity or fear for the homeless. In 2005, I noticed that none of the daily Mass goers in my parish Christ the King would talk to Mike. By now, I had been blessed with the grace to love them enough to serve them and protect them. Remember that in this period I was doing the will of God against my will and had no job and no permission to sell my home… Simply said, the will of God for me was to wait and let Him guide me.

Very holy parishioners of our daily Mass group would give me money to give to him for Christmas but not one would get close to him and give the money directly to him. Also, every month, Mike and I had to pick up his check received because of disabilities and severe diabetes and ahead of his social security age. This would be in a post office between my home and the parish. Then, we would have to go further west to the only Kroger supermarket that would cash the check. Finally, we would have to cross Toledo from west to east to get him to a very cheap motel ($10 per night) for him to have some roof for a few days.

A few days later, I would find him back at my parish entering the church when they opened at 6:30 AM, sometimes trembling with coldness… I would then give him a few dollars and take him to Macdonald’s because other fast food restaurants would not allow him inside. After two years and with my home in the market, I asked the Lord to take him if at all possible ( weeks earlier Mike had accepted to go to confession with my pastor), since he would miss me too much, and yes, on April 14 of 2008, 4 months before I came to California, he was found dead in the cheap motel. So, I could not feed him 3 meals, but at least, he would have breakfast during the working days of the week.

But here in California, wherever and whenever I find a poor person sitting by the street and obviously homeless, I give them as much money as I can afford. Normally it is $20. Many years ago, it bothered me that this money could be used for drugs or alcohol. However, the Lord said that HE WAS PRESENT IN EVERY IMAGE OF Himself EVEN IF THEY WERE HOMELESS…!!! I then realized that my love for the person and to God in that person would provide graces for them not to use the money for the wrong reasons. If it did not happen, it was not part of my plan… It was up to God. This grace of loving the poor has been given to me. I am sure that even in such things, my yes to God’s will, as poor as it is at times, fortifies my soul and I was able to LOVE without much difficulty.

V. CLOSING WORDS

We cannot EXPECT TO CHANGE THIS “MESS” of calamities and destruction of life in the entire world SIMPLY BECAUSE THIS MESS STARTS WITH US!!! We, Christian and Catholics, are disciples of Jesus Christ, His followers, and with Him, through Him and in Him, we can bring a new Pentecost to every heart on this earth, from Isis to the Benedictine monks in all convents in the world and to all contemplative nun Orders.

The Catholic Church received a special visitation by the Holy Spirit in 1967 and we had many getting to know the Holy Spirit and becoming baptized in the Charismatic Movement. However, without any emphasis in the Eucharist Presence and Our Mother in heaven, both of which were not worshiped (The Eucharistic Presence) and venerated (Our Lady), the so called Charismatic communities disappeared. We missed a chance to bring peace and love to the world via the Reign of God through the power of the Holy Ghost, the love of the Father and the Son, and that is a new Pentecost!… I remember that we called it a Pentecost, but it was half way true. The Spirit showed up but our embrace of the Holy Trinity was partial and the evil’s enemy, our Lady, was ignored.

It is after1967 when God sent us a lady by the name of Mother Mary Angelica Rizzo who established a network of communication and we became One Body through technology. I wonder what would have happened without the obedience and sanctity of this woman from Ohio, U. S. A. Notice that God chose this country. How many of us have thanked our God for choosing an American in the middle of so much technology mostly based in the U.S. as well?

With EWTN, our Lord had given us Americans a leading role in bringing a new Pentecost and the establishment of the New Evangelization, plus He sent us several Popes who were made for each era and two of them already declared Saints!!! The times for just thinking about theology and teaching it through the Bible and the many Encyclicals and books our Church possesses were presented via EWTN and are partially fulfilled. At the very same time, much psychology appeared in many Catholic meetings and retreats besides forms of prayer, like “Centering Prayer” and its association to Asian religions. Everywhere I found enormous amounts of lies and pagan rituals within these groups, including in some convents, especially nuns. I lived it in Cleveland in the 1990’s.

Through these turbulent years post Vatican II, I remember how much we were sent to take over our spiritual lives and pursuit happiness but sanctity was not clearly sought for. Some of us survived these years and also, these years were the ones when I suffered severe persecution in my professional life, giving me time to do much reading, like the life of my beloved St. Teresa of Avila and St. John of the Cross. Sister Faustina, now a saint and her diary came to me in 1985. That particular Diary became pieces for using it so much and eventually, I bought a second one! Since 1946, I already had learned the chaplet of Mercy in Spanish, although I could not make as yet too much sense of the mercy of God in itself. I visited in private audience with now St. John Paul II on May 9th… 2002… A book on mercy was in the works since I was asked to do it at the end of the 1990’s and again, after another persecution. Suffering was apparently the source of many graces for me to survive these difficult years in the Church after Vatican II.

I entered California in July 2008, and 3 months later I had a site put together by my database computer engineer son with whom I live. It was to be to post blogs on the Mercy of God… However, I did not know what the word blog meant… My memory was leaving me for at least the last 10 years (dementia)  but in 2009 I received the answer and detoxified myself with natural products and recovered my mother language, Spanish, almost 90%. The English side also was recovered… Now, I am losing the memory in English because I became allergic to all detoxifying natural products and I still live in the midst of much environmental toxicity, a nearby huge expressway and the Tesoro Petroleum Refinery. And of course, the cross continues with severe pain in my knees due to allergies to everything… Do I have a way out of it? O yea, I have one but need lots of money for injections of the natural detoxifier that our livers produce. I also would consider an ADULT stem cell transplant. But the greatest way out of it is God Himself. He can do all things in my body and mind to overcome so much suffering.

It is this moment in my life, much of which you know very well, has led me to try to live the “yes” of my Mother Mary with great desire, and it is working… big time.

On May 30, I received a reading in the Bible hinting to me as to how to aspire to live my life through the mercy of God and go and work for the Kingdom in many other ways. As you know, death for me is gain as St. Paul said… Yet, I doubt that my Lord is ready to dispatch me. So, I have to continue writing and sharing with words and possibly personally in order to insist that we have to change the mess we are living because WE CAN DO ALL THINGS… THROUGH HIM WHO LOVES ALL OF US SO MUCH. Here is the teaching:

In Ephesians 2, St. Paul calls for unity of the Church as Christ’s Body. In chapter 3, he speaks of he and us being commissioned to preach God’s plan. In chapter 4, he talks about the diversity of gifts given to us in Jesus Christ; in verses 23-24, he wrote, “Be renewed in the spirit of your minds, and put on the new self, created in God’s way in righteousness and holiness of truth.”  In verses 25-32 he enumerates the rules of the new life.

In Ephesians 5, St Paul reminds husbands and wives how to live this way. In Chapter 6, how this new life is lived by children and parents, slaves and masters, and reminds them how to battle against Evil. In verses 10-18, he writes, “Finally draw your strength from the Lord and from His mighty power. Put on the armor of God so that you may be able to stand firm against the tactics of the devil. For our struggle is not with flesh and blood but with the principalities, with the powers, with the world rulers of this present darkness, with the evil spirits in the heavens. Therefore, put on the armor of God that you may be able to resist on the evil day, having done everything, to hold your ground. So, stand fast with your loins girded in truth, clothed with righteousness as a breastplate, and your feet shod in readiness for the gospel of peace. In all circumstances, hold faith as a shield, to quench all the flaming arrows of the evil one.  And take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Holy Spirit, which is the word of God. With all prayer and supplication, pray at every opportunity in the Spirit…”

This excellent plan appears in every Bible and we should at least pray for ourselves to follow it. God does the rest. But again, we cannot continue passing judgment on what is going on and actually growing in resentment against our brothers and sisters. That is an infantile behavior. We can know all the theology of the world and not know Jesus personally… We can understand the psychology of our present times, or how to deal with all our problems to grow in holiness, and yet, not know Him on a personal basis. In fact, we can easily think that we have a personal relationship and not have it at all, the moment we worry about the present times. Our only worry should be about our lack of faith, hope and love. Talking about it will never solve anything. Yes, we may lack substantial catechesis but not realize it.

There is a fast way to change our spiritual life and that is to say yes to God’s will. It means to give this first step that consists in obeying His teaching as best as we can plus opening our arms to embrace what is difficult in this present moment while keeping a decent prayer life at all cost, not begging Him for His love (He already loves us to pieces), but begging Him to do whatever He wants in us because we are ready to obey Him; this will open the river of His mercy and we will SEE and BE spiritually HEALED, plus with our Mother at our side, Mr. Satan will not have much success if any. He will try but every time the power of the Spirit within will deal him a major blow.

Many years ago I needed all kinds of retreats and talks to keep fresh my duties in my relationship with Him. Now, I have tried very hard to totally give myself to Him as my Mother did, while praying at least 3 Rosaries a day to get me to change my habits of bystander or of being “balconeando” as our Pope says.  In other words, I cannot place myself in a balcony to see down in the streets what is going wrong but not getting involved in giving my life for others and start by obeying His will for me while carrying my mini cross and as He did for us (mini cross because I am not actually being crucified as He was). My resolute constant “yes” will give me the power to work for the Kingdom; it will reveal my blessings and graces and how to use them for the good of the Body of Christ. Of course, we have to know what those gifts could be and remind ourselves of their efficacy for our interior life…

My plan then consists of only one thing: to submit to Divine Providence agreeing with whatever God wants of me, and my faith will grow with my hope and love and I will truly be participating in bringing others home. Evangelization would become a reality in my life. I say it not because I am there; I say it because I have seen ongoing changes in my spiritual life that leads me to believe that the “yes” to the Father’s will is the key to become an evangelist, but one that moves others to act right away and not keep “balconeando.” Who does the change? The Holy Spirit in others will hear the call with my “yes” and will move them to change. Of course, it is up to each one of us to want to change, but He does the work once we do… That is the most important theological fact that I should know and that this yes shows Him my love and will lead me to bring others home. Why do I say yes? Am I insecure? No, and on the contrary, I am sure because my Lord Jesus and His mother did it as well.

I hurt when I think that we have so much power as a HUGE Church founded by God Himself and that our yes is also full of power, and yet, Satan is doing so much damage. Worse… Jesus described these times prior to the end and we are not hurrying up and wanting to do His will 24/7.  The Internet, television and radio manage our lives. Distraction and therefore lack of attention to what is essential in our spiritual life are the products of so much information. Our brains are totally trained to hear and hear as we sit in front of a TV set, or hear the radio while we drive, or sit and enter the world wide huge place of the Internet. Prayer time is in general small because we are addicted to our “intelligent” phones… Actually, in spiritual terms we are becoming stupid if we follow that trend.

As in the times of Ezekiel chapters 40-44, it is time for us to rebuild our inner temples, our family temples and the Temple of our Church. We do not need new rules unless the Spirit of God deems it necessary. What we need is to obey the rules we have, period! We have to do God’s will 24/7. This includes the other Commandments… since by doing God’s will we are loving Him with all our heart and mind and soul. This will convert us and make us lovers of our neighbor, faithful seekers of the Sacraments and prayer warriors as well… In the United States we are very close to get a new President and it is up to us to have God choose whom He wants… even someone not named as yet… This entire program will lead us to become saints. Yet, our sanctity should be sought just to please God and to be an example to our neighbor, and never to feel super holy for the tasting of it. If we have to take a 360 degree turn in our lives because God so wants it, the Holy Spirit reigning within us will help us make the decision. The best and purest holier discernment comes from our constant yes to our God’s will for each one of us. And such yes entitles a big yes to ALL SUFFERING… Whatever makes us suffer, that we accept… Prayer should be an important action in our lives and no matter what. And the rest is history…

ONCE MORE: I am not a theologian… Therefore, I am only sharing my experience of keeping and bettering my personal relationship with Jesus, my Lord. Through many years I found out that the more I accept His will for me and better under extreme suffering, that much more I do not feel lonely ever… I forgive others much easier. I have more patience with my neighbor and I end up loving those whose behavior leaves much to desire. Therefore, I am not asking you to follow me… I am asking you to follow Him with the conditions He gave us and seek the help of our Mother for this journey of discovery of our power to change the entire world…

May the Sacred Hearts of Jesus and Mary bless you abundantly.  On June 8th I will be celebrating the anniversary of my First Holy Communion done on a Friday, feast of the Sacred Heart!!! Remember that I was attending St. Margaret Mary Alacoque grade school! Thank you for all your prayers. As you can see, I am delayed in posting this blog because the topic was not easy to put together and because I asked the Holy Spirit to edit it over and over in order not to confuse anybody… Thank you again for your assistance with your prayer. Without it, I could not do it. I INVITE YOU TO RESTORE YOUR TEMPLES AND THAT OF OUR BELOVED CATHOLIC CHURCH.          The Holy Spirit will do it if just obey God’s desires for us.

P. S. – I HAD PROMISED to write about heart attacks and how to clean the arteries from plaque. I have looked for a document that I wrote for friends some 10 years ago and I am sure that I placed it in one of my many flash drives. However, probably my Lord did not want it in this blog. I hopefully find it for next month and if not, I will have to write it all over but perhaps the next topic will be easier to put together.

 

All about the Superb Gift of Suffering!

May 3, 2016

INTRODUCTION

It is Friday, April 29 and I am just starting to write the present blog.  It has been a huge struggle between my health and the immensity of teaching that I have received this month. For about 6 months, I have been suffering from intense pain at the bottom of my left foot that I thought was a simple callus that had formed. However, it has remained there with intense discomfort similar to a knife being inserted. I have only one pair of shoes (of the several I have) that allows me to walk and survive. This callus has given me suffering that at times I feel I cannot take it anymore. It always comes to mind the pain that our Jesus suffered during His Passion and how important it is for me to understand why He did it! YET, my God in His extraordinary love for me, this month gave me a huge formation on the importance of suffering!

Of course, 1) my Lord had ready the topic of this blog because on April 3, being the first Sunday of the month, Franciscan University of Steubenville presented their monthly program. This time the topic was SUFFERING!!! And it was fantastic. If you have not ever watched these presentations, they are aired at 10 PM EST all first Sunday’s of the year. Because of the death of Mother Angelica, around this time I had watched many programs related to her passing and funeral and I was tired. It was by pure chance that I turned on EWTN at 7 PM (PT). Usually at this time I am finishing my duties in the kitchen … They have three people from the university: Mr. Hern, the host who is Vice-President of Advancement plus Dr. Regis Martin and Dr. Scott Hahn, both professors in the 1990’s of my third son, my theologian boy. I met Dr. Martin once because we had an extra car in those days and Omar learned that he needed an extra car for his family and we gave it to him. THE PROGRAM WAS THE BEST I EVER HEARD ON SUFFERING. Jeff Cavins whom I also know for many years (not personally), wrote a book on this subject and the Biblical reason for embracing suffering as a true gift!!!

To add more reasons to dedicate this blog to the topic of suffering, when I watched it the first time, I remembered that it would repeat some time at 2 AM whether Thursday or Friday of the same week in order to take notes and perhaps make a DVD.  My pain and troubles made me forget it and one early morning, I suddenly woke up at 1:50 AM, and EWTN was running. I had fallen asleep! I checked what was coming in the next hour and it was precisely this Franciscan University program… So, I had enough time to set up the DVD and taped it!!! Let me tell you, this is how God reveals His mercy to me… Amazing grace! How sweet the sound! I will try to summarize this teaching as best as I can and it will be a little difficult because it was profound in theology and Bible content. Yet, the Holy Spirit will be with me since I was able to tape it! It can be bought from them and at the end of the summary I will give you the Internet address in case you want to do so.

2) About 3 days later, among all the programs that they aired of Mother Angelica after her death, there was one on “suffering.” The same program appeared that same evening and both times I simply was listening by pure chance.  It was then that I knew that suffering was the topic for this blog.

3) After I wrote the previous lines and on May 2, suddenly, my Mother took me to a page in the Bible and the story of Job… Well, this Lectio Divina was a HUGE MIRACLE FOR ME… I will add this last story to the content of the book from Mr. Cavins just to put these two suffering topics in context and admire its great blessing.

Stories according to the calendar sequence

Friday, April 1

Funeral Mass for Mother Mary Angelica by Archbishop Chapuit.

It was a gorgeous ceremony in Hanceville. I have thanked my Father for one of their priests who organized it all, Fr. Joseph.

Saturday, April 2

I watched LIVE from Rome the Vespers for Divine Mercy Sunday. Pope Francis said, “We have to stare with others at the Mercy of God in our entire life! And we must be merciful as our Father in Heaven is!”

Sunday, April 3 – FEAST OF DIVINE MERCY

It was a huge day for me in spiritual terms… HUGE!!!

1. We attended the 8 AM Mass in my parish. When we came back, I was able to be present LIVE for the Mass for this Feast of Divine Mercy at the Divine Mercy Center in Stockbridge, Mass, with the local Bishop as celebrant. As always, the crowd was huge and the rain was present as well…!!! For me this day was extraordinary since we are celebrating as well the Extraordinary Year of Mercy. My Lord had already told me that anytime we ask for God’s mercy during this year, the chances of seeing a formidable RAIN OF MERCY on us should be expected…Of course, we Catholics know that mercy is one of the most extraordinary gifts from God.

2. The prior day, my Mother had suggested checking a page in the Bible (777) and I forgot to do it. So, on this day, I did and it was Sirach 51.

I checked it in the Bible in my room and I found that I had been sent to read it on two other occasions: on May 13, 1994 and on April 29, 2008. (This is my oldest Bible and full of little messages). On this last date of 2008, my home in Toledo was in the market since January, after the 5 years that I spent doing nothing but waiting for God to tell me when to do it! I wrote in the Bible that it was St. Catherine of Siena’s feast day, one of my favorite saints and also Doctor of the Church! In the 1980’s I had already read her book titled, “The Dialogue,” as she wrote her conversations with God the Father. In this Chapter of Sirach 51, I had underlined several paragraphs from the 30 verses as follows:

“(Verse 1) I give You thanks, O God of my father; I praise You, O God my savior! I will make known Your Name; refuge of my life… (3)You have delivered me, in your great mercy, from the scourge of a slanderous tongue, and from the lips that went over to falsehood; from the snare of those who watched for my downfall;… (4) From many a danger You have saved me, from flames that hemmed me in on every side; …(7) I turned every way, but there was no one to help me, I looked for one to sustain me, but could find no one to help me… (8) But then I remembered THE MERCIES OF THE LORD, His kindness through ages past; for He saves those who take refuge in Him, and rescues them from every evil… (10) I called out: O Lord, You are my Father; You are my champion and my savior; do not abandon me in time of trouble, in the midst of storms and dangers. (11) I will ever praise Your Name and be constant in my prayers to You. There upon the Lord heard my voice, He listened to my appeal; (12) He saved me from evil of every kind and preserved me in time of trouble. (In the next verses the writer speaks about how he sought WISDOM and describes how God’s wisdom came to flourish in his life!!! Wisdom gave him great instruction, understanding…) (24) How long will you be deprived of wisdom’s food, how long will you endure such bitter thirst? I open my mouth and speak of her: gain, at no cost, wisdom for yourselves… (29) Let your spirits rejoice in the mercy of God.”

I imagine that this chapter was very consoling to me when it was sent on April 29, 2008, just days before an offer was made for the house!!! At this time in 2016, near the feast of St Catherine of Siena, it was super consoling to me as well, since I think it was last month when the Lord asked me  to pray for wisdom every early morning!!! How wonderful is to have the Bible as a source of wisdom for us! What a gift! It was also beautiful that I read it on this Divine Mercy Sunday… PLUS, it was this day when I heard the program on suffering from Steubenville University faculty and guest. God truly celebrated with me His Mercy and suffering had now become for sure a source of happiness… Wow!

3. But He was not done… On this day and late in the evening, my son returned to me an article on fluoride that I had received from a very good Journal of Naturopathic Medicine, and he was able to transform it into an Internet document especially since it is difficult to make copies in commercial places like Kinkos. They do not allow it…I wanted to share it with some family and friends because it clearly explains how fluoride can be the source of autism and why. The patho-physiology produced by fluoride for connecting the different neurons in our brains is extraordinary… It explains clearly of how and why it can give dementia as well… It was a huge gift for me… Even the amniotic fluid in the pregnant patient can be full of fluoride with the baby drinking it over and over!!! Of course, this in a mother that drinks tap water, fact that is possible in most cities of the U.S. and also using fluorinated tooth paste!

4. On this day is when I watched the program on suffering from Steubenville. Here is the summary of what I learned about suffering with the group from Franciscan University of Steubenville. I truly wanted to place it as a “page” on the right side of this site, in case you wanted to read it later or not at all. Then I thought of placing it at the very end of this blog. Well, my Lord said no to both proposals. He wanted it exactly on the day that it was received… since the title of the blog is on suffering and I am sorry if you know all about it and do not want to read it. Try to move to the next date, April 13. I also want to clarify that I have no permission from Steubenville to share this information. At the end of the article I will place the information of how to buy it from Franciscan University.

I love this university very much and my third son went there because the Lord moved us from South Bend, Indiana to Cleveland, Ohio for the second time. My son was given admission to St. Ignatius High School where his two older brothers had attended even that there was no space left this late May. There, he heard of Steubenville (also in Ohio) much easier than had we being in Indiana. And it was at St. Ignatius that he went abroad with the yearly senior trip somewhere, and this time was to the Dominican Republic (his father’s country) and there he felt called to study theology! By the way, his older two brothers had gone much farther away. The oldest went to China. The second son with whom I live, went to Russia!!!  

The entire event on this Mercy Sunday also reminded me of the reason for this move because on Ascension Thursday of May 4, 1989, (27 years ago), the Lord had told me in Houston, TX that my husband and I would have offers for new jobs and to take them. He said, as I was reading the Bible in a hotel in this city where I was attending a medical meeting, that just like Joshua in chapter 4, had crossed the Jordan River with all the Israelites without getting wet, so we would move without any problems, being this rather late to find schools for all the four boys. And sure enough, I returned to Indiana on Sunday May 7th when the call came from Cleveland offering us jobs at Kaiser Permanent! So, my theologian son was destined to attend this university, the son that should have died at birth secondary to a medical error, or grow up with retardation!!! 

From the Book “When You Suffer: Biblical Keys for Hope and Understanding” by Jeff Cavins – (I am transcribing most of what was said by each member of the panel, but not identifying what person said what! I tried to write as close as what was said. In some places, it may not be word by word. Any writing in parenthesis is from me)

Talk: “The core of this information is based on the call to suffer and live with great joy, with great happiness. Even the great philosophers of the pre Christian era said that the source of happiness is based on a life of goodness and not of pleasure. In order to be fully alive, suffering should be included. In other words, we should make provision for pain.

In the Christian life, Christ comes to redeem our suffering and not to eliminate it. He fills it with His presence. However, the whole world tries to flee from suffering. We should look for the meaning of suffering; otherwise we despair. If we attach meaning to suffering, then we can deal with it. Hebrews 5:8 says– “Son though He was, He learned obedience from what He suffered.”

 “There are two kinds or general meanings for suffering: the physical suffering and the moral suffering or the suffering of the heart like betrayal or loss of life of a dear one. C. S. Lewis wrote that God takes us so seriously because He loves us so much, that He becomes our last bridge. Mortal sin robs us of eternal life but Divine Mercy comes to our help. We, therefore, should detest sin.

“There is a connection between moral and physical pain. The author had a severe neck pain (physical pain) and after nine months of offering it up, it became also a moral pain when he started to think for how long it would last? He asked himself, “What will happen when I am in my 40’s, 50’s, and 60’s?”

“Biblically, suffering has a connection with Adam and Eve. God asked Adam to take care of the garden and never to eat of the fruit of the forbidden tree of knowledge; otherwise he would die. Out of his work in the garden, Adam obtained bread to subsist but when he disobeyed God, he did not die. Yet, Eve had children with suffering. Now we have a second Adam in the Garden, Jesus!  St. John Paul II said that we can only understand suffering if we understand the suffering of Christ. He is the only way.

“Our Lady was another model from the Bible regarding suffering. She was told she would suffer and to be opened to it. She was. (Luke 2: 35 – a sword would pierce her heart – told by Simeon when Baby Jesus was presented at the Temple). St. Paul suffered of a thorn in his side. God told him, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” It is in the midst of weakness that springs of divine power gush forward. We accomplish more in weakness than in success. If we cling to Jesus, we are able to let Him enter us into suffering and together we sanctify suffering. Suffering becomes a source of grace. It opens our heart to God. (I SHOULD NEVER FORGET IT, EVER!)  We should not drop out of the school of suffering. It is in suffering and weakness that we can accomplish much.

“Some of us cannot graduate from the school of suffering but it draws us closer to Jesus Christ as in Colossians 1:24  that says, “Now I rejoice in my sufferings for your sake, and in my flesh I am filling up what is lacking in the afflictions of Christ on behalf of His body, which is the Church.” In this verse, Jesus suffered much but did not lack anything. However, lacking refers to our lack of embrace of suffering like Jesus did. How to live out the filling up? There is meaning in our suffering because Jesus brought meaning to it by inviting us to participate in His mission. It is not just acknowledging suffering but He shares with all of us His intercessory role. He opens the door to the Father by giving us a father role in our Priests. It is not a substitutionary but participatory role in His work and mission.

“But if He already died for me, why do I have to pick up the cross? Romano Guardini wrote that in the experience of a great love, everything that happens is related to that great love. What then is greater than the love of Christ? It is the Cross. He creates the space but we have to put on Christ, His love, and become an extension of His. Now our suffering becomes redemptive; it has a new meaning.

“We have to go to the entire world to preach the Gospel… But is it just that, preaching? No, it is more than that. It is a covenant, a sacred family bond. Love transforms pain into passion. And so, before He died, He left us the Eucharist. He gives us His life before He loses it.

“The author of this book went to pray quietly near his sleeping daughter and offered up for her the pain of his neck. Immediately he felt a profound joy never experienced before. (Why?) Because he loved his child like Jesus. Now it becomes a vocation and he was able to offer up his pain without any complain!

“The cross is a mystery to all. It is foolishness. The Son of God was beaten, spat upon, semi-naked and nailed to a cross publicly. We call it the Triumph of the Cross because sacrificial love is salvific. At each Mass we repeat this ultimate sacrifice and we are invited to join in. It is the great exchange…!!! It is possible to draw grace and strength from suffering if I look back to this redemptive figure, Jesus the Christ.

“In the case of the Saints, they had trust-knowledge, not book-knowledge. If you suffer, do it and offer it up because God has redeemed your suffering. (Therefore) Do not waste your suffering. Bishop Fulton Sheen said “that the hospitals are full of wasted suffering. We all are afraid of death because we have not practiced it before. Therefore, mortify your flesh, die to yourself daily, pick up the cross and at your final hour, you find yourself saying, ‘Have been there and done that!’ “. Then there will be no fear!”

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On Monday, May 2…. I received another story of suffering and it is placed here much ahead of its true date so that it can be related to the talk..

At 12:30 PM during the Rosary at EWTN/espanol I received from the Holy Spirit a page in the Bible to be checked. It was all about Job, one of the most extraordinary stories about SUFFERING and one that we know very well but I will repeat some of the story in order to interpret it as God led me to!

Job was a very pious good man. God sought Satan and asked him about Job, what he thought about His friend. After conversing, God gave permission to Satan to test the love of Job for Him but respecting his life. Thereafter, Job lost his possessions, family and ended up covered with boils, therefore, losing also his health. Job ACCEPTED THIS TRIAL saying in Job 1, 21-22 – “‘Naked I came forth from my Mother’s womb, and naked shall I go back again. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.’ In all of this Job did not sin, nor did he say anything disrespectful of God.”Three of his friends came from different cities to console Job. Satan tempted them to say to Job that the reason he had lost all these things was because he had sinned against God and needed to repent. Job had 9 conversations with his friends trying to prove that he had not sinned.  The friends actually thought that they were helping Job to do the right thing in order to stop the suffering!!!

Notice how 1) Satan used his friends to create much isolation and produce RESENTMENT in Job… 2) His friends became blind to the truth and in fact were confused! Worse, they thought they were helping Job! – NOTICE HOW SATAN always WORKS: he confused Job’s  friends and they under the auspices of friendship accused Job of something he had not done … The evil one divided (separated) Job from his friends. His friends actually also could have frightened Job or given him fear but it did not happen… What the friends did represents how Lucifer works in our souls: he accuses, divides, lies, confuses and attempts to give fear. It is also worthy of mentioning that Job never reacted to Satan’s attacks because he loved God so much that he was willing to accept His holy will as he lost everything (Job 1:21-22).

Verse 3) In due time, the Lord came to answer Job since the latter had asked Him for help. God showed Job that He had created everything and every creature and had a plan for all, and Job realized that by complaining he had sinned against God and repented…4) God restored Job’s fortune and gave him another family. 5) God then reprimanded his friends and was ready to chastise them but Job came to intercede for his friends and God pardoned them…

LOOK NOW AT THE GIFTS coming FROM SO MUCH SUFFERING: Job was able to gain back all material possessions including a new family and ABOVE ALL, Job who loved God very much, also complied with the second most important Commandment… He interceded for his friends showing how he loved them. So, Job ended up richer in material possessions and in spiritual blessings… SUFFERING had been a real gift for Job… And all of this much before the coming of the Messiah King!!! Job gives us another Biblical explanation for the GIFT OF SUFFERING.

April 13, 2016

Our world is coming apart and some of us should be running to become transformed from our iniquities to live a life of total hope and trust in God’s mercy and act as such, in order to have our God’s mercy change some of these scenarios to SAVE MANY, MANY SOULS.

If you are an American and even if you do not watch basketball, you know who the player Kobe Bryant is… For many years he has played for the team called Los Angeles Lakers. The man has been spectacular with many skills for this sport. Well, on this day he would retire with the last game in L.A. The average ticket cost $1,450… Yet, if you wanted to sit close to the court, you had to pay $55,000.00 per ticket… This is a great description of one of the “gods” that is worshipped by many… Of course, American football is even more prone to have many more adorers… God, have mercy in all of us! If you are not an American and do not do the same with other sport, please pray for us.

Friday, April 15

If I am correct with the date, one of the most admired Priests from EWTN had a heart attack and had a stent inserted in one of his coronaries. Unfortunately, about 26% of the stents end up failing and closing in the following 6 months. Well, this is a scientific fact published some years ago. It may have changed!

Now, what truly kills me is thinking of this horror happening in allopathic medicine (MD’s). It is soooo simple to prevent the formation of plaque in the arteries… anywhere in the body. For many years I have studied this subject matter and have proof of what I say. I even dissolved some stones I had in my biliary vesicle. Stones need calcium to become stones and the dissolution of plaque has to do with Calcium and I have all written in a paper I put together for friends back in 2004. As a matter of fact, there are a few well recognized doctors (MD’s) who have written books on the subject matter. One is Dr. Julian Whitaker who wrote the 2002 book titled, “REVERSING HEART DISEASE, a vital new program to help prevent, treat and eliminate cardiac problems without surgery.”

Another MD, a surgeon at the Cleveland Clinic wrote a similar book. The question is why many simply do not pay attention to these books? But I promise to give you an account of this matter in my next blog since this one is way too long… What you do with the information is up to you. But remember, it is pure science!!!!! And yes, I dissolved my own biliary stones and in the same way, you can dissolve with NUTRITION any plaque in your arteries. The story starts with 7 areas of the world where no one has heart attacks…!!! The reason is calcium… More coming next month.

Tuesday, April 19

The homily at the daily Mass in EWTN was given by Fr. Leo Patalinghog. The Gospel was from John 10: 22-30. Fr. Leo spoke about the fact that we have to encourage each other. Literally the word means that if I encourage someone, I am replacing their hearts in. If we discourage, we are taking their hearts out and often we can do that. Furthermore, every Mass is a heart transplant. Jesus places His Heart into ours. In fact, we announce it at each Mass. The priest says: “The Lord be with you.” We answer, “And with your spirit.” The priest says, “Lift up your hearts.” We respond, “We lift them up to the Lord.”  Clearly we are announcing an exchange before the heart transplant takes place. Then, He gives us His Heart and we give Him our broken hearts. Therefore, take to heart what it means how to encourage others.  AND, the work I do, speaks of who I am! After the transplant, we become the “incarnate Good News.” We become “Sacramental sources of encouragement to others.”

I never had listened to a homily so rich in content and encouragement… He truly gave his heart to millions of people via EWTN!!!

Thursday, April 21

At 10:30 AM, EWTN/Spanish was airing a half hour with Mother Angelica from 1980 and the topic was suffering! She said, “Christianity is beautiful but also uncertain. St. Teresa of Avila died of stomach cancer and she said, ‘I am chosen because God sent great suffering. We are taught to be auto sufficient like a child would do and we do not accept suffering as a gift”. She mentioned the Scripture below:

1 Peter 4: 1-3; 7-8; 12-14. “Therefore, since Christ suffered in the flesh, arm yourselves also with the same attitude (for whoever suffers in the flesh has broken with sin), so as not to spend what remains of one’s life in the flesh on human desires, but ON THE WILL OF GOD. For the time that has passed is sufficient for doing what the Gentiles like to do: living in debauchery, evil desires, drunkenness, orgies, carousing, and wanton idolatry. … The end of all things is at hand. Therefore, be serious and sober for prayers. Above all, let your love for one another be intense, because love covers a multitude of sins… Beloved, do not be surprised that a trial by fire is occurring among you, as if something strange were happening to you. But rejoice to the extent that you share in the sufferings of Christ, so that when His glory is revealed you may also rejoice exultantly. If you are insulted for the name of Christ, blessed are you, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests upon you. “

She ended quoting Hebrews but I did not get the chapter but said that “God treats us as sons when He ordains or permits suffering.” That same night, by chance I ran into the same program… At this point, my Lord wanted to make sure that the topic on suffering was to be discussed in this blog.

I also found elsewhere what St. Padre Pio said, “The best Creed is the one recited when we are suffering.”

Friday, April 22 

At 9:15 AM, my Mother found me thinking about the blog with fear… I had too much to write about and my left eye is not to be overworked plus the topic itself was so extensive! She sent me to page 788 of the Bible and it was Isaiah 7: 3-4a; 9b.The prophet told Ahaz, King of Judah what the Lord sent him to say, “Take care you remain tranquil and do not fear; do not let your courage fail… Unless your faith is firm, you shall not be firm.”

Then my Mother said, “Do not worry at all about the blog. Let the Holy Spirit write it for you. All you need to do is living each moment accepting whatever suffering is allowed. All assistance possible will fall from the mercy of God and you will never be confused because the Holy Spirit will be there with you with all you need for each moment, in order to be lived in perfect harmony with the will of God. Remember each morning to ask for wisdom in order to discern ideas that are from the flesh versus a true message.”

Tuesday, April 26

Mother Angelica narrated how when she was very young, she would talk with an old lady that she would see off and on sitting in front of her house. The woman told her, “If the Lord sends you tribulation, you will tribulate.” I was taken by the idea that God permits suffering and now I know why! Mother Angelica continued with her teaching on suffering (the second on this subject in just a few days!). “Faith is not a spiritual anesthetic but a special power that allows you to live the life of Jesus. St Paul said that he bore the marks of Jesus Christ. Faith lifts you up so that the life of Jesus becomes clear. In the face of trials I must believe that God is with me. The enemy will give you all kind of reasons to mistrust.” (She was 68 years old on this May 3 of 1991, when she gave this talk.)

Friday, April 29 – Feast of St. Catherine of Siena

As written before, this is one of my favorites Saints. She died in 1376 at the age of 33. She was illiterate and other people would write what she dictated them. She had 24 brothers and sisters and through mystic phenomena she met the Lord. She was a Third Order Dominican and as a young woman lived like a recluse when the Lord told her, “You are here by yourself but now you must go with Me everywhere.” And she did. She traveled to Avignon, France and to several areas in her native Italy. In Avignon she found many corrupt people living near the Pope, who resided there for a while due to other problems at the Vatican.

She wrote that the Law of Christ Crucified is based on love and mercy. The injustices are perpetrated by men and the more the soul gets closer to God, that much more the soul esteems Him. The soul that becomes close to God is like the deep sea: the more she looks for Him, that much more she finds Him and the more she encounters Him, that much more she looks for Him. The soul becomes hungry for Him, and she seeks wisdom above all!

The Pope (the real one) had immigrated to Avignon. She asked the one in Avignon to go back to Rome and he did. Her health was precarious. She could hardly eat. She had much pain in her body! Here is another example of extreme suffering and great sanctity for which now she is a Doctor of the Church.

I learned about St. Catherine through EWTN but after watching for a short while the national ABC TV station program, Good Morning America or GMA, which was hosting the celebration of 20 marriages, my soul sank. As they processed to be in front of the person who would marry them who turned out to be a previous weather announcer for GMA, Sam Champion, a known gay man, two couples were interesting to watch: two men and two women who had beautiful wedding gowns were holding hands. After the ceremony, they were kissing. Throughout the media, this topic of gay marriages is a constant theme. On this day, even a possible Republican presidential candidate declared the following as posted in AOL:

“San Francisco, Calif – Ohio Gov. John Kasich was pressed by a man to answer whether or not he believed people are born gay, setting off a lengthy and somewhat testy exchange that resulted in the Republican presidential candidate declaring that he believes gay people are ‘probably’ born that way.”

On page 794 there is an introduction with many pictures and it says, “Everyone’s brain is different – gender and sexual orientation are reflected by changes in the brain anatomy and functioning. The brains of right-handed people and left-handed people are organized differently, and even social and cultural influences can shape the way brain carries out certain tasks.

THE GENDERED BRAIN: a number of structural and functional differences have been found between male and female brains. Both the corpus callosum and the anterior commissure (a more primitive connection between the two hemispheres that links the unconscious areas) are larger in women than in men. This may be why women are more emotionally aware- the more emotional right sided is better connected to the more analytical left side of the brain. It may also allow emotion to be incorporated more readily into thought and speech. When doing complex tasks, women use both sides of their brain, while men use the side more obviously suited to the task.”

(There are four pictures from brain scans done in heterosexual and homosexual men and women with the following explanation) à “Brain scans show how, in homosexual people important brain structures involved in mood, emotion, anxiety and aggression tend to resemble those of heterosexuals of the opposite sex. Heterosexual men tend to have asymmetric brains, with the right hemisphere slightly larger than the left, a characteristic shared with gay women. Patterns of brain connectivity are similar between heterosexual women and gay men, particularly in areas involved with anxiety.”

I must add that we all know of children who at a very young age want to do what opposite sex kids do and look like. Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt have a daughter Shiloh, born in May of 2006, who dresses and has a haircut as if she were a boy. Other much younger children display clearly attraction to be considered from the opposite sex… I would say even that I am not a Priest or know any theology per se, that this so called inclination is not sinful. It is a genetic trait that was present as back as the Old Testament. It probably represents a major cross or suffering for many, but when they choose to be chaste, they are holier than many of us who are heterosexual. When they try to push this topic on the entire society and change laws accordingly, Satan is tempting them to make us resent them… There, is our problem. They are images of God and God allowed this genetic mishap; as such, we should try to love them where they are at, so the we do not allow Satan to tempt us with any resentment, and this way, becoming disobedient to the second most important Commandment. I want to delve deeply into this subject matter mostly to call all of us to stop resenting gay brothers and sisters even when they want to change the law of the land, and instead, to pray for our conversion to love them no matter what and then we should pray for them to be chaste. Another example will be shared next which happened on this same day.

On this afternoon, a very close and religious friend of mine who lives in another State, called me. She and her husband are very devoted Eucharistic adorers. She asked me for prayers for one of her sons, a professional who practiced in a group setting. A major company bought this practice and let him go, supposedly because he did not make enough income for the group, which is not true either. Immediately, my soul was illuminated with HIS TRUTH, especially because I suffered the same type of disaster in my career. At the time, I was still very religious but was not spiritually formed as yet to handle this type of problems in order to do what Jesus would have done. I never hated or resented my colleagues who did such things to me, yet, I never understood that my call was to do something else…!!! I had missed the point. My work was to pray to be able to love them or like them and then pray seeking their salvation. I was created to follow Jesus, Who came to this earth to save our souls. I must do the same.

I told her that at one point, I simply resented President Obama and deeply… Ever since, some 7 years ago, he has done other things that truly deny many of us to be treated as equals with the same religious rights as the Constitution gives us. The case of EWTN that is still in the Courts is a great example. When they force you to pay for things like contraceptives via an employee health insurance, and collaborating for your neighbors to commit a sin, we all should feel simply super upset and resent the man (Obama). However, 7 years ago, I started praying for myself to love this man exactly where he was at… and the Lord gave me a great love for Mr. Obama despite the fact that I do not agree with him whatsoever… I did this seeking to abstain from my sin of resenting him and hoping that he would change. I have done the same in other cases in more recent times and sometimes I do not get to love them but when I think of them, I do not feel resentment and actually feel sorry for them. This can be understood only by grace. There is something good about my prayers for my son the President which is that he loves our Pope!!!

In the case of my friend, I asked her to ask the Eucharistic Jesus to convert her and husband from any resentment against this company, and to pray for their conversion. I told her that the reason we were created was to love God with all our hearts, minds and souls and to love our neighbor as Jesus loves them… Jesus loves them to the point of dying on a cross. So, as a disciple I MUST FOLLOW MY MASTER and offer my suffering for their conversion and pray much with the Rosary for them to become actually very holy! So, once I ask Jesus for this help, I am sort of evangelizing these people who sinned against me or any member of my family. So, she should do the same and ask for her conversion to STOP ANY RESENTMENT FOR this company. This is a prayer that is heard ASAP! I have no doubt about it. It is then that the prayer should be for her son so that he can use this opportunity to grow in holiness and do not resent either.

I told her that this advice did not come because I know much about it. I only was telling her how my Lord has formed me during my professional career persecutory events and that it did work very well… I also told her that Satan runs a marathon away from us when this angel sees people changed… because we LOVE THEM DESPITE THEIR MALEVOLOUS ACTS and because love can do all things, and this company may even  call him back… As far as her son, this type of scenario will spiritually fortify him in many ways and provide for his sustenance with another job, for which he does not have to suffer from this fact that he was considered not making enough money for his group.

 For me it was a painful story. Remember that as woman and Hispanic, if the future boss would be told the lies that the persecutors said at the time, I would not get a job ever. Therefore, at the end of 1984 (in one of the cases), I decided to stay home all of 1985, in order to cool off the facts that led these two colleagues who had moved from the Cleveland Clinic to form a new department of anesthesia at St. Luke’s Hospital in Cleveland, to lie about me… They asked me to go with them because I was good. They cruelly let me go after 2.5 years together and almost 6 months of persecution by not allowing me to even have lunch in long cases… They were trying to make me furious and quit… The actual reason for my letting go according to them was that one of the urologists did not like me… Of course, when I went back to work in mid 1986 and had to move from Cleveland to Indiana, they had changed their hearts and had asked through my husband to be forgiven because they had done something terrible to me!!! NOTICE HOW SATAN WORKS… Always, he has sought to make me angry and super resentful in order to destroy my spiritual path, yet, the Lord was there guiding me with many graces not to resent!!! Satan simply tempted these two people, one of which was gay and always told me that anytime he saw me, he thought of his mother… (He knew that I was very religious and probably was conscious of what I would say about his inclination and living with another man!)

Well, Romans 8:28 became a truth in my life. In the year off where I lost about $100,000 for home expenses and payment of schools for the boys, I found the diary of St. Faustina and so, Divine Mercy entered my soul as a major topic to delve on. My Lord was paying me with spiritual dollars to what would be my new job since then and for the last 31years, that of proclaiming His mercy!!! Notice what suffering can do… In hindsight, this professional nightmare and others after it, were a huge blessing in disguise.

I had entered the Catholic Charismatic Movement since 1977… It is apparent that the Holy Spirit was doing great things and in 1985 brought me the topic of His Mercy! All of the suffering involved became a huge gain and even now, in the last year since the 2015 Pentecost Feast, my work with the Holy Spirit has become of true partners and like never before. Below I will write more about what  I was promised on the 2015 Pentecost Feast and sure enough, life with the Holy Trinity has become a delight, more so than prior to the Feast. I even made a card where I wrote that He promised to change my soul more deeply and I have experienced it. Obviously, I must convert many more times but I can say that there has been progress. And from this change came my plan for my close friend to act in the case of her son who lost his job! As we said good bye, I immediately realized that this would be the main topic to preach when I have to move out of this quiet life in my house, so ill that I cannot attend daily Mass, in order to go with Him as Jesus told St. Catherine of Siena. All I needed was purification on my part and I know that my health will become much better, in order to do what seems obvious as my next step.

It was on Pentecost Sunday, May 24, 2015, that I received the promise of special graces for me. And sure enough, by May 26, I was given what I wrote at the time saying, “Congratulations. You have received the tools to live the Sacrament of the Present Moment, one of God’s merciful love actions for His children! This what was taught to me in 2015:

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Early this morning after praying the Rosary, my Mother explained the following:

STEP I If you have

1. Fear.……..call the Holy Spirit asking for the gift of hope that comes from God’s mercy and Who can do all things.

2. Doubt…. ask the Holy Spirit for the gift of trust in God’s mercy.

3. Questions regarding your health, the future or any present problems like the renewal of your driver’s license….. ask Him for indifference because His mercy is in charge. You do not need of anything else.

4. Disillusion with some aspects of the state of the Church…. ask the Holy Spirit for the gift of love for her, since she has what you need to become His disciple for the glory of God.

After letting the Holy Spirit give you the graces necessary, go to…

STEP II – say yes to the above temptations as God’s precious will and offer thanksgiving for allowing you to grow in intimacy with the Holy Spirit, and bringing you closer to my Son.

STEP III. Think of the bird tapping at the window as a reminder that the Holy Spirit is within you 24/7, in order to guide you in your spiritual battles.

Remember this advice because it gives you the tools to live the “Sacrament of the Present Moment” under an ongoing Pentecost. This is also a form of living the LIFE IN THE SPIRIT.”

“I even checked the blog for May of 2015 in order to find the details that I just shared with you from one year ago. In that blog I wrote of a bout of depression without eating the wrong things. But it is interesting that I have never had another bout of “oppression” since and coming no doubt from Satan… I enjoyed the list of things that I was given on May 26 to live the Sacrament of the Present Moment. It is fantastic. At the time, I had had like 2 months where birds would come to tap a high window on top of the main entrance door of this house.  Well, in due time they left and never came back… Now, in retrospect, I realized that they came to announce these graces of living closer to the Holy Ghost. It also refers to how to deal with fear, doubt and questions regarding my health, etc. Truly, truly, these promises have become a delight ever since!

CLOSING WORDS

It is clear that we have to grow in our faith by being totally faithful to do His will at every present moment. We have to pray daily and as often as possible. This involves our devotion to our Mother who is our great defender from Satan. AND WE HAVE TO SUFFER… in order to grow and convert. OUR CONVERSION into more faith, prayer and embracing suffering presupposes never TO RESENT ANYONE EVER… If we resent, we will be breaking the Love of Neighbor Commandment.

There is another point that I must insist in repeating. No matter how many people teaches us what to do, what not to do, what to read, what to avoid in our daily life with others, we can only do it by the power of the Holy Spirit. In order to enter this close relationship with Him, again WE MUST INCREASE OUR FAITH by doing God’s will at all cost and no matter what; WE HAVE TO PRAY no matter what and frequently call on Him… WE HAVE TO RUN AND EMBRACE ALL OUR CROSSES AS SOURCES OF GRACE and union to Jesus in order to participate with Him in the redemption of many souls. It is this schedule that opens our souls to the Holy Spirit in ways that are simply amazing. It demonstrates beyond any question that we truly love God with all our heart, mind and soul and our neighbor as JESUS LOVES THEM…The rest will be given to us as Job had done in his life, and family members will walk the spiritual life without any problems… If a problem comes, God intervenes. We become witnesses to many of HOW TO LIVE in the Spirit that does not consist in huge miracles but the little daily miracles that transform our soul and sanctifies it, so that we are evangelizing 24/7 close to others or far away. I can say that I normally have much, much pain but lots of joy. Yes, it is possible to suffer and be glad! I finally understood why of the joy after the program heard from Franciscan University of Steubenville and the life of Job…

I want a big favor from you. 1) Yes, I still need your prayers. They are awesome… They lead me to find the topics for these blogs. Thank you so much for your prayers.2) BUT I ALSO need to invite you to pray for ourselves to love Mr. Trump, Mr. Cruz, Mr. Kasich, Mr. Sanders and Mrs. Clinton and all active American voters. And YES, we are to offer all our crosses and suffering of any kind for the salvation of their souls… THEN, AND ONLY THEN, we can stop bickering about what they say or not, and wait for God to surprise us with the best next President for our dear U.S.A. And WE  WILL FIND OURSELVES not being able to RESENT… Huh!

And by the way, we should be doing that for us ALL, in order to defend the life of all babies in the womb of mothers AS WE SEEK THE SALVATION OF ALL PARTICIPATING IN THE ABORTION BY DEMAND INDUSTRY AND IN ALL DISRESPECT FOR LIFE IN GENERAL. The next step is NOT TO WORRY or HAVE FEAR of what will happen in our country. Our God is capable to save all and simply we are collaborators with His Son Jesus in saving everybody. At the end of our personal lives, we will be judged and we will hear the most Holy Trinity saying, “Well done child! Well done!” Have a super blessed Pentecost Feast!

 

 

The Mercy of God has been flowing like a river in my soul!

March 31, 2016

My dear friends: this month has been absolutely a gem made of graces for living in the Presence of God without much work on my part. It has hit me very deeply to be able to feel even similarly as to when I understood in my mind that Jesus was alive in the Sacred Host and sensed His Real Presence. It was such a powerful feeling that at age 6 ½ I pushed my family which did not have many monetary resources to send me to the elementary school just opened in San Jose, Costa Rica by Salvadorian nuns, the Oblates of Divine Love (Oblatas del Divino Amor) called St. Margaret Mary Primary School, which had perpetual adoration of the Blessed Sacrament.

My desire was to sleep near Him since this school was very small and used a regular home as the convent/school with 5 nuns, and the chapel was next to our dormitory. Every night as I went to sleep with 6 other girls, I would feel reassured by Him Whom I felt so close to me. To this date, I feel the same way. Nothing has changed this feeling in my entire years on this earth. Well, during this Holy Week, I also sensed His presence during the Consecration every time I was spiritually present at any Live Mass via EWTN. This time, His Presence seemed to generate a need for repentance for my sins and to help Him carry His cross, cross that consisted in the lack of love for God everywhere in the world and by a great majority of human beings. I was able to feel His pain, His anguish, His love for everyone and sensed the poor response by many of them as well as my poor reaction to turn around and ask Him for His mercy for all of us!

Before I continue, let me emphasize a “big” point, praying for His mercy for the world. As many of you may know, the NAB team called the Warriors or Golden State from the city of Oakland (where my Diocese is located), has been calling the attention of the entire world by its players, especially Stephen Curry, a 28 year old who scores three points at all distances far away from the basket!!! By the way, this gift resides in our brains and it is not as perfect for all of us. Steph can just look intentlyat the basket, in a second imagine the ball going in and the hands will obey the brain to do the measurements and deliver the ball without major problems with the force necessary to elevate it and drop right inside the basket… Well, this year they so far have won 68 games with 7 lost. They are breaking all records.

My favorite sport is soccer since it is the sport that reigns in Latin America. Second to it is basketball. During this year’s games, I started watching them win game after game, and my Lord started speaking loud and clear: “I do not mind if you waste the time in watching these games as long as you do it with great love for the crowds and all players and coaches, by asking often during the game for My mercy for them. In this way, you will not sin with wasting your time.  Never forget this. Constantly find different groups in TV or shopping stores or in the expressway and ask for My mercy for them.”

Again, this is why I wrote above that I sensed my poor reaction to turn around and ask Him for His mercy for all of us! There is no question that the graces from this Extraordinary Year of Mercy allowed me to feel His pain, His anguish, His love for everyone and for the first time ever, I  experienced it during Lent and Holy Week.

I will share several stories for different days, especially how He made sure that I would feel His Presence through other human beings, and in ways previously unknown to me. It was simply awesome. Of course, my health was not the best but obviously it was necessary for me, in order to remember the suffering He underwent during the days before and during His Passion.

Wednesday, March 2

11 AM -This day was my birthday and after a late breakfast, I was suddenly given a page in the Bible to meditate on. I have to explain that I do not hear the number of each page… No, I see the number(s) like an image inside my mind but always after asking the Holy Spirit for His guidance and using Our Lady as the intercessor!!

Page711 – Wisdom 6, verses 6-11, 17-18

6-11 – “For the lowly may be pardoned out of mercy but the mightily shall be mightily put to the test. For the Lord of all shows no partiality, nor does He fear greatness,  because He Himself made the great as well as the small, and He provides for all alike; but for those in power a rigorous scrutiny impends. To you therefore, O Princes are My words addressed that you may not sin. For those who keep the holy precepts hallowed shall be found holy, and those learned in them will have ready a response. Desire, therefore, My words; long for them and you shall be instructed

“For the first step for discipline is a very earnest desire for her (wisdom); then care for discipline is love of her; love means the keeping of her laws.” (End of Biblical verses).

There is no doubt that I must often ask the Holy Spirit for the gift of wisdom. For how many years I have tried very hard to follow Jesus and His teaching but I hardly asked for Wisdom not to take the wrong turn? Of course, by calling the Holy Spirit, I am calling for wisdom; yet, at moments of doubt or fear, His wisdom is essential and should sought right away. This reading also reminded me of the need to read His Word often to be instructed through Wisdom. I realized that it was a great reminder/gift for this particular day.  

Monday, March 7

EWTN/Spanish had a program that called my attention when I passed by this station without any prior planning. It clearly showed the horrible things going on in Latin America with the trafficking of drugs and the number of innocent victims.  The story was of Bishop Isaias Duarte Cancino, Bishop of the Valle del Cauca in the Diocese of Bucaramanga, Colombia. He preached to never have fear nor worry.  On February 1, 2002, he denounced the negative results coming from the traffic of narcotics.  On Saturday, March 16, 2002 (exactly 14 years ago), he married 100 couples between 6 PM and 7:45 PM. Afterwards at 8:25 PM, he left for the rectory and in route he received a shot from a member of the “narco-traffic.”

The question raised was: Why didn’t God stop it? A common logical answer given was that there will not be peace in Colombia until many will convert and choose to be pro-life and not be opposed to the Gospel of love and justice. My question was: what is the Church doing about it? By “Church” I mean all laity and ministerial Priesthood. Colombia is one of the most important sites for the trafficking of narcotics. I was born and raised near this country when this problem was not present. What did all of us miss in doing? My heart ached and I felt sad, very sad!

In the afternoon I suffered from violent diarrhea and could not figure out why! At the same time, I offered it up for the present horrors going on in Latin America similar to the previous story. It definitely calls all of us worldwide to examine our customs and spiritual routing and ask ourselves, “Why is it that the trafficking of narcotics has become such a disaster for many years and us, Catholics have not used our Baptismal power to change the entire scenario?  In Christ Jesus we can do it… There is no doubt about it… Yet, we, the so called followers, are not in the same page with Jesus and His Gospel. At our personal judgment, are we prepared to answer why not?

I only have to remind myself and all of you, readers, that if a group of us would do God’s will day and night by denying ourselves, embracing our crosses and following His commandments, as we ask for His  mercy for them and us to keep living such life, the traffic of narcotics would not exist… and can be terminated any time we truly become Jesus’ disciples!!! Then, why is it that a bunch of us have not started to apply our Baptismal graces over all these societal disasters?

Tuesday, March 8

I was led to go to a health food store. Remember that I do not go out to follow my plans for the day unless the Holy Spirit grants me an O.K.; or said differently, “I make the plans and the Holy Spirit reigns over them to be executed or not.” Many would ask, “And how do we know what the Spirit wants each time? “No problemo,” as the commercial says (notice that they say problemo instead of problem!). If we stay practicing the FPS (discussed last month), we have guarantee that the Spirit will let us know without fear of making a mistake!!! 

On this morning, it was going to rain heavily and I wondered if I should go altogether! But waiting for His direction is the easiest way to do His will at all times so not to miss some “spiritual customers.” Besides, the rain had suddenly stopped. I needed to pick up a medication at Walgreen’s and asked for guidance as what to do first. I was told to go to the health food store first. There and by the chance created by the Holy Spirit, as I arrived a couple was also arriving and the man ran fast ahead of me to open the door although the woman with him was much behind me. They smiled at me as I called him, “my angel.”

After we entered, I noticed that they looked to be from India or another nearby country. I asked them and she said that she was from Bangladesh but the man (much older) was from India. I mentioned that I only knew where Kerala is in India.  They corrected my pronunciation… Later on, the woman ran into me again within the store and she wanted to know where I was from. Eventually I learned that she is very interested in eating organic foods and of course, she was interested in my knowledge of the subject matter. Her name was Sumaiya, around 35 years old and beautiful. I ended up sharing with her my knowledge to reverse dementia and how to prevent depressions. She was fascinated and asked me to share with her the entire information since she is director of a place for meditation and has several members with frequent depression… She gave me her Internet address for the center that she manages.  Two days later I did send her the information and begging her not to place it in the Internet because I was in the process of publishing a book on this subject. She answered to please keep in contact since she wanted to learn more and promised not to pass my writings to anyone, except help those in need.  There was no question in my mind that God had arranged this meeting since we had to arrive exactly at the same time for the man with her to run to open the door for me to start our conversation and sharing. It started raining as I came back…

Thursday, March 10

Supposedly we were expecting a furious storm on this early and mid morning. I needed to go to the pharmacy to pick up another medication(far away and faster to be reached by the expressway, prohibited for me with much rain by increasing the possibilities for an accident. However, the storm that was announced several times in prior days before and up to the previous evening was missing and was able to take the expressway and come back fast enough and not waste time in transportation.

At 11:50 PM, my Mother came and said this: “Watch out for the use of your time. In recent days, you have not done anything to edit the book as yet! Notice how God stopped the rain in your area so you made it fast using the expressway. Not only that, but the pharmacy line, was very fast like never before (I pick medications as if it were MacDonald’s, on the side window). He made space in case you wanted to use prime time for the editing of the book. Yet, you keep wasting the gift of time!”

I definitely was convinced that I truly must try very hard to finish this book!  These are what appears to be small sins, and yet, how many people are suffering from depressions that could be prevented by not using the thickener carrageenan? A little story on it at a later day will demonstrate the importance of publishing this information. 

Saturday, March 12

12:45 PM – As I was praying the Rosary for Life with EWTN, during the third mystery and as I saw images of a beautiful baby boy, I said to my Mother, “He is so beautiful with fat thighs and fat feet. How I wished I would have been His babysitter!”

Our Lady: “You can still be His babysitter within your soul. He still needs it because many of His children are right now very cold and hungry and live in despicable places! Therefore, what you do for Him by adoring Him and obeying His mandates as you pray for those in need where He also lives within, you are babysitting Him in their lives!” I had never thought about it in such terms! My Mother can be super wise!

Wednesday, March 16

At 9:30 AM, I was given a page in the Bible to check. It was Joel 2. It is a long chapter but it describes the many blessings that God has given to His people, then, and of course, He continues doing it now.

Then my Mother came to tell me this, “You have had much. You shall give much more to others. However, your trust in God’s love must consist in ignoring what is not perfect in your life, and at the same time, expecting without any fear that He will fix everything in your life that needs to be fixed; this in order for you to give to others His love and blessings by witnessing what He has done, is doing and will do for you. NEVER think of what is next. Only think of the mercy of God doing great things for you in the eternal ‘now,’ since God only knows how to love and serve especially to the humble and the one who loves Him back.”

Thursday, March 17

At 8:20 AM, I started thinking on the coming feast of St. Joseph since I was born in the city of San Jose. I have written before how my first prayer to a Saint was to him at age 9. My grandma had bought me a very expensive pen (for us) American made (in those days!). It was a Schaffer pen and within 24 hours I lost it inside our apartment. So, I asked St. Joseph to help me and that I would pray to him one daily Our Father “forever” if he would do find it for me. I was super petrified of telling my grandma about it. Within a few minutes I knew where it had fallen (below my bed, deep inside and closer to the wall). I complied afterwards with the praying of the Our Father for a very short time… I still feel remorse! Well, this time I asked St. Joseph to obtain for me the favor of fixing my health, even if partially or to get me the money to treat my allergies, and that I would continue praying the daily Our Father. Well, I was sent to a page in the Bible, Deuteronomy 24: 6-22… I then understood that actually he would agree to do so but to offer it for the main message of these verses, which were, to pray it for equality, justice and charity in the entire world… I was fascinated with the idea and it will be so, since I have never prayed for these intentions… I then wrote the entire promise in the first page of one of my downstairs’ Bibles … We shall see! After all, I am “josefina” or born in the city of San Jose…!

I went to theTarget Department Store and as I arrived to the area of the six pack one liter bottles of Evian (very heavy and located slightly high for me) and almost immediately, a Filipino woman in her late thirties with a 4-5 year old girl next to her, ran to offer me to place the Evian packs in my cart. I knew that the Holy Spirit stirred her to offer help when I had not even moved to get one of the packs showing my difficulty to do so. She turned to be Catholic (of course) and we became friends for a few minutes but I explained to her how Jesus shows me His love through actions as hers, and that it made her an angel sent by Him! She loved the idea and told the little girl!

 Saturday, March 19 – Feast of St. Joseph

I did not feel well since early morning. I woke up with a severe headache. The pain on my knees was horrible despite medication. I wondered if I was supposed to cancel my plan to attend my parish’s Penance Service and so I asked the Lord about it. He sent me to 1 Maccabees 9 and in there I found the word “went” and I was seeking for the word “go” in the past or present tense. I felt pretty sure that I had to go to this service. I went early in order to pray for my confession to be complete and full of repentance.

Well, after this confession and for the first time in my entire life of going to confession, I had a very powerful feeling of peace… Why? I have no idea… However, during the next hours and at home, I felt a total detachment from television, including EWTN! Instead, I was like in heaven enjoying His presence… and I would say that I have used my time much, much better since and not as I confessed it to be… “With my poor use of time.” I suspect that St. Joseph was interceding for me!

 

Sunday, March 20  

 

President Obama was in Cuba and the Hispanic TV station Univision had their own reporters in Cuba talking to the Cuban’s in the streets. I became so surprised to know details like many of the wives of men who are in prison for no reason but politics, now form the “Damas Blancas Group” or the White Ladies Group. They spoke to the reporter before they went out to the streets to protest for the U.S. being so lenient with the Cuban regime, a protest that they do frequently in order to remind people of their husbands. Shortly after they started the protest, they were jailed…

 

This same Hispanic station showed a story from Argentina which also left me surprised since I did not know anything about it… In 1976, the regime or government people killed hundreds of men and women. If the woman was pregnant, they would isolate the woman and wait for the baby to be born and then kill her. The baby was given to couples who had to accept them by orders from them.  This was the story of the older woman presented in this news, foundress  of the Damas Blancas and whose daughter was pregnant and they gave her grandchild away. Through the “White Ladies” they also sought to find the families of those babies (some 150), now grownups! And this particular grandma found her grandson!  As I was hearing these stories I thought of people like Eva Peron and husband whom I knew when I was young; yet I had no idea of these horrors. In the other hand, I am from Costa Rica, where there is not an army… We only have a police force to keep the civil order but not an army. This is why they call this country, the Switzerland of the Americas!

 

Monday, March 21

 

11:50 AM – My Mother said, “This morning you have one story and a teaching.”

 

Story: I was led to a page in the Bible in the Book of Lamentations.  I will get a verse that that will show the point I had to learn. But first, this is a little story of the setting of the Book of Lamentations.

 

“The 6th Century B.C. was an age of crisis, a turning point in the history of Israel. (Think of the United States right now and why not, the history of the entire world where killings without justification are daily!). With the destruction of the Temple and the interruption of its rituals plus the exile of the leaders and loss of national sovereignty, an era came to an end. Not long after the fall of Jerusalem (587), an eyewitness of the national humiliations composed these five laments. They combine 1) confession of sin, 2) grief over the suffering and 3) humiliation of Zion, 4) submission to merited chastisement, 5) and the strong faith of the constancy of Yahweh’s love and power to restore. The figure of Israel as the bride of Yahweh, familiar from the prophets, appears here again; but now Zion is a desolate widow… sustained only by the faith that God’s chastisement will eventually give place to His infinite compassion (I would say, His infinite mercy).”

 

Chapter 1: 1 – “How lonely she is now, the once crowded city! Widowed is she who was mistress over nations; the princess among the provinces has been made a toiling slave. Verse 2b – Her friends have all betrayed and become her enemies.”

 

This was the story that Our Lady wanted me to learn about… Something that could happen to us, in this country and worldwide if we do not turn to God and repent but NOW…

 

Then, my Mother sent me to three sections in the Bible for the teaching part.

 

1) I was given the answer to prevent a possible disaster as Jerusalem saw in the previous story. As I read chapters 17 and 18 of Deuteronomy, I understood that through my Baptism, I had become king, priest and prophet. As such, how am I to conduct myself to help the human race? How shall I practice these gifts? (Without going any further, I want to remind my readers that this is a teaching for me… Please, pray to learn if it will be helpful to you).

 

Here I have summarized with my own words what the Bible says applied to me. – When I have come into the land which the Lord my God is giving me or becoming a member of the family of God through Baptism, I can become through this gift – king (queen)  As such, I must have a copy of the law of God (Bible), from the Levitical priests (the Catholic Church), keep it  with me and read it all the days of my life that I may learn to fear the Lord, and to heed and fulfill  all the words of this law  (Bible) and these statues (what Jesus taught). I then should not become estranged from my brothers and sisters through pride, nor turn aside to the right or to the left from these commandments.

As a priest and as in the times of the Tribe of Levi (Hebrew priests), wherever I go I must minister in the name of the Lord.

As a prophet, I will not learn to imitate the abominations of the people of the place where the Lord has sent me to. I should never mix with people who immolate his son or daughter in the fire (abortion crowd), nor a fortune-teller or caster of spells, not one who consults ghosts or spirits or seeks oracles from the dead. If I presume to speak in the name of the Lord an oracle that I have not received from Him, I shall die.  

2) Book of Judges – the “purpose of this Book is to show that the fortunes of Israel depended upon the obedience or disobedience of the people to God’s law. Whenever they rebelled against Him, they were oppressed by pagan nations; when they repented, He raised up judges to deliver them.”

 

3) Matthew 24:14“And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached through the world as a witness to all nations, AND THEN THE END WILL COME. (End of Bible quotes)

I opened my eyes wide with this last verse, SINCE EWTN has done it: it has taken the Gospel of the Kingdom through the entire world!!! So, are we expecting that end that Jesus prophesied? And this teaching was received before the passing of Mother Angelica. Her work for God seems almost impossible to do by any human being, except through the holiness of this saintly woman totally in love with God, in order for Him to warn us of a possible end for all humans!!!

 

In general, the story was about our case right now where in every part of our lives, we see situations that need to stop… The teaching for me was about how to exercise my graces as king, priest and prophet, what to do in each case, BUT followed by a reminder that it has to be obeyed or else…since the end may be closer than we think!

 

1:30 PM – I was still astounded by what I had learned hours earlier and became worried of how to share this story in this blog. My Mother said, “Do not worry regarding the blog.  Worrying is a form of fear. Ask for whatever you need, not what you want, and He will take care of it. Remember how yesterday you received the results of the laboratory studies done (as my primary physician had ordered) and turned out that you have perfect numbers for all your organs! As you can see, God’s mercy has done great things with your body. You are walking on water on God’s hand and you will get to where you need to be faster than by swimming. The more faith you show in His mercy, you can help others with your blogs. Do not forget that your entire life should be one of thanksgiving for all the blessings you keep receiving, like the faith you have in His love for you!”

 

I must add some information that needs to be told in order for you to see the extent of the miracle of having normal laboratory studies. My nutrition is one sided. I eat every day of the year the same menu in order to stay away from allergies to most foods. Breakfast: grilled chicken and one sweet potato plus one cup of coffee. Lunch: nothing except for a glass of milk with one banana in order to take the pain medication that causes some allergy reaction in my stomach! For dinner: grilled chicken with one avocado. Most of the B vitamins I cannot take because I am allergic to them. But worse than that, because of my constant passing of urine, I lose  magnesium and potassium and have to replace them at least twice a day, both of which I cannot miss because low magnesium causes severe cramps; low potassium causes arrhythmias of the heart! It causes a particular one, “bigeminy” that consists of the cardiac contractions to be delayed every two beats. I take these two minerals in amounts I figure out by instinct, since I do not wait for the cramps or bigeminy to start! But since the levels were perfect, this was a true act of mercy from God!

 

Friday, March 22

On this day after prayer, I suddenly understood that the best worship and adoration of God happens when I ADORE HIS WILL for me 24/7. I can spend time in Holy Hours but without my acceptance of His will for everything, including suffering, I am not truly adoring His Eucharistic Presence. I am just paying homage but without a relationship of love  where I do whatever He wants me to do, because I love Him and He is crazy for me! I then received the following verses of the Bible: Sirach 35: 19, 23-24.

“God indeed will not delay and like a warrior will not be still… until He defends the cause of His people and gladdens them by His mercy.  Welcome is His mercy in time of distress as rain clouds in time of drought.”

My Mother said, “With each painful moment with your knees, remember to say, ‘Yes, so be it. I come to do Your will,’ and proceed with giving thanks as if it will be resolved soon! NO OTHER TOUGHT should enter your mind, so that the decision of your soul, like it was my ‘yes’, produces a constant fiat at every second of your life.”

 

I then thought: “This year, the mercy of God is flowing like a river in my life.” I had much pain as it was for Jesus at this time 2000 years ago, and so I fell called to live the Passion during this Holy Week. Therefore I say, “Yes to this pain. So be it. I am here to do Your will.”

2:20 PM – My Mother said, “You are doing very well. I am proud of you. Your yes is good as you are practicing it (she referred to my constant practice of FPS discussed in the last blog (faith doing the will of God in everything; much prayer and suffering). Yet, there is something you should do. For example, how often you make yourself aware of your opening to His will. Yes, you are saying “yes” but be sure that it comes from a heart that seeks to love God 24/7 via your true acceptance to His will. Otherwise, it could become just words but interiorly you may not be quite desirous to do it due to the difficulty of the moment, like much pain! Be always aware of this possibility!!!”

“Yes, Ma,” I answered. “Help me in remembering to do it.”

I fell asleep sitting in my lazy-boy chair between 10 and 11:30 PM for the local news. Then I fell asleep again with the T.V. on until I woke up at 12:10 AM (see below)

 

Wednesday, March 23

 

At 12:10 AM, I opened my eyes to find on ABC, Jimmy Kimmel Live speaking to the Democratic contender, Mr. Bernie Sanders. Once more, I fell disenchanted by the rhetoric of all the candidates, one of the worse times in U.S. history during a presidential election year. At 12:35 AM, I purposely turn off the light and TV and went to sleep, which I can do easily. Going to sleep for me is simply no problem!  I had much pain in my knees despite recent medication.

 

I had the alarm clock set for 5 AM to watch Live the EWTN Mass with Fr. Miguel for this day.  At 8:30 AM I prayed the Rosary in Spanish with EWTN. At 10:30 AM I left for the adjacent city of Walnut Creek to shop at Whole Foods organic store and miracles started. I still had much pain.

 

I prayed for perfect parking since this store is always full despite ample parking lots. I did find a space for me right by the main door. My plans were to stop at a7Eleven ATM to get some money but since it was close to lunch hour, I was re-routed to Whole Foods (WF) first since during this mid day the parking becomes even more congested. When I arrived, one of the employees, an older man cashier was also arriving and he ran at least 20 yards to bring me a cart so that I would not have to do it!!!!! This is how my Jesus makes Himself present by the love of another of His kids, and this so that I REMEMBER that He is around looking for my interests.

I needed many bananas (one of the few fruits that I am not allergic to) and they are very high to bring down. I asked one of the W.F. employees and he came to help me. The name in his shirt was Luis and asked him if they call him, “Luisito” which is a diminutive form of his name. He said yes and then we realized that we both spoke Spanish and that he was from Nicaragua. As you know, Nicaragua is the country on the north side of Costa Rica. We call the people from this country, Nicas… as we are called Ticos and Ticas… The longer names will be Nicaragüenses and Costarricenses… Too long!

 

As I left this store I asked the Holy Spirit for permission to stop at the ATM place in my way home. I needed to buy small writing tablets(9×5 in)  to write the many teachings I receive here and there during each day, and not use lose pieces of paper that tend to get lost. My last tablet was full and knew that they were bought at a Home Depot store. I asked the Lord if I had permission to go there before the ATM visit. He agreed. I found perfect parking and what I wanted and was in line to pay (this was lunchtime). Two other customers’ ahead of me were taken care of by two cashiers; however as I was going to go to the open cashier, the young man left… So, I had to wait for the other until it opened.

 

When it was my turn, I found a young man who looked Indian. I asked him what part of India or adjacent countries was he from. He said he was from NICARAGUA!!!! There were no more customers waiting and something led me to mention about how to reverse dementia and prevent depressions in some of us. He then said that his mother suffers from depressions and that no doctor has been able to get rid of them with medication!!!! Bingo!!! Of course, he wanted to learn all about it and I promised to send him the entire story via email… Two days later I did so… Just think of the timing for me to get to each place exactly when I was supposed to be there. At Whole Foods, I needed to see His intervention by having the employee run to get me the cart. Then, I found a man from Nicaragua (like if He were announcing the upcoming meeting with another “Nica”, which is very difficult to happen within a two hour window since there are many Mexican’s but not from Central America on the same day and in different places!!! The first cashier had to leave the post for me to find the second Nica, Jairo… A very Biblical name…And Jairo needed the information I had with me since 1992… All of these stories are a perfect proof of God’s mercy for Jairo and his mother!!!

 

To close the miracle making events, in route (driving) to the ATM, the Lord came and gave me 5 numbers to buy 2 chances of the California lotto… This is the very first time it happened in my life!!! I needed the “mega” number after the first 5. He said, not to talk about it since Satan would interfere for me to think of the last number… This is how I learn how Satan is always around trying to intervene. I memorized the numbers the best I could and filled out a card with them upon arrival to the ATM place, where I learned about the last number. It turned out that the first 5 numbers were correct  and I got 4 of them right and made $103 among 262 other Californian’s who also got them!!!!! My Lord wanted me to understand that I could win more than that at any time that His will desires it…He ALSO wanted me to understand that “chances” mean nothing for Him. After all, He created the idea of lottery in the mind of the first lotto inventor… Obviously and to make it very clear, if I were to win millions, I am supposed to give half of it or more (depends on the amount) after taxes to ETWN!!!!! I could not enrich my sons not to tempt them to live with monies not earned. They were born in luxury and had great all-paid education when I made the one quarter million/year. Yet, for the good of their salvation, this is not to happen again, unless God allows it. On arrival to the ATM, a man came from behind to open the door for me and upon leaving, two people also ran to open the door!

 

During this day, I heard as part of the TV news, THREE concepts that are simply crazy:

1) Seven things necessary to be happy were discussed in AOL and you can imagine that they had nothing to do with happiness… since God was not mentioned…

 

2) Another person said in TV that we have to have “mindfulness” and reduce back pain with stress reduction… No doubt that it is pure nonsense.

 

3) I had bought the local newspaper and found very tragic news. The tittle was: DOES RIGHT TO DIE FALL SHORT?  ByTracy Seipel, co-author of new policy that hears of desires of Alzheimer’s patients.

“They know California’s landmark right-to-die law, set to kick in June 9, is for the terminally ill. And they support the effort. But what most of the dozen people at a town hall meeting on Monday in Morgan Hill wanted to know is why their friends and relatives suffering from Alzheimer’s or dementia cannot take advantage of the law.

 

“ ‘One of  my fears is not having my mental capacity and lying there and not being able to do anything about it,’ said 72 year old  Kathy S, who attended the 90 minute-long meeting at the Morgan Hill Community and Cultural Center with her husband Brian, 74.

“Our society has to recognize that there is psychological pain, and there is mental pain. The mental pain of not being in control of your thoughts and mind is sometimes more than physical pain.”

 

This last point moved me a lot since dementia is reversible, and my book is not finished as yet… I feel so guilty! Please pray for me for this particular need I have to finish the editing of this large book which has many other important points not described elsewhere… For example, by the grace of God I figured out how some people (minority) vomit after a general anesthetic and it is hard to stop it, at times for more than 24 hours… It is easy to figure out who are those patients before any general anesthetic and it is a matter of finding out if they get easily nauseous while in a moving car and sitting in the back seat. It has to do with the inner ear and it is apparently aggravated by the gas in the anesthetic which happens to be a product of fluoride!!!! If the inner ear is given a long lasting anti-emetic drug before the anesthetic, they wake up without any problem. I had patients return to the surgery center looking to thank me… So, please keep me in your prayers so that in this year of Mercy, I can be merciful to my brothers and sisters and get this book published! Thank you!

Holy Thursday, March 24

I was able to follow the Live Holy Thursday Mass in Rome through EWTN. I could not attend my own parish because it was done in the evening and I cannot drive with ease at night! Besides, this service with the washing of feet is long and the use of the bathroom every hour on the hour demands too much of my attention and that of others to be getting up often to go to the bathroom.

Good Friday, March 25

 

Early I watched a program via EWTN on the Seven Last Words of Jesus before His death, preached a couple of years ago in New York City at St. Patrick’s Cathedral by now Bishop Robert Barron… What an excellent speaker is this holy man! He mentioned how Jesus came to become a new Temple and the sacrifice as well, and that this happens at every Mass. What a profound point to have in mind at each Consecration.

They sang the wonderful hymn, “Were you there when they crucified my Lord? Were you there when they nailed Him to the tree? Where you there when they pierced Him in the side? Where you there when they laid Him in the tomb?” I ended up singing, “I was not there but I am now!” This came from within because I felt His Presence and His pain…

10:50 AM – all done with the previous program, I went up to my room to rest a little since the pain in my knees was horrible and I was waiting for the pain medication to work. I then told Jesus this, “My Love, my Life and my Truth, “I love You. I adore You. Here I am to help You carrying Your PRESENT cross made of so much incredulity, blindness and deafness among Your sons and daughters.” I felt like Simon the Cyrene. I then remembered that around 2002 in Toledo, Ohio, I visited an antique store recommended to me by a nurse from the surgery I worked at. She knew I was very religious and told me that it was a nice place to check out. I found several Stations of the Way of the Cross, large paintings belonging to an English church that had been closed; I immediately chose the fifth Station where the Cyrene is forced to help Jesus carrying His cross. It cost me $1,000 but the attraction was powerful. This happened before the movie the Passion of the Christ, the one that I was led to watch 22 times in cinemas between its release in 2004 and 2005. In hindsight, I now understand that watching this movie so many times were ways to mark my soul with the pain of the Crucified, as a form of prophesy for these later years when I would be invited to suffer much.

 

On this Good Friday, I also told Jesus, “I am your Simon and want to help you carrying the cross with my love and my desire to become totally obedient to Your Commandments and all that You taught us while on this earth. I love You!  Remember that I am here to do Your Holy Will. Thank You for Your graces and Your closeness which I can feel and not only believe in it!” And yes, I felt His Presence as if I were in church receiving Communion.

Holy Saturday, March 26

12:30 PM – I was present to the Live Vigil Palm Mass in Rome. So far, I had had a much recollected Holy Week even that I was home all this time.

Easter Sunday, March 27

My son and I attended the 7 AM Mass in our parish in order to stay away from the crowds, normal for this day. We normally go to the 8 AM Mass. I had already being spiritually present to the Live English Mass from EWTN at 5 AM. After coming back from the 7 AM Mass, I checked EWTN and was able to “spiritually attend” the Live 9 AM Mass at the National Shrine of the Immaculate Conception in Washington, D.C. with Cardinal Donald Wurl, who has become one of my favorite Apostles for these times. Shortly after around 11 AM, I went back to the EWTN/Spanish channel and another Live Mass at the same Shrine was celebrated via EWTN/ Spanish by Archbishop Broglio of the U.S. Military Services. His Spanish was excellent. I must say that it is unfortunate that the programs in EWTN/Spanish cannot be found via the TV itself as normally one is able to review all the programs coming hour by hour. The topic that is announced is 80% of time the wrong one. This EWTN/Spanish channel was fine until about 3 months ago when it got distorted and apparently nobody knows about it because it has not been corrected. So, in order to find the daily programming, one has to check the site via Internet!

A few minutes after this fourth Mass for the day, I started realizing that the Holy Spirit wanted me to attend all of them, inspiring me to check the Spanish EWTN. The same happened a little later because by chance again, I tuned EWTN/Spanish at 1 PM and another Live Mass was starting at the Cathedral of Los Angeles, CA, also in Spanish celebrated by Archbishop Gomez…

There was no question by then that I was celebrating this Easter Sunday like never before, with FIVE LIVE MASSES, complete with no change of channels!!! And two of them in Spanish! During the Consecration at one of the Masses that I spiritually attended, I cried because His Presence was very powerful, even miles away. I ended up saying to Him, “Please help me with the pain I suffer because it is excessive and I become super stressed out, which is not good for me either.” He answered, “Remember that your suffering is needed for the writing of the monthly blogs; however, there is also something that happens even more important. One thing is for someone to read your blog and like it; another very different is recognizing the need to undergo a powerful conversion and to open their soul to the Holy Spirit’s guidance to secure an inner conversion!” (Wow)

Shortly after the end of the last Mass, the announcement came of the death of our beloved Mother Mary Angelica of the Annunciation. It occurred to me that while she was ready to depart on this glorious day of the Ascension, I was praying a storm! Obviously, her death was an extraordinary event for many of us. I have always felt very close to her because we share some names. Example: her Baptismal name was Rita Antoinette. Her religious name was Mary Angelica. My Baptismal name is Maria Antonieta of the Angels!!! She had a great story regarding St. Therese of Lissieux for one of her healings. I also was visited by St. Therese at age 2, according to my maternal grandmother. I also believe that physically, our faces as young kids have some similarity!!! It is weird for me to even write it here!

 

Besides these coincidences, this particular March 27 was the birth date of St. Teresa of Avila, and this saint was like my idol when I was a little girl because she was loved by my maternal grandma’s family to the point of building a church with her name, in a rural area in Cartago, Costa Rica. Cartago is one of the provinces in Costa Rica. Mother Angelica and St. Teresa were extraordinary people within the Catholic Church. St. Teresa walked up and down her country, Spain, in order to found convents as she revamped the Carmelite Order. Mother Angelica has given our Church the most sophisticated means of evangelization of the entire world while defending the Church laws as well!!! Plus, St. Teresa suffered many illnesses, one of them being paralyzed and by a miracle she was able to walk again (similar to a Mother Angelica’s health problems as a young nun). She was also persecuted within the Church!!!

Within two hours of the announcement of Mother’s death, I suddenly felt that it will be Mother Angelica, my intercessor to restore my health and one day, maybe this miracle will be used to start her canonization process. I then remembered her severe trial of not being able to talk since 2002, had produced extraordinary fruits for the growth of this gift of God, EWTN in several languages!!!!! She, singlehandedly and with her faith, is the foundress of the world’s largest religious media network with about 264 million households worldwide. Only God could have done it through a servant that said, “yes” like Our Lady did!

Tuesday, March 29

I had to shop at the nearby city where Whole Foods organic store is located. The Lord arranged my time for morning departure to avoid major traffic and did the shopping. In the mean time, EWTN in English and Spanish were running many programs regarding Mother Angelica. On this day, still I had not checked the computer site for EWTN/Spanish to check on the schedule. I came back from the shopping done at 12:15 PM. By the time I placed the items bought in their places, I sat down at 12:30 PM and checked on EWTN in English and it was running one of her old programs from the 1990’s. I went ahead and changed it to EWTN/Spanish and found a LIVE program where they were receiving calls from different people while waiting for the LIVE Reception of the body just released from the funeral home into the grounds of the Shrine of the Blessed Sacrament in Hanceville, AL.

Mr. Jose Maria Corominas who has done programs for EWTN, called Live from Madrid, Spain and told a story about Mother Angelica. In 1997, his small daughter (2 y/o?) was diagnosed in Miami, FL with a rare virus which usually leaves negative challenges for the patient like being unable to do any sports. In the mean time, his mother was visiting Alabama and EWTN headquarters and where Mother Angelica was residing at the time, and she spoke to Mother regarding the state of health of the little girl, and showed her a photo. Mother closed her eyes, touched the photo and prayed for the child. Later on, Mr. Corominas’ mother called him to ask for the status of the baby. Well, the child’s health had changed radically. His mother told him about the prayer and they compared the times when the prayer was said and the child’s betterment and they were the same. Now the young woman is 18 and is her school’s swimming champion!

I immediately knew that my shopping time for Whole Foods had to be arranged and that my turning into EWTN/Spanish had to be precise for me to hear the story, some 48 hours after I had felt that she would also intercede for my health issues. Had I found EWTN/English already showing the events LIVE of the reception of her body into the convent to spend time with her beloved Sisters and Companions, I would have left it there and never check the other channel. As always, I felt how the Lord handles my schedules to live His will according to the needs of my soul, and how He can be so exact, so loving as a shepherd loves his sheep, that only His mercy could explain my tuning in to know this story and increase my faith for her powerful intercession! These events left me for an entire hour with a sense of gratitude to God for being so faithful. I also realized the importance of constantly checking His holy will for me in order to keep schedules so tight as the one just described… and not miss important moments to help me grow in my conversion to TRUST HIM REGARDLESS OF ANYTHING ELSE and to take care of some of His souls.

Thursday, March 31

 

It was a beautiful day for my spiritual growth. EWTN in Irondale and EWTN in Hanceville kept showing pieces of the life and talks of Mother Angelica and they did a superb job… God bless them. They prayed Rosaries for her, a Holy Hour in Irondale, a Vigil prayer in Hanceville with her body present, and all showed the faces of many priests already present to be tomorrow in her funeral. I do not think that any President of this U.S.A. after death has produced so much commotion in the souls of people; of course, in her case she is touching the souls of people in the entire world in the millions…!!! The early Mass at Irondale was offered for her and Fr. Dominic’s homily was excellent. In his prior years before his present studies in Rome, he would easily use the homily to complain about those who were against the Church in whatever ways and I usually had trouble extracting any use for me with his homilies. Now, he sounded terrific…

 

The programs of this day reminded all of us of the serious problems that Mother Angelica had with some Bishops and how at one point the USCCB wanted to start this Catholic media network but Mother Angelica aided by God, was able to do the impossible in humans terms. So, today during one of the Rosaries prayed for her soul, I clearly understood why the Lord chose her versus the USCCB. Of course, Satan is simply very good at mediating chaos in anything that has to do with Jesus’ Gospel and its preaching worldwide. And the Lord did it using Mother Angelica and not the Bishops, not because they were not capable but because Mother Angelica had been prepared 1) by carrying so many crosses and 2) with some 40 nuns or so behind her (do not know the number of nuns) who were adoring Jesus day and night exactly at EWTN headquarters!!! Prayer of this kind, constant and representing great love for Him PLUS Mother Angelica’s crucifixion with so many sufferings, left Satan without a chance… We do not know of any heavy fights for power over the network by any of her priests or nuns!!! With the USCCB, I am sure that there would have been subtle fights for power in the decision making sphere for the network due to Satan’s intervention with many temptations without the help of a body PRAYING for the network!!! And they would be lacking one member suffering like Mother Angelica, since their duties as Bishops would basically negate this opportunity. It was so clear for me as I prayed the Rosary with thousands of people all over the world!!!!

 

Today, I was also reminded of the problems that Mother Angelica had with a Bishop regarding a few things about the Eucharist. I must report than in my last parish in Ohio, a good parish, during a 40 Hour Retreat, an older local priest and chaplain of a local university, came to talk to us and said, “You do not have to go to confession to receive the Eucharist.” This happened and I heard him around 2005-2006!!!!!!

 

I am glad that this woman who died in Alabama (with only 2% of Catholics) was the perfect servant of God as it was the Bishop who accepted her offer to come and move her still very small group of nuns to adore the Blessed Sacrament and atone for the sins of the mistreatment suffered by the African-American community. Eventually, she was able to kill two birds: atone for those sins and install this huge media network that we know as EWTN. I am also happy that her funeral was planned for tomorrow, April 1, the day that this country knows as “fool’s day.” And YES, SHE WAS A FOOL FOR CHRIST!

During today’s Vespers and Rosary for the soul of Mother Angelica with her body present and open for visitation by the public, I also realized something very interesting… I thought that the presider Bishop of Birmingham would preach the homily but it was Fr. Miguel from the Order of Priests she founded. He did an extraordinary work at it. He placed her with all her faults, virtues and “love” to Jesus as an example of becoming a bastion to be imitated by all present at the Shrine of the Blessed Sacrament and via the Network present in the entire world, so that we all choose to start our journey of recognition of how to follow Him, how to be the perfect servant and allow Jesus to work through us. We have to choose to go to heaven or to hell!!! There is no doubt that Mother Angelica is already praying for her own “babies”.

FINAL COMMENTS

Ever since I have started following the frequent introspection regarding my degree of faith, prayer and acceptance of suffering (FPS) as discussed in the last blog, I found myself having trouble to sin against my neighbor!

 

Examples: 1) When I see in TV Masses, laity who have received Holy Communion going back to their seats to watch around for other people passing by instead of  showing profound adoration for the moment, I find myself saying, “Lord, forgive them for they do not know what they are doing.” In my heart there is no resentment or spiritual discomfort of any kind as I felt even recently.

 

2) When they show sad or disinterested faces during any prayer in Church, I find myself saying, “Lord, forgive them for they are trying their best but they have not been properly catechized!”

3) When a driver passes me forcibly in the expressway close of producing an accident, I find myself saying, “Lord, have mercy on this driver and protect him/her from an accident.”

 

Notice that I wrote, “I find myself” and not, “I try to feel this or the other way…” There is no question that in this Extraordinary Year of Mercy, His mercy is abundant and totally takes care of our not merciful attitudes and old behaviors. But again, notice again that at all times, I find myself checking as to how I am doing His will to the last detail in order not to obstruct His mercy for me or others; I also pray often besides the time dedicated to the Rosary and to TV daily Masses, now that I cannot personally attend them. I also pay much attention to accept all suffering as a treasure for my purification, sanctification and my work as the Cyrene helping Jesus during His daily cross in this world that has lost the taste of His mercy!

I must thank any of you who did pray for me for this blog to see the light. May you have a very blessed Feast of Divine Mercy!

I want to close sharing with you the list of topics discussed in the book, so that your prayer over it may become a merciful shower of graces for me to finish its editing. Notice that I placed the Lord at the end as the Commander who taught me all these medical issues not known very well by the medical profession, like reversing dementia and preventing depression. I did it this way in order not to scandalize the non religious, especially the atheists and agnostics or any other from other denomination. I love them enough (thanks to Him) not to mix God with these findings so not to indispose them in any form. I certainly mention this fact in the prologue of the book, so those who are religious do not have to wait to read the entire book before reading about His love for me and them with the findings of these important health problems.

 

Again, thank you for your prayers and  I am asking the Lord in a public way that any merits/graces coming from the help to many, to be shared with all of you for your important work of interceding that I can finish it, despite my bad health and my sickly left eye, which every so often forces me to rest from writing,  because it affects this eye…

 

LIST OF CHAPTERS

Chapter I – PROLOGUE

CHAPTER II – Dementia in the world today

CHAPTER III – Reversal of personal memory loss

CHAPTER IV- WHAT IS TOXICITY?

 1. Prologue discussing toxicity and its different sources

Our present Toxic Environment and its sources. How toxicity affects our health

 2. Mercury

3. Fluoride

1) Fluoride toxicity and osteoporosis 

2) With regard to soft tissue involvement, studies were presented that dealt with neurological lesions (nerve damage).

3) The Chinese scientists also reported higher infant death rates

4) Fluoride Research and Dental Caries (cavities)
5) Fifty Years of Fluoridation (1945-1995) by Richard G. Foulkes, M.D.

6) FLUORIDE’S EFFECTS ON THE BRAIN and other organs:   (1998)

7) Statement from Dr. Phyllis Mullenix on the Neurotoxicity of Fluoride

8) Information linking fluoride and CNS dysfunction continues in 1998.

9) Fluoride Poisoning

10) FLUORIDE & THE BRAIN: RECENT STUDIES:

11) Fluoride: lowering IQ’s?

12) Fluoride and cavities

13) Brush with Fluoride to Prevent Cavities! (2014)

 

V. ALZHEIMER’S, DEMENTIA AND ANESTHETIC GASES

 

VI. Detoxification process in our bodiesGlutathione and toxic overload

VII. Detoxification for other specific conditions

1) Parkinson’s and possibly autism –

2) Weight gain and difficulty to lose pounds secondary to poor natural detoxification (yo-yo dieting)

VIII. Summary of Internet articles on depression

IX. Depression caused by a food additive – Personal history

X. Findings that helped me through the years

1)   Back pain and anger. Mind Body connection

2)   How I was cured of chronic migraines headaches

3)   Calcium and how to avoid the formation of plaque or renal and biliary stones

4)   How to avoid severe nausea and vomiting after general anesthesia

5)   Herpes virus and its relationship with vitamins

6)   Quick pain relief with a hand held special electric device.

7)   How to stop an upcoming sneeze with acupressure

8)   Imagery  and the plasticity of our brains

XI. The grace and love of God behind my discoveries

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

How to fill up the empty half of the cup of my soul with a frequent short inventory of my spiritual life!

March 1, 2016

In this blog, I will share the way that my Lord has indicated I should live my spirituality, and spiritually being understood as the road to follow in seeking Him at all times to establish a LOVE relationship and not just to look very Catholic in the eyes of the world. In fact, in practicing this way of life, the graces themselves that come from it will protect me from many sins without I even trying… I want to remind you that this is my personal guidance and you are free to adopt it or dislike it. Also, remember that I am not a theologian! However, as I have followed it in the last 2-3 weeks, I have felt a huge difference in how I love more, situations and human beings!!!

As time passes by and our lives change in so many ways, and as our cups (souls) are partially filled with knowledge, experiences, fears, happiness plus great blessings, I wonder if we ever think of how to fill the half or 1/4 of the cup that remains empty? Do we? I suspect that we keep doing the same things, like accumulating possessions of any kind including knowledge of the Bible and preaching the greatness of Jesus in our lives but we never often inspect our interior spiritual status or ongoing conversion!  In general and in recent times, the social media and our controversial political scenario in the U.S., have robed us of the time to meditate in our previous years and where we are now and where God intends us to go as we say “yes” to His will to allow the Holy Ghost to take over the vacuuming of our souls. Distractions come by the millions and with the distractions also comes our tendency to judge and fear, approve or disapprove, like or dislike, to the point that we forget that our passing through this life in the world is rather short and it needs attention in order to become every day a better witness of His mercy!

As I was thinking on the above terms, I realized that there is much said, discussed, opinionated upon and written about our next steps. People bring ideas and plans of how to grow in spiritual terms, but always with words and without a clear witness of living such life. However, we never touch the subject of how to die in peace. Death is not something that we are willing to accept as the most certain event in our earthly journey. Our efforts are usually aimed at retarding death by procuring a better health and hopefully never face leaving this earth. Sometimes, I see God being brought to the forefront but with the idea of saving us from departing. In general, I do not see much progress in spiritually preparing our years left on earth.

The Lord ( and I will Him, “Doctor Holy Trinity”) whose other name is Mercy, has prescribed for me a spiritual treatment, which assesses several times a day, my walk towards Him but always seeking as well the salvation of other souls. So, it is a matter of following His lead as I try to correct my routing and recognizing the stones in my path, like those that Satan, the world and my flesh throw at my passing.

Personally, the treatment of any distractions, fears, major health problems and all that keeps my cup half emptied consists of 3 principal practices. Sure enough, as I agreed to do it, I invited my DOCTOR to TAKE OVER and this opened the door of my soul to receive the guidance of the Holy Ghost within, and hearing Him, understanding Him and having the courage to proceed in each instance LIKE NEVER BEFORE. It has been a wonderful 2 weeks of learning how to fight the exterior and interior forces that try to derail my journey and keeps the half cup (soul) empty/dirty. In the process I was sent to read a page in my first floor Bible. It had to do with 2 Maccabees, chapters 6 and 7, where Israel was being persecuted (as we are today as Catholics) and God’s mercy changed everything and exactly what we should expect happening in this special “Year”…It gave me much hope!

After this Bible teaching received on February 26, I will give you following the calendar sequence, a few stories of the events that I encountered and that made me recognize His Presence around me and within my brothers and sisters. The experience of His Presence in so many ways helped me to remain faithful to the frequent daily inspection of my soul/engine. Doing so, I have noticed a sense of love for others deeper than before, whether they are my enemies, or if I do not like their behavior or if they are my friends. This is the grace of God protecting me from reacting to distractions caused by my own dislike of people or by my desire to change them, or my reaction with resentment or fear. The love I feel for them cures the possibility of negative feelings on my part. It happens that through His Plan of treatment to help me grow, I have become merciful as my Father in heaven is! You will see that later ashown in how I treated two people who came to my door to sell me their beliefs as Jehovah Witnesses! I was surprised at my own behavior. I realized that Jesus and I had opened the door to offer them love. Again, His Presence was awesome!

As mentioned above, I will start with MANY Biblical quotes because the Holy Spirit wants it that way in this Year of Mercy…!!! You shall see how important God’s Mercy in the Old Testament was.

From the two BOOKS OF MACCABEES – I will summarize the general story of Maccabeus which means hammer, for those like me not instructed well in this section of the Old Testament, and finally conclude with the exact section that I was sent to on February 26 and that started it allà about the power of His Mercy!!!!!! We have to discover the power of His love by the way He is merciful to us!

General historical data copied from two different Catholic Bibles and identical summaries:

“1 Maccabees was written about 100 B.C. in Hebrew. We only have the pre-Christian Greek translation. The author probably a Palestinian Jew is unknown. His purpose in writing is to record the salvation of Israel (like the salvation we need in 2016), which God worked through Mattathias, especially through his three sons, Judas, Jonathan and Simon and his grandson, John Hyrcanus. The doctrine expressed in the book is the customary belief of Israel, without the new developments which appear in 2Maccabees and Daniel. The people of Israel had been especially chosen by the one true God as His covenant-partner.  HE IS THEIR ETERNAL BENEFACTOR AND THEIR UNFAILING SOURCE OF HELP. The people, in turn, MUST BE LOYAL to HIS EXCLUSIVE WORSHIP and must observe exactly the precepts of the law He has given them. (There is no doubt that these chapters show us how WE ALL ARE CREATED AND CHOSEN FOR A PARTICULAR JOURNEY TO CONVERT SOULS AND LEAD THEM TO SALVATION IN JESUS CHRIST. The question then is how much attention we pay to our particular duty as willed by God, without us trying to do our own work even if it is not exactly what we were created for?).

“2 Maccabees like the preceding one, receives its title from its protagonist Judas Maccabee (or Maccabeus), and it is not a sequel to 1 Maccabees. The two differ in many respects. Whereas the first covers the period from the beginning of the reign of Antiochus IV (175 B.C) to the accession of John Hyrcanus I (134 B.C.), 2 Maccabees treats of the events in Jewish history from 180 B.C. to 161 B.C.  Of theological importance are the teachings on 2 Maccabees of the resurrection of the just on the last day, the intercession of the saints in heaven for people living on earth, and the power of the living to offer prayers and sacrifices for the dead. “(Wow… Love this last part. It offers so much history of our own practice in our Catholic Church).

As I reviewed later these readings of 1 and 2 Maccabees in a different  older Bible, I found out that I started reading it on January 20, 1996 (20 years ago). And I had discovered in 1996 how much it talks about the mercy of God and so I wrote in the areas that it does so. I will try to quote several short verses that bring the mentioning of God’s mercy like no other section  in the Old and New Testaments…

CHAPTER ONE OF 1 MACCABEES:  “The Maccabean revolt: After Alexander died, his officers took over his kingdom, each in his own territory. “There sprang from this sinful offshoot, Antiochus Epiphanes, son of King Antiochus in the year 137 B.C. In those days there appeared in Israel men who were breakers of the law and they seduced many people saying, ‘Let’s go up and make an alliance with the Gentiles around us…’; some among the people promptly went to the king and he authorized them to introduce the way of living of the Gentiles… They covered over the mark of their circumcision (similar in semblance to our Baptism); they altered and abandoned the holy covenant (Exactly what we have seen happen in our land in the XX C up to today!)

“Antiochus proposed to be king of Egypt. He invaded Egypt with a strong force and Ptolemy was frightened at his presence and fled. After Antiochus had defeated Egypt in the year 143, he returned and went up to Israel and to Jerusalem with a strong force. He insolently invaded the sanctuary and took away the golden altar, the lamp stand for the light with all its fixtures, the offering table, the cups and the bowls (etc.) (Verse 25) And there was great mourning for Israel in every place where they dwelt and the rulers and the elders groaned.  (29) Two years later, the king sent the Mysian commander to the cities of Judah and he came to Jerusalem with a strong force. He spoke to them deceitfully in peaceful terms, and won their trust. Then he attacked the city suddenly, in a great onslaught, and destroyed many of the people in Israel….

“Then they built the City of David with a high massive wall and strong towers, and it became their citadel. There they installed a sinful race, perverse men… storing up weapons and depositing their plunder they had collected in Jerusalem. The citadel became an ambush against the sanctuary, and a wicked adversary to Israel at all times, (27) and they shed innocent blood around the sanctuary; they defiled the sanctuary. Because of them the inhabitants of Jerusalem fled away, and she became the abode of strangers. She became a stranger to her own offspring and her children forsook her. (39) Her sanctuary was as desolate as a wilderness; her feasts were turned into mourning, her Sabbath to shame, her honor to contempt, her dishonor was as great as her glory had been, and her exaltation was turned onto mourning. (I sense that this could be compared to what we have seen happened to our Catholic Church in the XX C).

(Prohibitions against Religion) (41) “Then the king wrote to his whole kingdom that all should be one people, each abandoning his particular customs. All the Gentiles conformed to the command of the king, and many Israelites were in favor of his religion; they sacrificed to idols and profaned the Sabbath (Ouch!). (In verses 44-50 there is a list with all the prohibitions against religious practices). (Verse57) “Whoever was found with a scroll of the covenant, and whoever observed the law, was condemned to death by royal decree. Women who had their children circumcised where put to death, in keeping with the decree, with the BABIES HUNG FROM THEIR NECKS; their families also and those who had circumcised them were killed. (62) But many in Israel were determined and resolved in their hearts, not to eat anything unclean; they preferred to die rather than to be defiled with unclean food or to profane the holy covenant; and they did die. Terrible affliction was upon Israel.

1 Maccabees 4:24 – ”As they (Judas and army) returned (after winning the war against Antiochus), they were singing hymns and glorifying Heaven, ‘for He is good, for His mercy endures forever.’

(Below are the readings, which I was led to on February 26, 2016, in page 512 of my Bible in the first floor)

2 Maccabees Chapter 6 – (Verse 6) – A man could not keep the Sabbath or celebrate the traditional feasts, nor even admit that he was a Jew.

(Purpose of Divine Judgment) (Verse 12) – “NOW I BEG THOSE WHO READ THIS BOOK NOT TO BE DISHEARTENED BY THESE MISFORTUNES, but consider that these chastisements were meant not for the ruin but for the CORRECTION of our nation. (I love these words; they can be applied to our times and not to become disheartened.)  It is, in fact, a sign of great kindness to punish sinners promptly instead of letting them go for long. (Verse 14) Thus, in dealing with other nations, the Lord patiently waits until they reach the full measure of their sins before He punishes them; but with us He has decided to deal differently, in order that He may not have to punish us more severely later, when our sins have reached their fullness. (Wow… His mercy has no limits!) HE NEVER WITHDRAWS HIS MERCY FROM US. Although He disciplines us with misfortunes, He does not abandon His own people. LET THESE WORDS SUFFICE FOR RECALLING THIS TRUTH. Without further ado we must go on with our story.

(Verse 18)  “Eleazar, one of the foremost scribes, a man of advanced age and noble appearance, WAS BEING FORCED to open his mouth to eat pork (Basically as EWTN is being forced to pay for the insurance for its employees to cover birth control pills and abortions on demand). But preferring a glorious death to a life of defilement, he spat out the meat, and went forward to his own accord to the instrument of torture, as men ought to do who have the courage to reject the food which is unlawful to taste even for the love of life. (In the next verses, those in charge of that unlawful ritual in private suggested to him to give them the right kind of meat he could eat to bring it for him to eat it without sinning; yet, Eleazar preferred death than to leave the impression that he had eaten pork…)

2  Maccabees Chapter 7.

A mother and 7 sons were tortured and martyred for refusing to eat pork.

(Verse 20) – “Most admirable and worthy of everlasting remembrance was the mother who saw her seven sons perish in a single day, yet bore it courageously because of their hope in the Lord. Filled with a noble spirit that stirred her womanly heart with manly courage, she exhorted each of them in the language of their forefathers with these words, ‘I do not know how you came into existence in my womb; it was not I who gave you the breath of life, nor was it I who set in order the elements of which each of you is composed. Therefore, since it is the Creator of the universe Who shapes each man’s beginning, HE IN HIS MERCY, will give you back both breath and life, because you now disregard your selves for the sake of His law.’

(Verse 24) “Antiochus suspecting insult in her words, thought he was ridiculed. As the youngest  brother was still alive, the king appealed to him, not with mere words, but with promises on oath, to make him rich and happy if he would abandon his ancestral customs: he would make him his Friend and entrust him with high office. When the youth paid no attention to him at all, the king appealed to the mother, urging her to advise her boy to save his life. (She went through the motions and when closer to him said in their native language,) ‘Son have pity on me who carried you in my womb for 9 months, nursed you for 3 years, brought you up and supported you to your present age. I beg you child, to look at the heavens and the earth and see all that is in them; then you will know that God did not make them out of existing things; and in the same way the human race came into existence. DONOT BE AFRAID of this executioner, but be worthy of your brothers and accept death, so that in the time of MERCY, I may receive you again with them.

(Verse 30) (The youth refused to obey the Kings command and spoke long to the executioner.  (Verse 37) – “ ‘Like my brothers, I offer up my body and my life for our ancestral laws, imploring God TO SHOW MERCY SOON TO OUR NATION, and by afflictions and blows to make you confess that HE ALONE IS GOD.’ (Verse 40)Thus he too died undefiled, putting all his trust in the Lord. The mother was last to die after her sons.

2 Maccabees Chapter 8 – (Verse 1) “Judas Maccabeus and his companions entered the villages, secretly and summoned their kinsmen and by also enlisting others, who remained faithful to Judaism, assembled about 6,000 men. They implored the Lord to look kindly upon His people, who were being oppressed on all sides; to have pity on the temple, which was profaned by godless men; to HAVE MERCY ON THE CITY, which was being destroyed and about to be leveled to the ground; to hearken to the blood (In 2016, the blood of aborted babies) that cried out to Him; to remember the criminal slaughter of innocent children (aborted babies) and the blasphemies uttered against His Name, and to manifest His hatred of evil.

(Verse 5)ONCE MACCABEUS GOT HIS MEN ORGANIZED, THE GENTILES COULD NO WITHSTAND HIM, FOR THE LORD’S WRATH HAD NOW CHANGED TO MERCY. (Wow) He captured strategic positions and put to flight a large number of the enemy.” (End of Biblical quotes)

I was amazed to see how similar this story is to our present days. It only suggests that some humans fall into the same ways of denying God and the consequences that come with it… You could place instead of the word temple, the Roman Catholic Church, and next to word Israelites who never denied the law of God, all of us who want to keep the Commandments. YET, AT THE END, GOD’S MERCY TOOK CARE OF THEM… Therefore, our present work is to keep worshiping our God in every way stipulated by His law and the temple rules (The Catholic Church) as we expect His mercy to bless us.

STORIES ACCORDING TO THE CALENDAR SEQUENCE

Wednesday, February 3

I needed to purchase some food and it meant to drive to another city’s organic health food store and to the nearby Target store. I usually ask the Holy Spirit to lead the way and do only what He wants me to do. I do it for two reasons: because my flesh wishes may take me to be tempted with people that may make me upset, like cars that try to move in front of me at 65 miles per hour and with no enough space to do it… I also do ask God for guidance because He may have customers for me or He wants to show me how much He loves me by the way some help me… BUT THE MAIN REASON THAT I ASK THE HOLY SPIRIT FOR GUIDANCE, is because I want to exercise my yes to His will… which is the key to my building my love relationship with Him. That early morning I heard a Hispanic priest say that for God to act immediately in our affairs, I only need the faith that God will solve all problems in the most perfect time. (Read the story below and you shall find an example!)

I prayed the Holy Rosary with EWTN/espanol and by 9:50 AM I felt certain to leave for the health food store. On this date, the fruits of always following the guidance of the Holy Spirit were clear: I found an organic hot tomato sauce with garlic that my son loves to put over the fish pieces I also get at this store. I had been looking for this item everywhere, including this store without any luck. On this day, without me knowing about it, I walked through an aisle and placed my eyes on the very bottom shelf and voila, they were there, tons of jars. These moments are always full of awe, love for God and happiness to see how He solves all my problems and while I still had a couple of unopened  jars at home… I also bought 3 cupcakes for my son which he likes very much, to eat one after dinner. As I finished my shopping and came to the car, I asked Him for guidance if I could stop at Target (needed some Evian water which has the least amount of fluoride and sells with the better price at this store…).

In route to my city I remembered that I needed a special sugar called Ribose. It is this sugar taken with Co-enzyme Q10 that produces a chemical called ATP, the source of energy for every cell in our bodies… Anyone who is tired all the time should take these two products twice per day, in order to feel full of energy by the third dose or so. I asked for permission to stop at this other health food store in between the previous one and my home. I was led to proceed. I had shopped there just the day before and forgot to get ribose. I went in and another customer passed me in order to open the door for me…and I got the product and the manager of this store saw me line to pay and she opened another register just to take care of me and with tons of smiles. This was another hint that my Lord was shopping with me and wanted me exactly there at that moment in time. It was by then close to 11 AM, and in that area the traffic is brutal at lunch time. If I had thought about it while at home, I would have avoided going there on this particular day.

Then I went back to the expressway and again asked the Lord about stopping at Target or not. Lunch time in this shopping center is also crazy and finding a place to park is impossible. As I approached the Target area, I exited the expressway and felt that if He would find me a good parking, I would stop. If not, I could not walk a long distance to enter the store. As you may have read before, I do that in cases where I am passing during the lunch time. I did not find a space as I went through several rows of parked cars and with many other cars doing the same in front of me. Some 5 minutes later I decided to leave and bingo, the space of the first row right in front of Target was empty!!!! He did it again!!!  This is the type of merciful action that He uses to make feel loved!

Thursday, February 4

It was early in the afternoon and I needed to go just to put some gasoline in my car. I could not do it the day before because I had done much and my knees were complaining. I went to this Chevron nearby gas station. A woman about 35 y/o, was about to fill out her own car. She left it going and ran to me to help me with my own car!!! She left me to disconnect her own car and pay. She ran back to me again and asked how much I wanted in… I said $30.00. She disconnected my car when it got to that amount and I thanked her a lot. There were no more cars waiting for us to leave. So, I told her that I had a gift to give her for her and mentioned about how to reverse memory loss. She was super interested and told me that she is a registered nurse in route to the hospital to work. I then also mentioned how the thickener of food, carrageenan, can give depression to some of us, especially because in her job she can find many patients that could be helped with this information. She was even more interested and knows of someone with depressions that have been hard to treat!!! Tana and I became friends. God had done it again!!!!

After filling the car and full of joy and thanksgiving, I was given permission to go to a nearby place to buy a special tape needed in our home. As I was walking to the front door of an ACE hardware, a man ran to me with a cart!!!! It is easier to get a cart even if I am not going to buy much because it helps my knees much more than just walking with a cane.

As I arrived home, the mail carrier was arriving and I know him. He is Filipino and Roberto came all the way to my garage to give me the mail. He mentioned how he is losing his memory!!!!!! I gave him the short teaching in how to reverse it… He was fascinated!!!! I promised to leave for him the entire story of how to do it and asked if he had an email that I could send it to. He said that his kids have a computer but that he is not good at using it. Three days later, I left for him 20 pages about how toxicity produces memory loss and could produce Parkinson’s as well, in case he ends up with the problem. About 2 weeks later, I ended up diagnosing a priest  and guest in one of EWTN’s nightly programs who presented himself as having short memory loss and some Parkinson’s symptoms. It is clear that toxicity is making many very sick. Of course, how I wished I could find this man and let him know about it, because general doctors will never make the diagnosis. And this is one of the reasons that I need to publish the book with so many important points for many people, like my mail carrier and this priest.

Friday, February 5

Close to 12 noon, I had much pain in my knees and some swelling in my feet and a very painful callus has developed under my left foot. By the way, I found out that Co-enzyme Q10 in a higher dose plus Ribose sugar can produce extraordinary diuresis (much loss of urine). So I took it and then asked my Mother what to do about my health problems. Yes, the toxicity in this area where I live with my poor natural detoxification is part of the problem. My son has decided to look for another job far from here and in order to get a less stressful present one, since many of his co-workers call him day and night with questions about the upkeep of their site, even that he has nothing to do with that part of their jobs… Yet, he will answer to them and has no desire to negate his help.

This man was born with a “genius” of a brain as told to me by many of his teachers, including at Notre Dame University. As a Data Base engineer, he is strangely knowledgeable and then consulted by co-workers at any time, any day of the week, etc. The stress is extreme and he wants to find another job. He told me of his plans and he wanted first to pray to know when to start. We are in this phase, waiting for the Holy Spirit to guide him. Your prayers would be appreciated. It will offer me an answer to move out of so much environmental petro-toxicity. 

At 12:40 PM, my Ma came and said, “When you ask about any of your needs, have always in mind that you are more interested in saving souls than in solving your health problems. You seem to forget it! And you proceed to forget the finishing the book. Do it for me! (“For you?” I asked)

O.L.: “Well, maybe you will care more and really finish it. Then I will pray that you can do it soon. You are home wasting time. Your health is getting worse by the day! Once I pray to God to help you with the book, AND IF YOU DO IT for the good of others who need the information, then your maladies will get better. Yet, you must get serious and work to finish it. Heaven is waiting for this book with ideas and solutions for the human race. Remember that your findings were given to you by God Himself. It is His material that you should publish. It is not yours!!! It will be an act of Mercy from God to His people through you and especially in this Year dedicated to His Mercy. Otherwise, just praying for your health will not work because you are not obeying the second most important Commandment, which is your first duty. Each month, work 3 weeks for the book and one week for the blog. Again, finishing the book is the key for your physical well being. Be sure that you examine the use of your free time and avoid wasting it.” 

I asked for some Biblical confirmation of what I had heard and I received this: John 13: 34-35 – 14: 7, 10 – I give you a new commandment: love one another. As I have loved you, so you also should love one another.  This is how all will know that you are my disciple, if you have love for one another.”  If you remain in Me and My words remain in you, ask for whatever you want and it will be done for you. If you keep My commandments, you will remain in My love, just as I have kept My Father’s commandments and remain in His love.”

John 14:21 – “Whoever has My commandments and observes them is the one who loves Me. And whoever loves Me will be loved by My Father, and I will love him and reveal Myself to him.”     

There was no doubt that I had lost the way and did not love my brothers and sisters more than my own interests and well being! I was remorseful and asked for His pardon.

Saturday, February 6

My son suddenly became very sickly. I knew that it was a bug (bacteria) but from what food? At one point, I thought of the meal he had on this day for lunch in a restaurant. However, one does not get that sickly in just 2-3 hours, since by 4 PM he was deadly ill. Eventually we suspected of the plain cupcakes that I had bought at the organic health food store. We made it to Mass on that Sunday but he was only able to eat some soup all day.  He was so nauseous that I wondered if he had had the symptoms of a small stroke… One cupcake was still there. On Monday Feb. 8 he stayed home. Wednesday he was feeling fairly O.K

 

Thursday, February, 11

 

With great difficulty I went to Mass to offer it for a dear friend, on his birthday and to honor my Mother as she appeared in Lourdes. After Mass, I threw away the cup cake that was left but thought: "Hmm, what about if it was really the cupcake or something else going on in his brain?" I decided to eat the cupcake and I almost died…!!!!!!! Since I am allergic to gluten, I expected a mild diarrhea, but instead, I had the very same symptoms that he had shown a few days before. Yes, the cupcakes were the culprits… By Sunday, February 14, there was no way for me to attend Mass. Yet, at least I knew that it was a bug… And at least I was feasting with the Holy Father’s many talks in Mexico and Live Masses…

 February 12 to 17 – Pope Francis visited two countries: Cuba for a few hours and Mexico for 6 days. The trip to Mexico was a dream for me because I was able to hear him speak Spanish at all times and translations are never the same. The Hispanic TV station Univision had their own people in Mexico and they reviewed many stories about each city.

He spoke with great wisdom and the Holy Spirit was truly speaking through him. The Seat of Peter has a great representative. I have copied all his words that appear in the Vatican site and I will study them, in order to remind myself of what the Holy Spirit said through Pope Francis.

I have being led to ask for Mercy for everyone who has contributed to create this empire in the Internet of sites that allows reviewing anything and everything that we like and need to study for our own spiritual benefit.

The Univision Mexican crew gave us much insight of the different cities and Bishops and Dioceses involved in his trip. For example, they said that some workers will earn $7 per day! What an atrocity! The stories of why Mexico does not have an official religion came to be reviewed, all tied up with the work of the Masons which came to this country at the end of the 1800’s. In fact, A few years ago, I wrote a lot in a blog on this problem of Masons and the persecution of Catholics in no less and no more than in the country of Our Lady of Guadalupe, the most famous and first apparition of sorts of Our Lady in the entire world.

Monday, February 15

It was while I saw the Holy Father’s travels through Mexico that I understood so much more. On this day, the Mass was in Tzotzil, in the State of Chiapas with a huge crowd of Indigenous communities, followed by his visit to a children’s hospital in the Diocese of San Cristobal de las Casas. The children were the same that I have anesthetized in my professional practice. They were mostly in treatment for cancer. They accepted the visit of the Pope with great happiness, ignoring completely their own health issues (A great lesson for me).

It was at 9 AM and during the Mass that suddenly I was moved profoundly and said to my Father, “¡Papa tea mo! Ayúdame a ser tu verdadera hija y enséñame a seguir Tu voluntad como nunca antes, esto es, con gozo y certeza que me amas y quieres sólo lo mejor para mí. Te amo, Papito! (Translation: “I love You, Dad. Help me to be your true daughter and teach me to follow Your will like never before, that is, with joy and certitude that You love me and want only the best for me. I love You, Daddy.”)

At 9:15 AM and just before the Consecration, my Mother came and said, “You need to know three things: FOS or FPS in English… 1) FE – Faith, which means TRUST in His love and blessings for you and certainty without any fear that His will is the most perfect gift you will receive. 2) ORACION – Prayer with the celebration of the Mass, and abundance of the prayer of the Rosary and the Chaplet of Mercy asking for His mercy. 3) SACRIFICIO – Sacrifice composed of suffering with present health problems and any other problems.

Towards the end of the Mass at 9:30 AM, I received a page to check in the Bible, 788, Isaiah 7:9b. “Unless your faith is firm, you shall not be firm.”

At 11:15 AM, I was in the kitchen cleaning dishes when I heard that  FOS (or FPS), must be lived surrounded by a feeling of gratitude, of thanksgiving, and this practice will fill what it is still empty of the cup (soul) in my life.

At I PM (my time and 3 PM Mexico time), Pope Francis went to the Cathedral to visit with the elders and sick people.

Later he visited a stadium in Tuxtla-Gutierrez in the State of Chiapas and he received different family groups. A 14 year old boy, Manuel, had lost his muscle power since age 5. He suffers from muscular dystrophy. The young man could not hold the paper with the words to be said to the Pope and his parents knelt next to his wheel chair to hold it for him! The young man spoke very well and said that his incapacity was aimed at teaching other young people that God exists!!! He looked radiant, full of grace as he said such words. Even the most humble people who spoke, did it with profound truths.

Thursday, February 18

I was still mesmerized by the words of Pope Francis and how I have to keep doing what will fill the half empty cup of my soul. His visit to Mexico was a show of the Holy Spirit for these end times. I learned that the government of the country of Mexico has no religious affiliation!!!  Yet, knowing that it was due to the Masons that the Church received a horrible persecution since the early XX C, I could see the thousands of people coming to be with the Holy Father and just as Our Lady of Guadalupe did when she appeared four centuries before and millions converted in short years. I am more than certain (my own opinion) that she was behind the people that helped the Holy Father plan this trip choosing the different groups that he addressed in only 6 days, plus giving him stamina to make it… It was a true miracle…

This truth made me think that yes, our Mother is also behind my call to CONVERT, TO CHANGE by doing something so simple. On this day the section on Faith was explained to me considering all what it means: 1) Doing the will of God; obeying His commandments no matter what, especially those of loving God and neighbor. 2) Prayer is essential not only for others but for my need to “see” and “hear” and have the courage to work on my soul to become malleable to God and His designs for me for the good of the Church and to give Him glory. This has to be a clear mandate on a daily basis as I ask for His mercy. 3) Suffering is essential for my own purification and to expiate for my sins and those of the whole world united to the suffering of Jesus, with the offering also done to save their souls.

Saturday, February 20

 

The sudden death of Supreme Court Judge Antonin Scalia was another major beautiful strike of God. Pope Francis has talked much about the importance of the family. In Mexico he met with 200 couples. And of course, the death of this very Catholic man showed with great “NEON” lights what a family is all about. His funeral Mass was celebrated by his son, Fr. Paul Scalia, at the Shrine of the Immaculate Conception in Washington, D.C. His 8 other children were there and thousands filled this precious church. The Mass was carried by EWTN, CNN and Fox.

 

His son gave us the most extraordinary homily that moved me and many others. From the very beginning it was Christ-centered and his father’s extraordinary work as a Supreme Court Judge for 30 years, was never put first or to make much talk about it. His homily was TOTALLY FILLED WITH THE HOLY GHOST…Some members of CNN and Fox became hysterical with the homily (one of them is Hebrew); they commented the wisdom and beauty of Fr. Scalia’s words. I also could not believe what I had heard… I know that all the Judges from the Supreme Court present must have been touched… It will help them make fair decisions… now that the Court is divided after his death with 6 conservative and 6 liberal Judges.

 

Saturday, February 27

 

The front door bell rang and then someone knocked and usually I do not open because of many cases where vandals come and kill the person answering. I looked through the little hole in the door and saw a man with a big hat. He looked older and then I decided to open. It was a couple in their 60’s and trying to give me a card inviting me to attend a meeting where the death of Christ would be discussed. I listened to them with GREAT PEACE… I then asked what denomination they belonged to and they said that they were Jehovah’s Witnesses.

 

I felt a PROFOUND LOVE FOR THEM AND SPOKE LIKEWISE, saying, “I am a Roman Catholic all the way to Rome. It is obvious that your beliefs and mine differ much, but thank you so much for coming!” The lady was smiling from ear to ear and super happy. The man seemed also touched and they said good-bye. I was left totally taken by my own behavior. It is obvious that I had nothing to do with this love. It was Jesus” love for them and using me to deliver it. In other similar occasions in my 40+ years in this country when I opened the door to Jehovah witnesses, I was left with some resentment and never felt love for them. But I remember that they would attack me with words trying to make me fight about Bible truths. As they left, I would be furious. This time it was different! Love was present on my side and produced love in them to respect my wishes.

 

Sunday, February 28

 

The Oscar’s took place on this evening and it was very interesting!!! The best movie, Spotlight, was about the story of the abuse of children by priests that went on in Boston, Mass and covered up by the Cardinal in charge of this Archdiocese. Interesting that the Passion of the Christ was never even mentioned at the Oscar’s of 2004. Yet, this movie was chosen as the best!!! This was a big triumph of Satan since in years to come the movie will keep this major sin of our Church refreshed in the mind of many, more so with winning the Oscar. BUT, the BEST ACTOR Leonardo DiCaprio said at the very end of his acceptance speech, short words about Pope Francis and how the Holy Father asks us to have faith and love for others!!! Recently, this actor visited the Holy Father and of course, both want to protect the environment. However, he did not have to mention the Pope in his accepting speech for his Oscar. Pope Francis is right now so well received by most people in the entire world, that DiCaprio’s kind words will help those who see Spotlight, with the hope generated by this Pope’s worldwide acceptance. It is interesting that today, many have talked about this actor and re-play his speech but they cut his words about Pope Francis!!!

 

FINAL COMMENTS

 

You may ask why did I quote the 2 books of Maccabees so much? I understand that the Holy Spirit insisted in me doing so to underline the deep emphasis that God’s mercy had for the Israelites. Even more important is to see how they so often prayed to God for His mercy after having so many problems with their enemies, and how Judas Maccabeus was able to conquer all the enemies and bring peace to the Israelites. The author’s words are so full of meaning… Again, let me repeat what was read before:

 

(Purpose of Divine Judgment) (2 Maccabees 6: Verse 12) – “NOW I BEG THOSE WHO READ THIS BOOK NOT TO BE DISHEARTENED BY THESE MISFORTUNES, but consider that these chastisements were meant not for the ruin but for the CORRECTION of our nation.” What a beauty for us to read them in our present times…

 

It is also necessary to insist in remembering these two books of Maccabees in order to expect that as this year goes on, that we believe in how God’s love for us shows up as acts of mercy over us, and that when we pray the Chaplet of Divine Mercy, we are recalling the power of His love with great faith. 

 

Regarding the way I was asked to practice FPS many times during each day, I will explain how I do it… And remember that I received it on February 15 and by February 27, I already received the Jehovah Witness couple with great love… a first in my life.

 

Right as I wake up, I review what faith means for that moment. Normally, much pain is already felt if I had not taken Tramadol within the 6 hours before to ease the pain. I immediately refuse to question what am I going to do with this enormous pain and instead, I say yes to it because His will is everything for me. I usually thank Him for understanding such truth. Often I used to wonder when this problem is going to end and how little my doctors can help out, especially because all is due to toxicity and most doctors have no idea of what toxicity can do. In fact, in the last two days, they are repeating over and over in the news that they found out that obesity produces some memory loss…  I smile when I hear this so call new “study” since some obesity is due to toxicity, as I have experienced in my life. Let me review it for you and no to forget if you need some day this knowledge.

 

As you may remember, after I bled from a gastric ulcer in August of 2013 and 7 units of blood were given to me, I lost 40 pounds in 3 months without diet and with zero exercise since I was recuperating from these two hospitalizations. Let me explain it better: I had lost 7 units of blood or all my blood volume and replaced it with blood from other human beings, most likely from people who have a normal detoxification activity in their bodies. Those 7 units most likely were pretty free of toxics. My brain received such blood and immediately ordered my fat cells to die… It is clear to me that toxic’s create the necessity in the brain to store fat. Toxicity also produces memory loss and with detoxification, the memory comes back… and in my case, in two languages, since Spanish was gone and it is back 100%.

 

In fact, because of my allergy to foods, I cannot consume what I need for my liver to make enough glutathione, the chemical that detoxifies our bodies. Therefore, within this home located some blocks away from a petroleum refinery and next to a very busy 8 lane expressway (four in each side), I have started to lose my memory in English… I also smile about it because I know that if we move away from so much environmental toxicity and if I get injections of glutathione, I can lose the weight and reverse all my memory problems, and most likely reduce my food allergies or shall I say, “reverse my food allergies”? Once the allergy to the foods that the liver needs to make glutathione is reversed, I could start eating them and also help out by taking Barley Grass, a powder made with the green plant of barley and known as a great detoxifier according to the Japanese Dr. Hagiwara who found this out in the 1970’s; in this way, I would detoxify normally and my memory loss and extra weight could be just history. Of course, it seems that obese people lose their memory more often than normal weight people; yet, both are really caused by toxicity and this is the kind of NEW information that I have for my book to be published…

 

All of these blessings support my faith and I want to do His will just because I KNOW THAT HE LOVES ME SO MUCH! Just to reverse my memory loss is simply the pure mercy from God. So, when I reflect for just seconds on my faith, I know that God exists and loves me so much!

 

Then I can pray for a few seconds and usually consists in telling my Lord how much I love Him; but more than that, I must find the time to pray several Rosaries per day with intertwined Chaplets of Mercy, where I ask my Father to cover me with His mercy.  At times, I end up praying what the Angel of Fatima prostrated himself, prayed to the Blessed Sacrament suspended in the air, in 1916, 100 years ago, and that I know by heart:

 

“O most Holy Trinity, Father, Son and Holy Spirit, I adore You profoundly. I offer You the most precious Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity of Jesus Christ, present in all the tabernacles of the world, in reparation for the  outrages, sacrileges and indifference by which He is offended, By the infinite merits of the Sacred Heart of Jesus and the Immaculate Heart of Mary, I beg the conversion of  poor sinners.”

 

At other times, I simply pray the Our Father or a Hail Mary or both.

 

Suffering the pain in my knees that to do not allow me to go to Mass at the early hour of 8 AM, because I have to arrive one hour earlier to compete for parking space with the members of the school, in order not to park in the huge parking lot that is very far from the church’s main entrance, is immediately offered for my sins and of the many in the world. I also make sure that I say “yes” to my suffering as a great way to offer praise to the Holy Trinity. I have been doing it as stated before, for 14 days and I can see the difference…

 

These three exercises done often during the day, create in me a desire to thank God without even thinking about it and also, I do not wonder too much as to what is going to happen next in my life regarding so much pain. I find myself serving others without even planning on it. When I am in line for a supermarket’s cashier to pay for what I bought, if I see someone with just a few items, I immediately offer to let them go first. It is interesting because by the time I do the shopping here and there, and trying to buy all needed so not to come back… because walking so much makes me ache much more regardless of the pain medication taken close to this event, I still let others go. Last Tuesday, I did it and gave a 60+ year old the chance to go first, and she accepted but as she was waiting for another client ahead to pay her bill, she got out of my basket all my items… It was a huge gift for me… and my knees… Love generates love.

 

On the Hispanic radio, I heard someone say these words, “Si no vives para servir, no sirves para vivir.” Or, “If you do not live to serve, you are not good to live.”

 

There is no question that these three easy ways (FPS) to be practiced all day are full of graces and remind me of my Mother’s actions. She had faith and said yes to the plans of God… She left immediately to serve Elizabeth, her cousin and to bring the Holy Spirit to her and the child in her womb. She spoke the Magnificat and mentioned God’s mercy twice. After Elizabeth gave birth to St. John the Baptist, people around her spoke of the Mercy of God over Elizabeth to allow her to conceive at such an old age…It is clear that the Mercy of God was something of great importance for Israel.  

 

However, the practice of FPS is also of great value in evaluating our faith, our prayer life and how we handle our suffering. As I go through them during each day or if I find myself wondering as to what will be next with these ailments, I immediately confess any transgressions and ask for God’s pardon. All of these steps are filling the empty half of the cup (my soul). It truly works!  And I have to thank God over and over and write about it, because this is the treatment I should follow and it came to be during this Year of Mercy!  

 

P. S.: 1) Thank you to those who pray for me each month. I know that such prayer opens the door of my soul to the Holy Spirit and I feel so liberated, so joyful and peaceful. Please keep praying for me so that I can clean my soul and fill it with the prescription I received this month.

 

2) Our political situation in the U.S. for electing this November our next President is beyond my understanding. Perhaps some of you reading this blog could start filling your soul with the same prescription I received and this way, our prayer could be heard so much faster, so that it is only Jesus Who could do the choosing by moving the people to elect the best candidate. For those who do not live in the United States, please keep us in your prayers. Thank you for doing so.

 

3) I need to finish the editing of the mentioned book full of important information for all human beings. I  need fair health for my bad left eye so that I can finish it as my Lord and His Mother are asking me to do. PLEASE KEEP ME IN YOUR PRAYERS… Thank you so much.